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What I Should Have Said Then

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What I Should Have Said Then

Remember that night, one of so many of course
When the waitress asked if we were on our first date
We’d talked for three hours till our voices were hoarse
The laughter we shared no one could create

It must have been the joy in our hearts she saw
For eighteen years there’d been no one who meant more
Never for a moment did our love withdraw
I joked and said it was the cologne you wore

Impotence had rendered you last in some eyes
But there was no man who made me happier
My affection for you never compromised
Of my self-worth, you were the certifier

The last time I saw your 95-pound frame
As you lay smiling in the hospice bed
My adoration I just could not proclaim
Couldn’t look back, still wanted to look ahead

My head on your hand, tears formed a puddle
So much in my heart, but at a loss for words
I waited for your angel as we cuddled
Finally they arrived, not one, they flew in herds

The spirit of contentment shone o’er your face
I swear to this day I saw your spirit rise
You faced your death with such dignity and grace
I could not bring myself to utter goodbyes

But now as I pray, the words finally come
“God blessed me with a special friend always true
And now as I hear heaven’s harps ever strum
I know there’ll never be another like you”

*For my dear friend Chris who died on Christmas Day 2005
Entry for Gareth's "Last Words to a Loved One" Contest

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  1. Date: 8/16/2011 2:14:00 PM

    Such a sad but beautiful poem, my friend

  1. Date: 1/14/2011 4:24:00 AM

    Congratulations on your win in Gareth James's contest "Last Words To A Loved One" Carolyn. Love, Carol

  1. Date: 1/13/2011 9:46:00 AM

    Congratulations on your win with this wonderful write. Caryl

  1. Date: 1/12/2011 1:04:00 PM

    Cogratulations on your fantastic win, well deserved - in Gareth's Contest! Love, Annalise

  1. Date: 1/12/2011 11:03:00 AM

    Your words are so heart warming and true from you heart...Congratulations to you my dear....luv Michael

  1. Date: 1/12/2011 9:55:00 AM

    Simply, a most deserving win for words that can only come from a heart saddened by the loss of a loved one. I believe we will see them again in all the glory that they never receive here on earth. Congrats to you, Carolyn, for having someone to treasure and the words to describe them. Dan C

  1. Date: 1/12/2011 12:49:00 AM

    i did bet on this, carolyn!! relish your award in this contest.. wow.. :) nette

  1. Date: 1/12/2011 12:32:00 AM

    Carolyn, as usual your poetry expresses real and heartfelt are a deep and excellent poet ...well done in this contest...sincerely...Syd

  1. Date: 1/12/2011 12:08:00 AM

    Your words here surely put a smile to your dear friend now with his creator, this is a walk to reminisce happy moments. Congratulations on your best winning this contest, Carolyn. (^_^) Noel.

  1. Date: 1/11/2011 8:03:00 PM

    Knew this was a winner. Many congratulations dear friend.

  1. Date: 1/11/2011 4:47:00 PM

    Congratulations on this well deserved win in the contest of gareth, carolyn

  1. Date: 1/8/2011 3:01:00 PM

    Once again, terrific descriptiveness and rhyming in each of these verses.

  1. Date: 1/3/2011 4:52:00 AM

    Very touching and moving Carolyn. God bless your friend's soul.

  1. Date: 1/1/2011 5:57:00 PM

    This moving poem brings the reader to tears. A heart filled poem of love, Carolyn. Well done! ~ love, Carrie

  1. Date: 12/31/2010 3:19:00 PM

    this is beautiful, Carolyn. may your dear friend Chris rest in peace more than ever now with the beauty of this write(: for someone who makes you as happy as you said, must be more than special. ~Always&Forever Lynette

  1. Date: 12/31/2010 10:25:00 AM

    Incredibly sad Carolyn. To present I have not lost any of my friends. One day it will happen, until then I cherish their friendship totally. Good luck in the contest....:)

  1. Date: 12/31/2010 9:19:00 AM

    You have me in tears this morning with this beautiful write. We just had Randy's funeral on Monday but he found out and lived for 18 days. It was a fast cancer for him not slow like your friend. Randy was like a second dad to our son Ryan and a very nice person. Cancer strikes young and old and this is a nice tribute to your friend Chris. Have a wonderful New Years. Love Phyl

  1. Date: 12/31/2010 4:37:00 AM

    Well written heart wrenching write... tough times make us tough people... been there to often...Happy New Year love...luv Michael

  1. Date: 12/31/2010 4:37:00 AM

    soup mail 4 u

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 9:46:00 PM

    such an emotive write Carolyn, here there is bravery and sorrow, this piece touches so many areas that i can emphacsie with, & shilouette failings that i have made in understanding loved ones values,that it is to late now to address, very brave of you to put this down & get well soon.

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 9:18:00 PM

    Gosh, this is good, Carolyn. I can't even keep up with these contests. I think I did not enter this one. this is a heart felt tribute to your loved friend as well. I know it should do great in the contest. Luv ,Andrea

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 5:56:00 PM

    A heart warmer for sure as well as a winner, Carolyn. I see from Wilma comments you have the flu. get well soon! Not a fun pastime.. take Chicken soup with your poetry soup and God bless you lady Carolyn.

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 4:19:00 PM

    You have such a warm heart dearest Carolyn ! Ty for sharing this moment which many hold dear when one as close as this soul you have portrayed to be. God bless you dear poet ! much love, james

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 1:22:00 PM

    Oh Carolyn I am so sorry about the loss of your sweet friend but your words keep him near to your heart.I hope you start feeling better cause a cold is no joke.I got a old home remedy for a sore throat my mom gave it to us cut the top off a lemon and place a candy cane down through the middle of it and suck out the juice it always made us feel better.Luv Teresa

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 12:02:00 PM

    Carolyn, imagine the smile on Chris's face while looking down on you as you wrote this.. Awesome emotions of love and companionship you shared.. Thanks for sharing this with us.. I hope you feel better soon as well.. Dont worry about comments etc.. Just get your strength back.. Love Wilma

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 12:00:00 PM

    Chris was blessed to have known you Carolyn..faithful friend, loyal. It was a gift to be there by his side when the angels came! Very emotional and so touching! A winner in my book! Much love to you! Always, audrey

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 11:58:00 AM

    This is awesome, a great write and tribute to a wonderful friend and you have penned it so very well. I enjoyed this read today. Good luck in the contest. Caryl

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 11:46:00 AM

    Dear Carolyn, your love, your emotions, and your pain have transcended the words on my computer screen and landed in my heart. I'm sorry for your loss but happy for the loving memories you carry with you. Powerful write; thank you for sharing and good luck in the contest... Lay

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 10:15:00 AM

    I do believe you saw the angels arrive. Some folks think I'm bonkers, but I've seen them too. This is a very touchig poem. I'm sure he can hear your words in God's house now.

  1. Date: 12/30/2010 9:19:00 AM

    A deeply, touching and heart felt entry. A winner for sure. Thank you Carolyn for my 2nd place win in your contest. I will be reading the others and commenting. I am still babying myself and slept late. Love, joyce