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Suicide Mind

What makes the decision
To flick the switch
To end ones life
For the sake of it
Troubled, debts
Bullied at school
Fork in the road
To let death rule
Mums, dads
Daughters and sons
What ever affects them 
They just can't outrun
Sadness and tears
By all left behind
Will they ever understand
Suicide Mind

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Stormy Heart

Alone in loneliness Amid forever nights And these four walls In faint, whisper soft your name I beg out loud to the nothingness that remains "Please not another nightmare, no more storms" But, answers are merely glimpses of light From lightening... Filtering through the pane Empty sheets... Cast empty shadows on the wall Of places where you used to be Eyes wide open Now asleep, afraid I am to fall Trapped within this never ending dream I cling to all the memories that I have Spinning me closer to where you were, in parallel on the edge The thoughts, like imaginary rubble, comes tumbling passed A fire for you still burning inside Why can’t I let go of the tragedies last And silence your unrescued suicidal screams Or is it only the rain falling faster as it taps harder, and harder upon the glass Or is it of your wandering spirit Mockingly knocking? Haunting with its vindications Of "why’s" I can never seem to grasp All this amidst lost stares into black windows Where gutters overrunning, burdened by the strains And I swear I see your reflection Among the flashes, tracing out illuminations about your face And for the first time You are noticeably absent of all the worldly pains And your lips releasing out a comfort that for so long I've been seeking As I hear the words echo within my stormy heart "That where you are everything is okay"

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I Can't Stop The Bleeding

My daughter is dying and as I'm praying, I'm pleading.
She has been stabbed and I can't stop the bleeding.
An ambulance is on its way but it may not arrive in time.
My daughter wouldn't put out so her boyfriend committed this crime.
If you're wondering how many other people he'll stab, the answer is none.
I'm so enraged that I blew his sorry head off with my sawed off shotgun.
My daughter just died and tears are rolling down my face.
She died for being a respectable girl and it's a disgrace.

(This is a fictional poem)

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Beautiful people

People make me smile the way 
their eyes shine when they talk 
about something they love 
when they feed me food. Or tell 
me how much they love me 
when I look into someone's 
eyes and see it I see that look 
in their eyes I see love in them 
When I see someone laugh and 
have fun in what they do 
The way they cry for there lost 
When they give me a smile and 
tell me how beautiful I am 
People are beautiful well some 
are and I wish someday I can 
find someone who will look at 
me and say "you have that look 
in your eye"    what look?
I want to find someone so 
beautiful in the inside I can't 
stay away they amaze me with 
what they say an do how they 
will dance in the rain and know 
every detail about me
Will bring me Starbucks on a 
rainy day and just talk about 
the stars 
I want someone beautiful

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Sunshine Flowers

The Daffodil, peeks at the yellow rays of the Morning Sun
She raises her head  :through the withering snow mound : with Dazzling Beauty
The Daffodil , Sings in harmony; Arise for I am : the Spring
The Golden weed, the Dandelion , reflects the yellow Halo Floating in the Sky
Knowing Life is short ,the Dandelion dots the Summer landscape
With Her Halo turning White, She calls the Wind and flies through the rays of the Sun
Goldenrod waits until summer is  nigh o’er before waving elegantly 
To the Yellow orb, warming her roots, She melodiously  Sings Forever be Your Glory 
The Goldenrod , humbly  Hums Hymns : to the very Eye of  a Loving GOD 
Yellow Roses speak of the Memories : “watching  the grass “Sportsman’s WAVE””
She sees the Glory of Nature : more Beautiful with each Magnificent  : Sunrise
Yellow Roses, petals so Silky Soft, holding in “ Remembrance “  a long Lost “ LOVE “
The “ AquaRose “ that Grows, in the deep Caribbean Sea “4 miles North of Aruba” 
Screams For the Sun, from her watery Grave, Yet she shines in a sea of  “ Sapphire   
                                                 " Blue " 
The Depth of the  “Blue sea, the Blue Sky above” Shadow  the glow of Sweet  
                                            "  Sunshine "
       Inspired by the Contest : " Flowers " : Sponsored by Francine Roberts
             Dedicated To my LOVES : " Barbara Jean "  & " Lenore Ellen "
              Author's Note : I Hope this is Read the way it was Written
                  YOUR Liege ALWAYS, LOVE : HGarvey Daniel Esquire
                                                7th Place win

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From The Peircing Of An Arrow To The Cold Hearted Fate Of love

her life is on the tip of his tongue
the sparkle leaves her eyes
an arrow to his chest
drawing her to her death
a feather falling from the sky
the death of an angel
her wings turn blood red
like the color of the red sea
the sword drawn out of the ground
by her own hands
what he could not do himself
she has done for him
He falls unto to his knees
the arrow she had put into his chest
the greatest of betrayals
She asked for her death wish
Holding the ring in her palm
He looks into her eyes
watching the love she had left for him disappear
Falling into despair
Her face hitting the ground
Blood surrounded her body
He watched as she died
He couldn't move from the love that had pierced his chest

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Boxed Life--She Sleeps with a Nine

Boxed Life

She sleeps with a nine
waits for his face
his distant return
too close

A tragic slime
smooth stranger
smoother lover
pried into her life
impossible to reject

she lives 
a boxed life
pulled by strings
too tight

An explosion is inevitable
the storm's coming
and she knows it
so she sleeps with a nine
and waits for his face

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Never Tell

He smiles in my direction as he walks in the door
And laughs at my heart, now a puddle on the floor,
The people walking by turn, point and stare,
I repeat over and over, “there’s nothing there…”

Rains of passion, waves of homicidal angst,
You can’t look backwards and still walk straight,
A million signs are screaming out at you:
Stop-danger-watch out-you’re running too

Quickly, swiftly your friends all walk away,
I’d like to say something, but it’d be so cliché,
Silently you sit and watch them go,
Hoping inside that they don’t know,
Maybe they won’t know, but everybody knows…

I think of you and I think about stars,
Captured fireflies in marmalade jars,
Beautiful reminders of what may have been,
But the fire goes out, and they lay there dead...

He says, “The poison doesn’t do it for me anymore,
I need a pain to leave me lying gasping on the floor,”
My eyes go cloudy as he looks to yesterday,
I say, “I never meant to hurt you anyways...”

It broke my heart, I almost cried
To see you hurting, so broke inside,
Twist, plunge deeper, lemon and salt it so,
Some suffer in silence, I’ve come to know,
You’d rather be alone, you asked me to go...

The colors flew around the walls,
How I got here I don’t recall,
He handed me the bottle and I didn’t think twice,
"Just get rid of the pain, whatever the price..."

I think we danced, at least we may’ve,
Silly boy, to think I’d misbehave,
He said, “I bet I can change your mind,”
Slow down, stop, (learn to) rewind,

“Hold my hand,” I pleaded, to who?
I don’t think so, that’s not something I’d do,
Stop, not there, leave me alone,
I don’t want to be touched anymore…

A glance at the reflection as I pass a mirror,
I thought I saw a smile, but it disappeared,
Spin around and around, a crystal ball,
Reality’s a mist that surrounds us all…

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                  I miss you more and more everyday, That's why I drink so much to take this   pain away. The pain don't really go away it comes back, and I get so lost I don't know how to act. I get lost in my thoughts of you, It kills me you can't come back ever no matter what I do, This is the hardest thing I ever had to go threw. Some people say time will heal, but I know I'll be missing you still, It feels like I'm living in a bad nightmare I wish it wasn't real. If I could go back in time, I would go back and press rewind. I would go to that day the 2nd of July, and make sure you were okay and you didn't die. All I got got now are our memories and the tears I cry, To keep it together it's hard but believe me I try.

