I left you, not because I don’t love you
I left you, not because I don’t want you
I left you, because I can’t see myself inside of you
Searching for myself, inside out.
Trying to find the feeling that I left far behind when you said that I, was just another friend that you love.
Trying to protect myself from all the hurt, when all I did was, falling straight into the pit of the fire.
I, was trying to mend myself, when you hold the cure to my wounds.
Realizing too late, that I was way too deep into your darkness when you hold the light, exposing all my flaws.
Shining light on the “disgusting” imperfections of myself, the very things that you said that was beautiful before it all fall apart.
All I could think of is why, how, when. But all you said was “I don’t love you no more”
Tearing down all the promises and dreams we had, and the ring, that you once said was mine forever.
I was burning in the hell of my memories, with all the intimacy we had, but you, were blossoming on another girl’s smile.
Claiming her as your sunshine, and your perfect partner.
All it took was 2 weeks to run over 2 years of smiles and laugther and another month to fall into another girls arms.
I am not worth the time, i know.
I am nothing to you now, i know.
But realize this when you took my protection away, I was drenched in bruises and blood as storms and hurricane rages around me.
I built my own home from scratch with all that is left of me, and endure months after months of failure.
I fought through.
So now, I guard my heart with diligence, and listen only to the truth
Built my home on God, with all his love and promises
The one true love that never fail to amaze me
and the one true God, that changed me inwardly
If you ever knock on my door again, I’ll be happy to attend to you
invite you inside, and i’ll make your favourite tea
Protect you from the storms and all the elements of pain
But if your darkness comes again, thats when i’ll escort you to leave
Copyright © Christy Ralph