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WHITE LINE FEVER

White line fever 
Can really confuse
Many miles to go
I'm lost in a muse
Read your write
You're lonely too
Picture on my dash
Girl, I'm missing you
Asphalt monotony
Leads to daydream
Where we're together
Oh, I see you beam
My sweet island girl
You make me high
You're on my mind
Unending night sky
Perfect moonlit tune
My true love song
Petal to the metal
Girl, I won't be long

Perfect moonlit tune
My true love song
Petal to the metal
Girl, I won't be long

*Country tune
Date: 10-25-14


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EVENING CHARMS

I miss the fragrance gentle sweet
Of evening primrose beneath my sheet
I dream pink blossoms in the night
You beside me in candle light
My windows open the door is too
Your perfumed scent is overdue
The sun is setting over the gentle stream
My eyes may close but I can dream!

Date: 10-7-14


Details | I do not know? | |

I've Scribbled This Song For You



I've Scribbled This Song For You...


I'm wasting my days,
my empty nights too,

I should have held on,
but I simply lost you,

now I stagger along,

wearing broken smiles,
in between hell and you,
there's a million miles,

yes, I should have kept,
you close to my skin,

soaking your warmth,
but you were laughing,

at my foolish grin...


now I'm all broken,
and torn apart,

but what the hell,
I was always late,
for the tolling of the bell,

and now...

now I stagger along,

wearing broken smiles,
in between hell and you,
there's a million miles,

so kiss me now like you once did,
I'm tired of being so carefully hid,


la laa laa la laa laa laa...


(repeat to fade)


:-)


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Bring on the Rain

There are places that I've been  
that you may never see
As the steady winds are blowing
this storm brews inside of me
But the strong hand that guides me
will surely see me through
As I walk within this darkness
There is nothing left to do

I see the storm clouds gather
as the thunder starts to roll
Lightening flashes all around 
as the droplets flood my soul
But when the rain has ended
the sun will shine once more
and I will then be stronger 
than I ever was before


So bring on the rain
let me cry these lonely tears
and release the pain
As the lightening strikes
this heart cries out again
I won't give in...
bring on the rain

As everything around me rages
onto my knees I fall
I cry out in desperation
"God help me through it all" 
Then this fury deep inside me
slowly starts to drift away
Though a steady rain is falling
I know I'll be okay

So bring on the rain
let me cry these lonely tears
and release the pain
As the lightening strikes 
this heart cries out again
I won't give in...
bring on the rain


Details | Rhyme royal | |

Gone With The Wind

The Earth cracks, the plates slide, and we fall of track.
The sun freezes over, and color is beginning to lack.
We fall back, lay in this wake of destruction,
as apocalyptic thoughts grab us, from every direction.

Our life flashes like the lightening in the sky,
the thunder rumbles, and it rains down, as we begin to cry
Time stops and we're still, as a volcano erupts,
the ashes rain down and form clouds, and all we hope for is luck.

But what is luck? What is it to us, but an empty wish.
It's nothing but something we hope for, and we're hopeless.
But it's a possibility, that feels impossible to me,
but it's a picture that I gotta paint, but canvases aren't free.

So I sit as a tornado forms right in front of my eyes,
and I'm scared, but I stand up, and finally realize,
that I gotta fight. Or I'll forever be denied.
I'll forever be alone, and I'll never get it right.

I see a piece of paper, and I think of an easy solution,
it's crumpled up, and you've gotta open to be able to read it.
But it's a blank page, nothing but a piece a paper.
You watch it float in the wind, you'll write a story on it later.

It's gone, Gone Away With The Wind,
you tried but you're own game beat you, you can't win.
No matter the pen, the ink is your blood, it comes from within,
just don't lose it, cause once you lose it then its Gone With The Wind.


Details | Verse | |

Secretly Obsessed

Obsessed with the thought of you
wondering if it's only me or
if you sometimes remember the sweet things you've said
and if you meant them how I took them
or if I'm just obsessed with what's in your head

Obsessed with your very sentences
Every response I take personal
I know it's selfishness
Have you not noticed my eyes?
They hold secrets that only you can unlock
if you'd just take time to fill the thick juices of my pride
It's just boiling with lust, passion, trust and distrust
and other things I obsess over so much

I find myself writing to free myself from this prison I've created
where only you and I reside
I become confused about what I'm really feeling inside and I 
try to rid the thoughts that are highly debated as false and I
begin to cry and
think of casting love spells so that the universe can deliver this affair
I know it's unfair
but I don't care

I'm obsessed with what hasn't happened between us
I'm obsessed with your heart and that the fact that 
I don't think you've even noticed my selfish innuendos 
and secret undertones that blatantly express my lust
Or maybe you have and you calmly remain in resistance of distrust 
If you could only read my mind by simply touching my fingertips,
I'm sure I'd catch you out the corner of my eye biting your bottom lip
I'm obsessed with the passion and thoughts I think you have
Obsessing over an experience that I may never have....






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Night Writer

The silence is deafening in this house tonight 
I sit on the couch pondering something to write
light is dim, kid’s gone to sleep,
nothing creeps as I stare at blank sheets
I keep waiting for a witty dialogue in my head
but instead I’m brain-dead, should I go to bed instead?
Dogs bark in the distance, the instant that happened
My dogs started barking then I started laughing
An uncontrollable urge swept over me swiftly
I looked at the clock and it read 01:50,
I have time to write; the night is still young,
Took a sip of red wine; bitter on my tongue,
Stacked up the papers until they formed a pile
Came up this song though it took a while

Sometimes I see you sitting across from me; 
in my mind I smile a big smile;
I should go over there and run my hands through your hair, 
my love for you stretches as long as the Nile;
To lose you would be too much to take; 
to win your love, just enough
Though my ability to trust has been flawed since birth;
You’re so worth it that this won’t be tough;
Being without you would be like living in a black hole
A spot of infinite darkness in space;
There would be nothing to hide; not emotions nor pride;
I’d ride the rollercoaster of love in a daze. 
While you lay asleep, I’d lay awake
Watching you dream your sweetest dreams
I’d like to think we’re walking along the beach;
Hand in hand as a passionate team.
I wish I had known your soul before
I wish I had chose you back then

And with those words I closed my notebook;
I’ll finish this later.  The End.


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{In The Distance I hear} A lonely Guitar

I need your kiss I need your arms, then
I need your kiss again
I want to hold you tonight, arm in arm
And keep you safe in this day of harm

I know you still have thoughts for me
Even though you wanted to be free
Now I'm down each day on bended knee
Cause these memories of you cause agony

Then off In the distance I hear a lonely guitar
Playing so softly but it's just to far
A lonely guitar echoing from a mountain top
Playing our song, Oh! I just wish it would stop

I wish you were here in my arms again
Cause my love for you is more than friends
My eyes do cry when I think of you
Oh! I just don't know what to do

I hold these memories of your touch
But the memories I hold's just not enough
I need your lips your soul your heart
Like before the day...we drifted apart

Then off In the distance I hear that lonely guitar
Playing so softly but it's just to far
A lonely guitar echoing from a mountain top
Playing our song, Oh! I just wish it would stop

A lonely guitar echoing from a mountain top
Playing our song, Oh! I wish it would stop
Oh! I wish it would stop


Details | Lyric | |

LONELY AND SILENT ROAD

Every young face I see...
reminds me of Marlene's pretty eyes;
as her softly-spoken words
echo in my wonderful dream!

I stroll along 
the lonely and silent road
without holding her hand,
remembering everything we said!

The reddish leaves
fall off the tall trees;
the lonely sparrow
flies away to hide his sorrow,
and I feel like him
without a happy song to sing,
without words to say...
just wasting away!

By the end of this day,
I'll smile behind the warm teardrops...
remembering our sweet joy:
never to feel it again,
or to give it with happiness
to my beautiful Marlene!

Long and silent road,
why life and destiny
hold me back without a reason;
If I am to blame...
I apologize for my vanity,
but how much do I have to pay
for that wrong decision?

Long and silent road
grant me this last wish:
can I hope to see Marlene
walk with me again?
Lonely and silent road,
when will I forget what I miss?


Details | Rhyme | |

Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


Details | Haiku | |

The Internet: Return

A void of Facebook
Creativity dies here...
Procrastination!


Details | Narrative | |

Thunder and Lighting

Love is prominent but lies are still troubling the arch in my back is still aching  thru my core/ To calm to peaceful Today not enough appreciation from you
You make me feel less important.
 How many more audition do I need to perform for you?
 Your Personality changes like the weather negative energy creates “Thunder and Lighting” 
   Your Ego is higher then the altitude in Denver 
You are the weather that changes everyday I never knew when its cold are warm 
Today I was prepared for a Sunny day / But  like the weather you change unpredictably have me puzzled just wondering Why?
 I was not prepared for your  precipitation/ you never allow me to grasp your feelings never appreciate my love  you was only  obsessed with yourself and not my heart.  When its cloudy or rainy outside my vision gets a little blur and  fuzzy when you are around.

Meteorologist Predicate Sunny and warm air with the chances of early morning cloudiness’


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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




Details | Ballad | |

When the Lavender Returns

As cold as ice
Wrapped round your brain
And darkness unfolds
You’re breathing in pain

It’s been freezing here   
In this Land of Shattered Dreams 
It’s been freezing here 
This corrupted winter stings 

It’s been freezing here  		
(Où est la Lavande?)
Your body can’t stay warm  	
(Où est la Lavande?)
 It’s been freezing here  		
(Où est la Lavande?)
This cruel and criminal storm  	
(Où est la Lavande?)

But don’t give up
Don’t despair
Taste the hope 
Floating through the air

When the lavender returns
It’ll warm your frozen bones
Vivid violet clothes
In their candy overtones

When the lavender returns
It’ll race across the land
Rebel flower grows
In the palm of your free hand

If you look out your window
The ground’s parched and bare
If you call for your lover
She’s no longer there
If you ponder your life
Well, it feels like a wreck
And your failures are scars
You can never forget

As leaves turn brown
Sky fades to grey
You’re feeling the drought
The end of the day

It’s been lonely here
In this World of Fallen Souls
It’s been lonely here
With nowhere left to go

But don’t give up
Don’t despair
Taste the hope 
Floating through the air 

When the lavender returns
It’ll warm your frozen bones
Vivid violet clothes
In their candy overtones 

When the lavender returns   	
(Où est la Lavande?)
It’ll race across the land 	         
(Où est la Lavande?)
Rebel flower grows  			
(Où est la Lavande?)
In the palm of your free hand   	
(Où est la Lavande?)

When the lavender returns    	
(Où est la Lavande?)
It’ll warm your frozen bones   	
(Où est la Lavande?)
Vivid violet clothes  			 
(Où est la Lavande?)
In their candy overtones  		 
(Où est la Lavande?)


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Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


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Haikus About God: V

Omniscient guy
Yet he lets bad things happen
How can he exist?


Details | Lyric | |

IM GOING CRAZY

I can feel your heartbeat
Pulsating in all your words
Just like a steady drumbeat 
Your pull on me is absurd

Can you feel my heartbeat
Baby read between the lines
Just like a steady drumbeat
I can't get you off my mind

We painted up the town
Lost.. Then we were found
And when we went down
Oh Baby
We didn't count the cost
Found.. Then we were lost
Left freezing in the frost
Oh Baby

Come on and...
Feel me..  Too good, this can't be bad
Touch me.. Remind me what we had
Want me.. Sweet girl ya need your lad
Love me.. Since you've gone I'm going mad
Since you've gone I'm going mad

We painted up the town
Lost.. Then we were found
And when we went down
Oh Baby
We didn't count the cost
Found.. Then we were lost
Left freezing in the frost
Oh Baby

Come on and...
Feel me..  Too good, this can't be bad
Touch me.. Remind me what we had
Want me.. Sweet girl ya need your lad
Love me.. Since you've gone I'm going mad
Since you've gone I'm going mad
Crazy 
Crazy
I'm going crazy
Crazy 
Crazy
I'm going crazy

Date: 11-4-14


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Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


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Twelve Years In Quentin

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- A month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Four defense attorneys
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys'
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Six Manson families
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys'
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Seven cold showers
- Six Manson families
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Eight leaping rapists
- Seven cold showers
- Six Manson families
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Nine used rubbers
- Eight leaping rapists
- Seven cold showers
- Six Manson families
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Ten tubes of lipstick
- Nine used rubbers
- Eight leaping rapists
- Seven cold showers
- Six Manson families
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Eleven bars of Ex-lax
- Ten tubes of lipstick
- Nine used rubbers
- Eight leaping rapists
- Seven cold showers
- Six Manson families
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

In my twelve years in Quentin my warden gave to me
- Twelve cross dressers
- Eleven bars of Ex-lax
- Ten tubes of lipstick
- Nine used rubbers
- Eight leaping rapists
- Seven cold showers
- Six Manson families
- Five rejected appeals
- Four defense attorneys
- Three lonely convicts
- Two tubes of KY
- And a month in solitary

Created by Father and Son in 2006
Jared & Richard Pickett
3/12/2010
Asavvy1


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Wearing a Smile

Its nights like these
That makes it so hard to believe
Its pain like this
That leaves me begging for your kiss

Smiles are only as good
As the lies of the beholder
Words are only as true
As the hearts of the beholder

It’s so hard to breathe
I’m trying so hard to believe
Hope seems so far out of sight
Stuck in this hell lookin for the light

I try my best to wear this smile
Hoping it’s just for a while
But day by day I lose who I am
Just like the names lost in the sand

Smiles are only as good
As the lies of the beholder
Words are only as true
As the hearts of the beholder

Doesn't anyone see
I lost my faith in me
Won’t anyone please look for my scar
Because happiness is just too far

I’m longing for your touch
Because right now Heaven knows I could use that much
I’ve spent too much time on my own
And I can’t spend another night alone 

Smiles are only as good
As the lies of the beholder
Words are only as true
As the hearts of the beholder


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Miles

I write
my late night revelations
paint an image so clear-
so precise-
as if fine-tuned with a microscope.
I see the truth.
I now realize that what I need-
I want-
is YOU.
I don't know how I am going to make you see,
make you feel...
I need to make you know.
A simple touch is all I need
to delve into your mind and infect you.
But how to reach you?
You are hidden far away
within your own mind,
in maze of your own design.
Between us locked doors and endless traps,
mountains,
valleys,
rivers, lakes, oceans,
miles and miles of 
impassible terrain that keeps me apart,
keeps me from you!
We are two universes set to collide-
not to be destroyed,
but merge into one.
Set to collide, but keep missing our mark.
This is unbeknownst to you.
I keep the secrets within me.
How much longer can I wait-
how much longer until my silence
consumes me?
Until you break me?
I am deserted, alone,
left in desolation.
You are the answer to the questions,
the key to my freedom.
But you cannot reach me.
And you do not know what you are.
How much longer til my time runs out?


Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: III

Beauty of nature
Why condense it down to God?
Isn’t life enough?


Details | I do not know? | |

Welcome 2013

Well we are already a couple of months in so i just wanted to say welcome. 
this will be a new journey for the both of us, so i hope it will be awesome. 
I will try to write more than usual this year, I promise. :)
What would help tho if you readers would send me topics and stuff to help me write about things cuz my mind goes way faster than my fingers and i cant think of just one thing. lol. so thank you readers. plz comment and tell me your thoughts.


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Haikus About God: IV

God made all people
But some better than others?
Stop being silly.


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Haikus About God: VI

The body: sacred
We’re all made in God’s image
Hence... circumcision?


