how do i begin to say, all that needs to be said
where do i even start to explain from where all this led.
i read and write and read some more
wishing things were different from my very core.
i am not who i was, nor who i want to be
forever changed is the true essence of me.
lying down beside me, or a million miles away
when faced with this dilemma, i begged for her to stay.
truth confronts the omission and demands a fight
seeing everything crumble with a bright and painful light
living in my life today i see where i went wrong
trying to forgive myself with a vengeance that is strong