This day I awoke, I had spent nights up before,
till the point my body is what gave in.
One would say I was probly depressed,
but I like to think I spent it,
asking myself what I already knew.
I can remember feeling,
love, shame, anger and happiness,
all after opening my eyes,
i wanted to but i couldnt bring myself to cry.
I manged to get dressed,
and while it seemed like forever,
before I knew it,
it was time to go.
The ride there, was drivin in silence,
neither of us realy talked,
the music singing sounds,
that I couldnt realy hear.
I have never felt so alone
and I asked myself...can I do this?
When we arrived, I prepared myself,
only for what I already knew.
they greeted me with honesty,
and a calming I can't describe,
and i wonderd if,
perhaps Kim had felt this way.
They spoke with words they probly didnt think I understood,
but have been through so many tests myself,
now my child was the one,
the one about to be labled.
I had to ask myself "Is this my fault?"
I would like ta say when they told me,
I broke down and cryed,
the truth is I felt nothing,
and I began to ask myself why.