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Never Thought I'd Fall In Love (With My Best Friend)

(Chorus): Never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend
Sit on the phone and talk for hours about anything
He knew everything about me
He was there through my ups and downs
But I found out he fooled around
I’d never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend

(Verse 1): Its sad how things change
Seems like I want to put things back in reverse
Now that I see I feel my love life is a curse
So many times he say he’d stick by my side
There wasn’t anything I never had to hide
I never thought I’d find myself in love with you
Now what am I going to do 

(Bridge): I go back and look at the relationship
you left me over someone you never met
tell me how did you fall in love over the internet
Why did you do this to me
Boy it cost so much stress
My heart is broken and I’m in so much mess
Never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend 

(Chorus): Never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend
Sit on the phone and talk for hours about anything
He knew everything about me
He was there through my ups and downs
But I found out he fooled around
I’d never thought I’d fall in love with my best friend

(Verse 2-Rap): Its crazy how you say its not me, its you so please don’t take it the 
wrong way
Then, I sit and I wonder how in the world you can say this to me
Now wondering, asking myself how can I make you stay
When you was leaving me for this other chick
Now you don’t even want to pick up the phone 
Boy I know you at, I’m here all alone
So you sit there and ignore me baby
I thought I was supposed to be your one and only lady
Now I have to sit here and pretend like nothing ever happened
Tell me how am I supposed to deal with this boo
Im so in love with you
you left me for who?
The answer just hurt me so bad
Now we doing another sad love song
How are you to tell me who was wrong or right
These words I write are quite contrite
But since Im not the jealous type
I’ll let it fly
Its sad how you did me baby boy


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Dying Eyes

I have lost the will to change
Taking the path that leads to nowhere
The darkness is taking over
something i cannot repair 
If it is to be broken
Drowning in the sorrow
I cannot give in
Take the fall and run to the heavens
Im never going to bow
Im never going to break
I will not fall
I will not fade
I was made to take your breathe away
Whenever my hope is lost
Thats my chance to run for cover
Light the fuse and burn it up
I dont want to change the world
I just want to make it colder
Watching the end
With our dying eyes
Tell me where forever lies


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Jungle Love

Your sweet nectar
wraps around my senses
like jungle vines
steady drums beating
Your heart near mine

Your strong hands
hold me suspended
by my waist
Just enough pain and strength
against my supple skin
For my taste

The musk of your
sculpted body and the forest
has me going wild
But yet, the tender way you
protect me, reminds me of
Being a child

A safe familiarity
with a strain of animalistic
seduction
Your invisible hold over me
leaves me arrow poisoned
Unable to function

My long dark hair wraps you
with smells of coconut and ocean Sun
your locks full of mud and enemies
Blood
together, my warrior
We make One



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Rhyme XOX

I just want my summertime
To be at a stand still.
Sometimes, when women cross my mind,
I'm not sure just what to feel.

I'd like to call her friend,
And I want us to mean something.
I can find several, yet in the end,
It seems like all I have is nothing.

So where is the evidence
That says I should move forward?
Show me a sign that's heaven sent;
A point I should move toward.



©2013 Honestly JT


Details | I do not know? | |

Blood upon Pages

As I place the pen
on paper
my soul beings
to bleed
upon the pages
my secret longings
hopes and dreams
of which I hope to be,
how I want to reflect me
transpire into the universe
within my poetic lyricism
the warm sweet smoke
of my vega blunt
swirls about me, flickers
in and out of motion
as the vanilla candle nearby
fights the shadows in my room
the cool summer breeze
from my window
carries dancing sinsemilla 
fog around me, allowing
my mind
to adventure elsewhere
into the nights abyss
of minutes, turned to hours
I write
pages, of words
scribbling my life, struggles
and fears
Bob Marley and Lauryn Hills
“turn your lights down low”
beat inspirational peacefulness
on my eardrums
my small hands delicately pluck
my imaginary guitar strings
as I join her in a solo, Miss Hill's
magical voice cracks
with emotion, and my soul
tingles with excitement
For creativity flows
within my veins
I breath real music, such as
she, as soon as daylight opens
thine dark brown eyes to see
The poetic flowetry, carries me
and speaks to me
the notes capture my inner 
disturbance and desires
until the soundtrack of my day
takes me into Summers night
thoughts of my dreams 
of being a published poet
clearly float
into my sight
Then, I sit
as I place my pen
upon the paper
black and white turn to one
and my soul bleeds
onto pages
into an early sun


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Rebirth

Ignite,
The missing light,
Forget,
What's behind.
Just believe,
That love comes again...

'Cause,
The skies,
Are like a hard glide,
In a shining rainbow's light...

All dreams and fantasies,
Can be reality,
'Cause fantasy,
Is based on reality...
But all histories aren't the same...

'Cause,
Sometimes, we dive,
In our lives...

So,
Don't judge,
For what you see,
Judge,
For what it is...,
'Cause time passes,
But, memories remain...

And,
Listen,
To your heart,
'Cause,
The body, does,
The mind, thinks,
And, the heart, feels...,
While, the soul, lives...

So,
Always remember,
To remember the past,
To live the present,
And to wait and pursue the future...

Listen to your heart,
Before you are telling goodbye,
'Cause destiny,
Might lead to demise...,
But, remember that destiny can be changed...

Life is unpredictable,
But space and time,
Could be controlled...
And even if some die,
We may survive...

Remember,
That life,
Might have an endless beginning...

All that remains,
Is to be reborn...


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From The Peircing Of An Arrow To The Cold Hearted Fate Of love

her life is on the tip of his tongue
the sparkle leaves her eyes
an arrow to his chest
drawing her to her death
a feather falling from the sky
the death of an angel
her wings turn blood red
like the color of the red sea
the sword drawn out of the ground
by her own hands
what he could not do himself
she has done for him
He falls unto to his knees
the arrow she had put into his chest
the greatest of betrayals
She asked for her death wish
Holding the ring in her palm
He looks into her eyes
watching the love she had left for him disappear
Falling into despair
Her face hitting the ground
Blood surrounded her body
He watched as she died
He couldn't move from the love that had pierced his chest


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I Want To Save You

I will take this challenge on.
I want to save you,
I want you to make it through alive.
I know the person you are,
I know what you think of,
I know what you want to do.
I am here for you, and you know that.
I always have been here for you,
And i always will be here for you.
God is there for you.
You cant say that you are alone, 
Because your not,
you have me, and you have God.
I know you may not have your parents, 
But you have us.
We are your army,
We will protect you from evil.
We will save you from yourself.
We will keep you alive.
I will take this challenge on.
I want to save you,
I want you to make it through alive.
I know the person you are,
I know what you think of,
I know what you want to do.
I know all you want to do is die.
I know you just want to end it all.
But i could not live without you.
I need you just as much as you need me.
I will fall apart if you are not here with me.
We both are having the same problems.
We have to get through this together.
I dont want to hear the words "Good-bye" come out of your mouth.
I dont want to find you dead on the floor surrounded by blood. 
You know that will tear me apart.
And i know if you ever saw me like that it would tear you apart too. 
Lets make a promise that neither of us will ever see one of each other like that.
Not unless the impossible happened.
I want to help you.
I dont want you to leave the world in this way.
I want you to live life to its fullest.
I Love You, and i want to see you live.
I will take this challenge on.
I want to save you,
I want you to make it through alive.
I know the person you are,
I know what you think of,
I know what you want to do.
I am here for you, and so is God.
Never forget that.
Remember that you are not alone.
Your not alone.


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Rehab

So much I wanted to say. So much I wanted to shout.
It was like being trapped behind bars without a way
to get out.
My mind going wild with all these questions of why.
The only way to escape was to fall asleep or to cry.
What did I do so bad that made me have to pay?
My friends, my dreams, and my life was swepped away.
I know I can do it! I try and I try.
Nothing seems to get better. I sometimes wish
I would Die.
Starved for attention. I wanna talk to the world.
I just miss being loved. Miss the warmth of a girl.
Snickers and stairs is what my life has become.
I'm treated like I'm a kid, like I'm sick, or I'm dumb.
One day to the next. Life becomes work just to be alive.
I thank god for my blessings. I thank god I survived.
I finally see some improvement. More hope tickles
my brain.
It was worth all the time, all the tears, all the pain.
I awake with a smile and new hope to move on.
I did it! I did it! All those hard times are gone!


Details | I do not know? | |

before you came along

Before you came along
 everything was going all wrong
 i didn't know what to do 
but that was before i knew i needed you

 i would walk down the streets all alone 
going every where but home
 
before you came along
 
i would turn my face to the sky 
wishing i could tell this world a quick  goodbye 

before you came along
 
i would fall down 
so far down i had to look up
 to see the ground 

but before i could shed another tear
 you were here 
 holding me in your arms

you had finally come along
 just in time to help me be strong
 
i love u
 
now u are ready to go
 i did something, 
what,
 i guess ill never know
 this has all played out like a bad song
 because now your going
 going
 going
 GONE :(
 




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Normal To Me

This isn't just a poem This isn't just another emotion This is me, these are my thoughts The Imagery is my sight, And The Allegories are my Life I'm lonely, There is just me But there's so many people around but no one can hear my loudest screams Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me I'm torn, I'm Cut Part of my heart stabbed, and then taken from me The Search for my innocence, Is like a moa hunt Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Laughing and Jokes all directed towards me Just to Hurt me Cover all of the Halls "Fag, Emo, Queer" Words I too often know Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Curling her hair putting on her makeup "You're worthless and nothing to Me" Says the so-called all-loving-one As she screams: "Why am I not Pretty" Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me This is not just a poem not just some words my pen cries with each words But this is Just a Glimpse Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me


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Buried Myself Alive

can you remember the time i let you in?
the time i showed you my heart?
the time i shared my soul with you?
the moment i poured out my blood when you needed it?
The second i saved your life?
The hour i saved you from your darkest secret?
The minute where you watched me bury myself alive?
Remember the time when you almost made me cry?
the time i made it a game to play your game?
the day i had my own time and took advantage of myself?
the hour it took to shut you out and let you go away for a long time?
well your going to have to ask nicer than that 


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Under the Eclipse: For Amanda Todd

October speaks of death, I hope now she can rest,
And lay the soaring bird on down.
Underneath her clothes, only herself she loathed.
We've seen this done before. 

Together they manifest their cause, ripping with their claws,
Tearing flesh and bone.
From the shame inside swelling at her sides,
She broke herself on stones. 

And the monsters say "There's on her to blame,
With many heads we only think the same".
When no words of solace leave our lips,
I can tell you the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse. 

All around they slayed and left where she laid
To bleed out all her wrongs.
And now that she's gone, over with and done,
Her memories all they play. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Wool across my eyes,
Shields me from this life.
Every single thread
Coating what they said.

Every drop of rain
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who burned for others fun. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Where is the sun?
Where is the sun?


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Sexy

   Sexy is the way 

    her lips move on his ear. 

     Never touching 

      always whispering 

       things I'll never hear.


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Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


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Mockingbird Still Sings

Children sexually abused
Hiding secrets none accused 
Mockingbird still sings

False Charities stealing money
Laughing while nothing’s funny
Mockingbird still sings

Corporations shredding evidence
Seas of hypocrisy and decadence
Mockingbird still sings

Cheating partners losing trust
Teens pregnant from a night of lust
Mockingbird still sings

Rape victims ashamed to speak
Lives destroyed remaining meek 
Mockingbird still sings

Middle East raging in war
All for pride nothing more
Mockingbird still sings

Delicate babies addicts born
Crack whore moms selling porn
Mockingbird still sings

Gang bangers need attention
Killing for an honorable mention 
Mockingbird still sings

Fools and vengeance shall expire
For winds of change to transpire
While mockingbird still sings


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Violet

In London, away in a terrace
Half-hidden with elm trees and grime,
Lived young Violet, in her parents' house,
Left alone for near all of the time,

As her mother had no patience to teach her
And her father was working all day,
Violet read to herself through her childhood
Forgetting her seclusion in play,

Any friends she made as a young woman
Would laugh at her stitches and cloth,
For they knew that Violet was quite useless
And so showed their neat needlework off,

Poor Violet kept trying her best, but
Each time everyone ran her down,
She retreated back into her mind's warmth
Far away from that cold-blooded town,

Then one night, as the raindrops were piercing
Through the rueful, restricting twilight,
Violet threw on her Sunday attire and
Did at once in the darkness delight,

So she ran through the alleys and gardens,
Dancing down the pitch-black London streets,
Her beautiful dress flew about her
As she skipped past the other deceits,

Violet's stories swam round in her memory
As she flew through the night and the stars,
And she bathed thoroughly and with relish
Until Violet was cleansed of her scars,

Now her heart was open and happy,
So she laughed and fluttered her tail,
Carelessly gliding free through the water
And onwards to the ocean did sail.

As the weary sun rose on the next day
Her friends could be seen on the pier,
Dabbing at their dry eyes with their hankies,
Voices straining trying to sound sincere,

"It has hurt us so indescribably,
That because of her poorly-sewn hems,
Violet felt she was inferior to us
And has drowned herself in the Thames."

Violet's parents had not yet noticed
The absence of their only daughter,
And they would understand even less
How she came to be dead underwater,

But Violet was now free to prosper,
To swim and to dance and to glide,
And with angels and mermaids to play with,
She would always in her dreams reside.


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Why Must It Be

Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?


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Tears

A great day ending in tragedy
now you wait until you get the news
I was scattered in different forms
The car door was slammed into my side
The doctor walks in to give you the news
You fall to the floor
Tears falling from your face
Your makeup running down unto your clothes
Making a stain where your heart used to be
I took you back into the darkest place of my soul
Something was different more darker than before
Now you wait until the funeral of your lost love
Your standing in the corner
Your face is covered in darkness
The blood runs from your eyes
How it hurts in the worst way now that im gone
Your realizing how much i meant to you
Something you havent seen before
Your blindness fades away as you start to see
You fall to the floor fainting
No one picks you up
They drop my casket into my little hole
Where i will stay all life long
How your tears fall unto the ground
Getting soaked up by the soil
Drowning me in your tears
Admire the past no more ways to see the future
Now that your starting to love me more
You wait until you see me in a dream
Dying like the past
As your moving on i fade away
I am no longer alive
You left me behind


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Yea, I Thought Wrong

do you remember all the things you said to me
can you recall all your generosity 
you said you'd never ever leave me
 who would know how it turned out differently

you turned your back
you watched me cry
all of the days every damn night
i loved you and i still do 
i will i will i will i will always love you

under the covers im a lover im a fighter
i cant be broken but i cant put out this fire
you had your chance yes offense your a liar
yea but the truth really is your so undesired

its not too late to apperciate me
and say your sorry for everything
for all the pain you caused me everyday
its not to late yea its not to late

you turned your back
you watched me cry
all of the days every damn night
i loved you and i still do 
i will i will i will i will always love you


make up your mind make up your mind
you have got to before you run outta time
why cant you hurry up oh god oh god
please dont leave me here alone by myself to die

i thought i could trust you
i thought i could want you
i thought i could love you
i thought i could reach you

i thought i could breath you
i thought i could need you
i thought i could be every damn part of you
yea i thought wrong

you turned your back
you watched me cry
all of the days every damn night
i loved you and i still do 
i will i will i will i will always love you

but i still crave you
and i know no matter what i do
i cant stop this hurtin'
cause i still love you






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Not So Perfect

Here she comes, walking with pride.
Her face is so vibrant, she looks so alive.
Nothing can stop her, no one dares to try.
Her entire life is corroded with deals, tricks, and lies. 
Her beauty is everything, her smile kills all 
It brings down the strongest men, makes the highest building fall.
But when she comes home,
The story does change.
Her life’s not so perfect,
The positions rearrange.
Her father's an alcoholic, and not very nice.
She has a brother who gave up on school, and can’t read or write 
Of all of her family, her mother is the worse. 
Sometimes she wonders if she'll survive this curse.
He mother yells,and tells her that she's no good.
She would give it all up, if only she could.
At the end of the night she goes into her room,
She begins to weep, and eventually cries herself to sleep.
She wakes up the next day,
Puts on a happy face,
And goes to school as if nothing happened the previous night,
Or that absolutely nothing is wrong with her life.
So now that you’ve seen what’s behind the closed door,
I hoped you’ve thought about this girl a little more.
With the utmost respect,
I present to you, the life of someone "perfect".


Details | Ballad | |

Martyr for the Unorthodox word

If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word


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Mom

Mom, you are my role model
Raising me to a young woman, from a little girl
Step by step, day by day
You've done a great job, in so many ways

When I need someone, you are always there
I never have to doubt that you care
I can always tell you what i'm thinking of
Mom, you have my love

You raised me the best you could
Took care of me like any good mother would
You brought me in this world, guided me through life
Giving me the things every kid needs to survive

You righted me when I was wrong
many times you helped me stay strong
Like many mothers, you've tried your best
And mom, i'd say you passed the test

Raising four girls by yourself
Must have been harder than I could inmagine
But obviously you knew just where to begin
And for that i'll love you to the end.....


Details | I do not know? | |

Alone A Tree In Mourning

A single bee
Alone a tree.
A single day in morning.
His slicker sly 
Of catching eyes.
His sweeter side of aging.
Like sticky seeds,
These blossom beads.
The winter plants are dying.
A drunken bee
Flies lazily,
Brought down by nectar drinking.

Our springs are wet
With sweet forgets.
Our hearts forever bleeding.
Our summers heat,
These days retreat,
Our only summer setting.
Our summers die
In lullabies.
I wish I wont stop dreaming.
A passer by
I might ask why
Alone a tree in morning?

And possibly 
He’d die to be 
My only glimpse of fleeting.
Without a care 
Our pulses dare
To reach the height of running.
A gentle sigh,
An open mind,
Holds within each waiting.

His ancient cry
Of reasons why.
His simple song of saving.
I'll never die 
He'll say tonight
While other dawns are breaking.
A passer by,
I might ask why
Alone a tree in mourning? 


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Captivity

Your presence holds me captive
I don't know if it's the way you talk
Or the way you walk
Something about you has me held in captivity

Your personality has a hold on me
I don't know what it is
But your charm just won't let me leave
Boy I swear, something about you has me in captivity

Whenever you come around, I become someone new
I begin to speak and do the things that you want me to
You've got me held captive, I don't know what's happened to me
But is this really captivity, if this is where I want to be?


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Help Her

I started to write you this song
The day that everything went wrong
You think I have it all together
And that I’m as light as a feather
You can’t see the pain from my past
All I ever do is see you fast
You want your life to be perfect
It’s not fair you excel in every subject
It was fine when you were by yourself
My life story is somewhere on a shelf
Now you’re taking someone else down with you
We all used to be stuck together like glue
I can see your pain
I will always feel I’m the one to blame


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Once broken, but not destroyed!

As I look back over my life, my heart was broken but I wasn’t destroyed,
Many people tried to take advantage of me like I was some kind of a toy.
When I was a child, I had this fixation that I knew what love is all about, 
I cried a lot because that was the only way for me to get things out.
As a teenager, I lost the dearest person to me, who was my mother,
I was angry with God because the pain that I felt was like no other.
My parents taught me how to be the best Christian all I can be,
When I finally got to know God for myself, I was definitely set free.
As I became older I carried around so much hurt and so much pain,
I know I wasn’t easy to deal with, but the family must have felt drained.
At times I had to express my anger by fighting and hurting myself,
The more I keep writing, one day I will see my book on the bookstore shelf
The most devastating thing I remember was the time I was raped,
At the time it was happening I didn’t have the strength to escape.
It also hurt when no one had faith enough to believe in me,
I tried to deal with the rape by becoming rebellious as I can be.
I thought by going to talk to a psychiatrist would have helped replace my anger,
Instead of making things better, he just helped himself on me and putting me in 
danger.
I didn’t want to live after all these things that happened in my life,
If I had killed myself, today I wouldn’t have become a wife.
A lot of people thought that I wouldn’t make something of myself,
They would look down on me like I was some kind of weird elf.
Through all of this, God showed me what TRUE love was all about.
I have to give him all the praise and honor with a loud shout.
I was a type of person that was definitely misunderstood,
I just wanted somebody to take the time out with me if they could.
Well, the devil thought that I was destroyed but I was yet broken,
I can truly say that I’m no longer his rebellious T-O-K-E-N


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Let us Learn

She lives on the edge of town
she wears a second-hand smile and a faded gown,
She spreads the love around
but at night when she cries there's no lovin' sound:
 
She's got a lot to give
There's a whole lot of life that she has yet to live,
She wants to make them see
All the fools walk around, but so blindly:
 
Who is she to talk?
She still hasn't learned to gracefully walk,
She admits, she's got a lot to learn
and with every mistake, comes the after-burn:
 
They've got a lot to say
and the stones from their mouths bruise her everyday,
She feels a lot of hurt
No one can see her clearly through the dust and dirt:
 
The fault may be her own
by now she's built a fortress from those sticks and stones,
she's suffered broken bones
but what can soothe the pain when it's your heart, alone?
 
By now, she's flown away
like the birds she was waiting for a sunny day,
what have you left to say?
You all stood by and simply watched her colors start to fade:
 
She's now the setting sun
smell her sweet fragrance when the day is done,
She's not the only one
We were taught to stand strong
but we all learned to run.


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Falling Down Like Rain

Falling down like rain
Everything is falling down like rain

My life, my love has fallen apart
Taken a stake drove it into my heart
Shattering it into a million pieces
Still through this my love increases
Seeping into my body so deep
Is this love I desire to keep

Falling down like rain
Everything is falling down like rain

Seeming so often to welt up in my eyes
I fall down for a few more cries
Tears stream down my flushed, red face
My mind full of thoughts that won’t erase
Thoughts of wanting, So pure, So true
Of this love I so need from you


Details | I do not know? | |

Time

For the life I live
It is not of mine
It is of my young
For now, they can not see 
But it is of time
For this love I have of them
All that I have and all that I do
Time will be for them to see
So you see my young
It's always been for you
Though the hurting words 
From time to time
The laughter we shared
Its all because I cared
For this life I live
It is not of mine
It is of time
Time that will be
For you to see



Details | I do not know? | |

Rise up from the Dirt

You have to fly 
to keep your wings,
You have to look
to see better things;

You must have faith
otherwise, you'll fall,
and before you can run
you first, must crawl;

How can you have hope
if you don't believe?
If you don't even try
You'll never achieve;

If you wan't to know
you'll just have to learn,
You can not touch fire
and expect no burn;

You must wake up
before you can dream,
and it can look like gold
but that thing won't gleam;

You have to be honest
if you want the truth,
to see into the future
Take a look at the Youth;

If you want it to be Love
it must touch the Heart,
Love never has to end 
if you know where to start;

Don't ever feel alone
We all get hurt,
Every beautiful flower
Must Rise up from the Dirt.


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Behind The Smile

You see her smile, and she seems alright.
But what you don’t see is that she is crying inside
You think if she is sad, why doesn't she shed a tear? 
Maybe showing emotion is her biggest fear. 
She doesn't want people to see something is wrong. 
All she wants is for people to think her heart is strong. 
She doesn't want to know what others might say, 
If she just broke out in tears one day. 
Just remember what goes up must come down 
And a smile can easily cover up a frown. 
This girl, if you cannot see, 
Is no one other than me. 


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You Don't Notice

You don't notice how I feel
You just think everything is real
But my pain can't heal 
When you are just standing still

I am always hurt but you don't know
It is not like i want to show
If i told you, you will blow
So my emotions, you will never know

You don't notice how I cried
How i am so broken deep inside
You notice how I lied
But you don't notice why

You blamed me for everthing I do
You suffocated me for all I'd done for you
If this is what you are going to put me through
Then, I will just separate from you

There is a reason why I don't talk everyday
You are the one who made me this way
So today, i shall pray
That hoping your love won't be delay

You are not concerned of me
You just think you are always right
But when I know you are wrong
All you did was start a fight

You don't notice how i feel
You don't notice how I cried
You are immatured of what is real
And you just left me broken inside.


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105

105
105
I just hit 105
Am I alive?
Am I alive?
Driving in rage at 105
Run away
Run away
Leave behind this day
105
105
I can’t escape going 105
A lonely heart
still falls apart
No matter how fast you go


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Untitled

It’s no gain to waste all this pain.

A disgrace to not always hide this face.

My mind is lame, and it’s a shame,

to feel so numb and not be dumb.

I hate to say life’s not always been this way.

It’s an outrage that I ever lived outside this cage.

Apathy works best for me.

Cold-hearted to myself, the cheaply departed.

Sadness makes me the happiest. 

My loneliness makes me feel so blessed.

This bitter resentment fills me with contentment.

My biggest folly ever was delaying this melancholy.

However this ailment is reaching my fulfillment,

Leaving me empty, sad, happy and whole.

My bitterness is such bliss.

A feeling that I would surely miss.

I often lament evading this torment.

This suffering is the greatest thing ever.

I frequently regret never being upset.

Now I daily look forward to the sorrow that’s promised by tomorrow,

and I pray it comes each and everyday.

Without its displeasure I cannot carry on,

for it is my greatest treasure.


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Make It Go Away

Can I kill the pain today?
Just make it all go away?
Can I breathe again today?
Just make it all seem so far away?
Yesterday is over
The past is dead
Why is it so hard to get that through my head?
All the sleepless nights spent thinking about you,
and how you made me smile
All the sleepless nights spent wishing
that you could have stayed for just awhile


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Generic Minds

generic minds listen to generic music
have generic thoughts that are unknowingly abusive
watch generic things talk about generic things
gee this generic *****is spreading like a disease
better get your flu shot 
thats what they said to me
a suicidal vaccine 
a subliminal killing spree
its contagious and the outrageous
thing about it is that the people are blind in an eye
that they didn't even know they had
it's sickening to watch these clueless civilians 
inside the looking glass
with nightmares of being free
without a key to their mind
for it is trapped in the frequency
in the illusion of time
bathed in our universe
killing all that refuse to see
those that admit to hypocracy
or see the message in hip hop
how cant you see
the message in the lyrics that
bring adolescents to their knees
from bullet wounds conflicting their flesh
contradicting that they're the best
but the songs keep telling them that they dont need no rest
that they dont wanna go home
that they should ride alone
with the gat as their only companion
and so the only path they choose is the one that they're told
until they grow old and hope turns to a window pane
inside a window pane, until all they feel is pain
they realize that the music itself is ashamed
so whats to look up to
when you cant even speak when you cant even walk because you look so bleak
your eyes are sunken from the tv you're infested with the dee zees
now its too late to turn around and live for your conscious
so when youre screaming oh please
close your eyes and bring your mind to life
open your eyes for the first time
and never wonder why
since the answer this entire time
has been inside
and you better find it before you die
you dont want your soul to be in a pool with all the others
a buncha brothers missing their mothers
but only seeing strangers
only feeling the haters
wishing they would have used their minds when they had them
and now its too late,
now it's time for another new born fate to grab them


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This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


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Special

To capture the attention everyone else gets but you
You do whatever you can to get it
Even if its bad
You continue to do it
To get the attention you never had
And the attention you will never get
You want the perfect body and soul that everyone else has
You want to feel important... special
So you seek for a better
Much higher thing
What you need
You dont quite know
But you decide that
You will do whatever it takes to make you happy
And sometimes
That means..
suicide
Sometimes it means
Shooting someone
Because the hole inside your heart needs filled
And thats the only thing you ever had
The only thing you see
The only thing that someone gave to you
The thing that got everyone talking about you
The thing that got everyone to even look at you
So if you decide to kill someone
You kill yourself afterwards
Because you felt lonely again
You felt that no one was watching you
That no one even cared 
Then you think about all the things that 
Bugged you
And you pull the trigger
Then theres no more you
Next time someone sees you
You will be on the news
Where now you are special
And important


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




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I Just Want My Life Back

Dedicated to everyone at Freedom Middle School
06-07
I love you guys with all my heart

The hallways are full of laughter, 
The friends are full of love
The good friends are playful,
Giving each other a little shove.
The classes were a bit of a challenge,
The tests more of a breeze
Studying was the hard part
But it put our minds at ease.
The drama was overrated
The fights were way too many
But the make-ups and break-ups made a difference
And made us think a plenty.
The teachers were our light
That got us to where we are
Even connections, useless as they seem to be,
Will help us go really far
The hearts were full of words unsaid
As we took our final steps
Outside the doors, into a new life
As we drew in our final, middle school breath.
The eyes were full of spilling tears
That cascaded down our cheeks
The sun was shining, so how could we
Be feeling so very bleak?
All of it is now a blur
I wish I could go back
And change everything that I had done
Just wipe it away to be packed.
But we can't change our mistakes in the past
And we can't relive our lives
As much as we wish we could return
To the place where our last tears together were cried.
The middle school years were the best
And we're sad to see them go
Especially those who didn't say a lot
Who didn't let their true love show.
We were alive when we were at school
Because we were with the people we loved
Our memories are the best token of that year
Even jokingly being shoved.
But now that all my friends are gone
Onto high school, seperate ones at that,
I'm still here, silently hoping
Wishing that I could go back.
But our time there was for the best,
And this has hit me with a hard SMACK!
I love everyone there, and now I have to say
I just want my life back.


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Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


Details | Free verse | |

Mother and son

I cherish you,
If you cherish me.

You brought me to life,
We began to meet through time,
Even though,
Sometimes you don't comprehend me,
Sometimes you don't understand me,
That sometimes time isn't enough,
That sometimes instincts get uncontrolled...,
But still,
You were designated for my life,
And you profile my living...
We share lives...

Although,
Time brings maturity,
And time doesn't last forever,
As well as we don't last forever...

There is no such thing,
As total perfection,
Even though,
Thank you...


Details | Ballad | |

Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


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We Must

An untimely moment I always imagined
A sad past that was a match made for heaven
Breathes taken with shattering fear
For the end of us was scarcely near

We were always waiting on that moment
But the moment ended up waiting for us
You were just my heart's kryptonite 
Unlike the epiphany I had last night

I've got a lot to say, so open up your ears
We are done, the past is here
A few steps closer to being obsolete 
You just make me feel make believe

I'm glad I left when I did
Cause you were only holding me down like an 8 year old kid
All the answers turned out to be wrong
Just like the time I meant making this song

We are a lesson of the past
A story our kids will learn so fast
Cause the months I spent with you 
Turned out to never be true

As if we were a nascar race
We finished in second place
My lucidity was taking over
Making me feel stronger then a four leaf clover

In the end the love was just lust
We must move on, we must.


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Daybreak

I wake on the sand
Right near the beach
You have yet to awake
Far out of reach
And Daybreak has arrived
A beauty unlike any other
Comparable only to us, girl
And how we love each other

So I gaze up alone
Marveling up at the sky
The warmth of the sun
Drying my eyes
I'm reflecting on us
Oh how each other we trust
I'm just so happy we're together
And I think to myself,
Just as this sun, we'll last forever

Then returning to be with you
I lay again now
Place my hand gently
On your warm tender shoulder
While I think of our lives today, love
And how they'll be when we're older...
I know there'd be no other way
So "I Love You" I make sure I say
To you, each and everyday


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Father to son (A monologue)

Life is full of many important decisions my son
Each decision is a step closer to your future
Every step could lead in many directions, as a man, you must choose one
Do not decide your path on others convictions, examine your own beliefs first
There is nothing worst than betraying ones self; consequences are grave, believe son, it hurts
Walk the path that you choose; sometimes the path gets a little rough and very steep
Be mindful and learn from all setbacks, this builds character; for all our actions we must reap
Stay focused on your prize, remain smart and be aggressive in your endeavors
Remain humble but celebrate your accomplishments; those memories will last forever
Continue to set and achieve goals; do not become content with the present
Contention precipitates laziness, your hunger is subdued and eventually severed
Become a strong, positive, productive and intellectual man
Set the example for your children; this will be a difficult task but do the best you can
Mistakes are common in life son; be responsible and rectify each and every situation
Lord willing, I am preempting one, by maintaining father and son communication


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Come As You Are

At one point in my life i was an artist
I used to paint and draw
Covering a piece of paper
In beautiful colors
And my art told a story
The sort of story you couldn't talk about
I used to go to school every day
Showing up late 
Wasn't something I'd do
But i dropped out
Leaving my education behind
I played the bass guitar
In a band called 
The Nocturnal
My fingers ran against that bass
Pure magic
The sound of the gods
Setting out to destroy the world
Pure Punk straight from Seattle
At one point i was clean
Sober and pure like a new born baby
Falling further into 
What you now call 
"disapointment"
Screwing up my veins
with every shot of herion
Killing my brain cells
With every joint i smoked
Clogging up my nose 
With every pill you could have known
I used to write lyrics
About my life
My childhood
I used to write journals
The ones you read in the book 
that was published of me
I got up on that stage every night
As i was
Nothing fake
Nothing glamourous
Only a few scars
One shot of heroin
Come as you are
The words only speak for 
Themselves


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It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


Details | I do not know? | |

Welcome 2013

Well we are already a couple of months in so i just wanted to say welcome. 
this will be a new journey for the both of us, so i hope it will be awesome. 
I will try to write more than usual this year, I promise. :)
What would help tho if you readers would send me topics and stuff to help me write about things cuz my mind goes way faster than my fingers and i cant think of just one thing. lol. so thank you readers. plz comment and tell me your thoughts.


Details | Lyric | |

My Message To You

Before I lay me down tonight,
There's something I'd like to say.
I hope these words come out right,
And my message as bright as day.

I know you really did feel love's light,
And I apologize with this poem I write.

So it's best if I take flight,
Far from your heart and go away.
If I'm unforgiven, it's alright;
I pray you find hope instead of dismay.



©2013 Honestly JT


Details | Free verse | |

Draconian II

[The Puppeteer]
The storm I see you in
Caught in the race of Caïn
Held by the arms you cannot see--the conducter of Ennui 
-No stronger than the void you hold within-
It began with a hope, an obsession
Casted into, slavery of repugnant possessions 
Granted by, the Avaricious Lords, the ones we serve for
-They Told Us to pray, hope, away from despair, the despair caused by their immaculate Hands
Malice, envy, greed, was granted to me, The Feudal Dream, we want to be Them, just like him
-just how he solaces us, ambivalent hope, engendering knives to my throat 

[The Fall]
In this Valley of morning and weeping
Love lies bleeding, in desperate fear
With their talons, the hunt to rip out thy heart 
As each velvet petal falls apart
Her body chained in their bile and lies, covered with their red-spy
-sent just to check if our souls are in line, do not defy 
Her blood velvet and pure, drips away with innocence of the amber guardian 
The soil of plagues, beggars, and graves
Is know her home, the coven of solace
Though the seed has died--resurrection Is near passing through death's fear
One stronger than you--and thy funeral skies
She is alive--anew
But the vapors still remain
The Apocalypse is here, do we fear?
Just for the death of our sins
Elysia never Seemed so far away

[Our Damnation]
Solitary ruins, Fulfill their visions
We strayed far from the depths within 
We all lingered to his solace--lies
-you make the sign everyday, but lack toknow the name
We are just the toys, he pulls all of the strings
We are nothing in this burning world
of Decadence, and Failed Semblance

[Draconian] 
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from the Fallen's son
Draconian--Their empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach the shadows within


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Things Have Changed

Beauty queen of just nineteen
Your gorgeous smile lights my day
They say: "Give up, don't even bother"
But I just cannot keep away

Bewitching eyes, angelic contour
You cast your spell so graciously
Heart skips a beat just like it's ought to
When ever you are near me

Tell me, tell me you're the best I have seen
I can't help but imagine how it could have been
I still live in that kingdom built of thin air
Your presence around me is so hard to bear

All week long he longs to see her
To bask in her sunshine, to look in her eyes
All days long he misses her dearly
And paints her picture in the midnight skies

Tell me, tell me you're the best I have seen
I can't help but imagine how it could've been
I still live in that kingdom built of thin air
Your presence around me is too hard to bear

But things have changed, I have a new passion
And you haven't changed and you drift out of fashion
I waited too long and I've had enough
You pretend not to care but I see through your bluff

Tell me, tell me I'm the best you have seen
There's no need to imagine how it could have been
Didn't think it could happen, I'm sorry, it's true
But this heart no longer is beating for you

2010


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Cliff Hanger

I don't want to know what you think of me
Am I your hero or am I you misery
Every step I take is another reminder
That you're nothing but my biggest desire

Spent all day setting up a picnic for two
Ended up sitting alone downing my booze
How could I had thought we were meant to be
You did nothing but infect this perfect reality

Abandon all ships for the sake of love
The last thing I want is a plus one with her drug
On the edge of the no named rye cliff
Is where my heart belongs on this trip

I'm as useless as a horse with no legs
What else is new, I'm just like a needle in the hay
I've held on to your words of the past
I guess it's true that the nice guy finishes last

We talked and we walked in the prairie of life
You were a reason that I wanted to get lost
I could taste the poison from the human mind
You were the only one that could spin me blind

Tomorrow is the day I would feel alive
But that's a nice memory that will pass me by
I'll never have the joy or smile
What's this game?, I'll be gone for awhile

I wonder if I'm running through your thoughts
Turning the pages without the power to stop
I'm running away from everything I've known
All you have to know is that I'm better off on my own


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Go be yourself

You my dear,
Have wondered far and near.
To find a place,
To rest your weary face.
A place so sweet,
Oh what a treat,
That will be,
If only you could see.



You my dear,
Have been wondering far and near,
To find someone, 
who will tell you your his number 1.
Dont you fret,
You'll find him someday i bet.
But for now,
Go and be yourself,
For you can be nobody else.
<3


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Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


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The Dedicated

Emotions so fervent, the mind of the dedicated
With a path so rough he wonders how he tolerates it
But he keeps moving with a steady locomotion
Through stormy valleys and turbulent oceans

Once or twice, he may have hesitated
But his reasons weren't languid, unsated
He looked around at his life
Tempestuous eyes making sure his is path right

He stumbles forward though dark unstable passageways
Always facing his goal, vehement not to turn away
He's like a strong tower, beaten but still standing
No one knows when it'll fall or where it would be landing

He's not too proud to tell you that he never cries
But it's a desperate situation when tears leave his eyes
Usually involving the loss of something vital in his life
But with a kings golden spirit he makes that sacrifice

He reaches his goal, basked in satin moonlight
He kept moving, kept the finish line in sight
And at last he can sit on his throne
Smiling because people that told him he wasn't going to make it...were wrong


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Death by Beauty

A smile moves across her lips
She gazes at her crime
A scar across her flesh and soul
To haunt her for all time
She’ll waste away for all she cares
Never stops to use her brain
Doesn’t care about the ones who are close
All she cares about is pain

She wants to be what the others expect of her
Doesn’t care about the self-respect for her
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Can’t she see what all she has got
Already?

Never to go back again
She feels the world is at an end
She will never show her grief
Although she’ll cry in empty streetS

She’d sooner live like a desolate mole
Living in fear in an empty hole
Screaming silent wails alone
Content to live in her mental home

A final tear falls from her eye
It hits the ground, it’s followed by
A beautiful body, mutated by hate
A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late
One two many bricks in the wall in her mind
Molding her demise because her heart was blind
This self conscious being could never have won
For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones

She wouldn’t fight back, wouldn’t respect herself
In the end, she managed only to wreck herself
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Little did she know, she had all she had sought
Already


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Summer Waterfall

Deep in the woods I hear an angel's lyrical call.
Tranquil and serene, a majestic summer waterfall.
Where the oaks and wildflowers shade the creek,
reflections fall to earth from rays of destiny,
refreshing my soul and setting my spirit free.
I smell the aroma of rain mixed with the paradise breeze.
Tranquil and serene, a natural wonder and rainbow of peace.
A cascading sparkling jewel,
above a wave rippling whirlpool.
Upon the wind rides the angel's lyrical call.
Tranquil and serene, a majestic summer waterfall.


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Welcome to the Planet

Welcome to the planet
Wake me when it’s over
The dreamer’s always tempted
To come around and show her

And I just keep wastin my time
On girls that won’t love, me, like their wine
And it’s just too easy to blame
The rock and the system for causing my pain
And I just want you to know that I’m through
With being alone, when I’m with you 
And when you mask the truth with your lies
It just won’t get any better for the rest of your guys

And when you fall asleep
The night covers your tears
And the darkness sees you weeping
Cause your conscious can’t be cleared
This year you’re feeling colder
Your heart’s a little older
You haven’t found your soul mate
And now you think you’re too late

But one look inside of my eyes
Gives you the hope that there’s a guy
Who can make you feel happy and sad
And it’ll be worth it to feel that again


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Deadman Wonderland

Now that you're becoming Undone It's time to have some fun In Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao The setting Red Sun of Kali Shows it's time for your life to Pay We are the Kind to be feared -your friends We look like anyone you see Thuggee--Death's Devotees Face our treachery Bhowanee we must please She needs more--we have found our mark, our mark Won't you be the one to save humanity? Can't you see this is Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Sacrifice! For The Black-Skinned Queen Sacrifice! For Our Mother Kali Sacrifice! It's Not Enough Sacrifice! No Mercy! This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland


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Wasting Time

Way above the street lights
Watching yourself die
Waisting time

They left you in so much pain
You lost everything
For so many years
You pushed me out
Cant describe how i feel

This time im not going to watch myself cry
im not going to bury myself on the inside
You say you want the old me back
If you want me back
Your going to have to ask
Nice than that


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Im Sorry

I hope you remember all of the bad things you have done so far
I hope you still have the chance to fix them 
Im sorry it took me forever to write this letter to you
Ive been meaning to save you from what your about to become
For some reason i cant get a grip on it
I dont know what i want to say
I dont know how to help you
Im about to tell you about some of the things you are about to do
Right now your 16
Right now you are sitting on your bed listening to music
Reading a book on your favorite band
Smoking that cigarette
That will soon get you into all the other things that causes more problems for you
Try to avoid the guy you are about to let into your life
Remember that your not allowed to talk to strangers
Remember your mom told you that when you were 7
Its about time you listen to her
You will meet a girl
And you will end up hurting her
Dont take her to that club 
Where your band is about to play
Your not good at singing
And your bass playing still needs some work
Dont embarass yourself
It lowers your self esteem
And you will try to committ suicide
Multiple times
But dont worry 
It doesnt work
So stop trying to 
Kill yourself
Remember the night when you ran away
And went to go live with your aunt
Yea...
Shes about to kick you out
Look under your bed
You will find 500 dollars
You put it there when you were young
You forgot 
Thats why im writing you
Remember it
Take it and use it wisely
Dont use it on the drugs 
Dont use it on the beer
Use it towards a better future
So then i dont have to write this letter again.

12-13-12


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Goodbye

Remembering all the things we used to share
things we used to do together
when we were one
crumbling like buring leaves
glue couldnt put them back together
words he used to speak
the air that filled my lungs
Heart beating faster with every word
the feeling disapeared the night it all went wrong
nothing but guilt and tears filled my eyes
praying that the devil would make me yours
and youll be mine again
nothing more is left to say but the word we all fear
Goodbye


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Along The Way

I say goodbye
To this chapter in my life
Im sure you will get the answers
When im gone
So when the day comes
The sun will not touch my face
Theres mistakes
The path is long
Look at my face
The stories it could tell 
The ones that wont erase
Tell the ones that cared enough 
That i finally left this place
So play the song
Its something to remind you
When im gone


Details | Ballad | |

Cassandra

Revelation Said In Stone Appeared an Eon ago of Shame and Sin, Something we all know But not it's rise, For is has already became Virtue Flaming Skies from an Angel So Bright The World's Cure for Soul-Blight A Hell on Earth A Savior's Worth So many Dreams are cast then Forgotten So many lives are brought up then just Thrown back down Maybe she is The Cure Maybe she is The Plan All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Release me and Burn away this land Hold me by The Hand Tell me the past is just pretend Give me The Cure If this is your destiny Then May it be mine I would die in time I'm Just another Obstacle In the way of your divine Wings Forget me Cassandra For Doom was already meant for me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Valkyrie of Heart Angel of Grace I surrender to You Savior by Destiny Dispel all Tragedy Especially me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim


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bang bang (rap)~~~~REVISED EDITION~~~~~~

bang bang choo choo train
come on honey, shake that thing
reese's reese's buttercup 
mess with me i'll mess you up

peanut butter jelly time 
let's all have fun tonight
every time the night's alive
music blares throughout the air 
this party is a rockin' fair 

i swing my hips left to right 
clock ticks on, i party all night 
sunrises arrives
time to go
let's keep this party goin' on!

music-rockin' (blarin')
beat was pumpin'
into you i'm always bumpin'

sweet dreams, gotta go
gave you my number
see ya next show

peace!
 


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Stairway to Hell

So much rage
caught up in depression
now i have no one to turn too
i sit alone by my bed looking at the demon 
He stands next to the closet

I wake up every night at 2 am
just before dead time
He makes sounds
i ignore them

He opens the closet door
And slams it shut
scarring me 

One night he visits me in a dream
A dream where my family dies because i killed them
I wake up screaming
I would never hurt my family 

Sometimes its hard to ignore the other world
They make you crazy and depressed 
now you have to pay for the music that drug that demon to your home
All the metal music that killed you
The music that they said would save you

Ask your self are you alive now? 
now that the demon got you?

I think of how it could be different 
how if i listened to country my family would still be here
Demons are everywhere know that?
One is with you right now, watching you type your poems
Watching you read mine

What can they do you ask?
They can do much much more than what you expect
They crush your insides
Make your heart cold
They make you hurt

These demons are not to play with
A found out the hard way
now the pain wont stop
I cant make it go away

You will soon see what i have seen
Cling to god 
Pray everynight before you close your eyes
Pray out loud every morning
Be thankful you havent seen your demon yet

All of us have one
they are all over the world
They will drag you to hell with them!


Details | I do not know? | |

poems

poems of love 
poems of hate 
closing doors
 and clicking gates 

Gates of white 
Gates of blue
 all beg for something new
 
something new
  something old
 something saying lets be bold 

i  know you
 and i know something you 
would like to do 

 so take my hand 
and lets leave behind the seas
 and the sand
 
 fly to a new beginning 
leave all these people we watch 
sinning
 


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Here Is Gone

Ever thought of something so much
That when you wake up it just automatically
Crawls into your brain cells
Shoots them with laser beams
Until they explode 
And that’s the only thing you have left to think of
Because everything else is fried
Ever wish you could go back and change that night
Wish that you wouldn’t have left her side
That you would have just listened to your heart 
Instead of your gut
Instead of that little voice that echoes
In the back of your head
Ever wished that you wouldn’t be reading this poem
That everything could be like your dreams
Like a family who gets along
Like having a famous relative
Dreaming that you had a better life
More money to spend
More bass guitars to buy
Less drama
Then you find this special someone
Who you can really relate to
And you never want to let them go
But somehow they slip through your fingers
Then your life crumbles 
Falling down like the rain in a thunderstorm
Wishing you could change everything
But you just start over
And try to move on
And somehow end up at the beginning all over again



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Journey

After being shattered,
 torn apart inside,
 a hole was carved out of me
 and something in me died.
 
Our dreams, desires and hopes,
 so young and plentiful,
 all too quickly melted away,
 both of us feeling dismal. 

The time that then came after;
 so dark, unhopeful and bleak.
 The Heart could see no light,
 the body soon became weak.
 
A living, moving corpse,
 an empty, lonely shell.
 The Soul would drift, unheard from,
 locked in its gloomy shell.
 
But life is so persistent,
 and always will pull through.
 Subtle, gentle rays of light
 will once again shine true.
 
The pieces of Self are gone,
 and an emptiness remains,
 Yet the dark thoughts drip away,
 the Soul no longer in chains.
 
So Self must be reborn,
 clay in a potter's hands.
 Piece by piece, the hole is filled,
 done so with multiple strands.
 
Recreated little wonder,
 dance with Joy once more.
 Let your dreams regain their wings,
 and see what He has in store.


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LifeLess

Life Less
By: IzaDonna

Such a lonely girl along the road
No one helps her, no where to go
Tears are falling from her face
She wipes them away with disgrace
Nothing but the clothes on her back
Once standing in light now in black
N I'm hoping she still has drive
N keep pushing to stay alive

Chorus:
As the memories come flooding in
She realizes shes lived in sin
Can she change it, starting today
Before her life fully slips away
Can she finally fight her fight
Cause if not she'll die tonight
Can't u realize she isnt a soldier
All she really wants is someone to hold her

As she looks at the poison
Her soul has finally chosen
She lifts it up n throws it on the ground
Thanking the strength thats deep inside
Finally free again, dont have to hide
Erase the slate, n take a stand
This is it now, one last chance

Chorus X2


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Filled with Song

My fingers brush the strings of an old guitar, hidden away in the closet in my room.
A small smile plays my lips and I close my eyes, picturing me playing that guitar.
Me singing some song on a bench in the rain.
Singing the music that makes my heartbeat pulse through my whole body.

I can sing. I know I can, I just need practice.
I laugh as I picture the look on my friends faces when I tell them this.
I smile and put the guitar away, all the while thinking of how I'd love to learn to play 
that guitar.
To go to a friends party and sing. To make them feel what I do when I ride a high 
brought on by nothing more or less than music.