Details | Lyric | |

It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


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Chasing A Dream

To what end can I chase a dream
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I can reach for the flowers in bloom 
But they're all consumed
The fires' to deep - I just wish I could sleep

I look to the moon for answers but she just smiles
I don't have a clue - I've got too many miles

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I cry out in the night - but the echo hurts me
It breaks me down into broken dreams
I run for the door but its no longer open - to me
I cover my eyes...... but still I can see

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

©2013C.L.Baker


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Cliff Hanger

I don't want to know what you think of me
Am I your hero or am I you misery
Every step I take is another reminder
That you're nothing but my biggest desire

Spent all day setting up a picnic for two
Ended up sitting alone downing my booze
How could I had thought we were meant to be
You did nothing but infect this perfect reality

Abandon all ships for the sake of love
The last thing I want is a plus one with her drug
On the edge of the no named rye cliff
Is where my heart belongs on this trip

I'm as useless as a horse with no legs
What else is new, I'm just like a needle in the hay
I've held on to your words of the past
I guess it's true that the nice guy finishes last

We talked and we walked in the prairie of life
You were a reason that I wanted to get lost
I could taste the poison from the human mind
You were the only one that could spin me blind

Tomorrow is the day I would feel alive
But that's a nice memory that will pass me by
I'll never have the joy or smile
What's this game?, I'll be gone for awhile

I wonder if I'm running through your thoughts
Turning the pages without the power to stop
I'm running away from everything I've known
All you have to know is that I'm better off on my own


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Living Without

I tried to write about love but I haven’t felt it. 
I tried to write about the sea but I’ve never seen it. 
Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. 
I tried to write about magic but I never believed it.
I couldn’t write about god, all I have ever done is sinned.
And when I tried to write about life I found, 
I have never really lived.


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Wish You Were Here with Me

I’m driving down this country road, it’s all in bloom
Top down I’m listenin’ to our favorite tune
Missin’ you next to me with your perfume
Wishin’ you were here with me

Thinkin’ ‘bout last night and what you said
Can still feel your touch as I look ahead
It feels so good that it fills my head
I’m wishin’ you were here with me

Here with me..
I know with you I just win
It’s easy to see..
If I don't know now then when

I find myself smiling just thinking of you 
The world through your love is such a great view
This feelin’s so real I don't want to come to
I’m wishin’ you were here with me

I’m wishin’, you were here

Here with me..
I know with you I just win
It’s easy to see..
If I don't know now then when

We’ll have our time just you and me girl
I wouldn’t trade you for the whole world
I think we ought to just give it a whirl
I’m wishin’ you were here with me

Yeah, I’m sure this is the time for you and me girl..
I’m wishin’ you were here with me..

Here with me..
I know with you I just win
It’s easy to see..
If I don't know now then when

I’m wishin’ you were here
Oh wishin’, wishin’, wishin’ you were here..

(I am wishin’)
I am wishin’

(You’re here with me)
You’re here with me

(Wishin’ you were with me)
Wishin’ you were here with me
Here with me..
(Here with me)
I’m wishin’ you here with me..
I’m wishin’ you here with me..
I’m wishin’ you here with me..


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Death by Beauty

A smile moves across her lips
She gazes at her crime
A scar across her flesh and soul
To haunt her for all time
She’ll waste away for all she cares
Never stops to use her brain
Doesn’t care about the ones who are close
All she cares about is pain

She wants to be what the others expect of her
Doesn’t care about the self-respect for her
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Can’t she see what all she has got
Already?

Never to go back again
She feels the world is at an end
She will never show her grief
Although she’ll cry in empty streetS

She’d sooner live like a desolate mole
Living in fear in an empty hole
Screaming silent wails alone
Content to live in her mental home

A final tear falls from her eye
It hits the ground, it’s followed by
A beautiful body, mutated by hate
A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late
One two many bricks in the wall in her mind
Molding her demise because her heart was blind
This self conscious being could never have won
For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones

She wouldn’t fight back, wouldn’t respect herself
In the end, she managed only to wreck herself
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Little did she know, she had all she had sought
Already


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Nature's Sigh

The Black butterfly waves away her adorations
All she seeks is seclusion, subsuming slave to mortification
The Dear Air is all she can breath, captive of imaginary dreams
The Beacon resonates, but the hope isolates
The Wasteland's silky fingers caressing the virgin's face

So she is now, the covet of the damned
Programmed to every victim's pain
Carrying the weight of every sorrow
Drowning in wrongs she does not know
But paradise is at loss; she must go

Nature sighs after the bite
All my hopes fading
Don't look at me with those sorrowful eyes
How do you know exactly what I'm feeling?
I'm just the ghost flower passing by
And you can hear nature's sigh


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Save Me

Save Me
By: IzaDonna

Look in the mirror
Do you recognize her
Do you see the coldness in her eyes
Do you see where the darkness lies
Hidden secrets of the past
To late, the spells been cast
And as the stars arise
My own self will be my demise

Chorus:
So you think you can save me
Finally set my retched soul free
Be my ultimate savior
You thinking ur doing me a favor
But just let me alone
My fate is only my own

I get u try and u care
But thru it all u weren't there
I cant move on from my past
The agony I feel will always last
The knife is in way to deep
So let me shut my eyes and sleep
Cause u can't fix whats already broken
The pain I feel is better left unspoken

Chorus

So as the darkness creeps in
I feel I'm paying for my sins
No way to escape
My soul is yours to take
Just let me bleed these tears
Just let me lay here
Looking up at the sky
I ask God why

Chorus

Cause you can't fix what isn't broken
The pain is better left unspoken


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in the shadow of doubt

in the shadow of doubt I lurk
in the shadow of doubt I stir
in the shadow of doubts my thoughts reside
Phantoms of possibilities revive in the night
Wild wonderings make my soul sprint in fright
The self conceals itself and takes flight
the mind untamed and free
free to reflect, free to settle
And I stand apart from it
For in the shadow of doubt
Is when my mind is unbound nourished by the doubt


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How Alone Am I

How Alone Am I
How Sad Am I 
You never Know
I never Show

You Smile WIth A Shine
I Smile with Wine
Your Enthralling Eyes
Defines My Style

Missing you is my life
Yes I live, but I strife
Finding you beneath the stars
Misng You my life chars.


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Welcome to the Planet

Welcome to the planet
Wake me when it’s over
The dreamer’s always tempted
To come around and show her

And I just keep wastin my time
On girls that won’t love, me, like their wine
And it’s just too easy to blame
The rock and the system for causing my pain
And I just want you to know that I’m through
With being alone, when I’m with you 
And when you mask the truth with your lies
It just won’t get any better for the rest of your guys

And when you fall asleep
The night covers your tears
And the darkness sees you weeping
Cause your conscious can’t be cleared
This year you’re feeling colder
Your heart’s a little older
You haven’t found your soul mate
And now you think you’re too late

But one look inside of my eyes
Gives you the hope that there’s a guy
Who can make you feel happy and sad
And it’ll be worth it to feel that again


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Hell And Haggard

Hello Dr. Daniels......
Look where her final blow was dealt
Right in the center of my chest
Just a little to the left

Hello lonesome legend....
How sweet you make the sounds
Can you take me far away
Before the devil takes me down

Tonight...I'm going through
Hell and Haggard
Playing all his greatest hits
Trying to forget...my greatest failures

Where the lonely go
Is where I'll be found
Ol' Merle can pick me up
When the bottle lets me down

Tonight I'm going through....
Hell and Haggard

When I finally listened
You know.....She didn't say a thing
'Guess that how love goes
When angels spread those silver wings

Tonight I need a friend
Who knows how a memory feels
And there ain't nobody better
Than that 'ol boy from Bakersfield

And tonight I'm going through.....
Hell and Haggard 




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Isolation

How can I tell you?
I can't stay with you.

Neither I can give up on you.
Fear of losing you is losing me.
It feels like slow death every night.

But we are just stuck in our spaces!
Unable to connect from two feet distance.


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Ride The Wind

Written February 24, 2012


One too many times
Our love has been unkind
To the rigors and chills of the snow
The streets they meet
Intersecting the heat
But the cold will blow without heed

To rekindle the flame
Must sound quite insane
But it's all I have left in this world
Yet to feed from the hand
Of another's demands
Could lead to the start of the fall

Ride the wind
Wherever it goes
Don't ask it questions
You don't want to know
The wind will carry you home


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Dear Lover

Written September 8, 2013


Hey dear lover
Can you make me a believer in another
We both know that it's killing us this way
'Cause the ends of the earth still move
And the falling leaves dance in circles
All around you
Cutting holes in the paper
On which I write this letter
Saying, "I really hope that this gets better"
For the sake of involved
Before this binding resolution gets resolved

But I don't mind chasing thunder
Through the darkest nights
But if I never find the light
Then I just might lose my sight, over you
But what's the use
You've only caused me more and more abuse
That's why I write this letter
Saying, "why'd I ever think that it'd get better"


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This is me

I'm 17 years old,
i'm full of stress,
but not yet bald,
i have both parents,
who give me everything,
but im yet not satisfyed,
let me tell you why?
i cry everyday,
for all the things that has happened to me,
all the things that have gone away,
my parents say i should stay in university,
but i dont want to honestly,
i wanna let everything go,
i just want to scream from the top of my voice,
and set myself free,
so i can rejoice,
but no one can hear my quiet, lonley voice...


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can i be with you

dear love, o' love, love 
can i be with you, o' love?
can i stay with you, o' dear love?
o' love, love, love
you are the perfect key to every heart
((o' love!))
you are the string to every heart
((dear love!))
you are the peace to my heart
((love, o' love!))
your mood is so emotional
but your love is so natural
you are the wood to my art
to carry me by the walls of my heart

can i be with you?
o' love,
wont you leave and gone? 
dear love,
can i talk with you? 
pure love,
can i walk with you? 
soul love,
you are the need to my wish,
(that is love)
you are the feed to my dish,
(such is love)
you are the strength to the weak,
(o' love)
you are the length to the thick,
(endless love)
can i be with you?
o' love

wondering not but,
is my heart there?
or has it faded?
is it beating? 
or has it deflated?
o' how i wish love you were
so close to mine and there
to stone me a love with care
yes, i stare 
with eyes of love and share
love with her that dare
to share,

i ask with no one... 

can i fall in love
with you, o' dear love?
wont you escape my heart?
wont you run away from love?
wont you fade away from love?
come stay with me, o' dear love
come lay with me, not tear love
some blame with you, but care love
come wave with me, share love
you are the perfect key to every heart
((o' love!))
you are the string to every heart
((dear love!))
you are the peace to my heart
((love, o' love!))
come be with me
((o' dear love))

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poem: can i be with you?
book: the melody of my heart
book no. 14 of 2012
december 2012

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Scarlet Moons and Indian Suns

Written August 29, 2013


She could have had my son
As we'd spell our names as one
On scattered ocean shores
Beneath that Indian sun

I loved my ma
And I loved her well
I loved my pa
And that musty smell

I hope to see them some day soon
I hope to see them smiling too
This Earth they left a bit too soon
Much thanks unto the scarlet moon

Some day well all be joined as one
Under scarlet moons and Indian suns

I love my family
How I miss this feeling
Of constant embrace
Awaiting at my feet

So come and pray for rain
To wash away our pain
Before the winter stains
What autumn left to drain

I hope to see them some day soon
I hope to see them smiling too
This Earth they left a bit too soon
Much thanks unto the scarlet moon

Some day well all be joined as one
Under scarlet moons and Indian suns


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paradise:lost


felt like i did before thats how i know i missed ya
if i could then i woulda grabbed ya hugged and kissed ya
bachelor for eternity missing the bigger picture
you i barely knew, appearing on every vista
i appreciate the support, but what i need is love
tho truth may hurt, better than all of the above
i trusted you cause you represent something ive never done,
who knew that two can prove to be better than one or
first in a place, never won a sum,
bygones gone and a couple of puns
we let the honey run till sweet enough touch
beat around the bush, no rush
it got hotter but the wetaher didnt change 
not a cloud in the sky or a drop of blame
no need for a why whenw e had an x
we gotta where we wanted then decided what next

no matter where i go 
over land and sea
id rather have you cause one is lonely 
keep me company
three not necessary
feels real comfy
has since february

february march april may june july august in a day
the longer we go the more we grow
feeling better each step of the way

if theres a problem we can talk and double check
nothing we cant solve with an embrace and kiss to the face or neck
i love you more than ode and penelope. maria odb
or lil kim and biggie
thank the gods we aint in a greek tragedy
or sometime before 19 sixty
for what is feminin
sent me to my questionin
i quickly collected evidence, respect
exactly what i expected, experiencing the extension
my seconds, perspective as my lessons
i remember when im stressing
to fit into my senses, lower my defenses
soothing if theres tenseness, leaving room for suggestion
did i mention that youre precious
a gift of personal appreciation, when we regard eachother
in highest celebration shared by lovers, so more than any i thank you
for willing to get as close as you do
i hope for you the complimentary is true
im sure if it wasnt we can talk it through its coo
right there is reason why i call you boo

no matter where i go 
over land and sea
id rather have you cause one is lonely 
keep me company
three not necessary
feels real comfy
has since february

february march april may june july august in a day
the longer we go the more we grow
feeling beter each step of the way


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The Wishful Love Song

There was the night that I lost my love
Then I blamed it all on me
I broke into tears
It’s felt like I’ve been lost for years

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long

I wish so much 
That I could give a girl my heart
I want to remember what it feels like
To give a girl my all

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long

Sometimes I wonder what I did wrong
And why I’m not that strong
I’m asking God what I can do
To find a girl that will make me new

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long

I know I can’t fall too fast
And have another broken aftermath 
But I want to fall in love
And show her God above

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long 


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I Never Knew

I let you get away with some things
But, as I saw you go, my heart began to forlorn
You were in the light with me, 
But we both stepped out of the light 
And the darkness swallowed us whole
We corrupted each other…and now I long to be in His light

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

My hands trembled…
But they remained tough
My heart stumbled upon regret
And I told myself that that’s enough
Sometimes, you uplifted me 
But, other times, you pulled me down to your own level

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

You made me drink in your dismay
Every time I talk to you, you wanted me to pass away…
Vanish away…like the wind, spiraling around the place
You played your mind games all over again
And I always played along…and somehow, I was drawn to you
And now, I feel guilty for giving in to you 

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

I should put a stop to this nonsense…for it has been a magnet of strife
I bet you never considered me in the first place…we never met eye to eye 
I should just pretend that you were never in my life
I get upset and I hide my face…I wish I knew the reason why
There’s a boulder between us…and it’s unbreakable…
I feel that I’m invisible…Oh God – are we both instable?

 I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

When I sat next to you at the library,
I felt you were kind and pleasant
When I sat next to you during the rally, 
I felt you were listening to every word I uttered
I wanted to act decent
Around you…but I felt resentment  
Towards the days that led me to loneliness 

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me
I’ve looked around to find you, 
But I was too timid to go up to you
I’ve hopped over the fire and I never knew
That I was too late to say goodbye to you 
But, there’s always tomorrow 
To say my greetings to you


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Yellow Moon

She watched as the earth fell asleep

Waited for the yellow moon

soft kisses of unfaithful wind..

Images..Images on her head

Nostalgic memory of a forgotten love

Flashes of things she tried to forget..

Her eyes caught the reflection of the moon

locked inside the rain on her cheek..

She was standing alone..

Her grieving heart sought

solace from the moon

She petitioned the stars

Where is he this very night?

Cruel..oh so cruel..

Beneath the silence of the sky

she bowed her head and cried..


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My lonley night

 Oh my cold & lonley night
When will dawn comes with light?

I still have hope..
when I see the moon,
despite all the darkness,
still looks bright

I still have hope
to see different colors
out of that scale of black & white

I still have hope
that one day will come,
these bonds between us
will be much more tight

and I still have hope
when I meet you then,
you will tell me that,
you now know,
I was always right

 Oh my cold & lonley night
When will dawn comes with light?


