Secret Me

Written by: Grobb Johnson

My secret self
the other me.
The person only I,
ever get to see.
He won't come out
when you're around
and so shall be
always a mystery.

My secret self
is the one who made these scars.
For when he leaves he leaves his mark.
He takes control
of me in full
and doesn't care
I have to bear
the burden that he leaves behind.
In his wake
the life I make
I must rebuild it every time.

My secret self
is like that moment just ahead
of that wreck that leaves all dead.
With no regard
for those he's scarred
he simply walks on by.
And when he leaves,
he leaves his mess for me.
What a thoughtful guy.

My secret self
he can not create,
he can only take
and he can destroy
everything I make.
With his simple showing of
how he seeks cheap thrills
and always kills,
by pouring gas on everything I love.

My secret self
he will destroy
with the greatest joy
cause he will always be
consequence  free.
For when all that's left
when he leaves.
All that's left
to blame is me.

My secret self
will seldom help,
but always help himself
to what's mine.
Feeding off me like a leech.
How do you hide
from what's inside your mind?

So my secret self and I
will always fight
and he'll never die.
Is there nothing he won't try
that won't scar and maim my flesh?
And for what he's done, someday we'll fry
my secret self and I

But even though I hate myself
I still like me,
more than anybody else.