Details | I do not know? | |

Night Of Awakening

I fear the night
Never to wake in mornings light
To see your face one last time
To hear your voice that is so divine
Reaching out to touch your hand
You entwine our fingers and understand
With love as strong as ours, it's hard to say goodbye
We wipe a tear from each others eye
Slipping into the endless dark
An adventure I must embark
Waking in mornings light
Knowing it was just a dream, everything is alright
Forever together we will be
Forever and Ever, you and me

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Love Song

Here’s what I’m thinking now 
at the end of the world: 

There are no atheists in foxholes— 
no theists in politics. 
If knowledge is power, 
and power corrupts, 
then why did I bother reading you, Cicero? 

Does it matter that I didn't’t love you? 
Would it have mattered if I did? 

There’s a poetry reading tonight 
whence I’I'll chide other poets 
who don’t sit alone. 
I won’t bring up death 
but I might have to breathe, 
even into a mike 
and mouth lines to get a snap or a boo 
maybe even a wince or two. 

Just maybe I’I'll talk about love 
and how following your heart is like following a dog— 
it only leads to vittles and (female dogs). 
But how many times have I used that line 
since the story I wrote about you, 
a witty and sexy and fictional you? 
Most likely I’I'll read something tonight about you. 

I won’t recite it from memory 
because I don’t think about you that much anymore, 
not even when I search for my socks in your drawer 
or when I put on the scratchy sweaters you give me, 
horizontally striped to bring out my eyes? 

I don’t remember your eyes 
except they are blue. 
And I don’t remember you, 
not even when I smell cucumber and apple, 
not even when I sleep on my side of the bed 
or when you walk through the door 
happy to see me; 
even then I don’t remember you. 
Does it matter that I don’t love you? 
Would it have mattered if I did? 

How about a few one-liners 
for the end of days?— 

Depression is self-awareness, 
which you’d know if you were; 
I need Ritalin to listen to you, 
Lithium to hug you, 
Viagra to feel you, 
and Valium to sleep. 

All you need 
is me standing there, waiting at home 
with turns of phrase and word plays 
telling you about why I hate Ayn Rand 
but want to buy as much as I can 
and how I love celebrity gossip 
and detest poetry slams 
and find rhyming trite 
except when I am. 

Hypocrites can still be right, 
which you do understand 
because you nod at my nonsense 
about fighting the man. 

But now, at the end of all things— 
I’m speechless and witless and pointlessly well-read, 
and you’re just sitting there, smiling 
asking me to pass the bread.

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Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You

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Tears We Have Smiled

In the Joyous occasion of the Birth of a Child
Vigorously We Flow, as a Stream in the Wild
We Sparkle and Shine :  to those WE Beguiled
Creating a Pond, from the “Tears we have Smiled”

ALL My LOVE : Always and FOREVER…HG ( Harry )

                           To Be Continued

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The Sex Confessions

The Bed
Your Mouth
My Touch
Our Lips

It’s a fever
In the night


Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever

The Flame
Your Cries
My Salt
Our Wounds

It’s a fever
In the night 


Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever

The Earth
Your Rain
My Seed
Our Life

It’s a fever
In the night 


Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever

Of Love

Your  Love
My Love
Our Love

It’s a fever
In the night 


Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever

Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)

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Happiness in a Wrong way

Happiness in a Wrong way – Zamreen Zarook

In the notion of seeking happiness,
I thought of stepping in to nonsense,
I dream I could find success,
But I had only little access.

Every attempt that I lend,
It was an utter failure at the end,
My life was full of difficult bend,
But God is always there as a good friend.

My deeds travel in various ways,
Some times in subways,
Or in times it goes in highways,
But I had the belief, God is there always.

North and south families surrounded,
East and west friends are rounded,
Every time fear on death soughed,
I am trapped, and my merits are loaded.

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My Love

My love I can not find you anywhere, 
I feel like I lost my soul somewhere, 
because you are my soulmate, 
and us being apart can not be fate. 

You did not leave because you wanted to, 
It just was just something you had to do. 

I was not right, All I wanted to do was fight, 
and knowing you was the love of my life, 
yet I would not make you my wife. 

I know that's what you really wanted 
and now I am feeling haunted, 
by the things I should have done, 
and you being the only one 
I ever loved and will love forever, if it was'nt for me we will still be together. 
But you are gone 
and I can not go on, 
so I must say good-bye, I'm leaving myself to die.

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The Dying Beauty

Lovely flower, how thee shines so brightly, But what hath you be, when the sun must fall? The sun must cease shining e'er so slightly, Then the sunset be your beauty's last call What happens when your morning dew has dried? Sprinkled reflection of morning passes What when the sunlight's golden hue has died, And you're all alone in dying grasses? What will you be, when your stem has turned brown? And there's no set of eyes to admire? What when your lovely blue petals fall down, And there's nothing left of you to desire? Your beauty shall forever be the past, And this death of your color be the last~

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To a Bride Without a Name

Oh Flora, Choral Beauty The Sun Rises With You Out of An Abyss of Chaos, Yet No Piece of Beauty Is Lost I Can't Grant You Nobility, But Our Love's Vitality Will Last Till The Gates of Hades's Halls They Will Push, They Will Pull, And Their Power Will Grow Just To Have A Piece of Our Love's Immortality For It They Cannot Wait Subdued By Desperation's Phantom But I Will Always Be One of Them So, My Dear, Please Understand I'm Just A Chevalier Drenched With My Sins The Hope Will Fade The Rose Will Turn Black The Promise Was Just I Lie, Though I Forbade I Will Just Be Another Empty Heart, Slain By Your Loosening Grip On My Sanity I Will Die, You Will Be Free Believe - It's The Way Things Must Be My Dear, Just Understand

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Loves deadly spell

Together they live happily forever
in a life filled with sorrows and sadness
they will be together, always never
excluded from reality for life

Forever or never they live to cry,
away they will be gone with but a knife
the choice to live happily or to just die
A knife or life, forever or never

a quarrel, a death, leaving one alone
he lies on the ground, a knife in his heart
a plan, a scheme, its never to be known
She says to herself "we must never part"

Now two dead hearts lie, killed with the same knife
Why? Was it love or just a wast of life?

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And when I learned that you died
How can I describe
The empty

You were my boxer in the night
Sparred with you 
About every aspect of

My secret tonic
Made everything
Feel alright
Got me through it all
All the frustrations
Disappointments of 

And when I learned that you died
How can I describe
The empty

We called each other friend
Even when
Our bodies came together
That single

That single 

And it felt so 
You made me feel
How can I describe 
The full

My life was full
When you laughed
It felt so full even
When you 

The times I was mean

And my body left
Your body
That single

And so we pretended 
We were just
In the end
We pretended

And now you’re 

And I can barely speak
Or write 
I can barely write

And there’s a quiet room
In my mind
Where your laughter
My innocent child

How can I describe
The Empty

How can I describe
The empty

How can I describe

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My love, what shall you leave me with tonight? What words are there to mend my broken heart? Will our love be repaired with morning light, Oh, or will nightfall be our last depart? My darling, sha'nt I leave you without this, My eternal promise of love to you How could you pull apart this final kiss? Don't let such love fade, whilst such lovely hue So, before you give your final goodbye, And your anger and hate bury your love Remember what wishes, and dreams, will die And the future that we had spoken of So, I'll remind you with my final breath, My eternal love is as strong as death

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The Woman In White

It was a cold and rainy night.
The stars were shining bright.
It seemed as if the world was at a pause and not a person was in sight.
I sat quietly in my car, 
the sound of music I heard blasting from a far.
I opened my door,
stepped out slowly and looked around.
Now suddenly the music stopped,
not a word is heard, not even a sound.
I turned my head, looked over my shoulder,
I saw a woman running.
She was wearing a white gown.
I couldn't help but wonder why this woman running
flaunted such a frown.
I followed her footsteps,
I listened for the sound.
Running through the darkness,
one question came to mind,
Who would leave this woman?
Who would be so heartless?
How can someone leave her when she is so obviously distraught?
Abruptly a sound was heard.
I came to a stop.
I listened closely.
It was a gunshot.
Now fearful I stood.
I began to run as fast as I could.
I ran so fast, I could hear my heart beating.
I came upon my car and noticed a woman bleeding.
She was gasping for air.
Someone had shot her and left her to die there.
It was as if they didn't even care.
She reached for my hand,
whispered softly to me
"never trust a man"
At that moment her hand dropped.
I knew her heart had stopped.
I looked at her white gown now dripping red.
I I cried to myself and pondered what she had said.
This could be me.
I could be lying here dead.
I will remember her words always.
They will haunt me for the rest of my days.
This moment I will never forget.
No man should ever be such a threat.