Breathless, I sit on my bed, my face glowing.
I will learn. I will learn to let out the song that makes my heart fill with so much joy I 
feel like I'm going to explode.

Still smiling, I put on my favorite music and let that high take me to a higher place.


Details | I do not know? | |

I am...

I am a poet writing of my pain
I am a person living a life of shame
I am your daughter, hiding my depression
I am your sister, striving to make a great impression
I am your friend acting like I'm fine
I am a dreamer, wishing this life, wasn't mine
I am a girl who struggles with suicide
I am a teenager, pushing her tears aside







Side note: (Writing for other ladies out there, not so much myself, so don't worry about me)


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heart shaped box

Sitting cross legged on the floor
He pulls out the heart shaped box from underneath his bed
Opening the top and laying it on the floor
He looks inside the heart shaped box
Finding old pictures
Broken memories
And regrets of his own
He looks through the pictures
Gasping when he finds what he's been looking for
An old picture of him as a child
Glaring at the picture 
He sees an old man in the background
Bringing back horrible memories
Of the old man beating him
The old man wasn't old
But acted old
he quickly shuts the box and puts it underneath his bed
His mother walks up the stairs
"ready ?" she asks
He gets up on his two feet and walks downstairs with her
They gather there things
And walk out to the vehicle
She slams the door and starts the car
The boy sits in the seat and watches the view
As there driving by
The reached the destination
They both get out of the car
she holds a tissue in her right hand
The young boy walks up the stairs 
He sees a whole bunch of people
Standing around a coffin
The old man's funeral
The boy walks up to the casket
Stares at the old man
The boy touches the old man's hand and smiles


Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


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-------------------------The Soul I Sold------------


If I seem down forgive me Frowns I carry around live in me When I break you see right through me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... Your words so true renew me If only you'd re-design me Take time rewind refine me Recreate the mold without lies I’ve told... GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD....


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Feelings

                                            



                                                Feelings

                                   How you make me feel
                                        I feel no pain
                                 Your laugh makes me smile
                                 Your voice gives me butterflies
                                        I know it's not hate
                                 It's not I like and it's to early to say love
                               Yet the reality of you is better thin a dream

                                                 Jay Johnson


Details | I do not know? | |

When I hold your hand

When I hold your hand
I know its true
your love for me
has truly grew
from a hill to a 
mountain
your the only one
I can count on
to be there when times
are lonely
in all your sweet
kisses and hugs, you
have shown me
your love is my treasure
and we can stand strong
through any weather
as turtle doves,
we fly together forever
when I hold your hand


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Life as an Addict





                                        

                                     Life as an Addict


                         Life as an addict, life as an addict
                       Life as an addict is like running into
                            A reinforce cinderblock wall
                                    Losses after losses 
                                           Virtually
                     Ending in a jail cell or luxurious casket
                      Day after day the addiction keeps at it
                                           Eventually 
                                Opening doors to the soul
                          Stepping inside leading you down
                               A wicked and dark passage
                                           Ultimately
                                     Leaving you naked
                                  Clinching your wounds
                                      Shattering dreams
                                      Low self – esteem
                                    Thoughts in captivity
                                          Life of misery
                         Life as an addict limited imagination
                                 Waste of God’s creation
                                          But forgiven
                                      Evil, dark passage 
                                  Reinforce walls, jail cell
                                Lost soul, luxurious casket 
                            Life as an addict, life as an addict
                                        Life as an addict.


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UNFOLD

The pain of change as it unfolds
Is oft a tale that stays untold
What is seen is a whole creature
not deep holes in the feature
nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt

It all begins with a soft kiss
He is walking with a false bliss
Only following in paw prints
But the nature of mom's lips
Is to rob him of all innocence

Trapped in warm spindles of fear
A wrapped life form kindles in here
Four years bound to shingles of moss
Time to leave this life of sloths
Break free like that of a moth
and Rise again like Christ on the cross


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you dont understand

Hes inlove with his sadness
Being alone helps him think
He can hear his thoughts clearly
Hes getting to the point where
He loves being the center
Of attention
Being depressed helps his sickness
This goes on
And on
And on
Looking at life in a different way
You cannot see what he sees
Love isnt pure
Its evil spelt backwards
As is devil spelt
Backwards is lived
He has his hyper days
Three days of hyper
Three days of depressed
Three days of death
No days of life
This goes on
And on
And on
Sitting all alone in his room
Writing this story your reading
Can you see?
What he sees?
Or do you not understand sadness
Enough to grasps
What hes trying to say to you


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The Fear

The Aphotic rays reach higher
And shame, shade reigns over all
Lacuna, Apathy is all I feel as I fall into the ashed grave
I'm living, the slowest way to die
Elysia, rapture where are you now

What will I do when the flame is extinguished 
What will I do when I drown in ash
What will I do when they sing my name in funeral dirges 
How can this be all, one short organic vitality
Scares to die, but afraid of a new day

Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day
Will I Ressructe to Paradise, burn in Hell, or lay in Sheol
Is this a there is, one feather, to the dirge
My life so long - my suffering grows
Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day

In all of the ashes, a flame begins
Once again, here I am
Living, the slowest way to die


Details | I do not know? | |

Lost love but I want u back

Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.


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Meet Me At The Gates

Standing across from damien
whom had been his lover for yea
He takes his heart out of his chest
And places it in Damiens hands
Kurt says "this heart belongs to you"
He askes Damien "do you want it?"
Damien places Kurts heart in his hands
"i dont"
Kurt throws it to the ground and stomps on it
Looking down at his crumpled heart a tear 
Falls from his cheek
He starts walking away
He falls to his knees
Like suffocating
Damien runs over to him
But is blocked by a black mist
Damien stands there whispering
"Kurt come back"
Kurt stands up and places his heart
Into Damiens pocket
As Kurt turns and walks away
The sky opens up
And kurt rises to the clouds
A few years later Damien joins him up at the gates


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Alive

Have you ever noticed how a paint brush dries out
After two minutes of just sitting there?
Kind of like how you have been drawing for 10 
years and all of a sudden you forget how to
You lost all your techniques
And you move on and find something better
like the lyrics you used to write in school
Thinking one day you'll sing them to the world
And when you finally get a band together
Someone got grounded and everything falls apart
like that time when you did drugs
Thinking it would solve your problems
But it just made them worse
Like a friend
Telling you how to live your life
And tell you what you should and should not do
Its like the first time you felt alive
Holding her hand and being close to her
Then she goes away
And you are forced start all over again
without her


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Is She The One?

Is she the one my dream come true
The one that makes me whole.
Throughout the end of time
I'd give my heart and soul. 
Is she the one with qualities to endure the test of time.
Her unexpected stare 
sends shivers up my spine.
And gives me butterflies inside
Is she the one I can't decide
That always keeps me satisfied
My mind is left preoccupied
You have ignited every flame
Within my beating heart.
Now far from you I cannot part.
Is she the one my sweetheart
the angel in my life.
For you I'd walk a thousand miles
The toughest ride you've made worthwhile
I've looked beyond your hazel eyes
Your every glimpse, your every smile
In love we've deeply intertwine
Is she the one who will be there
to catch me when I fall.
That picture perfect puzzle 
To you I give my all.
Is she the one 
Well better yet she 's got the hooks on me.
The fear of losing her is deeper than the sea.





©RashanaKing2010


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Unforgotten

I've captured you from death's snare,
While others were unaware
No more worrying,
You are unforgotten

You are alive
Others deny it 
Well, I know...
You are unforgotten
In my memory
You are unforgotten 	


Details | Light Poetry | |

Being in love

we are now together
we exchanged our heart
with each other
we truly love
one another
with patience and little fear...
but O my dear..
are we here..? 
I think no...
I too am burning
in the same fire
I am just learning
the way to love, from you
and I am not a liar
we are in love
and out of this world
far away from loneliness
even though we live
among people of mind curled
I am preparing myself
to fulfil all your needs
you don't know yourself
that I am feeing guilty
for all my bad deeds
my deeds that hurt you
that brought tears in your eyes
but O my dear! I love you
and for you I can even wait
sitting up above the SKIES


Details | Rhyme | |

Laugh It Off

It's not easy being me
At 16 the seniors life is far from heavenly
I'm ranked as a minor and portrayed as a thug
A young man just trying to make it in the world

The social network has me on the low grid
Just a "Wana Be" trying to come up and get big
It's all good i shrug and laugh it off
Constant pounding irons out the soft

Small comments truly don't phase me
But even steel bends when beat constantly
The mask is cracking and dark is invented
And i focus to make sure i don't vent it

The anger bred from an under ranked master
The rage fed to an underpaid senior
It's all good i shrug and laugh it off
Hiding the feelings with a quiet cough

The past is past i move on and keep my head up
Adjusting the mask and still trying to come up
I live the life of an outcast
Accepted in the area but hoped to move on fast

I always look for a way to prove it
But it seems that i can't quite do it
It's all good i shrug and laugh it off
I won't be remembered maybe I'll just "Get Lost"


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The teenage fast lane

Living on this weird lane,
Here you will never see it rain,
Nor will you leave this road sane.
We are living fast,
We've forgotten the past,
We wont live long, lets make this last.
Our postivity will never be a crime,
Now that we are in our teenage prime.
We will see the future,
We will always be mutual.
We have made history, crossing the line,
We are taking our time.
Some of us are living in the big city,
Some of us are itty-bitty.
No more clicks,We are just doing this for kicks.
Lets forget our differences and our pain,
We Welcome You To The Teenage Fast Lane!


Ettie-Hi yall this is my first collaboration with someone......
This was done with my Little Sister Grace....It was sooo much fun writing this poem...
Hope yall like it;)
Grace- I wrote this poem with my big sis when we were hanging out and I love that
she includes me in her poetry she's the best sister.


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A Gray Christmas

The little boy sits by the christmas tree 
Full of light and color
Trying to figure out what all the colors are
He puts his little hands on the ornaments
Trying to see what they are
Feeling them
He steps back and falls over a present
He feels around the box trying to open it
Only seeing alittle 

Mean while on the phone..

his mom is talking to the doctor

"do you think he will be able to see by christmas?" she says
The doctor replies "theres no guarentees, he is 67 % blind, when we did the test with him, he described the color blue as a dark black, and a yellow as a light gray, your son only sees in black and white and im not sure if we can fix that. but we will do our best"

A breathe escapes from her lips as she turns and looks at her son
The doctor explains "his surgery is set for Dec. 7th. be here around 8 am and we will see what we can do, im trully sorry"
He hangs up.

Back in the living room

The boy stands up and walks over to his mom
"mom, have you seen the christmas lights?" he says

She replies "yes sweety i have."

He hugs her leg and says "are they black and white?"

She answers "no sweety" she points to a light bulb on the tree

"this one is blue" she smiles

He grabs the light bulb and repeats "this one is blue" and giggles

She lays him down in his bed as he quickly falls asleep

She sits down on the chair and thinks
"to me. because my son cannot see the beautiful lights and feel the joys of christmas, everything is gray for me. nothing will fill my empty heart"


There are no smiles, when everything is gray, when you cant see the colors of a bright day




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Sad Excuses

Kill it all away
Like they havent hurt you before
You give them a new begining
But they keep using the same old Excuses
Everytime you ask them something about that subject
They dont reply
Or they give you that sad excuse
Arent you tired of it yet?
Or are you still going to play the same old games
That excuse kept inviting you in
You kept using it 
hanging on to the excuse
Just to say they will change
But have they?
You cant see it
You havent noticed
You are still blind from there first excuse
Still letting them hurt you
Do they have an excuse for that too?


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December

Arguing with one another
Texting back and forth
Owen drives in the blizzard
Kurt is at home

Kurt sends Owen another message
"why did you tell them about me doing drugs?"
"that wasnt your place, i dont care if there your parents too"
"shouldnt i be the one to tell them?"

Owen tries to reply to the message Kurt has sent him
He loses control of the wheel
driving into a field 
Kurt recieves a message from Owen
"Im sorry I..."
The message was never finished
The car slamming into a tree
The tree branch breaks through the window
Thrashing into Owens stomach
As Owens head slams back and forth
The car is left smoking

Kurt knows something is wrong
but leaves things be

50 Minutes Later...."

Kurt and Owen's parent recieve a call from the police
"Is this the parent of Owen Everdeen?" the police ask
the mother answers "yes is something wrong? is it Owen, what did he do now?"
"Mam', Your son was in a accident, they are life flighting him to the hospital"
She drops the phone, and grabs her purse and yells at Kurt to come on.

She drives fast to get to the hospital to see her son
Owen was life flighted to the hospital
The police had to use the jaws of life to get him out of his car

They finally make it to the hospital
The Dr. asking "Are you the mother of Owen?"
She cries "yes, where is my son?"
Kurt stands upset at himself for fighting with Owen minutes before
Remembering Owens last text to him. "im sorry I.."

The Dr. explains to the mother 
"Owen didnt make it"
She sits in sadness
Numbness
She cannot breathe

Kurt runs after the Dr.
"this cant be, he has to be ok" as he starts to cry.
Just the night before him and his brother
Were playing guitar hero together
Remembering the last moment
The arguing
The reqruet Kurt is now feeling

"Owen Ryan Everdeen: Jan. 1st, 1990- December 8th, 2011"
To a good brother and a great friend, im sorry about all those times i have let you down
Im sorry for yelling at you that night, and causing your crash, the guilt i feel wont leave
I am sorry that you went through that, and left this world that way, forgive me for what i 
have caused. I love you.


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Can You Be Mine

She's marking my direction,
It's her that I see,
And there's nothing I can say or do,
She's struting down the street,
With fire in her feet,
And I'm thinking I should make a move,

No steps I heard,
She glides like a bird,
And her eyes sparked a perfect blue,
Her voice blew like the trees,
I fell to my knees,
As she said how do you do,

(chorus): 2x
I said, can you be mine,
Can you be mine,
I said, Can you be mine,
Love me forever and more,

Her eyes opened wide,
As though she was surprised,
She didn't know what to say,
She grabbed a pen and wrote down her number,
Before I asked her for her name,
She said her name was Lisa,
I said so nice to meet ya,
This girl, was playin heard to get,

I said I know you've been hurt in the past,
But you won't be hurt this time,
Her hair was so soft and beautiful,
So I told her not to pay a dime,

(Chorus): 3x

(Bridge)
Talking:
(I love the way you movin ya body, baby)
(I got so excited, baby)
(That's the way, you got me, you got me)


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For the Dying Orphan

I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky “It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…”


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Unsuspecting Victim

Four teenagers 
Paige
Matt
Kevin
Kat

Backgrounds-
Paige- psychic, can see and talk to the dead, has demons who come to her for help
Matt- Has demons attachted to him, dating paige
Kevin- A Nerd from school, intersted in pot
Kat- Training psychic, paiges best friend, dating kevin

Prom Night- 2011

Sitting in the car positioning themselves
into a compfy spot
Matt sits in the driving seat
Paige in the passenger seat
Kat and Kevin in the back seat
Kat laying on Kevins shoulder
All of them latch there seat belts
Driving unto the road to go to after prom
Paige sees someone
Someone no oe else can see but her
Sitting right beside her is her (demon but almost human ghost) friend
He whispers "i can try to keep you save from everything, but i cant make a promise)
She looks down at Matts foot
Holding unto the break peddal is one of Matts demons
The demon breaks the pedal and has one hand into the engine of the car
A car coming up behind them
Trying to pass them
Matt decides to make it difficult for them to pass
As he does he tries to hit the breaks
And they didnt work
They drive into the ditch 
Trying not to hit the other car infront of them
Flipping a few times as they land with all the tires on the ground and the 
Top of the car towards the sky
Paige lays on the windsheild her head cut by the glass
She looks  at her self
She sees her body laying there looking up at Matt as he smirks to her
His eyes turn black and he smirks again
Paiges ghost friend opens the door and pushes her out
Far from the car
She now lays close to the road
She watches the car as it rolls off the hill
Flipping it again, also looking down at her lifeless body
She sees Matts demon again

The Night After

Paige was rushed to the hospital
Matt, Kevin and Kat left with only bruises and a few cuts
Paiges brain was internally bleeding
She stands in the hospital 
Outside of her body
Standing looking at her ghost friend
He ssays to her "as much as i want you to be here with me, your family needs you in your other life"
She wakes up a few hours later, in her body, and getting better


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Bruise

bruise bruise bruise 
cut 
bruise bruise bruise 
cigarette burn 
bruise bruise bruise 
cut
bruise bruise bruise
broken heart 
bruise bruise bruise 
distracted mind.


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In your arms

In your arms
I certainly
Found the heaven.
Don't know why? 
Your soft lips
I am hard to forget.
Your eyes, 
Says everything.
I have no control
Over me and my 
Thoughts.
I want to see you
Every time, everywhere.
You are just unaware
Of this fact.

In your arms
I certainly
Found the heaven.
Don't know why? 
Your beautiful soft hands
Caresses my face.
I just have no control
On my hormones.
You give me pleasure.
And yours looks
You have all the
Resources that
I find in a lass.
Thank you.


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The Land of Sophia

Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Are the Lies held worth it in time Only embracing The Veil of Logic The Truth is cast into shade where all vices are soon to be made For all of our dreams and dramaticies The Destruction Star poisons seas Far from This Galaxy among the stars I can see myself, And The One I've became Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Caught in our lust, of forgetting trust I wonder can we break free of bound forever in the clutches of Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Who's desperate For Love Who's desperate For Light yet wallows in Blight and chooses to wait--forevermore The wait in Summer--An Eternity Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night We don't chose what's right I can't believe we are able to see this far Crawling in Shadows Never will breath find it's light Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night
**Mark Jansen, Guitarist, Male Vocals, and main songwriter of Epica**


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TWLOHA - you are loved

This is a tribute to TWLOHA (To Write Love On Her Arms)

You Are Loved...

Put down the knife
and listen to the song
You can't keep going 
like this for long,
Think of all the
beauty inside,
& not of why
youre criticised.
Know your better days
are ahead,
You are more loved
then you'll ever know,
This is not the end
of your story,
You still have
much more to grow!
You are not alone.
Know someone smiles
because youre alive,
So think of them,
& not of
why you cry.

June25,12


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Bicycle Beds

Written February 26, 2013


Its all this new slang
Got them banging their heads
Against their bicycle beds
And the foolhardy pledge 
To ride tricycles instead

We are the kings and queens
Of the wonderful yard
Of the street corner dancers
And panhandling bards

A generation will rise
So duck and cover your eyes
We're building up through the night
No need to put up a fight

Godspeed to those approaching death
They won't get to see
What we've got coming next
You'll faint from holding your breath

This cold case is closed
No need to stay in repose
To dwell on precious regrets
That are laced with vellocet


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Blind

So many songs describe how i feel
But you wouldnt have the time to listen to them
To actually figure out what they meant
Or how much they related to me
If i died today i can say the only
Thing you would miss
Is me trying to make you smile
Things have been depressing me for years
All the anger i hold is real
Falling further into soemthing
You wouldnt want me to be
I know if i told you 
You would be confused
You wouldnt know what you did
To make me do what im about to do
I let myself cry to long
That i buried myself alive on the inside
I wish i could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
I guess its better that i trapped myself in my own way
At one point the chain broke away
And i had my own time
I took an early flight and i made it home
I realized how unfair you were being
Everyone always got more than i did
Got your attention
More than i did
If i played my bass 
Would you hear the anger behind it?
If i let you read my poems
Would you understand why im writing it?
If i told you i thought about doing something bad
Would you try to make everything i hate about you better?
I dont think you understand 
Maybe i should explain more
Or would i bore you?
Probally...
So you know
I wanted a father
But instead i had a dad
To me
It hurt
It still does
And i watched myself die
From hurting so much
Cutting my heart out
On the inside
Im different 
In so many ways
My friends give me more complaments
Then my mother has my whole life
"thats good" isnt what i want from you
I would rather have you really 
Grasping the meaning behind why
I am writing poems
The meaning behind why i draw
Or play the bass
Even if i died i wouldnt think
You would get it
If i did what im going to do
I would have you right where i want you
If you want me back
Your going to have to ask
Nicer than that
Things in my life are different than yours
I see things differently
I love music
And i want you to see that
I talk to you through my music
I talk to you through my poems
I talk to you through my bass guitar
You cant trust me?
I lied to you?
Dont you remember when 
You told me you would give me up
for adoption when i was born?
That hurt more than anything
Yes you kept me
BUt you thought about giving me up
Just like you gave up on me ten years later
This will be the last of me
And i hope you understand now
That you are my problem
That you are the one
I couldnt trust
That you were the one who lied
What else could i hide
When i have been an open 
Book his whole time
and you couldnt see it?


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Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


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Grave Yard

Your eyes shut tight
Hearing a sound
Your heartbeat races
You can feel the little pieces 
Bleeding through
The hairs on your arms
Stand up
Closing your eye lids shut
Keeping them from opening
Reaching your hand over
To turn on the light
Once you do
You open your eyes
And nothing is there
Your heat beat dies down
And your back to feeling alone

Walking to the graveyard 
Going there as you
And leaving there as someone else
You can feel them all around you
Grasping unto you
And never letting go
Places parellel
You know its something paranormal

You decide not to stay
You feel yourself start to fade away
pretty soon everything
will be back where it belongs

The ghost grabbed unto your depression
And it slowly killed you
From the inside out
Now you are in the graveyard


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Stop and think

Every time I start to act, You pull me back. I'm amazed by it, You make me stop and think. Stop all the hurt, Think of the good. Stop all the pain, Think of the better. The way you change me is like a magic trick only you can preform. The way I love the change you made on me is like a love that only I can express to you. Every kiss I take, You give back. I'm in love with it, You are all I ever needed. Stop nothing you do, Think of all we've been through. Stop nothing we are, Think of what we got here so far


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Anwnn

Coming from the misty lake Lough Leane
Came a beautiful maiden of the name of Niamh
Upon a mare, for she is not from the world of man
A seraphic princess from Anwnn
Upon the shores she claimed around his kin
"I have came for Oisin son of Finn"
"Maiden you come to me so alluringly 
I am he, if we marry for all eternity!"

And so he rode upon her horse to the secrets of Anwnn
For he and she, they'd be happy for all eternity 

Come with me to Anwnn
I am she, your queen Niamh
I have come for you Oisin, son of Finn
Don't leave me or you'll see 
The age of man
The age of man
The age of man


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tHE gRAVE yARD Of LoVe






                                



                                         Long love day's has past.
                                 My mind felt with howling storms,
                                 grasping to hold on to vanishing love.
                                 Rape and abandon my weary soul
                                 transpires, poring with instant fires.
                                 Oh this dark secret love does thy life
                                 destroy.
                                 Like amorous birds of pray,
                                 Once ways, and known devoured
                                 Your beauty no more to befound
                                 nor shall the sound of your voice.
                                 Love to dust, love to ashes.
                                 Our love has now gone to a private place.
                                        The grave yard of love.


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Time to Change - E

When the things you feel 
aren't real 
and the colors that you've seen
are actually black and white

When your loved ones words never mean
a thing, and they were the ones who started up a fight
When everything is normal,
but its still not right

When your not sure what time of day it is
cause its always as dark as night
when you forget how to feel 
because all you feel is fright

Thats when you know your in a miserable place
thats when you know you should stop running the race
take deeper breaths and slow down your pace
because your life needs a new turn 
and it needs to be changed

So let them help you, if they offer there hand
you aren't living your life
if that life is planned
so many maps all around you
so many routes to go
but you cant choose your own

Thats when you know your in a miserable place
thats when you know you should stop running the race
take deeper breaths and slow down your pace
because your life needs a new turn 
and it needs to be changed

just one step at a time
and hope that you'll be fine
cause now you're living your life 
without a sign
that tells you were to go
and all you need to know
is that:

Now every color you see
is exactly the way you want it to be

Every person you know
doesn't want you to go

and when you look at the clock 
you dont feel so stuck

Thats when you know that now you're in the right place
you are winning this race
forget about pace
you've got so much to learn
and now your life is changed.


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Split Your Spine

You are scum

There is a Demon who sleeps inside of you
Your soul slowly drained from it's very life
Once he has awaken, you cannot put him back to rest.

The man walked back into the dark room
Each finger covered in blood

She laid on a black table
Her body stained in her own blood

Pale
Long black hair
6'7
He stood tall over her body
A shiny knife 
Dragging it along her side
He dug the tip of the knife into her skin
The sound of the ripping flesh
A smirk crossed his lips
His eyes narrowed
His body shivered in that certain entertainment
He drug the knife until he reached her back
The knife long and thick
Can cut through any bone in the human body
Fastly
He bent her over

Her eyes cling open
She is shaking
She cannot speak
Her hands clinched into fists

He smirked
His blade now at her spine
He gripped her shoulder
The pain she was receiving
The sudden rush from hearing her screams
He split her spine

The tears rushed down her face
Her limbs going numb
She cannot move a thing
Her lips no longer move
Yet her screams were loud
The crackling of her spine
Against his blade
Shaking his hands

There is a Demon who sleeps inside each and every one of us
Draining our souls from its very life
Once darkness has awaken, you cannot put it back to rest.

You are scum


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In Another Light

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding it.

The boy opens the door and walks by his mom
his mom says "how was school"
He doesnt respond 
he walks silently to his room
His mom turns away in sadness
"its dinner time Kurt" she yells up the stairs.
He walks slowly down the steps
Hiding something in his hand as he puts it in his pocket
His mother is setting the table
Putting meat on his plate 
He sits down unto the seat
not touching his food
"is there something wrong with it?" his mom asks
He doesnt look at her
"talk to me. why have you been ignoring me" she repeats.
He gets up off the chair and walks outside
Walking into the woods as his mom runs out
"get back here where are you going"

Every living thing dies alone." he writes in white on a tree in there back yard
He throws the rope over the toughest branch
He steps up unto a little chair
Tying the rope around his neck
The chair falls

His mom worries in panic
She cant find him anywhere
She waits up all night

The Next Morning"

She walks out to the garden
Looking up at a tree
She sees the fallen chair from behind a tall bush
She runs
Picking up the chair
Seeing the thing she never thought would have happened
She falls to her knees
A tear falls from her cheek
Not understanding 
Reading the words on the tree
Every living thing dies alone"
She wonders
Thinking
Crying

She untangles him from the tree and holds him
Talks gentle to him
Something she hasnt done in a while
Now grasping the meaning behind what he has done

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding the meaning behind it.


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Junkie

you know its wrong 
but you do it to overpower the pain
not strong enough to stay away from it
you would die without it
in its presence your heart knows no shame
even if you try to win the fight
your heart will overrule your mind
Theres nothing you can do
its chained to you
you cant get free
look what this drug did to you


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Beside you in time

Standing facing you
As you face me
The words fall out of your mouth
I see them float to my ears
I read them as they fly by me
Leaving me 
Just like you are
You turn to me
And you shot me
Telling me to dig the bullet
Out of my heart
I reach inside my heart
As it crumbles apart
Into a million pieces
As i try to pick up all the pieces
I realize some are missing
And were neverto be found
I see myself
Holding the bullet
As im standing next to you
Holding up a fake smile
Things havent changed
Because
We were meant to be
Even tho you left me
I will be standing 
Beside you in time


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My First Love

(My First love), 
(The way I feel), 
(Inside), 
(How do I), 
Begin, 
The way I felt, Within, 
I could never hide, 
So I told you girl, 
The way you, changed my world, 
oh girl, The way you looked at me, 
As though, I madeYour day, 
(Girl I could forget), 
The love We made, 

Felt, so good,
To me,
How could this be,
A girl just like me,
Who knows, the things,
I need,
(How could this be)
(A girl just like me)
Chorus:
My First Love, (Love)x4 

My first kiss,
I came across, a bliss,
How could I forget,
How it made me feel, girl

I'm still, in love,
With you,
In the back of my mind,
Everytime,
Chorus 4x






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Lunar Love

Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game


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Dream Liberty -- Butterfly Effect

Butterflies quietly fluttering In my soul Transforming my life Morphing into something so unreal So Different, silently beautiful So hidden and lost A fire dances on my pale iced face Lively prancing as each sheds more light The embers glow in your singed shadow Was this eternity meant to last forever? I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty Punishing the dead Can you never let anything go Is it all to hard to see That your bias takes you on a blinded delusion Where all they plunder is hate Terror is a virtue When becoming a king So cut off the strings of my life With your power And you will see the strength of the dream of Liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty


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Over and Beyond

I stand here, Dead in the dark, I try not to shed a tear, Why'd it have to be so far? I stand here, Thinking of the future, Thinking of fear, Does it have a cure? I stand here, Thinking of how to succeed, With obstacles at the end of each peer, Wanting to show I am not another bead, On another necklace, Am I dirt to be stepped on? I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. I walk here, Through vines of life, It's getting near, Will I be intertwined? I walk here, Looking for a light, Waiting for the fog to clear, Will I shine bright? I walk here, Showing the truth, Ready to steer, Will my mood still be blue? I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. I will run, Into his arms, Not shedding blood, Into his care. I will run, Off that cuddled peer, Showing my love, Showing no fear. I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. So don't try to stop me, I will only push pass, Through those trees, Through the cold, damp grass. I will succeed. I will succeed. I will succeed. I will succeed. Don't stop me.


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Thoughts of Rage

I've been pushed past the point where I'm willing to cry No longer having the energy to fly Always looking into the enemies eyes Rage enough to light up the sky Heart turning dark no love for the enemy Feelings gone replaced with a powerful energy Eyes illuminated with a black light, everything is grey to me Ready to eliminate any weapon that's thrown at me My rage has poured into the extreme Thoughts of the enemy unclean Deep breath, in out, focus while on a wall i lean Rethink on happy thoughts, trying to get rid of the sting Anger so hard to control Flames visible when my eyes are closed Tightening the bonds i try to keep my hold Defrosting my heart from ice cold


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Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

I'll See your face again
I swear it
No matter how far away they take you from me
Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid
Death is a Dream


The Cross Will Be lighter
Whisper the words
so sacred, so somber

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone
What Happened here must be true
I must live this life without you

Breaking the Silence
She began to Weep
The Epitaph ceasing to know 
We all must Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock
Of argentine fears swallow the last soul
Goodnight black rose of eternity
Goodnight dearest gothic phantom
Tonight The Earth consumes me




**Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**


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Draconian I

[The Cypress Is In Bloom]
The cypress is in bloom
I see the evil, the efflorescence of decadent doom
Eloigning, with thy clandestines of the Dead September's reign
My belovéd Penelope, abscond from the coven so deep, the glades of misery
We must face her in the grove, for arcany, the path we must take
She's in my mind, vaporously,
Lauding with my, dangers and fears
Lie, with ephermelcy's broken truths
Leading me go Cypress, Marigold
Immortally, willows, forevermore
Forevermore

[To Question; To Know]
My argentine silence, your only condonicy 
Ends with such eath
The Mockingbird in me--died
Resting in one ounce, an abundance of shame
With an infinity of joy
Exiled, by the ones, who give all, names
My breath starves for only more
The façade, the veil, the austerity dims with Aquarianlore 
She falls to her knees, why for?
Celandine she will be
Celandine is she

[Bead]
The lair within, free from their causalities of their sins
Shadowy primroses begin to grow, the season will never end
In there I dream to be like you, violet blue, White Flower of Lisieux,
La Fleur Blanche du Lisieux,
So Celandine are you
Celandine are you

[Draconian]
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from The Fallen's Sin
Draconian--Their Empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach The Shadows Within


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Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


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Lydia's DaddY

...eyes puffy                       
      caked up with cry

Daddy ain't comin' home
       but 
         she don't know why...
 
grown folk sadness
         ripping inside her

       All she's known about lovin's 
               in the coffin beside her


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Love at Hello

Your words escape from your mouth like the rain escapes from the clouds above
Your fingertips touching mine turning them into ice crystals
The wind blowing your hair into my face smelling honeysuckle against my nose
The sweet taste of your lips, cherry, maybe watermelon
Your lips collide with mine, sending out a lightning bolt throughout my body
The touch of your hands upon my chest somehow melting the ice that surrounded my empty heart
The sighting of your beautiful face melts my soul, sending me into the heavens beyond the white light
Your eyes shine brighter than the sun, captivating me, (holding me at interest)
Your amazing personality had me from hello and will have me till goodbye


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Incomplete

Through roaming hills, and blistering winds
my spirit lay somewhere between.
Oh someone point him out to me, 
I desire to hear my soul sing

For at first he left, I did not notice
my emotions to mangled in muck
but I feel my heart fall short
and my body just want to give up

I call to him through the wind in the night
but no reply is heard in the breeze.
I shout his name from dawn to dusk
But only a echo replies in the trees

Forgive me! I cry, I desire you now
that my heart is darken and numb.
For I gladly give up this emotionless feast
to live my life wondering the streets
forsaking the world and all of its treats
to live with my spirit as a bum


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Vast Love

The love that kisses with a tasteless tear
A pain that can’t be painted on the soul
A longing for a place without a fear
Longing for a feeling that makes me whole
Beloved, words can’t heal my tattered heart.
As thorns pass me by the pain cant compare
That of the pain of being torn apart
Even the wind howls about it I swear
Tell me was falling in love my mistake
I chose my own fate and decided to stay
I will not let this love become forsaken
Love can’t just get up and spirit away
Love is worth overcoming a mountain
My love for you flows like a vast fountain


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Fairytale World Gone Wrong

She walks, she talks
Pretends everything is fine
So young, so sweet
Yet everyone she'll try to please
will turn their backs on her with ease

She wants to belong
She'll try to hold on
to her fairytale world gone wrong
She's losing her grip
Reality slips
her fairytale world gone wrong

She wants you to stay
She'll push you away
Still can't decide
Too much pain inside
She runs, she hides
as her world divides
Can't keep it together
Can't pretend forever

She wants to belong
She'll try to hold on
to her fairytale world gone wrong
She's losing her grip
Reality slips
her fairytale world gone wrong


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Black Love

  
                 Black LOVE

             My head rested
on the pillow of her smooth skin.
She opened the curtains of her being,
My hands slip into indulgence while 
 they explored her expansive dark skin.
With half words she whispered moans,
 followed by screams of passion.
With her shadow I bounded, as she 
swarmed waters of our endless longing passed.

                         By
                     Jay Johnson


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Cellar Door Escape The Fate

We walk through the doorway, heard you calling from the hall
To find you in the bedroom not breathing at all
I drag your body to the cellar where we lay, 
the wax it melts away, 
I kiss your face...
Now we are starting to love you more,
your body's on the canvas, 
That I painted on the floor
Now you wait,
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh,
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that you're gone, 
its so wrong,
its so wrong....
If I could take you somewhere,
I'd take you to my darkest place, 
scatter you in art forms, admire the whore,
beauty in different ways your hands on picture frames, 
your eyes in the glass wear your face as a mask
Now they are starting to love you more, 
a gallery of your beauty no charge at the door
As you wait, 
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, 
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong....
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
(face is pale your body's cold )
Wait, like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong...



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I Don't Owe You Anything

So many days
All passed in a blur
With all my thoughts
Focused all on her

It was no way to live
Trapped within the past
But now today
I can say at last

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you put me through things too

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But it's time to run

Those days were nice
Back when you still cared
I really did
But I was really scared

It's been a year
Since you killed our hope
I suffered all these days
Tangled in your rope

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you were just as bad

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But now it's time to run and

I spent a whole year trying
To sort out what you left
And now I've finally got it
You didn't leave me so bereft

You helped me find
The man beneath the boy
You helped me grow
And learn how to destroy

Apologies
Don't mean a thing anymore
You've already made your choice

So I don't owe you anything
I'm glad it's finally done
A year of atonement ends today
The time has finally run

Out, the sands of time caress
My face as clouds give way to rain
We're even now and now I can walk
Without my heart in pain


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The Deadly Dart

Wherever I go through out my whole life,
I end up struggling with lots of strife.
Thinking that my life is a total waste,
Wanting it to be over in a haste.

I can feel the pain inside my own heart,
Like someone through at my a deadly dart.
The wound is easing deeper and deeper,
Will the pain ever stop getting bigger?

Feeling emo is never a good thing,
Cutting your arm makes a really bad sting.
Blood is dripping from my arms and my heart,
Failing to dodge the largest deadly dart.

Drowning in all the lies and self pity,
I live each day but always feel sh*tty.
I have lots of thoughts about suicide,
But then I think about those who have died.

Those who have died not just from suicide,
But also those who are really nice guys.
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...
...
...This "poem" was actually suppose to be a couplet (on any thing you want) for my english 
class but i made this kind bcuz i was feeling emo that day...and also after i was done i read it 
over and it almost sound like a rap song which, i guess, is kinda funny and cool.........


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This is how i live

I dip my pen in plasma
Write my rhymes in blood
Immortal soldier stopping emotions with a mental plug
I put my game-face on and hit the battlefield
Turning insults to motivation make my writings feel
Never hypocritical
I never change like reciprocals
Steady swimming forward, like a shark because its critical
No rest, only the strong survive
Mental toughness keeps me focused and keeps my eyes dry

This is how i live
This is what i feel
Thoughts of a warrior bred with a heart of steel
Decorate my chest with a metal for fierceness
Bible says I'm blessed I'll live on guiltless
My heart is cold
Frozen from hurtful words
And attempts of spiritual homicide always in my face
I shrug them off and stay moving at a steady pace


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Lies Become Life

These are my scars
And I know they haven't gotten me far
But it's complicated
And this is who I am to be

They say everything happens for a reason
Well I have two cents worth a dime
To say nothing good about that line

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore

This is how I choose it to be
It's the closest I am drowning to be free
And just leave me and let me see

Theres only one way to get it all away
I will stop at nothing and think it all off
Just play that beat and watch me hit the wall

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore

I won't let you down
And hit the floor
There's apart of me thinking,
I can't do this anymore

I'm truly convinced
That telling you this lie
Will make it the truth in my life

I wont let us down
I'll keep my guard around
And watch my head hit the door
Am bound to fall down
My tears hit the floor
As I lay down
I know I ain't coming back for more

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore


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The Escapist's Plea

When you can longer run away from yourself
When you thought there were no more tears to cry
When you just want to die
Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies
So many years, so many days
Waking up to people who no longer care you're there
You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality
Wasted with living; the slowest way to die

The shadows of shame weigh you down 
Until you drown, filled with only their hate
All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades
The agony is all you know, thank you pain
A self-sadist Is all you have become, j
ust how they showed you, craving so much more
Just to hide up all of the misery
But under cloth it still bleeds

This is the Escapist's Plea
For the one who fall to their knees in misery
Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain
Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see
Stigmatized by their sadistic need
Only if I could just fly away
...Fly Away


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Son Of A Gun

I was born half human half demon
Killer of love
I was born with a gun in my hand
The Son of a gun
Satan Worshiper
A Natural Born Killer

I walk down the hallway
Hiding my gun in my trench coat
Wearing my hat backwards
My combat boots
And my army pants
Sunglasses hiding my face

I wait for you in the Library
As i approach you
You run and hide
Under a table
Me taking my gun out of my trench coat
Holding it towards your face
You cry
Your freaking out

Your last tear hits the floor
I pull the trigger
You were the guy
That made fun of me
Calling me a freak
Tripping me in the hallway

Remember throwing bloody tampons
In my face?
Calling me gay?
Telling everyone about my personal pains?
Ive got you now
You cant hurt me anymore
But i can still hurt you

Dedicated to ~4-20-99~ "Columbine Massacre"
Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold

"We can stop bullying, if we honestly tried"

"You could have prevented this school shooting, if you would have just listened to the kids who did it"






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Ave Versus Christi

For now I ride out of darkness To your screaming calls To fight back your endless fears To throw them to their fall For I shall ride to you in white With a crown upon my head Riding of a horse of white For this is what is said! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave! For they hurt you, killed you, burned you. For you were not ever them They came to bring the new good news For now this is their end! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave! For the ancient wonders built Destroyed due to their cross Men, Women, Children felt The coldness of their loss For the cross with christians coming forth with swords and hatred raging killed children, women, men a'many The reign of Cross now ending! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave! Rise up ye old and weary souls! Let the bells now ring! The Gods have arived at last! Oh hear the trumpets sing! Faries from the lakes and rivers Nymphs from oceans deep Angels from the other world Join us in their defiet! Ave! Ave! Versus Christi! Versus Christi! Excellsis! Ave!


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Sorhleod

It was the myriad relapse The shadows perched, time slipped, the temptation resided to my mind I'm sure I have most the soul I never once had Lost; once you go into the dark eternal black there's no hope of dreaming of atoning back Small child I cling to you trying to savor the innocence When I could believe in everything again I tried All along to search for the truth But " the truth" is something that the truth eradicated I want to be ignorant again Can't face reality again Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fear Remove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive" makes me cry I can't make it stopThe razor beckons my name The scars and all their Shame... Find a way to pierce my serpent heart Through the iron membrane it's bleeding, I know When I have no cigarettes to burn When I have no more knowledge to Learn When I have no more xanax To cause concern I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fearRemove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive"makes me cry I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me I've dried out tMy heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me


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Redwood Tree

Skies are Blue
Trees are green
I keep on walking round that redwood tree,
I keep on walking around that redwood tree.

I've been walking
For days on end
And I still can't see
The light again.
So I'll keep on walking round that redwood tree,
I'll keep on walking round that redwood tree


I've kept on walking
till I met you
With sea blue eyes
A pretty smile, too.
So no more walking
Round that red wood tree
No more walking down that redwood tree.


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dreamers

everytime people see me coming
they say i look ao fly cause i got that look
i got that style and the personalty
to make them smile 
  yep
all the guys they want to flock to me
always asking me if i iwant them to be my guy 
i tell them im miss independent
and
i got me a guy and im his furture wifey
yep for real

im his little momie and i call him papie
he knows i stay nun but true 
when it come s to being by myside he`s right by myside
and we going fly high 
if you ask him who he rolling with 
he going say im rolling with my baby 
cause she`s on my mind like crazy  
    yep thats how it is

if you don`t understand it
you need to understand it
cause im will always stay true 
tto my nikkiepoo


you no who you are so stop dreaming and come to reality 
         ight 


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The Chase

It's the beginning
So far away
Yet tethered
Until forever has reached its end

A circle
Never ending
Ever lasting
Until you reach me at last

I can feel you
I can hear you
But I can't change my course

Gripping and ripping
The breath from my chest
Ragged and racing
Destined for facing
Eternal rest

The path has narrowed
The walls screaming in my ears
Forever harrowed
Blood running like tears

I can smell you
I can see you
But I can't change my course

It's the end
You're upon me
It's the end
There's nothing left
It's the end
There's no way out

You have sought me
You have caught me 
It's the end of my course


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Generation

V: You say that you know
But I don’t
Its nothing

Slow to the know
Fast to give up
Not something

C: You bask in that
Pitiful delusion
Hold my hand to the sky
Will it wake?

V: The children want
But they don’t
They crave

Fast to the end
Quick to step off
To the early grave


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Halloween's Song

Its your Halloween rave, having your mascaraed
With all your best friends from back in the day
Liz Lauren and Blake and while they're dressed like skanks
I'm on the front line of battle
Howlin like jackle with A real nasty cackle
puttin a razor blade in the sack of Blake's apples
crack in Lauren's snapple
Staddle Liz like mclovin
But I am more like faghole As I babble at her ass
Axe her fast and mash her up like cattle
Sneak back and tackle your dad and put him in shackles
Shove sour patch kids Down your trap and gaggle
Its abominable, so unbelievable
But its inevitable, the end is kissable
I have rattled these kids psyches 
squirming like a centipede, cutting them like celery 
hear their squeamish screams echo in the streets
as the  creepy bells of the chapel ring


I remain a mystery
You'll need nancy drew, and at least 3 of the hardee boys to find what I'm up to
Theres this gloom that looms down in your basement room
Consuming shrooms, enhaling fumes to escape your doom
Witches zoomin by on their brooms makin sonic booms
Quick call scooby doo, but I killed him too
You heard a loud pound cause I cut the fuse so you
Run away to a motel room, assuming your safe
And As you look the other way,
I got my fangs in your veins and stranglin your neck
Too bad you didn't text your friends to tell them who is next
Hmm let me think for a sec. As Hex your boy  rex 
with an incessant twitch, till he is dead in a ditch
Hang him from bunny man bridge
Yo dude turn the lights on
But there's no flip to switch , I have flipped the script
Its bewitched with no miss to kiss
Exorcist with no priest to dismiss the spirit

So the town clock strikes half past 3
There's one last gas before i must sleep
Or i will crash fast if the light touches me
Put on the mask jack, just like the sixth scream 
I need to grasp havoc, till i hear shrills and shrieks
Please back rabbit, these chills aint for teens
As I stick a cherry bomb in your moms exhaust pipe
Run up on you  with nine a knife, and the head of your wife
Its useless I'm the nuisance that's abusive yet conducive
To your fear that I am near So close I could whisper in your ear
Smell the shampoo in your hair Wipe the floor with your tears
And as you look up in the mirror
I'm there ready to smear your blood all over the chair
as I stab you with my spear I crush a coors beer then
Leave you re crops there dead, red spread on the floor
But I hear a knock on the door
Are you okay honey? "Yes mommy,  just got a cold sore"


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Unnamed

Plugs you into my world
Turns my eyes 
Looking into my skull
Staring at my brain
Hoping to see what comes next
Takes my heart and rips it out
Dying alittle more
Shoots my gut 
And places my brain where my gut once lived
Takes my fingers and pushes them into my hand
So i just have nubs
Takes my head and crushes it
Little peices falling
Bleeding unto the ground
Dying alittle more
The unnamed feeling
Comes alive
Then it takes me away
Taking the chill off my life


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my beat

every time my beat drop
it drop so crazyto my faviorite beat
it makes me crazy
it makes me want to go exotic and crazy

its my beat 
its my time 
its my time to shine
its my time to do me

my beat is radical 
my beat is outraiouis
my beat is loud 
my beat shows my personality

its my beat 
its m time
its my time to shine
its my time to do me

when ii do me 
im on fiire
cause i show everyone how 
i act like a model 
you should know what this about because this gurl
 always go all out


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Anna

The childish silliness
The sweet clumsiness
The burning storm
On your head
My everyday trial of patience.

You piss me off
All the time

All the time
You make me smile

I want to kill you
With squeezing hug

Whenever you cry
My soul tears apart.

One smile of yours -
The sun shines again
Even if it rains outside.



Sight of you
Weakens me

I lose my cruelty
My hunger for revenge:

My violent arms soften
My veins loose;


You need me
as much as
Vital you are
to my wild heart
not to burst hatred.

You teach me 
patience and tenderness,

Sometimes I hate you
I love you always
Though not in love am I.



I shall be yours
till the end of time
To make you happy
- a new goal in life:

Whatever your wish from me
Will happen
Always and ever

Forever to you
I am devoted

My dear friend,
No easier words
would paraphrase
the essential emphasis
of what I feel
but
'I love thee' -
Every single day.


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My Friend The Piano

You carried my emotions from the start
Each emotion bound in the small black note
Each one coming straight from my chilly heart
The music you make is my antidote
Through the preludes my comfort softly lay
By way of mazurkas my soul does fly
But to divulge you must learn how to play
Although learning is not a piece of pie
Piano brings emotions around town
You have the power to bring my heart up
Or throw me on the floor and beat me down
There are hard times when I just want to cup
My hands in my face and rock back and forth
And think Piano is a friend of worth	


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The Rose

You confessed your love for me through a single white rose I smiled genuinely, yet then you turned to hurt me, leaving me behind...lost and alone The rose was nothing but poison to my heart, for 'twas you the evildoer, pressing my finger into its very thorn As the blood inside of me ran cold, deep red drops from the cursed stem silently fell into the snow. I couldn't believe that your intentions were as such, I thought you once promised that you would forever love me... Why risk betraying all of my trust? I cannot see the angel I once glimpsed in your beautiful face... It is now replaced by a mysterious raven, forever intending to be my disgrace My like will remember that winter of December, when you gave me that simple white rose now stained red will fade to black My tears fall and the love I will soon take back as I return the very rose into your cold hand, pale and scarred Your body frozen, so cold and numb as you lie abandoned, mutilating my heart, throwing it in the blood-trickled snow I think of the end of life, holding but one white rose No pain shall I feel, so perfect, so innocent, no horror in my mind, no nightmares now It is time to whisper the final goodbye I have been given the strength, I can now peacefully bid thee farewell Do not forget me I look down at the soft white petals and embrace the only token I have left of you, my little rose so beautiful and pure Forever stained by the blood of my soul is this single white rose The rose of my one true love...


