The Rose innocent white, soft pink, yellows
colors touch your soul vibrant red to amethyst
enhances beauty yet a thorn awaits to break skin
as life does piercing your heart with a thin pin.
My life has shed drops of blood through each petal
as if in return for the love and beauty you feel
hence pain underneath patiently waits the bloodletting ~
The rose symbolizes love yet vulnerable to hold
for when you open your heart it can be left bleeding
The best of surgeons can not beat your heart
It is the inner faith and God himself whom gives strength
whispers in your ear you shall live you will exist
your life meaningful as the water and sun to the rose
For I am your God your existence is not over yet .
You must Live ~You must Bloom
Are You Happy With the Life You Have?
Are you truly happy with the life you have?
Or have you been discouraged and sad?
Have the things in life brought you contentment?
Or are you one who’s often filled with resentment?
The feelings you have, and the ambitions inside…
Is there some trouble that you’re trying to hide?
Everything you have… God has given to you!
His promises are true!
And he’ll never fail you!
The happiness you may be seeking,
you can find in him!
You can find peace,
hope and satisfaction within!
Christ can bring a healing that you won’t find!
Won’t you give him a chance?
While there’s still time?
What profits a man if he gains the world,
or loses his soul?
Jesus loves you so much!
More than you’ll ever know!
The opportunity is here, for you to take!
Won’t you give God a chance? For heaven’s sake?
By Jim Pemberton 10/14/13
Someone Felt Like Giving Up!
I know someone who wanted to give up.
Things in life began to “trip him up.”
After much thought and contemplation.
He really offered no real explanation.
He felt like his life was at a “dead end road.”
He said he couldn’t continue
with a heavy load.
No matter how many different things he tried.
He was not happy… Nor satisfied!
He began to share a piece of his mind…
He was ready to leave everything behind.
The choices that he had sometime ago…
Began to “wear” at his heart and soul!
I tried to encourage him the best I could.
But I’m not sure he really understood.
As I watched him go his separate way…
I said; “there’s something I wanted to say.”
“There’s a God who reigns in haven above!”
“He wants to fill you with his hope and love!”
“He knows and cares about everything you’ll do!”
“He’s loving and kind!” “And wants to help YOU!”
As I spoke, I could see he thought for a minute.
A commitment to God… He decided to give it!
He decided to give it all to a God who won’t fail him!
He wanted to serve a God,
who wants to bless him!
He’s happy now that this choice was taken!
With Jesus… He’s never alone nor forsaken!
By Jim Pemberton
Those who kill innocents are cruel,
Their bodies will always be hell’s fuel,
Islam teaches about honor and dignity,
Care and love for the whole humanity,
But black sheeps are found everywhere,
Like KKK or Taliban, “Be aware”,
They do things on their own,
Their very own people, they disown.
All rights are reserved. Syed Imon Rizvi
From a book "Outspoken" - 2012
Available at www.amazon.com
I cannot get into heaven
God I have tried!
Suicide is a double edge sword
Especially when you survive!
Walking the streets at night
Dazed and confused
Longing to be loved
When is Mum, coming for me?
"Does she still love me?"
"Does she still care?"
"Does she still think of me?"
"Does she wonder, where I am?"
I want her to come find me
I want her to say she 'loves me’
I want her to comfort me
I want her to take me home
And keep me safe
And not forget hat I exist
Like the way she treats me now
I wish God
Could make my Mum
Making this hellish nightmare
On the street
“Send my Mum please!”
So, all this can end!
Before this last ray of hope
Diminishes for good!
I don’t want to become
The walking dead
Forever forgotten as if
I was never born!
For this is the cruel, harsh reality
Of living life, feeling unloved
Uncared for, abandoned,
Left to fend for my own
A dangerous killer inside me
Eating away, at my soul
Something, no one can see
As I suffer in silence
My insides crippling!
Lost, alone and frightened
Weeping on a dirty
Graffiti park bench
Rolling down my cheeks
Stuffing newspapers under my jumper
To keep myself warm
“What am I going to do?”
