Seduced
I find myself at a new place in my life,
where the terra firma of my safe, and
known existence, has become a shoreline.
I stand, poised, at the water's edge, its
small, rippling waves, caressing my toes,
beckoning me to enter farther. The
strangeness, and beauty, of this new
place, has had me mesmerized. The
wonder of discovery, is like the excitement
of new love, blinding in its beauty, its very
newness. So ,it isn't any surprise, that I
have thrown myself in, completely, into the
deep, shimmering, moonlit waters, and
have immersed myself completely, like a
woman with her lovers touch.
But, now, the spell is starting to ease its
grip. Now, the doubts and fears, start to
creep into my thoughts. Have I been
foolishly blind? Will I find, that the water is
deeper, the currents hidden beneath the
surface stronger, than my ability to swim?
Will this new lover, suddenly take off the
mask of gentleness and love, to expose
the true monster that was hidden behind?
Aw, cruel doubt! So poisonous, and
insidious! And I am so easily swayed by
your venomous whispers! I have, long ago,
lost the brash over confidence of youth,
and now wish fervently, to have some of it
back again. But, wasting myself on
wishing back the past does nothing, but
build the fears, and doubts stronger. If I
panic, I could drown!
Copyright © Annette Keller | Year Posted 2014
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