Not Tonight

Written by: Emile Ackbarali

Been nights when I was in deep clenching physical pain
But not tonight
Nights when I felt so alone and hopeless
But not tonight
Been nights when I could not decide whether I was depressed or enraged
But not tonight
Nights when reality of waiting on a result was too real
But not tonight
Been nights when I was terrified of the next day
But not tonight
Nights when I wanted to help so very much but could not
But not tonight
Been nights when I felt weak and impotent
But not tonight
Been nights when I could not control anything
But not tonight
Nights when everything seemed to have gone wrong with the day
But not tonight
Been nights when I thought that the Earth was against me
But not tonight
Nights when I fully took in the fact that the girl I loved did not love me
But not tonight
Been nights when my heart was so broken that I could cry
But not tonight
Nights when I wished I could let go, but did not
But not tonight
Been nights when I wished someone or something would save me, but alas did not
But not tonight

This night is not perfect, but I am at peace and thankful for it
For I know how nights can be

Thank heavens I am able to know how it is ... right now