“Will I make it through the night?”
“Will I get raped and beaten?”
"Will I be left for dead?”
“Will I survive
To see another day?
“Is my life worth living?”
Please God, I beg of you
Have mercy now
Please show me the way!
I Knew Someone Who Was Ready to “End It All!”
I knew of someone who just wanted “to end it.”
Giving up on life, and did not want to “defend it.”
It was a heart wrenching and difficult situation.
He said what he wanted to, with no explanation!
I could see his face and the sad look in his eyes!
What he was going to do next, was anyone’s surprise.
He turned to drugs and encountered addictions.
With this brought much disease and afflictions!
He gave up on the wonderful family that was given.
And turned to a pretty wild and crazy way of livin’!
I told him about a God who loves him very deeply.
As he listened, he began to grow restless and weary.
I reached for his hand and began to pray for God’s power!
It was a miracle! The blood of Jesus changed him that hour!
The spirit of God brought healing and hope to his body!
He was so excited! He rushed out to tell everybody!
The “end” that he wanted, seemed to just fade away!
For the son of the living God, changed him this day!
The glory of God, and the power of Jesus’ resurrection…
Changed him! And got him going in a NEW direction!
He’s so thankful for the blood of Christ’ atonement!
And is a different person now, because of that moment!
This same Jesus loves and can do the same for YOU!
Through the problems of life…
He will see you through!
By Jim Pemberton
I felt worn out... discouraged and defeated.
Nothing in my life right
seemed to be completed.
I felt alone, knocked down and betrayed!
I never thought I'd feel this scared and afraid.
In this very dark time, where would I run?
Where would any help actually come from?
I felt utterly worthless and quite alone...
With each passing day, in this place I called "home."
As I got up, each morning and opened the bedroom door.
And wondered if anyone cared about me anymore?
I felt a "tug" on my shoulder and looked around.
And noticed a bright light, shining toward the ground.
"I love you my son." Where the words I heard.
Excitement and hope within my heart was stirred.
I looked up and couldn't began to explain.
The love I felt when I called on Jesus' name!
From my ceiling, I saw what looked like an angelic being.
He said, "I am God! “ I can do anything!"
He reached down and gently picked me up out of bed.
Words of mercy and hope where what he had said.
"I am here so that you may rise up and live."
"All of your failures and sins I will forgive."
Everything inside of me... God did understand!
With him here... I knew victory was at hand!
This particular day, this was certain.
He took away my sins and heavy burdens!
Look at me now and it's so plain to see!
He can do for YOU, what he's done for ME!
By Jim Pemberton
Do You Feel Like There’s Nowhere to Go?
I know that it's easy to get
discouraged and upset.
Feeling “trapped” ...
But can't escape "just yet."
You've tried everything. And not
sure what else to do?
Is there someone
who can help you through?"
Many things you've done.
You’ve wanted to be forgiven!
Yet struggle with this
each day you're livin’!
You meet people and
wear a "smile."
And sometimes wonder if living
is really worth the while.
You may have prayed
over and over again.
And yet constantly feel
Like you’re “trapped within.”
You may have tried to
call on Jesus' name.
Yet find yourself in
"guilt and shame."
Jesus is here now!
And wants you to know…
He can bring peace
to your troubled soul.
Rather than thinking of things
done in the past.
Come to Jesus now!
His love will always LAST!
Allow HIM to bring to your life
the needed victory now!
He'll make you a brand new person!
By Jim Pemberton
Slamming the door behind him
Writing his poems upon his wall
Tiny powerful words surrounding each inch of the room
Writing them in black inch
He watches as it drips to the carpet
Wiping the blood of his face
Putting his hands to the wall
Bloody hand prints surround each poem
Dying alone on the floor
Surrounded in his blood and filth
The poems wash off from the walls
Black ink forming together on the carpet
Blood mixes with the ink
The horrific smell fills the lungs of the ones downstairs
He sinks into the carpet
His flesh swallowed up by his words
He isn't living anymore
But he rubs off on you by his poems
Jesus, Give Me the Strength To Make It Through!
