Relapse
I loved you from the start;
nothin' ever mattered
but no one could tell me.
I just needed you badly.
So we made our mistakes
and moved on, to a scary place;
Where all I did was bleed
and cry; wish that I would die.
I needed you, cried for you
almost even died for you.
You hurt me, burned me
turned away from me.
I loved you so much,
too much, but hate next.
You understand?
You played me, made me.
Make or break me.
Broken, focused
on all the little things.
Waking up to empty space.
Pain so strong it was easier to hate.
Too late!
Breathe, take a break, try to heal;
get real, you don't deal...
Escape, run away
its all I do anyway.
Duck and hide.
Remember what it felt
to die inside?
Move on, move out
forget what its about.
He's new, he's real
a better distraction than guilt.
Still not enough
but the bloods dried up.
New habits start
while the others die hard...
Love and Lust are not the same
then you realize there's no one to blame.
You've lost, yet another one down the drain.
You're lost, forget it.
You'll never change.
A new way to replace the old
Crystal dragons blowin' smoke
make ya feel bold.
A way out, a new you;
doesn't even matter.
Every time you look around
you grow a little sadder.
Look out, you're all alone
in a world so cold.
Relax, relapse
to a love you've already known....
Copyright © Danielle Cooper | Year Posted 2013
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