Sitting in my room with the headphones plugged in at full blast ... lost in the song I close my eyes shutting out my surrounding.
Transported to the world that was ... I see a stairway, an elevator, a glass door, a fish tank...all in a flash, like a slideshow!!
I see faces . . . faces on the stairway, in the elevator, on the other side of the glass door, faces that are familiar, that are warm.
I scan through them...walking through the glass door across the corridor, coming across more faces...I race towards the staircase clutching to my hopes.
And here on the staircase I stand alone, without hopes, no more silent wishes, with nothing in my heart I close my eyes...I stand there for a moment, a two and don’t know how many more.
There's no sound, am sure the faces aren't following, maybe they don't even see me, yet there's something. . .something that makes me open my eyes...it is a whiff of smoke wafting towards me...a teardrop trickles down my cheek, sliding onto the floor losing itself!
There he is, in a state of carefree abandon, with a cigarette between his fingers, lost in thought oblivious to my presence...
With a smile on my face I walk back into the corridor across the glass door. . .and all the familiar faces nothing but a blur... he's here, gazing at the fish tank...I stand there for an eternity waiting for him to look into my direction...he seems at peace with himself, the slant eyes are soft, almost smiling...I want to touch him but my hand won't move!
He walks out, I follow...he enters the elevator, there are those faces lurking around, still a blur...I want to call out to him, can't find my voice...the door slowly shuts..
No more blur faces around...the stairway, fish tank, the elevator, the glass door all slipping away, melting with the music in my ears...I open my eyes with a start...and here I am in my room again, with the books scattered all over my bed and with him still stuck in my head!!