I am the blessed, I am the cursed,
I am Society's mistake, I am my own worst frenemy.
I float above the catwalk of shame,
Shame for being me, for being free and strange in the eyes of deceitful liars.
If you have the curse of curves and beautiful eyes,
But your heart is black as the blackest ink, what are you?
Are you beautiful or are you evil?
Or are you, in some sick, twisted way, both?
Was it your fault you ended up this way
Or is Society finally the one to shoulder the blame?
Are you weak for giving in or
Are you strong for realizing how weak you really are?
Is it a chain of events that hold
You here or are you staying because you want to?
Spiderwebs hang in the corners,
Skeletons lie stranded in the back closet.
Morning seems so far away when
Night seems to drag on and on and on forever.
The shadows try to drag me under again
But this time I won't go down, I'm not walking, I'm flying.
I'm not standing still, I refuse to,
I'm spinning around and around in circles and I will never stop.
I'm a cyclone, a tornado, a hurricane
Full of whirling emotions, causing destruction all around.
I will never give into the pain again,
It keeps getting harder and harder to climb back up when I do.
The words aren't enough, you have to
Feel it in your veins, let it inside and fill your deepened mind.
I'm turning pages and ending chapters,
But when I come to the end of my book, will my life be worth anything?
If I stay stuck and pretend it doesn't
Matter will I accomplish anything I've wanted to at all?
Seems like this is goodbye then,
I'll never come back again, hope you're happy with the poison instead of honey.
One day your lies will haunt you
And you'll fall to the ground but I won't be around to hold you.
You lost the best thing you ever knew,
Went back to the one you knew would hurt you so, I'm gone.
I won't be the one to say I'm done,
But I will be the one to walk away from the lies and bitterness.
I used to drown in lovesickness,
But now I drown in happiness without you.
I hope it crushes you inside to know
That now I'm doing great without you, I can finally breathe again....