at my point of delusion


At my point of delusion
When it seems all gone
All my fears wash away
Into the torrent of the ocean
I feel at peace
For the first time
I am who I want to be
I am where I am born to be

I fear my dreams
And wish my illusions were real
And in my evasive world 
Reality is my nightmare
A sentence to death be damned
I will struggle to make this my truth

I have but one regret
That my family suffers for my retreat
Hauling away day by day
But who will revive it
I see their rage over my disorder
T’was love that set me apart
And pulled me from reality

But for their sake
I must return back to the world I once knew
I must fight this virus 
That disturbs my mind I must return to you my lovers