You know what’s going to happen when I lock my bedroom door
I fall on the bed like a rock and start to cry because I feel so sad
It’s too much for me to endure in the day by day struggle tour
Drowning in my own sorrow and tears after hours I get mad
Begin to wonder how did I get to this point losing all I had?
If I deserve it, how much will I have to take till it’ll be over
He’s not my blood so why do I have to call him my dad
Was a trouble maker all my life, I can’t get no slower
Knock on the door as long you want or have patience
Scream or yell if it makes you feel better or believe it will help
I’m climbing out the window and ask the Lord for forgiveness
After I fall down finally all I ever wanted I will surely get.
The harder I tried to survive and to fight took away my energy
Can’t no longer hide the insane feelings I keep deep inside
4 seconds of flight, 24 years of pain, silence forever for me
I feel disgusted of what I am, problem is I didn’t die, it only awakened me.