Time stands still, since you’ve suddenly gone.
I no longer see your actions of being so wrong.
I’ve sadly collapsed, like a broken delicate vase,
trying to control myself, as I try to save this face.
My pulse races circles, my heart throbs for you so.
I cannot come to terms, with having to let you go.
Many years of torment, feeling so utterly damn lost.
Wanting to repair this marriage, at any given cost.
I know you had to go, feeling no emotion that day.
Now my minds a whirlwind, what now can I say?
Such a strong woman I am, but full of emptiness.
Jealousy is my keeper, insanity I proudly profess.
How will this work, will you come back to me?
Has too many attacks, taken away your dignity?
I never meant to hurt you, yet although I did.
Feelings of solidarity, as I manage to keep them hid.
Saying responsibly, I’ve manipulated your trust.
I’ve covered my wrongs with actions, of satisfying lust.
Don’t set me on this pedestal, for worthy I am not.
All the manic behavior, you simply just forgot.
I am a monster; still you don’t see me as I am.
I’ve taken your life, using my bipolar as a scam.
Don’t feel sorry for me, my intentions were true.
I thought all I wanted, was to love only you.