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For the love of you

If only I could make you see
that you mean so much more to me,
a priceless gift, wrapped in a smile,
the dream that makes my day worthwhile,
undoubted proof there is a God,
the joy that not all hope is gone.
To me you are that piece of mind,
that gives the world such sweet reply
that although love is sometimes lost,
its remnants left will never die-

How more could I express my love
for words are but the breath in me
what more can I, a man still do
except to give what's left of me . . .
for lips can flatter all too well
and sing the praise of many things
but you are in a different class
to you . . . . . I give my everything!

If ever I do fail to prove
my strong and constant love for you
then never have I lived a day
or ever took a breath anew.


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Fear

Written June 25, 2012


Dim the lights
No one knows
Silhouetted indisposed

Can you hear
Children's fears
The darkness will be here

By the time
You can see
The light that buries me

You will know
All that's glitters
Is not gold

Walk the path
Satan's wrath
Will enter through the back

Door is closed
Think you know
Why the Lord has brought is here

Are you telling me lies
Through your eyes
On and on I'll tell you're wrong
Until the day is done


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Regaining power

Regaining Power.

He walks a lonely road, with his head there in the clouds
And he doesn’t even notice passing strangers
He’s been here ‘bout a thousand years forever all alone
And he’s always looking out for passing danger.

Invisible sometimes he feels, so he tries to seek the glory
As the child calls out in panic “I am here
They have taken all my power so my blossom will not flower
And all around I’ve built a wall of fear

But it’s his pain it is his game
As he prowls around his cage
He lives in vain, is he insane?
And fear ignites his rage.

The truth be plain, the lions mane is what he must acquire
The little boy he must regain his power
And tell the world “I’m here, I’m here” and feed the burning fire
It would take this much to open up his flower.


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How Do I Love You So

In this wretched and dark place,
it's the only world I can show my face.
Ashamed of my love,
A past full of disgrace.
And yet all I want is to see your face.
But it's something I've longed to
erase.
Why do I love you so? 
These crazy feelings they need to go.
You have my heart racing like i need to show,
my love for you but I just really don't know 
how I love you so.
It's been a long wild trip,
but this I must rip.
And thats you from my heart
Yea that'd be a better start.
But here comes that thing again 
you make me want to sing and then
You see right through me
do you know what you do to me
All these things I've done you see
Fueling my insanity.
Make me want to fall apart,
Spill knowledge from this broken heart.
All I ever wanted was to be set free,
Can you really not see all of what you've done to me?


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Where In The World Has Our Passion Gone

Where in the world has our passion gone Like when I couldn't wait to see you everyday It somehow slipped off, and left us here all alone I always thought love was gonna be here to stay We're no longer holding hands, as we walk through the park Like we did when we were kids back in the day No more laying in the grass, under the stars in the dark I never thought we'd be liven life this way Where in the world has our passion gone Like when I couldn't wait to kiss your sweet lips everyday Now all that's left is this cold and lonely home And it looks like that's the way it's gonna stay We're no longer making love, until the cows come home Like we did with every chance back in the day No more "I love you" goodbyes, when we hang up the phone I can't believe life has changed for us this way I'll tell you right now, where our passion has gone It's gone like the love tune records, you used to play Only thing left is cold shoulders, that chill you to the bone All gone with the "I love yous" that you no longer say
Danny Boy: 9-19-13 Another one of those songs I just had to get out. :o)


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A Gray Christmas

The little boy sits by the christmas tree 
Full of light and color
Trying to figure out what all the colors are
He puts his little hands on the ornaments
Trying to see what they are
Feeling them
He steps back and falls over a present
He feels around the box trying to open it
Only seeing alittle 

Mean while on the phone..

his mom is talking to the doctor

"do you think he will be able to see by christmas?" she says
The doctor replies "theres no guarentees, he is 67 % blind, when we did the test with him, he described the color blue as a dark black, and a yellow as a light gray, your son only sees in black and white and im not sure if we can fix that. but we will do our best"

A breathe escapes from her lips as she turns and looks at her son
The doctor explains "his surgery is set for Dec. 7th. be here around 8 am and we will see what we can do, im trully sorry"
He hangs up.

Back in the living room

The boy stands up and walks over to his mom
"mom, have you seen the christmas lights?" he says

She replies "yes sweety i have."

He hugs her leg and says "are they black and white?"

She answers "no sweety" she points to a light bulb on the tree

"this one is blue" she smiles

He grabs the light bulb and repeats "this one is blue" and giggles

She lays him down in his bed as he quickly falls asleep

She sits down on the chair and thinks
"to me. because my son cannot see the beautiful lights and feel the joys of christmas, everything is gray for me. nothing will fill my empty heart"


There are no smiles, when everything is gray, when you cant see the colors of a bright day




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LOVE SONGS MEANT TO LAST

You stole my heart
wouldn't let it go
Two perfect smiles
we were quite a show
Hand in hand
danced in the rain
Romantic lyrics
Love was our name

But seasons change
it colder now
And we lost our way
don't know how
Those same love songs
now make me cry
You walked away
don't know why

I reach for my guitar
echoes from the past
Tremble as I sing
love songs meant to last
Memories come racing in
how it used to be
Magnificent obsession
of only you and me

This broken heart
only you can mend
Where's my soulmate
and my best friend
The living is lost
I just kind of exist
Hung out to dry
in the wind I twist

I reach for my guitar
echoes from the past
Tremble as I sing
love songs meant to last
Memories come racing in
how it used to be
Magnificent obsession
of only you and me

11-27-14


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Please Stay If Just For A while

Please stay a little while longer,
Hold me closer if only for a while,
Cry if you want I give you my shoulder,
Please stay if just for a while,

Let’s sit and gaze at the moon,
While we cuddle after a moments smile,
Feel every spasm so sudden so soon,
Please stay if just for a while,

I have the answer to your every wish,
Be it a kiss, love, put them in a pile,
Let’s live this moment even if in a notion,
Please stay if just for a while,

Feel my haevy breathing down your neck,
As I explore the pleasure not found in a smile,
So pure is love, am unable to find in a speck,
Please stay if just for a while,

Let’s overdose on insomnia and forget about sleep,
As we loose ourselves in quality time for just a mile,
If you be the shepherd am no less a sheep,
Please stay if just for a while,

If you leave I pray don’t say goodbye,
Sadness would drive me to faint and I won’t revive on salvolitile,
Just tell me you’ll be back even if it’s a lie,
Please stay if just for a while,


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You're Not Worth The Crying

You're not worth the crying all night through.
It's not worth the time it takes forgetting you.
You're not worth the crying You're not worth the crying.
Crying never gets me over you.

Why do I cry for you at night the way I do?
Why do I hurt for you at night like I do.
How can I stop the tears from falling like they do?
Crying never gets me over you.

You're not worth the crying all night long.
Crying never tells my heart why love went wrong.
You're not worth the crying You're not worth the crying.
Crying never gets me over you.

Why do I cry for you at night, all night long?
How can I know what made our love go so wrong?
How do I find a way to end this crying song?
Crying never gets me over you!

You're not worth the crying like I do.
Crying only makes me think I still love you.
You're not worth the crying You're not worth the crying.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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Rebuilt

I gave her my love;
She gave me new pain.
I gave her my life;
She used me again.

She was my other half,
My sister, my friend.
The trust I once gave her
Comes to an end.

At first, I was numb.
I felt no pain. There’s no happiness.
But my family rebuilt me,
And gave me what I truly did miss.

I will never be the same;
One sister is gone.
But now I’m happy;
I’m never alone!


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For Bruce Springsteen

for bruce springsteen...


it was a rain-swept monsoon day

way back then, so many moons away

when i felt the music strumming in my veins

setting me free like a runaway horse without any reins

you sang of simple truths, 

your verse spoke to people just like me

in my lonely, wasted, and desolately quiet night

as you screamed out tragic human wrongs, and of everyone's plight

'bobby jean' spoke to me

of that girl down the street

glimpses of whom, we as innocents would furtively meet

and 'the river' that flowed through my ever-barren heart

led me down further roads of thunder

when slowly i finally learnt that the hardest part was fighting on

and never to surrender

to the hard-luck dreams that were born to run

while i danced in the dark 

with memories vivid and stark

even as i whined like that dog who for forever lost his howling bark

and then a 'human touch' came along

and 'better days' seemed real, not just words in a song

and still you sang and swayed and spoke straight into my unseeing eyes

as gardens of secrets were opened, and as your fist punched the skies

in an anger that i too felt and in whose cauldron i too burned

as we saw murder get incorporated, while on its wobbly axis, our fragile world apathetically turned

and then suddenly i was told that i was all grown up

working on a highway of scattered ideals

and absolving myself by sprinkling some coins in a waiting cup

well, after all these years of walking along so many a thorny road

with an armour of your verse covering me, even as i hear them taunt me and even as they continue to goad

but now i can feel myself fading away, into the bleakness of this coming night

just like the ghost of that old tom joad...


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Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


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TORN - Song Lyrics

TORN (song Lyrics)

A part of me wants to leave you alone
A part of me wants for you to come home
A part of me says I'm living a lie
And that I'm better off without you.

A part of me says to think it through
A part of me says I'm over you
A part of me wants to say goodbye
A part of me is asking why?

A part of me wants to leave
But a part of me wants to be here with you
And every time I think we're over and done
You do something to get me back loving you
And you got me just torn.

Torn in between the two
'Cause I really wanna be with you
But something's telling me
I should leave you alone
But I really want to be with you.

And you got me just torn in between the two
'Cause I really wanna be with you.

There were no issues when we started out
It was cool, it was everything that love's about
But something happened, plus I feel it's over now
'Cause I can't understand you now.
Now, I just can't understand you now.

A part of me says it's all my fault
A part of me says he ain't what you want
A part of me says to get my bags
A part of me says I can't do that.

A part of me wants to leave
But a part of me wants to be here with you
And every time I think that it's over and done
You make me fall back in love.

So many times I had my foot out the door
So many times I thought to give you a chance
Thought you'd be a better man
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.

'Cause I keep fighting myself for you
I don't know how much more I can take
But I can't feel this way
You got me so torn...


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our love

our love has come and gone
just like the freshly played melody of our song
though i cannot lie
i will sigh
to you i will say a final goodbye
our love has faded away
like a breeze on a hot summers day
our love has gone out of fashion
and its time to move on
because our love has come and gone
like the faded memory of our song
and with a sigh
to you i say a final good bye


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Stop Breaking My Heart

Take my hand

drag me in 

a world of beauty and wonder

make me feel

like I'm you're only girl

push me away

kiss a girl with a pretty face

and let me know we're through




So will you

stop breaking my heart?

If you love me

you wouldn't let me fall apart

baby please tell me

what we're doing

I gotta know

where it is you want me to go




you say you wanna stay friends

but you still love to take my breath away

every single day

I wait for the night Wehre i won't cry

eoshing you could change your mind

but when you do I wait for goodbye




so will you

stop breaking my heart?

If you love me 

you wouldn't let me fall apart

baby please tell me

what we're doing

I gotta know

where it is you want me to go


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Dreamer's Disease

Written August 5, 2011


Why don't these constellations follow me
Smash-up mercy disease
When you go outside to find the light
In the middle of a cold dark night
Is when I'll ask if all your dreams are dying out

You only got one dance left to rid this dreamer's disease
Hey you over there
Do you give up more than you give
All my friends keep breaking down in two
Is there really any reason to live
When you can only get as much as you give

Davey lives at the end of the sea
So sink on down and look him up for me
And when the curtain's falling
Morning's calling
Won't wake up you got the dreamer's disease
Won't wake up you only get what you give


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Beneath that smile

I hide and cry silently
Beneath the smile I show
Time and space I give willingly
The pain continues to grow
Walking this path lonely
Hopes, faith and love as my 
shadow
I hope and pray solemnly
With promises made to follow
As long as you are happy
That's all I need to know


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Thank you

Thank you for a good lesson,
For the times when you left me alone,
For all my sleepless nights in your house,
For the love that wasn't true,
For the smiles that never warmed me up,
For the looks that never made me stay,
For the realizing that there was nothing
To fight for.

Thank you for your promises that
You have broken in time,
For the words that were ugly,
For the comments that did hurt,
For your screamings, putting me
To work for never saying me
This simple “Thank you!”
Because I thank you.


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Weep and a Moan

Watching the sequence of sound coming out of your mouth...
But the screaming is too loud.
I can speak,
But my brain doesn't want to.

I closed the door.
Silence called for me.
Should I cry or should I run after her?

What have I done to you?
but love you uncontrollably.

Shes then left speechless.
It looks like shes out of breath,
but really I broke her.

She was fragile.
So innocent.

Run, Just run.
A gun raised..
up to her mouth.
And a taint on her heart.


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The Candle's Flame

One burning candle,
One lighting flame
In the middle of the dark
This flame became
The hope and strength,
The width the length
The only light
Shining bright
In the middle of the night
Like a lonely star in the sky
Like a lonely drop of rain falling by,

Desolation,
A SENSATION of fear,
 A sensation of broken tears,
A timorous heart living a hopeless hour
With no power,
With just one flame of light
Shining really bright
In the middle of the night.

Alone the flaming candle stands
Holding no hands
feeble and weak
Its sweat starts to leak
The wind blows
The tremble shows
The fear echoes
Nothing is lending a hand
The darkness is giving commands
Then, Slowly, slowly the flame would fade away
Keeping no trace
And the darkness takes place.

Can’t see the life 
Just feeling the strife
Darkness stabbed the only hopeful light
With an invisible knife
Each one alone
Alive in the dark
Looking at the sky
Seeing a spark....











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Dard

"Badi Tassalli Se Toda Tha Tumne hamara Dil.
Hum Aaj Bhi Mohabbat Nahi Kar Paaye."


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AUTUMN'S TREADMILL

Light is fading
It’s cold, abrasive
Facing longer nights
Green leaves mellow
Brown and yellow
Autumn has arrived

Misty mornings
Clock alarming
Body sense awry
Feel so jaded
Last night’s raving
Flashing through your mind

Drink hot coffee
Rush to catch the
Seven thirty-five
On the treadmill
Routine, thankful
Work keeps hope alive

Simply crazy when, every now and then
You want to bash your head against the wall
No longer feeling worth it all
Like you always thought you would

You live the life you choose
Or are you being used?
Now faking it, doesn’t raise a hit
You forfeit all or run with it
Lucky to be paid
And maybe later, dream of getting laid

Light is fading
It’s cold, abrasive
Facing longer nights
Green leaves mellow
Brown and yellow
Autumn has arrived


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The Lady in Green

She sits alone at the table
in the empty cafe
with her head slightly drooping
as the dark steals the day.

Across a vacant chair waits
more empty than she
in this dull little place
as she sips her coffee.

Dusty dim lights 
reveal a graying bare floor
while the wind whistles through
cracks under the door.

The rain runs down the window
in search of small streams
while her coffee grows tepid
and she gives up er dreams.


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I AM ALONE

I am alone, you are alone,
Come across and started crying,
Coz, pains were alike,
Sedative to each other….

Smiling at you, amusing at you,
Leaving my soul with you,
Make sunrise from your nights,
Leaving my depth with you….

Loving you was a fate, 
Every time makes me pleased,
But! Why it happens?
Why you are so far…?

A few sorrows are filled,
A few are empty.
You too are miserable,
M too answerless….

My every expression queries you,
Do I really need you..?
Lesser is the lane, so is the heaven,
Is kismet brings us close….!!

Why you break me, my trust?
Is that hunger, relies on you..?
I found paradise on you,
Forsaking me alone, alone and alone….