Lord Jesus, please give the strength and power.
To help me to make if through my darkest hour!
In the midst of this darkness…
I need your guiding light!
With your help… Everything will be alright!
I need you now! Like I’ve never needed you before!
Through life’\s difficulties...
I need you so much more!
By your strength, and gentle loving hand…
Everything I go through. I know you understand!
Thank you for the work, in me, that you want to do!
I’d be totally lost right now. If not for YOU!
You are all that I could hope for!
All I ever needed!
With you in my heart…
My life is totally completed!
You’ve brought me strength and peace within!
I love you so much! I don’t know where to begin!
You’ll be there for me! Even when everything seems lost!
You sacrificed your life for mine,
by your death on the cross!
Yes! Victory over my darkest hour
has been overcome!
By the power of God!
And his risen son!
Thank you Jesus! In you, my life is totally secure!
You’ll always take care of me! That’s for sure!
By Jim Pemberton
i am kurt daniel everdean
I am 21 years old
I've been playing the bass guitar
Since I was 11
i weight 145 pounds
i have blondish brown hair
and blue eyes
If I could say one thing about me that I like... Its that I never gave up.
things started when i lost my father
i was 10 years old
my mother started going to her room everytime she got home
she would come out with her eyes all red... Shes been crying
until i accidently walked in on her doing drugs
i now believe it was the drugs that caused the redness
me and my brother would fight everynight
when i bought my first bass
he slammed it against the floor
and told me since i think my lifes crap
then i shouldnt have anything that makes me happy
My mom became a street whore
She would dress in a golden gown and wear ugly make up
We would never see her
unless she needed money to get condoms for her "men"
the things between me and my brother got worse
I was arguing with him over a text he sent my mom
And he got into an accident and died that night
Things just never got better
I created a band called the nocturnal
And the reason you haven't heard of us yet
Is because were an underground punk band in Seattle
we haven't gotten far yet
Just underground party's and bars
My mom ended up running away with her "boyfriend"
After my brother died she blamed me
And told me to leave and said she won't come around me
Until I brought him back
Since then I've gotten a job and was able to pay rent on
My moms old apartment
Hoping shed come back clean and sober
As for me
I've cleaned up. but suicide is still an option
I haven't found god yet and I don't want to
If there was a god why did he give me this ****ed up life
Ya you'll say Kurt?... You made the desicions for your life
I knolw I did. But he was the one who let it actually happen
I've been writing since I was 11
Lyrics and poems
Drawings and paintings
bass guitar and vocals
My life isn't over
But it's sure close to it
Its sad to think that what you thought was fake... Is a true story
I Was Told I Wasn’t Any Good
I heard the devil whisper into my ear…
“You’re no good!” “Come over here!”
In front of me, where discouragements of various kinds...
At first, it was almost overwhelming for my mind!
He promised something “better,” than what I already had!
He said that if I did what he wanted… I’d be happy and glad!
I asked how Jesus to help the way I’m livin.’
The life I’ve lived… And HIS power of forgivin.’!
Would I trade all of this, for a life of stress and sin?
Perhaps having a form of happiness,
but no freedom within?
Was I going to trade what God gave,
for a ”pleasure of the moment?”
Was I about to make a mockery of Christ’ atonement?
I ran, and bowed my head and cried…
For a brief moment, I felt rejected and despised!
I felt the Holy Spirit’s presence all around me!
And then, it was like the love of Jesus had filled me!
This time, I knew that what I had, was all I needed!
With Christ in my life, I no longer have to be defeated!
Satan is a liar! He has one purpose and goal!
He wants nothing more, than to destroy my soul!
Take notice Satan! This is what I proclaim!
Everything I ever need! I have in Jesus’ name!
The blessings from Jesus, has supplied my every need!
It’s an everlasting and abundant life, that I received!
Thank you Jesus! For giving what I need and more!
You are truly wonderful!
And are worth living for!