This was the day my life would change.
From this day on I would never be the same.
The lesson I learned here,
never have such fear.
Fear that will keep me from being free.
I learned that I can be happy just being me.

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Who am I?
Am I defined by what is near in sight?
Am I defined by what I have done,
Or am I defined by what I could become?

Perhaps I'm of no use.
To him, or her, or I, nor you.
Or perhaps I'm too misunderstood to be defined,
And it is something like understanding that comes in time.

And if to the world I'm never shown,
Yet in my own light I've grown and grown,
And so I can know no happiness but my own--
The reason for my smile, to you, will forever be unknown.

I do not pray for the world to know my name.
For it and verse; the letters are the same.
And if a man should find his sorrow in what he reads,
I pray his pain my words to keep. 

Should his eyes rain on my page,
Better tears than storms of rage.
And if a man should find his sorrow in what he reads.
I pray his pain my words to keep.

And if to the world you're never shown,
Yet in your own light you've grown and grown,
And so you know no happiness but your own.
Let the reason for your smile, to you, only be known.

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Poetry Soup

Not knowing what you want can be pretty sad,
looking around and searching for the unreal is bad.
Than you stumble upon a treasure and find your self in that moment,
a moment that you have been waiting for and hoping to open it.

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The Wilting Girl

Petals wilting, one by one, Falling where they may Still burning with insanity, And pain that's here to stay Petals falling, one by one, In the hands of strong desire Burning in a heart of passion, Only filled with fire Petals falling, one by one, Floating down with empty bliss It's too late to bring their color back, So say goodbye with one last kiss Petals falling, one by one, With only hate, and pain If only there had been more sun, If only there had been less rain

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The Sadness in and of POETRY

As a Teardrop, I see so much Sadness in the Heart of mankind
As a Love Teardrop, I see much “Madness” in the Heart of Mankind

As a Teardrop of  Death, I see so much Grief , so much Pain : LOVE
As I roll down the contours of Your Cheek I can smell the Sorrow in my LOVE

As a Heart’s Teardrop, I see many endearing Memories, my Sweet “LENORE”
As a Heart’s Teardrop,  I see my Endearing Dream “BARBARA JEAN” For Evermore

                                                      To Be  Cont. 

                     Dedicated To the POETRYSOUP “POETESS and POETS"

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If i were to tell you that my heart is gray
What would you do to make it red again?
If i were to say that i dont miss you
Would you understand my pain?
If i were to show you how much you mean
Would you notice that my heart stopped beating?
If i were to picture things in my mind to be perfect
What would you do to tell me things wont ever be the same?
If you were to tell me your heart was gray
I would give you mine in place of yours
If you were to say that you dont miss me
I would understand your pain
If you were to show me how much i mean
I would notice that your heart stopped beating
If you were to picture things in your mind to be perfect
I Would tell you that they are, your just ignoring it
I would tell you how big of a part you are in my life
I would say to you that you are my hero
I would show you my scars and heal your wounds
I would picture us in a place that does not harm love
If you could see the hole in my heart 
Would you bother to fix it 
Or would you let it fall apart?

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Come As You Are

At one point in my life i was an artist
I used to paint and draw
Covering a piece of paper
In beautiful colors
And my art told a story
The sort of story you couldn't talk about
I used to go to school every day
Showing up late 
Wasn't something I'd do
But i dropped out
Leaving my education behind
I played the bass guitar
In a band called 
The Nocturnal
My fingers ran against that bass
Pure magic
The sound of the gods
Setting out to destroy the world
Pure Punk straight from Seattle
At one point i was clean
Sober and pure like a new born baby
Falling further into 
What you now call 
Screwing up my veins
with every shot of herion
Killing my brain cells
With every joint i smoked
Clogging up my nose 
With every pill you could have known
I used to write lyrics
About my life
My childhood
I used to write journals
The ones you read in the book 
that was published of me
I got up on that stage every night
As i was
Nothing fake
Nothing glamourous
Only a few scars
One shot of heroin
Come as you are
The words only speak for 

Details | Choka | |

Why Now?

On a summer night
leading me to my front door
you tell me you're leaving.
Not just leaving me,
but, from this Earth and your life.
Is this really happening?
No longer will you
hold me gently in your arms,
or kiss me on a hot night.
Why this news? Why now?
I have met my one and only.
I've lost my reason to breathe.
I will take this night
hold on to your warm arms
til you take your final breath.
(I chose 'Summer Evening" for my inspiration.)

Details | Senryu | |

That Sucks

<                                     on your own death bed 
                                       you couldn't even admit ........
                                       that you were married

Entry For Paula Swenson's Contest 
Two Wrongs Don't Make A Right
G.L. All

Details | Classicism | |

Only Death Can Tear Us Apart

Your always in my heart & head,
 I still can't believe ur dead. We may
be miles & miles apart 
but I feel ur still close because I keep you 
always in my heart, 
Death was the only thing that could ever
keep us apart.

Details | Haiku | |

What People Were and What People Are

People were
Many things.
Strange or not

People were
Different and
Odd and fun.

People were
Monsters but…
That’s not all

People were
And still are
Strange and odd.

People are
People. For
life is life. 

Yet not.
Not is lies.
Truth seeps from

Every mouth
Lies, lies, lies
Move, move, move

But somehow
Lies prevail.
Lies are life.

Lies are death.
Lies are homes.
Lies are pain.

Lies are truth.
Yet somehow.
Truth prevails.

Truth is life.
Truth is death.
Truth is home.

Truth is pain.
Truth is lie.
Truth is that.

Lies will die.
Lies will cease.

Truth will live.
Truth will be.

Details | Light Poetry | |

My Sunshine

As a stormy cloudy day, my heart filled with a dark gloomy, foggy haze.
Breathless and no longer living my flesh was deaf and disintegrating fast.
Lifeless, and buried deeply sunken; upon my grave.
My spirits formed as dying weeds, uprooted planted seeds.
Brittle and fragile as a crisp rose petal.
Dehydrate raindrops that have fallen from my tear ducts.
My soul was as dark as the dirt that lay on my grave.
I lay in darkness with no movement.
Then the earth shifted.
As he gently brushed off my layers of crust, small thin layers of trust.
Lifted me from my darkness dust, my sunshine has come.
In a form of a man, skin golden as sand.
He takes my hand as I carried off to dry land.
As his sunrays beam down upon me, I am profoundly happy.
Liberation of sunlight, deliverance of brightness, I am out the darkness.
Reincarnation I am rebirth a new person.
My sunshine has come there is no more rain in my heart.
 All cried out lifted by his sunlight.
I have life born again as his wife.