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Chancy thinks its soo fancy

Is it you ? is it me?
Stuck in a world of a fantasy 
Heart beats, unceasingly 
Is this what they call ecstasy?
 Some say “the heart wants ,what the heart wants”
Yet the fire is oh! So enticing! Tranquilizing!
I adore it! I fear it!
Chancy foot stands transfixed in front
The petrified foot it taunts 
As it takes one step back, 
Chancy stands there and laughs
Torn between the two…my heart weeps
What path to take? My heart! Guidance it seeks
The fear of falling
Holds me back
The want for love
Pushes me back
The shackles of scary bounds me tight
Chancy is there, never to give up with out a fight

 Arising a hurricane is what they doo
My poor feeble heart, knows not what to do
The heart is pure. It seeks it strives to find who proves to be true
The ultimate winner..is still unknown
For here my heart still stand in the sea of unknown
Cupid I beg you do guide me
And dare not strike me and leave me
With your arrows of blind love
Guidance is what I need 
Give me that and I shall heed
Leave me not in the dark of misery
Leave me not in the sea of mystery
But guide me to that ever shinning light
Scary or chancy
With what do I side?
Shall forever remain a secrecy….



                                                                ~M.M.M


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What use to can't always be

Contemplating back to a time when there use to be an us, when our relationship was built on trust, but truly it was only lust.

But I must admit that I was only being honest when I looked into your eyes and said I was in love with you.

If I can undo the past, I would go back to the time where I reckoned that you were not being true and seek to see-through your mind to have caught that clue.

But what can I do, I already knew, but I didn't want to accept the fact that I might lose you.

But I did, I did lose you, and I was torn to the deepest part of my soul to the point where I felt I was never ever going to be the same, like it was some kind of fate.

Sure I had hate; I hated you for misleading me and then leading me to believe that our relationship was going to a great place.

It was unfair that you had to tear my heart into two, misguiding me to think that you cared.

Thinking what we shared was rare.

I thought it was a nightmare, but I came to realization that I shouldn't care.

I should stop the war that was going on between my mind and my heart before it gets too far that I can't ignore.

Tough yes it was tough but enough is enough.

What we had is now through, and I am sure enough done with you.


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Like

Warmth
In my skin
Fresh faced
Embracing sin

Gather
Retract
Sun bathed golden grains
Richer
Infract
Life everlastingly changed

Darkness 
Ahead
Impending disaster
Silently said

Wind
Bend
Ache
Break
Slipping through
Again 
Too late

Ivory
Showing
Please
Start slowing
These savory moments within

Gaps 
Inside
Helplessly flowing
In this tide
Traps my hands in emptiness
From the sun filled sky

Wind
Bend
Ache
Break
Slipping through
Again 
Too late


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Insides All Empty

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Therion

Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself


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Hold Me Now

Maybe this isnt something to say
to someone like you
someone i could never be
something i dont want anyone to see
so ill hold it in
until i explode
hold me now 
im standing on the edge of
the bridge
nothing to hold on to
I only want someone to save me
but how can you if your blind
and you cannot see the dangers around you
so you keep them until they get so close
to your face and finally explode
then you see
hold me now
cause im already 6 feet into the ground


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Painting

The paintbrush spreads us all over the canvas
a gallery of our beauty
my hands around picture frames
your face worn as a mask
the wax melts away all of our pain
the fireplace burns the wood 
little pieces fly threw the air
They end their journey
laying on the floor of the darkest place
one lands on the canvas i painted 
Burning it along with our lies
It curls up into little circles
eventually fading away
just like our pain


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Cirque de Halloween

"In this town, everyone's waiting for the next sunrise."

Gather round children of every age, wouldn't you like to see something strange?
Come with me and you will see.
Let us set the stage, for this is Halloween.

Whispers hum in the wind. (I am the clown with the tear-away face)
HALLOWEEN! HALLOWEEN! the crowd chants.
Master scares and creeps.

This, our circus on Halloween.
Don't be late now, for after the show, everyone's waiting for the next sunrise.
This is Halloween.

"Life's no fun without a good scare" we sing.
 "I am the wind blowing through your hair; I am the hoo? when you call "who's 
there?!"

I am the one hiding under the bed, teeth grown sharp and eyes gone red." my friend 
sings as the rest of the group sings the pumpkin song. 

"La, la, la la la, la. Life's no fun without a good scare! La, la, la la la, la. THIS IS 
HALLOWEEN! THIS IS HALLOWEEN! HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEN.

As the song ends, it is replaced by the eerie tinkling of a music box; slow and scary.

But, hey. That's what we're here for; the scares.


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Hold On To

The wind is strong
We have nothing to hold on
The sun is going down behind the hills
The violet sky and the tangerine glow on the local mill.
The wind blows away our dreams
I hold on to the seams.
I watch you as you stare
You want me to let go but I don’t dare.
My dreams are all, you’re nothing to me
Once I leave you ill be free.
Two more years,
There goes all my fears.
My dream will come true
That’s because I did it all WITHOUT you.


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La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin

La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin La Msytique est la Specatatrice du Divine Elle Parle au mot que je ne comprends pas "Soilel vous deffinissez est mien Pourtant vous, vous laisser il saigner Comme un nouveau vin Triste - ons ne Saurant Jamais Triste - ons ne Verront Jamias" Parle a moi, si prestine La Mystique La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin La Specatatrice du Divine Ton Voix sefane dans Le Chanson entrain de Mourir


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Half a Heart

Once in a while, It would be good to feel, That I'm not alone, That I AM real. Once in a while, It would be kinda nice to know, That I'm not invisible, That I'm not a Hoe. (MEANING GARDENING TOOL) But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. Another one is walking around, With his little stripper, His little crown. She has no idea who she'd end up with, Giving birth in the hospital. No one with her. But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. Raise our hands, Clap to the beat, Of a hummingbird's wings. Just remember I'm still here, The only one, The only one, In love with you... But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. We are strong, Cold to the core, We gotta let you know, We're not your doll anymore.


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Book of will - insight

Haters give me reason to survive
Just like tupac, i love to see disgust in their eyes
We stand strong doing what we believe is right
Laughing at the funny and lighting up the night

Wars of the mind committed every day
Tears as people lose in this game of life we play
I got my partners on my side, riding like soldiers
Smashing the past like giants throwing boulders

I pay attention to my predecessors words
The motivation that turns my mind to gold
Striving to be a beast i shine like a diamond
hard headed, stubborn, and bright like lightning

I shed light on my enemies and foes
Toying with them like a predator killing a doe
I welcome you to my mind, call it Williamsvil
From here i destroy with the poems i build

Rest in peace, dear homies on the other side
Overcome by haters, tricked into suicide
Bless them father although they couldn't survive
And help me as i continue on in this life


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Dread Life

You said you’d never walk away,
All I wanted was for you to stay.
I hold tight to my pain
Why did you go I never felt the same.
The sky is red
You never had time for what I have said.
All I wanted was for my parents to stay,
But ever since I keep dreading that day.
What did I do wrong,
I listen to music and write songs.
Why did I get left alone,
That just means this was never my real home.
You cut me open,
Just with the words you have spoken.
Call me names and bring me down,
I promise you’ll never see me frown.
You won’t come in the way of my dreams,
You never knew what I really mean.
You took my words and spun them around,
I will never be that person left on the ground.
This is for the day you make me dread,
My birthday will be forever dead.
I will succeed without you,
My friends are all I need that’s my crew.


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False Senses

Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life Do you realize that you lost? Battered and tossed By your own malfunction Wires you crossed Leaning on a crutch From wounds self inflicted Do you realize that I won? Running like fire Brighter than the sun Autumn behind my head Summer in my eyes So near the finish line The reward is mine Or did you think it was a tie? Tangled web behind your eyes Wrapped in delusions Coming to false conclusions In your sick twisted mind Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life


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Hiding

Hide my face
the things i cant let you see any longer
Cover the scars
the things that still unravel in my soul
Sow my mouth shut
the things that should not be said
Cut my brain out of my skull
the things that i should not remember
Tie up my hands 
So i cant hurt anyone
Tie up my feet
So i cant run away from my problems
Stitch up my heart
So i can fit the pieces back together
Hide down in a hole
So that one day i can be discovered


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Scarred Soul

She sits still... 
Can you feel the stares?
Her eyes cry tears-
They are the window to her soul.
Inside she is hurting...
The years have been unkind.
She has not come to open arms-But to fear and closed minds.
Fear that grips her every being...
And keeps her from herself.  
Spiraling down, she's out of control.
Will she ever stop?
She feels the stains upon her.
They are heavy and won't wipe away.
Holding her down and keeping her alone...
These stains have scarred her soul.


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The Air

Sweet scents Fill my empty lungs I can hardly relent From singing the unsung Is as before These places I adore But the breath will be my death If my heart keeps racing And I keep embracing The sweet spring air The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then How Can I get back what's already been? Words trace down my throat Bittersweet after taste Gently afloat But becoming a waste It is the same here It is the same there But the sun is not here And the wind is not there Only clear blue tears And the silent dare The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then But please how Can I get back what's already been?


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Book of Will - Will

Welcome to the first entry in the book of will
Where lyrics and emotion mix to show how i feel
Bred from stars i shine like a man of steel
Looking for a master? Believe me i fit that bill

An intricate mind blessed with lyrical explosions
Not just poems, i rap with deadly repercussions
My brain transmits like an electrical storm
Immense intellect risen from years of pain and scorn

I'm complicated, mind a little bit mysterious
Playing tricks on you, have you thinking that you're delirious
My syllabus for this is that i speak my mind in rhyme
Backed by a musical sound my fingers unwind

Some hate me because my mind a little bit complex
Who knows what it will think out next
Syllables catastrophic to the intellect of misinformed
Leaving people devastated, destroyed after a storm

I am Will Will i am and i Will terminate
Shocks to the crowd as they try and relate
I welcome you, keep track of this book of will
It will surprise you when you see the way i feel


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I Live for the Chorus

Seasons come
Seasons go
Some prefer to stay numb
Some prefer nights that stay aglow

Not me
I like to be
The one who breathes
The tears
And cries the air we fear
I live for the chorus

I'm the one 
Whose laugh runs
Through stillness
And breaks the stiffness

I wish to be surrounded
By ones who turn black to red
Our laughter mingles
Senses tingle

Our voices join
You and me
In harmonious glee
Raucous as the sea
We live for the chorus


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Kurt

i am kurt daniel everdean 
I am 21 years old
I've been playing the bass guitar
Since I was 11
i weight 145 pounds
i have blondish brown hair
and blue eyes

If I could say one thing about me that I like... Its that I never gave up.


things started when i lost my father
i was 10 years old
my mother started going to her room everytime she got home
she would come out with her eyes all red... Shes been crying
until i accidently walked in on her doing drugs
i now believe it was the drugs that caused the redness
me and my brother would fight everynight
when i bought my first bass
he slammed it against the floor
and told me since i think my lifes crap
then i shouldnt have anything that makes me happy
My mom became a street whore
She would dress in a golden gown and wear ugly make up
We would never see her 
unless she needed money to get condoms for her "men"

the things between me and my brother got worse
I was arguing with him over a text he sent my mom
And he got into an accident and died that night

Things just never got better
I created a band called the nocturnal
And the reason you haven't heard of us yet
Is because were an underground punk band in Seattle
we haven't gotten far yet
Just underground party's and bars

My mom ended up running away with her "boyfriend"
After my brother died she blamed me
And told me to leave and said she won't come around me
Until I brought him back

Since then I've gotten a job and was able to pay rent on
My moms old apartment
Hoping shed come back clean and sober
As for me
I've cleaned up. but suicide is still an option

I haven't found god yet and I don't want to
If there was a god why did he give me this ****ed up life
Ya you'll say Kurt?... You made the desicions for your life
I knolw I did. But he was the one who let it actually happen

I've been writing since I was 11
Lyrics and poems
Drawings and paintings
bass guitar and vocals

My life isn't over
But it's sure close to it

Its sad to think that what you thought was fake... Is a true story


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Feeling Rhyme

Everything about you so desirable, you command attention, I find myself wanting you, though that wasn't my intention. Eyes, nose, hair, so well aligned you need no correction, It's embedded in my heart to stare in your direction. When you look me in the eyes, I know you feel this connection, I wanna be alone with you, so you can truly feel affection. Even your speech is eloquent, from grammar to diction, We need to be together with no restriction. If there's another in your life, I'd recommend immediate eviction, Because compared to what I have in store, he's just a constriction. When we arrive in our intimate zone, there'll be no intrusion, It will all be true feeling, you'll feel it's no illusion. I don't make idle promises, I don't do silly delusions, I've explained my feelings, this is my conclusion. -Michael-Shane Brown


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There Is No Age To Love

A meteor falls down from the stars
Catching fire the faster it falls

She sits in her new house
Sitting in the window seat
Reading a book about wild love
And how fast it grows and catches fire
She watches the meteor shower from her window
She hears a noise coming from the hallway
She creeps around the corner
As she follows the sound to the attic
She opens the creaking attic door
A young man sits before the window
In an old red chair
Half falling apart
He is facing her 
With the back of the chair facing the window
The attic door slams shut
She gasps for air
She is very afraid
He speeds and surely stands before her
Face to face
They meet
He asks her
"who are you?"
she replies
"Amelius, you?"
He moves back as he turns and his back faces her
"Eric"
He moves towards her slowly
And disapears
A few days past
She wonders where he is
She sits in the attic and waits for him
He appears behind her
She explains to him that she feels like she knows him
He sits by her on the bed
he explains there past life together
He returned to meet with her again
She died in a bathtub
He was holding her
Trying to wake her up from the pills she took
She died
After her funeral
He committed suicide
She moved on and became reborn again
He didnt because he was stuck in the past
He kisses her cheek
And she stands in awe
She does drugs in her new life
One night she was driving home
She was on acid
And she ran into a tree
She was dead on the scene
He shows up and pulls her out of the car
She thanks him for saving her
He reaches to hold her hand
"your cold"
She looks at him
"what? you mean im.."
He says "yes"
They leave together in peace
Where they should have been in the begining
His ghost soul is 46 years old
But his age of which he died is 19
She was 17 when she died the first time
The second time she died she was 19
her ghost soul is 23 years old
Love has no age



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Suffering Is The Same As Living

Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don’t worry I’ll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me
**Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**


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Diedre II

Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode I cunnan sense her embrace that felans gelic Tragedy A Heart to hath, slipped beneoðan waw The dark pulse nou beckons us closer How many daegs will this passion bledan way We will beon the ans left to blame Bewarian we hath be-came their prey They say thou hast ben addicted to thy pain A life-leas cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper to close to the edge A ceallian fram the dark Bringan ut a saving sparke An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode “My decadence wesan just for thee Though thou never hast cared of what I hath been through Enter the world hwaer empathy is clandestine A world created by thee, just for me Hwaet is lecgan in my heart Is why thou wants to through the stan” I call thy name towards nightfall’s reign But they take thou so feorr way A dark engel so devin Cursed by Eden’s Heart I will avenge every tear An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode


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Wrong

This poem i am writing is about people i know. they have told me all the wrong things they are doing in life. all the things they have done to be in love or even find love.
Josh~i have a second life one in real life one on the computer
Susan~i cry to my poster of james hetfield begging him to find a guy for me
Jassun~i cut myself every night because i feel unloved my family doesnt get me
Chelsea~i take pills and try to overdose because i cant feel my heart beating i just want to know that im alive.
Ron~i constantly call another woman and have phone sex when my wife isnt home
Carrie~i boss people around just so i can feel like im on top above everyone else
Brad~im gay and people dont get the fact that love is love no matter if its with a guy or woman.
Sheryl~my husband passed recently and i already found someone on Eharmony
Me~sometimes i fake who i am so people wont judge me... sometimes i feel like im not good enough so i try to be like everyone so i can feel like im apart of something. but recently i figured out that people love you no matter who you are. there are some people out there who will doubt you and who will hurt you. but thats life even love can hurt the strongest of people.


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my interjection

cross it
my heart with my fist 
to a country spirit long forgotten
wrapped around the wrist
of some infidel
American scum
but the truth of the matter is 
they wanna go home
troops that come home
to shoes thrown at their face
its like a long spent nightmare
but real life is all they see
baby killer my bottom
taking orders has its flaws
they do what their told
not what they want
so dont blame ameri-troops
cuz it really isnt them


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forever and always I love you

everyday I wake to your face
your soft skin set in a smile
you make my heart pound 
and my pulse race
and I blame you

you make my knees weak 
when you smile that smile
when stare at me like 
I'm a rare Jewel
and I blame you

my fingers tremble as they reach 
your arms pull me in
it's cold outside 
I snuggle close to your warmth
my knees shake harder
I blame you

Next time.....
No music plays
It's quiet and I read
eyes swollen from the fight we had
and from the tears that fell out of my eyes
I blame you

I think
and think

and remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

I remember
what I want to forget is Goodbye
But I don't think I can say it
My heart burns when I dare to 

I want to feel your arms
wrap around me 
and your voice whispering in my ear
your lips on mine
I blame you 

that my heart is broken
that it swells when I think of you
that my legs still shake and quiver when 
I find you on the street

tears spill from my eyes
I pick up the phone, 
my fingers lingering over the buttons
i can't dial 
want to
can't....
I miss you

My heart can't take it....
more tears
my sobs breaking the quiet
sobs broken by the phone

it's you
you say you're sorry
I smile just at your voice
I've missed it
You sound like you've been crying

we were always alike that way
You say another thing
I wait, wanting to hear,
but scared

you say....

you remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

you've missed me
we both laugh sadly
I say that 
I've missed you

we smile, 
we imagine it 

I love you....

but I don't say it out loud...
at least, not yet.

but, I love you
forever and always

forever and always


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A Question of Honor

Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views


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Venus The Queen

A cold sullen night it was the day where the lights would come out and play A dream of dreams in which we couldn't wait The coronation of a celestial queen The brightness's everlasting fate This day was the time where we all could see unless the truth is too blinding Oh sweet bearer of light who's name brings all ignorant fright. Here she comes venus the queen etolie jolie Safe and serene you are the guide Comely and cunning Venus the queen, Etoile jolie Here she comes venus the queen etolie jolie Safe and serene You are my Lucifer Queen Comely and cunning Venus the queen, Etoile Jolie. How great we are to have such a light Where I can finally know my life A guide throughout this eternal night. Freedom and Independence is what you are Never astray a far But tonight the clouds are unchained. Here she comes venus the queen Etolie Jolie Safe and serene You are the guide Comely and cunning Venus the queen, Etoile jolie Here she comes Venus the Queen Etolie Jolie Safe and serene You are my Lucifer Queen Comely and cunning Venus the queen, Etoile Jolie.


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When the Lights Go Out

Deep within the shadows,
I slither out from under your bed.
To feed upon your dreams as you sleep,
Like a demon I wait for the slightest chance.

The breath that crawls upon your neck,
As your spine tingles from the whispers of my words.
So shut your eyes and slowly count to three,
To hide from the shadow that is your reality.

So as you lay down to sleep,
And when the lights go out,
I will creep from the darkness in your closet.
Because I am the dark reality of your life.

The tears and moans from your screams at night.
You hide me as the sun rises and the shadow fades.
I lay awaiting underneath this mask of light.
I will be awaiting for the lights go out.



Michael Deas

ME AGAINST MYSELF


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Angel

Imagine a lovely garden, tea for two, and this story . . .
So I guess you were in the Delafield Park that morning-
Police report says around 12 a-something
Yeah, I’m sorry, I wish you woulda called, texted, anything.
I woulda been there-oh wait I was there-always have been there.
Which is why people are sayin’ you didn’t hit me up-
You went to the wrong people, those who didn’t care.
-You must-a been so damn scared
I’m glad you’re off the streets, not in a cell, or in pain-
Maybe we just insane, baby
That makes two of us, trust me, I get those thoughts too-
Not strong enough to make me actually carry it through-
Jus’ don’t wanna leave my family and those I love, people like you.
But hey, I know God has a plan, and I understand the stuff you had to handle
Now I got a guardian angel, and I have your picture in my room
Next to the cardboard painting of
“I’ll Be In The Sky…I’ll Be There…Oh, Alright…”
So weird, thinkin’ I lost my best friend, my brother
Now we can always see each other, how ‘bout that?
Please watch over your family and everyone you love, and those you don’t.
Watch over ‘Milla too.  I never got to meet her, but I bet she loved you.
Hey, I love you too, you know that, of course, but ya know…just wanted to letchya 
know…
And little Emma too-man, she’s a special girl, she really loves her brother and she’ll do 
great in this world.
Man, remember that one time, two times, three times, at the movies?
Aha-I know you do.  
All the crazy things we did and been through-
Well I’m-a wrap this up, I took these lyrics from my rap
And I’m turning ‘em into a poem for English so I can get a grade
-Do well, and go to college, I’ma live for you
I love you, Fella<3

Kara Adams Sunday, August 14, 2011.


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Canvas

Walking up the stairs
She lays on the floor
He runs
Holding her cold body in his arms
He lets a tear fall from his eye
Dragging her down the stairs and into the cellar
He lays her on the canvas they painted on the floor
He spreads her arms and legs out
Pointing them the direction of North, South, West and East
He places four candles around the circle
Lighting them with his lighter
He sits and watches as he pours the hot wax on her face
He cuts around her eyes, slowly taking her eyes out
Gluing her eye lids shut covering them with the wax once again
He cuts her up in pieces
Scattering her in art forms
Admiring her beauty
He places her eyes in a glass jar
Wrapping her hands around a picture frame
He places her face on his ... as a mask
Gluing her face unto his
He lays on the canvas that is now covered in blood
He moves around 
His clothes covered in her blood
He watches through her eyes
The world she once saw
He places her face back on the canvas
He shuts off all the lights and walks up the stairs
Looking in the bathroom he saw the drug she has been taking
He cuts it up and sniffs it
He lays on the floor shaking
Crawling down the stairs to the cellar door
Trying to move but he cant move any further
His heart stops beating but hes still alive
The minute he had left
He opened the door
And rolled down the cellar stairs
Landing on the canvas
His face next to hers

"How its hurts now that your gone
Its so wrong"


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Disapear

Dont follow me
I am the thing that should not be
Nothing left to see
How could you blame me?
I got kicked out of school
Im nothing but a failed soul
Waste of life
Killin myself with every type of knife
I chose the wrong path
Couldnt find my other half
Soon i will disapear
Nothing... 
im not going to share
You dont not care
Im not telling you what you want to hear
These ending days youll live in fear
You dont like the things i wear
Falling into more dispare
Into the skies
Further into the stars
You will see
12-12-12
My ending is here






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The mind has a million questions

What if I gave up and threw all of my hard work away
What if I tell you to back off my case
What if everything in this world never really happened
That it all was just an illusion and we all fell for it
Is god real? who can I trust?
Should I remain a Satanist or be hated and change my views
Just for someone to like me
What if I just left and never came back
Who would miss me and who wouldn't even look back
Who will come find me and who will praise the lord that I'm gone
What if I chose to never speak to you for a few days or ever again
Would you wonder where I have been 
Would you text me or call me constantly just to see if I'm okay
How many days do I have to live
Knowing that every day I wake up 
I have these annoying questions running through my head
What would happen if I had no thoughts at all
Would I be numb.. ?
How scared would I be..
Would I hate it as much as I hate having them?


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The Art Of A Great Kiss

       THE ART OF A GREAT KISS
Upon thy moistened, warm and naked lip
I move my seeking, eager finger tip;
my life hath need of you,
I do what I must do;
to kiss thy mouth, where-in my soul can sip.;

'tis long been said, a kiss is just a kiss
and writ in song, we must remember this,
just words I sing for you,
I do what I must do,
to kiss thy lips, where-in life finds it's bliss!

I lay the reason, kisses take so long
for need of energy has grown so strong,
my love, in kissing you,
I do what I must do
to kiss thy lips, yes even if 'tis wrong.

there's never been a kiss borned not from need
demanding energy be sapped in greed,
my kiss is not for you,
I do what I must do,
to drain your energy, where-in my soul is freed.


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Demolition Lovers

"This time we will show them all how much we mean"

Walking into the school
Short blonde hair
Stunning blue eyes
Wearing make up on his face
The paint on his face
Is a skilled drawing of a skull
As he passes
Everyone starres
He keeps walking foreward
Not looking at them

She enters through the other end of the hallway
Long blonde hair
Deep brown eyes
Also wearing makeup on her face
A skilled drawing of a smaller skull
All the girls she passes
Starre at her
Wondering what kind of girl would 
Wear makeup like that

The Boy and the girl
Meet in the middle of the hallway
They hold eachothers hands
And continue down the hallway

Seeing them from behind
You read on his backpack
"I gave you my bullets..."
And on her bag you can see
"And i gave you my love"
They walk out of the school together
All the teachers starring
All the students watching there every move
They walk straight out to his car
A black Mustaine 1998
Before they get to the bridge 
He ties there hands together

They drive 10 miles
To a bridge
Theres a hill
A bridge
And a river
Hes going 90 mph
She clinches his hand
He looks at her with a smile on his face
She looks back at him pale as a ghost
The car jumps over the bridge into the river
The lovers dying on empact
Forever tied together by
The rope he tied earlier

Like a bed of roses
Theres alot of reasons
Why we are laying here
As we are falling down into
The pool of blood
I see your eyes
I mean this when I say forever.


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Starlight

Screaming,
Going insane,
Dreaming,
Stays in my brain.

It's raining,
And I can't make it stop.
I'm bleeding,
And i can't make it stop.

Starlight in the moonlights,
And you are in my sight,
And you won't go away.
Starlight in my dreams,
All the clues have no leads,
And the pain here to stay...

Now if I can just find him,
Everything would be clear,
All the pain will dim,
And he would be here.

The kisses would come true,
Please come out of my dreams,
The starlight won't be blue,
And I won't scream.

Starlight in the moonlights,
And you are in my sight,
And you won't go away.
Starlight in my dreams,
All the clues have no leads,
And the pain here to stay...

He is another dream,
But I will keep searching,
My Elijah come to me,
And you and I will see.


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America

Maybe your the land of the free
land of liberty and slavery
do what we want you to and dont throw a fit
suck it boy get over it

Land of liberty but can be arranged
still the land we call a cage
if you can make it away from the norm
just dont forget of the form

we want you!! x6

no one can heal our scars
better pray to the stripes and stars
put the rest in the past
say hello to the new low class

our soil is not complete
this land is guillotine
let out filth build up for all this time
fill yourself with american pride

we want you!! x6


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Slow To Heal

Visible defect Variation Soothing effect As my fingertips Run over this formation Through hills and dips Passing pain Now a conversation piece These wash away with the rain These One day will Cease Internal rips And tears Shadowed Stitched with care Only to be shredded Again Slow to heal If only it was let alone And you wouldn't hammer In the sin Full of chagrin Confidence blown I'd rather Show you my scars My skin shattered Then you discover my wounds Ruined Can't keep the seal So slow to heal


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Crone

The warmth of the sun
Is gone with life
For now she's the one
Who rules these nights

(CHORUS):
Dark Goddess
Bringer of Death
Bringer of Darkness
Bringer of Less
One of the Darkness
One of the Night
Bringer of Wisdom
Bringer of Might
Come on swift wings
Great Goddess please come
End all my sufferings
The circle is one!

Waters to ice
The flowers have died
life covered in lice
For summer has lied

(CHORUS):
Dark Goddess
Bringer of Death
Bringer of Darkness
Bringer of Less
One of the Darkness
One of the Night
Bringer of Wisdom
Bringer of Might
Come on swift wings
Great Goddess please come
End all my sufferings
The circle is one!

Great Crone
Goddess of Death
Don't leave me alone
Pull me out of this mess

Winter has come
with death you now bring 
with darkness of love
Let freedom now ring

Death is a freedom 
Death is a light
Death is of wisdom
We return in the night!

(CHORUS):
Dark Goddess
Bringer of Death
Bringer of Darkness
Bringer of Less
One of the Darkness
One of the Night
Bringer of Wisdom
Bringer of Might
Come on swift wings
Great Goddess please come
End all my sufferings
The circle is one!


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Dear Diary

Dear Diary.... this heart of mine is been confused if it is love, infatuation or crush he always in my thoughts all day and night that keeps lingering on my mind Dear diary.... here I’ am smiling all alone and thinking him all day long and see him face closer to mine walking hand and hand talking laughing and feeling Dear diary..... I don’t know what to do? Tell me where do I start I miss him each day of my life can't explain this feeling I have if it is madness... when it will last? Dear diary.... I wonder what would happen next? Song of my heart will be please this feeling soon will reveal a love I have been hidden and care about Dear diary... tell me now


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diggin on you

say baby can i talk to you?
i see you across the way 
staring at me with such curiosity
baby i wanna know what your name is 
youve gotten my attention by your pretty smile
your soft dark smooth skin
Im diggin on you like im feeling true love for the first time

who i am? is not important
baby im diggin you 
so just tell me what you wanna do?
you got my attention now im staring at you with curiosity
can i be your slave baby? 

im diggin on you 
from your pretty smile baby
to your soft nice brown skin
i just wanna know you girl 
Im diggin on you baby 
I got a love jones for ya


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A Teenage Boy

Having a son to carry on the family name
Was something to be proud of
Bust since he became a teen, nothing has remained the same
He has changed, thinking he knows all
I still love him with all my heart, but not his mouth
He wants to argue and talk back every chance he gets
Since he became a teen his life has gone south
Getting in trouble when the urge hits him
He’s 15, not a little boy, definitely not yet a man
Have asked for advice, have tried several different things
He loves to try me when dad’s not around, because he thinks that he can
Please Lord, hear my plea, I need assistance right away
We clash and we fight
Please Lord, I beg of you to step in and help him see
That the way he treats me just ain’t right
Help him to grow up and to respect
Hold me back from causing him any harm
Give me patience, guidance, and wisdom
To direct him on the right path
And once more hold him in my arms
Let me remember when he was born he brought me great joy
And remind me to praise him when he does do good
For no longer is he my little boy
But a teen who claims he’s so misunderstood


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McDonalds poem

me and my girl kelssey just got done smoking weed
 are stomach start rumbling and we started too have cravings 
what was it what do we need 
we but our minds together and it was micky d's

so we walked in to get our burgers and fries,
but realized we aint gots no money to our surprise

i look in my back pocket and a 20 appear
 we was like holy crap then we walk up to the cashear 
she was like "how can i help you? you want that here or to go ? "
 umm i dont know but i like a number 6 plain with cheese
 but her not sure what do you want kelssey?


i want a classic combo. a sweet tea to drink. 
thats what id order im pretty sure or i think.
 burgers on our mind..thank god it was micky d's that we would find
. but watch the drinks. make sure the dont spill. 
but if you do its ok. cuz we get free refill.

they called our order and we grab our meal 
right when we seat down i cause a big deal
 i looked at my food and guess what i see 
they put lettuce ketchup and mayonnaise and the receipt says plain with cheese
 i cause a fus and a big scene it all worked out
 the food was free and i got back my 20


so we didnt have to pay.
 we got out there real fast and started a good day.
 but we were still hungry and what did we do? 
well we thought a shopping cart would fit through the drive through.

 a bad idea? i dont know. but me and west thats how we roll.
 so we climb in and away we go we went so fast no a time was spent
i was like " i hope we dont hit a car i hope we dont cause a dent"
 we finnally got to the end of the drive through 
so we told em to give us order number two and dont for get order number three
 right when we grabbed our food we jumped out of the cart and then we flea



so our trip to mickey d's was quite amazing at the least... 
as we eat our burgers and join in a great feast.
im like dang what are we doing 
we are packing our face s like a 8 year old eats pudding
 im a skinny kid but now i feel like a fat as pig 
i ate so much im starting to feel sick

so fat we feel. cuz we ate to much. kinda bad idea. 
who would of thought of such.
 well me and west kno how to kick it. eat mickey d's all day is good living


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Dig Up Stupid

You're degrading yourself You're only digging deeper This grave you've made for yourself You're your own tormentor Why don't you help yourself? Climb out of this hole Stop hurting yourself Fix your sad soul Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Don't try and right the wrong The damage is done Silence the song You can't run From a list so long The eyes are watching The diverse Became the same Why can't I keep my hands from latching Onto what was never mine? Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Dig up


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For All My Pain

Your blood is what was Sacrificed And in Blood we Shall Bathe No more pain nor more hate Will be shed for me ...This is only a desperate dream A slight tender touch on the largest of wounds can leave you screaming for an eternity Dreaming of an escape, A friend from a figment of dark a world from the abyss of my mind Set to fix all of your transgressions Every time you left, abandoned, stranded, forget me A human heart has a limit but It's only I who is left to blame Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Everyone turning against me I can't keep living a lie like this Lost In Life When death is the only hope Nothing is left to stay But the Fear of being afraid Let me lose this Let me enter another world Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain


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You Went Away

Another summer here alone
why you left me so cold chilled to the bone
it sinks in when i see you in stone

I walk around in a daze
forgetting the look on your face
nothing fills my heart but empty space
i showed you my darkest place

They tell me that i will be okay
but not today
I cry from the last words i heard you say

Living alone in this place
i think of you so i can escape
A place where i used to see you
Happy and breathing

but not anymore...

A place where you died in pain
It was a shame 
that you couldnt be saved

This day i will remember
because its the day that you went away


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Let's Party With the Wicked

The first big party of the year
Right after the pre-season game
A bunch of juniors and seniors take off
Driving around down the highway.
Pulling up to the designated house
Where the parents aren't at home
They don't know about the party
Their "honor student" has thrown.
Music is blasting from speakers all around
As people shove away couches to dance
Furniture's broken, but nobody cares
The party's a once-in-a-lifetime chance.
Things start to heat up
As guys bring in kegs of beer
Even freshmen took a drink, thinking,
"Total freedom; there are no parents here!"
Pretty soon, every thing's trashed,
And the people leave to go home
Late at night, right after that party,
People pull out onto the road.
Pandemonium wreaks havoc 
Twenty minutes after they leave
As all across the small town,
Cars begin to weave.
Cars crash like dominoes
In a simultaneous effect
Parents are in a panic
Wondering where their children have been left.
Bodies are splayed out all over the road
As metal tears and glass breaks
All of this, because of one little party
And because some students chose to drink.
Their best friends are in body bags
And their parents are engulfed in grief
And all because of that one party
And that stupid choice to drink.
Honor students now lay dead
Choir members in bags
Band players are gone forever
The other stories are just as bad.
Alcohol checks are administered
And even young ones are to blame
"It's not my fault, I was drugged!"
One sophmore dares to claim.
"It was just a little alcohol," they say,
As it rages through their system
"I didn't mean to kill anybody,
But now, I wish I were with them."
The nickname for this awful crash
And this tragic night
Truly lives up to its name:
"The Wicked has take flight."
Drinking and driving don't mix
And these students learned the hard way
It was just a little fun,
But their friends won't be back Monday.
Some say it wasn't their fault
And that everbody did it,
But really, everyone's to blame
For thinking, "Let's party with the Wicked."


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My Baby Girl

My Baby Girl


What happen?  I remember that you’d just started walking
and before I knew it, you was talking.
Pre-school, Barbie dolls, bakers ovens, 
And I’ll never forget the Pig tails and everything having to be purple!
Cake decorations and art lessons.
Oh and who could forget those piano sessions.

But now, your toys 
are laptops, cell phones, designer jeans
bubble gum, boots and boys.

What happen to my Baby Girl? 
The only thing that’s the same is that you still love purple.

Now in your teens 
you’ll soon be ready to drive a car
oh,  just look at you... so talented, so tall and beautiful
soon you’ll be done with high school and college, 
I need you to know,  because your so clever
and you can have whatever you endeavor
I see your life going far.

Just be true to yourself and always stay faithful
and remember; I’ll love you forever because your  My Baby Girl!


C. Gill
10-17-2008
Dedicated to Caroline


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Waking Up In a Dream

Caged out inside herself The dark light will never shine Why do you care to think negative If you'd care to think at all? Can you believe I wanted to be you? The dream faded long ago Once I realized it was me whom was right; prudence redeemed Your thoughts were wrong Why would you ever try someone that is less than you Someone that could never contend Directly to the end? My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Is it justified To harm others Only to break your insecurities To fill your prejudice I wish I could know Why you do this The words freeze when the come to me To burn another was they set into you Relapsed again I was left bleeding Cause I'm not good enough if I can be me You were the dream; I was the nightmare Serendipity came for me And I woke up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Say oh, I must say, to you, Mon plus Cher ami Yes to you I'm sorry I had an opinion I'm sorry I felt for one who can't feel I'm sorry I wasn't you I'm sorry I can only be me I'm sorry your dread words will never again be heard by me My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream


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Goodbye, My Almost Lover

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I don't want to think about you
Please, just let me be.
Goodbye, my heart of romance
Goodbye, my missing piece
Don't worry, hearts will heal with time and, 
Don't worry, cause you've set me free.
Goodbye, my dreams of future
Goodbye, my plans for life
I'm sorry to forget about you
Please, don't ask me why.
Goodbye, my loving hero
Goodbye, my army soldier
I'm trying not to think about it
Forget all that I've told you.
Goodbye, my ruined soul
Goodbye, my broken heart
I never want to think about you
I want us to be apart.
Goodbye, my distant memory
Goodbye, my aching love
Don't worry, I'll be fine without you
There's nothing left for you to hug.
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I don't want to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?


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Unexpected Heaven

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Black and white, it was all I saw
Everywhere I turned, everywhere I went
Ice covered everything, too thick to ever thaw

I couldn't see in front of me,
I couldn't find solid ground,
My world was crashing down around me,
Any cries of help dying without a sound.

So much time had gone by
And I was slowly drifting
Too much time had gone by
And I was slowly fading

But then you came to me, so unexpectedly,
I couldn't see a thing
You offered me, such a sweet reality,
I wondered if I was dreaming
You took my hand, made me understand
the truth among the lies
And wrapped in you, so safe and sound
An unexpected heaven is what I found

You were everything to me,
my feet were finally on the ground,
the world kept spinning quickly,
but in your arms I stayed as it all crashed down

So much time has gone by
And I'm slowly seeing
Too little time has gone by
For me to rid of this feeling

And then you came to me, so unexpectedly,
I couldn't see a thing
You offered me, such a sweet reality,
I wondered if I was dreaming
You took my hand, made me understand
the truth among the lies
And wrapped in you, so safe and sound
An unexpected heaven is what I found

Bright and true, I saw it in you
Life and love, I had found it all
A fairytale ending, it was in my sights
All because of you, my unexpected knight

And then you came to me, so unexpectedly,
I couldn't see a thing
You offered me, such a sweet reality,
I wondered if I was dreaming
You took my hand, made me understand
the truth among the lies
And wrapped in you, so safe and sound
An unexpected heaven is what I found

And wrapped up in you, so safe and sound
Happiness is what I gained
An unexpected heaven, is what I found


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Living Her Life

She sees the pains,
Which her native folk have gained.
She changed from a little girl
To someone who has always had the potential
To change her own little personal inner world.
As a child she never went through
What some other children of her people
Had went through themselves.

She used to never knew how the roots
Of all her people’s issues
Were and are so controversial.
Blessed was she, as a very young child,
For not knowing fully all the reasons why.

Blessed that she is and will always be
Full of feeling, and always quietly wondering “Why?”, 
Now she is filled with new knowledge and a developing sense of wisdom 
Within her own individual mind.
She is now what she had always
Envisioned and imagined before, since her elementary days.
She is (“I am...”) not entirely that same little girl anymore.
She is now one of the many of that particular kind.

Within her imagination is a longed 
Wanting of finally revealing 
The truths she has discovered and
How her people must change for the better.
Throughout her whole life, which she’s lived through so far,
She maintains a heart filled with feelings, 
A mind filled with knowledge
And a slight emotional immaturity as representation
That her inner child self is still alive on the inside.

Her inner and past child self (who was different from all the rest,
But was also similar to them when at their best).
Never truly knew how far she’d come in life.
(As of right now and forever into the future)
How she has grown and maintained herself
Is how she had made that (her) inner voice in her head and 
Had also long ago already acknowledged her true self.

She still stands in her own believing faith and faith in herself
And her lack of prejudice is what makes her naive thinking
Make her own days in her life far brighter than what others say
As they discourage her from doing 
Or trying to pursue something grand and part of a divine plan.
Even after times and tribulations involving doubting tremble.

Blessed she is for being so whole in her own presumed thoughts,
Blessed she is for logical thinking based on emotion and feelings.
Blessed she will always be, for Christ himself said to a woman
(who was suffering from something for more than 12 years), 
“Your faith is what made you whole.”
Now she thinks...
“Grateful and blessed I am, to the point of tears of joy and sorrow of how I used to doubt.
I now forever know what my life will be like beyond tomorrow.”


Details | Rhyme | |

A Road to Nowhere

A road to nowhere A picturesque scene of trees turning bare Fresh autumn scents filling the air And a young woman on a journey traveling from here to there With a slow, steady pace and tapping shoes She creates an east rhythm to hum along to Walking along, not a care in the world Living her life, and living it well The cool crisp air softly blowing at her knees Coming throughout the autumn trees For a moment it almost seems Things aren't really ever as bad as they tend to seem Soaking in the last bit of light with a peaceful flow She passes along the last few trees with golden leaves shinning abode The now setting sun begins to give off a warm orangey red glow Setting off her long blonde hair as it moves to and fro Then out of the gleaming sky Fighting her rising fear from deep with inside Her heartbeat quickens, as she tries keeping a steady stride Hairs prickling up upon her neck, a raven screeches as it swoops by The absence oh heat, so abrupt Leaves her with chills, so corrupt Touching her soul as if almost freezing up Upon her face lay a perfect cut A gush of wind cuts across her chest And her forehead quickly covers with little beads of sweat Just as she's starting to fear she can't go on She twirls and turns then starts to run She whirls around but falls to her knees Blood slowly dripping down from her cheek The raven appears with an open beak Ans lets out a bloodcurdling screech "Raven, Raven, oh please don't die!" She laughs And looks upon the bird with a menacing smile Then lets out a satisfying sigh "Just please don't die" She gracefully stands with blood-lust filled eyes Her tapping shoes carrying her off into the night Her Raven black hair rocking to and fro And off down the road to nowhere she goes
Inspired by The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe


Details | Lyric | |

My Apology

I’m the president of your fan club.
I only do whatever it is that you want me to do.
I’ll follow you like a loyal dog to the ends of the earth.
All I want you to do is try to accept me as the wind does a kite, like fireworks to the sky, like my poetry to your heart.
But all I do is screw up and follow up by a stupid decision that breaks your heart.
I think I’m in love but I don’t know with who.
If only I didn’t push you away or turn the other page.
I’m attracted to you like fish in the sea.
Only if you could see my apology for thee.


Details | Lyric | |

Just Pass Me By

Why do you keep me chained up?
Why do you keep me here?
All I wanted to do was roam, but
You played a part in my fears
Your sadistic and your cunning, well
I think I know your name
Aren't you called life?
Shouldn't you be a game?

Life...Just pass me by...
Life...Just pass me by...

If I take you seriously I think I'll choke
If I take you lightly you'll leave me out
Why do you do this to me?
You're gonna suck me dry, no doubt
I always thought you were a joker, but
Now I see your true intentions
You are just like one of us and
Some of us are infections

Life...Just pass me by...
Life...It's all a lie...Just pass me...by...


Details | Imagism | |

Senses Wonder

I hear the same things
Every passing day-
The sound my feet make 
Walking up stairs-
Laughter-
Sighs-
Sniffles;
But, what would 
It sound like
If you walked the stairs 
By my side?
If I heard you laugh,
Sigh lovingly,
Sniff to hold back a tear?
What if I heard your voice
Say my name?

I hear
Birds singing-
Distant whispers-
Winds blowing-
Knocking on doors,
But what if I heard 
You sing my favorite love song?
Whispering in my ear
Or the wind blowing 
Through your hair?
But, what if, one day,
You locked me out?
What if you didn't
Let me in?

I see sunsets-
Birds flying in freedom-
Young love-
Flowers in bloom-
But how great would it be 
If we admired the sunsets
And found freedom together?
If you took my hand 
And we enjoyed 
The belittled things in life?
What if
You never let go?

I see 
Lights-
Night time-
Shooting stars-
People walking,
But what if 
You saw the 
Light in me?
What if we 
Watched the stars
And made a wish?
But, what if
I saw you walk away
Like all those other people?
What if
You never came back?

I feel
Gentle nightfall
Come upon me-
My feet wanting
To get up-
My mind dreaming
Of what to say,
But, what if,
Under the stars,
We danced? 
What if we talked 
About lovely springtime?
What if 
We never woke up?

I feel
A soft chill-
A loving presence-
A yawn coming-
My hands held together,
But, what if,
You warmed me
With your heart?
What if
You didn't leave,
And we talked all night?
But, what if, 
You never held me?
What if
You were never there?


Details | I do not know? | |

You're My Hope, You're My Demise

Cold wind blows, Knowing no empathy,
Leaving none but the dead and hopeless,
Angel Angel from the sky,
Why do I feel, why did you die?
Angel angel are you noose-less?
Why do you cry "Oh Sympathy!"? 

Among the eyes of my bewildered,
Along the cheaters and the judges,
Of those who start fires in your soul,
Who heal you to make another hole.
Do you bathe in the hateful sludges,
Of these damned and the unfiltered? 
(sonovadog!)

Angel, Angel  from the sky, 
never rot, never die, 
Never remember when to fly, 
Never leave, but don't'chu stay,
Upon this alter you still lay,
not knowing what you have to say.
Never rot, never die. 
Angel, Angel from the sky. 

Holy Hell upon your fingers, 
This feeling stays this feeling lingers,
(screw) these (gosh) damned Holy ringers,
Supposed saviors that save the liars,
Selfish (Fpeople) save highest buyers. 
Upon your soul they feul the fires. 
Hypocrites!

Angel, Angel  from the sky, 
never rot, never die, 
Never remember when to fly, 
Never leave, but don't'chu stay,
Upon this alter you still lay,
not knowing what you have to say.
Never rot, never die. 
Angel, Angel from the sky.


See the light to fear the darkness,
Understand to love the heartless. 
See the anger you can harness,
Turn your back on evil notions. 
Oceans of unknown emotions, 
Bring belligerent thoughtless motions. 

Angel, Angel  from the sky, 
never rot, never die, 
Never remember when to fly, 
Never leave, but don't'chu stay,
Upon this alter you still lay,
not knowing what you have to say.
Never rot, never die. 
Angel, Angel from the sky.

Silence from the suicidal,
The screams of words, not so vital,
Fall upon ears of the idle,
As listeners choose to ignore,
Who they love, forever more.
Who are these words really for? 


Details | Ballad | |

Rosaline

Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline


Details | Lyric | |

My Darkest Place

Covered with ashes
No way to see through the smoke and fog
The ground is hard and the grass is blackened
There are no buildings
No air among us
No blue skies to heal the pain
No light to see your path
The flowers scattered like clouds
There is no living thing around
You you have defend for yourself
The only time you can visit is in your sleep
The land is cold
The river is filled with blood
The sea is filled with tears
The area is surronded by broken trees and flames
To much of your liking you find a cabin
The cabin is filled with skulls and bones
You step in cracking the bones as you take a step
The door closes as you find yourself in a different place
The room takes you to a hot place
Filled with scary things as you only see in your dreams
Only this is no longer a dream this is reality
This has become your life


Details | Lyric | |

Beyond An Angel's Wings

Confusion is a different place. When you're not confused anymore, You feel empty, But when you're confused, You feel terrible. This is my story. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- Confusion spreads through your body, When the lights are going dim. You, now, know he likes you. But you're in love with him. But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. All the evidence proves to it, Even some witnesses. What if it was just a joke? I'll never know... But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. Dreams fly out into the sky. You see them there, And now you want to cry. He comes to you and wipes away that tear. The only thing is that he isn't even here. But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. Until I find out, This song will never end. I guess for now, He's just a friend...


Details | I do not know? | |

Sad Love Song

The pretty flowers outside
Will eventually withered
Like my heart that once found happiness
I thought it will last forever
In the end, I am left alone
I am left broken hearted
Everything cannot be undone
Still, I am hoping
For you to be the one

What have happened between us?
Did I hurt you so badly?
But did it ever occur to you
That you are so dear to me

Is it better to forget?
But every time I've tried
Tears welled up in my eyes
We shared too much memories together
I can't bring myself to forget you
I can only wish for a miracle
For I want to continue loving you
Although it is wrong
I am still living with our memories
Written in this sad love song

The pretty skies outside
Will eventually darkened
Like my heart that once found happiness
I thought I will never be hurt
In the end, I am left crying
I am left with a deep wound
Everything cannot be undone
Still, I am hoping
For you to be the one

What have happened between us?
Did I hurt you so badly?
But did it ever occur to you
That you are so dear to me

Is it better to forget?
But every time I've tried
Tears welled up in my eyes
We shared too much memories together
I can't bring myself to forget you
I can only wish for a miracle
For I want to continue loving you
Although it is wrong
I am still living with our memories
Written in this sad love song

Hiding my trembling heart
Pretending to smile at everyone
What am I actually expecting?
A happy or sad ending?

Is it better to forget?
But every time I've tried
Tears welled up in my eyes
We shared too much memories together
I can't bring myself to forget you
I can only wish for a miracle
For I want to continue loving you
Although it is wrong
I am still living with our memories
Written in this sad love song


Details | Lyric | |

In My Poet's Eye

IN MY POET'S EYE
I can't say, where you are tonight.
I can't say, our love would have turned out right.
I don't know, but I do know, 
you are still my love.

