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Sooner or later, aging betrays us
and vanity, supposedly, saves us.
Men included but women especially
fall prey to its superficiality
with measures used no better than
the least skilled mortician,
and the end results are about
as good as any corpse laid out.
It’s all but impossible to restore
what we once looked like before
no matter the “magic” improvements
or promised “miracle” enhancements.
If in doubt these are in error,
believe what you see in a mirror.
My advice to men and women is this:
Avoid a surgeon who was a taxidermist.
Look your age, not like hell,
accept aging as inevitable.
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If hard evidence is wanted that we New Englanders
have roots running deep in our rock strewn
soil, look no further than our old cemeteries, for we
have them in plenty, and whose headstones
still bear the bloodless and blind names of our people.
Names that harken back long before
they stained Boston Harbor with English tea, long before
a king’s army of Red Coats marched upon our
peaceful shores – names like Joshua Pitts, Ezekiel Clark,
Micah Bradford, Noah Crumbe, Esther Cole,
and countless similar. Names that carried conviction, hope,
and faith strong and resilient as any sturdy oak.
The Book, you see, was never far from these God-fearing
people, and always an easy reach
for a troubled heart. It brought them solace in the darkest
nights when life
seemed less than certain, less than the faintest flicker
of a taper’s flame. The land was new, hard.
It needed tilling and care, willing hands to make it their own.
Hands now forever idle, forever stilled.
They saw work, not as a hardship to wasteful pleasure, but as
a mandate, a divine blessing to benefit themselves
and others, to be worked out. Laziness for its own sake found
no supporters. Life had purpose, a reach.
They walked with a sure footing, even when the heavens
shook with fury and made them cower
with fear and prayer, or when the ground trembled.
They learned to wait with patience; it always settled.
Now, in their decayed cradles of death, they sleep that
mighty sleep we all must lie down to.
Yet they still speak to us with strength, hope, and conviction.
We are their legacy.These rough slate stones are proof of it.
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Yes, I know, it’s not Saturday,
the day I usually take you from your
dark closet to clean the rugs.
I thought I’d have a friendly chat
with you and reminisce, ask how you’re doing,
your health, and let you know
how much your services are appreciated,
and how you’ve lived up to everything
said about you the dayI bought you,
placed you in the car trunk and sped
you to my home for domestic work
where you’ve lived up to all my expectations,
always with an obliging ready compliance.
Nothing pricks my conscience more
than, after a morning of diligent work,
I have to return you to the darkness of
a claustrophobic utiliy closet
crowded with so many household helpers
with unpleasant and toxic fumes, and not
once have you ever complained, and to my shame
and negligence never once did I apologize
or offer you even a perfunctory thank you,
leaving you to yourself and your thoughts,
holding only a bag of sucked up dirt
filled with dog hair, food crumbs, and who knows
what else you found lurking in my rugs,
until your services were needed again.
Solitude, of course, can be a blessing
and has advantages when it has purpose.
It’s indispensable to poets and writers
who need an atmosphere of quiet to think
and meditate. Even medieval monks,
confined to small stone cells, required
solitude. How else could they have
produced such magnificent illuminated
manuscripts? Or, as one monk did,
combine his Christian theology with
Aristotle’s philosophy, though less cerebral monks,
and others, overwhelmed with
the monotony of repetitious prayers,
penance, and nightly flagelations
to combat the lustful flesh, as an alternative,
spent hours without distraction
calculating how many angels could fit
or dance on the head of a pin.
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Of late I find myself talking at length
to my dog – just “puppy talk” at first.
Then with a familiar grown-up vocabulary
most doting dog-owners use – and nothing
beyond a dog’s mental grasp, depending
on the dog’s age, experience, and IQ,
so that it quickly gets the dog’s attention,
perking his ears like a bat to catch my words
every nuance with an approving wagging tail.
And he knows when I’m distressed or even
mildly annoyed, especialy when watching
the nightly news, which he watches
with me relaxed on my lap.
And when I disagree with a politician’s
remarks and shout expletives at him,
the dog looks up at me as if to say,
“I agree, that was a dumb remark the
politician made,” or something like that.
Or, if a particularly inane commercial
makes me laugh so hard I spill my beer
on his head and he joins in with
a few soft barks – his way of laughing,
I suppose, and lets me know he shares my
peculiar sense of humor.
Of course, there are moments (more and more
it seems) when I pour out my heart to him.
How could I not? He’s twelve years old,
and in human years he’s almost my age,
and, like me, showing undisguised signs
even a dog is heir to, to quote a famous saying.
