Deeper Into Addiction: Just Out of Reach

Written by: Derek Chos

Sweep the empty bottles away
The last remaining drops drip silently out
Lay back against the wall
In some home on the edge of the world

My tunneled vision begins to open
And the blurriness begins clear
My parachute opened 
To pull me out of my free fall

So far away from the world
My addictions fluctuate
My tongue is dry but my head is clear
A smile creeps on my face

But so far away from the world
My addictions fluctuate
My head is clear but my mind is roiling
As it always has done

I know what's gone wrong
My past can't be my present
I'm aware of that all
But through my muddled mind, I can't accept it

Sobriety is just out of reach
Could I just have a push?
All I need is one more push...

And I can be at peace again.