Fear Of Happiness

Written by: RIMA ANIL.NAIK

Happiness is something I always fear, 
To me ,It is far away and never near, 
Patient waiting for over severals years. 
Happiness comes, but  quickly disappears. 

Few days of joy , followed by years of sorrows, 
Will I ever get to see a happy tomorrow? 
I am happy to be sad ,it forms my routine, 
Cant just keep wiping my tears umpteen. 

A moment of joy forces me to worry, 
Any huge sorrow ,to make me teary? 
My tears have dried now and let them be, 
I am happy to be sad , as sad can be. 

Smiles and laughter, not meant for me, 
Darkness and sorrows are my cup of tea, 
I fear happiness , it kills me. 
Life is mourning,and thats it for me.