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Running Out

Written September 14, 2011


Is this how I should feel at times like these
Facing crossroads, not ease
RC running miles on plastic tires
And then batteries run dry

Here I lie on a bed of signal fires
Why didn't you stop before the sign
Frozen in time like the watch you didn't wind
I'm bound by thoughts that bind

Am I the dusty classic
Getting shelved in the highest bin
Am I the friend whose forgotten time
Time and again

Is this the way a boy feels
When he's personified again
Is this the way I should feel
Full of regret and gin

Here I lie on a bed of signal fires
Why didn't you stop before the sign?
Frozen in time like the watch you didn't wind
I'm bound by enemies that bind

The days they run on and on
They seem to have no end
I guess that's how it goes
When you're nervous and frozen

Maybe I should have fought the bout
Cause now its as if time is running out
Is this how time is meant to run
So sharp and so high strung

Here I lie on a bed of signal fires
Why didn't you stop before the sign
Stop before the sign
The sign the sign the sign


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Bruises

Bruises
By: IzaDonna

Surrounded by darkness
Emotions hidden away
Bruises disguised with smiles
Never would think it
That my past still haunts me
The scars still completely cover me
I hide them so you can't see
I'm really not at all okay

Chorus
The bottles eases the pain
The dust numbs the ache
Can I ever just forgive?
Instead up building up this hate
I just want to find peace
I want my smile to be real
But its hard to do so
When I can no longer seem to feel

Frightening dreams keep me awake
Forever replaying in my mind
Life seems to be so much longer
This winding road so much harder
Can I just get a release
Beat these inner demons and be free
Or do I have to be forever cursed
With the ghosts of the past

Chorus

I look up at the stars
And close my eyes tight
Its time for last good-byes
Its time to end this tonight
I take one last chug
And fall to the ground
Take one last gasp
And then no longer make a sound

Chorus

I'm finally okay


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EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


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Forever

"FOREVER" was inspired by the pain and heartache people go through.

Dedicated to those who have grief in their life over a loved one, whether they are alive, deceased, sick or in pain.... They will be FOREVER with you in your heart....

Every time I see your face
I wanna feel your warm embrace.
I wanna hold you in my arms,
I'm gonna keep you in my heart... Forever.
Forever... you'll always be there.
I'll hold you close i'll hold you dear,
No matter where you are I know that you will always be here...
By my side, Forever....
By my side, No questions of why... Cuz you ALWAYS care.
Every time I see your face
I wanna feel your warm embrace.
I wanna hold you in my arms,
I'm gonna keep you in my heart.
You'll always be there by my side,
No Questions of why,
Cuz you always care... for me...
Forever...


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Pretty Little Lady

I can see you standing there
Like you never even left
It’s like you’re still here by side
To comfort me when I cry

Dry your eyes
My pretty little lady
Pretty girls don’t cry
Have no fear
My pretty little lady
I’m still here you’ll survive

You know it hurts to say goodbye
To the one you really love
No matter what happens
You’ll always be thought of

Your heart is heart is kind
My pretty little lady
Girls like you are hard to find
Please confide
My pretty little lady
Your heart will always be mine

I can’t wait to see you again
And hold you very close
And never again will I let you go…

So many years have passed by
Finally today is the day
After so long I don’t have to cry
I get to see your face again

Hello again
My pretty little lady
It’s very nice to see you
I’ve missed you so
My pretty little lady
Now can I please marry you

Yes you may


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And Thats MY Only Fear

What comes with your smile
You Smile to define my style
You cry, here comes your tear
Only thing I do fear.

I love and yes I do care
Want me? And I am there
Longing you, such a creature
Yeah I know will never mature.

Riding on my pacing steed 
Relishing you, moving on speed
Closing my eyes, you are there
And thats my only fear.


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Stay

She said baby I have to go,
I said girl you don't need to go,
Because baby I want you to stay,
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

I said baby I'm feelin you,
And I'm fallin in love with you,
Which is somethin I never thought I would do,
But, I did today,
So girl, Why don't you stay,

Chorus:2x
Why don't you stay, 4x
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

She said baby I have to leave,
I said girl I don't want you to leave,
My darling please stay with me,
'Til the night end,
Then come back again,

Because baby we have a chance,
For us to have a great romance,
So, girl take my hand and dance,
You don't have to go,
Baby don't go,
Chorus: 3x

'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,


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Glimpse Of You

Behold my threshold
I saw a face, stunning, lovely 
An angel with eyes, diamond glittered
throwing a light in the dark 
Pretty was her face, and divine her smile.

Saw her passing through for a while
My world stopped and smiled,
I got to see her and it was my luck
A gesture glued my lips and I was wild
After she left I am stuck.

Her brown eyes had everlasting story,
Tears rolling down the cheeks made them shine
She looked fresh even she was sad
Her lovely picture made me mad.


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I'm Just Looking For Tomorrow

I come here when I'm lonely ---
when I get to feeling blue.
I keep looking for tomorrow ---
but, to find today will do.
Sometimes it all seems crazy ---
mixing memories and wine.
I'm just looking for tomorrow ---
in the things I left behind.

It's not always that I'm lonely
when I stop here all alone.
I like to dust off memories
that call this place their home.
The past goes running blindly
through a troubled, troubled mind ---
I'm just looking for tomorrow
in the things I left behind.

The things I left behind me ---
they're not here at all.
They’re just a part of yesterday
That sometimes I recall.
But, their memories, they all live here ---
and, Lord, you know they shine ---
I'm just looking for tomorrow
in the things I left behind.

Yes, I come here when I'm lonely ---
I come here when I'm blue.
I try to find tomorrow ---
when today is not yet through.
And it really does get crazy ---
just memories and wine ---
For I just can't find tomorrow
in the things I left behind.


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I Wasn't There to Fall In love

I wasn't expecting for anything...
Then i saw you, and you change everything...
I wasn't there to capture your eyes...
I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
But your heart is taken by someone else...
And you came after me...
You played with our hearts...
And broke both of our hearts...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
You took my heart away...
You took my soul away...
And left me with nothing...
you left me with huge question mark over my head...
Asking myself why!...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
Yet, you broke my heart...
You broke me while I'm still mending myself...
Still healing my heart...
It takes forever to fix it...
But a second to fall for someone like you...
And now you barely look at me...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And i wasn't looking for one...
But my heart chose you...
And it can't seem to let you go...
I try to look strong and pretend to get over you...
But deep inside, its tearing me apart...
Yes I'm weak more than you ever know...
And I'm not gonna show it to you...
At least not in front of you...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, I fell for you..


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Nature and Me

Nature and Me

The flowers scream out loud, 
My feelings the same a big black cloud.
The flood gates always fill,
But won’t open unless I will.
My story is untold,
It sits in me like unwanted cold.
The tree’s always sway, 
Just like my cry far, far away.
My heart aches,
But I never give what it takes.
The nature is like me,
Alone, devoid and crying my same plea. 


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Burnin' Knuckles

   Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
There it goes,
But you don't even know your destination so,
With a shake of your head,
On goes the trip,
And a whispered three words, 
This isn't it.

  Guided by a light,
Of thirty or fourty feet,
But your being driven by a heart,
That has forgotten how to beat.
 
   Oh No,
Here we go,
Another mile turns into another night,
Another day to drive right outta sight,
Ohhh it's a rollercoaster horror ride.
When looking over burning knuckles into the road,

   Oh it's a roller coaster horror ride,
Lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
An' there it goes,
But you don't even know destination so,
With a shake of your head,
On goes the trip,
And a whispered three words,
This isn't it.
 
   On it goes_ this isn't it,
On it goes_ this isn't it,
Your trip_ Into the unknown,
While lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
And guided by a light,
An' a heart_ that has forgotten how to beat.

  Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
Strainin eye's on a light that guides,
Our way through what we dont know.

   Ohh it's a rollercoaster horror ride,
Being guided by the lonely nights,
While lookin over,
Burnin' knuckles,
Into the road.


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On the outside looking in

There is a girl
With sparkling eyes
A peaceful disposition 
A brilliant mind
She is beautiful
Who is this girl?
No one knows
But I know
I also know her pain
I know her sadness, loneliness
How she is addicted to it
Wondering if she will ever be whole
I know her heavy heart
Waiting for the day it will feel again
I know her pensive mind
Exploding with silent screams wishing to break out
I know her guilty eyes, flooding with tears
I know this girl
Who is wishing for the day when the pain will subside
I know her
 Because her and I, are one


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Memory

It is a wonder
How quickly 
you became
a memory
and how quickly
my heart resigned itself
And gave up hope
that you even
remember me.


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Broken Hearted Sea

Nobody searching for me
On this broken hearted sea
Tell me how this came to be 
Alone with all this lonely

I need to break myself free
From this broken hearted sea
Help me if you can I plea
God I need your advocacy

~Leonard Napierskie


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Strings

If I hold on to strings,
That tend to slip away,
Does that mean I love things,
That I know will never stay?
If I hang on to a love, 
that just holds me down,
Does that mean that my wings,
Won’t get me off the ground?
If I hold on to lies,
That I only half believe,
When I look in your eyes,
Will you look back at me?


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Bones

Written February 25, 2013


She carried her bones down the old dirt road
And buried herself down in Ohio
Between the reels and the stacks of the railroad tracks
How did we know she would never turn back
Now our heads hung low we're regretting that


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Meaningful Screw You's

I'm done with this I've had enough of this/
Slushy trip since Hell Paso son just quit
This empty pursuit
Of letting the past keep livin' through you/
Go ahead and equip the damn truth
It is that simple to choose
What state of the neighbor of the temple you use
But you're just so adamant to worship/
Every preliminary negative
Which is why you have sentiment for those sedatives
Want evidence man your head has been/
Set on making your *****Titanic as
You steer into a gigantic crash/
Without any ****ing idea what effect thy absence has/
On the kids and on me too/
My heart feels ripped the honest truth/
To see you empty as your holes in the wall
You're like a ghost to us all/
Pale as the Seroquil pills you down/
I want to help but under the meds what you feel gets drowned/
I have the inauspicious fear you'll end up just like Tommy
That's why I pray every night/ I can't lose you Robbie


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


Why can't you just forget the past
Take some time to look at the bigger picture and not be back in a flash
We're Kruger (pronounced close to sounding like Kroger)/ the fear you helped restore gives me bags
And I'm beyond tired of takin' attacks from your last-
Ing grudge for my darker days/
I love you but I wish to part our ways/
There's only so much my heart can take
In terms of holes and you immerse me in 'em the Spartan way/
It's not our choice we're physically far away/
And yes half the reason is me that our spark gave way/
But this time it's your fault that our world is shaking
You shut me out because the ears of another girl were waiting/
It seems that even for Britney your concern's decaying
It's ****ed up/ 'cause you never acknowledged how much I changed/
'Cause of our rapport me and my fam are pretty much estranged
**** these games you love to play/ 'tween now and then nothin's changed
Good luck not lovin' me as much as pain


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


For a year it's been suicide with clues to find solutions I/
Don't think you're usin' my heartful l advice/ damn dude have I
Not been full of time so you could find/ reasons for you to not be blue and live/
But everytime I cope a sit and let you vent/ you walk off and do the opposite/
Talk about exhausted *****try listenin' to all your promises
And problems it's/ a shame how it's all turned out
I'm so burnt out/
I'll be the last to say this won't work out/
If you take your anger out on me again like I'm a dating spot/
Speakin' of those feelings that you refrain from not (knot)-
Icing was it honesty/ or rants of despar (as in spar) ity exasperated by deprav (as in im"prov") ity/
Or is there a real fervor (as in carni"vore") for me
If so then why you ignor (same as above) ing me/
For a Vai's you say you are not strong enough to close
Go **** yourself with a rubber hose
I don't care where the **** it goes/
I was there when no one was and this' the thanks I get
Never was I a dick to you so why'd you wank me *****/
My tears have turned into repressed anger/
For you a brother to me now a depressed stranger
That I have to put up longer than my dress' hanger


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


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Can't Be With You

I know how you feel for me
But im too scared to take a step forward
You know i got hurt before
You dont know how painful it was
I wasnt sure i would even get over it, but i did
Now, nothing is the same
My feelings is unreliable
I know that i like you
I know that i love you
I know that i have fallen for you
And i know that i wanna be with you
But i cant
It's not that easy not wanting to be with you
Cause every moment
I think of you
I think of what your doing
I think of what your thinking
You're on my mind all the time
And sometimes you make me speechless
That cute smile you make
So many great thing i see in you
Makes me wonder if i even deserve you
Now, you're talking to me about the future
Baby i'm not even ready for the present
Tell me what to do
Cause my mind is blank
But my heart is filled with emotions


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The Journey Home

Everything around me just doesn’t feel real
Nobody can understand how I really feel
There’s gotta be more to life than this
Everything is leaving me in such a bliss

It feels like everyone is tearing me so far down
Even if I scream it seems like no one hears a sound
This all feels like a world of nothing
Falling so fast not being able to hold on to something

Listening to every single word that people say
Only is taking me to my own dismay
Trying to get out of this mess
Maybe this is only a test

Hoping to find something meaningful in this world of hurt
Not matter what I do I need to stay alert
Out in this lonely dark place
Hoping to find at least one decent face

Time is running so thin 
Now I’m getting worried from within
This evil creature is staring into my eyes
Implanting such terrorizing lies

No matter how much I scream
I can’t escape this evil dream
Living in this cold and lonely place
Terrors I must always face

The only thing that gets me through
Is knowing one day I’ll be saved and be with you
Now I’ll just sit here and pray
Praying with me you’ll always stay


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Three Lonely Days

                                                  Just three lonely days remain,
                                                  and my life will have no disdain;
                                                  just three lonely nights to go,
                                                  and you will see my heart aglow;
                                                  the loneliness that is in my heart,
                                                  of my history will be a part;
                                                  loneliness that surrounds my being,
                                                  is something that I wont be seeing;
                                                  loneliness that is in my mind,
                                                  will be totally gone, I will find;
                                                  the loneliness that chokes my life,
                                                  it slashes my flesh like a knife;
                                                  from my life this will all be past,
                                                  as our love will forever last.


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By My Side

These four walls became too small
I’m climbing them
Don’t wanna fall
Have you been with me at all
Or is this forever lonely soul
Or is this forever lonely soul

You have gone and now I’m lost
Being chased by your sweet ghost
Grabbing knees and burying face
Bestow my mind some blissful space

REFREN: 

Sit by my side
Wrap me with your arms
Tell me it’s all right to cry
For the last time
For the last time
 Sit by my side
 Look into my eyes
 Tell me its all right to cry
  Keep the paradise


My life is moving on 
Strings are all now torn
Whomever you belong
My soul won’t stop to moan

I’ll let my spirit free
To make your blind eyes see
The girl I’ve always been
And this time I will win
And this time I will win

REFREN:


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Never Be the Same

I wake up sittin' on my bed,
I have these thoughts runnin' through my head.
I just cant figure out a way,
of how I'm gonna get through this day.
Oh, come and take my breath away,
I'll never be the same,
I'm not ready for today,
But it's gonna happen... Anyway.
I dont know how to understand,
I dont know whats, happening..
I can't do this on my own... No.
I'm starting to feel like i'm all alone... all alone.
I wake up sittin' on my bed,
I have these thoughts runnin' through my head.
I just cant figure out a way,
of how I'm gonna get through this day.
I need some juice, I need a Jolt!
Or maybe get hit my a lightning bolt!
some things will never be the same.....
Oh, come and take my breath away,
I'll never be the same,
I'm not ready for today,
But it's gonna happen... Anyway.
But it's gonna happen.... Anyway.


Details | Lyric | |

DIGGING INTO THE BEATLES' MIND

How much sorrow can you take,
when all you think of is true joy?
Very lonely but not hopeless
until another sunrise comes...
you will be wishing, wide-awake,
for the sweet lips of that young boy!


O lonely girl listening to music and imagining love,
you shouldn't get wings and turn into a dove,
because boys don't believe in keeping promises...
they find another foolish girl somewhere else!
O lonely girl barely fourteen refrain from desire,
that desire that can only end up in dire!


