I'm not good for you.
Broken and unworthy.
You keep me around and I cannot figure out why.
You are so amazing, so lively, and so different than I.
I want to be loved by you.
I want to hold you.
But I see you there so happy and so care free...
It will just hurt you to know the person hidden within.
The real me.
Not the smiles you see when we speak.
Not the laughter we share...
A lonely child, with fear in her eyes.
Scared of the world she was born into and scared of the future she might have if she loses you.
Do you still want me, knowing the little I have said so far?
I close my eyes wishing you were here...
But we all know that is a wish that will never come true...
And it is okay...
It is nothing new.
To me at least it is something I feel each day.
Wanting what is not in reach...
Wanting for you to be with me.