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Missing

Can anybody tell me how they get over that synonym,
             Missing. 
I am unable to regulate my soul, 
It doomed my thoughts, defeated
my entity, dictated the pleasure's 
off me, to feel the Moment.

Missing, is my unique enemy, 
has haunted me since my 
children left our home, 
dominated my shadow, 
conditioned my brain, 
provoked my tears, 
drowned my vitality, 
created my vindictiveness,  
refusing to be optimistic, 
allowing it to torment my 
darkness, dictated my pain, 
captivated by this unique 
synonym, I sense it's tantrum 
everywhere, how can I omit it? 
anyone can help me? it was always 
there, but I was not helpless, 
I am today. Now

I was born with a heart, I cannot find it, 
I am a bought slave with my own purchases, 
how weak have I gone down the ladder lately, 
how desperate have I allowed to be taken 
for granted by the word Missing, why? 
is aging doing all that? have I become 
so wounded by giving up my strength. 

When I was younger, I had ways to accept, 
to understand, to not allow it to take over 
my few remaining years, I was healthy, 
strong, had aims, was in love, made love, 
I used to go out, now left alone. 
Deserted.

I used to visit my children, I felt alive, 
healthy, even old it did not affect me 
the way it does those days, loosing hope 
of wanting to survive, it engulfs all my 
existence, become so much stronger than 
I am. 
Missing, I am its slave, worst, intentionally, 
allowing it to stab me, it blocks all my doors, 
it imprisons me. I am in prison. Now.
Can someone come and get me?   

I am not drinking, cooking, put make up, 
dress or go out, paralyzed, under its feet, 
no life, I beg like a beggar, I get no answer, 
it destroyed my brain, my thoughts, my surreal, 
destroyed all my tissues, 
negative thoughts are born nowadays, 
weakened my system, my strength 
is drained. 

I am a mother, Oh universe, it leaves me 
breathless, weak, make me strong, I am hungry, 
feed me, I am judgmental, forgive me, no patience, 
angry, I am destroying myself, carry me to the ocean, 
drown me intentionally before I become selfish, 
I stopped being there for my children, I am helpless, 
I need help.
It destroyed who I was, made me despise who I am, 
                              Now.
  
                       Therese Bacha
                          31/5/2013

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  1. Date: 6/22/2013 2:50:00 PM
    "missing" YOU!!!

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/22/2013 3:45:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Andrea, missing you to . I will try and write a poem tonight. Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/17/2013 7:05:00 AM
    I was moved by your heartfelt piece. Well done on your well written pen Terry. AO

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/17/2013 7:43:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hello AO, very long time, hope you are well. Thank you for passing by. Terry
  1. Date: 6/16/2013 4:31:00 PM
    Terry; It hurts me to read this poem, but let me tell you - you are not weak. you are a wonderful strong lady. Just look at me - I am still around. We are never alone. Jesus is always with you. Please believe that. God Bless you always....... Lucilla

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/17/2013 7:18:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Lucy. please don't worry about me, I am fine, you get well first, be strong. Love Terry xoxo It was just for on day.
  1. Date: 6/14/2013 8:55:00 AM
    Terry, This is amazing poetry, and for the mood i believe you wrote this, i can honestly relate to that also, but lets not detract from this your wonderful poetry, this is serious poetry, and i just love it...

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/14/2013 9:04:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Thank you for passing by Harry, I feel so alone, and lonely. I let myself go, needing just one day to stop fighting reality. I will come back to who I was a fighter. Terry xo
  1. Date: 6/14/2013 7:24:00 AM
    If you need desperately help, we all are here to help you. I know now I missed your poems, visiting you for the first time. We all miss you, so you must overcome this moment of desperation and start back to live. You are important to all people you know and also to people you do not know. Now therefore arise!

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/14/2013 9:06:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Mario, it is so considerate of you to take time to feel my pain, and open a closed door for me. I will not let go, as I usual do, and come back out off my clouded thoughts. Terry . Thank yuo so much.
  1. Date: 6/14/2013 12:40:00 AM
    The title of this poem goes with YOU , lovely lady, you are missing and MISSED here.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/14/2013 9:08:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Andrea, I miss you to. I will stay in ouch. Hope your programs at school will allow you to have both, work and pleasure. I will see u tonight. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/9/2013 9:04:00 AM
    i am so moved by this... a searing, glorious write... wonderful stuff to be read and re-read!..:) huggs

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/9/2013 10:07:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi, thank you for passing by, you always pass, its so nice of you. Have a great day. Terry
  1. Date: 6/8/2013 9:13:00 PM
    wow

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/8/2013 9:19:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Yes, its sad, so sorry. A one day loneliness. Terry
  1. Date: 6/8/2013 8:32:00 PM
    When hope seems to abandon you remember you have a God that never will, sometimes its all i can hang on too, a very very traumatic write, i could feel each gut wrenching word, blessings, Carl