It's okay to dream as teens do to vent their rage,  
it's fine to have a fantasy and wait for the phone to ring;  
and it's quite normal to think of boys at this age,
but be warned of the first heartbreak from a tender wink,
it may lead to something you are not ready for,
so keep on dreaming and shut that darn door!


Towards midnight you hear his voice again and feel fine,
it must be one of those dreams when he says, " Little doll,
you are the prettiest one among others so slim and tall!"
And he goes on, " I made you a promise you'll be all mine!"
Oh, dreamer so innocent: a pillow case is all you hold,
he's not yours by any means...he's a teaser and way too old!  
 

Your silly head is listening to the song he wrote,
a lovely love song he sent to your cellphone,
falling in love is not learned from a romance book:
words mislead and confuse the ones who are alone;
you may love him dearly, but all he does is using you for his own delight... 
he may love you, but he'll sing his song to someone who's not too bright.       


Inspired by the following songs:

Across The Universe
Lady Madonna
Lucille
Lonely Rita
Blackbird
Northern Song


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The Rebel

Dank, cold, unperturbed indifference,
Untouchable, yet touching all,
Unresolved in meaning,
Still creating each and every fall,
Every whim and leaning.

Touché pas! A cry of weary hate,
And will not accept a helping hand,
‘Till death! Brazen adverse in face of fate,
And alone in piteous stand…

Lone wolf we cry, thy fate is nigh,
Yet stands he still resisting,
That love should die, that only tie,
In error still persisting…


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EYE Don't See -Part 1-

My eyes
Pour forth feelings
That I’ve felt in the past
They make my heart ache…
Take it all away…
Oh my God…
They’re making me sink in dismay

When will they break away?
When will they give me a break?

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye don’t see
A happy ending in this scene 

My eyes
Journeys into the unknown
Who knows what will happen…
They’re like hidden treasure…
They’re buried far below…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near? 

Oh my God…
They’re driving me insane
When will they see my reflection?
When will they heal the infection?

Eye don’t feel
Raindrops of hope and relief 
All I feel…is grief…
Eye sense no peace…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Does He hear
My supplications?
Does He sense 
My fear?

My eyes
Conceals the tears that dare to spew out
I feel trapped and lost without a doubt…
They erase my delight…
They seek my hurt…
Oh my God…
They’re casting me away into the perilous sea

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace throw out my fear?

Eye don’t see
A ship in sight…to save me from my demise
My lifeless body...
Drifts away in the wild ocean...
Without a sound...
Without emotion...

Eye don’t see
A rope to hold on to…
My hope for peace
Has drowned…


Details | I do not know? | |

and I will come

…and I will come.
When the first snow falls down/ 
when the fall gives its rights/ 
to the winter/
you know I will come/
for good or for bad/
I’ll board the train/
Passing by / stations/ and countries/
I promised/ and I remember/
You said “there’s no fortuitous meetings/

…and I will come.
When the first snow falls down/
When you’ll lose the trace/
When my firmest snickers/ wipe out/
I will/ I will come…
Unexpectedly/ knowing solely the door/
Just the road / for sure/
Before/ take you I’ll ask/
“are you ready to go?” / 
You are ready/ I know/
All the noise doesn’t matter/
I don’t haste/ will be later/

…I will come.
When it finally turns out/
That November is overthrown by December/
When the first snow falls down/
Will be clear/ that nobody is remembered/ 

And I will come…
Somewhere in chest/ between ribs/
You slashed me/ with thoughts/ 
I can feel it with lips/ crawling under my cloths/
Our world is alive/ our life/ we’re alike/
And I….

I will come.
When the first snow falls down/
When the death is changed into fate/
When the winter gives up/ 
To wait/ for spring/
to stay with shining sun/
I will come.


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Yesterday

Yesterday,
I want to know where'd  you go, 
you left my night so long.
Yesterday,
I want to know where'd you stay, 
did you feel that something was wrong?
   
Did you call out my name,
did you feel any pain, 
Oh Baby,
was it the same?

Yesterday,
I watched the night,
came and take my whole day away.
Yesterday,
I watched the light
like our Love, slowly did fade.

It was just yesterday
I heard you say, I Love you,
was it the same oh Baby,
was it the same?

Yesterday,
I didn't turn out the light
cause Baby I was so filled with fright.
Yesterday,
you left me so alone,
Oh Baby
why didn't you come home?

It was just yesterday
that I heard you say, I Love you,
was it the same,
was it the same,
Yesterday?


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Song of the Raped Virgin

Yet…
Life shows you pain before the smiles
Even though youth has cried for innocence:
Outside the soul one bleeds and hides,
Inside the flesh one dies of nonsense.
When turning pages you see humble hopes:
The book of your life is already ended,
The sea you paint is without boats,
The land you plant is thoroughly cursed.
O, that you wish,
Steps away from you are!
The garden you live in is a grave where to be burned;
And dark shades in your eyes made the night of no star-
To fade out is a grace for those scars you have earned!
And perish all alone…
Like the fresh air in the cold,
Like an old tree the day of thirst,
Or a martyr when to burst…
That shame of your birth must be the same when to hold-
Those lies you tell:
As you are not only the first…


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Away

All you feel is pain,
Self-destruction and sorrow.
Please make it go away,
How do we survive and see tomorrow?
It's hard to stay upbeat,
everyone tries to compete.
I know that I am strong,
But there's somethin inside, that feels a bit wrong.
I cant explain these emotions and thoughts,
I need to know, with myself, what is going on..
All you feel is pain,
Self-destruction and sorrow.
Please make it go away,
How do we survive and see tomorrow?
Trust has come and gone so easily,
And people have taken advantage of me,
and my Hospitality, oh.... please...
Take them, away.. from.. me.
All you feel is pain,
Self-destruction and sorrow.
Please make it go away,
How do we survive and see tomorrow?
All you feel is pain,
Self-destruction and sorrow.
Please, make it... go..... Away...


Details | Rhyme | |

EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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Nobodys Friend

Nobody wants or needs me
Nobody hears or sees me
Nobody cares if I live or die
Nobody knows if I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody thinks about me
Nobody calls or contacts me
Nobody asks if I am alive or dead
Nobody believes that I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody listens to what I say
Nobody hears my thoughts
Nobody speaks ne’er a word
Nobody cares that I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody can hear the things I do
Nobody senses that I am hear
Nobody regards me as a threat
Nobody thinks that I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody will know until the end
Nobody can now see my face
Nobody even feels my presence
Nobody realizes I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody now sees me as I am
Nobody except he who made me
Nobody can stop me and my plan
Nobody but the Father and Son
For I am Nobody’s Friend

© Eugene Harvey


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Alone in the Sky

A lonely star, up in the sky, that's all I see from the city tonight.
But then you came, and made it two, I couldn't believe I fell in love with you.
And when you left, I stood alone, a lonely star in the sky tonight.
I shine alone, I shine out bright, I am the truth in the sky tonight.
I need no help, I want no fight, I stand alone in the sky tonight.

It's been quite a week, this week it's been everything.
Up, down, turn around, take me off the ground.
I know who you are, but I am lost inside this part of you and me, who are we supposed to be.

La da da da, la da da di da da da da (x2)

Don't tell me you love me, Don't tell me you need me.
Don't tell me you miss me, it's fate babe, it's destiny.
Don't tell me I don't know why
It'll just make me cry (x3)
I can already see it all in your eyes.

La da da da, la da da di da da da da (x2)

I shine alone, I shine out bright, I am the truth in the sky tonight.
I need no help, I want no fight, I stand alone in the sky tonight.

La da da da, la da da di da da da da (x2)


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Outcry of a broken heart

Even my mind not stilled by silence
my thoughts outraged with hurt and hate
as Im dumbfounded with confusion
leaving the cause to no debate,
I cannot tell you what is wrong
to tell you means I'd have to trust,
and my heart no longer feels willing,
beating only cause it must.

I feel a dead man live my life
I see his cold abandoned heart,
I hear his agonising cries
as he is torn more apart,
knowing no peace, no rest I find
having no comfort, stuck in a bind
a vagabond, alone in his life
Ive been cut off, betrayal was the knife.

awaiting death, and still much worse
my whole life upon this earth
seems like a scheme to take my worth
and bring me to nothing,
such is my curse
and i fear the effects
may never reverse
and make believe that I am cursed.
the way I feel too great for words
too great to bear such constant hurt
my soul depressed and left prostrate
before God to help, I hope it works. . .


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A Change

Notice the change
We thought that things would be better.  Fighting for something now; just not what we had.  Take me back to the beginning.  It started with the best intentions; with big smiles, happy thoughts and dreams that weren’t too big for us.
Couldn’t live without your touch so I thought
There are more tears than smiling faces ; days are shorter , time ran to fast; now minutes are too long.  Not another sad poem just truthful words that have visualize the destruction of emotions and feeling without the foundation.
It wasn’t like this in the beginning we were winners and wining.  Now we are not even 5th place.  Falling behind fast, wasn’t meant to last through the struggle and the lack of understanding.  That simple taste of reality, your feelings changed for me, I noticed when the touches stopped.  I noticed when making love turned to sex and sex a chore and just like your feelings there were no more.    No more happy thoughts about a future.  No more thoughtful touches; No more kisses with the passion; this is for the Bird our kissing are just pecks.  You’re talking about walking away?  Ill hold the door and the floor waits on you when things just doesn’t go your way.  Tantrums; what more can I say about this… this... This thing that we thought we had is just now something very sad. Time wasted
I can’t, I won’t fight anymore.  Take your mental note on that. You’re wondering eyes tells me the lies the truth of not wanting me around, you’re better off.   I agree and see clearly what’s going on; your reliving the past.  How many were there?  Nothing last when moving too fast and we allow life to just pushes us around.  It has to be something about something.  More than you would ever tell me. Just let go, my mental note book full.  No more space the taste are bitter and yes it’s more than just the changes that we endured.  It just wasn’t what we thought; never was. Noticing the change; it will never be the same again.


Details | I do not know? | |

Passion in D-Major

Passion in D-Major


Feeling, the sensuous brush-
strokes on a canvas,

swirling,

to a symphonic crescendo,

of our shared heartbeats,

fading between the notes,

feeling your soft body entwined 
with mine,

your form bathed in my infinite 
kisses,

our orchestral desire rising,

conducting a shared fusing of 
passion,

... the music echoing ...

over the precipice,

on the brink of dazzling rainbow 
hues,

lost in the void,
of an eternal instant,

plunging through the depths of 
rhyme,

pleading,
forever pleading,

for a prolonged,

bouquet of shared time.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Missing you

I can’t sleep with out you
I'm going crazy wondering
Where you’re to night

I call your phone
You just let it rang
You’re squeezing my heart so tight

I should’ve hold you back
When you walk out the door
But my pride got in my way

Oh no, where Are you baby
Oh no I am going crazy alone
Missing you

I want to hold you close
Take you in my arms
And tell you how much I love you

But you are so far away
Away from me
I wonder if you’re thinking of me too

Oh no, where Are you baby
Oh no I’m going crazy alone
Missing you

I try my best to pretend
So it doesn’t shows
When I go out with friends

But I’m dying inside
And no body knows
Of the pain that never ends

When I close my eyes
I see your face
And my tears fall to the ground

I long to hear your voice
Pick up the telephone
But it doesn’t make a sound

Oh no, I can’t live without you baby
Oh no I’m going crazy alone
Missing you

I try my best to hold on
But I don’t know how much more
My heart can take

Please come back home
Do make me I bleed
For just one mistake

Oh no, I can’t live without you baby
Oh no I’m going crazy alone
Missing you

And if my hearts stops
Just put me in a hole
And done even write a name

And just leave her alone
It’s not her fault
I only have me self to blame

Oh no, I can’t breathe baby
Oh no I’m going crazy alone


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Deprived Pride

Pride
of this i wont be deprived
I know this is going to break me
but just let me be
no better then the next person 
that im sitting here judging
she only 15 
and yeah she got a son
but here i sit
throwin' a rebellious fit
tryin' to hurt everyone around me
but little do I know
I did this on my own
but you see
I got this thing called Pride
and of this im refuisng to be deprived


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Hey Bartender

Written 2010


Flashing lights and sounds roll by
Hear the sound of muffled sighs
Sullen words cannot express
Just confess, and lift it off your chest
Told the priest would hear your cries
If you don't feed him blatent lies

Oh he's your only friend 
But he don't want to hear your sins
He's off doing his own thing
But it's far from priestly things
Oh he wont look in your direction
Let alone show you affection
Even when he hears your plea,
"Hey bartender please!"
Gone are all your hopes and dreams
All you ever sought to be
Heard from all across the room
Are many empty pleas,
"Oh won't you pity me?"

You can close your eyes and count to 10
Again and again
But he wont come back to help his fellow men
He was your only friend, but he left you all alone
To wallow in your sin
He failed to listen to your prayer
Now your lost in dark dispair

You can hide behind your cries
But he'll see into your eyes
Until the time you leave his bar
And wobble to your car


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Lost Love

Your kisses will never amount
to any other kiss.
Your touch will never amount
to any other feelings.
Your breath-taking touch
and your sweet tender voluptuous kisses
was like paradise
and it's something that I'm missing.

Your smile, I envision it in my dreams
but it's no longer reality.

Your voice, I use to hear in my thoughts
but now everything is silent.

Your aroma was the smell of a delegate rose
but now it's somewhere hidden in the mist
and I can see you standing there
I can see you very clear
you're whispering something
that I cannot comprehend.
It seems like your saying
"Lost Love'
that's when images begin to fade,
voices begin to change,
baby we lost the faith,
you was suppose to be my foundation of trust.
I guess nothing remains the same.
Lost Love.


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Real Talk

I feel so alone
Even when people are around
But I still keep it moving
Like I’m coming off the rebound
And the world is taking shots at me
For years, even the people that I’ve known
So can you blame me for the change? 
That’s why I depend on my own
It’s the world verse one man
So I got to play zone
And this ain’t The Book of Eli
But I sense what’s going on
The weather is so hot
But the world is so cold
Forget all the pressure
This man will never fold
And yes umm, 
I know there’s a lot to say
I’ve been homeless before
I won’t let anybody put me back in that place
I’m going to feed mine
Even if I got to take it from your plate
What you going to do about it? 
You can say it to my freaking face
You can say I am a disgrace
Cause I heard it my whole life
I take your rights and say they’re wrong
Turn my wrongs and make them right
And if you have a problem
You can bring them to the light
You fake people are camouflage to the dark
As a predator you stay in my sights
And I’m happy if you’re offended
Cause that’s the way I have to be 	
I’m sorry you won’t make it to the top
Cause I refuse to accept defeat
I’m so high
I can’t even be reached
So call me a star cause that’s the view
When you are looking at my feet
And I can keep going
Going on more pages
But the fact of the matter is
That you can never ever change this
And watch how you stare yall
Go ahead and change your faces
Cause this is not Face Off
But I can leave you all faceless


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Say goodbye

Start: I try to put myself in you shoes but I still can't understand, the reasons you handed me to justify your feelings for another man. No matter how hard I try I can't deny this lie. So I guess it's the best for us to say goodbye. End:


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Nothing Matters

This poem's in the epiphany challenge, although it was not written with any challenge in mind. It was written July 23, 2013.


Felt a snowflake
melt in front of
universal mind.

Watched the day break
dusk defy your
summer dreams in kind.

Weathered heartthrob 
without sunrise,
everything’s okay.

Nothing matters
just keep moving,
night might turn to day.

Felt the earth shake
sky is falling,
someone's down below.

Watched the waves break
water's frothing,
I don't want to know.

Weathered heartthrob 
without sunrise,
everything’s okay.

Nothing matters
just keep moving,
night might turn to day.


