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Cassie Ca Poem
penetration.
not the sexual healing, but the painful yet soothing feeling.
feel the sharp rush of pain that trickles up your spine, a reliever of hurt but a maker of scars.
the "only way I can deal with it" type pain, an excuse spoken by a teenager who believes there's 'no way out.'
she stands alone and watches her blood slowly slide down her wrists to her fingertips as she wonders..why?
why she can't live a happy life, she feens.
why her shattered soul is wearing her down to the point where her ability to even move is a struggle, she leans.
why she didn't push him off when he tried to put himself inside her barely-legal year old v****a, she bleeds.
why, at nights, she curled up in bed and felt her warm tears roll down her cold lifeless skin, she dreams.
she now stands in front of the mirror and stares with a blank face.
with no hesitation the sharp object rips through her flesh, releasing the blood used to keep her alive as
she screams! she screams.
she's done.
? I wanna make a change for once in my life ?
she sings.
But can she?
Can she make that change to put down the knife and pick up the book,
the book that guides people through life and helps them open their eyes to look?
Can she love herself enough to not want to be put in a box in-caged between walls, searching for a place to go?
Now that, I don't know.
Copyright © Cassie Ca | Year Posted 2013
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Cassie Ca Poem
Tired. Unwanted. Alone
Three words I'm used to saying because I always feel like i'm "on my own."
Physically here. Emotionally gone. Deeply hurt.
A body in motion, but mind & soul feeling in the dirt.
Painful memories. Restless nights. Horrid Dreams.
Caused by a dreadful past that still haunts the mind and causes tears & screams.
Each line in this poem is the true emotion of a broken teen,
A broken teen messed up because of all the dangers foreseen.
A body so young, yet feeling so old.
A mind so imaginative, but yet has nothing to be told.
A soul so pure, but left feeling so cold.
A relationship with God is number one, but with the obstacles he set out, have made it harder to be done.
Copyright © Cassie Ca | Year Posted 2013
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