Free At Last
How I wish one day just wake up to lie down under the rain
In the dessert, watch an apparition of water and discover
a fountain where I can approach wet my dry lips imagine
the unimaginable a harvest in the desert that would hasten
to hatch and fortify the unfortunate roses.
In that same desert watch the green grass moisture
with dew and visualize two hands offering me a bouquet
of roses looking colorful and beautiful while walking
towards the one tree that exists to sit under it and
decide to have a life and be the one to calm down the
storm & leave my foot prints running in a straight line
as a memory for my escape when I will feel safe to emerge
Today my hands are longing to caress those who are not
here yet how gratifying it feels to enjoy the joy of the
growing beauty that one tree in my desert giving birth
to hundreds of baby buds that will grow up fast might
not last, still that growth will leave a trace.
In my mind even when they die I know they will
resurrect next time when I am not here I will
leave with those images still engraved in my mind
that a tree mother not like all mothers delivers life
than death again and again until its time comes to
follow its destiny like all of us.
My thoughts are traveling with them to relive my voyages
a past full of memories that allows me to bring them here
in my desert live with me, I am never alone I have pictures,
conversations, I remember during my job or vacations I am
a busy man even while sitting in my chair yet I go for long
trips everyday where my thoughts love to fly.
I like living I have sometimes been widely despairingly acutely
miserable racked with sorrow but through it all I know quite
certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.
It will be a long walk out of the desert, after having dwelt
for a long time I wasn't held as a prisoner or against my will
I needed to be ready to venture towards a new landing place
on this earth, where I can forget yesterday and rediscover
who I am now, and who I will be tomorrow.
I am ready without any self pity as now I have a superior power
that was built between me and me in the desert, I gave a strong
push to my thoughts, I am still young, and will grow up today before
tomorrow. Nothing will slow me down starting now.