Everday I do it, then exhale its warm
poison. It cools me , lets me think as if
Ididnt have a brain of my own. In the
mist of it all, the world puases for that
moment life unhinges.
splash my mind like waves
and paranioa brushed my goose
bumps as i shiver in its influence and
my sanity sips through the cracks.
I had told myself ''its the last time'', a lie
that to sooth me as this is the only
validation i'l ever need