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Wasting Time

Way above the street lights
Watching yourself die
Waisting time

They left you in so much pain
You lost everything
For so many years
You pushed me out
Cant describe how i feel

This time im not going to watch myself cry
im not going to bury myself on the inside
You say you want the old me back
If you want me back
Your going to have to ask
Nice than that

Details | Shape | |

Death Do Us Part

            hope lies             slit wrist
        not much            tight twist~
      twitch finger        missed kiss~~
      guilty little              witchy miss~~~
        long run      nothing there
   cold breath       steaming stare
      thought you've    always known
    never cared          busy phone
    times gone           bye bye
        no regrets          we die
         --- ---                  V
          --  --                  l l
          L   L                 v v 

****the shape is Supposed to be of two lovers dancing!

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Along The Way

I say goodbye
To this chapter in my life
Im sure you will get the answers
When im gone
So when the day comes
The sun will not touch my face
Theres mistakes
The path is long
Look at my face
The stories it could tell 
The ones that wont erase
Tell the ones that cared enough 
That i finally left this place
So play the song
Its something to remind you
When im gone

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Scarlet Moons and Indian Suns

Written August 29, 2013

She could have had my son
As we'd spell our names as one
On scattered ocean shores
Beneath that Indian sun

I loved my ma
And I loved her well
I loved my pa
And that musty smell

I hope to see them some day soon
I hope to see them smiling too
This Earth they left a bit too soon
Much thanks unto the scarlet moon

Some day well all be joined as one
Under scarlet moons and Indian suns

I love my family
How I miss this feeling
Of constant embrace
Awaiting at my feet

So come and pray for rain
To wash away our pain
Before the winter stains
What autumn left to drain

I hope to see them some day soon
I hope to see them smiling too
This Earth they left a bit too soon
Much thanks unto the scarlet moon

Some day well all be joined as one
Under scarlet moons and Indian suns

Details | Lyric | |


Remembering all the things we used to share
things we used to do together
when we were one
crumbling like buring leaves
glue couldnt put them back together
words he used to speak
the air that filled my lungs
Heart beating faster with every word
the feeling disapeared the night it all went wrong
nothing but guilt and tears filled my eyes
praying that the devil would make me yours
and youll be mine again
nothing more is left to say but the word we all fear

Details | Rhyme | |

The Sight of Heaven - Memoirs - Part 4

As I cross the Threshold, Behold,  “ the Beauty of GOD’S Glory “
YOU understand the Birds that Sing, Winds :Whispers in Your Ear
Are YOU Ready to Accept , the Truth with-in  “ HIS STORY “
He holds YOU, He Hugs YOU ,He Shields YOU from YOUR Fear
THEY show YOU ; the Waters of FOREVER, that may flow upon  YOUR Head
How YOU Drink the WATERS “ Eternal “ knowing Life is Evermore
While still , as YOU’RE living ; we tell  Our stories , about when YOUR  “Dead” 
Gaze upon  Glory That I can't receive; My Heart Groans  I LOVE YOU L E N O R E
                                       To Be Cont.

Inspired by “ Carolyn Devonshire  “

For Her Strength , for Her LOVE : My Inspiration

I hope , My Dearest, Most Only BELOVED : BARBARA JEAN
YOU read this :and know ‘ How Deep My LOVE for YOU is

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U have gone too far indeed
But My love for U still possess the same creed

U were the one to grow in Me the love seed
Which grown into a beautiful plant breed

U were the one who did a great deed
To change My life and give it a new lead

U were the one who provided the care I need
By facing the problems which M required to be freed

U took burden of keeping Me away from unwanted weed
And in turn just wanted My love as a feed
Won’t forgive U God for the tears I bleed
U took her away from Me, against my plead

I would always preserve Ur memories and love beneath 
A sheath
And would love U always until I breathe 


Details | Lyric | |

Here Is Gone

Ever thought of something so much
That when you wake up it just automatically
Crawls into your brain cells
Shoots them with laser beams
Until they explode 
And that’s the only thing you have left to think of
Because everything else is fried
Ever wish you could go back and change that night
Wish that you wouldn’t have left her side
That you would have just listened to your heart 
Instead of your gut
Instead of that little voice that echoes
In the back of your head
Ever wished that you wouldn’t be reading this poem
That everything could be like your dreams
Like a family who gets along
Like having a famous relative
Dreaming that you had a better life
More money to spend
More bass guitars to buy
Less drama
Then you find this special someone
Who you can really relate to
And you never want to let them go
But somehow they slip through your fingers
Then your life crumbles 
Falling down like the rain in a thunderstorm
Wishing you could change everything
But you just start over
And try to move on
And somehow end up at the beginning all over again

Details | Free verse | |

In My Community

Our Ancestors fought to the death,
Just so we can live a brighter day,
So before you light up that blunt of meth,
Think about what you’re giving away,
It was a glad day in history when Obama rose to victory,
The first black president was all we knew,
Dark skin is in!
Haven’t you heard?
That even in our community, 
You can get burned,
It’s a sad day when people would rather stay home and “Crank That Amber Cole”,
Than get up and run to a poll,
In our community,
Rockin’ Luis V is better than having a college degree,
And teen pregnancy is not only a trend,
But the single motherhood that follows should end,
Young girls learn of a wonderful prince to take them away,
Nothing should change thought their mothers prince didn’t stay,
And as the tears fade away,
She grows stronger every day,
In our community,
Fighting is no longer a word,
You argue with someone and shots are heard,
Girls showing places the sun don’t show,
So how do they expect the community to grow?
Where love is a figment of imagination,
Making a young child question her creation,
Young mothers would rather buy the iPhone 5,
Then satisfy her baby’s cries,
While her new man’s eye,
Wander up another girl’s thighs,
In our community,
Where #team dark skin vs #team light skin,
Makes others not love the skin they’re in,
Love, lust, hate, and trust,
Giving a rose on Valentine’s Day is no longer a must, 
Where bad is good and good is bad,
Who would think to see their grandmother sad?
Her hurt and pain,
Shows how our community has lost everything her parents fought to gain.

Details | I do not know? | |

For Men Everywhere One Billion Rising

1 Billion Rising.

For Men Everywhere.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!


Stop the abuse!

Of grand-daughters,

all women.


Listen to the voices!

Of grand-daughters,

all women.


Think of how you treat,


all women.


Act now to change yourself!

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when you stop,

the violence,
the abuse,
the rape.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

is perpetrated by,



all men.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when us men stop,

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

today, now.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

Details | Rhyme | |

Buried love

He is sleeping in my bed unsuspecting,
As I sneak out the back door again.
I stalk across the dimly lit garden,
Stricken with guilt, remorse, heart-piercing pain.
Even during blissful moments in his arms,
Your face flickers in the reflection in his eyes.
I close mine only to see your face again,
In the blackness, dark as night skies.
How can I be happy with someone else,
When thoughts of you haunt me, asleep or awake?
How can I smile up at him,
When its your features I'm trying to remake?
Even though he makes me happy,
Its nothing compared to the joy you brought me.
I start the car and stare at the lucky charm,
Remembering when you said, my happiness it will guarantee.
I guess it never did work,
Because now I'm sitting in this empty car,
Wondering how things could have gone this wrong,
When we had promised stay together upon a solitary star.
I'm driving down the familiar road,
Wishing an accident would take away this pain.
Better a quick unfortunate incident,
Than a slow death, plagued by guilt, going a little insane.
Walking through the wrought iron gates,
I cant help remembering the many times I've sneaked out.
Each time I reach the graveled path,
If you're worth the trouble, I doubt.
But I cant help stalking out the house,
You've become my obsession, my pilgrimage.
Praying silently he never finds about you,
For I'm sure he'll have me put in a cage.
I feel the steady calm rising as I near you,
Your voice is in the wind, the rustle of the leaves.
I can hear my heart beat in my ears,
I move to your headstone among the other graves.
As usual I trace the engraved heart,
Let a few tears slip and lie down on your cover.
Wishing the block of marble between would disappear and so,
For the last time I could see my sunshine, my one true lover.
- Miliya Parveen

Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy

Details | Ballad | |

Corpse Bride

The braeþ of lyf -- I've Learned to fear
Though, ta'en it was, so long sinsyne
I've wroot my song of skreighs
He tore the lyf out of me
In sooth did she speke this to me - Cassandra was she to me
Wistful - I am no bride to be
Wistful - is this soliloquy of skreighs

I cede to thee, deathly colleen 
Though remains - façades of humanity 
Angel kind - wicce of my welkin dreams
Casted by the lote of she
Ta'en the hollow Herefro way - ne'er!
Caught with twain
W'ie or swain

Angel dearest so fair - love does not share
Seemed a crux, when eath is lone
I rose for thee - cede all of thy love to me
Or was this not meant to be
Eros's deceit 
So wistful - corpse bride I remain to be

Details | I do not know? | |

I still miss you

Visions stolen,
Heart beat raised
You still touch me,
In the castle in the air

I don’t want to miss you,
Truth is, I still do
The smile, those eyes,
I still miss you..

The path has forked
The world has split
Memories tainted,
I still miss you

I yearn for a rendezvous
To reminisce the cold touch
The twinkle, the chuckle,
I still miss you

Cries of laughter,
Strength of bond,
The waiting seconds,
I still miss you

Time does not reverse
The road unveils beautifully
But, some are unforgettable
And, I, still miss you…

Details | Than-Bauk | |

My Inner BOSS

Take my hand and walk with me, 
ill show you side of a world that you never seen. 
Ill show you where its ends meat and where gangsters meet,
this is where all the goons come out to play and steal the street. 

No one goes into my hood,
we done really care for you angry mood.
Music will blare everywhere around out street,
it's always dark and you cant see anything but peoples feet.

Your eyes open up so wide and a smile appears on your face,
you tell me you love this part of my village, and your heart stands no chance.
You ask me if you can stay with me and i answer, "ill need some more protection for you,
and make it seem like i had nothing to do.

It is my hood, don't get me wrong, i protect what i love with all my heart,
even if it means to kill one of my own demons for you, and put you as the start.
You walk me out to the streets where every one is dancing to the blaring music, to give me another chance,
we walk out onto the floor and begin to move your body in a way i never seen before, than you lean to me and ask, "would you like to dance"?

Dedicated to: Esther Baleva! 
PS: My one and only Angel. I Love Her!

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Show me who you are and i shall paint out broken columns on the valleys of her back as if such figure is un-common
i have found no beauty bending as the vines that are her hair and the frailty of man upon her back is what she bares
bleed her body for the harvest let them feast upon her soul for the nurishment of mother is leaps beyond so bold
she is like the flower growing in the deepest of dark forests,amongst the ivy and hemlock but her skin is much too porous
to concern herself with games that tantalize the men, as they marry on crusade it is her children that she tends
sheath your swords with her ambition and tip your arrows with her will, craft your armour from her strength and in the battle you will kill
come now children from the pasture and lay each upon her side, suckle gently at your mother although theirs pain she does not hide
though the water leaks from rooftops her leaves are thick and block the rain, as the water level rises cling to her branches with no shame
she is the stone upon the beach, once a mountain pound and breached
yet still her disposition clear to love her children that are near

inspired by Roots Frida Kahlo, 1907-1954

Details | I do not know? | |

Grim Reaper

The pain is deep
The cuts are deeper
I cant wait till my visit
From the Grim Reaper.
My time will be soon
I just wanna be gone
Away from this all
He'll get me at the crack of dawn.
No one will cry
No one will fret
No one will care
Thats what i bet.
Im misunderstood
Can i just leave now
Things would be better off
Iv lived longer than i allow.
I will leave with him 
Dont worry when im gone
I know you wont anyway
I was just the worlds pawn.
He is here now
I have taken his hand
We are on our way to forever gone
I was never a demand.
You all will forget me
Dont try to deny it
I was barely anything to you all
So i wont throw a fit.
This is my final good-bye
Im almost forgotten
I knew it wouldnt be long
But my love will never be rotten.
Only one person cared so much
I have just hurt him
I forever will love him
His life may turn grim.
Im trying to run back to him
The Grim Reaper wont let me go
I dont wanna hurt my love
But im already in the flow.
Ill break these chains
I love him so
The last thing i wanna do is hurt him
I dont want him to let me go.
Now its far to late
He has let me go
But not deep in his heart
He will forever love me that i know.
I have made a mistake in leaving
I took his hand far to soon
I left my love alone on that world
I will always look at him from the moon.

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Meet Me At The Gates

Standing across from damien
whom had been his lover for yea
He takes his heart out of his chest
And places it in Damiens hands
Kurt says "this heart belongs to you"
He askes Damien "do you want it?"
Damien places Kurts heart in his hands
"i dont"
Kurt throws it to the ground and stomps on it
Looking down at his crumpled heart a tear 
Falls from his cheek
He starts walking away
He falls to his knees
Like suffocating
Damien runs over to him
But is blocked by a black mist
Damien stands there whispering
"Kurt come back"
Kurt stands up and places his heart
Into Damiens pocket
As Kurt turns and walks away
The sky opens up
And kurt rises to the clouds
A few years later Damien joins him up at the gates

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Tear a Heart, Shred a Soul

She sat alone
Against jagged stones
Carving her misery into them
Watching the blood, red and worn
Retell her sorry tale

The ocean waves crashed at her feet
As if trying to warn her
As if trying to tell her something
"He isn't there anymore"

But she won't heed the angry voices
Nor will she try to move
Because the ocean reminds her too much of him
His blue eyes, and cold heart
And a midnight summer charm

She waits until it fades to black
and the ocean looks like a black abyss
Then she hopes it will swallow her
leading her to him

Maybe the ocean will take pity
And lead her straight to hell
And into her long lost love open arms
Where he's waiting for her

But the ocean refuses to open
And refuses to let her drown
They try to tell her that he isn't there anymore
She has no reason to cry

Tear a Heart, Shred a Soul
No difference will it make
Unless you head the silent whispers
That he is waiting on the sand
Beneath the moon
Watching and Waiting for her return

His tale too is a sad one
For she will never come back
Her ripped up mind
Her beaten body
Lay in the ocean, buried deep
Waiting for him

(i have the same poem up on a different site...username XxUnforgivenxX)

Details | Free verse | |

your perfection

You moulded me to your perfection then bounced me around the room 
to show ownership of me to your friends

So I purred and smiled and batted my eyes

Acted asthough I enjoyed it

I loved all of them the way you taught me 
So you were pleased for a while
For a while I was safe

You bent me out of shape and pushed me as far as I could take
So I tried to smile and bat my eyes but I couldn't help but cry 
It made you happy for a while

These chains swing and hurt my wrists as they break and cut my veins

I'm lying here alone unclaimed
I wish to feel the hurt again 
I want the tears upon my face
The cold gleam in your eye
I need you to be happy for a while

The darkness stinks, I'm in disgrace all used up a broken face
Bones are broken beneath the skin
I love your smile you've such a grin
Now at least your happy again

Details | Lyric | |


Have you ever noticed how a paint brush dries out
After two minutes of just sitting there?
Kind of like how you have been drawing for 10 
years and all of a sudden you forget how to
You lost all your techniques
And you move on and find something better
like the lyrics you used to write in school
Thinking one day you'll sing them to the world
And when you finally get a band together
Someone got grounded and everything falls apart
like that time when you did drugs
Thinking it would solve your problems
But it just made them worse
Like a friend
Telling you how to live your life
And tell you what you should and should not do
Its like the first time you felt alive
Holding her hand and being close to her
Then she goes away
And you are forced start all over again
without her

Details | I do not know? | |

Pardon my Insanity

I don’t want freedom. Forgive me for sounding paranoid or crazy.
But this man used me. After knowing my history of pain. 
Now I see why people kill the victims and themselves.
Doing away with all evil its emancipation. 
At my wits end. Where sanity has eaten away my brains.
Where my soul has no resting place. And tears are like acid.
That burns through my cheeks. Pardon my insanity.
For I have fallen too many times. Where getting up is just powerless.
My heart is caged. All the impact and friction it took, For years.
And still it beats. Keeping me alive to face another brutal blow.
Pain so severe. No medicine or words of encouragement
Can put me at peace. Love is inadmissible here.
For I am deceased .