By Jim Pemberton
Christ can give true love, for your pain!
He has so much to give, in exchange!
He can give a life that’s eternal and secure!
His love for you is everlasting! That’s for sure!
He offers much more than this world can give!
And will bless you, each day that you live!
He can bring true happiness and much more!
He truly is someone worth living for!
Won’t you accept his love and acceptance?
And come before him in true repentance?
He can take a life that’s been “worn out.”
And do a total cleansing all throughout!
He’s the alpha and omega!
The beginning and the end!
And will be here to help!
When you need a friend!
Won’t you give him a chance today?
And allow him to take all pain and sin away?
By Jim Pemberton
Will my life last, much longer?
What am I doing? I began to wonder…
Many things keeps dragging
me further down…
What’ll I do? There’s no one around???
Many “things” have
a hold on me…
I cry every night… I want to be FREE!
I’ve tried and tried… But to no avail…
Just when I think I have victory… I fail!
I’ve read in scripture of a power
I haven’t seen.
I read of a lord who
can do ANYTHING!
I’m going to give him a try!
I’ve nothing to lose!
I’ve been so hurt, worn out and abused!.…
To you, dear Jesus…
I confess my every sin.
I can feel your love
from deep within!
Thank you Jesus! For giving
me a joy I never knew…
I don’t know where I’d be if not for YOU!
You’ve brought to my life
a peace I never had.
For all you’ve done for me. I’m so glad!
Won’t YOU give your burdens
to the one, I call friend?
And experience the joy of being born again?
Please come to him now!
Why not this hour?
And experience his life-changing power!
By Jim Pemberton
Do You Blame Or Trust God?
Do you blame God for the trials you may face?
Do you reject God’s mercy and grace?
Perhaps you are in a most “difficult situation.”
You can’t figure out a “reasonable explanation?”
You may feel abandoned, alone and afraid.
There may have been times when you prayed.
You don’t know why this happening to you?
You probably try your best in all that you do!
But, it still things really haven’t worked out.
And you often wonder what life is all about?
Rather than blaming God… Why not trust him?
He’s not your enemy! He wants you to know him!
He’s not the blame for the sorrows of mankind!
He’s always faithful, most loving and kind!
He patiently waits for anyone to call on his name!
With him in control…
Things won’t be the same!
He is here! Even if everyone else fails you!
If you give him a chance! He wants to help you!
Won’t you take the time, and invite him in?
This is where a new opportunity can begin!
His life for yours, is what he gives in exchange!
He can help your situation to really change!
He can change your life! And turn it around!
And can put your life on a solid ground!
By Jim Pemberton
There is no power in death,
great enough to stop youth.
From what must be done,
souls taken one by one.
If God should stand in the way,
clear the path you will go away.
Should I contend with this power,
no choice it is the devils hour.
When the wicked rule in time,
deception reigning of crime.
There will be a stand instead,
where I gather the vengeful dead.
Amongst in Hell that we cower,
our vengeance will grow louder.
Strong enough in legions,
numbers increasing regions.
Then the wicked will fear,
what is about to come near.
No where near closer to home,
inside Hell's nightmarish tomb.
Will God Accept Me?
I had nothing to offer to God but a life of shame.
I was embarrassed of the mention of my name
I had nothing to offer to God but “failure.”
I didn’t know if he listened to me prayer?
I had a life that was just falling apart.
I often cried from a wounded heart.
I began to blame myself for things going wrong.
I began to feel like I didn’t belong.
I’d begin each day with a lot of stress and tension.
I didn’t feel any kind of love or appreciation.
Many of my friends began to “leave me behind.”
There wasn’t a single “friend” I could find!
Just when everything was falling around me...
Jesus was there! His love began to surround me!
“Lord, please help me!” Where the words spoken.
My life was coming apart!, And was empty and broken!
Jesus reached down and took a hold of my hand!
And told me everything I went through... He understands!
Day by day he brought to me a peace I never knew!
Putting my life back together was what he wanted to do!
As I read his word, his spirit renewed my mind.