Every night I find I still reach for you.
Any time I pray, I still pray for you.
I don't know the reason, 
But I know you're still a part of me.

In my poet's eye, I still see you here.
In my poet's world, I still feel you near.
I don't know the reason, 
but I thought God meant this love to be.
I don't know the reason, 
but I thought God meant our love to be.

In my poet's mind, you are mine again.
In my poet's heart you are here again.
In my poet's eye, you'll always be my love.

In my poet's eye, you'll always be my love.
In my poet's eye, you are still my love.
.......© ron wilson
The video for this song on Youtube, search for "veebdosa"then select IN MY POETS EYE, either Vee Bdosa (aka Ron Wilson) singing or Emily Van Praag singing.


Details | Lyric | |

Passion ILLusion

From the black canal,
I awoke into a beast of light.
Eager wishes through my very blood and soul,
an illusion as my memory told.
An illusion so real it seemed so true.
A beautiful woman with plenteous silken hair,
stood bare from end to end before my eyes and
flowered a smile, as my memory told.
The thirst of my soul rose, I moved near to touch her
and she vanish.
I turned and there she was bare from end to end before 
my eyes.
She laid in china blooms,pure and simplistic,
as my memory told.
An illusion so real it seemed so true.
I laid next to her and she cradled in my arms
with eyes entire.
Her lips were sweet to my desire,
as my memory told.
The harping angels rose, devil passion wrestled the tides 
of fate and drifted in.
She moved in circles, and the circles moved, moved, and moved.
My body mart to a motion not of my own.
In the heat of passion, I awoke from the black canal into a
beast of light.


Details | Lyric | |

Switch

Glide Slide Through the maze Fake For my sake To keep you distantly near Take This silent token Do not worry I am not broken I'm left with the sea green lake Tangled in my heart I am not sorry One Two Three Switch To keep you Close To keep you Far Hope That one day It will be the same But The two fold rope Tattered it lay Only playing the game Fear Taking over I beg please My dear Don't let it shatter Run Done For the sun I am the fool Who breaks the rules For a moment of fresh air Just to keep you close Just to keep you near So you can slip away


Details | Lyric | |

Foullen -Part Two-

-Kaz walks in the room slowly his hair hanging in his face wiping his forehead with the back of his hand- Hello Foullen, Have you had a chance to feed yet today ?
Foullen-he turns around standing far from Kaz-
Kaz- ilove you. -He gets up walking towards the direction in which Foullen was smiling alittle- You bit me and it set off sparks Im mesmerised by you and your existance I let you feed because i cant stand anything happening to you. I love you
Foullen-quickly turns around looking at Kaz-
Kaz-He stands directly in front of him touching Foullen on the cheek looking in his eyes-
Foullen-he quickly grabbed his things, fastly opening the door walking out into the woods-
Kaz-he runs out following him- Foullen!
Foullen-he walks faster not turning around as he huffs out the door-
Kaz-he contines to go after him sprinting and following him closely still calling out to him- Foullen!
Foullen-he turns around his eyes glowing a bright bright blue- "what!"
Kaz-Why are you running? You had a sparkle in your eye when i told you i loved you, and now your running. what is going on?
Foullen-he would mumble something under his breathe and begins to talk louder- " eh um idk, no one has said that before, how was i suppose to react? happy?" -he closed his eyes and sighed as if he failed-
Kaz-Im sorry if it upset you but its the reason i keep coming back, I keep coming for you. -he grabed his arm lightly in a comforting manner-
Kaz-He kisses him gently- I dont want to let you go ever -He whispered softly in Foullens ear after their lips parted-
Foullen-he turned away from Kaz and started to walk away-
Kaz-He got up going towards Foullen wrapping his arms around the vampires chest from behind-
Foullen-"im nothing you want" -he unwraps Kaz's arms from his chest and pushes him away-
Kaz-You are what I want exactly in fact. Your strong and beautiful, and you make me smile inside. I want nothing else but you.
Foullen-"many people come up to me saying that, how do i know your not any different?" -he sighed looking down-
Kaz-Well, Ive followed you thus far, and I keep advancing admist all of you attepmts to push me away. And i know you felt something when you kissed me. Im here for the long hull, and I know im not perfect and never will be but I aspire to be as perfect as I can for you. And even when we fight to the point of crying, I wanna be the one to hold you, and try my best to protect you in whatever way i can.

(Stay tuned for Part Three)


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The Struggle

Strain 
On my back
This burden
Will burst my veins
The strength to hold on
I lack
Can't shield the attack

I shake
Under the weight
Keep throwing the bricks
Until my soul is sick
Create my fate
Laugh when I cry
And dance when I die

Venom filled words
Burn through the porcelain
Stabbing the sword
Deeper in blood red skin
The hiss
Fills my ears
Hit
Miss
One more sear
More burning tears

Death will come
Victory for the meek
Can't help but succumb
To the power you seek

We stand tall
A power so great
You've become so small
No room for your hate
Our scars erased
By the one deserving
The highest place


Details | Lyric | |

Downer

The internet told me i have aids
The media told me that im a murderer
The magezines tell me i can become fake
The ads tell me i can give into things
The book told me i can believe in dumb things
The tv commercial said i can save money on car insurance
The store sign said i can buy a life
The hospital told me i can end a life
The iran people said i can bomb anything
The cigarette ad said i got cancer
The weed ad said i got healthier
My journal said i can be many things 
but im better off as being myself!!


Details | Free verse | |

Freyja

 
Surging through this lifeless Body of mine Mania, Euphoria, Freyja Never let me run dry I am lost by your Sigh But I cannot cry What Is this coming over me this everlasting energy Never cease this utmost surprise I graciously prithee Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I? Faster, Only Faster Harder, Only Harder In Bizarre Light I hold myself to another Flame Torturous Fun of this Game Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I? Sensuality to it's new Peak Running again from the Fake obsolete Euphoric, Erotic All you want All you Desire Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I?


Details | Ballad | |

Miss Mayhem

Nymphomania Is all she can grant you along with a well spent night This femme fatale isn't something A man can't handle A sex-fiend straight from the chamber of Satan A desire so strong It won't ever feel wrong A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem Disaster is what she is A taste of her could make you leave All other vices and loves Would you ever think of the price For an eternity you'll be condemne dEven just for one night with miss mayhem This vamp of pain all life she will drain, this is addicting whore Is all you will adore Exciting and erotic Using all fetishes against your soul Your wife will surely lament From this dreadful strife A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem A plague of pleasure The flead rats couldn't even measure Against the scourge of men A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem


Details | Lyric | |

Louder Than Thunder

All stars could be brighter
All hearts could be warmer
If i could find a place in your heart

youve written a sad song 
the one i found 
you were laying on the floor 
holding it close to your heart

I dont think i deserved this
My heart turned into ice
Melted at the sight of your pictures

I held your hand 
while you were sleeping in your casket
I kissed your cheek
While people passed your viewing

Youve written a sad song
the one i found
you were laying on the floor
Holding it close to your heart

What would it take for things to be quiet?
passing the sound of your voice
While laying on the bed we once slept in 
Holding eachother for warmth

youve written the saddest song
No one can recover
Our last memory of you
Laying helpless on the floor

I could have done better
Finding my way into your heart





Details | Lyric | |

I want to help!

      I know the burning rage,
I feel trapped, as if in a cage.
There's nothing I can do, 
I wish I could stop you.
You've put others on a shelf.
You try to solve your problems yourself.
You grab something sharp and start to cut,
girl, you ain't in that big a rut.
Why are you doing this, tell me please!?
I'm your friend, your pain, I will ease. 
I will wait until the end of time.
I'll take your problem, and make it mine.






  (This poem was written for a friend)


Details | Lyric | |

When There's Nowhere Else to Go

You take a part of me;
Break down every part of my sanity.
Baby look at me, I'll split myself in two
For the future I see in you.

So you say you want go and experience the world
From the other side of the show.
I never thought it would be the best intention
To leave and seek out without my protection.
I'll stay within arms reach, you're more than welcome to leave with me.

Baby look, I'll split myself in two
For the vision of love I see in you.

I won't be silent this time; I'll tell you something you haven't heard,
No there'll be no loss of words.
You know and I know that everything I've told I've shown,
So take me now, grab a hold,
And please don't love me when there's nowhere else to go.

Honey your boys a fool for all he does to you.
And when you look at me you know it's true;
The vision of perfection that never left your sight,
Never left my eyes.
So there's just one thing left to do.

Baby look, I'll split myself in two
For everything I still see in you.

I won't be silent this time; I'll tell you something you haven't heard,
No there'll be no loss of words.
You know and I know that everything I've told I've shown,
So take me now, grab a hold,
And please don't love me when there's nowhere else to go.

I'll bleed myself dry
Just to give you one more try.
But before you go,
Promise not to love me when there's nowhere left go.


Details | Lyric | |

Family is Overrated!

Headin’ back home
I don’t know what to think
I want to roam but
"I disagree," says my shrink

What does he know anyway?
And why does he want me to stay?
Family is overrated!
Family makes life no fun!
My family is too outdated!
My family makes me want to run!

Walkin’ through the door
I see my dad
My bags hit the floor and
My dad looks rather mad

Why does he think I’m so bad?
And whys he always mad?
Family is overrated!
Family makes life no fun!
My family is too outdated!
My family makes me want to run!

I see my mom too
What does she think
She says, "Your rents due!" and
She leaves with a wink

Why should I have to pay rent?
When all my moneys spent?
Family is overrated!
Family makes life no fun!
My family is too outdated!
My family makes me want to run!

I see my brother
Sittin' on his bed
I ask him, "What’s with mother?" But
He never heard what I said

Never liked him anyway
I feel like I’ve been betrayed
Family is overrated!
Family makes life no fun!
My family is too outdated!
My family makes me want to run!

We gather ’round the table
For some dinner
"So are you able to
pick anyone but a sinner?"

My mom never liked my girlfriend
Thought she’d pass like a trend
Family is overrated!
Family makes life no fun!
My family is too outdated!
My family makes me want to run!

Packed my things up and
Headed for the door
"I’m leavin' for a distant land!" Then
My mom’s jaw hit the floor

Never liked my family anyway!
Wanted to leave every day!
Family is overrated!
Family makes life no fun!
My family is too outdated!
My family makes me want to run!


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Thinking of You

Life's no fun when you're living in the dark, Everyone has talent from the start, From the beginining, you'll discover the truth, About you... You just have to grab some sticks, beat on a drum, Or grab a mic and just start to hum... I knew there was something about me from the beginining, Everyone told me I could not sing. :( But look at me now, I'm singing my heart out. No one's going to tell me what to do, So why can't I stop thinking of you? <3 I sing and I dance to the beat of my heart, I act of romance in theater art. I write and believe in poetry, And I try to make the perfect cup of tea. Sometimes my imagination gets ahead, Of me, I thought you would laugh but instead, You Laughed at my face, made so many burns, You singed my heart.


Details | Lyric | |

Poison to Me

	
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears
You showed me love, but it’s not enough 
Cause my mind’s stuck on someone else…
Yeah we’re sitting, talking on your bed
But it’s not you who’s running through my head, and I’m just so scared.
I know it’s wrong, to string you along but I just can’t break your heart like this.
I’m gonna ask you to stop, that I like you a lot, but this just isn’t love.
There’s this guy who makes my heart beat fast, but we can never last.
We just weren’t cut out for love and my heart isn’t strong enough. 

He’s my drug, he’s my cocaine, yeah he’s always messing with my brain
And now I’m torn, bout to go insane. I say I don’t like it but you know I do. (Cause you do too.)
You’re so wrong for me, but it feels so right. He’s my day but babe, you’re my night.
Boy, why can’t you see…
It feels so good, but you’re so bad for me
You taste so good, but I know you’re poison to me.

I always want what I shouldn’t have. You broke my heart once, do it again and it won’t mend back.
 I’ll be stuck holding the broken parts, while you run off with your jar of hearts. 
And I’m dying tonight
Trying to hide
What I’m feeling inside 
Dying but I have to keep my feelings locked up tight
When I say hello, should be saying goodbye cause boy…
You’re like my drug, stronger than cocaine, even now you’re still runnin’ through my veins.
And now I’m a mess, totally insane. I say I don’t like it but you know I do. (We both do.)
You’re so wrong for me, but you feel so right. He’s my day, but you’re my night.
Boy, why can’t you see…
You feel so good, but you’re so bad for me.
You’re lips taste so good, but I know they’re poison to me…


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Goodbye

We're headin' out 
Our bags are packed
The dream is over and
The boxes are stacked
But I can't...forget...this place
I don't know how
How to let it go
I can't find a way
I can't go with the flow
All I know...is that I love...this place

The faces pass and memories fade
My whole life...turns to shade
All I know...is that I'll miss...this place

No more fun
Gotta buckle down
No more games
Gotta drop this crown
I hope I don't...forget...this place
Days in the sun and
Nights by the fire
I'll miss those times
With a burnin' desire
I'm gonna...miss...this place

The faces pass and memories fade
My whole life...turns to shade
All I know...is that I'll miss...this place

We're headin' out 
Our bags are packed
The dream is over and
The boxes are stacked
But I can't...forget...this place
I don't know how
How to let it go
I can't find a way
I can't go with the flow
All I know...is that I love...this place

The faces pass and memories fade
My whole life...turns to shade
All I know...is that I'll miss...this place
Goodbye...


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Another Girl Rocker

She is another girl rocker
she is just another girl i fall in love with
Another girl in school
probably a girl i did not get to notice

she loves music
i love music
she plays guitar
i play guitar

i play rock
she plays rock
she got a band
i got a band

what else we have in common?

we are perfect
we can be together

can she be the one?
even if she is too young?
i will try
a try worth my life.

a try

just another girl rocker 
and she rocks my world better



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Send Down The Rain

slavery of the mind to succed to the emotion (lies) Are we strong enough to storm the despair Or do we falter behind the façade over and over again Strive to reach the truth The kind is held back by all of the lies And the delusions of the unchained clouds Help us to believe again What we're all missing Is it all too late To send down a sign To send down the rain As the siren sings she's ready to be on the prowl On the prowl to hunt down our souls It's not real Pretend to send down the motion Our hidden notions Of our lieing emotions Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain


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Fly

Don't you wish you could fly? Don't you wish you could fly? Decisions are capable of control, Then you feel like a mole, Deep in the ground, Far away from sound. Things get you down, You can't fit into the crown, You lay in front of an ice cream shop, Your friends are playing ninja in the handicap spot. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Dreaming of a beautiful land, When you dug your feet into the sand, I get beaten, When your so smitten, Because you're not mine. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Fly, fly, fly. Fly like a butterfly, Away from troubles, That make you cry, When come in doubles. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Flap your wings and, Fly.


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4 Stages of Heartache

Nonstop tears
Brand new fears
"Who am I without him?"
Anger, frustration,
Complete humiliation
"What did I do to lose him?"
Hiding emotion
With the strongest devotion
"I am fine without him."

The first 3 stages of heartbreak
Devastation, frustration, denial

The final stage of heartache:
You move on without him
Not thinking about him
One last bit of exposure
And then, 
It's closure.


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Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


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Die With Passion

You need to come find me.
This, this game is done can't you see?
I can not hide from you any more.
I want to watch you suffer, suffer more.

This game is getting so old.
My heart has become so cold 
I do not love you any more.
I’m frozen to my core.

I don’t love you any more
Listen to me roar,
I hate you passionetly.
You’ve set my anger free.

I don’t even really care
If you’re no longer there
Lord you made me cry
I wish you would just die
‘Cause I don’t love you anymore

Come on out stop hiding
As you can see you’re not my King
Come on out and play
Today’s your dying day

I don’t love you anymore
My heart is what you tore
Lord you killed me
You ignored my dying plea.

I will never even care
If you’re no longer breathing air
I’ll be glad when you die
And you want to know why? 
‘Cause I don’t love you anymore

(now go) You are going to die 
(you) Didn’t even care that I
(go) Was used like trash, blown away
(die) It’s your time to pay

I don’t love you anymore
All the suffering that I bore
Your soul is coming with me
To Hell we’re going to flee

I don’t even really care
That you’re dead, I’m well aware
The time has come for this goodbye
To Hell will your soul fly
‘Cause I don’t love you anymore


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Bleeding Addiction

I speak......the silence unmaking my words,

for here the shade of broken time does dwell.

I scream and fight to make cuts with these cords

that bind me closer than the ghosts to hell.


From Concrete illusions, soft Escape,

the edge of pain sharpening my Pleasure,

my joy Reality did shake,

Shattering......that glass glazed Measure,

my life-like dreams within its shape.


For what can make this place of joy, of deathly terror end?

The silky cuts, the bloody scrapes, the temp'ring torture bends

this sweet fulfilling agony...the sorrow of my soul,

does taunt my honor heedlessly, but tell me Not, I Know.


For only with this torture can my body freely breathe,

only this enticing pain can make my spirit free.

So tell me not that this is wrong for how can it not be?

this Loving Torment of my soul will Never let me be.


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Dylan

A silver river down your face. You hang your heas in such disgrace. I've found you in this awful place. You've fallen from your spot of grace You've never cried in front of me, But now your weakness I do see. You cry and cry because of she, And all alone you want to be. I do refuse to leave your side. You are ashamned of how you've cried. You scream your wish that you had died, And here I come to be your guide. Never again will you walk alone. You now have love to call your own. You tried to cut rigt to the bone. You're caught tonight, tears on the phone. Let me hold you for this night. I will help you through this fight. Let us try with all our might. We'll sit here 'til you're alright. Now listen friend, and listen well. We'll walk together through this Hell. I promise you I'll never tell. Best friends forever, it ends well. Now you're in a happy place. I love that smile on your face. All of your pain we did erase. Live loving life, for it's no race.


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Writing Once Again (Have a Start but Know No End)

So here I lie
writing once again
I have a start
but know no end
I should study
and I should sleep
Instead I lie here awake
and watch tv


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Depressed Stream of Consciousness

Want to cut,
Can't.
Want to die,
Can't.
Not can't,
Won't.
Want to but won't.

Why?
They love me.
So what?
I love them.
You suffer...
I know.
Life sucks....
I really, really does...
Who knows,
Maybe death is better...
The dead know.
I bet they do,
They only way is to join them.
But I won't.
I have responsibilities.

"The woods are lovely dark and deep"
Now aren't they...
"But I have promises to keep"
So, so many...
"And miles to go before I sleep"
So many....
"And miles to go before I sleep"
Too many?


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Death Of Jim Morrison

     DEATH OF A ROCK STAR (Jim Morrison)
There's a man all alone and his name is well known
but he thinks all the world is a den
of the poor and the weak and the too dead to speak
for themselves, it's a game they can't win.

He's a little bit high and he'll be til we die
it's too bad that his heart is so black,
but he knows how to sing to a crowd and to bring
out the love that they've been holding back.

It's a game that he plays with your life and he stays
just as long as the music goes on,
and he'll make you to smile if it's only a while,
then he goes where the devil has gone.

All the girls that he's had think it's not all that bad
but the glitter's too much for their mind
so they leave him to sleep where no angel would keep
anyone for there's not one to find.

He could write every word of the songs we have heard
and he's led every daughter astray
to be part of his past and a love that won't last
into light of another new day.

Now he looks for the cause of the reason he was
Though he's died, he's still misunderstood,
but the dream's been too dead for too long in his head
and his heart's turned to stone as it should.


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Last Chance

This is my Last Chance for you. This is my Last Chance to get to you. This is my Last Chance to save you. This is my Last Chance to die. It started in a fire, Where you were trapped. I could only grab one thing, And I couldn't go back. So I grabbed you, In a blink of an eye. The house is fire, Now it's time to say bye. Oh Oh Oh, This is my Last Chance. If I don't take it I will lose you. Oh Oh Oh. This is my Last Chance to get you. I would get to go back. This is my Last Chance to get you. You're the strength that I lack.


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Should of Listened

Were just hoping for the best,
Were trying not to drown.
But when you look at her,
You just cant help,
But to fall in love.
I was told to stay away,
But i didnt listen,
I thought you were the one. 

Sitting here,
Broken,
And torn,
What a way to end the day.
What a way to end the say.
All the times we had,
All the good moments,
The memories,
They will never fade. 

Were just hoping for the best,
Were trying not to drown.
But when you look at her,
You just cant help,
But to fall in love.
I was told to stay away,
But i didnt listen,
I thought you were the one. 

Cant believe,
I didnt listen.
Should of listened.
But i was imprisoned
in love.
Dont you remember?
Dont you surrender?
Surrender to love,
To the pain you caused. 

Were just hoping for the best,
Were trying not to drown.
But when you look at her,
You just cant help,
But to fall in love.
I was told to stay away,
But i didnt listen,
I thought you were the one. 


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Luciferia II-- The Damned

Run away Run Away No matter how Far You will never escape my dark hands of faith Wicked and Damned you are my Sin Darling Don't you Tremble when I embrace you The cold and Dark may fill every marrow But at least there were here For You Tell Me how they So Loved You Tell Me All of your fears When the world is done and all their trust will render Undone I will always be with you And Now We cease to Exist Luciferia I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be Draining into the Night Shivering With the Smallest of Frights I am the Ghost In Your Dreams I watch You Through the Window Yes that is your name Written In Blood Are You Scared? Are You Suffering? The Dark fate is what was Meant to Be This is what happens when you Brake Us with Words Destroy us with sights Twists are minds Set our will On Fire I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be


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Andy's Game

Born in Fort Hood, Andy’s life wasn’t right
Her momma and daddy would always fight
Daddy was a drunk, momma was abusive
Her goals and dreams were so elusive
One day, Andy couldn’t take it anymore
Left without packing, walked out the door
Got into a pickup with a good lookin’ stranger
She liked the feeling, the feeling of danger

Arkansas was the first stop
She found a place and set up shop
Robbin’ people and banks was her game
All the money she could find she would claim
Took her .45 into the nearest bank
The clerk had noticed and his heart sank

Andy was this gal’s name
Living life fast was her game
Never wanted to be tame
Near the end it would be a shame

Took her money from the bank clerk
Loved what she did, always wanted to work
Got away from the scene in a icey blue truck
Andy used skill, she didn’t need luck

Andy was this gal’s name
Living life fast was her game
Never wanted to be tame
Near the end it would be a shame

Left the state of Arkansas, she’d become wanted
But Andy was made of stone, she was never daunted
Headed to Arizona to stake her claim
Too bad here she would take her first aim
Held up the bank, asked for the money
But this young boy wouldn’t give it, sonny
She shot him dead center between the eyes
Then suddenly she heard the screams and cries

Andy was this gal’s name
Living life fast was her game
Never wanted to be tame
Near the end it would be a shame

She jumped behind the desk and peeped over the top
The cops had come and set up shop
"Come out with your hands up or be shot down!"
"Then come and shoot me." She said with a frown
Stood up and blazed that .45
She had never felt so alive
She took one to the chest
No, two
No, three
She had met her end, she had begun to see
Andy died that day
But before she went, she had somethin’ to say
"To my father and my mother, I never needed you.
Because deep in my heart I always knew
that I’d amount to somethin’, be it good or bad
and that is why I’m dyin’ but I’m glad."

Andy was this gal’s name
Living life fast was her game
Never wanted to be tame
Near the end it would be a shame

(For you, you know who you are)


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Eyes

Dream of a world, Where there is peace. No girls, That admit to defeat. You can walk on water, Not worrying of drowning. You can open your locker, And look around see no one frowning. I walk up to you. I study your face. I can see if your blue, Or feel out of place. I look into your eyes. Somehow I'm suprised, You haven't seen in yet. You haven't seen the best, Of me. It's a dream, Or a nightmare, For which you don't wake. I feel like a vampire, Getting stabbed with a stake. Why can't you look into my eyes, And see I love you? Dream of a world, Filled with war. See a dead girl, And be dead poor. A million things, Happen at once. You have to see, The best of me. I walk up to you. I study your face. I can see if your blue, Or feel out of place. I look into your eyes. Somehow I'm suprised, You haven't seen in yet. You haven't seen the best, Of me. It's a dream, Or a nightmare, For which you don't wake. I feel like a vampire, Getting stabbed with a stake. Why can't you look into my eyes, And see I love you? Think about love. Think about death. You'll see a dove, On your last breath. Wake me with a kiss, So, I can see your eyes, With such bliss, Before I die. Listen to my fairytale, Before I leave, Before I go to Yale. I walk up to you. I study your face. I can see if your blue, Or feel out of place. I look into your eyes. Somehow I'm suprised, You haven't seen in yet. You haven't seen the best, Of me. It's a dream, Or a nightmare, For which you don't wake. I feel like a vampire, Getting stabbed with a stake. Why can't you look into my eyes, And see I love you? I can see, You don't love me, But can you stop, The Dreams, The Nightmares? There's something inside of me, I can't hide from. It's my fate, But I'm too late. Dream of the possibilities, Of you and me. Look into my eyes. Think twice. What do you think? About me? Now.


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What it Seems; Seams Unraveled

I’m finally growing up; I realize
Real eyes can recognize these real lies

Lies he, in a landscape barren
Bearin’ a false teachin’ he believed in.
 
Deceived by these elders, he felt like the bait
Bate the result as they betray the whole class of '08
Ate the lessons; trusted; left awed
Odd how you long to go back, sidestep the façade.

Fraud; caused his mind to alter
Altar of this education abandoned; falter.

Faltered, for as he appraised
Praised then, all of the knowledge he gained.

Drained; an opinion he lacks
Lax for years but now he’s on track
Track wisdom; has a mental axe
Acts as a way to crash walls, fight back.

Knack for writing, it became peace
Piece of heart in each written-release
Release stress; negative cease
Sees in a new light, consciousness increased.

Impeach his old ways and his mind state
State his ideals through wordplay.

Sure cliché, but this is my chance
Chants that make a difference from my stance.


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Did i mention she's green?

Green girl
Green girl

She gathers leaves on a blue and green night
Her emerald eyes make me ignite

Dream catchers gather on her wall
She makes stars none shall fall

Green girl
Green girl

Light candles, red hair reminds me of autumn
Fire red forest she will come

Dream catchers gather on her wall
She makes stars none shall fall

Green girl
Green girl

Change like the seasons
For unknown reasons
Nothing left to give
Baby I would relive

Green girl
Green girl


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The Shore Awaits

My head is heavy
with loneliness
as i sail into the moon
watching my reflection
run in circles
over and over i see
the deepest part of me
become lit with enmity
and endless misery
for it's difficult to look forward
when you live in a memory
and it's hard to kill 
the voices that torture you
when those voices
come from your own mind
Why must I
hurt myself so?
hoping for a better tomorrow
when i make it
so it never shall be so?
I must find a way
to outsmart my sadness
to look past my own
imperfections
to let my feelings go
to let go of my fear
and to finally let go
of the thought of finding
a better world
So from this day forth
and this night that is to fall
I will set my sail forever
I will never stop moving forward
and i shall ride the lightning
and swim in the tsunami
because i can overcome 
any odds that i already have not faced
I will find the land and shores of bliss
just speaking of the thought
makes me taste the sands 
of times to come
follow me into the abyss
and i promise
the shore awaits


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The letter

I've fallen today on the war field
with my gun and a picture of you 
these are my final words hear them loud
for i hear the angels singing in the clouds

your my everything,your my world
make sure to kiss our little girls
say goodbye to my mom and hug my dad
and don't forget the wonderful  life we've had

now i hear amazing grace coming closer to me
this note that i am writing is for your eyes to see
i hope someone will give to you this letter for me
because i will pass on today for the land of the free

i see the gates and i am about to go in
so these last few words is all i can do
my breathing is getting harder and its time for me to go
so baby i love you and I'll be watching you, maybe
not in person but in soul, tell our girls their mom loves them so

so whenever you are lonely,i will be there
and tell our little girls to keep up with there prayers
cause i will be listening all the way up here


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First Love

I met this girl when I was 14
Prettiest thing I'd ever seen
We met in a field, she asked me to dance
Her green dress and perfume put me in a trance
She told me she loved me
She told me she cared
She told me we'd always be
Together, she sweared
Late one night we went for a walk
I felt a little tired so we stopped and talked
I kissed her on the neck and whispered in her ear
"I'm your vision and you're my seer."

I love her
I'm sure

Loved this girl from when we first met
Our hearts were pumpin', our minds were set
We'd be happy forever, she'd never go
We were actors and life was just a show
I told her I'd love her
I told her I'd care
She was my cure
That I wanted to share
Everybody loved her, but she loved me the most
Everyday she was my guest and I was her host
But one night I woke up from my dream and I found
That my girl had left without a word, without a sound

I miss her
I'm sure

I searched and searched, but to no avail
She didn't leave me nothin', not even a trail
I think they took her away, we had too much fun
It was the man who makes the rules, the man with a gun
I missed her dear
Oh, I missed her so
This was my fear
That she would go
So I went for a walk, without my girl it was weird
But then I started thinkin', my mind had cleared
This girl clouded my mind from when we first met
I didn't need her love, my mind was set

I'm alright without her
I'm pretty sure

I haven't seen her since that dark starry night
I don't know why I feel this way, it just feels right
I think about her from time to time
Too bad lovin' my girl was a crime
I wonder if I'll ever see her again
I think I'll just wait 'till then

Maybe one last ride wouldn't hurt


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Never Let Go

Can anything beat
laying in the grass
and counting all the stars we see?
Can anything beat
wrapping up in blankets
with a picnic to eat?
Can anything beat
stealing kisses
while we just enjoy the time?
Can anything
yes anything
ever really beat
what time we have
together, like now?
No nothing can
Nothing could
And all I know is
I wish I could
I wish I could stay here with you tonight
I wish I didn’t have such a long drive
I wish I could simply spend the night
and hold you tight 
like I’ll never let go


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Secret Pain

My heart spills everything I try so hard to hide.
Hiding the pain makes everything feel like a lie.
When I speak to you
You have no clue what my mind goes through.
I can't find what to say.
You make eveything feel okay.
But still you're the only one that knows
Everything I can't show.
When I feel the pain
I think I must be insane.
To think that I am the only one.
But then I think of the son.


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true story

i had just 3 beers and  was eating some chips
my friends in the front was smoking some  pot
which i didn't want to deal with

the car was getting haze as i was just getting drunk
we were just daze and confuse  and didn't give a duck

we was just looking for a good timebut could walk a straight line
i had to pee but wish i had the time

i just had to stay in one place
the cop knew  we was drunk by looking at our face
he smelled my breath and i had the  beer taste

 so he pulled us out of the car one by one 
he look at us in our eyes and said son ur done

they hand cuff us  and put us in the back 
the only thing was going in my mind  was i need  run 
i need to break away from all of this mess
but i didn't i got scared there was sweat going down my chest.

it all happen just so fast , i closed my eyes one mement
open the next find out im going to a court date and  be righting some check
i just wish this was something u can take away and have it never come back
but thats not how a cop would act ....


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Into Depression

A willing trek through the thick blackness
a willing regress into depression
all for the sake of keeping sane
the only thing known by the brain for so long
a forced seclusion
with a sorrowful inclusion of painful memories
sitting there all alone
in the darkness once called home
rotting through flesh
decaying bones
soul seeking


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Confusion

Green and 
Blue blotches
With no reason
Nor rhyme.
Racing, like
Purple chainsaws 
Dancing through my head
Like sugarplums
At Christmas time.
Cross-eyed acrobats
Jumping through
Twisted rings of
Nothing at all.
Feels like I'm 
Falling and cracking
Anxiously, like
Humpty Dumpty
Off the wall.
Lies, deceit, and honor
All hide underneath
A woven blanket
Of disbelief.
I 
Can't
Find 
Truth.
I can no longer 
Find innocence.
I can no longer
Tell what's good for me
None of this is making sense!

Eyes on 
The clock...
Bodies on
The floor...
Making some 
Sense again
With the shelves 
Back in stock,
And more guests at the door.
Here we go again.

I rise,
I twist,
I run, 
I leap,
But I am
Getting nowhere.
Can't die,
But can't seem
To get my hand
Off my gun.

Are you lying
Or winning
Or losing 
Or stealing?
You say
These things until
My head
Won't stop spinning.
Friends
Roses
Walls
Shoes!
Make some
Sense of
All this fusion!
Now you can 
Taste my medicine,
Just one 
Dose of
My confusion.


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The Stone

I think i might write a letter
to someone that i havent
talked to in a while
Ill lay it beside her stone
the stone i brought for her
when i was really young
Ill wait until she writes back
Falling asleep on the cold ground
Waking up in the fog


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it's All in My heAd

It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head

Well, my ceiling's my wall and my wall is too bright
I can't remember the plan and everyday is a fight
I'm tired of being sick, I'm sick of being down
I'm down on myself and I'm tired of this frown
I never asked to be myself, but I'm glad I am
And If the world can't take me then why give a damn?
I'd rather die young than live old and alone
I'd rather be myself than be another clone

I've lost what? My mind you say?
I don't see how, all I want is play
But I can't play anymore, I'm too far gone
It's dusk here when it should be dawn

Well I was a razor and love got cut
I guess I had it coming, it sucks, but
It doesn't make me sad, I guess it's kinda bad
I'd rather it be them than me, I'm talking 'bout sad
So I told them I'd stop it but I lie too well
And all I've thought about is why my heaven is hell
I won't lie again, this'll be the hardest test
And If I lie twice I think I'll follow the rest

I've lost what? My mind you say?
I don't see how, all I want is play
But I can't play anymore, I'm too far gone
It's dusk here when it should be dawn

So it's beginning, but it's over it seems
I don't even think, I just try to daydream
I want the dreams to stay forever
But for that I guess I'd have to be clever
I say I have plans but I plan on nothing
Being this easy is ok, but it's not something
I didn't do enough, I did what I could but
I'm doing what I want not doing what I should

I've lost what? My mind you say?
I don't see how, all I want is play
But I can't play anymore, I'm too far gone
It's dusk here when it should be dawn
So I think I'll think it over in my bed
And I'll try to remember that it's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
 


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She

Shes got bruises on her skin
And sorrow in her mind
Told her fighting back was a sin
Told her you were kind

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too

You took her life and now shes gone
Your signature for her death was signed
How will you feel when you see that dawn
When you have your daughter’s death on your mind

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too

You told your wife you’d hit her
If she said a word
What had happened to what you were
Silence could not have cured

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too

Hit your wife to death
Now shes gone aswell
She took her last breath
While hearing you yell

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too


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A Drunken Mind Speaks A Sober Heart

I am scared and fearless at the same time
I am sober and drunk all together
I am wild and conservative and just plain nuts
And I pull stunts like I'll live forever.
I do comepletely stupid stuff
And I don't really care what happens 
If I survive, that's another chance
To do something and see if I crash it.
I am sick and tired all at once
I am healthy and energetic
I can go all day, I crash after an hour
I get right back up and forget it.
I am hardworking and lazy
I do forgive and forget
I live in the moment, I plan every second
Make decisions I know I'll regret.
I want to love and be loved
I want to be left all alone
I want someone there for me
I want to rule from my place on a throne.
I want to rock this world
And make my name unforgettable
I want to be known by no one
I hate the inevitable.
I don't want to be remembered
Yet I want my legacy to live on
I want to be hated by some people
And I want the haters to be gone.
I believe in passion for something
But not in real true love
I don't believe in fairy tales
But I wish on stars above.
I am careful and careless
I take risks and then again, I don't
I try to make the best of life
But wait for it, I won't.
These words I speak now today
Are reckless and torn apart
I sound crazy and indecisive,
But a drunken minds speaks a sober heart.


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Dream Big

~ Dream Big ~ It is hard to believe Sixteen years have passed Since the day you were born A bundle of joy The apple of your Dad’s eyes Your Mom’s little princess Her baby girl I knew it then and I know it now You are special Always will be The sky has no limit Neither does the Stars, Sun or Moon You will go far I know you will Be who you want to be and ~ Dream Big ~ Over the years you have grown Into a beautiful young lady Full of love Compassion and Kindness I love you so very much The sky has no limit Neither the Stars, Sun nor Moon You will go far I know you will Be who you want to be and ~ Dream Big ~ Here is to you One of the most beautiful girls I the world While some may say I am partial to you I know it is true Just keep being you The sky has no limit Neither the Stars, Sun nor Moon You will go far I know you will Be who you want to be and ~ Dream Big ~ It’s your sweet sixteen However nothing is as sweet as you I love you so much I love you like my own You will always be The apple of your Daddy’s eyes Your Mom’s little princess Her baby girl Yet you are growing up so quick I wish nothing but the best for you I believe in you The sky has no limit Neither the Stars, Sun nor Moon You will go far I know you will Be who you want to be and ~ Dream Big ~ Happy Birthday Michelle Love Aunt Jean


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Scapegoat

What happened to
What we were?
Why did it happen?
I don't know
But I know that
We had a good time
So don't even worry
I don't blame you
I blame them

Well, I'm the scapegoat
But I don't care
It's ok
I don't mind, I'll bear it
I'm the scapegoat

Driving dirty used to be
So fun to us
But now its blasphemy
What do they know anyway?
But if we did it again
We'd probably get caught
I don't blame you though
Don't even worry
You're a good guy

Well, I'm the scapegoat
But I don't care
It's ok
I don't mind, I'll bear it
I'm the scapegoat

They wear their suits
But I don't wear mine
They look clean cut
While I look scruff
They read the paper
I do what I should
The times were good though
They came and left
Left to early I'd say

Well, I'm the scapegoat
But I don't care
It's ok
I don't mind, I'll bear it
I'm the scapegoat

So I paid their fines
And broke my back
Doing pointless tasks
But now I know
That loving this
Wasn't wrong, it was right
So if they tell me otherwise
I'll turn a shoulder
And I'll leave it all behind

Being a scapegoat wasn't bad
Just another experience
I'm glad it happened
I'm glad I'm clean
I'm the scapegoat


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Deteriorate

Cant build a thing
The chains holding me down
Have slowly rotted over time
I need a soul that carries on through the pain (when the walls start collapsing again)
Give me a heart the ceases to fail
Despite the infection within

Dont take for granted this world we live in
Nevermind the fragile dirt we all end in

Time has had its way with me
The trail ive walked down
Has Fastly Deteriorated
I need a soul that carries on through the pain (when the walls start collapsing again)
Give me a heart that ceases to fail
Despite what you will find in me

Dont take for granted this world we live in
Nevermind the fragile dirt we all end in


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Pain

My eyes open to only shut again,
As for my heart gains speed,
Only to someday stop.
Tears come and tears go,
Waiting for the next down pour.
They say a heart grows,
Perhaps for the most pain possible
when It finally shatters…
Love and hate, passed through us all.
A life is born, while a new death arises.
Why be born into a world of pain?
You learn to grow numb and weak anyway..


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tiger and pooh

me and you, we're like tiger and pooh.
friends till the end, but the end were still friends.
your like my sister before any mister.
ill love you til the day i die.
with god in the sky as my witness he'll see
yo are the other half of me.
your their when i'm sad, crazy or mad.
you know when to cry with me or just sit silently.
help me get up when i'm down,
get rid of my frown.
i cant live without your smile,
ill walk the extra mile
to talk with you a while
like a scared little child.
this thing between us
its something to hold onto.
it proves how much i love you,
just like tigr and pooh...


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Dying Candle's Flame

These months have erased all his smiles
and all hope is drained from his face
He’s fought for far too long
and can’t go on any further
All the stress
and all the pain
is just too much to take
His love is dying out
as his heart is burning out
like a dying candle’s flame


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Love Story

It was the 3rd of November
When everything went down
He caught my eye
I caught his eye
Transcending space and time
We went up
And we went down 
On a joy ride
Thinking about each other
Getting tingling feelings
Deep inside
I told my friends
He told his friends
They meet each other at the ball court
And they make plans 
To hook us up
Down the block 
At the corner store
It was funny 
How it all went down
It'll give you some to think about
Specially when you so in love
So their ain't no other
Cinderella story that matches to mine
No their ain't no other 
Gaze that transcends space and time
See I've never felt this way inside
Specially for a guy like mine
I can tell this love story ain't gonna end
Baby


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Voices

i hear the voices in my head
they surrond my wooden bed
telling me i should be dead

I try to move but i cannot awake
the forces drive me into a foggy state
suddonly i feel so much hate

I finally got the courage to get up
I walk to the doorway 
I fall to the floor

I have no feet
they have taken them
I used my feet for running
i used my feet for going unto the path 
i shouldnt have stepped on

I look to find my arms
but i dont have any
I used my arms for picking up things
i used them for putting things into my mouth
That i shouldnt have eaten

i feel for my lips 
But they are gone
I used them to say things i shouldnt have said

I cannot see
My eyes have gone missing
I used my eyes to see what i
shouldnt have seen

the voice returns to my head
your better off dead
your a fool for what youve done
now you will rot in hell with no one

I float in mid air
everything turns dark
everything is smothered in fire
i cannot breath
my soul leaves my body and flies up to heaven
it is used to be given to a new baby being born on earth

the man in the fire tells me
that when bad spirits go to hell
they get reused but outs bodys stay here
in this bottomless pit
they are only reused to have another chance

when good souls go to heaven
they stay up there with god 
starting a new life
and ending an old one


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Skedaddle

So once again
you’re mistaken
quite mistaken
the world does not
revolve around you
No it doesn’t
I swear it doesn’t
So let me take this
take this pin
and pop your bubble
your stupid bubble
You’re causing trouble
for yourself
I will win this
I can end this
I can send you away
with your tail between your legs
I know you hate this
but it is reality
yes it is happening
And you’re not the reason
no not the reason
Because my decisions
my decisions
 are not based
upon you
I have my freedom
yeah I have my freedom
my freedom from you
So just skedaddle
get a boat and oar
so you can paddle
and head away from me
down the stream you’ve cried
over all of your selfish stupidity
because this is reality
I have already moved on
already moved on
I am much happier 
much happier
than ever before
than ever before
and you will not
and you cannot
ruin this for me or her


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The Sixes and Sevens Veil

All of those words and emotions Are tired of lingering in my throat and Mind I want to caress them onto you But how can I? Anon. there might be a time in our days I want to tell you-- I'm worthless, Broken, Diedre, Torned, Discarded, Abuse The past shouldn't control the present but it lingers in my spirit The words need to come out The Darkness with Them What if the truth couldn't set me free, save me from this candled day Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil Shrouded against our will too scared to show our bare Vulnerable Shadowself It was the ignorance's bliss that caught you The Knowledge creates a burden Too Difficult to Maintain or was it I? trying to be part of your soul The Decay of Your Heart Sadness can be cured by a few words Despair is a disease of the Knife The Eclipse stole the Sun's Sinlight Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart


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Merry Christmas To You (not me)

Away from him,
Away from them.
I dread it 
Like a rose without a stem.

There, I'm away 
From all my sad tears,
Away from the cold,
And even farther from the fear.

Away from all the dark
Memories of cruelty.
When you're away from that,
It can be hard to be merry.

Still, trim the tree.
Put up those stubborn lights.
I'll wear my santa hat.
Still try to make the season bright.

Light up the place with smiles!
Don't be overwhelmed with gloom!
Decorate the house really pretty,
Just please don't blame me if I'm in my room.


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Dedication, Love

I never had a person in my life that understands me like you do, you came into my life unnoticeable and i new that you were true. I pored out my heart to you, and you listened when no one did, you pored out your heart to me like a fact that couldn't be concealed. I never thought that meeting a person like you would make me smile again, so now i walk around with a big smile, not a grin. Every time i look into your eyes i want to go swimming, cause you draw me in without a sense of knowing. The perfect shape of your smile bring me hope, and your lips that look so luscious when you smile gives me hope. A hope that there are people in this world that give a dam, not like the people that take and take everything away. Your kind heart sings out to mine all the time of the night, and when i look at you i feel like i don't ever want to lose that sight. Your beauty makes me weak, your long dark hair that hangs down so sleek. Your loving hands that wave hello are too soft for me, and your cute little feet that make you look perfect in your frame. I just hope, dream and wish that we will always be like this till the end of my days, cause i cant do it alone, without a friend like you by my side i would just go other ways. So please hold my hand where ever you go, and hold it tight cause all i want to do is look at your beautiful sight. You are amazing, that's why i don't feel like a ghost, cause your love made me care for you the most.


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End of Discussion

It seems like we only speak
when you want to criticize me
And it puts tears in my eyes
because I’m supposed to be
your favorite guy
I used to be handsome, cute
My skinniness was pleasing to you
My hair was so fun to brush
and you had the biggest crush 
on me
But now I am
so easily cast aside
It seems like you try to hide
I am just ugly
I’m just too skinny
My hair just looks like crap
and then that’s a wrap
The end of discussion


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Another moment to make sense of growing up

I have a hole in my heart and I'm not sure where it starts. Everything used to make so much sense to me, now I'm not sure who I'm going to be. It could just be part of growing up, because this feeling has came before, let's fill up another cup. let's drink to the way life used to be, and how life is now to you and me. when we get older, let's hope we still stand shoulder next to shoulder. I know life with you is the only thing that helps me make it through. the ups and downs of this life have us riding on a never ending roller coaster, with every up always leads a huge fall down. I have faith in us that we can make it through it all, because once every down fall has fell leads another rise up that can bring us another time that we don't have to dwell. So I'll stay with you for as long as forever, and hope that we will never say never.


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Fake

you're a fake
you're a fraud
you're everything i hate

you're no good to the rest of the world
all of your fans make me want to hurl
you're in love with perfection that cant be reached
somethin' so plastic doesn't it make you weak

you're a fake
you're a fraud
you're everything i hate
you're afraid
and so ashamed
of all your pain
you're just another mistake
along the way
you drive me crazy 
and totally insane
i hate you
you stupid little fake

makeup and bleach by the loads
all that crap makes you so old
no one has seen your real face
you must be exhausted of bein' a fake

you're a fake
you're a fraud
you're everything i hate
you're afraid
and so ashamed
of all your pain
you're just another mistake
along the way
you drive me crazy 
and totally insane
i hate you
you stupid little fake

stop stickin' your fingers down your mouth
no one wants to hear those sickin' sounds
you're losing too much weight by the pounds
that crippiling disease must own you now

you're never gonna seek help are you
do you want some attention do you
you just need the crowd don't you
i'm so sick of you aren't you

you're a fake
you're a fraud
you're everything i hate
you're afraid
and so ashamed
of all your pain
you're just another mistake
along the way
you drive me crazy 
and totally insane
i hate you
you stupid little fake

yea yea yea you fake
oh you fake
i hate you
you stupid little
conceded stuck up fake 


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Legions

Legions

She said daddy how long is forever
I said, I don't know, 'bout five or ten years
how can two people stay together
in this world full of pain and fears

she said daddy when I get older
will you help me find a man to take my hand
I said if we all survive
I'll surely do the best that I can

then she cried
she said daddy I don't wanna die

(solo)

child this world is ruled by the devil's wealthy
who's main concern is their pride and his money
they rule this world without compassion or mercy
and Mammon's damned have to live on his land
I do believe that love is coming
until then we have to do the best that we can

idolize the rich and you get what you get 
better to build the kingdom of God at hand
so lay the cornerstone of love in your heart
child can you understand
that his name is love
and he teaches us to repent of our sins

this world is a battle ground for angels and devils
and a proving ground for all of God's children
and I know that the angels are few
but it doesn't take but one or two
to bring down legions


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Her Love

She never thought she would see the day
That someone would love her the same way
Every tear that she cried
All her life she would run and hide
Her heart turned to stone
Hating the feeling of being alone
Then he came along
Holding her in his arms, telling her this is where she belongs
Giving her nothing but happiness and love
He was an angel sent from above
Instead of cutting open her veins
She finds that in his arms is where she remains
She has choosen to live her life
Instead of choosing to die


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Thinking About You

I reminisce
Our first kiss,
Our first hug,
You were my first love.
After all the hurt you've put me through
I still can't stop thinking about you


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I've Crawled Ten Miles

I've crawled ten miles before
Even when they offered me more
Take it from me, babe, life's great
All you have to do is be patient, wait

Theres more to this life than just thrills
Don't keep doin' what you're doin', it kills
I've offered advice to you many times before
But you don't seem to see that theres more
Theres more to life than you think
More than cuttin' lines on the sink
More than blackin' out in your room
Keep it up and you'll meet your doom

I've crawled ten miles in your shoes
Snortin' coke and drinkin' the booze
Keep it up and you're gonna lose
So come on baby, you gotta choose

They lead you down an unknown path
If you keep it up you'll incur death's wrath
Don't let them tell you, "It's alright, take more."
Don't let them do it, what do they take you for
Drugs and booze aren't always the way
I'll offer you more advice, if I may
Push the snow and booze far away
Droppin' them is the only way

I've crawled ten miles in your shoes
Snortin' coke and drinkin' the booze
Keep it up and you're gonna lose
So come on baby, you gotta choose


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Remembering Punk.