Details | I do not know? | |

Music is my life

Music is my life and it helps me from getting my heart broken 
Most people think I am crazy for trying to distract myself from falling in love with someone 
besides you, but the true is I am afraid that I will fall in love and then get hurt again 
I am just fine to wait for you because we have true love baby and even if we are ten states 
away that does not have to stop our love
Most my friends try to hook me up but thats when I bring out my music 
The one thing that can not break my heart 
The one thing that will love me forever 
The one thing that I can relate to 
And most of all its the one thing that distracts me from finding someone like you 
I only want you in my life time  

You have to understand that I will not wait my whole life 
If I cant have you I will find somebody who can make me laugh 
Someone who can make me cry out of happiness 
All these things are things that I loved about you 

As I grew up I figured out that nothing will ever be the same 
I know it sucks it could always be worse than what it is 
thats what you told me before the accident happened
I wish that could have been me and not her 
I would have tried to at least save you and she just walked away 
She was being someone else once she was done with you 

Now as I think I have to move on but my love for you will always be the same and I will 
always say my favorite three words and think of you and the last night I saw you "I love 

Details | Ballade | |

yelling loud

you say you love me 
you say  you care but when it comes down to it
youre not therre
youre just in the corner 
yelling real loud 
youre not worth *****without me 
u have any doubt

i fill my mind with silence i calm the storms
i close my ears 
but youre there 
screaming more
making my mind split into 2 
youre not the man i wanted 
i wanted someone that could do
what youll never do
look after youre daughter and me 
thought that made us 3 but its not u and me
youve decieced 
after the woumb youve been in
we r devided

Details | Free verse | |

Dear Dad

Dear Dad 				
Why don’t you love me? 
The small brown eyed girl asked her father as he beat her at night,
 then with a smile in the morning he’d scoop her up in his arms to play.
Why don’t you love me? 
The bigger brown eyed girl asked her father as he walked out and
never came back.
Why don’t you love me? 
The young brown eyed girl asked her boyfriend of two years,
As he walked out the same door her father did eight years before.
Never to return.
Why didn’t you love me?
The older brown eyed girl asked her father at his funeral.
As she leaned over the edge of his casket and kissed him gently on the forehead,
Tears running down her cheeks.
Why couldn’t you love me? 
The oldest brown eyed girl asked as she lays Jasmine’s and roses
On her father’s grave.
Only a row down from her old boyfriend’s,
With love that never dies.
And her question is answered in the wind, 
As the answer is whispered in her heart.
How could you love me?
If you couldn’t love yourself?

Details | Sonnet | |

Passion Untamed

What happens to passion untamed?

Does it consume one
like night does to the light?
or spread through one's body--
and then become ferocious?
Does it look like a savage beast?
or somehow turn into love--
like when two hearts meet?

Maybe it just remains there 
like a stone.

or does it drive you to the tomb?

Details | Lyric | |

Unsuspecting Victim

Four teenagers 

Paige- psychic, can see and talk to the dead, has demons who come to her for help
Matt- Has demons attachted to him, dating paige
Kevin- A Nerd from school, intersted in pot
Kat- Training psychic, paiges best friend, dating kevin

Prom Night- 2011

Sitting in the car positioning themselves
into a compfy spot
Matt sits in the driving seat
Paige in the passenger seat
Kat and Kevin in the back seat
Kat laying on Kevins shoulder
All of them latch there seat belts
Driving unto the road to go to after prom
Paige sees someone
Someone no oe else can see but her
Sitting right beside her is her (demon but almost human ghost) friend
He whispers "i can try to keep you save from everything, but i cant make a promise)
She looks down at Matts foot
Holding unto the break peddal is one of Matts demons
The demon breaks the pedal and has one hand into the engine of the car
A car coming up behind them
Trying to pass them
Matt decides to make it difficult for them to pass
As he does he tries to hit the breaks
And they didnt work
They drive into the ditch 
Trying not to hit the other car infront of them
Flipping a few times as they land with all the tires on the ground and the 
Top of the car towards the sky
Paige lays on the windsheild her head cut by the glass
She looks  at her self
She sees her body laying there looking up at Matt as he smirks to her
His eyes turn black and he smirks again
Paiges ghost friend opens the door and pushes her out
Far from the car
She now lays close to the road
She watches the car as it rolls off the hill
Flipping it again, also looking down at her lifeless body
She sees Matts demon again

The Night After

Paige was rushed to the hospital
Matt, Kevin and Kat left with only bruises and a few cuts
Paiges brain was internally bleeding
She stands in the hospital 
Outside of her body
Standing looking at her ghost friend
He ssays to her "as much as i want you to be here with me, your family needs you in your other life"
She wakes up a few hours later, in her body, and getting better

Details | Lyric | |


              SOUL MATE
I came in the name of He who gave you breath.
As certain as the emptiness of time,
as hopeful as your life, and meaningless as death,
I came to stay.

No holy water, no exorcist's demand,
can quench your thirst; your need for all I am.
I fill your head with things not meant to understand,
I came to stay.

I breath your name, tormented you may seem,
and sleepless is your night, I fill your time.
I am the joy of life beyond your dying scream,
I came to stay.

I came in the name of He who gives you death.
I am the calm and blinding of the light.
Forever part of you, I am your very breath.
I came to stay.
...........© Ron Wilson

Details | Lyric | |

im yours

Ever feel like your world is crashing right before your eyes?

Everyone is just in a still mode

you go up to speak to them

And they just stand there

Not saying a word

not even blinking

Like your world has frozen

I'm your pain when you can't feel

I'm your eyes when you must kill

I'm your voice when you must lie

I'm the fear that fills your brain

I'm yours when the world falls apart

I'm the sadness when you are depressed

I'm the numbness when you can't heal

I'm the sharpness of the blade in which u cut

I'm the bullet that pierces your heart

I'm yours when your world has fallen apart.

Details | Burlesque | |

Relax Honey The Worms Will Play

Relax Honey... The Worms Will Play!

Oh honey one day,
We will both part;
To rot in graves,
And waste away:
Playing with worms,
And dancing with maggots,
As they climb all around.
Relax love all is well!
Soon we'll be down bellow,
Cavorting with the others, under the ground.

Details | Rhyme | |

It's Something...

The light of my depression,
The joys of my sorrow.
What's coming my way?
I'll know by tomorrow.

