You walked with me always.
Not raising the slightest thud of step.
I looked around, looking for you in vain,
You’re smart , hid yourself so clever.
You read aloud form my hush,
To the mob uncaring and revelling,
To the whirlwind, to the falling autumn leaves
To the winter, to the nursing cover of snow,
To the warmth of the summer sunshine ,
And to me as well.
I asked you, hoping to solve the doubt.
You kept mum and away.
I shivered with passion to kiss and hug you,
With malice unique you disguised always.
Still we in course of time derived a strong
Bond in between,
A bond of dependence, of unity.
You at times are like me as I as you
I spoke to my wife, of you rather spooked,
“slightly insane” was her answer.
I looked at my daughters in anguish
They were too busy with homework.
wavering, I told my friend beloved,
“Have a bath to cool off and a drink then”
He was googling to discover wonders.
Went to my mom and siblings,
“Stop smoking, drinking and be fearful”.
Wrote to my publisher to seek relief
“Stop reading and write more to the mass.”
I know you smiling at my agony,
Still a company to me in my shadow.
We are bonded, why need soothing elsewhere?
What to call our relationship?
I struggle hard to find a word to tell it.
A word that has not lost its identity.
A word that still holds its meaning .
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