fall

Written by: joy bohland

Calm ocean if you asked
would say yes.
Not cuz you're wild or hard to resist
or that you make me numb in my fingertips.
But because I feel you pumping in my veins 
and I haven't felt that way since.

He's an untamed horse 
he's a speeding train
he's an obstacle course
he's a summer rain
and I want to make him mine,
God I want to make him mine.

Tried to convince 
me to jump off the ledge
of a 30 foot cliff
but I just couldn't do it.
I'm a quiet day
I'm a book read
I'm a hammock to lay
spitting watermelon seeds

and yes, that's just the pretty way
of saying
I'm afraid of everything.

So while I began to explain
contrasting jagged edges with my delicate frame
not to mention 
the incalculable dimensions 
of the rocks precise size 
hence unclarity of the exact location 
of where I'll land 
and meet either water or demise.
Therefor I decide 
not to compromise
your enjoyment for my life...

But you just grabbed
me by the hand
said 'lets dance'
and we both ran
til our feet touched nothing.
Gravity waited to kick in
allowing us a moment
for one split second.
'This is how it feels to live'
shot through my mind 
like we'd shot off the cliff.
I smiled but I screamed
took you in next to me 
without touch.
You are no fear, no fear, no fear.

Why am I always so afraid?
What is there to be afraid of?
It's only water at the bottom.

Heart beats hard,
its both excited and jarred.
It accuses me
'Why do you do this to me?'
Yet it thanks me
because you're next to me 
and hopes you think I'm intriguing.

And we fall...
and we fall...
and we fall