  As I was coming of age,
  punk was all the rage.
  The older generation,
   had the Beatles,and Stones.
   I had Sexpistols and Ramone's
   Sham69 and the Clash,
   the Jam and the Dammed.
   They would strum their guitar's so fast,
    sing so loud,
    some times spitting in the crowd.
    The message was loud and clear,
     anarchy is here.
    It was not all so obscene,
   a woman called Debbie Harry ,
   came on the scene.
    A woman with blond hair,
   and such an erotic air.
   I had pictures of Debbie on my wall,
  for her; I would have done anything ,
   anything at all.
 With her band Blondie they had a good sound,
  turned the punk world upside down.
 "Atomic, "Union city blue"
  "Hanging on the telephone",
  to name a few.
  Her music I still hear,
   remembering memories dear.
  I know she is older today,
   but she sill has the erotic aura,
     of  yesterday.                                                          


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Keeping Me From Dreaming

Hey my dear, what is all the noise down there?
As I step back, you say yes
He’s living under the weakest roof
Turn the lights down in the room
To be likely I’d  be driving
You and me so merry
I would like to treat you nice
It seems like the spirits knew

It is nice to listen to your voice all night
Jumping to my face mixes the days with your grace
And I would really like to know when you’re coming home
It is the second time these pixies fly
I stepped up and you still turn them off
That is not you girl
Until you wake me
Until this metal rusts, I am not here anymore

Turn the lights out in the room
I will sit here in my saddest mood
What is this thing that is between me, that is keeping me from dreaming?


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It Was A Little Disaster

I remember the mornings and nights and your funny ways
I remember the moments, the laughter, the smiles that lasted days.
And looking back on the happy thoughts you left behind,
I find that I'm not pushing things back to rewind.
I'm looking forward to a clean, new start on the paper I'm sitting before
I'm thinking of our conversations, of our jokes and insults galore.
I'm not crying any longer for the people you and I have left behind
I cried once, okay, twice, but now you're far from my mind.
Don't worry, dear, I haven't forgotten you, for you're still in my heart
You're just in the section that I reserve for the ones who've ripped me apart.
And don't think for a minute that I'm horribly angry with you,
I'm just laughing at myself, feeling guilty for what I let you do.
You got deeper into my life than anyone else dared,
And for a while, I was sure that, something special, we shared.
But now it's clear that you've "done me in," as a movie writer would say
This writer's leaving and you can scramble but I won't be back someday.
So let the ball get to rollin', let lives change, let the music play, 
Let it break in half our hearts, our smiles, let it float away.
And it's taken me this long to realize you didn't deserve me
And I'm sorry to be so smug, but those words are true, you see;
I used to think that this would hurt tomorrow, like some old, smarting bruise
But guess what I've learned lately, listen to my news.
Maybe you weren't ever good enough, in any sense, and you were venom,
Maybe I was breaking the rules to make it work, like putting patches on old jeans 
of denim.
But either way you slice that cake, either way you make that pie,
Newsflash, honey, and listen good:
You won't ever again make me cry.
I'm smarter now than I once was, and I know that you're just a little disaster
I won't let you comtrol my life; you can't be my puppet master.
And so I solemnly part with these humble words of truth:
You never won, you never will, Because, baby, I'm over you.  


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2nd Place to Your 1st Love

Verse 1:
I see where your eyes turn when he walks through the door
It’s obvious to see he’s what your heart is crying for
Girl I know you’ve tried everything,  Just believe me when I say
I’ve got the magic you’re looking for. Let me love you that way

Verse 2:
I know you say it’s over and you are done with the pain
But I can’t help but notice how often you refrain
With every touch and hug we seem so far apart
It’s like your mind is here, but he’ll always have your heart

Chorus:
I know he hurt you and I understand
You’re hesitant to make me your man
But baby don’t worry I’m not like your past
If it’s true love you want you’ve found it at last.
You’re the one I never wanna let go of
But I can’t be 2nd place to your first love 

Verse 3:
Losing a love ain’t easy But in time things will get better
I’ve waited for your love a while now But baby I can’t wait forever 
I think we were meant to be. We’ve got something many only dream of
But baby I’m gunna lay it all on the line. I can’t be 2nd place to your first love
Repeat chorus

I see where your eyes turn when he walks through the door
It’s obvious to see he’s what your heart is crying for


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Meant To Be?

You said you'd die for me,
yet you broke my heart.
We've never been 
so far apart.
You're back in my life.
So what do you expect?
What you're hoping for,
what you're wishing
isn't always what you get.
You had me once, but let me go.
I still don't understand.
I tried to reach out to you.
I only wanted your hand.
Instead I got your back,
which was always turned to me.
Maybe things happen for a reason.
Was it really meant to be?


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There's Always Tomorrow in the Land of Forever

When overwhelming situations get your heart
And steal you heart away,
Just be confident and take a breath
And relax your hurt away.
Don't worry about making mistakes
Just believe that you can do it all
If you lose your balance, 
Let someone else cushion your fall.
Remember that the mighty empire of Rome
Wasn't built in a day
So take your steps comfortably
Carefully choose what to say. 
Remember that the world is not on your shoulders
And you won't really have a "never"
Remember that there's always a tomorrow
In the mighty land of Forever .
When you've made it through today,
And you're thinking about tomorrow,
Just know that it's a step at a time,
And relax away your sorrow.


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Rock Chick!

"Rock Chick"

Verse1: (yah! ohh!) I'm a rock chick who doesn't mess around/ What the frick is 
wrong.don't you understand(get it)/ No/I don't like pink or the roller skating rink/ 
But I do like orange and the mall(yea)!/ Panic!At the disco is the best 
music/seems it's ohh...the best band to me!/ Now look ahead and look to see 
me/of who I am/ I'm not Sam.I don't want you/do do ohhh..// 

B1://Rock chick 
is on the roll/oh no no noooo (yah yah yah yah!) 

CHORUS://Kay/A.K.A. Rock 
chick/is a girl/who does like flicks. If you mess around with me/be on the look-out 
for some slappin' around/Have you found an image of me yet?!? Rock chick/ Be 
on the look-out/I'll be drivin' my car.../ And you'll look to see/cuz you know I'm a 
star!/ The music is playin'/and you'll hear 'em sayin' "Turn it up!"/cuz they know I'll 
rock the entire neighborhood!/ Have you heard.../I'm not a nerd/ Some 
peoplethink I'm crazy/ Hey, that's okay/cuz their rockless!// 

Verse 2://Kay/A.K.A./Rock chick/is a girl/ who does like fliks/If you mess around 
with me/be on the look-out for some slappin' around/Have you found an image of 
me yet!?/Rock chick! 

(B2)://Rock chick is on the roll/oh no no ooo yea/That's 
me/ (yah yah yah yah!) 

CHORUS://kAY/a.k.a/rOCK CHICK/iS A GIRL/ WHO DOES 
LIKE FLICKS/iF YOU MESS AROUND WITH ME/BE ON THE LOOK-OUT FOR 
SOME SLAPPIN' AROUND/hAVE YOU FOUND AN IMAGE OF ME YET!?/rOCK 
CHICK. music be playin'/People be sayin'/ "Turn it up!"/cuz they know I rock.../ 
(electric guitar solo!):// 

BRIDGE:
Kay/A.K.A. Rock 
chick/is a girl/who does like flicks. If you mess around with me/be on the look-out 
for some slappin' around/Have you found an image of me yet?!? 

CHORUS://(2x's) END://Yah!/Ohh!/Rock 
chick/Kay/A.K.A./Rock chick!


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i-ca-ru-s

what does it mean to "scream"?
is it simply to raise your voice?
or is it something you do, not a sound you make?

It is not my nature. I won't raise my voice like that.
This is my "scream".

i'll put every ounce of my energy into my promise.
i won't ever give up! you can't make me!
even if i'm all alone, i'll fight until it's over.

there's an explosion in the sky.
god is dead! rejoice!
freed of your shackles of fairytales and blinded faith,
lead the way to a revolution!

This is my silent "scream".
My head held high, pride uncaged and diffidence slain.

as long as the chance exists, as long as there's hope
i'll keep chasing my dream
the day i made a promise to you was the day the cogs began to turn
the day when color suddenly burst into my life!
i know i won't emerge from the road unharmed
but, no matter what, i won't step out of the ring.


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Zigzag Hearts and Pent-up Dreams

Zigzag Hearts and Pent-up Dreams
 
No matter how perfect everything seemed
     I guess we had our faults
Sitting here, I'm almost crying
     And I can't seem to stop.
You made everything seem so right
     So perfectly fixing mistakes
Nothing felt wrong, it was all correct
     But you've made my heart break.
You said I was all you wanted
     And you were everything to me
And yet, you say we don't belong
     I guess there was something I didn't see.
And all at once, I'm alone
     A piece of me is gone
Once again, I made the classic mistake
     I did what I knew was wrong.
I opened myself up to you
     And make myself feel weak
I should have known better than to hold your hand
     Or let you dazzle me when you speak.
I suppose it was "just a crush"
     In your eyes, that's how it seemed
And now, I'm broken once again
     With a zigzag heart and pent-up dreams.


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Fun

Jump, scream, shout!
You are having fun!
Having the time of your life
Where it comes
Only once in a while
Walk, jog, run!
You are having fun!
Play, act, read!
They are all fun
Fun
What is fun?
There is no definition
Of fun
It is just your interest
Your desire
Of fun
That is fun
Three words of positive
Feelings in everyone
Is always fun


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I'm Gonna Be Somebody

Everything's falling into place
Little piece by little piece,
Tiny moment by tiny moment,
Going in the direction I need.
Everything is going smoothly
Nothing so far has gone wrong
It's all right on schedule
So all of this shouldn't take too long.
But I discovered something,
As I sat here today,
I'm gonna make something of myself
And I'm gonna be somebody.
To everyone who tried to push me down
And the people who made me wait
To all the ones who said I wouldn't make it,
Look at me, I've made it, babe!
I didn't stop, no matter what
I kept going when I fell
Now I know that I'm somebody
And I think you know it as well.
I'm so close to achieving my dreams
Just take it a step at a time each day
No one can stop me, I'm on a roll
'Cause I'm gonna be somebody.


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Looking Inside

You smile a little grin

Hoping not to let them in

Looking inside and only feeling grief

You open your eyes and give a sigh of relieve

 

Everyone thinks they know you

You do, too

But He knows you better

He knows you so much better

He knows your every thought 

He knows your every plot

 

She says your sin's as light as a feather

 But you know better

You dont let them in

 You dont let them see the sin

The sin that stirs inside you

The beast that screams to get through

 

You smile a little grin

Hoping not to let them in

Looking inside and only feeling grief

You open your eyes and give a sigh of relieve


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Say It Again

i was waiting for the sun to rise
for someone to love on this dreadful night
and i truly thought no one would come by
until you walked right into my life

say it again
just one more time
those three little words
that make my life

you are my everything
without you i am nothing
but you must have saw something
cause you whispered three words loving

say it again 
just one more time
those three little words
that make my life

you make my day
and thats no lie
just say it again 
one more time

when the rain pours down
i fall to the ground
in shock cause i have found
the sweetest person around

so please just
say it again 
just one more time
those three little words
that will make my life

you make my day
and thats no lie
just say it again 
one more time

I love You

say it again 
just one more time
those three little words
that make my life

you make my day
and thats no lie
just say it again 
one more time

just please 
for me
if not for yourself
say it again

say it again
say it again


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Midnight Lily

When we are all alone
when we don’t know where to go
we need to overcome
the feet that trample us to the ground
 
Some will persist to stay
others will fall for everything
if they don’t stand for anything
 
if you live for me
I’ll always live
and if u die for me
I’ll live everyday for you
 
Midnight lily; you are trampled underneath
as they watch and stare
waiting for a passion something to let you live
come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me
 
if you hold on now more will come
…they promise you
but if you always hold on
love can be true
leaf turns to leaf
live it when you can
 
We all fall into grief
 not all the same
lets be strong and rise again
show them whom you are
mortal
 
if you live for me
I’ll always live
and if u die for me
I’ll live everyday for you
 
Midnight lily; you are trampled underneath
as they watch and stare
waiting for a passion something to let you live
come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me
 
if you live for me
I’ll always live
and if u die for me
I’ll live everyday for you
 
Midnight lily; you are trampled underneath
as they watch and stare
waiting for a passion something to let you live
come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me
 
it seems to get harder
everyday
but happy can’t be happy
without sorrow


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No ones to blame, that your soul is put to shame

I don't understand, how i'm blame to be the biggest sin the world can see. you're little tall tails, you try and make the people believe are all hopeless, just like the heart inside of you beats. i'm breathing like i always do, i'm not gonna miss a single breath over you. when you're the one, that's suppose to be here for me, even when death captures the life of me. sadly, you're mistaken, for the life you've overtaken. the life of a drugged out temptresses is not a life to lead, thats why you aren't my example of the future to me. i don't want to be the one that is always the one to plead, for money, for sex, for looks, oh you're something i've learned to not be from those certain books. you weren't there for me to write, when you were suppose to be, the introduction author about the life of me. the life of me, how interesting can that be? well, i must say, you helped me be able to write about a girl who has been terribly betrayed. where's my mother, the one whose suppose to be like none other? you gave me no one, but myself to look up too.


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Sweet Girl

Sweet girl
don’t hide your pretty smile
Sweet girl
don’t worry, 
I’ll be here for awhile
Sweet girl
Believe me when I tell you
you’re beautiful
you’re amazing
Sweet girl
don’t be so hard on yourself
there’s no need to apologize to me
Sweet girl
you’ve never wronged me
you’re more than I could ever ask
Sweet girl
it’s okay
we always have tomorrow
Sweet girl
I’ll be there for you
and that’s all I’ll ever ask of you
Sweet girl
time is on our side
let’s see where things can go


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Purity (High School is Lacking It)

I’m about to explode
Can’t take it anymore
I look around and I’m surrounded by a mass of people I can’t stand
All the stories about all the whores
All the guys just looking to score
I am encompassed by immaturity
Is there any innocence? Any purity?


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Sunny Side Up

How is it 
That I find the charm
in pure devastion
Happiness in all loss
No fear in everything
that is dangerous
No time for lust
it'll just die
then live again
I rather not repeat
a broken cycle

The dishes clink together
they might as well crash to the floor
You whisper into my ear
You might as well be screaming
My nerves are fried 
Sunny side up

I smile at the rain
and hide from the sun
anything that brings others pleasure
is simply not fun
I'm not careless
trust me in that
I just don't have the time
to behave like the others

The dishes clink together
they might as well crash to the floor
You whisper into my ear
You might as well be screaming
My nerves are fried 
Sunny side up

Dishes clink before they break
The calm before the storm
Stardom comes ahead of backlash
A masterpiece previous to the mistake

I love my disdain
I hate my aphrodisia
a common misconception 
seeing is believing
giving isn't receiving
Tell what to do
how to act
I love my life
at least while it's still intact

The dishes clink together
they might as well crash to the floor
You whisper into my ear
You might as well be screaming
My nerves are fried 
Sunny side up

....The dishes never break....
....You never scream....
My nerves were never fried
but they will always be sunny side up


Details | I do not know? | |

Rain Drops

Tear drops falling from the sky
Each one has a sad story to tell
Who will listen?
And who will wipe them off their windsheild?
Tear drops everywhere
Ending their lives on the streets
Why do people find their sounds so peaceful?
Each tear drop is a musical note
Playing its own little, sad song
For the people willing to listen


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A Silent Connection

We cross paths
Our eyes meet
And for one quick moment, there's a bond
A connection so strong that words can't describe the chemistry between us.

But then it's all gone,
And so are you.


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Gaining Composer

I'll hold you close
I won't let go
You know the pain I feel inside
I found myself in a world changing
As I was choking on
And destroying my morals

Don't fall away from me tonight
Please girl, I need you here
You're the only one
Who understands

Stepping down
From fighting my fear
I'll walk away and leave it here
It's been so long since I've been strong
I'm not dying here
Not today, I'm not the same

Don't fall away from me tonight
Please girl, I need you here
You're the only one
Who understands my changing
And most of all I've known
But it's not the same this time
I just can't see myself that way
I'll make it easier for both of us

No more fear in sight
I left that here tonight


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love and life

i'm thinking about life. not just any life, my life. a life you know nothing about. you assume you do, but you don't. now i'm thinking about love. not just anyone's love, my love. a love so strong, you would assume you were reading a storybook. you don't know love, like I do. now that i'm thinking about these two things, i realize i couldn't be me in my life without my love. maybe you're thinking i'm just some teenage that thinks they've found love. well, maybe you wouldn't know. you have to live my life to know what I'm saying. I don't think you could comprehend it all. Especially, being in this generation. so sit back, and shut up. it wouldn't be that hard to make you look stupid, and i wouldn't mind showing you.


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Conglomerate

Every feeling
Every scream
I hate you
I love you
This feeling that I need you
Need the feeling
Need the screams
Need to hate
Need to love
I have no restraint
Boundless feeling
With each scream
Fueled by hate
Began in love

Every plea
Every question
I see you
I breathe you
A plea to those who heed you
Hear the pleas 
Hear the questions
Know I see you
Feel me breathe you
A world apart
I didn't know

I want to feel
I want to scream
I want to hate
I want to love

It's choking me

I try to plea
I try to question
I cannot see
I cannot breathe

My lips are glued together
I guess I'll never find it now


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My life

I have been through a hard life
too much drama
a mother who don't love me
too much stress
my life is really complicated
I tried taking my life again
I guess because I don't want
to be here anymore
so much stress
I admit I need help
my life is crazy
I lost the love of my life
my best friend is worried about me.


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if i said i luv you

if i said that i love you,would it change a thing. would you look at me different or make a big scene? theres no one else but you, theres no place else but here. theres distance in between but soon ill see you and it wont be a dream.if i said that i loved you would it change a thing would you look at me different or make a big scene?dont wanna say anything wrong,wont mess this up just hold me dont let go,hold on hold on to the life that we know.<3


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Please. You'll Never Understand Who I Am

Please don't look at me,
Eyes filled with fake sympathy,
Just because of who I am.

Please don't judge me,
With your non-existant empathy,
Based solely on who I should be.

Please don't try.
You can't define.
There's no one quite like me.

Please don't pretend,
Because that's all it is in the end,
That you're my friend.

With your closed eyes
And pre-determined mind,
You'll never understand who I am.


Details | I do not know? | |

One Day

We've been through
Roughening waves,
But we sat and never threw
Ourselves out of furious rave.

One day my heart
Will be glad that
We haven't yet fallen apart
And are not as sad as before.

Our time was like a boat...
No matter where we went,
Our time was well spent,
Even while we continuously float.

One day you'll be as happy
As you were in that rural place.
We'll together repair our broken vase.
You and I were inseparable friends...

So I wished it didn't end.
Our bond has been fragile
For quite some while.
I've been thinking of ridding it...

Though I know
I'll resolve it all somehow.
So I hope you will accept the flora
I shall give to you one day...


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Invisible

Sometimes
I wonder whether anyone can see me
Or hear me.
Because I’m waving my arms,
I’m yelling at the top of my lungs,
And no one is reacting.
No one seems to care what I’m feeling.
Can you see me when I’m crying
Can you hear the tears fall to the ground
What do I have to do to get something out of you

Chorus:
Am I invisible
Or am I just unworthy
Of anyone paying attention to me
Is it that hard
To say something every once in a while
Or am I just invisible

Can you help me on this
Cause I am so clueless
I really need you to say something to me.
I’m standing right in front of you.
Acknowledge me please.

Chorus


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So Lost

So I am worried
my thoughts are hurried
how do I make them all stop?
Relaxation is dreaming
stress is prevailing
My body slowly falls apart
I fear I’m dying
without even trying
Has it all been for not?
Why do I want this?
Why do I need this?
What have I got?
I retreat from my failures
too scared to greet them
at my front door
I question my meaning
Where is the answer?
What do you do
when all your dreams are lost?
Carry on existing
but not really living
Force a smile on my face?
I’m no good at searching
as I was always yearning
for what is gone
I knew it would not be easy
but why is it so hard?
I’m feeling so lost


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Make Fun of Me

You make fun of my nose
Make fun of my feet
Make fun of my clothes
and say that I need to eat
Well I’m sorry I can’t
can’t be perfect for you
but I’m closer to being perfect than you


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Karma

[Verse 1]: I know at times when I acted as if it was my time to shine I did some 
things that was wrong that would hurt you But I will never treat you like dirt And 
when we used to argue just as soon as I was about to hit the door I miss the way 
you tugged on my shirt I remember when your feelings start getting hurt but trust 
the love we make it isn't lust You're my boo and Im your ma Always stay down 
ain't nothing changed just look over your shoulder and there's your start because 
I can't continue to see us apart

[Chorus repeat 2 times]: I know I did some messed up things but come on baby I 
just 
want to be your lady and I know apology isn't enough but boo sometimes in life 
things get rough, its tough because I'm doing this alone the person I was 
missing is you

[Verse 2]: I remember how the phone would ring hoping its you clues after clues 
knowing you wanted to leave but I know I can't force you to stay Singing love 
songs 
that has to do with you and sometimes its hard to get through cause I don't have 
you my heart I put it in your hands we didn't take us for granted But yet and still I 
stand here alone

[Hook]: You know sometimes I don't know where to begin I don't want our love to 
end Bend over backwards for each other love so close you could call us kin Even 
though I been around the world boo I'll bring it all back to you because I care 
"Us" is the love I want to share

[Chorus repeat till fade]


Details | I do not know? | |

Writing It All Down

Everyone has a feeling
Everyone has a story to tell
Listen to what they're saying
And listen to them well
They're writing it all down
Their feelings are coming out
As life comes around
Their words began to shout


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Are You The One?

I once knew this girl, I think she knew me
I couldn't explain how I feel about her, But I think we're meant to be.
At just one look all my pain goes away,
And with her expressions she fills my heart with joy day after day.
When she passed by everything seems to be pleasant.
I wish this feeling which I have for her will be forever and incessant.
But still I need to know about her true intention,
Cause all I know how to treat her is just being kind with affection.
I don't even know what she wants to see in me.
Should I be friendly be cordial be sweet and carefree?
I know she is pure just by the look in her eyes,
Cause she is kind, friendly, cheerful and wise,
But even though she's all that she always seems to be in a bliss,
About her personal life, imagining about her true love's first kiss.
Now I know you want to be happy; I know you want to be free.
I just want to know one thing. Are you the one for me?


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Mental Masochism

Welcome to the old you Hello, Hello, Despair so Crude, Dreams are gone Yet we still follow the old Path Where empathy kills And the Sympathy we find is another Lie You were born to deceive A puppet-master of emotion Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Exchange pleasure for pain It's all coming t you The facade of Joy falls again Violet Hearts crush easy Your Pain you don't Want this Your Sorrow, You Want This Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold?


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The Transgressor

Clouds of an Occult day Words of a Darkmaster Chill My Mind Freeze my Eyes Hidden Forever I'll be; Shadow walk You will Never see me It's time to anew I'll Lose you I cannot forget The Blood I cannot-- Forgive you Locked in my cell I'm never far I'll Never Bleed For you Again Loosing Vitality Mistakes cannot be Fixed Forever you and I will Drown Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete Cords of Vile you wrap around the flowers how east it must be I wasn't Born this Way you Made me this Way Locked in my cell I'm never far I'll Never Bleed For you Again Loosing Vitality Mistakes cannot be Fixed Forever you and I will Drown Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete


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I love you

I say pleasure is pain,
And pain is pleasure,
With the lust remaining the same.

My body against yours,
Your lips pressed against mine,
Sitting here thinking,
This is a sure sign,
That I love you.

The sound of your voice, so deep and soothing,
The only thing that keeps me moving.
Pinch me now, I feel like I'm dreaming,
Or leave me here, safe from screaming.

How can I describe this?
It feels like ecstasy, drowning in your kiss.
Hold me now, forever and a day,
Or let our whole entire lives float away.

Singing softly in your arms,
whispering to the trees, stay from harm.
Dont keep me here forever,
I'll be your sweet surrender.

So hold me now, don't let go,
Let this city of love eternally glow.
Brimming with fire, gold and red,
Until our love is fully fed.

I say pleasure is pain,
And pain is pleasure,
With the lust remaining the same.

My body against yours,
Your lips pressed against mine,
Sitting here thinking,
This is a sure sign,
That I love you.

I love you.


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I catch you looking at me from time to time

I catch you looking at me from time to time 
Every time I catch you 
You turn your head quickly acting like you were never looking my way 
Well you ain't fooling me boy I know your looking at me
all I want to know is 
Why you looking at me then acting like your not?
When I catch you looking at me from time to time
Tell me something boy are you just really shy? 
Are you playing games with my head? 
If your just shy don't be
I'm looking your way too
So make your move 
But if your playing games with my head 
you better stop and think twice
about what your trying to do to me
because
your never gonna win
your never gonna win 
your never gonna tear this girls heart apart
I catch you 
I catch you looking at me from time to time
Finally I got sick and tired of you 
looking my way 
and not making your move
SO I approached you and asked you
Why you keep looking at me?
You said
"I don't know what your talking about I'm not looking at you" 
then you turned around and walked away form em 
Even though you said
"your not looking my way" 
I catch you looking at me from time to time 
still 
I started to think it was all in my head 
But when I asked my friends
if they see you looking at me too 
they all said
"yes we see him looking your way"
SO boy don't you look me in the eyes again 
and lie to me by telling me
"your not looking at me"
I catch you looking at me from time to time
I catch you looking at me from time to time
and I'm sick and tired of you
looking at me the way you do 
lying to me
telling 
me your not 
when all my friends see you looking at me
Boy
you think I'm some kind of fool don't oyu 
Well your wrong
so 
take a good looking in the mirror
there you'll see the real fool
the only fool
I catch you looking at me form time to time
I've had enough of you 
you think 
I'm gonna sit around
and let you 
get to me 
while you stare me down
well
I'm sorry to say
I'm movin my own way
I don't care that your looking my way 
anymore
(chorus repeat twice -- add echo second time)
I catch you looking at me from time to time
you must be some kind 
of
foolish boy
still trying to stare me down 
What do I have to do
to get it through your head
that your not 
gonna win this game
your never
ever ever
gonna tear 
this girls heart apart


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All This Time

All this time I thought it was you and me
All this time I thought we could be
All this time I thought you'd never cheat
All this time I was real naive

To the pain of love
I wasn't strong enough
Or maybe I was just too young
All this time


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Drifting

All dressed up with no where to go
No place in my heart, colder than snow.
Falling away from those whom I love
Knowing I do harm to the people I shove.
Forgiveness doesn't exist to my sad soul
When you lose a second chance, there's no place to go.
I'm sorry for causing the sadness and pain
I know what I do and what I can't gain.
The silence is unbroken and will forever be
As long as I'm drifting, pushing people away from me.
I don't know how to stop when I'm so far gone
The world has stopped and still, I march on.
A rebel in heels, in jewels, and gold
A put-together lady, full of dangers untold.
Hiding behind her long sleeves and heavy hair
It's hard to tell there's a hazard there.
Underneath her perfect smile bright
There rages disappointment and longing to take flight.
There's envy and wrath and justice undone
Behind the eyes and smile, you can't tell who's won.
You expect the worst, a difficult runaway
But all you'll find is a situation that just locks itself away.
She's really typical, the perfectly together girl
But inside, Heaven and Hell have taken hold of her.
She knows that she's different, not right in the head
Or at least, that's what she tells herself, and you've heard what she said.
It makes no difference what she's done before
No one cares, everything's just a blur.
She feels overshadowed by those more perfect than thee
And in third person, she projects her unstable harmony.
For nothing exists in it's perfect order
She's boxed herself in and protected the border.
And yet, you just stand there, with your piteous ways
You'll never know who she is or what she'll say.
It could be different, just a practical joke
But you don't try to find out, and she goes up in smoke.


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Alone

The darkness comes to beckon
As I turn to shut the door
The world is at my feet but I dont
Know what to use it for
Spiders spin their webs across
The corners of my mind
Staring into space looking for
What I'll never find

Alone
Defeated by my past 
You never let go
Fright defies the shadow you cast
Summon the valor to dig my grave
For forgiveness that I never gave
Alone

Shifting winds don't touch my face
Immortal veins I can't erase
Dread leads to my seeming disgrace
As I ride to end myself

Alone
Enraged by our past
I never let it go
Fright defies the shadow we cast
Summon the valor to dig my grave
For understanding that I never gave
Alone


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Be Still My Heart

Be still my heart for you are all right.
this love you have is worth the fight,
these shadows will pass
you will see light.
don't be troubled anymore then you are,
you have already made it this far,
so you have hope for tommrow,
and live for today,
still think about him and say it's okay.
let him live his dreams and you as well.
even though your heart is going through hell,
sing those songs of happyness,
just scream it out,
don't let your confidence have self dought.
for the future will come and there he will be,
even though he said he cares
lets just hope he don't give up on thee,
say he will come back no matter what,
please don't let your lonely heart shut.
one day he will see,
in the end your the one to be.


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Is It You

You are my Hope You are My truth You are my Love You are the reason For me I can't do this Alone always be there for me and I'll promise to Live


Details | ABC | |

Angels and Silences....

Sometimes walking
is similar to flight
footprints
lay the way to flight....
Angels of Silences
lay the way to a better path...
i'm floating
and dreaming of better things...
dreaming of you~


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I Don't Want You To Think

I don't want you to think that it's your fault
Because it's not
Things just didn't turn out the way I planned
I don't want you to think that you're a bad guy
Because you're not
Someone will be lucky to have you as their man

I don't want you to think I'm doing this to be mean
Because I'm not
I just don't want our relationship to be a lie
I don't want you to think I have no heart 
Because I do
You just don't know how hard this is, saying goodbye.


Details | Lyric | |

This Game Is Rigged

Trying forceful optimism
Failing to forget
It's like some form of masochism
I need to let it...
I'm tired of this repetition
It's gone on far too long
Let's just complete this demolition
Listen to me, one time only

I need to let it come undone
I hope you know you're the only one
Who can make me feel so insecure
I'm sure
You do, somewhere inside
Oh God, I think this game is rigged

Trapped in all this cynicism
I need to let you know
That all the time you thought I didn't
Care you couldn't be more wrong
Neverending repetition
This record just keeps playing on
Slow and secret demolition
Why can't I just shout out to you?

I need to let it come undone
I hope you know you're the only one
Who can make me feel so insecure
I'm sure
You do, somewhere inside
Oh God, I think this game is rigged.


Details | Lyric | |

Don't belong

Me being here is like a lion stuck with a cage of elk. I'm so different from the rest. You stand around hopeless and relentless. I stand here with hope and full of strength. Can't you see the differences? It's like being in a hazard. We aren't a good combination, It's like mixing fire with ice. I'll burn bright while the rest of you melt. You are all the same, Scared of your own shadow. Can't you see I don't belong here, Stop being the same, Don't be afraid to be yourself. Or maybe, you are all truely the same. Oh, well if so, I'm not worried about you. I've got someone like me at home.


Details | Lyric | |

Double Barrel

I am the new taste of irony
In all that I say is all about you
It's my new form of hilarity
Because in the end you won't know the truth
I'm think I'm through with the sympathy
I don't care if you care or not
I'm still dealing with the empathy
Because this opportunity is too good to pass up

We can turn it up, burn it down
You'll still remain oblivious

I'm not feeling guilty
That you can't see
What I can see
It's breaking down that built me
You have to agree
You're perfectly...

It's my obvious invisibility
That's making me laugh because all of the truth
Is showing through all this ambiguity
It's funny to know that you never knew
At the end of a long road of tyranny
Is it wrong that I'm privately laughing at you?
Oh I am the new taste of irony
Because this time I've got one over you

We can turn it up, burn it down
You'll always be oblivious

I'm not feeling guilty
That you can't see
Just what I mean
It's breaking down that built me
You have to agree
You're perfectly
Oblivious!!!


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The Promises of Angel Wings

A soul departed, a life unlived
And yet, a heart still beats
Despite their best attempts,
A death, this person cheats.

They escape with just a mark on their wrist
But a tragedy on their heart
Living in the aftermath of survival
Is really just the start.

It gets worse as time moves on
And this person drifts away
As one wise poet tells us,
"Nothing gold can stay."

Not all memories can last forever
This young girl doesn't want to at all
She doesn't want to travel on into life
She refuses every letter, e-mail, and phone call.

She delves deeper into herself
And her once golden heart turns black
That's all that remains of this once-beautiful girl
Her soul is what she lacks.

The end of the road for this child
Comes sooner than many wish to believe 
She takes her own life and leaves behind
The promises of angel wings.


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Not a Rotten Pop Tart

In the corner,
there's a young girl
convinced by movies and magazines,
that she is far from pretty
In another corner,
a lonely boy
One that notices her stunning beauty,
the kind that the stupid masses fail to see


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Leaving

Lost in a world I try so hard to remember these days the days (of yore) we're together Lost in an open Place you know they're never coming back never coming back Alone now So Alone now we're Alone now Done and Gone I'm Alone You're leaving


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Two Special People....

The memories, laughs, and tears
When I wanted to wash away your tears
Hold you close is all I wanted to do
Now I just wanna forget about you

I have all these feelings
As if you were to give me wings
Even when I'm angry you make me feel good
I will always treat you like you should...


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Home

Tears dying on my cheeks
Song ringing in my ears
Sobs still hiccuping in my chest
Eyes still softly leaking tears.
But there will be a happy ending
There will be a brighter day
There will be sunshine on my shoulders
And sweeter things to say. 
I will have a place where I belong
And friends who will keep in touch
I'll have a brighter future
And promises will mean much.
I will somehow make it through this
Even if I have to walk alone
But I'll make it; I'm almost there
Somehow, I'll make it home.


Details | Rhyme | |

Papa Says Yes Mama Says No

Papa says yes
Mama says no

Off to a dance
I want to go

Flowers in my hair
Mama says Girl don't you dare

Horn's just a blaring
Papa not even caring

Begging dear mama
Please Please can I go hah hah

If your papa says yes
Then I must confess

Your mama says no
But This time I'll let you go

Be home by eleven
My little princess from Heaven

For if you come in late
Your papa is going to kill that date


         To My
         Jenny




Tribute To 
Teenage Dating


Remember Kiddies
Were always watching LOL


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JUST LIE

VERSE 1:
I’ll never forget our first date
Rushing Home even though we were late
I asked what to say if they asked why
And without hesitation, you said just lie

VERSE 2:
When the big decision came about
And suddenly my mind was filled with doubt
When I became so timid and shy
You consoled me by saying, honey just lie

CHORUS:
Just lie; Lie here in my arms
Trust in me, and I’ll keep you from harm
Believe in me when times get hard
When you’re with me you can let down your guard
I can give you things money can’t buy
So without hesitation darling, just lie

VERSE 3:
A few months later I found out the news
It was all my decision but I couldn’t choose
So when I told you it was too late
We had nothing but nine months to wait

VERSE 4:
After the birth, I knew something wasn’t right
It was hard, but I had to give up the fight
With my last few breaths, I began to cry
As you grasped my hand, I’ll never forget your reply

CHORUS:
Just lie; Lie here in my arms
Trust in me, and I’ll keep you from harm
Believe in me when times get hard
When you’re with me you can let down your guard
I can give you things money can’t buy
So without hesitation darling, just lie

I’m lying now sweetheart, yet that’s not where I’ll stay
I’m with you in your heart and every prayer you pray
This is not yet our last good-bye
And when the pain becomes too much honey, just lie


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An Epic Tale: Love Prevails

Now, my story is not a fun one
Nor does it make much sense
For, at times, it’s quite confusing
But it goes a little like this:
I feel in love at a young age
When I was just fifteen
I didn’t listen to my friends’ advice;
My boyfriend, I continued to see.
He was cold and hateful towards me
And could always throw a good punch
We’d viciously fight before school
But he’d apologize before lunch.
I tried not to believe it
And just listen to my heart
But it landed me in a bad place
And here’s where my story really gets its start.
I though that I was ready for the commitment 
Because we didn’t act as wild
But I was wrong to trust him
And soon, I was pregnant with his child.
I felt so alone and saddened 
Like I had no other choice
I needed my future, needed my life
And so, this child, I chose to destroy.
I couldn’t take care of a baby
I knew that would never do
And I sat down and thought it out
And said, “What would Jesus do?”
I prayed about it all one night 
And cried my eyes out too
I asked God to give me an answer
Tell me what to do.
I spent one night crying
And then the deciding was done
I made my choice, that was it,
My inner battle was won.
Nine months slowly crawled by
As I kept up with my grades
And whenever it just got too hard,
I feel to my knees and prayed.
At first, I wanted to give her up
She only reminded me of her father’s shoves
But the moment I looked in her baby blue eyes,
My eyes filled with love.
And that was twenty years ago
I am now thirty-six
With a beautiful young daughter
Who’s had her own problems I helped fix.
Though her life has never been easy
And money is always tight
To know that she’s happy and healthy
Lets me sleep with a smile at night.
I speak on behalf of women
All around the world
So that they believe they can find the strength
To take care of their little boys and girls.
‘So,’ I tell them in confidence,
‘If you need help, come to me
For I will never turn you away
Just trust in your strength and see.’
‘Though America will frown on you
And refuse your searching hand,
Just never give up and it’ll pay off
Because, really, girls, you were never bad.’
And when I’ve finished talking,
I turn to my daughter again
And think to myself, if I had a choice,
I’d make the same one again.


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O Calliope

Will you help me find the words Oh Calliope I need a muse, something to inspire Oh Calliope Find the words to enchant Oh Calliope Everything I give Everything I write Everything I want Everything I need Everything I try You will inspire So come to me Enchanting me Oh Calliope You're all really need Oh Calliope The words I write Tainted by your touch Oh Calliope You are not to know What will become of thee Oh Calliope You are my heart You are my soul You’re all I used to be So whisper to me Oh Calliope Everything I give Everything I write Everything I want Everything I need Everything I try You will inspire, So come to me Enchanting me Oh Calliope I could always need you Something I can always use so go on enchant me oh Calliope Everything I give Everything I write Everything I want Everything I need Everything I try You will inspire So come to me enchanting me oh Calliope


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Trust

Not a lot of people have my trust
or my respect
many people show me they
are not trustworthy
and the only people that have my
respect and trust
is my family
they mean everything to me
trust is an important thing
to me
if you don't have my trust
then you are way beyond luck.


Details | I do not know? | |

"Happy Happy birthday Insight" (b-day wishes to poets)

To the "POETIC, AWE, EVOKING POET"
with the most~
"MIND TOUCHING WORDS OF THOUGHT"
let me say ~
happy happy birthday to you ~
i lift up my glass with a~
"LYRICAL Toast"
just as "Well Thought–Out"
and "VERY WELL WRITTEN"
as to say to you ~
i hope you have a ~
happy happy birthday~
that only a "REMARKABLE MAN"
like you can do ~
happy happy birthday ~
to a "GENOUS,SELF-EXPRESSING POET"
as "WORD STIMULATING"
and "MIND AROUSING"
as "Insight-FULL YOU"


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My First Daughter

An emphatic shout of "A Daughter"
From the room could be heard!
Not in April nor August,
But on September the Third.

The story began with
The joining of two
People, young and in love,
Resulting in a beautiful you.

Some men pray, hope and
Yearn for a son.
Holding you daughter, that first day,
Joy in my life was easily outdone.

I have watched you grow
Over the last sixteen years,
And I am unable to count the moments
That have brought me joyous tears.

Now before me stands an intelligent,
Beautiful, loving young lass.
I am overwhelmed as your proud father,
My expectations, you have surely surpassed.


Details | Free verse | |

Unforgotten -2-

I've captured you from death's snare,
While others were unaware
No more worrying,
You are unforgotten

You are alive
Others deny it and leave the truth behind
Well, I most certainly know...
I will not end up in ruin

Instead, I'll remain loyal to you
because you are an unforgotten memory that changed my cruel ways
Straightening up my choices,
leading me to an easing and most pleasing place

Well...I certainly know, without a doubt, you are unforgotten
in my memory and best of all...in God's loving heart
You are forgiven in your trespassing mind that stumbles in repetitive sin 
 
You are an unforgotten cure to my throbbing pain
You're making me obsessive to you...sincerely insane

Though you're quite the catch 
in my sealed-up memory
You will remain
in a foolish mind 
fiddling around in flattering aspiration

You are unforgotten
In my flattered memory,
You are unforgotten 

You are a cure to my whole entire life,
unforgotten drug of mine	


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Your Actions

Your actions you make all have consequences
But see you act before you think and don't use any of your senses.
You try to act cool as if everything is all right,
But when you go into your room you cry all night.

You try to make things back right even though it's gonna be hard,
But like they said you should of thought from the start.
Now you really feel bad because you know you was wrong,
But it seems like that friend you could of had is really gone.

You know no one is perfect everybody has sin 
But you can't deal with the fact that it's happening again.
You're going back the way you just came from 
You've been trying to hide but you never can run.

Somehow it comes back hunting you day after day,
And for some reason no matter where you go trouble is always in the way.
So all you know now is to think before you act,
Because depending on what you do determines what comes back.


Details | Ballade | |

all apologizes

I'M SORRY FOR WHAT I'VE DONE TO YOU
MY ONLY HOPE  IS THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE ME
I'D TRIED A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE BUT YOU WASN'T HEARING ME OUT
PLEASE READ THIS AND LET ME KNOW
DO YOU FORGIVE ME OR NOT
I'M TRYING REAL HARD TO LET YOU SEE THE HEART OF ME
IT'S NOT WHITE,I'M NOT BLACK BUT I'M RIGHT AND MY HEART IS FLAT
AFTER ALL THIS TIME 
THE FAILURE IN ME BECAUSR A MISERY I CAN'T COMPETE
I DON'T HAVE NO BEEF WITH YOU 
I EAT MY PRIDE
THERE IS NOTHING TO GAIN ON MY SIDE OF THE DEAL
IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME
IF YOU REPLY JUST ONCE SO I CAN KEEP MYSELF TOGETHER FOR ONE 
LAST HOUR
AN HOUR OF POWER
I'LL BE DAMNED IF I DIE WITHOUT LETTING YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL
SOCIETY IS SO MESSED UP AND SO AM I
I RECOVERED TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON
I'M NOT SHAQ OR T-MAC
BUT I GOT HUMILITY INSIDE OF ME SO I DON'T HAVE NO OTHER POWER TO 
FEEL
I MIGHT BE CLOSER TO URKEL
BUT AT THE END WE'RE THE SAME
I'M SORRY FOR THE MISUNDERSTANDING
BABY GIRL YOU SPIN MY HEAD AROUND LIKE A LOOP
THIS STRESS IS TOO MUCH TO HANDLE
I'D DEALT WITH IT DREADFULLY WELL


Details | Ballad | |

Only She Cries

What If I told You That I Loved you
would we care
would we die
 Chains surrounding Alice
Only She Cries
 
World Banished her
Love left her
all Alone
Melancholia presides over
 
Alice dies again
Will she ever reign
 
Will she ever see
what’s here to be
Only She Cries
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
Empty Without a savoir
Will She ever be cured from this
will she breakaway
Gaia couldn’t be so cruel
Just to wail away—Let the Banshee Crie
Just wail away the pain
wail away the pain
 
Enter my heart and you’ll see
that Was the only thing you could ever need
Alice; only she cries
let it show
That love never dies
Through Euphoria
through melancholia
 
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
You didn’t know
how you could save her
Only if you could her
Alice dies
Only she cries


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Similarities To A Famous Poet

I make my own decisions for I’m my own boss,
choose the wrong concourse and now I’m loss.
I have to change my path like Robert Frost,
catch my life for a touchdown like Randy Moss.

This is my life and I got to control it, having similarities to a famous poet.

As I slough in the corner of my room with my head down low,
full of sorrow because I lost the one I call my bro.
Reminiscing about  the past got me feeling like Edgar A.  Poe,
tormented by the pain felt from a love one you can’t let go.

This is my life and I got to control it, having similarities to a famous poet.

Life is full of many things and troubling lies,
that make people ashamed, and burst into trouble cries.
This got me feeling like Maya Angelou, with all her words of the wise,
you can say what you want, but still I raise. 

This is my life and I got to control it, having similarities to a famous poet


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YOU

Verse 1:
You're the first one that cared
You showed me the way
Now, I'm no longer scared
Yeah, today's a new day
You've taken me in
And shown me what's right
You've become my best friend
You've shown me the light

Chorus:
When will others see Your presence?
When will others sing Your glory?
When will others want to hear
All about Your life story?

Verse 2:
Lord, You've been through it all
Both through gain and through loss
And I'll Never forget
Why You died on that cross
Lord, You are the Truth
So, there's no need to hide
I know I can go to You
And into You I can confide

Chorus:
Oh, Lord I see Your Presence
And I will always sing Your glory
And I will tell others
All about Your life story

Verse 3:
Oh, I love You so much
And it kills me to see
How we become so obsessed
In what others want us to be
Oh, You're in my heart
You're in the depths of my soul
You've been there from the start
And it's now that I know

Chorus:
Lord, You are present
You will Always have the glory
And others Need to know
All about Your life story


Details | I do not know? | |

Untitled 3

Givin' up hope on my Serenity Ryan
Givin' up hope on my Serenity Ryan

Hope and smilin'
Hope and smilin'

Givin' and cryin'
Livin' and lyin'

I hope your smilin'
I hope I'm dyin'

Too bad is feelin' just as well


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Drum of the Day

Don't dance;
Don't speak;
Don't you dare
Drop a beat.

A sly glance
Could take you out,
Make you wonder
What's about.

Something changed;
What's the name?

Taking over,
Shut your mind down,
Don't want sober.

Lock us up,
We're dangerous.
That's just the way
You brought us up.


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You...

Lately there has been no day
When I don't wanna see you in any way
There is no time when you don't cross my mind
I think of you day and night
You save me when things arent right
I don't know what it is I should do
I'm losing fear now that I have found you
We hit it off since the start
You made me laugh and feel like a retard
I knew you were a special one
You made me feel good, hun
I wanna make this feeling last
I'm happy you could confide in me your past
I wanna be the one you can talk to 
I will always be there for you
No matter what happens with us
I hope Im some one you'll always trust
Wanting to make sure you're ok by holding you close
You are very different than most
You are a girl that is very unique
I like about you that female mystique
But let me look in your eyes
And see what there lies


Details | Lyric | |

Locked up

My baby is locked up
I miss him
he calls me
his babygirl
his baby
one and only
true love
I'm down for him
through whatever
he writes me
and sends me pictures
I wish he was here with me.


Details | I do not know? | |

Keeping Me From Dreaming

Hey my dear, what is all the noise down there?
As I step back, you say yes
He’s living under the weakest roof
Turn the lights down in the room
To be likely I’d  be driving
You and me so merry
I would like to treat you nice
It seems like the spirits knew

It is nice to listen to your voice all night
Jumping to my face mixes the days with your grace
And I would really like to know when you’re coming home
It is the second time these pixies fly
I stepped up and you still turn them off
That is not you girl
Until you wake me
Until this metal rusts, I am not here anymore

Turn the lights out in the room
I will sit here in my saddest mood
What is this thing that is between me, that is keeping me from dreaming?


Details | Ballad | |

Salome

Beauty of the Maliced-Night Come to me, Wake me up Forlorn I've been for Centuries My heart beckons for the day of the thought of You Glimpsing in my dreams I see you fighting through The Iron-Gate that held me too You ordered my death in such a Beauty-Blinding way How can I refuse? The dust and sand of the desert's wane Has left myself to Blame The lust and land of the Desert's Wane Suffocated me with the forlorn days I've met you my lover I've met you my execution I've met you my Loving Shame I've met you my Salome Salome, Selfish Lover Salome, Gates of Jerusalem hold you In Salome, my Beauty The Dust and Sand of the desert's wane The Lust and Loving Shame Has left Myself to Blame I've Met You My Salome


Details | Lyric | |

Denton

If I could take away this distance
move this school nearer Denton
I'd do it within an instant
I wish that I could walk to see you
or take a minute drive
I could see you a lot more often
whenever you were on my mind
I could walk up to your front door
and ring the bell all the time
And if I did not have schoolwork
we could go out to dinner
almost every night
I could always kiss you goodnight
just pull you in and squeeze you real tight
I could be there if you were real sad
I could hold you if you felt real bad
In the summer we could take walks
and sit on swings in the park
When winter came I'd get a blanket
and keep you warm on the couch
And you could see me in my dorm
to say hello on study nights
It would be such a pleasant surprise
you would be such a wanted sight
It would be so nice to see you
It would be so nice to see you


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I'm Blaming You

Pull me down
Passed the ground
What's haunting me is so obscene
Hold me down
And toss me around
What's haunting me is so obscene

Carefully executed, you have my head
To you I will never hold the blame
Pefectly articulated, you broke my heart
For you have always been ashamed

Press my chest
You were the best
Yet the worst and loving me
Thrust the blade
Into my back
You were the worst at loving me

I have no excuse
For what I did to you
Your lies and your slander
Are yours to keep forever
It's what made you so strong

Pull me underground
Lower my head so I may rest
To you I will never tell my name
Because you were always the one to blame


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I ASK YOU

Verse 1:
I ask you what’s wrong but you won’t say a word
So I had to hear it from a little bird
She told me you were having second thoughts
And the remainder of her words left my stomach in knots
She claimed you had found someone new

Verse 2:
When we first met our love was such bliss
I can still remember the taste of your kiss
But sometime since then we’ve grown apart
I guess I’m no longer the need of your heart
Especially after all we’ve been through

Bridge:
Sometimes I wonder if it’s true
Now it’s time that I ask you

Chorus: 
Does this song remind you of me
Or is it another girl you see
Do you picture the nights we’ve had
Way before everything went bad
Or do you see another’s face
And is it Her memory you can’t erase
If it is just let me know
It’ll make it that much easier to go

Verse 3: 
When we’re together something feels wrong
I keep thinking of how we’ve been together so long
Maybe you’re bored, or was it just me
Was I not everything you hoped I would be
Tell me you haven’t found someone new

Repeat Bridge
Repeat Chorus

Does this song remind you of me
Or is it another girl you see



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Eggshell Heart

See this heart
fragile like an eggshell
it’s been to Hell and back
and is slowly fusing back together
handle it with care
because she never did
she was never there
See this heart
fragile like an eggshell
Treat it well
like she never could
like she never wanted to
See this heart
fragile like an eggshell
please don’t bid it farewell
as easily as she did


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God and the Devil

I’m going to places I never would have gone before
I’m doing things I never would have done before
I’m not who I was
I feel my idealistic morals trying to slip
I don’t want to give in
God, what do I do?
I’m tired of falling further from you
I want to look my future bride in the eyes
and say “You are my first”
but this path she has led me to
and I for some reason 
have willingly taken
is leaving my mind slowly breaking
as God and the Devil
my morals and my flesh
my beliefs and my world
are all clashing with one another


Details | I do not know? | |

Hidden Influenced by Everybody's Fool by Evanescence

Hiding within one's self
That's what this all is
Pretending all's well
Pretending perfection
Hiding all truths.
What's behind your mask?
Or have you fooled yourself too?
Take the mask off, reveal your eyes.
Or are you too lost in all your lies?
You say nothing that's right.
BUt in your bed at night,
You mind's screams echo
Don't you see me?!
And how you've betrayed me?!
You think to yourself, you've got everybody fooled.
Look around!
Look around and think about it!
That's not true.
YOU are now Everybody's Fool.


