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DEAR DIARY

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DEAR DIARY

Dear Diary,
It's eleventh day of June, I'm about to celebrate my 18th birthday.
But this morning, I don't wanna go out and face the world.
I'm tired, my Dear Diary... I don't have enough strength to tell them my secrets.
It's you and I who only knew this thing, even mom's not aware of it!
I'm afraid that they may not understand, that they may be wrath or hurt me.
You knew, it's been six years now that we everyday talk about it.
And you're the only one that help me breathe when I suffocate.
Six years of unstoppable nightmare, I still recall.
It was 10:00 PM and mom has gone for a party.
Uncle Joe was left to look after the kids and me.
I woke up when I felt the wind passing through my window.
It's a cold dark night, I tried to shield myself in a blanket.
When suddenly an image of a guy entered in my room.
I closed my eyes so tight,then told myself it's a monster from the dark!
But his footsteps moved towards my bed,until a big hand grabbed my mouth.
I grasp the air then try to shout, aloud but he punched me out.
That was so hurt and caused me weak, until I surrendered to his wrist.
Though weak and helpless I felt the pain...
The deep penetration of his thorn to my flesh.
I was left broken into pieces at my very young age.
The most painful moment when someone broke my life.
A night I couldn't forget 'til today that I've grown.
And this evening, I'll be a princess in  a rose pink gown,
The crowd will sure awe while they watch me dance.
I hope I can have the courage to refuse the last hand.
The hand of my step dad who will be my last dance.
I hope I can tell the world that this guy ruined my life.
That he must pay for killing my flesh every night that mom is out!
But today, It's just you and me,  my Dear Diary.
Who knew all the secrets and the faith that I achieved.





written: May 12,2014
Entry to: Anne Currin's Dear Diary Poetry Contest



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  1. Date: 5/13/2014 10:40:00 PM
    Your story is one of the causes that wake me in the morning and keeps me up at night.. Very powerful and emotional piece. So sad! So determined!

    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/14/2014 7:19:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    WOw.. your statement is real heavy!!! ...THANK YOU, Dave!!! :O)) your words and effort of stopping by my poem is much appreciated ^_^ ..
  1. Date: 5/13/2014 8:23:00 AM
    the thorn image was really superb!!

    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/13/2014 8:50:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    weeew!!! ..this is so inspiring comment ,Andie... esp. now that I'm in the midst of agony.. hehe... lotsa problem.. :O)) thanks for dropping by!!! ^__^
  1. Date: 5/13/2014 8:22:00 AM
    WOW, this is an incredible entry to that diary contest. WELL DONE> (sure hope it was just fiction!!!) luv, Andrea

    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/13/2014 8:52:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    kindly read Brooke's Remove Me Please.. you'll surely melt like an ice cream under the sun... :"((
    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/13/2014 8:51:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    fictionary it is.. but it really happened to most of our girls... and those are young ones.. :O((
  1. Date: 5/12/2014 10:19:00 PM
    Disgusting! Not the diary entry but the episode! What a horrific thing to do to a little Filipino girl. Well, I hope this one is Fiction though. But still, all those little kids who are violated by close acquaintances. What a betrayal to a girl's flesh. This truly ruffles my feathers!!

    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/13/2014 8:58:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Mr. Consentino.. Thanks for dropping by my friend!!! This is not just happening for our filipinas.. but around the world! ..:"O(( and this is alarming... !!
  1. Date: 5/12/2014 6:22:00 PM
    Oh my dear I am so happy this is not true but I want to reiterate what Richard said that this is the ultimate betrayal...Hugs to you and to all families that have to suffer through this.

    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/13/2014 3:21:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you for this kind comment ,Tim!! ^_^
  1. Date: 5/12/2014 2:17:00 PM
    I am glad this was not a personal experience but sad for the thousands of youn girls who have known such pain. This is the ultimate betrayal, the theft of youth and innocence. You expressed this poem with great caring and sensitivity. It was hard to read and yet I was powerless but to read it through.

    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/12/2014 2:24:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you ,Rick for giving my poem a lot of your time... I appreciate your kindness by reading it all through out... you're such a gentleman, I knew it!!! :O))) But too sad, some men don't act like that one.. they act so foolish and dumb!!! thanks for stopping by my friend... :O)
  1. Date: 5/12/2014 12:18:00 PM
    OHH My dear heart.. my heart is broken for you.. I know your pain/... this too happened to me when i was very young .. but my monster was a stupid uncle .. Your poem .. your writing touches some cords in my life.. I choke with sobs for you and me and all the little ones out there are living in hell. great writing my friend hugs Brooke

    Dylan Avatar Brooke Dylan
    Date: 5/12/2014 5:18:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    its called Remove me please...
    Dylan Avatar Brooke Dylan
    Date: 5/12/2014 5:17:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    http://www.poetrysoup.com/poems_poets/poem_detail.aspx?ID=566045 here it is...
    Dylan Avatar Brooke Dylan
    Date: 5/12/2014 3:38:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    THANK you all.. I have written about it.. maybe i will post it.. blessings hugs...
    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/12/2014 2:37:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    this is horrible and yet this is happening all around the world... I'm sorry for this experience... I am really humbled by your comments my dearest friends.. I feel like I've made a little way to express the world what is really going on inside our home.. w/ our families... thanks a lot!!! :'(
    Lamoureux Avatar Richard Lamoureux
    Date: 5/12/2014 2:21:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    This sad tale was part of my families history. My grandmother was raped by an uncle and she had a baby. The baby was raised by her mom and she never knew my grandma was her mother. They grew up as sisters. As a result of this trama 2 generations suffered mental illness in my family.
    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/12/2014 1:38:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    My dear Brooke.. my heart is melting w/ you've written here... I'm sorry... I couldn't say that I'm glad it was not happened to me.. No! .. nobody would love to know that someone has experienced this kind of hell... I'm so sorry for all that you've gone through...Thanks for commenting dear, though I know it's hard for you to remember those thing... :O(((
  1. Date: 5/12/2014 12:07:00 PM
    Well written and heartbreaking. I am hoping this represents a story you have heard or know about rather than have experienced. I am sure it will touch some people, especially any who have been similarly violated.

    de Torres Avatar Aiyah de Torres
    Date: 5/12/2014 1:34:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Jim, Thanks for dropping by!... Yeah this a story of our young ones who were abused and never had a chance to say what's on their heart... I felt them ,and I'd like to be a voice for them... That let the world know about what they are dealing with.. the pain and all fears... I have four little girls, and never wish any child to suffer this kind of hell... Thanks again.. :O))