I'll Be Waiting

Written by: Derek Chos

Once I had a friend that I could connect with
No matter what
I turned to him

Until I realized that I was being used
Always took
But never gave

Came to him with my pain
But he always twisted
The conversation back to him

Now he weeps upon my shoulders
Do I care?
Guess I'll never really know

And at the center of it all
I know I always said
Come to me if
You've got a problem you can't fix

But I'm feeling real used
Everyone takes
But no one gives
But that's how it works

Friends for life
Such a fancy term
For a liar's game
Show me a friend for life

And I'll be waiting
For my day to arrive
When my dreams come alive
I'll be waiting for that day

Now I have a lover who can't trust me
The same way
That I trust her

She grasps onto the figments of a future
Where all she sees
Is what she owns

But really, I still love her no matter what
Even if she doesn't
Feel quite the same

A right blind fool, I give and give
And they take and take
And hell, that's just fine

And at the center of it all
I can feel the empty
Hole within my heart
Growing larger, I think I like it

I guess I must
I never put up a fight
Maybe I like the pain
Or maybe I really love them

Love for life
Such a noble term
For a liar's game
Show me a love for life

And I'll be waiting
For the day to arrive
When my dreams come alive
I'll be waiting for that day

Once I had a friend that I could connect with
No matter what
I turned to him

Now I have a lover who can't trust me
The same way
That I trust her

Once I had the dream, I had to chase it
And pray the ends justified the means

And now I will shut my eyes
Because I don't want to feel anything anymore