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Now It's Up To You

I don't understand what went wrong between us, 
Or why our friendship is in such a fuss.
I told you I loved you and I do and always will,
And to get you to feel the same way again I would kill.
I know you don't love me and I'm over that now,
But you stabbed me in the back and I just don't see how.
How could you talk about me in that way?
I never expected it on any kind of day.
I thought you were different than all other friends,
And would be there for me in dark, thickened ends.
I guess I was wrong and what they say it true:
People never stay friends after their relationship is through.
I wish they were wrong and it was just a big lie,
Because you still mean the world to me and for you I would die.
Even though you don't love me and you hurt me so bad,
I still care about you and will never forget the love we once had.
I'm not begging for an apology or a reason why,
All I am asking you is for you to stop making me cry.
I want to be good friends with you and close just liked you promised me,
But right now it seems like that isn't even a possibility.
I really thought you were different and not like them at all,
I thought that you were the one that would catch me when I fall.
Wherever life takes us, whichever way our future goes,
I wish you the best of luck with whatever your future holds.
I hope to be in your future because I loved the times we hung out,
I never want to loose you-I know that without a doubt.
Even though you cut me deep, I will always look and smile at you,
Because you taught me many things that I never really knew.
You taught me how to love and you taught me how to trust,
You also taught me how to deal when everything just busts.
Before I met you I was totally lost in a world all of my own,
It felt like I was trapped in a deep, dark, empty hole.
Then there was you who changed my life completely,
And for that I thank you immensely.
I have no regrets and loved every moment spent with you,
I just wish you only knew.
I wish you only knew how I feel right now compared to how things were.
It seems like we are now only acquaintances and "friend" is just a word.
I have shed so many tears-each one a cry for help,
But in the end I have found myself standing by myself.
So I guess I'm saying thank you for the times you were there for me,
And letting you know that I enjoyed every memory.
But now I guess it's fading and there's not much more I can do,
I've tried so hard to change it, but now it's up to you.


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Untitled 1

They tell you the things that you should be 
Things that they think set you free
Let me tell you the things that I have seen 
Let me tell you some things that should not be
These things they're scars they burn inside
These scars they're things that I must hide
Rules, the things that you abide
Rules, are things they hide behind
You my friend are on the wrong side 
You my friend are trying to hide
You my friend are not alive
Are you my friend till the end
Of insanity
Are you mad at me cause I set you free
Then let me be
I'm sorry to say your on your own 
I'm sorry to say your all alone
Just be yourself and you will see
That they control your destiny



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On my Feet Again

I'd give anythign to make you mine
Step by step it's not exactly what I came for
Feelin this is so damn right
Whil thinking it's wrong, I've discarded those thoughts tonight

I'm not always willing
    to give my heart away
Until she came to me out of a dream

I know what we are
And I know what I am
Thought I was dying alone
Instead I was thriving on pain

Doing things the hard way
   I confront what I've created
But sin's so deep in my blood
   This monster here must die

I'd give anything to make you mine
Step by step it's not exactly what I came for
I know we'll both be fine
This blood's so putrid it must leave my body
Then I hear you voice again
In flames that thought incinerates
And then I feel your touch again
My heart rampidly skips a beat
This is what I feel it must be love
I love you with all
And I should have listened from the beginning


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I want to be with you

Your my man
and I love you
the way you treat me
and you are always there
you are the only one in my life
you make me feel so good inside
no one has been able to
make me this happy in a long time
there is something about you
that makes me love you so much.


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Oh.So.Addictive.

I've got coffee running through my veins
I'm falling apart but won't complain
As long as I can stay awake and dream
About you.

You're my emotioinal debris, everything I don't need
Oh you're so bad for me
You are a drug - oh so addictive
And all these scars, well they're all because of you
There's somethings I can't undo
And loving you is one of them

I promised I wouldn't feel this again
What the hell is wrong with me?
But sometimes I stare and hope that you'd care
If I told you what I'm thinking
What am i thinking?
No room for thinking when impulse takes control.


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Suicide

This is my letter to you
Because my life is now through
I tried to tell people
But they never seem to care
My mind was full wonder
And i was very scared

I took the knife
And held it to my wrist 
Now my hand moves slowly 
And now the knife has slit
Blood pours all over my floor
Head sightly getting heavier
As i stumble to the door

My sister walks through the door 
And screams in horror
To find a puddle of blood
Scattered all around
Parents rush to the room 
As sirens outside are heard

My eyes slowly opening 
I see people all around
I don't know where i am 
But i know i must have been found


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What a Lost Soul

Since I am Here The Veil grows Stronger but, You're not here for me I'm just-- Another Lost Soul you know, The people you find on the curbs on streets, During Rainy Days not going anywhere but Deeper into their own Disease but, It's not a disease, for they look for cures for diseases Here the patient cares not Only I could say something like that but since I'm here I just might as well sit on the curb on a rainy day and drown in a new-state-disease what A lost soul I am never enough could satisfy always more What a Lost Soul


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Your heart...

This feeling I have might go away,
But till I see your smile it will stay.
I don't want to break your delicate heart,
I just wanna mend the peices that have fallen apart.
I don't wanna be the reason you cry at night,
Or give you a reason to fight
It's just that something inside does not feel right,
I wanna hold on to you tight.
These thoughts that cross my head are not ones I wished for...
Want you to be close so we can feel so much more.
I don't wanna let you go....
But what I feel..... I do not know.....


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Samantha.....

In Jest...

Sheisedo...

Red...

I wanted wine...

All I got was...

Blood...

After me...

Theives...

In my Reach...

And maybe...

it's a girl...

maybe...

it's snow falling...~~

maybe....

it's a wann-be
thread...

holding the sky....

orange and pink.....

whatever....

holds u up....

sinks below....

perhaps....

she's blue....

like a diamond....

fishing ....

for gold.......

casualities...

like fast rythym....

if you could see Amsterdam....

i would paint you Red....

it's not often that...

that happens.....

or  that an ocean lies....

beneathe the wind.....

cooling...

and hurling....

out to sea.....

~


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Dealing with pain

Dealing with pain
It's like getting hit with hot boiling water of rain
Pain and sorrow together
Is one of the most difficult things that could happen ever
Just thinking to yourself that you wish that someone could stab you deep inside your
heart, to get rid of pain
Before you drive yourself insane
There is going to be pain and sorrow everyday and every minute
But you can get through this pain and tell the Lord that you did it
You got to pray and pray and pray
Until you see a light at the end of the tunnel
Giving you hints to follow your way into having a  loving bright day
You will still have days where you think that you can just die when you have pain
When these days come
Just  don't  take the Lord in vain
Try to over come this 
Let the Lord do his work
He will save you from the this pain
He will make everything better
Then when he make everything better
You can send the whole world a better letter
About the Lord's love for all people who he cares about 
He cares for you and me and everyone else!
So don't let pain get you down
Just imagine that your pain can be drowned!


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I'm So Confused

I’m so confused
I don’t know what to do
Why am I feeling this way?
Everything’s okay
but I have thoughts in my head
I feel like I need
to leave her behind
to end it all soon
What’s wrong with my mind?
When she’s near
they all disappear
but when we’re apart
there’s unrest in me
I feel constrained
What’s wrong with my brain?
She’s done me no harm
but right now she’s lost all her charm
These feelings have hit me before
and went away with some sleep
but what if they stay?
What if they won’t go away?
What do I do?
I’m so confused
I don’t want to make a mistake
and lose something good
but I don’t want to stay
if these feelings don’t go away


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So Simple

A simple "hello" when we cross paths
A simple hug when I leave
A simple sign to let me know
That you're satisfies with me

A simple move to communicate
(Pick up the phone and dial)
A simple: "It will be Ok"
When I start to cry

A simple apology when you've done wrong
It'll quickly end our spat
A simple "Is everything OK?''
I'll quickly tell you where you're at

A simple try to make things right
After all the hurt you've given me
A simple poem can show you
Love's not as simple as it seems to be


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Never Heard

The night is still, darkness dead
Yearned for tears, shall soon be shed
The end of existence hopelessly lead
By the girl who was never heard

The tranquil moon breaks amidst the night
But beauty is lost in this unspeakable sight
As the silver of the stars catches the light
Beside the girl who was never heard

Awaiting across the midnight sky
Lay this girl with tears in her eyes
Nothing ever seems to be right 
With the girl who was never heard


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Babydoll

Trying to escape from it all I detach from reality Knowing my spirit will be Safe Too much torment have I gone through To know that this story is truly mine Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll In my mind there is a haven Only I can enter, but everyone else is there Its there I will find a new tactic To keep on living in your torment On the way home I'll die a few times But just to know I really lived I'll have to find a new way to bleed If I want to escape I'll have to loose myself Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll


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Crush, But Not A Rush

(Chorus: song (rpt. 1x)): As I was raised up on my relationship life
It was hard for the one who had a crush on me
I sometimes crushed him back, but its not a rush
Even though time after time I had to blush 
He was my crush, but not a rush

(Verse 1: rap): Not trying to push on you wrong baby boy
Im telling you, you’re not dealing with a toy 
But it’s this part of me that you will never know
I know you see the love that I try to show
Now look at this broken heart you got to mend
I don’t wont to send my love
I want to share it with you
But this one person had step in my life, including others
down the road that crushed it down piece by piece
It seems as if this broken heart
Just isn’t going to be put back
paste by paste
I know its my only lips you want to taste
I know its my only body you want to feel
I know its our love you want to share
I know it seems as if I don’t care
because in my eyes you’re just a crush, but not a rush

(Chorus: song (rpt. 1x)): As I was raised on my relationship life
It was hard for the one who had a crush on me
I sometimes crushed him back, but its not a rush
Even though time after time I had to blush
He was my crush, but not a rush

(Verse 2: rap) I know my love is the only thing you want to taste 
But boy please believe that I need my space
I know its my face that you only want to see
And my heart you want to set free
Cause you tired of these skees
But Im not on that B.S.
Im on a woman stage of something so real
I know you want to feel in me
But I don’t think you see
that im not looking for love
of these so-called men
Can’t you see in order for me to keep my head up high
Is to only look beyond the skies
Because when I’m down
I know that the one beyond the skies will comfort me
And if its really your love I need
When can you show that for me
I think your really blinded by what you see
Instead of seeing the real woman inside of me
Can’t you see
That you’re just a crush, but baby boy its not a rush

(Chorus rpt 2x)


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The Only Way to Get Over You

I’ll weed myself out
from ever facet of your life
I’ll make it feel like
I could have never been real
Maybe then you would miss me
Maybe then you would kiss me again
And if I’m not real
you won’t have to deal with the guilt
of slowly letting us wilt away
So I’m not supposed to be sad
but it’s so hard when you were everything I had
I make myself press on
so that it will be an ease on your mind
but it takes all that I am
to pretend that I’m not
And it’s all that I’ve got in me this time around
But I’ll fight on
because there’s nothing I can do
I’ll fight to will away the love I still feel for you
Because it’s the only thing you want me to do
and it’s the only way to get over you


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I miss you

Lies you told me
That you never meant
And now I'm bent and broken
Yes and now I'm choking

Well at least you're happy anyway
Everything's OK
To you...

Why did you tell me you loved me
When you knew it would never be true?
Just throw me away
And find somebody new
New and Improved

Well at least you're happy anyway
Everything's OK
To you

As tears filled my eyes
Inside something died
But I'll never show it to you
I'll fake a big smile
Laugh for a while
You'll never know the truth

Well at least you're happy anyway
I won't tell you I'm not OK
I miss you...


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Love

I have fallen in love
three times in my life
and it was great
until I found out
they were all wrong for me
I have been hurt
so many times in my life
I am afraid to fall in love
again
am I even supposed to fall in love
at all
I just want that one
special person
who I can fall in love with
and not be afraid of him
or have him hurt me
is that person out there
and will I ever find him.


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I have nobody

I have nobody
to confide in
and have a shoulder to cry on
when I am sad
I have nobody
to talk through my problems
no one at all
I am alone
I need someone to talk to
and express myself
and my feelings
all I want is someone
who understands me.


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Hiding

I wish that I knew you
Because I can’t see through
This wall you’ve put up inside
Why are you hiding?
Babe, why are you crying?
What is making you feel this way?
What can I say?
What can I do?
It’s breaking my heart
seeing you feeling this way


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Everything She's Ever Wanted

The greatest guy she's ever met
     The best friends she could ever have
          The most supportive father imaginable
     People who believe in her
And the most wonderful dreams.
     Great achievements
          Amazing support
     Huge happiness
And a lot of love.
She's got everything her little heart desires.
     It's just too bad
               she's too dead to feel it all.


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Wishing you were here

I'm wishing you were here
with me
to talk to and more
I think about you
all the time
I want you to get out
but since you can't get out soon
I'll wait for you
I'll be true
we can write
we can dream
of being together
and being free.


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Lonely

I miss you
I love you
and I am lonely
I have a broken-heart
I need someone out there
somewhere
will I meet him
or will I meet the right
person someday
I hope somday is soon.


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Aquarian Dream II- Leaving Kali Yuga

A glimpse in your gilded eyes Tells me all inside your lieing mind How can you Stand without a spine How can you speak without a will Failed to announce the pain Will they realize the illusion Is it all to late? The lies that are so common Have put up a delusion Infront Of the people's mind So deep away from the dark Will we come when father is coming For us, is it all to late? Soft little messenger I dare you to spread the word About our dying world All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainted with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king I see the light of a dawning Age Let a new era begin An Aquarian dream a day where we are all free Inside our minds; our hidden refuge But there's no need to hide perfection Concordia shall be our queen Justice, independence, liberty are our only virtues free to be whoever our heart let's us be Go to the tower, strike the bell Soft little messenger And tell of Victory All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainted with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainetd with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king


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Didiane Le Vie

 
I need to feed my hunger is never satisfied I need your attention please notice me My emotions are bare, so I crave yours 'Tis a painful obessesion that leaves me wanting more It goes on over and over Till I find my mark I'm synthetic and cold nothing inside Woe I am, is all I feel I'll try forever till im dead But I cannot be dead-- for only your blood will be shed Take away this horrid price But painful immortality doesn't fail I'm always on the hunt For a new host to feed You emotions are mine The sacred blood of life is all I need to survive I'm always in an enternal war To fill the painful obessesion Your attention and emotion is all I need Im the synthetic vampire I can't feel anymore I was made by a blood-thirsty whore Who wanted war and death All I wanted was to be real Only you are my mark I'll gain all your attention Capture your emotions Just love me even though I cant love A creature of the dark I was made to tear everything apart I'm always on the hunt For a new host to feed You emotions are mine The sacred blood of life is all I need to survive I'm always in an enternal war To fill the painful obessesion Your attention and emotion is all I need Im the synthetic vampire (love me and love me and love me and love me and love me and love me) I'm always on the hunt For a new host to feed You emotions are mine The sacred blood of life is all I need to survive I'm always in an enternal war To fill the painful obessesion Your attention and emotion is all I need Im the synthetic vampire


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Accomplice

You look to the stars
With your great wistful eyes
Dreaming the beauty away
Wish I was a bird
That  could spread it's wings far
Just so I could count them for you

Your beautiful mind
An abyss yet divine
Can't seem to fathom
Introverted design

And I'm forever in your shadow
I'm the roots that steady the tree

A blissful retreat
Concealed in your smile
A rare and coveted decree
Come sleep for a while
So that we can pretend
That you can solve my puzzle too

Oh that I could see what you want me to see
If you could share your gift  with me

And I'm forever in your shadow
I'm the roots that steady the tree


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I don't Know

I don't know what I feel 
but I know I'm still hurt
At this moment I feel worse than dirt
Don't know what it is I feel for you
My heart is so useless it feels so numb,
I know if I hurt you I'd feel worse than dumb...


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Deep in Many Men

There's this lie that's fallen deeply
In the hearts of many men
This is why, only maybe,
I've hated her for her sins

Look at me, please darling please, 
It's your eyes so piercing
I love it though it's wrong I know
Can't you see?
You were always KILLING ME!

It's the things that may go bump in the night
It's the things that have come to take your life

There's a cry that's buried deeply
In the hearts of many men
It's the fear of dying alone
Being alone I fear no more


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Where Do You Want to Go From Here?

So where do you
want to go from here?
Our love,
our love has died
So where do we 
bury it in its grave?
And why?
Why’d it die?
I tried my best to keep the hope
you said that I should keep
But you, 
you let it out of sight
And I still think about you all the time
You’re on my mind
both day and night
I miss you
I need you here right now
Just brush the hair
from my face
and kiss me like you used to do
I miss you
I miss the way your lips taste
the way you bring a smile to my face
and all the peace you bring to me
the way you put my mind at ease
But you’re gone
and I can’t have you
No I can’t have you
anymore
But I still need you
I still need you
Yes,
I still need you
For now I guess
I’ll have to walk away
I’ll have to try to think
of something else
or crawl into my shell
just like I used to do
I know I said that I would try
not to cry
but I just can’t
I’ve failed you
All of this is just too hard
because I love you
I love you
and I still miss you
Yeah,
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you


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Stress

I have been through a lot
trying a lot of stuff
I have tried to take my life
didn't work
I couldn't go through with it
don't know why
I have tried several times
but never succeeded
I realized I had too much to lose
I still think about it
I just don't understand why
I have lost alot in my life
sometimes I ask myself
what am I doing
and why
I still don't know why.


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They've Come to -

I can't begin to understand
     what I'm thinking
You can't comprehend 
     what's in my mind
-CARRY ME AWAY
I won't pretend to care for you,
     not this time
You won't know this plan of mine
-Carry me away

I miander through life weary and unready
Come take me away girl

Don't speak
Just watch intently
Don't cry
Just scream in pain
As I have many times before

I can't live, can't breathe, can't think 
     without you here

I can't begin to fathom
     what I'm brewing
You can't hear
     what I'm going to tell you
-SO FAR AWAY
I can't ignite 
     the flames of passion
You can't contain
     what's been released
-So far away


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heart-broken

My heart has been broken
several times since I turned sixteen
I can't seem to find the right person
that can mend my heart and make
me feel good again
about my life and myself
I am sick of having my heart broken
it hurts me so bad
I don't know what to do
I'm going crazy.


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You smiling at me

I like it when you smile at me
you make me feel good
I like seeing you smile
makes me love you
even more
seeing you smiling at me
gives me a good feeling
about you
like I wanna be with you
for the rest of my life.


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Our love

We love each other
you gave me so much
and more
I said I will love you
forever more
we may have broken-up
but our love
is true
we will always
respect and love each other
no matter what
thank you for
loving me the best
you could
I love you.


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Red Devil's Rain

These tears keep plunging down my face, I call it Red Devil’s rain.
This rain symbolizes agony, and sheltered pain.
These tears are not perceptible to others, but only to the one who bears the 
name.
Which is engrave in his heart, and impressed in his brain.

I call it, Red Devil’s Rain

I can feel it rolling down my soul’s face.
Caused by an unhappy case.
Sticking my tongue to catch a drop, already knowing the colic taste.
That falls on the floor, and evaporates in a near by place.

I call it, Red Devil’s rain

Down pouring from head to toe.
No one sees it, so, I wonder where does it go.
I know it’s not gone, because I can still feel the blow.
Drip drop, the rain continues to flow.

I call it, Red Devil’s rain

Unable to make it stop, Red Devil’s rain continues to fall.
Stress becomes my incarceration, and my heart crumples in to a ball.
Unable to assist it, or keep it from hitting the wall.
Life becomes nothing more, or nothing less, than a rainy windfall.

I call it Red Devil's Rain


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Silence

Take a second
and think back to when
we were happy
being together and in love
you were my man
and I was your woman
nothing would get us down
I miss those times
be silent and tell me
will we be together soon
and will we relive
all the memories
that we shared together.


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Eradicate

Pain Is considerate
those whom Feel it
Never cease it
It’s On The edge of my soul
Breathing in The Ice of withered wisps
They cling to me
Only I Cling to Them
 
Eradicated Souls
Erase this Pain
Erase This Sorrow
Erase This Mind
Lend Me Hope
Destroy It again
 
 
You Eradicate My Soul
You Pray for Love While You cast Your hand Of Death
You Damn Your divine
Your Bleeding for Life
While Living to Bleed
Am I The one to Save you?
Am I the One Responsible?
 
 
I Gaze far from your battlements
I Can Already tell out the outcome
Trusting no one, But Loving all
I Will meet you again,
As long as Your Blithe
Dies with your Promised-Life
 
 
 Eradicated Souls
Erase this Pain
Erase This Sorrow
Erase This Mind
Lend Me Hope
Destroy It again
 
 
You Eradicate My Soul
You Pray for Love While You cast Your hand Of Death
You Damn Your divine
Your Bleeding for Life
While Living to Bleed
Am I The one to Save you?
Am I the One Responsible?
 
There Can Never Be One for You
I am Only you…
I Live Only to be Suburbanite to you, Disease
 
You Eradicate My Soul
You Pray for Love While You cast Your hand Of Death
You Damn Your divine
Your Bleeding for Life
While Living to Bleed
Am I The one to Save you?
Am I the One Responsible?


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The Difference

Now you've come this far to prove a point,
that never made much sense,
swallow this down like all your pills,
now your choking on your words that follow me to my sleep,
wide awake and I can't feel it

Of all these things I should have said but never got to,
I would have never led you on because that's the difference
and take back your knife caught in my back,
don't worry I'll be fine,
just like old friends like ones we hate,
for everything you've done to me, am i still breathing,
wide awake and I can't feel it

you can try and try, try to get the best of me,
try and try, try to make this complete,
but to me, theres something more to me,
than I have seen, theres something more to me


Details | Rhyme | |

Background Noises

Listlessly watching tonelessly seeing 
Hands twisted into the harmony of defeat 
Minds growing with the molds of the unfolding 
Of the sonnet of fate and its moments of discreet 
Senses drowning into the pit of your false confidence 
The urgent beating of a broken heart 
Cascading velvet shuddering under the weight of the wind 
Twirling among the blackness of this art 
Tapping awareness in the annoying glare of an eye 
Simple caress in the world in which you try 
Little baby longing for its mother 
Or the mournful wail of a wolf before it dies 
You hear them everywhere, you cannot escape them 
They are your leeches that haunt your every thought and dream 
It is almost impossible to win against such renewing, 
of a busted mind mourning to its very last frail seam 


Details | Lyric | |

Throbbing

This sickness is throbbing me.
It's haunting.
And there's nothing
I can do about it.

The way I love you,
Is way more than you
Know.
There's this version I see,
Of you and me.

When you do things like that
And you touch hearts like that,
It's really causing me to see,
That I'm throbbing to see you.

You're the trap I want to 
To fall into.
But, I want
This contagiousness to not ever go away.
I want to telly ou. And no hurt will hurt me.
This throbbing won't fade.
But...it won't haunt me.


Details | Lyric | |

Just for you...

So hard to describe
Not easy to express
It seems like a difficult test
Everything about you is different than the rest
How do I tell you this
All these feelings runing through my head
What should I say
Don't want it to be like the last time
My heart could be crushed once again
But your heart will be taken care of
Promise I'll try my hardest not to hurt you
Because I feel this is true
I feel a strong love for you


Details | I do not know? | |

Too much too soon

too much vodka 
too much rum
too much anger
too much fun
too much pleasure
too much pain
too much forgotten
too much to blame
bad decisions lead to worse decisions
I can no longer live this way
lost
scared
confused
worried
crushed
stupid
all these plus more running through my head,
so what is there for me to do now?
with nothing left of my own life,
am i ready to take away anothers


Details | Lyric | |

Tears

I have cried a lot
of tears
because I have been hurt
by a loved one
by a friend
i need someone to wipe
the tears they made me cry
and to help the pain
go away
so I don't cry
any more tears
so I can be happy
and live my life
to the fullest.


Details | Lyric | |

Without you

I'm sitting here
all alone
without you
I'm scared
that I will always
be without you
I feel afraid
of life
so hurry up
and come back
to me.


Details | Lyric | |

Come take me

I want someone
to come take me away
from my house
I can't stay here
anymore
I can't deal
with my family
anymore
they stress me out
and don't believe me
when I tell them
I love someone
they don't understand
me or anything about me.


Details | Lyric | |

Pain

You have put me through so much pain
with your lies
I don't know what to do anymore
you have brought nothing but pain
to my life
for the past three months
I thought I loved you
but I was wrong
I sacrificed a lot for you
and you pay me back with pain
I thought I knew you
but I was wrong
I don't know you at all
and I don't know what to do.


Details | Lyric | |

Lose control

I sometimes lose control
of everything I do
or want to do
and when I lose control
I can't help myself
I get excited
and I will keep going
and won't stop
I lose control
when I get excited
nobody can stop me
I am just out of it
in another world.


Details | Lyric | |

Moral Fiber

I still have that moral fiber; I guess that makes me a survivor
Funny, I still feel the same
Still feel like I’m the only one missing out on so-called fun
The lone loser of the group
Oddly enough, it doesn’t really bother me
Being substance-free, living a life of sobriety
I’d rather lead a so-called boring life
If it means my mind isn’t fried
If it means I won’t cause myself to prematurely die
Surely somebody else lives this way?


Details | Lyric | |

Why The One You Love

Why The One You Love
  be the one to put you down
  the love you share seems to 
                afflict you
I can remember how we were close
    thought of him the most
        Now Im aggrieve
  I thought we could talk about anything
        I guess I was wrong

Why The One You Love
  seems so abnormal
  he makes me feel curious
    of way I think about him
Now I just feel odd because 
  I don’t know which way to turn 
  I remember when I felt happy
  felt like our love was blessed 
  but this whole thing was just a mess
How could you say you love me
           when you don’t 
        How could you say hi
when you mean to say goodbye
   Why sometimes I feel the best thing for me to do
 will be the hardest thing for me to do

Why the One You Love
 make me feel this way
 like our love should go a-sway 
 I stand for what I believe in 
Sometimes I feel like I should let you go
    you don’t even say you love me too
               I was so true to you
            but you just tell me lies
Now you just take my dreams from me

Why the One You Love
  make you feel this way
  like our love should go a-sway
I stand for what I believe in 
    and its definitely not you
Sometimes I feel like I should let you go

Why the One You Love
  says he needs his space
  but what he really mean is 
“I just can’t be with you anymore”
  Why are you doing this to me
      can you just let me be
Because Im hurt and the tears I cry
 are not worth of what I thought I had
 It was just you and your lies

Why the One You Love
   Why the One You Love
         hurt you so bad....


Details | I do not know? | |

Childhood Friend

We started out friends
And that's how it should be in the end.
My first budding love,
My second friend I met,
My first guy friend.

Our opposing fates
Have left me behind
In a loveless crate.
City boy, suburban small town me,
How far away you are.

I can't sway it all away.
One day and some night
Could you become mine?


Details | Lyric | |

Just Me.

Sometimes,
I feel like the wind can make me fly.
Fly to the top of the world,
And set the limits of no where.
Sometimes,
I feel as if I'm alone, and I have this feeling,
That doesn't scare me.
It's just me.

The wind on my shoulder,
Skims me by, and It doesn't matter
Cuz I'm in my own world.
I've beakon myself,
To be just me.
To be no one else,
And to live.

Now, I sit here writing this.
All of these feelings,
That I'm just pouring out,
For you to read.
I'm not wondering what's going to happen
To me, 
Tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.
That doesn't scare me.
Cuz it's just me.

But I've always wondered
What's planned for tomorrow.
Always wanted to not worry,
But somehow I do,
Just somehow I do.

The wind on my shoulder,
Skims me by, and it doesn't matter
Cuz I'm in my own world.
I've beakon myself,
To be just me.
To be no one else,
And to live.


Written by; Kayla Hamilton.


Details | I do not know? | |

Untitled 2

And in my mind
And in my heart
I'm waitin' to fall apart

And I hate sex 
And I hate you
We're to close
just me and you

Roses, Coffee, and Cocain
It's okay

I'll yell at you
And I'll hit you 
Just love me
Just love me

Would you want me 
If i wanted you
to hurt me 
like i hurt you



Details | Lyric | |

Imperfect

I'm nowhere near perfect
My hair doesn't curl, isn't straight
I live for my straightener, 
But for the heat, it makes me wait.
I have a big mouth
Lots of drama and enemies
But I know how to have fun
And I make tons of memories.
I fall for guys easily
And let them break my heart
I get blinded by so-called "love"
So much, it tears me apart.
My friends and I don't always get along
About stupid stuff, we fight
I have good days, and, like everyone else,
I have days where nothing goes right.
I have memories of pain
I wish I could forget
I have said words, mean words,
That I've grown to really regret.
I'm vulnerable to believing lies
I hope, someday, I won't need a fake smile
I hope that, eventually, I'll be who I want to
Even though it'll take a while.
I make up excuses for everything
A lot of times, like to class, I am late
I do kind of risky and crazy stuff
But the laughter sure is great.
I'm nowhere near perfect
Far from that "ideal" target
But hey, that's life, you live and love
And eventually, you learn from it.
The good times count for everything
And nothing counts for the bad
We all have our ups and downs
And our days that make us sad.
We all have our reasons 
To love and to love not
It's worse to have never loved
Than to have loved and lost.
Every kiss counts for something
Even if it's the worst
No one's perfect, really, they're not
So you, for "perfection," do we thirst?
Is there some unseen prize
In the way we all are the same?
'Cause there's only one way for the world to be perfect
But that's not something I want to gain.
When we really take a step back
From all the tabloids and magazines
That push the whole "perfect" attitude
A sigh of relief, can we breathe.
When we walk away from all the rest of the world
And forget about the ideal 
We can see how truly amaing our lives are
And we can begin our own spiel.
Doesn't that sound amazing,
To take total control over our world? 
Well, why on't we try right now?
Let's give "imperfection" a whirl!
I'm not even close to being perfect
I don't know why I wanted to be
"Imperfect" is actually a pretty awesome title
And I'm proud to say it describes me.





























Details | Lyric | |

2 Between 1 and 3, it's Me

There's few things in this world
   that can bring me to the ground
But these two are different
   and I'll show you how
The first is innocent and crazier than you
   she's so delicate and needier too
She's something of the sort
   I'm not sure what
But she makes me feel strong
   because I know she's not

The second I've known 10 years gone
And the coming times promise
   good barre none
I could tell you I'm safe deep in her arms
Instead I feel weakened by
   the power she owns
I know it sounds crazy, but let me explain
Whatever I do is meant to
   destroy me

Now I don't feel I have the strength to carry on
Drained myself of all energy to move along
It's a cripple I have, a weakness if you will
It's one in me that I can't kill
I can't be happy, I must push you away
Because I'm the happiest when im completely in dismay


Details | Lyric | |

love or hell

Want to listen to what is never spoken
Use words that feel to be broken
When we laugh at life were just joken
I breathe this toxic dream in me choken 

Is this love or hell I live in
It knows both where I’m going and where I’ve been

Fell fine for a bit of the time
Making magic with words that rhyme
We hold hands and walk all over here
Silent in this romantic moment with no fear

Is this love or hell I live in
It knows both where I’m going and where I’ve been

Fade in and out of love with you
Argue I’m feeling so sad and blue
Miss you when you’re gone from me 
Mad when you yell
Still under your spell


Details | Lyric | |

It Hurts

I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m spinning in circles
And about to hit the floor
Don’t want this hurt, 
I don’t want this pain
I might be going crazy
I may be insane

But what am I suppose to do
I keep fallen deeper
In love with you
My tears fall for you 
Every night it seems
But I don’t think anyone
Ever hears my screams

Why is God torturing me
With all of this pain
Doesn’t he see
It’s tearing me to pieces
It’s burning inside
It hurts so bad 
I just wanna cry

Take me away from this place
I feel like I’m running 
A loosing race
‘Cuz life isn’t fair
It might never be
But I have to keep going
I have to believe

I’ll keep moving on
I’m gonna stay strong
I’ll never give up
I’ll keep going on

‘Cuz I’m on my way
To a place far away
There is no turning back 
That’s all I can say

‘Cuz it hurts so bad


Details | Lyric | |

To Our Young people

For all that life has given me nothing is more greater than being a mom,
that is the one thing in life that I cherish the most is to have been able to be a part 
of  your lives to get to know each of you as the indiviuals that you are,And to 
have had the chance to grow with you and see where your lives would take you 
has been the best trip I've enjoyed,I know there are still more rides to enjoy on 
this road and I hope we continue to share those rides together whether good or 
bad I wouldn't want to share the ride with anyone else beside me except 
you,alway's knowthat whether I'm near or far,my heart and love will alway's be 
with you,to remind you your never far from my mind or thee heart, you have truly 
rewarded me in so many ways that I will never be able to repay you for the joy's 
and the lessons you have taught me,I only hope that when I've left your side that 
you have enough of my love in you to be able to walk on with all that I have tried to 
pass on to you,may it be enough to keep your heart strong.When i'm  no longer 
there to hear the words you speak in person or by phone and when your mind 
starts to play games of the loss you feel,I only hope the heart will go on to pump 
the love I have for you thru your veins as a vessel of my love ,my mother had 
alway's let me know in words that I was loved but it's important to me that you be 
able to read this when you feel the need to be sure where my heart lies,we will 
never agree completely on alot of things but that will never stop the love that flows 
thru my heart,keep these words close to  your heart  and let them alway's echo 
as a reminder of what I feel for you,my children.




                                                                                    love,
                                                                                          mom


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Lyric

At sixteen, I'm happy
but not popular
because I'm shy,
people get mad at me
because I don't talk
people hate me
because I'm not rich and I'm
not like them I'm only a
human not a shopping fanatic
I'm going through a lot of pressure
by my peers
my friends hate each other
they always fight
hey I'm only sixteen i've still
got time to figure things out
just let me be myself
not someone I'm not.


Details | Lyric | |

Something beautiful

I saw something when i looked into your eyes,
something beautiful hidden by disguise.
But i saw something else about you too
something scared, are you afraid to be you?
you are as delecate as a rose,
you should feel confident and take a pose.
Dont be afraid of what everyone else sees
because only you can set yourself free.
You need help i can tell,
to get you out of this life called hell.
A hand i lend to you, and a shoulder to cry on
but you need to do the rest
you need to fix the things that are wrong
and realize that to you, you are the best.
so you may not be as sexy as the other girls,
but when you give yourself the benefit of the doubt
you dont need to be the hottest in the world
those girls are stuck up,
they dont care about anyone else.
But you...you are the prettiest girl i know,
because your insides, you're not ashammed to show.
So just do me a favor, 
be yourself,
be Dee!


Details | Ballad | |

Forsaken Eurydice

[Satyr]
A quick game is all it will be
I can tell you can hear my shouts and screams from forest 
Your home it beckons thee
Why won't you come and play with me?
 
Why cant you cure her?
The venom isn't too deep
If you could awaken her once
Cant you do it again
 Did sorrow blind you?
 
 [Orpheus] 
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee
Why I not could listen to the dread king
All the life to you I could bring
I had to look back with eyes of dismay
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee 
Music no more will there be 
For I have forsaken my Eurydice 
 
 [Persophone] 
He will never listen 
No is all you will hear
Death is always the killer of love
Death will always win
 
 [Hades] 
Go back to your kingdom
My words have been proclaimed
Your music will not be able to charm
 
 [Persophone] 
Why don't you please
Give him his love
He went this far in vainI
f he cannot see her blank face
Wont why you please
 
  [Orpheus]
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee
Why I not could listen to the dread king
All the life to you I could bring
I had to look back with eyes of dismay
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee 
Music no more will there be
 For I have forsaken my Eurydice
 
 [Hades]
If it will please
You can see her
Only without your eyes
Throughout the dark realm
Looking back will forsaken your Eurydice
 
  [Orpheus]
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee
Why I not could listen to the dread king
All the life to you I could bring
I had to look back with eyes of dismay
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee 
Music no more will there be
 For I have forsaken my Eurydice


Details | Lyric | |

boyfriend

boyfriend
boyfriend
yes he is my
boyfriend
boyfriend

"i said my"

boyfriend
boyfriend
yes he is my
boyfriend
boyfriend

"oh yes"

he is hot, sexy and cool
i know you want him
but hes not with you
he go to the club
he got the ladies feenin
he got the club and after 
party bumpin

when he dance
he makes a new beat
on th dance flo
bringin that heat
you better keep up
you better stay on yo feet
yes im proud to say thats me

"oh"

my boyfriend
boyfriend
yes he is my 
boyfriend
boyfriend

"i said my"

boyfriend
boyfriend
yes he is my
boyfriend
boyfriend


Details | Lyric | |

Forsaken

If I’m not mistaken
Then I’ve been forsaken
By the one
I thought I had loved
The sky above is falling down
I look around,
And the world I loved is all crashing down
I gave it my all,
Setting myself up for this eternal fall from her grace
I’m drowning in an abyss  
Filled with all the things about her that I miss
Like the way she smiles,
The way she laughs,
The way she walks,
The way she talks,
The way she makes me feel inside
Most of all,
the way she makes me feel alive


Details | Lyric | |

Do They Know

They think they know me, 
But can they really see?

Can they see the desperation,
Gleaming in my brown eyes?

Can they hear the sadness, 
Every time I say something?

Do they know my smile,
That is always quickly forced?

Do they know my friends,
Who don't always seem kind?

How can they know me,
When I don't know me?


Details | Lyric | |

Why? (a poem of Ashley's infidelity)

She said she’d love me forever
That I was why she lived, why she breathed
They were all lies
Oh, how well she deceived me
I was the sun in her sky
The stars in her night
When I was lost in darkness,
She was my light
I watched him with jealousy
As I watched her infidelity
Why did she do this to me?
I’m broken down
A sad clown
There’s nothing left for me in this world
I thought I had it made
I thought I had undying love from this girl
She lied to me
Said I was the reason she awoke everyday
Why I believed her lies?
I’ll never know
But she sits there and lies, 
Saying, “I wish it wasn’t so.”
But I know she never truly loved me
And all I can say is, “Why Ashley? Why?”


Details | Free verse | |

Richard

I could sit forever and say I hate you
Or at least until my face goes blue
But that wouldn’t mean anything
Cause deep inside I need you
And you know id never leave you
Because my words don’t mean anything
I could sit and call you ugly 
Show the world so they can see
But it’d only reveal me
Cause you know deep inside I need you
I always have
And you know deep inside id never leave you
I never could have
You are my best
And id rather be partially miserable 
Because we’re only friends 
Then loose you ands be completely miserable 
Without you my friend


Details | I do not know? | |

The Strength in me

The strength in me
grows stronger 
every second ,every minute 
every hour ,every day
the stronger it became's
the happier I seem to feel 
the more energy I seem to have
the better company I seem to be around others 
The strength in me 
grows stronger 
every week, every month , every year 
As I became older I became wiser
As my body image changes 
my style became's more casual 
my self esteem goes higher 
The strength in me grows
all the time 
as long a I allow it to 
and I do


Details | Lyric | |

Heaven Sent

God must have brought you to me for a reason
God must had knew I needed someone like you
God must had heard my cry’s for a good guy
God must had known you was going to be in my life
God must had seen my pervious relationships
God must had knew that you would change a lot about me
God must had knew that you would treat me better
I thank God everyday, because he brought you to me. You make me smile, laugh, 
and happy. I love you!!!


Details | Free verse | |

Wisconsin or bust

Thumb my way out of here to clear my head
I think I’ll fit in somewhere new I’m feeling dead
Hitch my way across state lines
Great journey to the dairy land 
My trip is relaxing like a walk on the beach sand
As fate would have it my feet stay planted here
This must be some bogus weakness or fear
	Chorus Wisconsin or bust if you loves cheese it’s a must
Packed two shirts and two pair of pants
With little money do I have a chance?
Walking down a highway dashes of yellow lines
Farwell to old friends my mind centers binding me here
	Chorus Wisconsin or bust if you loves cheese it’s a must
Am I a man am I a freak
 Am I geek are there words to speak
From lips moving ever so fast 
Vibrations of sound in my throat won’t last
People cast stones at our brittle glass lives
We live as souls that touch so short of a time together
Sun at my back wind at my face better a world today better a place
	Chorus Wisconsin or bust if you loves cheese it’s a must


Details | Lyric | |

I Can Learn (Maybe)

Maybe I can learn to feel again
Maybe my wounds will heal
Maybe this heartache will subside
so I don’t have to hide it any longer
I’m longing for some happiness,
that one time bliss never shared in a kiss,
those happy thoughts of how perfect it was
Longing for no nagging doubts
a lack thereof


Details | Lyric | |

Small Hands, Small Feet

Her life is not one of shopping malls,
those fancy purses, and shoes to match.
No her life is not fifty dollar hair cuts, and
manicures, followed with a pedicure, to show off her
french style toenails.  
Her parents didn't buy her a new BMW for 
graduation, with a tag on front, that reads,
money.  
Hers is a life of fighting for the freedom to 
be able to keep the right to do all these things,
hers is an American Soldier.
Her camaflouge is the going thing, and her
Humvee is the only vehicle she drives these days.
She can't sleep late on the weekends, and watch TV
all day, then get ready for a night on the town, hoping
that cute boy in one of her classes ask her out.
No hers is early to bed, early to rise, and her friends
in her unit are always watching her back.
The choice she made  to give her all, came without
hesitation, she answered the call.
Discipline she has learned, through many a tough call,
and being a soldier gives her great pride, these things are
not found at the mall.
Small feet, small hands, ready to fight, no matter the
time, day or night. 


Details | Lyric | |

Without A Lover

On valentines day, 
I am isolated from the world.
Not in a relationship, 
But standing here as a lonely girl. 
As I watch lovers kiss romantically,
I wish to myself,
That there was someone like that
There for me.
I ask questions like,
'What's wrong with me?'
And 'What have I done?' 
I wonder why, I do not have someone.
Surrounded by love in the air, 
I stand here alone in despair
And look for a valentine,
That someone special I can call mine.


Details | Lyric | |

True Brotha

True Brotha
Strong, black, intelligent man
One who has praise can stand
Proud, honest, loves
himself, that’s why we need
one another’s help.

True Brotha
Yes, you are to me.
Your friend has my heart going
triple beat.
Doesn’t that remind you of Miss
Stephanie?  The glazing, the
passion, the lovers eyes, the
“Oh, your always on my mind”

True Brotha
Slow music in the background
Sweet chocolate lying on the bed
now
Roses sitting in a chair
Lights off, candles everywhere
Waiting for your lady to appear

Does this describe you?
Or do I have what’s coming up
next confused?
Cause I think your Valentines Day
Is going to go this way.

True Strong Brotha


Details | I do not know? | |

CRYING


How will this end
What am I to do
Anyone can hear it clear
I’m the one to blame
Nothing ever changes in this life we call love
Everyday its gets harder to live
I just can’t seem to move
This time around

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen

How many more deaths to fill
Till I die finally
To many guilt
Is this what they call fear
How many more nights of chasing
Through this phase I prayed to leave
I pray the day you go
Is this the last I’ll see of you
I hope so

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen

I’m the coward who done you wrong
I’d deserved all the dirt of deeds
I’d learned I’m the dark of your day
Please stop hating me

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen


Details | Lyric | |

Queastions?

How can i take life seriously
when it is nothing but a joke
how can i think curiously
when all ive got is hope

Fighting an endless war
just me against the world
im not asking for much
exept to be unferreld

How can i respect anyone
when your habbits rub off on me
ill turnout like everyone else
because of what you let me

How can i look in the mirror
knowing im not myself
how can i trust anyone
when i cant even trust myself


Details | Lyric | |

BAD BOY

My friends warn me
I’d warn myself
You’re a bad boy
Smoking, drugs, and tattoos
I couldn’t help myself
Tried to ignore the nagging
But baby it was just so much
Couldn’t drown the demands of my heart
Don’t know why? Don’t care why?
But its you
My heart, body, and soul wants

My parents disapprove
Told me not to see you
My friends say I’m crazy
Drools when they see you
You told me to stay away from you
Too good
Too innocence
Too beautiful
To be touch by you
Your life
Your so called friends
And family

Bad boy you are
But you are mine
I won’t leave you ever
Told me what’s good for me
Was to forget about you
Forgetting you
Is impossible boy
You are like a drug in my veins
As times pa$s I need more and more
Of you

I love you, you told me
I was the first to see all of you
The first to hear it all
So why push me away
When you declared
“I can’t live without you”
This is the recognition of a good girl
Marking a bad boy
A bad boy caught in my innocence

Not caring the aftermaths
Just happy together
No parents, no laws
Nothing can separate me
And my bad boy
We’re forever him and I
Forever
Death won’t do us part
Nothing but a good girl
Falling for a bad boy
Nothing but a bad boy
Loving a good girl


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Reflection

Looking out a broken window
Trying to see past the broken glass
Seeing past the cuts and bruises
Past the scars hidden deep within your soul
Seeing truth without opening my eyes
I can see the tears  you once cried
I can see all the pain and hurt you've been through
Then I lift my eyelids and my eyes open
Theres no broken window, just a mirror
The person I see is me


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I Love You (Despite All Your Hate)

If it’s what you truly want
I’ll gladly cut my own throat
I’ll take this sharp blade
and let it slowly slide down
If you promise it’ll make
a smile from your frown
I love you
that’s all I can say
I love you
despite all your hate
Your happiness is
my number one concern
And if it makes you less sad
my flesh I will burn
Whatever you want
that’s what I am
Whatever you need
I’ll have in my hand
I won’t live on
if you want me to die
I’ll take my dad’s gun
and put a bullet in my brain
I promise I won’t haunt you
because I love you too much
I’ll die at your feet
I’ll die by your hands
and while I bleed out
I’ll look into your eyes
and if my blood stains your shoes
then I apologize
because you know that I
I would never cause you pain
you know that I
I would never make you sad
and I
I love you
that’s all I can say
I love you
despite all your hate


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Hold Your Peace

Hey there friend,
Are you happy
To see me?
I like to see you too;
You make me laugh.
Let's smile together;
I hope that it's real, 
What you feel
When you're silly.
Can I ask you,
When you take a hit,
Do you think you can do it,
Do anything?
What's your tomorrow?
Can I borrow
Some of your nonchalance,
"Do what I want"
Attitude?
Can I help you?
Do you need help?
Are you happy?


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listen to the colors

Inside my head in my brain is a gob stopper 
The candy center can hide my pain
The different colors control me be to be sane
Today I’m sad and blue tomorrow I might be red on fire

Listen to the colors

Imagine playing twister inside your head
Spin a color to effect everything you’ve said

Have gotten so tired that you got wired on caffeine
Then you heard talking in your head
That you not too sure you said

x3 I’m not paranoid 

Isolated in my mind
I’m sure here what I’ll find
This world we live in can be so unkind
Rewind back to what I heard
When I’m alive they try and tell me I’m dead

X3 I’m not paranoid 

The more I think the more I say
Things aren’t supposed to be this way
You feel alone and up tight
When your sunshine day turns into a black night

Racing thoughts turned blood red to stop in my brain dead
As the colors change I begin to numb the pain

A little smoke to keep me sane 

X3 I’m just paranoid

There’s got to be another way.
To calm my thoughts and they say
Smoking this herb can’t be the only answer
My stress eats at my body like a cancer
How do I escape the problems in my mind?