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Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


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Glo

Written September 11, 2013


Well I was just a boy
Living down in San Fransisco
In the city by the bay
And I wanted more from life
Than my childhood could give
Every time I crossed a bridge
The whole town burned to the ground

And then one day
I met you down by the blood bank
In that sketchy part of town
Where the hipsters turn around
And drugs roam free
Just like you and just like me
Just like how we used to be

You are my archangel
You sing to me, Gabriel
You tell me where to find
The gravel on the street
And you hold me to the ground
When I hear Peter call for me
And the lights rush to the scene

As I lie here in the alley
Sweet dreams of crystal valleys
Waltz deep within my mind
As the canvas fades to black
And the vultures sweep below
Much like falling dominoes
Set in motion by the glo


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I Gave You Right Back

I remember when you gave yourself to me,
But I gave you right back.
Because I couldn’t stop hurting you,
And I hated doing that.
I can’t be selfish as I wanna be,
and much as I need your touch.
I can’t have that follow me.
Enough just might be enough.

But love comes all the way back around,
I didn’t know you then and I don’t know you now.

Hearts beat,
Trust me,
I asked mine to stop beating aloud.
Tears are dreams,
That have to flee,
Cause they’d been cast out. 
And smiles speak,
Yours talks to me,
But I replied with a frown.
Cause I can’t keep this up,
Enough is now enough.
Don’t look for me I’m gone now.


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Anthem of the Broken

A promise whispered so sweetly,Who could 
have ever known? Slowly, I let go of the past 
For you. Let go of everything and started anew. 
Unfortunately, our first kiss wasn't your last.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

I never thought you'd end  up playing this game.
Those walls I put up, they came down for only you.
I'm alone, you're gone. But I can't help to remember 
How it used to be. Remember the man I once knew.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, this will be,
This will be,
The anthem of the Broken.

Nothing can change the past, nothing will bring you back.
This heart's just been broken too many times before.
So many scars and so many stitches tell the story of who
I was. I only want to be able to walk away from this affair. 
 
You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, the anthem of the broken.

I watched you walk away, watched you move on like we 
Never happened. You never looked back, never gave me a chance
 Just kept walking, Didn't know What to think, 
Couldn't understand why I fell for your lies, why I agreed to this romance.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Oh, Broken into tiny pieces, so small and delicate.
It hurts me more than you'll ever know to pick 
them up. tiny pieces of glass cut my hands as I work, 
Trying to repair my heart, why did I have to love you, dick?

Now I know the truth, Now I can see through your lies, Saw how 
Every promise you made was fake as soon as it was spoken.
Here I go, standing in a wasteland, watching you leave
And softly signing the anthem of the broken.


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Alone

I jus wanna be alone
I don’t wanna feel no pain
I don’t want you callin my phone
Or tell me anything- anything
I jus want to be sad
That’s how I felt for days
And it seems like every time I see you
I’m trapped in a daze- in a daze
I don’t want you to remember me
And I won’t remember you
Neva again will you be here for me
After this we so not cool- so not cool
I’m callin you out
You know you did me wrong
What was that all about? 
What was really goin on? - goin on? 
Goodbye I’m gone
This is me turning my back
I laugh like it’s a joke
You will neva get me back- get me back
All I hear is echoes
 Then I don’t hear a thang
Now I keep my head low
While this poem I sang- yeah I sang


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Faith Healer

The odor is intolerable
Like a foul beast clinging to the end 
I can barely subdue its subterfuge 
But here I am, 
I’m standing here of sound and mind
Waiting for the time that answers my own questions

Can it race with the fires of Orc?
Doubtful, but it can jog steadily can’t it?
The weather is awful, filled with sounds
Penetrating a document not written
It pains me to fight through the night
Not because it’s dark, but because I am just a shadow.

Lester drives but
Motional lasts forever
Still driving
Still crying
And slowly dying as time waves on
Like oceans that can’t be seen.

Nobody cares and everyone listens
Ironic, like a bible that holds lies and deception
Can its will be pierced?
Can freedom stay free?
Is it worth it to stay hooked when everyone around
Seeks liberty?


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Someone, Someday

It’s so hard to start
It’s so hard to finish
It feels as if all that you've accomplished will someday be diminished 
And it won’t matter if you become somebody some day
Because someone will easily take your place 
Steal your ideas 
And make a living off you, THEIR way

It’s sad but true
Every mutha f**ka 
Will take a piece of your mind
and will somehow ultimately f**k you

not physically but mentally
making you think 
you’re not one of a kind
their getting all the fame 
while everyone leaves you behind

leaving you to feel like a failure 
people telling you to talk to God, 
he’ll have the answer

I pray, looking up at the ceiling
Hoping he’ll will give me a reason….
To keep going on with my life and my ideas
But all I’m left with are clones of my feelings
Washed up on canvases with some else’s fake veneers 


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a new york warmth

On and on  I don’t wanna go home
Just the lovely words of another sad song
Holding on, it’s too late to go home
Just the lonely words of another sad song

Every now and then
I don’t wanna turn left 
Just the path I martyr 
On the way to no where
Could you envision me 
No longer sadly
These are the lovely words 

As we go
On and on  I don’t wanna go home
Just the lovely words of another sad song
And we sing
Holding on, it’s too late to go home
Just the lonely words of another sad song

Back and forth 
Are the trials we cure
Would you hold me more
If you found me impure 
And we’re holding on 
Cause it’s too late to go home

As we go
On and on  I don’t wanna go home
Just the lovely words of another sad song
And we sing
Holding on, it’s too late to go home
Just the lonely words of another sad song

On the park side of town
Silence is a muffled sound
No apologies
Like sea gulls 
We are standing free
We’re holding on 
Cause there’s no better place to be

So let it snow
Go here, there, and before
She asked me to leave 
I kindly closed the door
Theses are the times 
We wish not to endure
We look for warm meals
Band aids
A sore throat to absorb the cure
Lungs commenced to whispers 
Profoundly within your ear 
A little something
To keep your thoughts pure
I could ask for no more
Than sun lit days 
That hover above the clouds 
And shadow 
The doubts we adore


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No More

No more kissing you insanely
Feeling passion blush across my body
The warmth of your hands to guide me
No more feeling your heart beat next to mine
The sweat of our bodies meeting, cling
Cling onto one another lost becoming one
No more, rhythmic lovemaking in our own time.
Lost in our own obtuse formation of tangling 
limbs
Struggling to please each others' fixation
Delighted and thrilled 
No more to you the man I love
No more love 


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a midnight wish

There’s a chill in the cold 
And it’s going nowhere 
She says it’s going to get worse 
Before it get better 
But we’ll hold on like stormy weather

If midnight falls then I’m homeless 
She says so calmly 
The winds going to take me away
But I don’t want to go lonely 

She likes to think
That you can carry on for sometime
She marries for the day
But she yields from the moments 

There’s everything you hope for
A map for the road
A picture for your wall
A lasso around the moon
Dawn, she's going to come to soon

She smiles softly
If midnight falls then it’s hopeless
She says so calmly
The winds going to take me far away
But I don’t want to leave you lonely 

She concludes
You can’t take away from a man
What he’s already lost 
But she insist 
That bubble baths and a warm massage
Will take away your Sunday misery

i fear it all sometimes
i hear your screams
and i wonder
if you're calling
but i can't reach you 
no i couldn't reach you
i tried but i just couldn't save you


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Trying To Heal The Pain

I'm walking this long black road searching for a sign
My feet are getting tired there's tears in my eyes
Memories of the past are all that now remains
As I Search for your arms trying to heal the pain

Now when I listen to the wind I hear echoes of goodbye
Walking on this hot tar beside this painted line
Praying now with each step in the pouring rain
Searching for your arms trying to heal the pain

I try to stop and rest but tears keep filling up my eyes
The nights are cold and lonely no stars are in the sky
My heart keeps beating faster pounding out your name
As I Search for your arms trying to heal the pain

The clouds have all turned gray where white used to be
As I continue on this road with every walking beat
Trying to hear your voice as I start another day
Searching for your arms trying to heal the pain

I try to stop and rest but tears keep filling up my eyes
The nights are cold and lonely no stars are in the sky
My heart keeps beating faster pounding out your name
As I Search for your arms trying to heal the pain

August 2, 2007


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Captivity

I was captured at a young age
Heart filled with pain
Mind filled with rage.
I waited for a chance to break out
But too confused
Filled with fear, flooded with doubt.
After a few years I broke free
Only to be captured again
Locked up, indefinitely.
I never got to fly on my own
In captivity is how I’ve lived
These walls all I've known.
My children will never see captivity
For they belong to the captor
And he has set them free.


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Loney Streets

Growing up nobody helped me succeed
it's rough lonely when you cuffed to the streets
nothing is sweet I need a blessing for me.
I'm still sane from the stuff that I've seen
lucky I was a strong youngen blessed with a gift.
No big brother but a small one
I'm God's son look what them Mosque halls done
now I have lessons to give.
Forget friends up in school they status
had two faces plus I noticed attitudes was malice.
Who's parents
had a bruised marriage
confused few balance they views
the ruler damaged a jewel.
Banished my pen for year and walk the blocks and thought,
of that Diamond in the sky I'm like I cannot stop.
Heart holds dreams and goals
it's not hard
I have to try alot of rhymes dissposed.
Intertwine with the beat so my mind can mold
it's just a message for the blinded souls
up in these lonely streets.


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REMAINING

if i can get the time back
if i could take the love back
if can undo the results that we are facing

i just wonder what the outcome could be
 if there was never a you and me
if we never became something worth it
if we never lost out on what we wanted

you amuse me so
you belittle me so
ohh you hurt me though

no matter what i do
or no matter who im with 
its you its you
i want 
its you who just 
wont leave my heart

this world and its ways your heart
and its days
the pain and my feelings
this heart that wont do any healing
this voice that stutters 
because of the sound of you
your way this day 


ends sad away gray 
left with shame and a broken heart 
that may forever remain


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Injured Pigeon

I shiver from the cold
while  my blood boils hot
I feel as if I'm an injured pigeon
looking for food in an empty
parking lot

Lost in the abyss that I call home
this feeling is what's comfortable
all that I've ever known.

I turn to wood as I call you up
on the phone
I get no where, only a lost signal
which reminds me that I'll forever be alone.


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DREAMS

DREAMS

Travel in peace, dreams of mine,
Into the land of color, the wonderful land of noble memories,
So that my blind spirit might see through the turquoise moon's eyes,
So that my tired spirit finds its peace in your sacred cradle.
Fly with the breath of Freedom,
So that you may sow the seed of young hope
In the courtyard of heavenly gates.

Travel in peace, dreams of mine,
To honor the many tears haunted by memories,
To honor the many stars haunted by lonely nights,
To honor the many winds haunted by prayers of the unfortunate.

Oh, Destiny, how heavy the cross must be to a dreamless man.
If I had to be born again
In a poor cradle,
I would once again agree to walk the dark streets of poverty,
If only my dreams would not abandon me.

Travel in peace, dreams of mine,
Into distant valleys of saturnine silences.
Find your humble home
In the infinity of human tragedies,
So that you may fraternize many unfortunates
With your merciful existence,
So that my lonely spirit can see the magnificent light
In the fraternal souls of people I hold dear.
  
©Walter William Safar
  
  



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Waiting silently

Seeking salvation towards eternity
Realised all my sins and iniquity
No amount of apology
Can ease her pain and agony
I accept all discipline willingly
For myself and all whom I've hurt wrongfully
All I ask is for her to be always happy
The promises I will fulfill solemnly
Forgive her sins and relieve her misery
I repent and shall follow Your Word seriously
If its in the plan to walk this path lonely
I shall forever wait and pray silently


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Heart To Sing

Salutations edged in black are on the way,
I'm in mourning from the sun up til the end of day,
My evenings are so lonely without your ring,
that I haven't the heart to sing.

Limitations seem to be all on my side,
I recall that I'm the one who really tried,
I may be an angel without your ring, 
but I haven't the heart to sing.

                       (bridge)

Yes I know quotations have lived for generations, 
like, "seek and ye shall find," 
but there's no explanation for a quotation, 
like, "without you, I'm losing my mind"!

If I could bury heartaches I'd really try,
to pretend that I feel nothing when really my,
Evenings are so lonely without your ring,
that I haven't the heart to sing.

.


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Company

Caress me
This loneliness is overtaking
The feeling of these hands is insane
Faces everywhere I look
I can’t escape them now
They’re my company
Oh, they sing to me

La la al
Keeping time to the rhythm
Of my clapping my heart beating
As enchanting as they come
Making love to my empty soul
Gouging out my eyes as they dance

I guess they’re cursed
Maybe loveless
Maybe unloved
Maybe both
Or just crazy
If they push me over
Push me in
I’ll lose my weight
But the moon will dance again

One two three four five
Six
Seven eight nine ten
Going round in circles
‘Till they fall into the shadows again

No more dancing
No more singing
It’s all gone silent
It’s all gone still
I’m caressing myself
But at least I’m not lonely
It still feels amazing


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The Deluge

The Deluge.

finally the deluge

skipping in rhythmic heartbeats
the softly sprinkling rain

hums and lulls and cajoles and comforts
the weary evening
 
glistening leaves
on beaming trees
 
blades of grass shimmer
like rough diamonds strewn about
 
and settling in my heart
is the softly lilting touch
of peace
of truth
 
of the rain clearing away
the debris of this passing day
 


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Another Lonely Night

You see the world in black in white
Ignoring all the grey
You hear the words you want to hear
Not really hearing what we say.

In truth I think you know 
The way you act is out of line
The way you fill her heart with things
But have another thing in mind.

A woman's heart's an entity
You'll never understand.
You vomit out the sweetest words
But you'll never be a man.
If you can't see the wrong in this
If you really think you're right,
You'll find the in the long run
Your life is just another lonely night.

Why can't you lie beside her, 
And take her by the hand?
Instead you work your silver tongue,
And get just what you planned.

You wonder why she cries so much.
You wonder why she yells,
But you hypnotize her flowing heart,
With all your tricks and spells.

A woman's heart's an entity
You'll never understand.
You vomit out the sweetest words
But you'll never be a man.
If you can't see the wrong in this
If you really think you're right,
You'll find the in the long run
Your life is just another lonely night.

That morning when you wake up,
Balding from your age,
You wish you'd never said those things,
And could turn back the page.

Your life will be so empty,
Perhaps you'll comprehend.
You're sacrificing so much more
Than just another friend.

A woman's heart's an entity
You'll never understand.
You vomit out the sweetest words
But you'll never be a man.
If you can't see the wrong in this
If you really think you're right,
You'll find the in the long run
Your life is just another lonely night


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It serves you right

I came home,
And you were gone.
You left a letter,
Said you were movin on.

Said you didn't,
Have time to explain.
You were headin to boston,
To catch the next train.

Now you'r back,
Knockin on my door.
Lookin for the love,
That don't love you anymore.

It serves you right,
To be as lonely as you are.
It serves you right,
You torn my world apart.
So go back to the one,
Who took you from me.
I dont need you no more,
Now that i can see.

Now I am sittin here,
Soakin up the sun.
Thinkin of you,
And what you have done.

Feelin no more pain,
And healin my heart,
It serves you right,
To be as lonely as you are.

It serves you right,
To be as lonely as you are.
It serves you right,
You torn my world apart.
So go back to the one,
who took you from me.
I don't need you no more,
Now that I can see.

I don't need you no more,
I'm soakin up the sun in miami.


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Lonely bars

I’m sitting at the bar
With some friends of mine,
We’re talking about
The old times.
 
The guy over there
Is drinking scotch and coke,
All I can hear
Are old rhymes.
 
In the corner, there’s
A chorus of loud voices,
The local band is
Struggling to be heard.
 
There are some guys
Getting set up for the night,
There’s a painted doll
Cracking onto the barman.
 
As the barman pulls
Another beer, the local hoods
Pick a fight with
Bloke they think’s a queer.
 