Details | Rhyme | |

Winds of My Aftermath

Feel the hurricane and taste the rain here in the park
Hear me wail and watch me as I make my mark
But do not tell me when it is time to go
For I will be playing here long after dark

Get lost with me here in the brush
Stay the storm that now makes us rush
Meet me here same time next year
And once again I will make you blush

See me stand there upon my mountaintop
Fear the gale as I tend my crop
We will leave for chance what I do not know
And I will beg for mercy, but I will not stop

Over there just beyond the bended trees
Beautifully bending by my gentle breeze
Near Ole' Shadow's Pass, there along the path
You will feel the Winds of My Aftermath
Yes, you will find me whispering in the forest on bended knees
Where you will feel the Winds of My Aftermath

Details | Cowboy | |


Tainted love 
or tired love?
Smug attitudes
and weak games
Look at you!
Your such a lame!
Me cry?! Ha! Not no more!
Five point five years
What a joke?!
All you do is lie
Keep smoking your life away!
Wake up before its too late!
Before this love turns into hate!
Your too old to act this way!
Your too comfortable
You cant stay!
In my life!
In my way!
Goodbye to you!!!

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If I die before I wake

As I die he will be with me,
I fell in love he had the key,
And always knelt on one knee.

My last thoughts are of him, 
As the lights go dim,
Life circling on a rim.

All at once we are apart,
The taste is so tart,
It all hits me in the heart.

You are left to live,
My heart your captive,
There is nothing to forgive.

My cheeks blush so shy,
With a tear in my eye,
As I start to die.

Fear not for I am well,
As many up here can tell,
It is not quite hell.

As I look from above,
kissing the forehead of my love,
I wonder what he dreams of.

I look at him so fondly,
his lips curve so grandly,
as he sleeps so soundly.

I'm like a hummingbird fluttering over his bed,
I wish to be with him but I am dead,
My life over and has fled.

I fear for my love for he is kind,
Strong handsome and well lined,
But now I leave him way behind.

Finding love is like a quiz,
Never knowing what it is,
He needs love from a heart as strong as his.

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I waited

I never told you how I felt,
When I had the chance;
I hid my welled up feelings,
Never gave a second glance;

I stowed away my longing thoughts,
You weren't right for me;
But all I ever wanted,
Was to let you see;

I let slip through my fingers,
My one and lingering shot;
And allow that one brief moment,
Slither away, I cannot;

I waited too long to show you,
How much you meant to me;
And now you’re gone forever,
As gone as you can be.

Details | I do not know? | |


I RUN from FEAR.



I FIGHT cause of FEAR.

I'm FAR from you.

I'm SCARED cause of you.

You're the FEAR that I HUNT.

You're the FEAR that I FIGHT.

You're the FEAR that SCARED me for LIFE.

*Comment if you have any thought and if you like it. oh and some of the poems i write arn't 
always my feelings. their some times just to get through other people so they can have 
something to read that just fit's them.*


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Life Beyond You

Life Beyond You. At the core of my heart, where the air is cool And the pieces formed have slowly parted, Lies the innocence used as your only tool Since the day when your hunger started. I remember the day our lives began, Cocooned in a silver cloud, But I knew I was right when I turned and ran, Our dreams, burned in a shroud. I tried to think what I did wrong Or whether it was even me, But your hate was as fierce as the day is long- The day when you set me free. A blow to the head would have been quite tough Or a bullet through the chest, But the way you killed me was just enough To lay me down to rest. How clever you were! I remember thinking When you dismissed every word that they said, But the evidence was clear, and your life was sinking, Whilst I slept silent in an eternal bed. But as I watch you now, with your head held high Smothering your face in a grin, I make my way forward with a smile and a sigh And I know you cannot win. For I know your greatest fear of all Of which you cannot see. Your life, my dear, is due to fall, And waiting there is me.

Details | I do not know? | |

For Anene Booysen 1996 - 2013

Hamba Kahle Anene Booysen! (1996 – 2013)

Dead at 17, brutally raped and left to die,
in the dirt,


at a construction site in Bredasdorp.


‘horrific’, ‘repulsed’,
‘brutally raped’, ‘shocked’,


do these words mean anything,
to anyone,



Not to Anene Booysen,


murdered at 17, brutally raped and left to die,

in the dirt,


at a construction site in Bredasdorp.


Anene was raped,
savagely mutilated,


Her 17 year old body tossed aside,


by the hands of men.


Men, always men,


cowardly, beastly, perverted, twisted men.


‘Beastly’, ‘perverted’, ‘twisted’,


do these words mean anything,
to anyone,



Not to Anene Booysen,


who now lies cold and dead.


How many Anene Booysens will it take,


for us,






men, especially men,


to excise the ghastly menace,


of the heinous capacity that resides,


within men,


always men,


to brutalise, rape, mutilate, and murder.


‘Brutalise’, ‘murder’, ‘rape’,


do these words mean anything,
to anyone,



Not to Anene Booysen,


murdered at 17, brutally raped and left,


to die,


in the dirt,


at a construction site,


in Bredasdorp.



Anene Booysen
(1996 – 2013)


* – Hamba Kahle – “Farewell, Travel Well” in Zulu


** – Bredasdorp is a small town near Cape Town, South Africa

Details | Lyric | |


Pushed as for across the line as he can go
feeling more and more disappointed in his self 
His mother doesn't let him be who he wants
He reads her his poem but she just laughs
Telling him he won't get anywhere
She was disappointed in what he has become
He writes a poem about real things
But people just take it as words
Words have no meaning to them
Have you read his new poem? 
Yea I didn't understand it
I wonder why he writes about sad stuff
Will he find god?
Nah there just words

Details | Elegy | |

No Title to This

Stuck at the bottom 

I'm caving in. 

One thought of you not here 

Puts me in a claustrophobic nightmare. 

I can't wake up. 

I may not see you again. 

Reality isn't different from my sleep. 

I'm still running aimlessly away to nowhere. 

I'm so blinded. 

Every second is hidden that I'm spinning in circles. 

Makes me reckless, violent, purple dead. 

Over and over something's wanting me to say 

I was a creep for treating you that way. 

Can you forgive me? 

I promise I won't make you cry. 

One more chance I'll be a loyal friend. 

Walk to your door. 

I'm closing in. 

Standing on thin ice there's no turning back. 

I'll say it straight out without fumbling. 

For once in my life 

I confess it was a mess. 

Screwed up everything special we had planned. 

But now I'm here alone. 

Hope is my only invisible ally. 

I raise my white flag to the skies. 

Will you operate my wounded heart? 

The stakes are high. 

But I'm willing to continue where we left off 

If you have room in your heart for rent.

Details | I do not know? | |

Never to be Found

Love can be killed by a Dagger

Love can be Risen like a Rose

Love can be Healed

Love can be Broken

Love can Shine like the Sun in the midest of the day.

Love can be Shattered like Glass

Love can be Shadowed by Hate

Love is Desireble

Love can be Miserable

Love ... 
Love is Love

My Love is Lost with my Heart and my Mind in a Forest, Never or will Ever be found.

By: Angel4eva
Plzz comment if u like my poem and plzzz rate

(plzz comment if u like my poem... thank u for reading)

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Beside you in time

Standing facing you
As you face me
The words fall out of your mouth
I see them float to my ears
I read them as they fly by me
Leaving me 
Just like you are
You turn to me
And you shot me
Telling me to dig the bullet
Out of my heart
I reach inside my heart
As it crumbles apart
Into a million pieces
As i try to pick up all the pieces
I realize some are missing
And were neverto be found
I see myself
Holding the bullet
As im standing next to you
Holding up a fake smile
Things havent changed
We were meant to be
Even tho you left me
I will be standing 
Beside you in time

Details | Rhyme | |

The Bourgeois and the Spinning Wheel

In a room filled with a solitary red hue
The bourgeois spins a wheel
With no destination, nor need
She will spin until her brittle Hands bleed
Just to satisfy her ennui and artifice
But she does not see - the rien I see
The monster approaching her empty dreams

Spinning still - she does not know
The insomniac rose will begin to grow
The thorn of clandestine and ebony
Ostracized for he began to realize
What lies in nonsense is decadence
Which sparks interest
Who's lover is a dadaist
But his story is over now
As Seth lead the way
A poet dies in dismay

The thorn as she spun penetrated
A distraction and a lack of action
She knew the temptation for she so loved the sensation
Of crass, rebellious - ways 
The thought laid it's seed
In her Gaulish mind it breeds
She has no other need and no regrets
So she proceeds and the smile lets
With full intention and desire
Caring none of her fate that will transpire 
She presses her finger on the thorn 
So now she bleeds knowingly
she did not recede

Details | Lyric | |

One True Love

Years ago, while I was at work
You approached, and gave me that look.
When our eyes met, on that first day
I glanced at you, and looked away.