A precious friend in HIM… I was able to find!
He accepted me! And gave so much more!
He truly is what living my life is meant for!
He is and will always be the Lord for me!
And can do the same for you! Most certainly!
By Jim Pemberton
Satan Wants Me to Be Destroyed And Defeated!
Satan wants me destroyed and defeated…
So God’s will in my life, won’t be completed
He wants to see me “up against a wall.”
And wants to be there, when I “stumble and fall.”
He wants for my life to “crash to the ground.”
And he doesn’t want any help to be around!
He wants my life to come to a “screeching halt.”
And then try to tell me, it’s all of my fault!
He wants to see every good thing to be destroyed.
He doesn’t want God’s truth to ever be employed!
He’ll twist the truth into any way that he can!
Anything of God… He doesn’t want me to understand!
He wants to corrupt what I’ll do and say!
And wants to take everything wholesome away!
I need to listen and trust Christ to overcome!
I can do it, through the blood of God’s son!
With him as my Lord, Satan will have to flee!
I seek the blood of Jesus to daily protect me!
A invite you Jesus to complete your will in my life!
And ask for your blessings upon my family and wife!
I seek Jesus! Behold his awesomeness and power!
Jesus is the victor! Satan is defeated this very hour!
Thank you Jesus! For redeeming my soul!
Because of your shed blood…
Satan has to go!!!
By Jim Pemberton
Lately, I have noticed a very disturbing trend.
Many people wish for their life to end!
There are many circumstances
that bring this about.
Many feel "trapped in," and think
"there's no way out!"
I admit,... I have been very
Sometimes, wondering, if I was dealt
"the wrong lot."
But just when I feel alone
and trapped within.
I think about Jesus! He's always
been my friend!
I've called to him more than a time or two...
When I didn't know
"what I was going to d."
When, to him, I cried out and pleaded...
He's given to me the hope
and direction I needed!
I recommend this same Jesus
to your life today!
Whatever your problem...
He has made a way!
An abundant assurance
Is what Jesusbrings!
He is an awesome God!
And can take care of everything!
Your problems are never too big
or small for him to take control.
He can bring healing to you!
And make your body whole!
He is what's needed! In this lost
and dying generation!
Won't you accept his mercy
By Jim Pemberton 2012
You’re important to God! And he knows it!
He wants to be with you! His word shows it!
Your life belongs to God! Yes it does!
He died for you! It’s you that he loves!
Your life is precious of God! Yes it is!
He wants to be with you, each day you live
Your life is just a heartbeat away!
From allowing God to change you today!
Your life is but a brief moment in time!
Won’t you take time for God?
So merciful and kind!
Your life can be touched this very hour!
By God’s love and healing power!
Your life for his! A choice can be made!
This is beautiful! And worth the trade!
HIS life brings peace and hope within!
The beauty of him, forgiving your sin!
HIS life for yours, is what he gives in exchange!
You can find all you need, in HIS sweet name!
By Jim Pemberton
Thirty pieces of silver
My soul condemn to hell
Even in the presence of God
One can feel left out
Jesus how I love you
My life I surrender for thee
But something wasn't enough
I needed more than even God could give
Even God could give
Envy? Jealous? Recognition
One of twelve is never just one
To Gethsemane garden I led the arm crowd
And my sign was the kiss
I will kiss my Lord to condemn Him
As I kissed the face of my Lord
Judas kissed crucified God
The weight of thirty pieces of silver
Burdens the mind
There is no repentance for such guilt
Return the blood money but it is refused
Throw it down
And the silver splatters
Against the temple floor
Like drops of blood
Spewing from the cut throat
Of the white white lamb
The sound of silence deafens
Nothing can hear your screams
A rope and a tree
And the earthly Judas ends
Hanging into the bowels of hell
Judas kissed Jesus
For thirty pieces of silver
And Judas kiss of betrayal
Brought forth Salvation
" Judas kissed Jesus
and Jesus said to him
Friend, do what you are here to do."
I did what I was here to do