We have another drink,
And make that one our last,
We find an old parking spot,
And try to recapture
Some long lost class


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LONELY

I walked a lonely path, with no one by my side,
Walking through puddles of tears that I have cried.

I try to move forward, but I am stuck in the past,
All by myself, and wishing love would last.

They say nothing is forever, but time marches on,
So I count my blessings with every waking dawn.

I have lost friends and lovers, I have lost alot in my life,
I pray to find happiness, each and ever night.

Should I keep going, should I stay focused,
Hard to keep moving, when everything seems hopeless.

I try to get some years back, I try to understand,
I try to be perfect, but I am just a man.

I try to keep my head up, but it is hard to stand,
I  try to do my best, I do what I can.

It is hard to stay happy, depression setting in,
My past is my problem, future getting grim.

I will wake up tomorrow to another lonely day,
I would be happy where I  am, if I could only stay.


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The promise of Spring

Summer ended too soon
Autumn leaves falls under the moon
Snowflakes chills the winter air
As spring  flourishes with care

Raindrops will slowly pour and give the seeds
A new hope after the cold and lonely season
The sun will shine as if it has never been deprived
Of rising during the cold and lonely season

The bitterness of seeing the leaves
Cut-off from its mother branches
The sorrowful  sight of trees
Uprooted from Mother Earth

Even if the flowers are already withered
For now it’s leaves are sleeping
A new branch  will soon come out
And the tree will be soon alive again

Snow will soon vanish from your way
The leaves of hope won’t fall soon
Neither shall the trees be uprooted
That’s the promise of spring God will keep forever.



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The Soldier

I can see, that the sun is hiding it's light today
Through the thick black smoke, I kneel down to pray
The fire went out, that used to burn here in these hands
My brothers gone,  that stood with me on  this land

I could feel the suns warmth, this morning when I woke
I could  see it's orange glow, shining through the smoke
My band of brothers dead, as I'm left here all alone
And this coat I'm wearing, is blood soaked to the bone

I can  feel their eyes staring, as they take command
I can hear them speaking words, that I don't understand
And as I lie here bleeding, in the shadows of this tomb
I'm just another lonely soldier, pleading for his mothers womb

This morning I prayed, that I'd make it home alive
But over in the corner, I felt death trying to arrive
The tortured days are unbearable, here beneath this light
So I close my eyes, somehow that helps me fight

But today they broke my spirits, with a sharp searing pain
I tried to think of home, as I lie bleeding in the mud and rain
Then my mind snapped back, as I felt the steel of a cold sharp blade
Today the torture ended, as my world began to fade

I could  feel their eyes staring, as they  took command
I could hear them speaking words, that I didn't understand
And as I lie there bleeding, in the shadows of that tomb
I was  just another lonely soldier, pleading for his mothers womb


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Telling Me About Regret

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

My spices that reek in my kitchen locker; 
My friends smell it in my shirt but never see it on my lips. 

The praying mark on my forehead is a lonely pigeon 
In the nest at the doors of my stupendous grotto, watching the sky .. 1
Wandering its strange sight in the daylight, 
In the blue dome, in the heavy clouds, 
In a mountain top hiding the horizon. 
A lonely pigeon in the nest at the doors of my stupendous grotto, 
Looks for once to the laurel darkness, 
Then flies to the tip of whiteness 
And vanishes in the horizon. 

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

The people in my small phone index are a rainy forest; 
Its branches with the wide leaves, at the morning, keeps us from rain; 
At noon is a shield from winds and being hunted; 
At night is a clamber for every passing suspicion. 

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

My formal white robe on my fixed arm is a new road 
By which I pass through, filled with hope at the head of every new year 
By the side of the road. Tents are already fixed 
With its Gypsy wandering and the hands are the stranger's destination 
Stigmatized; they derail the extreme loads on his back 
And roll the wine, time after time, in his mind, till he was covered by dusk. 2
At the morning he opens his eyes "THE END OF THE ROAD", 
And clears out his bags afraid "THERE ARE NO EXCUSES", 
In the medicine book "NO PRESCRIPTION .. NO CURE". 
And I always get back to the road, step on the emptiness, 
And from the shallow side of my broken arm, the robe goes down. 

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

My spices that reek in my kitchen locker. 
My friends smell it in my shirt but never see it on my lips. 
The bird that I once gifted you, came back -- 
His thin bones now at the eyes of guests is the dinner's destination. And the 
people at the door of my old grave are twaddling and telling me, unbored, about 
the exploits of regret .... 
Forewarning me from the departure 
And silence 
And hope, 
Without seeing the worms on my corpse as sheets -- 
Sheets of bitterness and pain. 


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Raven's Place Of Nowhere

*I entered this Poem in ~Constance~A Rambling Poet's Contest "Among The Dead"

I write from this place of nowhere
This darkened haunt of deep despair
Even a Raven's darkened shade is brighter
Than the mood that has set upon this lair...
There are no words to cheer me.

I look to find a glimmer...
An enlightened shadow of what once was me
But alas that ghost eludes and finds me not
Preferring a labyrinth of happiness, its maze
To the life's webs that now encase me.

I cannot scale these vertical walls
This darkened fortress that surrounds me
And so I dive to ever deeper depths
In this ocean of sadness that seeks to drown me.

No tears can fall from drought-filled eyes
Desert rain has not come bidden
Blood cannot spill from pain-filled thoughts
No apparent wounds to need not be hidden.

A creek of fear and anguish
Feeds into my river of lonely despair
These tides serve to further drown me
In heavier waters with no apparent air.

These words are all I have left within me
To feed what's left of this withered shell
I have been exiled to this lonely oasis
My last hope for water in this, my empty well.

 

(January 23, 2011  Wausau, Wisconsin)

(c) Copyright 2011 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved



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I'll Never Be That Strong

One more lonely night, One more lonely tear, everything now seems so clear
Another lonely barroom, another glass of beer, don't know if I can go on another 
year
She walked away and left me here, feeling blue drowning in my tears
Now the only time I see her face, is in these pictures hanging in this place
I know it's wrong, to hold on so long, I guess I'll never be that strong 

These pains I hide, keeps me blind, with  her memory still on my mind
One more door, one more floor, don't know if I can go on alone anymore
She said her heart, was so torn apart, she needed to make a brand new start
Now my life is turned upside down, from my days of running round
I know it's wrong, to hold on so long, I guess I'll never be that strong

My arms are cold, no one to hold, now my story is left untold
Smokes in the air, as I stop and stare, seems that life is so unfair
This road is long, here's where she belongs, holding me all year long
Guess I'll go on in this broken home, living my life here all alone
I know it's wrong, to hold on so long, but I know  I'll never be that strong 


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The Inevitable

I awaken to the sound of your voice, your words, calling to me...
Calling to me...Petitioning me... like an ethereal Siren's Song
Moving towards me just as waves journey toward an empty beach...
Always and forever...moving towards that lonely shore.

The Inevitable.

The speed of their emotional swells depending upon the wind
and the temperaments of the day.
Soft and lapping curiously when all is calm and clear
Furious and violently agitated when darkness hides the sun.

In spite of Saturn's cruelty we were destined to intersect
to hold these ongoing conversations...
Venus had put forth her resolution and now I wait for you
Just as the sands have waited endlessly for the eternal cycles of the tides.

I have been waiting...waiting...waiting...
waiting for you to meet me
waiting for you to come flowing in
waiting to absorb and finally feel the liquid of your caress.

Morning, noon, and night
I wait to hear from you
I wait...the Bullish Immovable Beast...I am the constant shore
Shaped only by your fascinations.

And you come to me, changeable Capricorn
Fluid as the great blue divide that separates the firm continents
Always changing, never stagnant...Always moving toward or away
Timeless ocean, timeless current, evermore.
 
I hear you singing an Ancient Mariner's Song
Its meaning holds the depths of repeated sailor's lore
Your stories sharing vast oceans of wisdom
that may have been floating on some wizened seaman's mind.
His voice, as yours, always sure to find
A welcoming lonely harbor on an expectant, yearning shore.

The tides mark the times for when we will meet
For when you will continue your engraving
Etching your love on toward me
as a fine lithography for now and forevermore.

Waves serve as your wild embrace
You place your countenance upon my face
I am unable to resist your advances
You have laid claim to the barren coastline of my heart.

Although I long for a permanence
In which Venus would so rejoice
You always leave me wanting more
Saturn still rules your mind.

There is nothing I see as so inescapable
as your leavings and your ongoing returns.
There is nothing so inevitable between us
except the Terra Firma of our minds.


(December 1, 2010 Wausau, Wisconsin)

(c) Copyright 2010 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved, 


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THESACK

THESACK Hell is where the heart is Or used to be, Or never was. Torrent Dead Sea. Splinter life from me Separate, who says we are free? One in the bush two in the sack Safe from contraction Sinister attack Sinistral Assassin Distraction; obscenity in this act, in this life fractured Cacophony of children Bowie knife Misophonic angry Demanding action Chemical attraction Gin and tonic mixed with crazy A sharp deflection An ugly wife A compounded reflection A definite maybe A sterile life. End. By Joel R Thornton December 17th 2014


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Fantastic Flight - Chapter 3 - Treading on Hopeful Lane

(V.4 continued) There’s a joyful, wonderful future in store, despite this bittersweet sentiment
Brewing inside of me…these waves of emotions
Brew inside of me…ignore the ocean of commotions 
You’re my one and only awesome devotion
We can dance in this trance with the waves of majestic motion 
Radiant reveries swarm us like bees, hovering around the bee hive
Thank God that you and I are meant to be with each other – we are at ease and alive! 

*chorus*

The mountain winds are howling its stormy resentment
The snow glitters on the triumphant mountains…
I’ve tried to conceal these feelings of discontent
My eyes are spraying with tears of sorrow – weep no more, sad fountains
Don’t push me to the limits – I breathe in and out
I let go of my anxiety and trade it with prosperity– 
I’m one with the passionate, frozen desires in my heart 
I’m strong like Sampson in the bible – 
Let the light of day unfreeze my heart’s agony and avarice
I don’t want to believe in those silly allegories…
Am I your living sacrifice?
My heart is as cold as ice…I need to take His advice!
I have faced reality alone before
Is this real or is this a myth? There’s more land to explore!

(V.5) I know things aren’t black and white…
It won’t be for a while unfortunately
Until we make some rearrangements
Complete the act of change, 
Which is a challenging chore…what are you waiting for?
Make a chance that will change the world more and more!
Change is a challenging chore 
It’s hard to get out my comfort zone
I groan, for I’m left on my own…
Without you, the loneliness won’t leave me alone
The solitude grows colder…
I’m as dry and feeble as a bone 
The weeping of a thousand people 
Sounds like thousands of infants, 
Lament and discontent makes our heart 
Make grief-stricken, awful oaths
Serene Shores wash away the woeful afflictions 
That I’ve been through for many a year – 
Will you please forgive my disgraceful sins? Can you burn its evidence to the ground?
Those sins have been driving me insane . . . making me misery-bound!
And I’m still waiting for His healing rain   = - )
To erase the pangs of the past pains – I’m driving on a hopeful lane!


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Last Trigger Pull

Back against the wall
sores inflames my
soul.
Tiny pores cutting me
loose.
I feel like I am hanging
on a noose.

Water walks through
my brain.
Feel like a socket on
a lonely train.
Time to turn loose
this trigger and blame
the dirty dust that corrodes
this rain.

Blow the filth away.
Ride high and place
fingers on holes that
left me destroyed by
air.

What is earth?
A lonely piece of
worth.
When is this disease
going to go away?
I pull the trigger and
end the day.

Inside this fast moving
bullet an escape artist going
mad.
I have fled skin disorder
an itch that is red.

Torn from the inside and
out.
Twisted about.
A bullet in the wind
the last trigger boom
rigid belief.


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Ocean of Days

I am just an Empty Chair
Seated in a Sea of Flooded Sand
Holding a Personal and Lonely Vigil
On this Riskiest Edge
Of both Soft and Solid Land.

My legs beneath me are Strong
I cannot allow myself to become Weak
I must possess a certain Fortitude
To not be swept away from Life's Lonely Beach.

Oceans of Days try to continuously pull at me
They attempt to sweep me far away
Like the tides they come sweeping in and out
They assail me day after day
I hold on to my balance dearly
To not falter and get swept away.

They never stop assailing my essence
Their days seem to have no end in sight
They seem to feel completely within their rights
To be completely and utterly obsessed with having
My inner self as their solo obsession.

They keep trying to erode my every thought and prayer
They attempt over and over to sweep me away
If ever I were caught completely unaware
They would most certainly pull me under
To the depths of their neverendings
To the unconciousness of their unending days.

I hold fast to my stability
To my little chunk of solid earth and solid land
To try and stay within my beloved earthly realm
Of timely air and lovely breath and ever inquisitive man.

I am just and only an Empty Chair
Seated in this Sea of Flooded Sand
The Oceans of Days surround me always
I am as an Island in a Sea of Man.

I am all alone in this Ocean of Days
I fight againt the forces that would rule me.
I try and hold on to my Stoic Vigil
On this everchanging Sea of Slippery Sand
On my Last and only Good Precipice
Of what I hold so dear as Solid Land.

I am a Stoic Island
Surrounded by a Sea of Turbulence
That does not care
It does not care 
Whether I live or I survive
Of this fact I am fully aware.

And so as I exist alone on this Beach of Life
Wishing to be Seated as Two but am Seated as One
Braving the exposed plight of my disappearing youth
I have seen the Seasons come and then just as quickly go on
Time truly waits for no Woman or no Man.
This is the most evident of Worldly Truths.

I hold on fast to my one and only concrete thought
That my existance should not and only be
Just my means to my eventual and final end
To my Life there should some Meaning be
That there should be something of myself left behind
Besides just an Empty Chair in a Chaotic and Flooded Sea.

 
(January 2,  2011 Wausau, Wisconsin)

(c) Copyright 2010 by Christine A Kysely,


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I DESPITE BEING THE LONELY GUY

Whatever the untold reason,
I despite being the lonely guy;
unspoken dreams
laid in that solitary world so dark,
but they wouldn't easily die
to bring me the hardest heartbreak
as I was hiding among
the ruins of dead memories:
like pearls laying 
on the depts of the ocean!

Bitter are the empty words
that come out of a heart
as sad as mine...
not realizing the tremendous loss
and the desire to get it back!
Longer and endless
will seem this night
when my hand reaches for yours...

Whatever the untold reason,
I despite being the lonely guy;
jealous guys end up
with empty hands and arms...
trying the figure out
how much cheating went on;
instead of loving that pretty lady...
to stop living that lie! 

I seemed to have lived a worthless life,
knowing exactly when I'd lose belief;
in the mist of mixed-up emotions,
doubts will play the wrong part,
and make you fall apart!


