In the haziness of the days
at a lost life I gaze and gaze.
For clarity is not a friend
And a faint sun is what I chase.
My exploits; hard to comprehend.
The footings I cannot amend
chokes me in a pit of regret.
Crushing pain draws closer the end.
Much blood I have shed and the sweat
gashes my eyes- I cry, I fret.
But this loneliness of my soul
keeps on playing the death roulette!
Why I leap in the gaping hole
where I fall onto flaming coal,
My skeleton frame turns to ash
And the demon swallows me whole.
With my world I constantly clash.
Hatred empowers me to smash
my brain to embark on madness.
I eat me, I eat all the trash.
How long it will last? The blackness
paves for me a path of sadness.
I walk; in the vilest of ways
I become a man less and less.