Smiling Tears

Written by: Mia K

Everyday the sun shines

With a new glimpse of hope

that within myself, I hope shall rise...

Standing still on my own

when everyone else is moving on

including this wide world

and I do not know what to do

or even where to go..



Some day, i set a goal and move towards

and others, I just wander around

sometimes I fall, sometimes I reach

but it does not matter

because everyday I live,

every moment I breathe,

there is something new that life

shall always teach..



But I guess I need the will, to find the way

because each day I am just driven away

from my own defined self..

I let people down, as I surprise others,

I break good things, and hold to just what bothers

and at the end, there is no one to blame

because there  is a new thing

that I shall gain..



Could be surrounded by a lot,

but special one is missing,

could have lots of smiles around

but something inside is so depressing..

It pulls me so much into my shell

that it makes me want so much to yell

But no one can hear me still....



Smiling tears filling my eyes,

lots of fears are fold inside

and I just wish 

to get back in time,

when life was bright..

Or even..to find the strength

that shall drive me on, in this mess

and lead me to my self expressed

to the shore of happiness,

to the shore of pleasant and success..



Yet within me,. I am still confused and lost

But for real..

I know I am still blessed....