"A Cure To My Inner Thoughts."
Today I need a little help from
my brain as I was at war with myself.
I need to do something maybe teach my
act of kindness to weave from my evil thoughts
awake my dormant reality to bring me closer
in harmony with my actual life.
Pained by my actions of yesterday
When I felt half alive, as I turned
Seventy two of age and lost the
feeling of belonging, I felt robbed
of my youth left alone naked
sitting on a bench
with my ego.
Suffering could be felt in my depth
When I realized we cannot always
Have answers to our question marks.
Why? I asked myself.
Why did I lack the power of intentions
To attract into my life my man even at
that age? Questions still are entangled
With the "NO" answers? why I asked
Am I not in a state of love? why do I
want to leave him and go away
After forty years of absolute love?
I will find the truth I promised myself.
Here is why today I aged
memories are fading away
fear of death accompanies
Me wherever I go each nights
sleep does not come to me easily
the belief is getting to close to an end.
That is why?
I shouldn't let go I need to save myself
I have to find some answers instead of
waiting for the eruption of my soul to blow
i need to ignore the red lava of death and
run towards The tunnel of light to rest my
delusional thoughts of the Moment.
Suddenly, my soul felt that peace when
a hand cured my sufferings pounded
by a powerful vibration that woke me
up capable of starting a new life
leaving everything else behind me.
A beginning to exercise my mind to change
The whole concept of my brain open a
channel between my body and mind.
I felt good growing older as I know that
I will always remain in love with my man
I will give him back the keys to my life
And together walk pass that door with
Hope surrounding our shadows
The continuation of a beginning.
If love was a choice?
Why would I choose to be in pain?
Why can`t I see through his eyes
The fear of loosing me?
Why can`t I listen to the background
Music and ache for another
Tomorrow with him?.
I wanted so much the impossible
To happen i wanted to make things
better before the sun rises and
surrenders to the night.
At the end of this day I cannot
imagine our home without him.
I would hate to miss our early rising
When we flew towards the beach
Have breakfast while listening
to the rumbling of the ocean.
Our coming back hand in hand
crossing the bridge and watch the
falling leaves rest quietly where
they belong decorating our
pavement for us to leave our foot
traces behind for another day.
It was my last chance not to loose him.
I will Prevent Him from walking away
As He is My Rock.