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A state of confusion
I was in a state of confusion,where I was not feeling very well
Lost in this world of seclusion and all I could do is sit and dwell
Confused,because I still coudnt find a way through all this mess
Always feeling the blues, will I ever find a cure for this illness?
I took every pill possible because I felt so low and depressed
Trying I was to get back up that hill, though with no progress
I tried to be strong, which meant dealing with the pain inside
So I ask was it wrong?, I was so intent on comitting suicide
If you can see where I'm coming from?, it's a long winding road
I just felt like this time bomb ,where I'm now waiting to explode
People would say it's madness it's self- pity taking all those pills
It's the sadness and feeling shitty more than anything that kills
With so many bad memories and with what I felt this bitterness
Is why I took so many o.d.s, I just could'nt find any happiness
It was my only release from this hell ,it was my only solution
Knowing my thoughts would cease now, no more confusion
A poem inspierd by a friend from cov,(1997)
Written at a low point in my life between feb/97feb/98
Some bits rewritten during 2000/ 2002
During this time I took anumber of overdoses
I was twenty two I was doing ok at time but then the past has away
Of catching up with you this a long with worlds aprart was my
Insperation for writing in the first place, it,s kind of grown from that
I did also a few years later wrote one called age of enlightlment
which adds a little bit more content about these times
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