X2 I find I have to talk about it.
 
X3 I used to be paranoid 
Now I’m just annoyed
(Sung slowly to close song) inside my head my brain is just a gob stopper. 


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Everything's So Right

When you kissed me,
It felt so right,
the way you held me,
Oh so tight.

not knowing what would happen next,
you kissed my neck,
caressing my body,
Holding me so tightly,

You are the one who told me,
you would never hurt me, 
But take my pain away.

I couldn't imagine,
Life with out my passion,
You holding me so tight,
Everything is so right!


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It's Time

It’s time to wake up
It’s time to break up
Things have been bad for months
and they grow worse every day
Why do I press on
when you’re not even trying?
So yeah
you can say you’re crying now
but I’ve been dying for weeks inside
I can feel my heart slowly empty
all emotions washed away
I could feel my soul breaking
as you just kept taking your sweet time
Well now the time has come
and what must be done must be done
It’s time to wake up
it’s time to break up


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Baby You Don't Know

I don’t feel lonely anymore,
And I’m no longer depressed.

Since you came into my life,
I have no care in the world.

It’s just so perfect.

Baby you don’t know what you are to me.
It’s just too difficult to see.

You’re the one I love for eternity
The reason I wake up (wake up)
And get out of bed
The only one for me

When you’re gone and miles away,
It still seems like you’re next to me.

You’re in the words I speak,
And the air I breathe.

You’re the everything in me.

Baby you don’t know what you are to me.
It’s just too difficult to see.

You’re the one I love for eternity
The reason I wake up (wake up)
And get out of bed
The only one for me

Baby you don’t know what you are to me.
It’s just too difficult to see.

You’re the one I love for eternity
The reason I wake up (wake up)
And get out of bed
The only one for me

The reason I wake up (wake up)
And get out of bed
The only one for me.


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Mend Him to Break Him

She mends his broken heart
and makes it whole
then she rips it out
and destroys his soul
there’s nothing more destroying
than her endless heartfelt toying
and all the melancholy
she breeds constantly
in his mind

So he says when will
when will 
these charades end?
He does not know
why they even began

And the two dance their dance
a love again, like again
teenage romance
Their spirits were so high up
and then she tore them down
and his just keep falling down
buried into the ground

So he says when will 
when will
these charades end?
He does not know
why they even began

And now they’re broken up
and all his faith is lost
He has no faith in love
and he has no faith in God
He treated her like a queen
and she treated him like a dog
and his only love left
is the love he wrote for her in songs


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Sequel to Delay I:Young and Ignorant

Hello beautiful let me find your voice again
I wish to speak to you at your whim
You may change this mind of what love is
Or enforce the monument of hate, this is
-
I'm not only daring
    I'm not just unwell
Justice, it's taken my breath away
    And still I persist it in my dreams
Please sir don't let me fail just yet
    I'm still young and ignorant...

Is it all that's hurt me still scaring me?
Can she help me overcome my fears? 
Will she?
-
I see you in my dreams, the one I wish I had
To what extent will I go to have?
What am I willing to lose for her?
And when I know will I be ready for it?
She's changed my views once and I thank her for it
But they've reformed into what They really are;
Slaves to the hate that breeds inside me


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Cries Of The Ghetto

Can you hear them? The cries of the ghetto
Can you see it? They don't stick out like hello
A baby is crying, a child is dying
A teen just shot himself and you think I'm lying

Cries of the ghetto, do you hear it's plea?
If not, take a closer look and tell me what you see
A mother strung on drugs, the fathers are thugs
A little boy is depressed and gets not a hug
A little girl addicted to sex, no one is at their best
People end up statistics like all the rest

Cries of the ghetto, can you feel it?
Can't you sense the hurt buried deep in it?
Fights every where, children scared
Families abused and treated unfair
People without food, people without jobs
Cries of the ghetto, can you hear their sobs?

A young teen was killed when she did nothing wrong
A child ran away from neglect and now doesn't know where he belong
A woman was raped, a beating was tapped
A world where everyone knows eachothers' fate

Cries of the ghetto, now can you see..
That your help is what we desperately need?
Poverty struck, in fantasy worlds we're stuck
Maybe a miracle right now would be just our luck


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Lonely Girl

There she sits alone again
Crying in her bedroom
And no one even knows at all

The days when she comes to school
So sad and depressed,
Everyone wonders why

No one really knows the scared her,
The real her

They think she’s happy,
They think she’s got it all,

But really she’s so scared and alone
And no one even knows
She just wants to cry out

She’s screaming at the top of her      lungs
Hoping someone reaches out
But no one even hears her

All she wants is someone to care,
Someone to love her

Some days she feels like
She just wants to give up,
Like there’s no sense of moving on

But then she thinks of her future
And the people that she loves
And she just keeps pushing on

Even though it feels like it’s not right
All the fights,
About everything…
That went wrong in her life

Really she’s so scared and alone
And no one even knows
She just wants to cry out

She’s screaming at the top of her lungs
Hoping someone reaches out
But no one even hears her

All she wants is someone to care,
Someone to love her

Really she’s so scared and alone
And no one even knows
She just wants to cry out

She’s screaming at the top of her lungs
Hoping someone reaches out
But no one even hears her

All she wants is someone to care,
All she wants is someone to care,
All she wants is someone to care,
Someone to love her.


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Emotions

I fell in a hole I can't get out of
Depression grabbed me and pulled me under
Anger runs through my veins like thunder
Happiness is hiding from me, never to be found again
Sadness fills my mind as the tears begin
Grief wrapped its arms around me and won't let go
Love has left me here by myself, all alone
Putting stains all over my heart,
These emotions tear me apart


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Falling to pieces

Falling to pieces 
Slowly slipping away
Feeling her insides decay
Speaking the words that were once drown in blood
She buries her emotions in the mud
Not knowing what to think
Her heart suddenly begins to sink
Without being able to breathe
While wearing her emotions on her sleeve
Twisted in these lies of deception
Trying to find an extrasensory perception

Falling to pieces
With every beautiful incision
She can see far beyond her line of vision
She Searches for a reason deep within her soul
To stop feeling this way and start feeling whole
Bleeding away all of her impurities
Trying to leave behind all her insecurities
She lays there bleeding just to feel alive
Wondering how much blood she needs to shed to survive

Falling to pieces
But does anyone see her pain
Do they see her slowly start to go insane
No one knows the secrets she hides
No one knows what's behind her eyes
She hides behind a smile,constantly pretending
But no one realizes her happiness is ending
As her depression increases
She is slowly falling to pieces....


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The Poem

I was wondering around
My kitchen
When I saw this letter
Sitting on the counter
It was blue and white
I recognized it as
A envelope from
poetry.com
I looked at it knowing 
It was my mom’s mail
I stared at it for
A long time
But I couldn’t resist
So I picked it up
I didn’t have to
Open it to see
The poem my mom
Had written
I could see the poem
Through the clear plastic
The poem was called 
Little Girl
As I read the poem 
I froze because 
I suddenly 
Realized it was about 
Me as a little girl
I wanted to cry
As I kept on reading it
I just wanted
To cry
Because
It was the poem
That made me sees my mom 
Does understand 
Me


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tonight

I will fly away into the night
Look unto the sky as I take flight
Tonight I love you so much
Tonight I want to see you want our lips to touch
Tonight I need you I need you tonight
I can’t run can’t hide want to have you by my side
	 
 chorus x3  tonight tonight tonight
 
Wanna hold you tonight
Told you I’d treat you right
You’re the fire that keeps me warm at night
What a beautiful sight I see when I look at thee
	 
tonight tonight tonight
 
I can’t fight what I feel
Take my hand and we’ll go far away
Wherever the night takes me, I’ll stay
As long as you still love me till the end day and night
	tonight tonight tonight


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darkend fairy tale

In the shadow lies a dream
a fairy tale, or so it seemed
from which way do the daggers fly
weither right before you
or to the side
though once or twice your sure to stumble
a pain as sharp as nails
for when the daggers in your back
you look to see a trail
a trail of life
from past to present
its red hue in your midst
and if the eyes before you
are those of a friend
the dagger's sure to twist
until the very end


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Done to Me

Look at what you’ve done to me
it’s so hard to even breathe
if I could chisel ice off your stare
I’d still be stuck inside this miserable winter
you said it would be over soon
but I’m still trying to make it through
I’ll lay here
I’ll do my best to die
I’ll stay here away from you
so that your piercing eyes
can’t stab right through me
Do you want me to bleed?
Do you need me to disappear?
Well give it time, have no fear
I’ll be gone by the end of this year
I’m headed straight for Death
As where I am is about the same
I’m so screwed up and I blame you
for leaving my mind so lame
You ran away that bleak, dark day
and I could not find any peace
And it’s the least that I can do,
so I’ll stay away, away from you


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What's the Story Baby Girl?

So what’s the story baby girl?
Am I still king of your world?
Or is Prince Charming too alarming?
Is this love too much to bear?
The world was grand when we were holding hands
Here’s an ending that nobody understands
The sky came falling down
The stars disappeared from the night
And now we’re both on our own
To face the unknown
In a life that’s frightening
We’re like the crashing lightning
But there’s no use in fighting
All good things come to an end
The world is bound to die
Heaven’s already cried
We all come to an end
Should we care that the other’s not there?
It’s what was chosen to be
Then again, absence makes the heart grow fonder
So how much longer will it be before we know?
Let’s flee to our secret hiding places
Bury our saddened faces in our arms
Fairytales are merely fables
Used for putting children to sleep
What they fail to tell,
The one secret they always keep,
Is in the end, prince and princess always weep.


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Love, Mom

when i woke up and saw the note
laying on my end table
i wished so hard that when i flipped it over
that when i flipped it over
the name on the back following
the message and love
wasnt "mom"

But again i'm alone and again
i got slapped
right across where i did just the last
time that
i thought somebody
maybe just anybody
was thinkin of me
and considering caring 'bout me.

Again i wake up but this time i see you
right across where id seen you before
and you told me bout your thoughts 
and you told me what happened
and how we couldn't be seeing eahc other anymore

And im right back where i started 
all over again
bleeding again
from these eyes of pain
and mending again
these scars of the past
that will never fade away,
you will never fade away


when i woke up and saw the note
laying on my end table
i wished so hard that when i flipped it over
that when i flipped it over
the name on the back following
the message and love
wasn't you


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Beautiful in My Eyes

Dedicated to my teacher, who has helped me more than she'll ever 
know

When the world denies your hard work 
Refusing your wisdom in years,
Please, just remember what I’m saying,
Please don’t cry any tears. 
People will try to bring you down
No matter what you do
But know this, these words I say,
‘Cause you and I know they are true.
Your hard work has helped me this year
I wouldn’t be who I am without you
This life I live right here and now
Is possible because of what you do.
You encourage my hopes and all my dreams
And help me reach my goal
I wouldn’t be me without you
These seeds, I wouldn’t be able to sow.
You have helped me learn how to write
In fact, you taught me yourself
Whether you’ve realized it or not, 
You’ve helped me become myself.
I can’t imagine eighth grade without you
It’s been a wonderful year
I can’t believe I’m now saying good-bye
And beginning to hold back tears.
I know how you try to be perfect
At least  some of the time,
You like to do everything you can
To help me find a rhythm or a rhyme.
And life isn’t always perfect
In fact, it rarely is
It’s often so sudden and indistinct
It feels like a giant pop quiz.
But no matter where life takes you,
No matter how bad you may want to cry,
Remember these words that I’ve said to you
And know that you’re beautiful in my eyes.


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Do You Ever

Have you ever just wanted to die?
Like you can't stop crying and you don't know why
Do you ever feel like all these problems won't go away?
And things just get worse everyday
Do you ever get sick of all this pain? 
When everything goes to sh$$ again
Do you ever feel like no one cares
Just when you really need them there

I hate living in such a judgmental world
I'm sick of being just another girl
Why won't all this sh$$ just go away?
I'm sick of barley making it through each day
I don't even feel alive anymore
Why am I always left by you at the door

Dont' you hate how someone can automatically change
And in an instant your whole life can be completely rearranged
Do you ever get sick of always waking up to a gloomy day?
When nothing seems to go your way
Do you ever feel like you're the only one who cares?
Or just because you're different everyone has to stare
Don't you hate when no one listens
But when they tell you let it out they all start b$t$his


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I can't

I can't breathe,
You took my breath away
I can't think,
You fill my mind everyday
I can't see,
You blinded me with your lies
I can't smile,
You left me here with only sighs
I can't feel,
You ripped my heart out and threw it on the floor
I can't love,
Without you I can't anymore


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Ugly As Me

There's no leg left to stand
my comforts and demise walk hand in hand
I'm loosing touch it seems
I'm lost in broken dreams but 
I need you here with me
swear in blood this is where you'll always be 'cuz
All that I'am depends on in the end I'm still in your bed
You think you just as ugly as me inside
until I hold you and
let me in and open old wounds
I try and I hope this will do 
Because I die when you look at me that way
But what I ment to say was..
I'm just a hollow disgrace
I can't feel you touching my face
This is the mess I instagate
There's no one left here but you 
Solice in my mind has left me too and
Through this you've accepted me
And every thing you think I could be


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Alone

You change your words
But your lies stay the same
I lay in empty darkness
Where all fears remain
Soon I will create
The nightmare that shall come
As tears roll down my cheeks
And find their way unto my tongue
And through my lips will pulse
The silence of my scream
And soon I will awaken
To no one else but me


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Truth Be Known

People wanna see things their own way
They fear what they do not understand every day
Even when the most beautiful paintings of life
Are placed directly in front of you
And the bright colors of emotions shines in light
You just turn and walk away and ignore youth's life
What do you see when our teens walk?
They walk with pride, hair slicked back, blue jeans,
White T,  and ups, smiling with dignity
I know you see nothing, instead you look with pitty
It's a shame when youth's can see
The imagination of truth more clearly
We see life how it is and how its been
We're afraid to speak so instead we pick up a pen
We write in a safe haven's diary of truth
To keep important memories of our youth
You continue to put us down
And steal our diamonds of hope and pearls of joy
And take away our meaningful, cheerful noise
You kill our dreams
And the blood from it fills the streams
The streams turn into rivers
And the rivers into lakes and lakes into oceans
The pictures of life moves with motion
But they are repaired by faith
And eventually we will rise to power
And they'll see us triumph in our highest towers


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Russian Roulette, Won't You Be My Friend?

Will you be my friend and take it all away?
I want to forget all the things from my past.
I want to breathe easily at last.
Can you unlock this cage?
Release me from my prison?
Will you carry out my final decision?
They poison my thoughts
And destroy my brain
It’s so much fun because it’s just a game
The burning in my eyes.
The growing clouds of darkness in my mind.
This sinking feeling in my gut.
They’ll all go away with you.
Let me spin the dial
And pull the lever.
Will I win today?
Will there be an empty click, as my stomach sickens by design?
Will the game end with a bang?
Only Fate can tell if I’ll win or lose.
It’s not up to me, I’m letting Fate choose.


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wanting

gurl
im sitting here talking to dis real nice Brea knowin if he’s da 1 4 me he's a sweet guy 
da kinda guy I’ll go 4 he understands me and he no's where im coming from he's not like 
these other Brea’s who only wants 1 thang or is he
but all I no he got me trippin sitting waitin for him to make his move

Boi
im sitting here chillin chattin to this cuttie, to make her feel wanted you know that is 
my duty, kiss her reel slow make her shiver inside, but I don’t just want the one thing 
I don’t just want the ride, I wanna show her love and the way im respecting, always 
carin that’s the way im protecting, so baby realise all my feelings for you, your my 
baby your my girly your my little boo!!!!!

gurl
I see my baby boy almost everyday; I get tongue tied cant find words to say
he makes me shake i get weak in the knees, I wanna approach an kiss him but all I do is 
freeze
I love his smile and the gleam in his eye, at night without him some times I sit and I 
cry
Wondering if he’s thinkin bout me, my love for him I wonder if he can see
The way I feel words just don’t make sense, should I ever tell him or keep up this 
pretence

boi
Im sitting here chillin all alone on my own, wanting this girl with me or even just 
talking on the phone?
To hear her tender voice ya know it makes me high, all my loves for her ya know I want 
her so much dat it’s tearing me apart I just can’t deny
Without her I feel empty like im missing my soul, whenever she’s around my heart just 
takes control
I want her so much dat its tearing me apart I wanna feel her sweet lips corest on 2 mine 
I want her 2 be more than friend I want her to be my wifey				
	


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You confuse me

I hold you up,
You bleed all over me.
I help you hide your knife,
You stab me.
I tuck you into bed,
You kick off the sheets.
I ignore you,
You give me a hug.
I accidentally trip you,
You don't get up.
I reach out for you.
You run away.
I hear you out, 
You won't talk.
I sing your song,
I can't relate to it.
You're mad at me,
Not for long.
I love you,
You love me more.

You confuse me.


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Envy

I envy her,
Her beautiful tan face,
Her sharp, white smile,
Her wonderfully shaped body,
Hey shy, but outgoing personality,
Her good, caring friends,
Her laugh that sends a chill down my spine,
Her heart, so big and filled with memories,
Her loving, blue eyes,
But most of all,
I envy how much they love her,
They all love her,
I envy her.


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The IRS Doesn't Care About This Type of Dependency

I’m so dependent on the love you give to me
it’s the reason why I’m able to be happy
My pick-me-up when I am feeling down
My biggest fan when I’m being a clown
You keep all my fears grounded
with the sound of your voice
as you try to comfort me
when I feel like there’s no other choice
You have this hold on me
and I hope you never let me go
I’m so dependent on you
Surely it must show?
Babe, all I want from you
is for you to know
that you mean so much to me
and you’re why I’m finally free
to put a smile on this face of mine
and really be happy


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projector of memories

passing by each other
pretending not to stare
when actually all I see is your face
and your hand holding her hand

remembering those times you only looked at me
and when we argued playfully
we'd hold each other gently
whispering so only we could hear

thats done and over
now time has passed
but in the back of our minds
its still that projector of memories.



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Untitled #278 / Stranger

When I saw your face
I crept out of my quiet place
and saw the light of day
but it’d been so long
since I saw the sun
and I didn’t know what to say

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you

When I heard them say your name
I thought it was my own
and I dreamt we were two marble statues
cut from the same stone

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you

So I’ll crawl back to my quiet place
and wait for the sun to rise
maybe someday I’ll see your love shining through
in someone else’s eyes

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you

I’m no stranger to this feeling
I’m no stranger to love
but I’m a stranger to a heart that’s true
and I’m a stranger to you
to you

(Chords: 
Intro: E
Verse: Fsharpm D A E
Chorus: A B Csharp Fsharp
A B E
A B Csharp Dsharp
A B E
Bridge: Bm G D A)


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Mend His Heart to Break It

She mends his broken heart
and makes it whole
then she rips it out
and destroys his soul
there’s nothing more destroying
than her endless heartfelt toying
and all the melancholy
she breeds constantly
in his mind

So he says when will
when will 
these charades end?
He does not know
why they even began

And the two dance their dance
a love again, like again
teenage romance
Their spirits were so high up
and then she tore them down
and his just keep falling down
into the ground

So he says when will 
when will
these charades end?
He does not know
why they even began

And now they’re broken up
and all his faith is lost
He has no faith in love
and he has no faith in God
He treated her like a queen
and she treated him like a dog
and his only love left
is the love he wrote for her in songs


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cant explain

I cant find the words to explain,
how beautiful you are,
I reminisce about a goddess,
my queen,
girl you are,
so exotic,
unknown features,
I never seen,
a beautiful creature,
how do I say,
girl i wantcha,
how do I say,
girl I need ya,
I want to smell,
your sweet aroma,
girl im really fallin for ya,
but I cant find the words to explain
how beautiful you are


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Mind Sex

That's all she can give him to express how much she loves him which he is completely
oblivious or without care
 He only knows the word "love" as he whispers it into his girlfriend's ears
So this girl feels at ease because she knows that this form of affection comes 
without rejection 
Which saying it might
She ignorantly confuses sex with love believing that sex can make him stay
It does, but only for the night
She longs to have him beside her all day 
But knows that his days are already occupied by his "wife"
So she settles for less 
Giving him the one and only thing his girlfriend refuses to provide  
She waits in vain for the day when he will say those words she 
craves to receive 
She doesn't realize that the day will come 
Only he will say them with deceit
the second she she refuses to be used
he will repeat
"I Love you", "I love you", "girl you know I love you"

(Dedicated to the boyfriend who put me through the most pain and pleasure at the same time)


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SENTIMENT

Written in my eyes is a poem,
Of reflection of your sentiment,
That you cannot contain
And I cannot conceal!


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You and Me

You and me.
They’re two words I can’t seem to forget.
Even after I finally start to like someone other than you, and even after I finally 
start to get over you and move on, you’re still there.
It’s like, I want to forget about you and what we never had, but I just can’t, and I 
feel that there is still a part deep inside of me that still loves you.
That’s why I try to hide from you when I see you, I run away because I’m afraid 
that I’l'm start to love you again, and if I do I’l'm have to go through all the hurt and 
pain all over again… 
I just can’t do that.
It broke me into pieces before and half of me is still broken.
I can’t take the chance of breaking the half of my heart that is still left, because by 
then I would have completely disappeared.


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Reflection In a Mirror

Looking in the mirror,

disgusted by what I see.

Nothing more than a reflection

of what used to be me.

How did I become the person I am now?

What changed me so quickly?

I disgust myself.

Wreaking of hypocrisy.

Seeing myself with leprosy.

I can't accept this as me.

I've become depressed once or twice.

I've become a pest to myself, 

my own body lice.

I've become this image in a mirror

with a sad story to tell.

I am the creator of my own personal Hell.

I wish I could shave my past away

like I can the stubble on my face.

I wish I could wash this disgrace away

with just a little soap and water.

Why do I beat myself up?

Why do I make myself give up?

Why aren't I the person I used to be?

Why can't I go back to just being me?

I want this pessimism to crawl away and die.

I wish the person I've become wasn't one big lie.


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Drowning In Life

Little town in the boondocks
Little girl just waiting to grow up
People thought her life was perfect
Thought she was perfect, but she wasn't
She felt like an outcast
with her friends,
felt like an outcast
to the whole wide world,
felt like she'd burst
with all her troubles,
felt like she'd drown in her life

Perfect grades got her freedom
Horrible temper got her grounded
Couldn't keep up with her parents expectations

Perfect music got her first chair
Sharp tongue got her the hallway
Couldn't stop cursing her teachers and life

Perfect actions got her friends
Fights got her in the office with none
Couldn't keep all these friendship rules straight

So she started drowning in her life

Got in trouble everyday
Couldn't help it with all the rules to break
Started skipping classes, cutting school
Her grades went down the drain with her life
Ranaway, came back
Found out that life wasn't for her 
Couldn't keep anything straight
Couldn't do anything right
So she drowned in her life

Yeah, she drowned in her life


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Home, At Last

H                
O                  
M                 Safe
E                         I
                          Am
At last           Tonight
               Happy and calm
What took you so long to love me?
              


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you made.....

Just one look from your green eyes
your strong arms caught me as you
knocked me off my feet 
the way you smiled at me made me faint
with just one kiss from your lips 
you awake me from my fainting spell
As you spoke the words "I love you"
Butterflys appeared in my stomach
As you swept me off my feet 
and carried me to the bedroom 
I looked deep in your eyes 
and smiled a smile that said 
"I love you too"
As you layed me upon the bed gentle 
you made me feel safe
As you layed you body beside mine
you left me speechless
as I was till
I fell sleep with my head rested upon your chest


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Hate her

Hate her 
Hate her> (whisper)

School starts everyday
She keeps passing by me
Shoot her

I don’t know what to do 
She’s my worst enemy
Hate her

Chorus:
             Hate her
             She’s my worst enemy 
             Hate her
             She keeps bugging me every time
             Hate her
             She’s makes me feel sad

She keeps telling me everything
She seems soo friendly
Love her

I don’t know what she in mind
But I guess its something really mean
Hate her

Chorus:
            Hate her
            She’s my worst enemy 
            Hate her
            She keeps bugging me every time
            Hate her
            She’s makes me feel sad

The week keeps passing by
She’s been nice to me all week long
Hug her

I think she’s really changed
That’s a good sign
Like her


Chorus:
            Hate her
            She’s my worst enemy 
            Hate her
            She keeps bugging me every time
            Hate her
            She’s makes me feel sad

I don’t know it seems I can’t trust
She was my best friend but not anymore
Try hard
Oooooooooh

 Chorus:
            Hate her
            She’s my worst enemy 
            Hate her
            She keeps bugging me every time
            Hate her
            She’s makes me feel sad

Chorus:
            Hate her
            She’s my worst enemy 
            Hate her
            She keeps bugging me every time
            Hate her
            She’s makes me feel sad

Chorus:
            Hate her
            She’s my worst enemy 
            Hate her
            She keeps bugging me every time
            Hate her
            She’s makes me feel sad
            I just can stopppp 


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Insignificant

I don't mean to strip you're pride
But are your hands as empty as mine
Your starting to bend inside
So repent

Trust me when I ask you to believe 
That true love is never letting you see
And when forever ends 
In forgiveness is my resent

It is not a question of what's wrong
But what do you presieve as right
The blame I take as mine cuz
Every choice will have it's price

You could slit your wrist for spite
But it still wouldn't give you back your life
Your starting to understand how these shoes feel 
And how they fit

Your hands sting and bleed
some things run deeper than what they seem
I've suffered for your content
But it's all insignificant

The End


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Atmosphere of Why and How

There are moments
when I let the gun speak its mind
and there are times
when pills seem so inviting
There are times when running towards them
is what I want to do
The rush of life and death
all in one piece of lead
The taste of highs
life could never give itself
And then I could just melt away
fade away into the atmosphere
of why and how


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Anticipation

As she lies in darkness, she awaits.
She cries herself to sleep. Scars leave such pains.
She can't stay asleep, she has these nightmares.
She's misunderstood, but she's not insane.

She awaits the day that she will see peace.
She awaits that moment where the silence is alright. 
She awaits the time that girls see justice.
She hopes that someday her vision will be in sight.

As she watches the sun set
The anticipation is killing her.
All she needs is to escape,
But the chilling memories are like murder.

Anticipation is everywhere.
Though she's crying and it's late,
What she doesn't know is that the best cure for 
Anticipation is to wait.


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I Threw my Heart

I Threw my heart with my hand
In your direction it may land
make an effort to catch it
with your heart you can match it
yes you are my selection
to you is my affection
in this world I'm the best
if you wanna, take my test
what is there for you to think
make with me a lovely link
I'm always fond of you 
I want to hear the sound of you
let us live together darling
forever we will be loving.


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Like a Tomb

Goodbye now
Is this how you wanted me?
I cannot breathe
your memory
is simply choking me

You’re like a tomb
dark and dead
You put bad thoughts
into my head

You’re why I can’t sleep at night
You ruined my life
and ruined my mind
I curse the day
my heart took you in
I curse the day
you left it broken
Now I lay me down to sleep
Here I lay in this crypt you keep
You keep me here against my will
You’re the memory I cannot kill
One day I will
One day I’ll win
But for now it seems
that one day’s just a dream

You’re like a tomb
dark and dead
You put bad thoughts
into my head

All hope is wilted
a dead but overgrown hedge
On the top floor
I’m standing on the ledge
If I fall
I blame you
You caused me pain
the best you could do
The world is bleak
black and sad
You took all things good
and made them bad
You derive joy
from causing me
twisted agony

You’re like a tomb
dark and dead
You put bad thoughts
into my head

Six feet under
in the ground
Is where my spirits
can be found
There you’ll find them
bound and gagged
Clasping tightly
what I never had
You’ll find the fiber
of all my being
rapidly rotting
Ruins just smoldering
You’ll find me there
shattered and torn
Wishing that I
had never been born
You’re why I’m crying
why I’m laying here dying
why life just isn’t the same
You took my love and laughed at it
making my death a game


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Cancer

The tears, they keep streaming
my heartbreak keeps eating
away at my soul
nobody can get me
my heart is so empty
she left me all alone
I’m desperately pleading
and desperately needing
for my heart to start beating again
once again
my world’s a cyclone
I watch as my mind’s thrown
into a brick wall
I’m living in bedlam
I’m not sure if I can
get myself out
I’m losing who I am
I’m just so uncertain
of who I am now
I’m thinking in questions
and finding no answers
They’re spreading like cancer
Why can’t I forget her?
Why don’t I know how?
I wish there was something
that could just erase this
abyss I’m stuck in
I wish there was something
that could just replace this
and help me embrace 
this life once again


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I am a woman

I am a woman,
talented, beautiful, and different
intriguing, decisive, and allicient.
I am a woman,
intelligent, charming, and persistent
young, wise, and independent.
I am a woman,
strong, romantic, and understanding
mature, high maintance, and compromising.
I am a woman
patient, flattering, and advocate
glamorous, luminous, and fortunate.
I am a woman,
caring, sane, and high class,
giving, insecure, and a sass.
I am a woman.


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Our Love

I'd never known what love was 
I'd never had a clue 
I guess I'd never known because 
I hadn't yet met you. 
Our love was great 
As all love should be 
But now my love has turned to hate 
Because of what you've done to me. 
You tore me apart 
But even after all that you've put me through 
I'll admit that all the love in my broken heart 
is still waiting there for you.


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Friend

She appears really mean
But I guess she would change
Annoying people, making fun of them
That’s how she is

Everybody is mad at her
She’s rude and speaks offensive languages
She needs a friend
Who will it be?

Chorus:
             I don’t think it’s me
             I can’t face a rude girl
             But I guess I’m her only hope
             The girl who doesn’t go with the crowd
             And always been herself


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You Broke My Heart

You broke my heart
Now look at me.
Silently  Suffering
In my own Misery

What am I to do?
Where am I to go?
I'm lost without you.
I need you.

And now, silence.
There is no voice.
You no longer say a word.
But your actions tell me everything.

Why do I suffer? 
For something I did not do.
It was uncontrollable.
Yet I feel like dying.

Did you know,
That I cry
Every night
Because of you.

These painful thoughts 
Never leave me alone.
I constantly find myself
Pushing them away.

But I can't.
It hurts that much.
I know you're happier now.
But don't forget,

All we used to be.


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Sweet Reality

Stormy day inside my mind
Take a look what can you find
It's all in there hidden away
The frozen words I cannot say
Look at me don't you care
How I feel is it fair
Sweet Reality 
Cruel factuality
You look at it differently
But now it's all the same to me
Icy time inside my heart
Broken glass a work of art
It took so long to get this way
Pushed farther out day after day
Have you seen what you've done
Beating me down, was it fun
Sweet reality
Cruel factuality
You look at it differently 
But now it's all the same to me
I guess you never stopped to think
That day how low you made me sink
It hurts to know you were never there
It hurts to know you never cared
My sweet reality
Crushed by factuality
You look at it differently 
But now it's all the same to me
To me inside


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Nerdy Disease

This nerdy disease will bring me to my knees eventually
When all the hours spent have finally added up
I’ll have no other choice than to give up in life
This total lack of rest
Spent studying for a test
Is slowly leaving me weakened with time
All just a self-destructive pursuit to feed my mind


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How Does It Feel

Why do you stare at me
Am I supposed to stare back at you
Who are you anyway
Can I get to know you

I walk along this lonely street
Why is there no one here
The silence was so cold and dark
Don't surround me with your fears

You took my life away
How can I get it back 
I can't move from this place
I am so alone in here

Are you that shadow I always see
Is it you that give me this warm
Or is it just my imagination
I am suffered under this reddish storm

You had burn me alive under the fire
You did not like my roses 
It is so red that it makes you evil
Or is it my imaginations

But what happened to the eyes i used to see
Where has it gone to
Why does it change into an evil gaze
What happened to you

What had you done
You took all my life 
You took away that was meant for me
You took everything out of my sight

Gain Strength over my fears
It's my turn to haunt you
It is my revenge now
I want your blood, I want you

You won't get to see my usual eyes 
It will cover with total darkness
You will never see my smiles
It has been taken away

I heard your heart pounding
I can hear your scream in your selfless mind
This is how I felt when you hurt me
This is how I felt when you think you are right

Why do you run away
I thought you like the darkness
You love to torture someone else's heart
You love to torture my heart

I have a knife on my hand
It is filled with my revengeful blood
Are you afraid now
Will you try to escape now

Laughed all I want
It is my sweet revenge
I am always the one to blamed
Left you to get all the freedom

Now, it is your turn to bleed
It your turn to feel
To think what is real
This will make you sick

Hurt me all you want
Your heartless soul reminds me of your fear
Leave me in the dark anywhere
I will make sure you will stay there 

Evil heart I had developed in me
Can you feel me haunting your mind
You are cold, I wonder why
Try to find something you can't already find

So, how does it feel
Does it hurt your heart inside
That is how I felt
When you blamed every single thing to me

Don't go against my strength 
I will go against your fear
You had a weakness too
You will wish you had disappear

So how does it feel
Are you scared now
Are you upset
That's Too bad
It is not over yet...


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Why Won't She Listen?

I’m giving up
it’s a waste of time:
trying to convince you otherwise
Go ahead and fall for the same pathetic guy
who only uses you for what he can
He’s not a man
just a self-centered git
So when he takes your heart and breaks it
just like he did before
just remember I warned you not once
but twice
trying to be nice
and you chose to ignore the warnings
So when the wee morning hour comes
about a month or so from now
and you’re fighting
trying to type teary-eyed
just know that I told you so
and despite your stupid decision
I’ll still be there for you
because I love you my friend


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Dear Love

Love,
       How is it that you’re always on my mind? But never in my heart? Why is it that 
you haven’t found a place to park? You ride around free and sweet leasing those 
in need. Settle please and let me feel. My heart demands, my body needs. I 
found a guy that I think you’d like to meet. But scared, like me I think you might be. 
Scared to love him, because I don’t want to be hurt. But love him I do, this my 
worth. Help me love, find the words to explain my hidden emotions. Without 
being hurt, give me the strength to open the doors. I’m trying so hard and I really 
do care, but love seems too far away. Follow me love to the front door, you do the 
talking I can’t speak anymore.


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Dreaming a Dream

All he wants is to
live his life happily
All he wants is to
have his Love finally
All he wants is to
succeed and be wealthy
But all his wants
he’ll never get
He’s headed upstream
without a boat
So he’s swimming upstream
but forgot how to float
He’s dreaming a dream
he cannot live
He’s dreaming a dream
the world won’t give
He’s dreaming a dream
dreaming a dream
He’s dreaming a dream
dreaming a dream


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Romeo and Juliet

They just don’t get it
let’s runaway like Romeo and Juliet
come with me my sweet Capulet 
We can run away
to a better place
Where our families
won’t have to worry
about saving face
They just don’t care
They think love isn’t there
Why won’t they believe
I need you
and you need me?
Let’s runaway
to a better place
where our love can be free
Our love will keep us safe
We’re all each other needs
Flee with me
my sweet Capulet
and we can live
and grow old together


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Fairytales

Well you can take your fake fairytales
and send them to burn
in the depths of Hell
I don’t need them
They’re all misleading
You can take your books of lies
and you can take all your movies
that you fed to my young eyes
and eradicate them
because I hate them


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Discarded Treasure

I’m left forgotten
in the shadows again
Not in your thoughts
not on your mind
I’m abandoned here
all alone
trying to figure out
where to go from here
all on my own
You just discard me
like an unloved
former treasure
that no longer brings pleasure
to your heart
So I’m broken apart
and scattered around
I’m stumbling, hurt
and falling down
I’m nothing but torn
and tattered pages
you’ve written through the ages


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Breaking Out

I’m so sick of feeling tired. So tired of being undesired. It all keeps adding up and 
I’m sick of it. I’m breaking out. Letting go. Cutting loose. Being free. No more 
letting you keep me down, I’m tearing this wall down. I’m making my escape, I 
will not stay. I’m not the same man I was yesterday. If this could just make it 
through a month or two, I think I would finally be okay. A little voice outside my 
head, wanted to know why the sadness wouldn’t die? A question I couldn’t 
answer. Why? A wake up call. Something finally there to catch me in my fall. The 
frown is turning upside down. The clown is becoming happy. For reasons that 
cannot be explained, I feel pained no longer. As it goes away, I feel the change, 
as the happiness slowly grows stronger. The worst of thoughts, may not be here 
with me any longer. A bit of cheer, with a little luck, I now have a half-filled cup. Let 
today be the day that I stop letting the darkness win. Let today be the day that I 
fight, so that I will be happy again.


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Insecure Being

I am an insecure being
Insecure with myself
Insecure with people
Insecure with the world I live in
I question intentions
even my own
I question the intentions
of everybody I’ve ever known
I am an insecure being
I have a hard time trusting
what people say
what people want
what people do
Chances are
I have a hard time trusting you
Not because you’ve wronged me
but because you might
Not because you’ve harmed me
but because others
have been wronged
and harmed before
I am an insecure being
I question all of my abilities
I question all of my thoughts
I question everything I am
I question everything I am not
I am an insecure being


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Gripe and Groan

Thank-you so much
for all you never did
I was a grown-up
while you acted a kid
You’re a selfish brat
so self-absorbed
I gave you all I had
but you still wanted more
Nothing could ever please you
The world was not enough
I could give you God’s own thrown
and you would still find a way
to gripe and groan


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It's Funny

It's funny the way you walk
You past me by
You saw me there just now
But you pretend that you were blind

It's funny that you never talk to me
And it was as if I don't exist anymore
I thought we were used to talk so much
I guess you were not the one like before

It's funny that you ask me once to help you
But it was only for a while
The next day I said hi
But you did not say anything and walk by

It's funny the way you talk
You laughed at your friends when they joked
But you never laughed at mine
I felt like I want to blow

It's funny how you want to be famous
I was standing watching you struggle there
And if that one fine day comes
I can see your face everywhere

It's funny that we don't see each other
We liked to do things together
But things had changed lately
You just make things more harder

It's funny how we are so apart
Not to mention you ignore my messages i sent
I wonder if you still remembered all the things I'd done
But I guess you don't understand

It's funny that I don't care
I don't want to wait for you
I don't want myself to suffer because of this
And now, I don't like you


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INNOCENT FACE

A child so young and sweet
wondering would he rape me
at that time in her mother's
place
a child so young with an innocent
face
so scared when the devil appear
deep down inside, she cries a 
silent tear
and knowing she lost her flower
at a very young age
she keeps the secrets
locked up in a cage


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This is the End

So this is the end of you and me,
a desperate angel and Melancholy
I can’t take your company anymore,
so just please leave when I say goodbye
Don’t stand in my door and watch me cry
This is the evening that we both die
A run cut short by insincerity
The birthing of calamity
A dramatic ending to a tragic friend
It was good for a little while, 
but we both grew old to a little child, 
as toys unloved, unwanted, not needed
If these regrets could change our course,
would it be worth the effort?
I’ll wipe the slate clean of you and I
This is the day that we both die
The pain will pass as the days go by
Hope will shine once again
We both say we can still be friends,
but that never happens in the end
There’s always that uneasiness
That dreaded curse of old thoughts
and revealing old feelings
The remembrance of the fights we won
Wondering where the joy has gone
Questioning if what’s right was done


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All-Nighters

Self-destructive pursuit of life-long goals,
is how the story unfolds
Late nights,
gradually becoming early morning habits
Mental strife,
Accepting dedication and work instead of a social life
This exhaustion is a product of my own determined concoction 
An evil easily accepted if success results frequently
Though it may shorten length of life,
Though it may decrease overall happiness for the time being,
Eventually it will pay off,
and I shall be happier than any king


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17

Sitting at home all alone again
17 and still no friends
go hangout just me and myself
all alone, no one else 
just can’t fit in
no matter how hard I try
the world has left me to be by myself
solely a lonely guy


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Stitched At The Rear

Everything, now everything, ain’t good enough for you
You hate me, you hate your life
You hate everything I do

You wonder why, the reason why
Why we don’t get along

You look in the mirror, it’s all too clear
You blame me for your life

Nothings good, good enough for you
You hate my girl, you hate my world
You hate the life I live

I know, I know it all too well
I ain’t perfect, I never will be…
But let me be me


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I Just Don't Know

I’m here with you
but I sit here alone
just like every
rose has its thorn
You’re pushing me
so far away
This was supposed to be
such a good day
But instead I
I want to cry
and instead I
I feel like I
am dying
Do I press on
like I have?
Will your mind change
or will things just
continue to get bad?
You no longer
love me
But I love you
You no longer 
want me
But I want you
You will not cut
my heart’s threads
Instead you try
to tear them away
Should I just go
and do it for you
Or am I doing
the right thing?
I just don’t know
No
I just don’t know
I just don’t know
No
I just don’t know


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Happy Birthday

I’m locked inside my room away from the world. Closed within my shell, to 
enclose me in my Hell. And my mother wants to know if I need some pills as my 
feeling kills, the good part that’s inside of me. I’m trying not to think about all the 
bad things that are happening to me. I’m trying to make myself see the good 
things in the bad things that are surrounding me. The light is going out. The sky 
is growing dark. The days are growing cold. The nights are growing old. These 
feelings just keep embedding themselves in me. My family’s getting worried 
while my death is being hurried as I will myself to never let another in. I’m sitting 
in the corner so that you cannot see me, it’s the only way I can feel free. The only 
way to find some ease within my breathing. I’m just avoiding accepting this 
reality, that everything is fallacy. There is only an illusion, how everything is a 
delusion of what it appears to be. There’s a shower of my fears. A storm of what I 
don’t know. How does the story go? The loser still loses in the end. I’m stressing 
over confessing what I really feel and think. I am slowly sinking into the 
depression that is creeping up deep inside of me. There’s a feeling I can’t 
shake. Thoughts that I can’t take. A decision that I can’t make for the sake of 
being happy. I’m abandoned and alone. Running away from home inside, with 
no real reasons why, since the world that surrounds me is the reason that I cry.


Details | Free verse | |

Confusion

Don't confuse me
With these binding light
I don't want to see it anymore!

I am so lost
In a world where nothing matters
But I am stuck down here
And I don't to be stuck anymore!

Help me!
Help me please!
My soul begs for freedom

It is like living in hell
Living with fear
Living with the darkness
And I don't want to live like this anymore!

Don't confuse me
With all your empty thoughts
I don't want to see it anymore!


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Who's That Girl

Hey, look at her now
Did she grow up somehow
Just take a good look
At the girl who’s all alone in the nook.

Go and grab the chance
To take a glance
Cause once she will leave 
You can no longer give

She’s no longer the girl you used to know
You can tell it by the dress she just sew
She revised everything on her page
Can you recognize her new image?

Take a second look
I’ve grown up somehow
I’m not caught up in the hook
No longer alone in the nook.

Now is your only chance
To take her to dance
Cause tomorrow she’ll leave
You got no more chance to give





Details | Lyric | |

I Am You

I abhor you, I loathe you, I hate you.
I desecrate you, contaminate you, violate you.
I abominate you, detest you, despise you.
I execrate you, denigrate you, deprecate you.
I am you.


Details | Lyric | |

Epiphany

Letting go of insanity
Accepting what is reality
So life’s no what I wanted it to be
Let me make the best of what’s here for me

My delayed discovery:
Making the worst is simply misery

A revolution in my head
Finally getting out of bed
Tired of sleeping this life away
I’m tired of just wasting my days

So I’m unhappy with what you’ve given me
Well, thank God for epiphanies
It’s time to stop this masquerade 
It’s time to make some lemonade


Details | Lyric | |

He Doesn't Notice

We talk all the time,
But he doesn't know.
I love him with all my heart,
But he doesn't notice.
I try to hint it to him,
But he doesn't notice.
Will he ever know? I wonder.
Will we ever be together? I wonder.
Will he ever notice?
He has that baby look in his face.
I wonder if he notices that.
He doesn't notice that I love him,
And will always love him no matter what.
But...does he notice?


Details | I do not know? | |

WHAT

what did i do
for you to put me though this
what did i do for you to put ur hand on me
i think you must be crazy
you aint my father
so dont hit me

i dont think you understood me clearly
dont ever put your dang hands on me


Details | Lyric | |

I Forget

See what you did?
You split my emotions, 
Cut them, and kept them hid.

First you killed off my loneliness; 
Slit the throat of my sadness;
Then you tickled my trust 
Just like your selfish lust.

Second time around, you got to my brain
And wouldn't leave 'til it drove me insane.
Next, you slaughtered my happiness
And you tricked me with your restlessness.

You seemingly figured me out, read
Only the fascinating pages with little to be said.
I just figured you knew me better than that,
Enough to know despite tries, I won't come back.

I hope you know you helped, then broke us all
By lifting us, then letting us fall.
Always knew I'd remember you, but not like old times.
You let me down at the drop of a dime.

You shattered the strength I built;
Stomped on the mat of guilt,
But it doesn't kill me, no , not this.
I forget every tie my hand gets a kiss.


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Asking Out

I’m sitting here in nervous anticipation
Will I do it today?
A melting pot of emotions,
some good, some bad
Will I work up the courage?
I guess well wait and see (I guess it’s all up to me)
The outcomes are running through my head
as I’m laying here in bed
Yes
No
Maybe
I just don’t know
only time can tell
Lingering doubts in my mind
are briefly washed away
with small glimpses of hope
Please don’t let me down
It’s happened so many times before
Please don’t let me down
I can’t take being let down anymore
I hope and pray everything works out
Crazier things have happened to me before
Just give it a chance
Give me a chance
Just give me one last chance to live


Details | Lyric | |

Love...

Love is the absence of the power to control ones emotions.
Jumping into something with no intention or the ability of giving full devotion.
Neither of the two being able to handle the situation,
just taking it upon themselves without a moments hesitation.
No, this is not really love, just a mere infatuation.


Details | Lyric | |

Losing My Life Tonight

My eyes are crying
My heart is dying
My soul bleeds tonight

My stomach is churning
My mind is burning
I'm losing my life tonight


Details | Verse | |

What I Have To Say

I cry my tears
But they are mistaken

For rain

I write my words
But they are mistaken

For outlets

They may be outlets
But you are mistaken

Here's why:

I do not write
To vent to space

The emptiness of the world
As I hear nothing but air

I cry to be heard
Though no one will listen

I give a shoulder
When someone tells me their story

But no one asks for mine

I am shrugged off after I have listened

But what about you?
When have you listened?

Given me advice I have never gotten before?
When have I received even a hint

Of thanks?

What am I, but the words I type on a keyboard
To be read by the public, but never really understood

Who am I, but a person behind
Yet another username

Am I to be cast out of mind
As easily as a Saturday morning cartoon?

Will no one listen
When I have problems of my own?

I will never tire of helping those I care about
Through their pains, and helping them succeed

But I would also like
To be heard in return

To be helped as I have helped

To be understood as I have understood

To be more than a shoulder to rest on
When my Earthly cares weigh down on me

I want to be more
Than a figure in the crowd

More than a writer
With no one to read my words

I want to be noticed
Heard for what I have to say


Details | Lyric | |

Skin Deep

when you look 
you see nothing 
but the girl you love to hate 

to you she's just a closed book 
who's exsistance is abhorring 
to you who's nothing but great 

but when i look in the mirror 
i see a soul that is on fire 
and a girl who's willing to fight 

to get even one step nearer 
to be all she aspire's 
on the night her life ignite's 

because beauty takes you nowhere 
you end up in a heap 
of nothing but the girl 
that you used to be 

you have to be willing to bear 
that beauty's only skin deep 
you have to hand over the pearls
and get up off your knees 

because life doesn't let you weep 
and life just come cheap 
you've got to take a flying leap 
because beauty's only skin deep


Details | Lyric | |

Of and For Myself

on these sunny days
it never crossed my mind;
a million questions,
diluted and forgotten

giving and taking
of and for myself
giving and taking and
giving and taking
of and for myself

Winding around you,
your lovesick little fool
when I think of it
just enough, but not too much

giving and taking
of and for myself
giving and taking and
giving and taking
of and for myself

you, you were shameless
and I was complacent
how could we have known?
how could we have ever known?

giving and taking
of and for myself
giving and taking and
giving and taking
of and for myself


Details | Lyric | |

Crush

I’m sitting here in nervous anticipation. Will I do it today? A melting pot of 
emotions: some good, some bad. Will I work up the courage? I guess we’ll wait 
and see. (I guess it’s all up to me.) The outcomes are running through my head 
as I’m laying here in bed. Yes. No. Maybe. I just don’t know, only time can tell. 
Lingering doubts in my mind are briefly washed away with small glimpses of 
hope. Please don’t let me down. It’s happened so many times before. Please 
don’t let me down, I can’t take being let down anymore. I hope and pray 
everything works out. Crazier things have happened to me before. Just give it a 
chance. Give me a chance. Just give me one last chance to live.


