admirable

Written by: andrew delapruch

does not think of herself first,
for her children are what matter---
would do anything for them &
does not count herself among 
anyone original in this,
figuring that
she put herself in this situation
so she must get through---
she walks with stress that 
most of those around her
(who share nothing like it)
can’t imagine how she does it &
she still finds time to
beat herself up,
because the past creeps in &
it formed much of what she cannot
throw away,
even though, if that one day happened,
she would step into a
much
much
much
deserved place of peace,
which would make sense to those of us
who feel that anything remotely resembling
“justice,”
is of the shortest supply,
that is, if it exists at all
anymore
(did it ever?)---
she is admirable because she keeps it all
together,
she is admirable because though her candle is
burning at both ends,
she will not bend &
she will not break,
for she must stay strong for her children &
men have walked into her life,
leaving her alone & distraught,
and each relationship is
full of strain that bears down on everything else,
but presently she has everything in
a kind of 
balance,
that frankly bewilders those of us who
may never be as strong as her &
so from us what she is due,
can only be the greatest respect,
the greatest admiration,
for she constantly
inspires.