And then there are days when, like me,
he appears overly pensive, listless, stretched out
on the sofa, rug, or more often, my bed,
staring blankly at the ceiling or nothing in
particular. A gentle reassuring pat on
the head brings him out of it, his brown eyes
turning upwards at me, as if to say:
Don’t be concerned, it’s just a dog thing,
I have them now and then. I’ll be fine.
It’s hard to know what a dog thinks at
moments like that, and I don’t pretend to.
Still it worries me and I do wonder:
Does he, like me – and other humans –
ponder about his life, his end, that condition
no longer informed by the flesh?
Does he look back on his life, regretting
this or that course action or decision,
or call to mind some youthful indiscreet
behavior – who hasn’t? – that affected
another dog’s life, especially a female,
for the worse, and which still haunts him?
That’s when he needs consoling and I
open up like a father to a son. On my lap,
I gently stroke his small head and in
a loving soft voice, never harsh, tell him
I understand. (How unlike my father
when I was growing up!)
Instead I bare myself open and tell him
I, too, did foolish things when young, and, yes,
they do surface from time to time to prick
my conscience with shame and self-deprecation.
With his sad eyes he seems to say, What,
you too? That’s when he gives his tail
an empathetic wag which I interpret to be
his way of telling me that dogs and humans
are not so really different after all.
And then – so touching – he lifts his head
with those small brown eyes and licks
my face, and I become emotional, pressing
his small frame against my beating heart
with a warm hug, burying my face in his fur,
with its usual but mild doggie odor,
and strugglingly not to release a torrent
of tears lest my weakness create a lack of
confidence in him for me, and from the time
I brought him home from the kennel, he’s
looked up to me as if I was his father and, geez,
why let him down now at this late date?
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Edgy, I occupy myself with a book pretending
the storm will veer away. But the rumbles get louder
and the first blitz of lightning etches the black sky.
New England summer storms sometimes blow in
like a pack of snarling wolves – teeth exposed,
mouth dripping saliva, eyes glazed, backs arched.
If like me, you squirm in an ambivalence of dread
and fascination. Nature in turmoil and fury is
always a great show – if you’re brave enough
to sit it out at a window seat (with the option
of drawing the drapes if the action gets too
graphic or menacing).
Finally, the growling pack scatters and the show fades out,
drifting off like an off-key high school brass band.
Breathing is easier now, though after-effects linger like
like a sticky residue on the body. I then convince
myself a drink is in order – to loosen the tenseness.
What will it be? After all, it was no feeble storm.
And shouldn’t a drink be equal to the occasion?
Champagne, then! And who better to share the experience
with than the widow herself, Madame Clicquot!*
*née Barbe-Nicole Ponsardin, Widow Clicquot or Veuve Clicquot, known as the "Grande Dame of Champagne", was a French Champagne producer. She took on her husband's wine business when widowed at 27. Born in 1777, was widowed at age 27. Of tough character she establish a name that went on to achieve celebrity among French champagnes.
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She sat outside the coffee shop elbows
propped up on a small circular blue metal table
with a frosted glass top, starring intently
at morning traffic and passersby.
A partially eaten pastry on a paper napkin
like an island in a sea of blue.
I had seen her face before, in the park the winter last.
It was her, the bag lady. She had emerged like
an insect from dead leaves into the new light
of spring, except the wheeled cart that
held the big black plastic bag of packed-down clothes
that always followed her like a big black dog,
had been replaced by a smaller plastic bag
no bigger than a well-fed cat. It was spring,
she was traveling light.
Her streaked gray hair radiated wildly
about her head for who knows how long.
Two wrinkled jowls sagged on either side of her face.
Her small, fiercely blue eyes had lost nothing
of their feral brightness or penetration
as she sipped coffee and blew cigarette smoke into
the air, mixing with car exhaust fumes.
There was this one exception about her
and markedly so. Her countenance: it had been freed,
perhaps only temporarily, of the remoteness
it had worn that winter day when I had first seen her.
It now expressed a sense of well-being,
newly acquired, as though her life had changed,
and its weight had lightened, perhaps by
the kindness or generosity of a friend
or a softhearted stranger. It didn’t matter.
She seemed almost to be experiencing a rare windfall
of happiness, summed up in coffee, pastry, and cigarettes.
All this went through my mind as I walked by her
and entered the coffee shop for my usual regular, extra lite, no sugar.
As I left, coffee in hand, I turned briefly
for a final look. An elderly man had joined her.
I held back from speculating, yet in a strangely
remote way I was happy for her. She would have
wanted it that way, I wanted to believe.