Details | Narrative | |

Untitled #6 / The boy

The boy heard the familiar tune
wafting through the radio at midnight
as he lay alone in his bed, enshrouded
in darkness – “to be a rock and not erode”
cautioned the singer, but the boy
could not help but wonder
who his girl was making love to that night
and he could not help but cry.


Details | Rhyme | |

Self Despise

Leave.
No, stay.
Hidden behind this interleave.
Make all the bad things go away.
All the lies given to me.
Fed by my own.
And as much as I would like to disagree.
I remain with this knowledge, all alone.

I turn head tricks.
Confusing the intelligent.
Giving you twice the pain.
For twice the licks.
Given to you.
For false sentiment.
So please let your apology refrain.
Your lies are the only thing that seems to spew.

Stay.
Don't go.
Living in my world of disarray.
Leaving these words to sow.
I love to hate my flaws.
Afraid they'll harm you, though.
Held back by my own clause.
Thinking this river is too tough to row.

Leave.
Get away.
Your lies make me heave.
I don't want you to stay.
I should appreciate you.
I could accomplish that.
Considering you are me in everything you do.
If there was such thing as peace in this combat.

Go.
Don't stay.
Your true colors now show.
Held captive beneath the tray.
Lying and deceiving.
While I lied and tried to hide.
Always the one receiving.
All the things I hold inside.


Details | Rhyme | |

Eye Of The Beholder

If i may ask why do you get high
You choose to look at the world through red glossy eyes
You use your substance to block out what is real
To ease all the pain and discomfort that you feel
Why can't you just accept things for the way they are
Can you not see that your life is falling apart
you say you control the substance but deep down it controls you
It plays a major role in everything that you do
Step back and take a look at what you've become
You put yourself in a pit just to have a little fun
Look at all the time,trouble,and energy at which you gave
You've traded your independence for a lead role as a slave
Well let me ask you why do you stay stay sober
Tell me whats so bad about being a stoner
You accept and belive everything society say's
And choose not to research things for yourself
Do you think you can gain all uderstanding and knowladge
By reading some books and going to collage
Why must you judge those who make diffrent decsions
You really think You can help me through rehabs and prisons
We can both sit here and debate all we'll do is get older
The truth lies behind the eye of the beholder


Details | Lyric | |

Thank God I Didn't Do It

Staring at the bottle
in my brother’s closet
This is the point
at which I’ve finally lost it
Liquid escape, intoxicating release
You’re the one I need
the only thing that will keep me from knowing
this disease is preying on me
She left me for no reason
as the Summer season just began
Then she blocked me out completely
pretending I was dead
Failing to see
that what she did to me
had killed all joy inside my head
and made me live a life of misery
No real explanations,
only excuses and attacks
on who and how I was
I need this one release
I beg you please
bring relief however brief it may be
All I want is to fall asleep
and not dream of her
All I want is to pass some time
and not think of her
All I want is to finally be free
from this grip she still has on me


Details | Lyric | |

Adolescence

Screaming at my adolescence.
Screaming for it to shut up.
To be strong.
And to never give up.

It refuses to pay any notice.
Any care.
So I sit and wait.
And watch all my people stare.
Quit being yourself.
Quit being you.
Your angst is riddled.
Into everything you do.

Yelling for my childhood.
Telling it to be good.
Yelling for it to grow up.
Telling it that adulthood couldn't come soon enough.

It refuses to listen.
Refuses to mind.
Living life one moment to the next.
Leaving my life behind.
Be strong and don't give in.
Be you and don't listen.
But things are so hard to accomplish.
When things are generally anything but what you wish.

Screaming for any ounce of myself.
Screaming for any pound of recollection.
Why am I not surprised..?
To find myself empty handed.


Details | Lyric | |

Peaches n' Cream

The world isn’t always peaches n’ cream
It’ll make you cry
It’ll make you scream
You will fall down
You will be bruised
You will feel torn
You will lose
You have to pick yourself up,
brush off the dirt.
Wipe off the blood,
put the hurt in the back of your mind
You’ll learn in time that life’s not fair
You’ll learn in time that not everybody cares
So when you finally see the perfect world you thought existed,
has become sick, unfair, and twisted,
When you finally see that not everything, everyone, or even life, is exactly as it first 
seemed,
know that the world isn’t always peaches n’ cream


Details | Lyric | |

Good & Bad

You are my foe
You are my ally 
You are my hero 
You are my bad guy 

You are my sunshine 
You are my moon
You are my 90° weather 
You are my typhoon

You are my highs
You are my lows 
You are my band-aid
You are my blood when it flows

You are my good 
You are my bad 
You are the worst 
You are the best girlfriend 
I ever had 




Details | Lyric | |

Down Today

People get me down sometimes.

My buddy isn't talking to anyone now,
All because my best friend had a cow.

My secret is such a shining star..
Probably doesn't even realize I watch it from afar.

My beloved is in the hospital, 
But still thinking of me, (Bless his soul).
All he can say is ,"Ugh."
I only wish I could give him a healing hug.

My honored is finally getting wed!
I regret I can't go as I crawl into bed.

I gaze at the sky so full of tears
For me. The same sky that was so full of cheer.
Even the morning sun with all its glory
Only behols these sad little stories.

I only wish I could do better..
And cover the cold ones with my sweater.

I'm outside and fear the cold night.
I just hope my loved ones are alright.
I just want them to be happy, so to say,
Unlike me (I had a bad day).

Cold nights get me down sometimes.


Details | Lyric | |

Out On A Limb

If I told you how long I’ve liked you, what would you say?
Would we still be friends?
I could go out on a limb,
and see if you saw me as more than a friend,
but what if you didn’t?
What if finding out scared you away?
Could I handle rejection along with your loss?
Then again, what if by some grace of God,
you felt the same, but were always too timid to admit?
I can let this feeling pass away, 
but I know from history that it will comeback another day,
Maybe not tomorrow, but it will be back, 
it’s a feeling I never seem to truly kill,
and until I find out the truth, I don’t think I ever truly will


Details | Lyric | |

Rip It Out

I’ll take my heart and rip it out,
This way I won’t have to feel
And if I cannot feel,
Then maybe this pain won’t seem so real
Without it screaming in my chest,
Crying out to feel loved
Without it fighting to be seen,
Attacking me to be set free,
Life won’t be as bad as it seems
Is living like a zombie,
Never feeling anything,
Better than living in a constant state of agony?


Details | Lyric | |

I Am Who God Made Me

I am who God made me
That’s all I have to say
If you have any compliments or complaints
all you have to do is pray


Details | Lyric | |

Love

You came into my life
now im your future wife
You taught me how to love
I thank the one up above
You were there when I was down
baby your the reason I've turned my life around
You told me love doesnt hurt thats the truth
now I'm nothing without you
You asked me if I loved you
I told you I do
I have dreams and so do you
my dreams arent complete unless im with you
Yes, you have haters everyone does
their just mad because they cant have my love
We had bad times and good ones too
nobody can love you like I do
You are my angel from up above
thank God he sent me one to love
You are the best thing that happened to me in the world
Im always and forever gonna be your babygirl


Details | Lyric | |

Fall '05

Digging through the trash I find inside myself,
discovering more and more things to hate.
I hate the way I give and give,
letting others use my generosity.
I hate the way I’m always too blind to see,
that so many are just using me.
I hate the way I let my friends go.
There is so much I wish I could let them know.
Like how much I love them,
how much they mean,
everything they’ve done for me.
I hate how I can never open up to others in reality,
but in this cyberworld, my mind and heart are on display.
I hate how when I finally try,
I stumble over myself,
growing even shyer.
I hate how when I say what I mean,
others don’t mean what they say.
I hate how I can’t change who I have become,
how the life in me just feels like letting go.
I hate how I see no hope,
how I see no love.
I hate how I find myself doubting an existence above.
I hate the way I keep just wasting away,
fretting over an inability to find a new love.
I hate that I feel.
I hate that I want to love and be loved.
I hate how I apologize for finally speaking my mind,
for finally standing up for myself.
I hate how I keep regressing into depression,
how I never seem to find a way out.
I hate how I hate myself,
and I hate how I am afraid it may never change.
I hate how I fear everything will be exactly the same.


Details | Lyric | |

This Kind Heart

Curse this kind heart, 
No good comes from it
When it feels,
I fall apart
It never heals,
It wants what can’t be real
The hours I’ve wasted,
The time I’ve spent,
I waste it on them,
The ones who want no help
I waste it on them,
Those stuck in Life
I waste it on them,
Those who live in strife
Sleepless nights,
Ceaseless fights
All in vain,
Because they just keep causing themselves pain


Details | Lyric | |

09/02/06

What is happening to me?
I was doing so good
It’d been a couple of months
since I was last in this mood
Now I’m stuck in this prison
guarded by memories
sent here to torture me
I have no happy place to go
There’s a pressure building up inside
God how hard it is to hide
I’m clawing at my face
and I have no happy place to go
I’m stuck in this rapid regression
into a slow growing depression
but “why?” is the real question
Friends are too hard to find
I have nobody to call mine
Self-esteem is just a dream to me
I have no faith in myself
There are ever-present doubts in my mind
I am so bored
I am so tired of being alone 
I question my sanity
Maybe I really do need happy pills?
If they can make these things inside disappear
what’s there to fear? 
My arms should be open wide
I’m not living,
just merely existing
Stuck on a merry-go-round 
of profound depression


Details | Lyric | |

Depressing Blessing

It’s a depressing blessing
I am finally able to write
sure, I’m losing the fight with unhappiness
but a momentary triumph is mine
as I pour out what I’m feeling
as I’m revealing what is on my mind
if only the victory weren’t so brief
I’d never need to write again
I’d never need to be loved
I’d never need to feel accepted
I’d never have to face rejection
I’d never have to notice my imperfections
I’d never be unhappy again


Details | Lyric | |

This Smile Lies

this smile lies 
it’s hiding my demise
disguising my inner pain 

these days I spend at home
friendless and alone
wishing for a time never truly known

this smile lies
it’s hiding my demise
disguising my inner pain

it greets you in the morning
says hi in the day
but it’s only hiding my dismay


the sun vanished from my skies long ago
but my smile hides it so no one will know
about all this pain I keep deep down below

this smile lies 
it’s hiding my demise
disguising my inner pain

it deceives you each day
concealing my distress
as I suppress all of my pain

this smile lies 
it’s hiding my demise
disguising my inner pain


Details | Rhyme | |

Reality

I can do better
without your help
I can do better 
all by myself
You leave me at home
and its not cool
You make me feel 
like a dumb fool
i wait for your call
but you never think to dial
i used to love you, 
you even made me smile
but now all i have are tears, 
tears that roll down my cheek
i used to be strong 
but with you i'm constantly weak
I'm sorry i have to leave you
but its something your making me do
because you've pushed me to the edge
you're making me leave you
but i do love you
and i always will i swear
but i feel I'm the only the only one
in this relationship and its not fair


Details | Lyric | |

Thief

There is a character who waits in the dark.
He is coniving, sneaky, and greedy.
Nobody warned me he would tear me apart.
We were in love, but this is our story.

He showed me that I can be strong.
He said I can open my eyes and see.
He lured me to a place I could belong.
I wasn't like them; to me, he was trustworthy.

Now I know there's a thin line between love and hate,
Little difference between partner in crime and pawn.
How typical. You use me as your bait,
Have your fun, and now you're gone.

At times I wonder what would happen if we'd never met.
In the end, did he help me at all?
God, how I wish I could forget
Because the higher you go, the harder you fall.

It's beyond me how you could love then lie.
You healed me but somehow left me broken.
I didn't think you, of all people, would make me cry.
Little did I know my heart was being stolen.


Details | Lyric | |

Now That You're Here With Me

A breath of relief 
now that you’re here with me
A sense of peace 
now that you’re here with me
All is well
now that you’re here with me
I can rest at ease
now that you’re here with me


Details | Rhyme | |

And I know...

You left.
Without saying goodbye.
You left.
Without giving us a try.

You returned.
You came back.
You returned.
To make us pick up the slack.

But I know...

You'll leave.
Once again.
You'll leave.
Like you did back then.

And then you'll return.
Yes, like always.
Yes, you'll return.
Plaguing the rainy days.

And I know...

I'll leave.
This place.
I'll leave.
Your face.

I won't return.
I can't return.
I won't return.
To watch you burn.

And you don't know...

I left.
Right after you.
I left.
Right on cue.

I didn't return.
I didn't come back.
I didn't return.
To keep you on track.



Details | Lyric | |

...But Not Like You

Purity
It's all I ever wanted
Honesty
It's what you had lost
Loving me 
For you came so hard
But leaving Me 
Came so easy

Why do I even try 
To be with you
There are others in this world
Who shunned me away
But not like you

Cut my wrists
Leave me bleeding
Only slits
What's the harm
I'm off the grids
To watch your slander
Your walking quick
To avoid me

Why did I even try
To be with you
There are others in this world
Who shunned me away
But not like you
NOT LIKE YOU


Details | I do not know? | |

Say

No more talking
Forget everything around you
Your words so warming
Your touch so calming

Promise to love me 
every waking moment
hold me and guide me 
show me freedom

Share with me
one love one lifetime
lead me through life
where love is blind 

Say you’ll always be with me
From now until forever
Show me your world 
and I’ll let you into mine 
say you’ll love me

Everyone but you seems wrong
Every time I feel
Every time I breathe
I want more

Your lips are warm 
My head feels light 
MY body wants to dance 
I feel I was born tonight
starting anew
with you

Everything I want is here 
the man I love is near
no star can compare 
To the love I feel for you 

You’ve taught me new worlds
and new ways to dream 
I can’t control my feelings 
I’m in to deep to care

The world fades away
When I look into your eyes
You can see the things I’m feeling 
I’m floating in mid air

Say you need me with you
now and always 
Say you love me
for I love you.


Details | Lyric | |

Numb

Can you help me escape my misery?
So frustrated I could scream
I want out,
to be free,
be happy with what I see
I’m tired of this lack of confidence,
the ever shrinking self-esteem
The constant worrying,
an inability to relax
Just make this sick feeling go away
Anxiety attacks my inner being
I don’t want to see my dreams fade
I won’t know what to do
I don’t know how to stay sane
I’m feeling so numb right now


Details | Lyric | |

Sleeping in Forever

Don’t wake me, I’m sleeping in forever.
Just let me rot and die from the inside out. 
I’ve given up on life.
Let me bask in my heartache, let me die from this heartbreak.
I just want to be alone, lock it all up inside myself.
Don’t try to make me smile, if I do it’s a lie.
Just leave me alone so that I can slowly die. 
I can’t eat. 
Maybe every bit of grief will disappear with every bit of me? 
Stuck in a prison I cannot escape. 
Painful memories are keeping me at bay.
I am slowly drowning in this flood of empty feelings.
Slowly freezing from the ice growing on my heart. 
I struggle with my convictions, I need an escape. 
Is relief at the end of this bottle? 
Can I make it all go away?
The answer is no, nothing will do.
I’m stuck here in this Hell, as I drive those I love away.
I’m stuck here in my prison as I beat myself up over the past.
I’m stuck here wondering how much longer everything, 
including myself, can last?


Details | Lyric | |

Happy Face

Put on the happy face for everybody else’s sake
Make them think you’re a-okay
Make them think that everything’s fine
that you’re as happy as you’ve ever been
But deep inside is where you hide everything you really feel
Let it all simmer for awhile hoping it doesn’t boil
Just keep it all with you so they don’t have to worry
Let it all slowly eat away at every fiber of you being
while everybody thinks you’re so happy that you could sing
Just keep it all where it belongs
deep inside yourself
Don’t burden others with your troubles
Why kill their good moods?
Just put on your happy face	
so that nothing seems out of place


Details | Lyric | |

The one

Love it really does hurt
But sooner or later you will find 
The one
The one that comes up to you 
and grabs you by the wast
and is not shy and doesn't hold back
The one who kisses you first
The one who you trust
The one who gives you respect
The one who loves you and can show it
The one that when your mad at him
gives you this grin and grabs you and wont let go
The one who doesn't flirt or cheat
The one who you finally figure out 
is you one and only


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My Final Goodbye

One last kiss, that's all I ask
But will you give, this simple task?
To leave is hard, and you don't care
But all you wanted was one last stare.
I wish we loved, the way we used to
all I wanted, was to stay with you.

So I guess that's it, I guess we're through
The love we had just wasn't true.
One last time to tell you why
But all I can do is say goodbye.

Another day to touch your face
Just one last kiss, one more taste.
I want to tell you, like before
If I could tell you, I need more.
But once again, you don't care
If only you knew, you are my air.

So I guess that's it, I guess we're through
The love we had, just wasn't true.
One last time to tell you why,
but all I can do is say good-bye.


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Can't Escape

I’m breaking free
you rope me in
I’m finally leaving
you lock me in
there’s no escape
I cannot win
I’m overpowered by your might
your eyes pierce my soul
you make me feel whole
even if the feeling’s brief
you keep bringing me in
your smile lies
but after a thousand tries
I’m still here with you
you look so sweet
you’re so discreet
everything I could never have
a dream come true
I’m sitting here thinking of you
and all the promises you’ll never keep
all the hearts you’ll break
all the lives you’ll take
all the time you’ll steal
all the wounds you’ll never heal


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Why?

Why?...

Why do you say you love me, just to bring me tears? 
Why do you hit me so hard, just to find pleasure in my fears?
Why do you act so stubborn, but with your friends you're cool?
Why do you treat me bad at home, but change when we're at school?
Why?
Why would you kiss my lips, if they're feeding me posion?
Why would you hold my hand, when you don't even give a damn?
Why would you let me trust you, and you knew you did me wrong?
Why wouldn't you tell me the secrets you've kept for so long?
Why?
Why can't you treat me better, like the way I treat you?
Why cant you love me like before, the way I still love you?
Why can't we be normal, the love we used to have?
Why can't we go back to that, to what everyone else still has?
Why?
Why is it you act like that, like you don't even care?
Why is it you're always right, even though you know its unfair?
Why is it you always have a reason, a reason you weren't there?
Why is it you were gone, when I needed you to care?

Why?


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Story Of Our Love

10 months ago
in a couple days
i knew from that moment
id love you in so many ways

you said you didn't know me
but you had my screen name
God put it there for sure
cuz he was tired of the same bad Boehm

since the very first day
staying up all night
i knew that i would love you
with not one bit of fright

i couldn't tell you
tell you how i felt
because how was i to know
if i too made your heart melt

we talked for hours
but still you didn't care
i wanted to so bad
but i just didn't dare

4 months later..
i made a birthday wish
i wanted you to love me
but you wouldn't cause of tiff

i ignored you for a month
thinking that would hurt you
but still you never called
and still i was stuck like glue

finally i got your IM 
the same day i thought of you
wen you said you missed me 
i knew you were giving clues

soon i had the courage
the courage to tell you the truth
i told you how i loved you
surprisingly  you did too

one month later ..
i left for camp with a sad return
you told me you cried
because what your family had learned

i hated i couldn't be with you
wen your mom found out
i knew how you felt
i knew all about

one more thing to share
our moms were the same
finally another to talk to
no more did i hide in shame

August the 17th
the first day we met
i looked into you eyes
and had not one regret

still i loved you 
not an ounce less
i knew right there 
i was surely blessed

Sept. 8th
the best day of my life 
you finally opened up to me 
and asked me to be your wife

another month had passed 
our love only getting stronger 
i just wished this would continue
for soo much longer

soon our friends found out
asking questions each day
wanting to know why 
and how long we would stay
 
1:00 in the morning ...
a night  to remember 
you know what we did
this warm night of November

now its December  (tomorrow)
and i love you even more
I'm glad you love me so much
even though I've been called a whore

10 years from now..
i see the future in your eyes
i know that one day
forever you will be mine


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My Reality

I swear,
I am my own worst enemy, 
my biggest critic,
 my number one killer
I don’t know what’s happened to me
as I used to be
optimistic and happy
I never used to be this way
They say people change
but I forgot myself was included
and now I’m watching
as everything I used to be
is slowly diluted away
When does life go on?
When do I snap out of it?
I’m tired of
this depressing fit
I’m holding on
to what I can’t have
I’m still loving strong
the girl I can’t have
I’m a mess
I’m so messed up
I’m under stress
I’m so stressed out
I need her
but she doesn’t need me
It’s a cruel world
that I call my reality


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Love Is

Love is something you feel,
not an object or a place. 
It's more than just a feature, 
on another pretty face. 
Love is a sign of emotion, 
shown in a hug or kiss. 
It's something that lasts a lifetime, 
something you'll never forget. 
Love is more than a word,
with just a simple meaning. 
It means more when you show it, 
to the person you are feening. 
Love is what you share, 
in a bond within two people. 
It's something you hold on to, 
until your old and gray with wrinkles.


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Better Man

Please don’t lie
Just tell me that you secretly want the other guy
I can see it in your eyes
Every time he passes by
Give it to me straight,
He’s the one you want to date
The better man will win
I just wish for once I could be the one to win
But here I am, sure to be losing once again 


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No Voice

I watch the summer turn to fall
Then winter sets in
It’s been a year
When will I forget?
The crumbled leaves,
now covered in snow,
remind me of how I wish this wasn’t so
My life goes on,
but my mind cannot
I never wanted to say good-bye,
but life gave me no choice
I tried to speak,
and found no voice


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Not About Love

This isn't about love.
Nope, not at all.
This isn't about heart break.
Not at all.

I'm not in love.
Not one bit.
I've never experienced heart break.
Not even a little bit.

Sixteen years and not one person.
Not one man.
Sixteen years and not one kiss.
Not one smooch.

This is not about love.
I've never had it.
This is not about lust.
Never experienced it.

So while you're crying.
While you're heartbroken.
Pardon my ignorance.
Pardon my apathy.

And while you're so happily in love.
While you're swooning.
Pardon my ignorance.
Pardon my cynicism.

Because this isn't about love.
Not one frigging bit.
This isn't about love.
Not even a little bit.

This sucks.
Every last bit.
This sucks.
Down to the littlest bit.


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Circles

Drowning in your perfections,
Strangled by your deceptions,
I am waiting for the truth and lies to be sifted.

I have known you longer than you me,
You watch me, but cannot see me.
You reach me, but cannot touch me.

Overwhelmed by your expectations,
Suffocated by your wishes,
I am never going to get to the corner of this circle.


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Restless Night

Pacing through the hall
scratching at my face
Trying to force thoughts
into a happy place

Failing to believe
that I could ever achieve
what I want in life
and who I want to be

Running fingers through my hair
wishing I was there by your side
Finally able to feel
Finally feeling alive		

I keep it all inside
the demons that haunt me everyday
No matter how hard I try,
they never go away


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I Don't Need It!

I’m at my wit’s end
The molecular formulas
the electron configurations
are killing all sensations of living that I ever had
A seemingly unbeatable force
backed by that foe from the East
as he manipulates and propagates this vicious cycle of ill-instruction
in which he tests the knowledge of that which is never taught
I find myself caught in this trap
I’m wrestling with pages of notes
all while in desperate need of a nap
Why do I need to know how oxygen bonds to carbon
in order to diagnose an illness?
Or in order to tell if a bone is broken or not?
I don’t!
That’s just it!
All of this mindless, structural knowledge, I don’t need it!
Once I’m in the true school of higher-learning,
where I’ll get the real tools to future success
I’ll forget it all
in order to learn what I really need to know
so that I may help my fellow man


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Lost In Thoughts

Each day feels like a dream
As I'm lost in thoughts of you, 
My dream still won't end 
Because I can't accept were through.

You always made me happy
I loved to make you smile,
But still I'm lost in thoughts of you
My mind scattered in a pile.

Every moment spent with you
Is another memory to cherish,
It's so hard to believe 
Our love was so quick to perish.

Lost in thoughts of you 
As another day soon passes,
How will it be next year
When I'm alone between my classes?

I miss you more and more
As I regret all that I've done,
If only I could take it back
To avoid this awful shun.

The good times and the bad
All the times we had fought,
I still can't see me with out you
Still I'm lost in thought.

It gets harder each and every day
The more we grow apart,
The love we both had shared
More than music, it was art.

Finally I have realized
That I miss us even more,
Lost in thoughts of you
I must leave out the door. 

Still I don't understand
Our love was so true,
How could it disappear
In lonely thoughts of you?

More and more I dream
Of the day things will change,
Thoughts of you keep coming
I want the days to be the same.

I believe someday soon
My lost thoughts will become true,
And we will live together
I'll be your Tigger, you my Pooh.


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They

I don't understand why they talk about me
Is it because I'm different, white, and maybe too skinny?
Or maybe because I'm not fake like you,
Well i'm sorry I'm better than you and your "Crew."
Is it the fact I'm a little bit crazy,
Could it be that sometimes i'm lazy?
At times you're my friend,
But my heart you won't mend.
So make up your minds,
Cause you've had enough time.
Possibly cause i'm not on your level,
Well what do you want, another gold medal?
You all put me down like I'm not worth it,
Well I'm tired of hearing all your bullsh--.
Sometimes i'm wrong, I'll admit that,
But you don't have an excuse to be such a brat.


Details | Rhyme | |

Fifteen

Oh Say, can you see?
What it's like at fifteen,
Hair's greasy gleem,
Pimples burst in the night...

What so self-consciously
We hide,
By Clearasil's cosmetic paste,
Gave truth to our fear,
That our friends might 
Whisper in each other's ear...

"See that mountain on his nose?
And he hopes nothing shows!
O, say he's a jerk,
If he thinks that stuff'll work...

Soon a crater will lie there,
And he hopes no one will care,
Distracted by his hair's greasy gleem,
Yet we will all stare...

At that sad looking face,
He looks like a disgrace...
A teen leper for sure,
Until they fine a sure cure

For that ghastly teen curse,
And this will be the last verse....

One day he will outgrow,
That fear and he will then know,
That a smile is the best distraction,
And lead to female attraction.


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Oh What I Would Do

I would take you by the hands
and stare into your eyes.
Tell you how I love you
and kiss you by surprise.

Wrap my arms around you
hold you tight and secure.
Rest my head on your chest
listen to a heart so pure.

Place my fingers on your cheek
pressing up face to face.
Notice the beauty deep inside
seeing through your warm embrace

Sinking into your soul
as I melt with every word.
The things I'd whisper in your ear
romanticism you've never heard.

As I wait for that day
When I'll finally get to say.
Oh what I'd do for you
The wonders to pursue.

Lay you on your stomach
and massage off the pain.
Releasing all your anger
as my hands ache in strain.

Hold you in my arms
as the day turns to dark.
Sit in front of the fire
until the very last spark.

Tuck you into bed
and watch you as you sleep.
The more and more I want this
the harder I tend to weep.

And as the morning comes
I make your favorite meal
with only an hour of rest
your smile makes me heal.

As I wait for that day
When I'll finally get to say.
Oh what I'd do for you
The wonders to pursue.

Treat you like no other
as if you're all that matters.
Kiss you oh so gently
when life begins to shatter.

I'll help you to undress
after a long day of work.
Run your bubble bath
and wash your dirty shirt.

Put on some soul music
as you're walking down the stairs.
Pull you close to me
and dance away our fears.

Love you as the years go by
when soft skin turns to wrinkles.
But when I look into your eyes
they still have that twinkle.

As I wait for that day
When I'll finally get to say.
Oh what I'd do for you
The wonders to pursue...


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Once I Was, But Now I Am...

Once I was alone
But now I am with you, 
Once I needed a friend 
To tell my whole life to. 

Once I was afraid 
to start over new, 
But now I have the courage 
To be me, and not you. 

Once I was belittled 
By the friends I thought I had, 
But now I am on top 
Of the good, not the bad. 

Once I was so weak 
But now I speak my mind, 
Once I was put down 
And always left behind. 

Once I was a child 
Left alone in the dark, 
But now I have grown to be 
A fire, not a spark. 


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Letter

Stamped envelope
mailed letter
I’ll tell myself
things will only get better

I wait patiently
on my hands and knees
Awaiting your harsh reply
As I take it with ease

Someday
maybe
This is will go away
and I will be
Safe 
Beyond my own pain
Safe
Past this guilty domain
Safe
From my empty disdain

These lies
Set forth from you
Made to paralyze
I take this to my grave

Stamped envelope
mailed letter
I sent this for hope
for the better

Someday
maybe
This is will go away
and I will be
Safe 
Beyond my own pain
Safe
Past this guilty domain
Safe
From my empty disdain

So unpredictable
So unstable 
So I fall to my knees
broken down
do to me as you please

I have no shame
No guilt
Set forth a fire in my name
in which forgery was built

Insecure melodies
Will it stop choking me?
Promises mailed and sent
Faith and grace were lent

Will it ever go away?
Make me Safe
Safe 
from myself
Safe 
away from you
Safe from everything
you never claimed to be true
Make it safe
Make it home


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Sisters I Never Had

Through our ups and downs
Our thicks and our thins,
We always pulled together 
Every game we would win.

Laughter and joy
Tears turned to sweat,
I love each one of you
Not a time I'll regret.

You're all there for me
As I'll be here too,
Miles can't take away
My memories of you.

Together as one
We have all grown to be,
The love I have for you
Is deeper than the sea.

We stand in a circle
As we make a pact,
I love you forever
And that's a fact.

I'm sorry to leave
On such a short note,
Just never forget me
Or these words I wrote.

And always remember
The good times and bad,
You're all in my heart
For being the sisters I never had.


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Who I Am

I’m lost within myself
There’s nothing I can see
There’s nothing inside that reminds me
of all I strived to be
I question my religion
I bathe in indecision
I’m stuck in this collision
of who I am and who I want to be
I’m a beast unto myself
An animal trapped inside his cage
There’s a piece of me
that could bring peace to me
but I’m keeping it at bay
Day in and day out
The person I always thought I’d be
begs me for his freedom
I hear me scream
I hear me shout
I here me fight for my desired existence
My bleeding heart is drowning me
from the inside out
as I let the outside in
I betray myself
I’m beside myself
I’m stuck here inside myself
suffocating in my own skin
burning in my own sin
wishing for something I’ve never been
let me out
don’t keep me in
I can’t escape from me
I’m blinding myself
so I can’t see
the rotting corpse of who I want to be
My past is there
My present’s here
My future is what I can’t achieve
I can’t believe I ever let this happen to me
I’m growing more lost
frantically searching for what I could be
trying to save what used to be me
my hope is fading
am I worth saving?
Is there any hope for me?
Fighting for my freedom
to save myself from me
fighting for my right to breathe inside myself
fighting for the hope of escaping from myself
I could just give up
like I did a long time ago
but I could never be a better person though
should I carry on?
I can’t take this anymore
I’m fighting for who I was before
but I keep closing that door on myself
as I sit here and wonder
how hard will it be
to save what used to be me?


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There's a Girl for Me

Somewhere out there, there's a girl for me, but she'll find another guy who can 
make her happy. They'll sit and talk all night long. They'll fall in love and carry on. 
She'll never know I exist. I'll never find her in life. She'll unknowingly pass me up 
and become his wife. They'll be so happy as days go by. I'll sit here in silence as 
life passes me by. How can she forget me not if she never knew I existed? Why 
didn't I find her before he did?


Details | Romanticism | |

You Know I Love You

You know I love you
I’ve told you that before
I love you more than
anyone ever before
If my love could write for you
you’d have a never ending story
about how I love the way
I get to bask in all your glory

You know I love you
Yes you know I do
You know I love you
and all the things you do

If my love could sing for you
you’d have a never ending ballad
you’d have a song about
how the whole world compared to you
is nothing more than pallid

Oh, you know I love you
Yes you know I do
You know I love you
and all the things you do
Just know I love you
and that I need you


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Without You, I'm Nothing

Without you, I’m nothing
just an empty feeling inside
An empty soul,
a dead heart,
far from whole, broken

Without you, I’m nothing
I’m incomplete, defeated
Without you, I’m nothing,
alone, apart
			
Without you, my life is meaningless,
bliss-less, hopeless 

Without you, I’m nothing
Screwed up in the head
Barely living so much,
I’d be better off dead

Without you, I’m nothing


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dreamer (little girl lost)

Depression is over rated, and I don’t prefer the things I have. So why are all the 
girls claiming to hurt, and cry out that they are sad. Did they touch the hand of 
death, feel love break away. Did they ever run away from sub ordinance, and cry 
angry tears each day? 

Dreamer, you’re a little girl lost. Dreamer, it’s safe to wipe away the frost. The 
cold that keeps your heart from loving, the pain that keeps the happiness from 
coming…dreamer, you don’t have to be lost anymore. 

Those who are hurting, they keep it to themselves. They cry into their pillows, 
then put their feelings on a shelf. Maybe write it in a journal, but never mutter the 
threats to another ear. They know that hurting and feeling isn’t accepted in places 
like here.

Dreamer, you’re a little girl lost. Dreamer, it’s safe to wipe away the frost. The 
cold that keeps your heart from loving, the pain that keeps the happiness from 
coming…dreamer, you don’t have to be lost anymore. 

I hear you crying in every tear that falls from my face. You don’t have to say a word 
or hurt yourself in other ways. I know you feel, and loved and lost, before the age 
of seventeen. Take time to remember some smile that came in the times that 
were between. There’s life, there’s love, there’s hope and happiness waiting 
beyond that door. Only leave when you know it’s right, and you know you cant take 
anymore.

Dreamer, you’re a little girl lost. Dreamer, it’s safe to wipe away the frost. The 
cold that keeps your heart from loving, the pain that keeps the happiness from 
coming…dreamer, you don’t have to be lost anymore.


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a beautiful suicide

All I wanted was a piece of beauty, to remind me what it was like. To be happy, to 
feel lovely, to have everything in mind. All I wanted was to have that dream, to be 
wrapped in love and lace and silk. But I was holding my ribbon noose,  waiting 
for the affects of your oleander milk.

Standing on the edge, practically devoured. I never thought there was such a 
feeling. To be hated, to be wanted, to have everything receding. Owned by the 
edge, controlled by your feeling. Your kiss is dry, but sweet, and I can feel my lips 
peeling back. 

Beautful suicide, completely my control. Feeling that everything falls into place, 
but I’m only sixteen years old. I love the glitter and the jewel incrusted eyes, but 
maybe the patterns are a part of your disguise. You tricked me into following the 
forest edge, now I stand upon the silver grass on which I sing my pledge.

Standing on the edge, practically devoured. I never thought there was such a 
feeling. To be hated, to be wanted, to have everything receding. Owned by the 
edge, controlled by your feeling. Your kiss is dry, but sweet, and I can feel my lips 
peeling back. 


What is it I can thank you for, when you slapped my mouth as if I asked for more. 
Is it thanks to you for pushing me, with pain to be all I can see? Is this the price of 
belonging to you, is this all we have left? Everyone’s gone, left to sing their own 
songs, we should have guessed.  

Standing on the edge, practically devoured. I never thought there was such a 
feeling. To be hated, to be wanted, to have everything receding. Owned by the 
edge, controlled by your feeling. Your kiss is dry, but sweet, and I can feel my lips 
peeling back. 

Sweet sixteen, can leave a girl tangled in her messy curls, only thinking it‘s gone. 
Mangled up, left lying there, asking why no one cares, about what happens to 
her. Sleeping in his room each day, asking god why it’s been me, that’s been left 
behind. Every moment passes by, leaving me alone to cry. Tell us what is wrong.


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I Need You

I need you more now than ever before
I want you more now than I ever have before
My day has gone so bad
so I need you in it more than ever
This day has been so bad
I need the cheer your bring within it
Nothing’s gone right so far
my body’s only hurting
Nothing’s gone the way I’ve wanted
I need your healing hugging


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Stone

She called saying it's done.
It’s through.
She'll never return.
To that place everyone would call home.
The only place.
She won't enter.
Young girl so foolish.
So lost.
Broken hypocrisy.
Bloody grace.
Innocence no longer present.
And sins are no reason to repent.
He's detached from everyone.
Even you.
Always the one to burn.
Empty streets are the places to roam.
No recognized face.
Role Model of a Mentor.
Young boy so foolish.
So lost.
Broken hypocrisy.
Bloody grace.
Innocence no longer present.
And sins are no reason to repent.
Just the need of someone.
Anyone.
Who knew.
When it’s our turn. 
To burn.
The Rat Race.
Would lose its place.
Broken hypocrisy.
Bloody grace.
Innocence no longer present.
And sins are no reason to repent.


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One Thing

Why can’t I just be happy?
Why must I live a life of misery?
When I think I may finally be free,
I’m roped in yet again
I guess misery must be my destiny
Happiness is that luxury I cannot buy
Joy is something I can never find
I’m sitting here faking this smile again
I’m sitting here laughing just to fit in
While on the inside my mind’s covered in shades of black
Slowly building up inside is this sorrow I always hide
I don’t know why I almost make it out
and just as soon as I may be happy again
Just one thing makes all my progress cave in


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MILLION MILES

i will walk
i will talk
i will run
to you baby

a million miles
just to see your smile
for the love inside of me

your love is stronger than
steel
i'm gonna tell you how i 
feel


your love brightens my eye's
i have butterflies inside


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Enlighten

ENlighteN

 

 

 

 

 

when born on this earth we are destined to suceed 

we fail our sucess because of sloth and greed

when challenges come thy way

and night falls over this broken day

i know  that tomarrow brings new dawn

so sit back relax and move on

but yet again trouble is abound

some times it aint easy to keep those feet on the ground

i swollow my fear of what might come of things

and i let go and fly high on  broken wings

regret is like a burning ring of fire that always apears too late

death  comes only once but it's worth the wait

why do i do the things i do 

who know's

could those teen statistics be true

it shows

love grows 

triumph apears

bye bye broken hearted fears

see when you look at my art you're entranced 

and although you dont know quite get the meaning of those words that dance

those words that dance across my pallet of gold

you continue to invision my thoughts untold

me myself and i couldnt even tell you what this means

because deep down inside my words are traped in a dream

i was put in this earth-like tenement to achieve life's goal

to make less into more and half into whole

but how must i do this if i cant tame my own art

and if true meaning of soul lives deep down in my heart

just another one of those questions that are answered later on in life

past the pain and past the strife

yeah you dont get this poem, its for enlightenment not entertainment

watch as i express and engage in it


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Tendencies

My self-destructive tendencies
are finally catching up with me
The sleepless nights
and endless days,
all lost within an exhausted haze,
and all are making me slowly fade away
I can feel my strength dissipating
Right now everything is just too frustrating
as I feel my health slowly slipping into disease
When does life count more than dreams?
It seems that line is undefined
Is doing what makes you happy
despite its ill-effects
and trying to accomplish what you want in life
despite its inevitable detriments
worth cutting your life a bit short?
Is that hastened death a bearable price
when you’re just trying to make your life a bit nicer for once?


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I'm Sorry

I’m sorry, my words didn’t come out right
I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to ruin your night
My mind is panicked
My heart is frantically beating
I just have this fear that soon you’ll be leaving me
I need to learn to choose my words with caution
because my tones never turn out 
the way they’re meant to sound
All of what I said,
was just me kidding around
I didn’t want you to worry
and I’m grateful that you care
Just accept my most sincere apology
and believe me when I say I’m sorry


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Heartbreak's Possession

When you're under heartbreak's possession
how can you really avoid depression?
You can't wake up after a breakup
You're stuck in that prison
Things happen for a reason
Her heart's season has changed
Spring Happiness has turned into Summer Sorrow
If you're lucky, you won't wake up tomorrow


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Wonderful World

Wouldn’t it be a wonderful world
if every brokenhearted boy got
the girl of his dreams
It seems this world is unjust
or perhaps we’re all just losers
No matter how the picture’s painted
the beauty of it all is faded
in the shadows of our dismay
They say history never repeats itself
but it repeats itself everyday
Good men go unloved
while the vile ones are adored
Modest women are looked down upon
because so many just want whores
But it’s the appreciative male
who treasures a woman for who she is
and not what she has
who must pay for the pain caused by
every single predecessor
that only wanted to undress her


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The Eyes of Perfection

Sitting here, all alone, when a pretty girl catches my eye as she’s walking by. I 
want to taste her sweet lips. I want to embrace her in my arms. There is a 
glimmer in her eye. A glimpse in my direction. I sit here wondering, did I really 
just catch the eye of absolute perfection? A brief smile, that makes my heart skip 
a beat. I try jumping to my feet, to follow in the direction of such a pretty girl. She 
could be the one to change my life. She could be the one that saves me from 
myself. She could be the one to make me whole. Then, I stop. As I think to 
myself, what in the world would such a girl see in me? I set my feet, to save 
myself from yet another rejection, as I watch my embodiment of perfection walk 
away. I watch as all my life’s dreams, as all that I ever wanted, just walks down 
the street. As my life just walks away, and my heart skips yet another beat. Then 
a sudden burst of bravery. An eruption of unknown emotions. As I start chasing 
after her. I listen to the thunder beneath my feet, as they pound upon the 
pavement. Thoughts of what to say begin running through my head. Once I catch 
up to her, all my preparations were in vain, just the sight of seeing her pretty face 
made them all escape my brain. A stumbling over words, with an anxious 
sickening feeling while waiting for that feared reply. Then a surprise, as I get a 
smile and a yes, while I gaze into the eyes of Perfection.


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Tether

A fragile soul of a girl simple and small.
Whose dreams grow endlessly tall.
With no hopes of ever catching up to them at all.
A desolate grace of a woman lost.
Giving up her life at no cost.
Allows her sympathy to gather frost.
       Tears to which they've cried.
               Together.
       And alone they've tried.
               To break their tether.
The home of a girl.
To which there's no soul to uncurl.
No love or memories to unfurl.
A woman holding onto closed eyes.
Enclosed to feel no one else's lies.
Hidden only to feel her own cries.
       Fears they've blocked.
               Together.
       And the gun is cocked.
               To rip apart this tether.
The only thing holding these two together.
The only emotion keeping them sheltered from the brash weather.
A torn and stressed tether.
Watch as their forgotten emotions grow.
Heard miles away...The echoing of the gun's blow.
To tear and shred the tether that brought them down so low.


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Nothing is Wrong

Doctor, give me something to relieve this pain.
It's keeping me from keeping myself sane.
"There's nothing wrong with you".
"There's nothing I can do".
Well then, I guess I'll just keep it all inside.
Like everything is all alright and I've got nothing to hide.

Doctor, will you give me something to keep me clean?
Because I've overdosed and my confidence is starting to lean.
"There's nothing wrong with you".
"There's nothing that I will do".
Are you honestly that blind?
Is there no disease that you could find?

Would you even atleast try?
Because I swear, for you, this is the last time I will cry.
And the tears will not be clear, they'll be red.
And they'll never give you chance to take back what you said.

Doctor, you left me the only one here.
And you left me alone with only one thing to fear.
That these feelings are real.
And that my pain can never be a thing to heal.


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Would You Come After Me?

Lately, I've been looking in the mirror
And trying to see you beyond my eyes.
I may be a fool, but I am not blind.
As much as I wish it, you aren't there.

I've spoken hidden words,
Hoping you would understand,
But you haven't been there for me.
I have to wonder who or what
I am to you.
And I have to wonder how I can bear
Belonging to someone who just doesn't care.
I have to wonder....

If I ran, would you come after me?
If I stopped, what would you say?
If I just closed my eyes
And let myself fall,
Would you catch me?

Or would you walk back down that hall?

Block me out?

Pretend I never called?

If I was in danger,
would you fight for me?
If I was hurt,
would you avenge me?
If I was sick,
would you hold my hand
and pray for me to be well?
If I died, Daddy,
would you care at all?

So if I run now,
And you don't want me to go,
Then come after me fast.
I may keep looking back,
But if you're not coming,
Daddy, I ain't ever turning back.

If I ran, would you come after me?
If I stopped, what would you say?
If I just closed my eyes
and let myself fall,
would you catch me?

Or would you walk back down that hall?

Block me out?

Pretend I never called?

I need to know...
So,
here I go,
I need to know, Daddy.
Would you come after me?


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Happy Thoughts

All of my happy thoughts are dead,

I've removed them from my brain.

All they ever do is fade into reality,

leaving me in pain.

I'm tired of it.

Every time I get a little upbeat,

like a flood, life washes it away.

I can't remember the last time I really smiled,

it's been a year at least.

All I want now is to find some inner peace.


Slipping in and out of consciousness,

forgetting onetime bliss.

Happiness is something that I sorely miss.

 
I can't take the way my happiness is faded,

cutting like a jagged razor's edge.

Leaving me so disgruntled,

feeling utterly alone, 

spending days within my bed.

All hope is lost within a fog,

one made up of grief and tears.

All security is forgotten,

as I'm drowning in my fears.

A bit of cheer is all I'm wanting,

something to hold dear.

The peace of mind found in knowing

that there's someone always near.


Slipping in and out of consciousness,

forgetting onetime bliss.

Happiness is something that I sorely miss.


The sun has set on the joys of my life.

Depression has risen in its place.

The flowers of my mind are wilted,

my skies are full of grey.

I'm stuck in the middle of a desert,

one plagued by a storm of my dismay.

I'm still waiting for the dawn of another day.

I'm still waiting for the resurrection of ancient feelings,

to shake me out of this daze.


Slipping in and out of consciousness,

forgetting onetime bliss.

Happiness is something that I sorely miss.


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The Only One

I’m up late once again my dear
and I’m wishing that you were here
so I could lay my head on you
and finally fall fast asleep

You’re the one I need
you bring me peace
the only one 
to put my mind at ease

I can’t relax
I’m nervous too
all I want
is to be with you

You’re the one I need
you bring me peace
the only one
to put my mind at ease

I’m awake worrying
and the time is dragging on
Sleeplessness is hurrying in
Soon I’ll see the rising sun

You’re the one I need
you bring me peace
the only one 
to put my mind at ease


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Learn Somethin'

come here little girl, let me learn you a thing or two
livin' in the hood is a very hard thing to do
you gotta know the rules, how to move, never have a clue
never let'em know how you move, keep it true
true to yourself, to your square, where you at girl
respect yourself in any hood, hood respect girl
kept a lot of girls from geetin' raped where i'm at girl
when the devil play, it's no game, he attack girl
one girl mad cause her man want your phone number
you so bad every man wanna talk to you
chicks get jealous so they plottin' on your every move
what should you do? you by yourself and without a crew
rule number 2 keep some mase or some pepper spray
rule number 1 is keep a gun but she played it safe
she massed her in the face and showed her what suppose to taste like
the girl pulled out a knife and cut her stomach by the waistline
know she on the floor cryin' with the evidence
but what she didn't know was that the pretty girl was preganat
learn somethin', learn somethin', listen little girl let me learn you a thing or two
learn somethin', learn somethin', livin' in the hood is very hard thing to do


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When Will I Stop?

How long can I last before I’m washed up?
When will I give up this joy in my life?
Will I quit in a year?
Will I write ‘til my end?
How many cycles of happiness and sadness will they embody?
Will they ever mature like the boy into a man?
Can they ever make a difference in somebody’s life?
Or will they always be merely a way to see inside of me?
Do they bear fortunes in my future?
Will I ever be appreciated as a poet?
Will I eventually find out that I have hundreds,
even thousands of admirers,
and didn’t even know it for so long?
The future of my escape,
of my expression,
of my falling depressions,
and of my rising delights
is ever so uncertain


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Love is a Mess

Can you see the pain in my eyes?
Can you hear my cries?
All these tears.
Pain flowing through my veins.
For the lies and the stories.
He told.
Making me believe each word.
Of him saying "He love me and that he cared.
Now I'm feeling stupid.
Sitting here stuck with a lose virginity 
of my trust, my love, and my sexuality.
While he cakin to his so-called wifey
See, a girl can only take so much from a boy.
The world of love can only bring these two things: happiness or sorrow.
Which one will you choose?
Love is a mess.
So don't pick so quick.
BEWARE OF ALL BOYS!
Not all are dogs.
Protect and be careful!
Love is a Mess!


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Mr. Hyde

If you could only see
the darker, ugly side of me
Dr. Jekyll’s the only one you see
but there’s a Mr. Hyde in me
This other person I try to hide
breaks me into insanity
When my lightness 
subsides into my darkness
The only one around for me
is the Mr. Hyde in me
Why won’t you believe
there’s a darker side to me?
Why can’t you see 
my life is not always
fun and fancy free?
Slipping into my
alter-ego,
my other personality
Mr. Hyde is the one
that will be the death of me
He’s raging inside
breaking me down
I can’t wake up
he brings me down
When I speak of this ugly side
you say it is merely fallacy
I swear one day
when the world’s around
he won’t subside
and then you’ll all meet Mr. Hyde


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OutSpoken

What will she say next?
To turn a simple saying complex.
What will she write this time?
To change complexity into a vulgar crime?
We want you to understand.
They need to have freedom banned.
For fear of impressionable minds.
The youthful kinds.
To keep them jaded.
Freeing them from the torture that has been faded.
It's still there.
Hard and strong, unable to compare.
Hidden beauty in the disgrace.
Ugliness in every place.
Broken homes and hearts.
Ability is lost to put back the parts.
So what will he say that’s new?
To make everything you think to be untrue.
And what will he write now?
To raise your eager brow.
So leave the truth up the observant.
Because our emotions are raw and fervent.