Shaded essence of honesty,
the kind you forget to remember,
merely hoping for the best.
You know, it's really not that hard
to attempt and erase the past,
trust yourself completely
so that you aren't in a whole yourself.
Ripping up your heart,
the half that I once held,
gifted and cherished
with all the pity I endure now.
You're sense of clarity
is as clear as your fogged mind,
leaving only your rollercoaster-
one you took me on without choice-
one I've been on every single time,
a roller coaster with a merry-go-round track,
I hope one day your mind is clear
and you remember not only the bad but the good
and with that I hope you reveal your true feelings,
decide what you ultimately want
because right now I'm just your rag doll,
I'm merely your revenge,
all because it's what I deserve
and I have no other say.
before you carry on,
sink into your thoughts,
remember both good and horrid memories,
remember first friendship is the beginning,
it leads to things both good and bad
before you decide to ignore me,
let me know where I stand
instead of leaving me in the dark.
forget me not.