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They have no place to stay, no permanence,
these casualties of warring clouds,
but gather where they fall and collect,
reflecting patches of the passing day,
blue, gray, and at night distant stars.
Their stay is but a day or two
then shrink and disappear, taking
with them piecemeal memories
of what they could not hold on to.
It will not be that way with us.
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On placid waters of the reflecting pool,
petals fully open as in a gesture of silent
imploring, surrounded by a world
of shimmering reflections.
Small red carp feed on tiny insects
then disappear below, leaving ever
widening circles that skim
and intersect each other.
Steeped in prayful trance, seemingly
undisturbed by abrasive sounds
of nearby traffic or the vulgar language
of boys on noisy skateboards,
the afternoon slants towards evening,
and each lily begins to close like a clenched fist
holding some moment of the day
as the pool slowly drinks in the afternoon,
each lily adrift in the silence of its meditation.
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There is an eventuality as respects mankind
and the beast...as the one dies, so the other...
so that the one [has] no superiority over the other,
both are destined to the same end.
– Ecclesiastes 3:19, 20
I
A fox in the snow, frozen.
At most a few days. Still beautiful
as when he felt his small body falling
under his gait, his world of winter fields,
walls and woods pulling away, a gray mist
turning dark rushing to fill his eyes.
The pelt still held its sheen and vibrancy,
the small eyes still open in a dead stare,
the pointed snout in snow on impact,
as if searching for a scent to satisfy
a constant hunger, suggesting his fall
was natural, sudden, not expected.
The mouth slightly opened, revealing
long lips pulled away from black gums,
rows of small, sharp teeth exposed
framed in a strange snarling smile;
the tongue slack, dry, curled at the edges,
the forelegs bent under the chest
where his heart once beat. The tail
still holding its bush with a dusting
of wind-blown snow.
I looked in vain for foul play – teeth
or claw marks, torn skin, a bullet hole.
Only a beautiful fox dead in snow.
Yet something vital in him let go,
broke his stride, brought him down.
Whatever it was, he could not outrun
his own mortality, could no more escape
his shadow than the inner law that rules
every breathing thing without pity or mercy.
II
And then the words came to me:
“And God breathed into the man the breath of life...”
How easy that must have been for Him.
I had the will and desire but not the power.
I was helpless to bring the fox back to life,
a second chance, to see him leap and run
across snow-covered fields again, and seek
the shelter of familiar woods again,
as though released from a cage.
I took comfort in the fact that Death,
at its worse, is a wakeless sleep, no more;
a door that opens to no interior.
A tedious story told and retold,
always with the same ending,
the same hopeless disappointment.
III
The snow would keep him a little longer,
then, in that slow descent into decay,
the earth would reclaim him for her own.
I walked away, the hard snow cracking
under my boots, breaking the silence
that had settled over the morning.
Somewhere in the distance impatient
cawing crows waiting with hunger,
they had picked up the fox’s scent.
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The dry, frayed ends of autumn, the garden
charred by successive waves of night frosts,
the scent of wild grapes in the air.
Outside the kitchen’s back door, a small
metal barrell stood over a fire waiting on
a slow boil, set up by my grandfather early on.
Nearby a makeshift table – old planks placed
across two carpenter horses – covered with
yellowed newspapers; large bluish canning jars
at one end of the table, each sterilized
in a bath of scalding water and later each
snuggly fitted with a hen’s cleaned out carcass
to be cooked, then placed on shelves in the dirt
floor cellar, making their first appearance on
the Sunday dinner table during winter months.
My grandmother, rotund and lacking any
sentimentality for most animals, least of all pigs
and chickens, waited in a rough cloth apron
with years of use, a small sharp knife in hand
easily cut into a dozen dead hen’s bodies
like a knife through soft butter.
The chopping block, a weathered piece of old
black oak, its surface marked with grooves
where many an ax head fell and left its mark.
With a wave of her hand she signaled grandfather
to begin the slaughter. A few feet away, within
a temporary wired enclosure, unknowing hens
milled about pecking the grassy area for what
would be their last meal. Grabbing each hen by
its feet, he laid her body on one side, her head
almost on the edge of the block and with the speed
of a sudden lightening bolt, brought down the axe,
the hen’s head dropping to the ground, it’s neck
squirting blood like a garden hose, then
tossed as the first of many that would grow
into a pile of her dead sisters.
Yet there was always a hen that sensed her fate
and managed to get back on her feet and dash off
headless, as if defying death itself while her
eyes were spared the gruesome sight of her
headless running body and not so much as
giving a cheering cackle to so heroic a try.
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