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/8/2013 9:11:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hello Carl, I am so blessed to have friends here, Thank you so much Carl, yes I am a real Believer in Jesus, because He made a miracle and saved my son from Cancer five years ago. That day I wrote this poem, I have just lost my second brother to lung cancer, it took just a month, and it was his end. I am so sad, but thank God, I have my 2 sons who embrace me from far by phone. Have a great weekend. Bless you. Terry xo
  1. Date: 6/8/2013 4:12:00 PM
    cont or others like your kids who are close at heart..Life is beautiful..forget about whats missing..remember what you have..love and care.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/14/2013 9:10:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    I will Charmaine, gradually. Hi to princess. Thanks for the email. Beautiful. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/8/2013 4:04:00 PM
    Hi fear friend I migjt be a bit late but.not too late to reach for you and hug you.I explainrd to my mum in law few days ago about this woman whose ageing gracefully..who writes poetry and who inspires me..cause i love to.be so much like her if God bless me with age.I was.referring for you.I saw a lady of 102yrs jumping with a paraschute on the news and it filled me with hope of how nice agring gracefully could beTerry there are people who live next door to their kids but dnt get on well

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/8/2013 6:13:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Charmaine, thank you so much for your concern, I swear I will be fine soon. Love Terry
  1. Date: 6/8/2013 12:20:00 PM
    Hi Terry this is a thought provoking piece, I can sense your deep emotions wrapped inot your words.Just think about all the postitive things you have achieved in the past and start living again. We all have or days...but I felt something deeper in your poem...deep pain, lonliness and regret.Send me an email and lets talk.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/8/2013 6:12:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Christine, i really do appreciate your concern, yes it is deeper in pain, many things are happening in my life at the same time. I will try and soup mail you, as I never did that before. It so generous of you to ask me to email you. Thank you so much. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/6/2013 8:38:00 PM
    Hey T...I too feel blue....mothers day behind me for another year....not being able to have children has left such empty holes..nothing common in conversation or life with other women....I feel from your poem, you are somewhat lonely because I'm sure you are the type of mother who gave a special and different part of yourself completely to each of your children..they now own it completely..leaving you with less than you started with but it is there all around in them and will pass on forever....

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/7/2013 9:55:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Donna, I am so sadden to read your deep feelings of the pain you are going through. If you feel that we have a kind of email relationship, without my imposing on you, leaving it up to you to decide. I would ask from you, send me a soup mail with your private email, as I do not know how to send a soup mail, I can only read them. I would email back my private email. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/5/2013 8:47:00 AM
    - Hope your day is better today, my friend Terry! / / Hugs - Anne-Lise :)

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/7/2013 9:48:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hello Anne, you are so loyal, so affectionate to feel my pain, and ask about me always, when you read my poems. Thank you so much Anne, how lucky I an to have you in life. Your sharing comforts me, because I know you never judge me. God Bless you. I am dealing with my pain, much much better. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/5/2013 4:46:00 AM
    My dearest Terry, you have being through life and have lived to an age not many reach, not that you are that old, NO, but how many young people have left without having your experiences? You and I have lived and we should be thankful, now we have to look inside us , to the pleasures of our souls there happiness and salvation lie! Cheer up for we have more spiritual pleasures to live that up to now we ignored! Your friend Demetrios! Excellent work,7!

  1. Date: 6/3/2013 12:01:00 PM
    Aging is an unavoidable process, if one live up to that. I would tell myself if i have to go through life in a immobile manner, that God has given me space to get closer to him, to understand him, to meditate upon his gracious love and sooth my soul, prepare myself for him to accept me when I reach him one day. God always always love you!Hugs/Hugs/plenty of Hugs

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/3/2013 1:51:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Manel, thank you so much for the advice, I know that so well, but missing my children, gets to my heart sometimes. I am doing great today. Love Terry
  1. Date: 6/3/2013 11:38:00 AM
    - Terry my friend so immensely sad ..... If I had very looong arms I would embrace you and give you the world's biggest hug ..... it feels as if "everything" is over and you've lost all hope .... Sending you lots of good thoughts. - <3 <3 <3 - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/3/2013 1:50:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Dear friend Anne, what i admire about you is you feel so much with me, and your soft words reach my heart, and frankly I fee better. I thank for the arms and a hug, it did help. Today I am fighting back so hard. Much much love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/2/2013 9:49:00 PM
    terry, so sorry I never saw this one yet. I really feel your pain in this one. Soupmail.

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/2/2013 11:29:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Sorry Andrea, nothing serious, just down..don't worry will be back. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/2/2013 2:11:00 PM
    Growing old is not for sissies..It is a very hard phase of life..Teenagers don't even have as much to deal with as the person having health problems that go along with the aging process..Enjoyed reading this one today..Thanks for the visit to my work..That is the congrats..Sara

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/2/2013 2:23:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hi Sara, hope you are doing good. With me nowadays, a little down, nothing major, will stay in touch soon. Love Terry xoxo
  1. Date: 6/1/2013 5:27:00 AM
    You have written an extremely emotional write my friend! You have improved immensely since I first read on of your poems! The first one I read was awesome, now, with this one, it is phenomenal, a tremendous piece you have written! I love reading your expressive writes, Great Work!!

    Bacha Avatar Therese Bacha
    Date: 6/2/2013 2:22:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry


    Hello Russell my friend. Thank you so much as usual for encouraging me to keep writing no matter what. Your words from the heart makes me smile with happiness. Love Terry xoxo
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