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Just for You

Every day I'm fallen to the inside
Wonder just how long can I hide
Stirring through these memories just one time
Hearing voices but none of them are mine
Stumble through the pages of a mystery
That's my life I need out of this misery
I wanted you
To need me like I've needed you
Just for me
And you've wanted me 
To let go of what I need from you
Just for you
Now I see you for what I truly am
I need you to know this is who I am
Given you my all asked for no return
Careful what you ask for lesson learned
Now you ask me to be by your lonely side
When all that's left now is lonely pride
All that I needed from you is to know why I need you
All that I'm getting from you is that you need me to cry to
I wanted you
To need me like I've needed you
Just for me
And you've wanted me
To let go of what I need from you
Just for you
Just for you


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Sorry About the Sorrow

It wasn’t a mutual agreement 
I had my grievances
Didn’t quite understand your reasoning 
So for the time being I won’t be seeing daylight 
I’m a creature of habit 
One of the night 
I like it black to dull the sight of my eyes 
Alone on long car rides
I’m searching out everywhere my love hides

From lonely moonlit tides 
To the wide open road (I ride alone)
But I still hear your voice (It haunts shotgun)
I can’t run fast enough 
I can’t push the engine hard enough (The highway hums)
I’m dreading the sun rise that never ceases to come

So it’s me and highway 55 
Let’s dive into song
A lonely hymn of dark desires and misery
Soon we’ll both be history
So scribe my name into cement 
A memory of my life of lament 
I’ll be the lonely dent on your perfect ego

So here I go the on coming lights mean nothing 
Lets make this engine scream 
We’ll see what death means
I’ll be seeing not the olive green of heaven
But instead the reds of hell 
So I’ll sell my soul 
Not much left to it 
I guess I made out this time

So just this way, straight down the yellow brick line
Lets find if I’ll be remembered 
Can they put this dismembered soul back together again
Is it better this way 
I’ll soon be way away 
So my blood runs cold and grey
This must be the beautiful sunrise to come my way
But this to can surely not stay 
Please forget me tomorrow but remember me today
Sorry about the sorrow by the way


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In Lonely Tears, I Pray


O Lord, to you, I come today;
Fruits of my lips, I bring;
Hymns of praises, to you, I sing; 
In lonely tears, I pray. 

Yet worthy not I am, I ask
Have mercy on my soul; 
Lord, despise not my every call;
‘Tis life, to you, I trust. 

O Lord, to you, I come today;
Keep me, from vanity;
For in peace, where I longed to be;
In lonely tears, I pray. 







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Lonely Eyes

I shed a lonely tear for you today
Because you are the child
The child with the lonely eyes
I bet you thought no one was looking
I was
I bet you thought no one cared
I do
I fought the monsters under the bed
Because you are the child
The child with the lonely eyes
I bet you thought no one was fighting
I was
I bet you thought everyone walked away
I didn’t
I had a lovely dream today
For the child with the lonely eyes
That you knew that your fight 
was never alone
I was with you all the time


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A Soldier's Song

Sing, your favorite song slowly as it plays.
Dance, to that sweet melody as your body sways.
Transpose, each word as it reaches your heart.
Recall, all the memories tender, that never part.

What will we do when all the songs have been sung?
What emotion will we possess, when every tragic war has been won?
Will we stare sadly into each others eyes, and watch painfully tears go by?
Or, will we hold each other tight and simply sigh?

Can you conceive your favorite song, never to be?
Can you truly preceive the day when there are no more wars, threating us to be free?
Love would be felt in music, as our lonely hearts would recall.
Cold wars are still being fought causing death, as we stain their city walls.

Will our hearts remember rhythm?  When all the songs have been sung.
What conflict will be fought, when all the wars have been won?
Without wars, lonely soildiers hearts will sing in gladness.
Without song, our souls, hearts, and minds would sink into madness.

Gladly, sing your favorite song slowly, as it plays.
Let that sweet melody consume you, as your body sways.
Transpose, each word as it reaches your heart.
Recalling, all the cold wars, that man should never start.


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Between Two Suns

solarwinds a linear virginity

i see the empiraen lights
from here
here beside your slipsleepingform
form the thoughts that
reach the end of the universe
and the restaurant there in
record time
time where my heart flutters
because you’re so close
close enough to engulf
my soul

soulshinning

beneath our rembrantstars
and vangoghscars
that fade in the mornlight
our semisoulsearching
leads to brokenmirrorshards
and that lonely houseofcards:
ruins the tastebuds dry
a queenofhearts and all
her lonely counterparts
seize the day but nothinglike a
carpe diem
daylimbs crowd nightfancies
too close for comfort
too dark for ease
and we’re falling too fast
full of knowledge
for any reminiscent innocence to break
the fall


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Back

She's sitting beside the window
And watching the falling rain;
Days turn into weeks, life passes by,
And she is alone again.
Nobody remembers she's still alive,
But she is not even ten.

She's listening to all feeble voices within,
To misery and pain she will never give in.
In lonely tears she tries to forgive...
In years she'll have just one reason to live.
But she knows that's worth it...

The world is so cruel... No one knows she cries.
If somebody saw, they would never care why.
Her dreams and the world will be always apart.
And no one will put back the shards of her heart.

She's listening to all feeble voices within,
To misery and pain she will never give in.
In lonely tears she tries to forgive...
In years she'll have just one reason to live.
But she knows that's worth it...

She wakes up with fear to meet the new day,
She already knows it will bring just more pain.
But no one cares, no one understands -
She puts on the mask, trying hard to pretend.

I close my eyes and through years I see
That girl near the window is ten year old me.
She never lost hope and the wish to forgive,
And now she has that one reason to live.
And this reason is you.


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Wings to Fly

If I had wings to fly
I would surely fly away
To a desert time and place
So none could find my face
If I had wings to fly
I would soar above the clouds
Far from here and now
To where? To there somehow
If I had wings to fly

If I had wings to fly
I would fly to be alone
Where nothing could go wrong
And I would sing my song
If I had wings to fly
I would mount above the world
To escape your winds that whirl
And the stones of boys and girls
If I had wings to fly

If I, If I had wings to fly, I would view from a bird's eye
How lonely you and I would be when doves fly, doves cry
If I, If I had wings to fly I would view from a bird's eye
How lonely you and I would be when doves cry, doves die  (Chorus)

If I had wings to fly
I'd fly right back to truth
To a place of hope with you
Where we could start anew
If I had wings to fly
I'd make my flight complete
And take you high with me
For all the world to see
If I had wings to fly

If I had wings to fly
I'd not fly away again
For I was wrong there and then
I won't wish for where I've been
If I had wings to fly
I'd give my wings to you
For your love for me is proved
And our love can not be moved
Even if I had wings to fly


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A Giraffe

Somewhere, 

near the lake Chad an

exquisite Giraffe has a walk ... 



Nikolai Gumilev (the great Russian poet)

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A Giraffe 

One day a tipsy Giraffe visited me. 

He craned his neck at my chandelier,

He left dirty traces on my floor. 

He said: "I' ve brought the wine "Risling", 

Drink it with me. 

I felt so lonely today under this cold rain, 

He was not as exquisite, as a count,

And he was not from the lake Chad,

He was just my friend, the lonely Giraffe , 

And I was very glad to see him!


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Dark Run

 I hold all that is dear.Waiting while the world sleeps.
  I for one will not take,all I can not give.
 You believe in a dark destiny,waiting for man to become one.
  I for one will not stand here and wait for the end to bleed me.
 Today I found myself,baring a shame.We saw myself laying fallen decayed.
  Fed on fear they blame it on us.I cant take it,while we pay for it.
 You believe that I know that I fall alone.
   Lonely but not alone
    Dying far from our homes.
   Lonely but we're not alone.
    Why are we dying far from our homes.
 I for one will not believe all that I see or am told or written to.
   You believe that man can be kind,that God can be kind,so where are they hiding.
 I believe that if we want to become holy.We must bleed or not to bleed to be 
lonely.
  Lonely but not alone.
   Dying far from our homes.
  You believe that I know that you're cornered into a dark destiny,I awake from me.
    I saw you dancing there a top of our own graves without a care.
  People are just watching while we fade away.Why are we alone and so afraid?
    I fall from you
     Let me feel and hold you.
    I want you to bleed from me.
      I want to feel holy.
  Lonely but not alone
    Dying far from our home
  Lonely but we're not alone 
   Why are we dying far from our homes?


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A Lonley Bullet

A lonely bullet needs a heart 
And, I think it's found in you 
A lonely bullet needs a heart 
Even when just passing through 
Now, oh now, My lonely bullet 
Has found it's place in you. 

You.... (whisper[I need you]) 
You.... (whisper[I need you]) 
I need YOU! Like I need one more breath to breath. 
I need YOU! Like I need a cure for a disease. 
I need YOU! But you don't want ME! 

A lonely bullet needs a heart 
And, I think it's found in you 
A lonely bullet needs a heart 
Even when just passing through 
Now, oh now, My lonely bullet 
Has found it's place in you. 

LONELY! But not alone.... 
DYING! While on this phone... 
WAITING! For words to say.... 
NOTHING! Will go away! 
AWAY! 
AWAY! 
WHY-WON'T-IT-GO-AWAY! 

A lonely bullet needs a heart 
And, I think it's found in you 
A lonely bullet needs a heart 
Even when just passing through 
Now, oh now, My lonely bullet 
Has found it's place in you. 

A lonely bullet needs a heart 
And, I think it's found in you 
A lonely bullet needs a heart 
Even when just passing through 
Now, oh now, My lonely bullet 
Has found it's place in you. 
Now, oh now, My lonely bullet 
Has found it's place in you. 
Now, oh now, tonight 
this lonely bullet sleeps with me, too....


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lonely man

                                            Lonely man (lonesome heart blues)

I’m a lonely man 
With a lonesome heart
Cause I’ve given it all away
I’ve given all my pieces away 
I’ve got nothing left to give

When you find real love
Don’t walk away from it
Stand for honor fight for it

The entire world is filled with distractions
We get caught up in false pursuits
We go after what we desire
And take no prisoners
As we clear fields, confusing what we need

I’m a lonely man
With a lonesome heart
Cause I gave it to her one night
Gave away all my pieces in this lifetime
I’ve got nothing left to give……………… but love
                                                                                         
          Jnaf 10-07-05


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Dead Relation

Relatively breathing
Among the lonely dead
The only way to see them
To look within your head

The accidental answers
The questions that remain
The threads that have forsaken
And then everything’s decay

Disturbed and undecided
The darkness sticks like glue
It manifests frustration
And then takes it out on you

Poisoning the answers
Eliminating doubt
A shape within the circle
A twist that spirals out

Such homicidal breathing
Among the lonely dead
The only way to hide now
To forget what’s in your head


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lonely night

It's seven o' clock,
looks as if the sun is going down,
haven't heard anything from you.
you called earlier today,
we only talked for a short time,
will I have to be alone tonight?

I called again,
no answer,
you called back and I asked
" what happened",
but from you, no reply.

But that was hours ago
now  it's 10 o' clock at night,
will this be another lonely night?

Time is drifting slowly by,
the phone as stopped ringing,
you have not called and I want
to know why, I do not want to worry...

no call from you,
no knocks at the door,
I feel a little anxious inside,
I do not want this to be
another lonely night. 


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Image of a Lonely Distaste

With a lonely distaste
I set my pace
Patience for none
But for those that hold on

Climates of fear
People with tears
Waiting to be told how to run
Whilst building their castles of sun

I see myself
Like a plan on the shelf
I reach over the scrolls
Each one accounting my holes

The pictures of loss
The thresholds I cross
Contradicting my face
The lonely distaste

I am what you see
Just what you would be
But you’ll never see me
And for this I am free


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Peace be with thee

Rise born 
To love or  hate
Right or sin  
Destroy create
Not give a hang 
One  yin one yang
Balanced to swing  
Time's tapping  drum
Shrilly  pipes blow 
As we war with ourselves
Over land we can’t own
Into which we all drop
Improving the crop 
So seeds we have sown 
Can become what we’ve known 
Until later we’ve grown
Into something we’re fated to be
angelic devils and devilish angels
Eternally lonely and free
Imagine a world full of graveyards 
As churches cathedrals inspire us
We can dance twixt the tombs till eternity comes
To polish the stones and admire us
The peace of mankind that he just couldn’t find
in the warmth of the earth’s cooling fire
Is finally there to enjoy and compare
To lost trees and dead seas and green clouds
We can rock and roll turning 
Over in turn
Silently screaming in shrouds
The one and the only ever so lonely 
Fool on the hill can attest
To the time and the cost 
With the rhymes of the lost
Written in stone for the rest


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Somewhere Down South

I hear a lonely whistle callin'
callin' out my name
I hear a lonely whistle callin'
beltin' out my name

Now somewhere down South
there is a little house
Somewhere deep down South
there is a little house

The kiddies be steppin'
steppin' along that long lonely way
those little kiddies be steppin'
steppin' steppin' down lonely ways

(bluesy trumpet riff)

I'm hearin' that whistle blowin'
callin' out my name
that lonely whistle callin'
tellin' people 'bout my shame


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Keep Me Safe

Finding my space in my lonely world
Secretly depressed as an emotional girl
So here I am under the dead tree
With fog drifting about and my mind wandering free
It's too cold for me to move, so I stay
I wait and freeze until my life has gone away
But nothing around me seems to change
It's just so awkward and very strange
I can't feel any pain or the suffering I endured
I my secret world, every thing's secured
Death lurks below me like a river of blood
Stalking my life
I sink in my problems like sinking in endless mud
I have to put up a fight
Tears roll down my miserable face
Nothing is right
I just need someone to keep me safe
And holding me tight
Finding my space in my lonely world
Secretly depressed as an emotional girl
So here I am in the wild woods
With cold rain pouring and darkness floods
I am too wet to move, so i stay
I wait until I'm drenched and the rain has passed away
But the rain never stops and sunlight never shines
And all I hear are the wolves' and ghosts' whines
Still I can't find any pain or suffering I endured
In my secret world, everything's secured
So here I am 
Lying in my bed
With the light shining brilliantly 
And I wiped the sweat I shed
I'm back in the real world 
Full and animated
Back to the lonely girl
And my life which I hated
I got down on my knees
And put my palms together and
I gone into a weep 
Praying to the heaven
For me to be stronger
And living my life better
I wiped the tears off my face
And He answered by saying
"I will keep you safe."


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Only Child

Looks like a lonely smile, just maybe a only child
As my days go by, as my hour’s blossom
At times in this open space I’d rather play possum
In your presence my glass is full
Half and hour later your past in nearly consumed
Like concrete my emotions extract and expand
And when I’ve become more that we could bear
My life lead contract is what you demand
Looks like a lonely child, and could be the only smile
Perhaps we could throw time into reverse 
Relax and undermine this unforgiving curse
If nothing at all seems any worse 
Then we shouldn’t be privileged to hurt 
Life, lice, more of timely disease 
A worrier finally at ease 
An escape requires the keys to theses haunted seas 
The only pleasure that taunted me 
Looks like a lonely smile, just maybe an only child 
Should this daylight torment or burn my eyes 
Would you pay to see my lessons learned through lies? 
Should this carpet decide not to warm my feet
Then I shall prepare to watch my health swarm in defeat 


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Sunshine Song

Life is a story in the air
Filled with dream clouds future visions that are not even there
She came to me with kisses in a wind
I tried not to blush but our tale from there began

And she stands there atop that hill
Eyes scared to open but wanting to see their fill
And she tells me that she loves me but she will never care
Telling me to stay close by but knowing I can’t be there

So she dreams of things in bloom
Her heart’s so big it hurts but for me there isn’t any room
I wish she could hear me atop that lonely hill
And forget about the twilight and know that I love her still

I see her in my darkness when I stand up to sleep
Walking in her shadow these longing thoughts dare to slowly creep
We share each others outstretched lives
But I wonder if she can see our rainbow when there is sunshine in her eyes


With her goes out my last hope
I’d like to think with her by my side that I could somehow cope
Somewhere out here in this mess
I’ll see her standing near me in that pinstripe dress
And know that someday she’ll come back home

(Guitar medley)

Somewhere out there she is waiting on a slowly moving train
She stands there with apathy while soaking up the rain
Tomorrow she’ll be calling me begging to come home
But in this sunshine rain she’ll think she’s still alone

Winter crept in quickly setting in those final days
It was too bright for her to see me she was walking in a daze
Gypsum lilac fire burned steely in her bloodshot eyes
She had been crying because she found out that even lovers lie

It’s hard to admit when I went wrong
Probably been wrong before she even came along
But beneath it all she still holds a flame for me
Even with all that sunshine making it so hard to see

I see her forever in a bathing light
But something in her shivering told me something just isn’t right
Could be it that my baby has lost it all
Or is she still tumbling down that lonely fall