My heart was pounding, oh so fast
I never felt this, will it last?
Papers I gave you, to fill out
I explained, what they were about.

A week went by, and you came back
For those papers, you had lost track.
I gave them to you, one more time
I even showed you, where to sign.

Then one night, we had met once more
At the club, you stood by the door.
We had a drink, and shared a dance
You sure had me, from your first glance.

In the morning, you came on by
“Please come with me, but don’t ask why”.
To the seawall, to watch the view
Spending all day, just me and you.

You treated me, just like a queen
Someone like you, I’ve never seen.
You gave your heart, I gave mine too
To each other, our love was true.

The time we spent, I hold so dear
Where this was going, wasn’t too clear.
I loved you more, each day we spent
I felt our love, was truly meant.

You were my first, and only love
Our fate was in, the man above.
I had to leave, after a year
One last kiss, but many a tear.

“I’ll come for you”, I heard you say
Please make it soon, for this I pray.
Years had passed by, no word from you
My heart was broke, what will I do?

I never heard, you didn’t come
I just settled, I heard from some.
I never loved, like I loved you
For what I felt, I knew was true.

I got your call, on one late night
“You’re in my heart, but out of sight.”
“I’ve wanted you, here in my life”
“I just found out, you’re someone’s wife.”

You had told me, you held my heart
I am with you, though we’re apart.
For we’re meant, to be together
Love like ours, will last forever.

Then one day, I felt something wrong
This eerie feeling, sure was strong.
I called your mom, and we both cried
When she told me, you had just died.

Stomach cancer, is what you had
Finding this out, I felt so sad.
The night you called, it was goodbye
You never said, you knew I’d cry.

I’ll always miss, the love we shared
Knowing how much, you really cared.
I must go on, and live my life
For I’m a mom, and someone’s wife.

In your life, when you find true love
Make sure to thank, the man above.
Someday we’ll meet, at heaven’s gate
I know that you, will always wait.

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you know its wrong 
but you do it to overpower the pain
not strong enough to stay away from it
you would die without it
in its presence your heart knows no shame
even if you try to win the fight
your heart will overrule your mind
Theres nothing you can do
its chained to you
you cant get free
look what this drug did to you

Details | Rhyme | |

Together Forever

There once was a girl and a guy
their love was more than love.
But their love was soon to part,
in minutes they would be together 
only at heart.

She lies in her bed waiting to die,
as he sits, he thinks in his head,
"I wish I was dead"
"There is nothing more that I would love,
then to go with you into heaven above"
He thinks to himself
"If only there was a way,
a way to keep you in my arms for another day"

He turns to her and says,
" I'll love you forever and when you die,
I can do nothing but cry"
She lifts her head from her dying bed and whispers to him,
"I love you with all of my heart"
She held his hand to say goodbye.
He looked into her eyes and saw her try,
try to hang on to what was already gone.
He held her hand and felt her pulse drop,
but before anyone knew what had happened,
they both were gone.

Together at heart, we will never part.
Forever and ever, we will be together.

Details | Elegy | |

Hello.../...Goodbye to Us

So eloquent the beauty absorbed around you;

You uplifted me by your sweet aroma.

Oh, I'm very sorry to say,

That day in May caused a breath to pay.

You stole my heart away

And cured my parading heartache;

Only if I'd known what would have brought that day,

Then I'd have hidden and gone another time.

I felt plagued and wanted to die;

As a lover would take a shot for you, I'd dodge infinity for you.

Yet only a stranger we both were, 

I'm here writing this letter swollen with a million tears of heavy cries. 

Maybe it could have been fate that we unofficially met;

A destiny resulting in both loss and gain.

A second's glance is certain to be the catch,

Since here I stand alone in the rain.

A passive reflection of sorrow illuminates from the scar;

My heart begins to beat slowly in rhythm with my eyes. 

The ticking of the clock abruptly stops;

"I know you're up there," I finally whisper  


Details | Rhyme | |


Two hearts beat, now beating faster; beating until they're one 
Two souls breathe, now breathing deeper; breathing until they're done 
Two lovers see forever, and forever is where they run 
One child comes home tomorrow for life has just begun 

Even when the rainbow's glowing, the skies can seem so gray 
Even when the wind's not blowing, the tides can turn your way 
And when the water's raging, beneath skies that seem so blue 
It's just your body aging, and it has nothing to do with you 

So now when our God comes calling, I'll hold your hand and stroke your hair 
Yes, as snowflakes start falling, I will look for you everywhere 
And Mother, as you start flying, remember as you rise above 
Marlene, you are not dying, but finding everlasting love 

One child goes home tomorrow to embrace the Father and the Son 
One child who knows no sorrow, for life has just begun

Details | Couplet | |

The Deadly Dart

Wherever I go through out my whole life,
I end up struggling with lots of strife.
Thinking that my life is a total waste,
Wanting it to be over in a haste.

I can feel the pain inside my own heart,
Like someone through at my a deadly dart.
The wound is easing deeper and deeper,
Will the pain ever stop getting bigger?

Feeling emo is never a good thing,
Cutting your arm makes a really bad sting.
Blood is dripping from my arms and my heart,
Failing to dodge the largest deadly dart.

Drowning in all the lies and self pity,
I live each day but always feel sh*tty.
I have lots of thoughts about suicide,
But then I think about those who have died.

Those who have died not just from suicide,
But also those who are really nice guys.
...This "poem" was actually suppose to be a couplet (on any thing you want) for my english 
class but i made this kind bcuz i was feeling emo that day...and also after i was done i read it 
over and it almost sound like a rap song which, i guess, is kinda funny and cool.........

Details | I do not know? | |

Lets Fly Away

I spread my wings to fly away,
I spread my wings not to die today. 
My soul is being torn open now,
My soul will break free and not come down. 

Noise and music fill my ears to a point of over flow,
it run's through my veins and pores out so slow. 
It runs so wild and free,
not knowing where it wants to be. 

So let me fly for Christs sake, all i want to be is free,
you hold me down long enough and you'll see that I'm a monster like you never seen.

Details | Rhyme | |

My last dying breath

With my last dying breath, I will whisper your name. As my life slips away slowly, so does this pain. 
   Your name passes my lips, and releases it's grip. No more need to hold on, to this broken love trip. 
   Let me die all alone, you're too cold to come home. Now here in this light, your true colors have shown. 
   I held on for so long, said I'll never let go. But I've found peace in my soul, as my heart starts to slow. 
   Now burry me deep, in my own silent tomb. So heaven can take me, into it's uplifting womb. 
   I'll look down from the sky, as you struggle through life. And quietly pray, you get through all this strife. 
   At days end your alone, in your own bed of lies. And no one will hear, when your heart breaks and cries. 
   But  if you say you can fake it, 'til you finally make it. Then my life's in your hands, so feel free to take it. 

   For this life's not a game, we can play with no shame. It's a legend and story, that we leave with our name. 
   I'll go down in the books, as a man of good deeds. You'll go down with the world, suffocated in greed. 
   Now I'll spread my great wings, I'll look up and I'll fly. Leaving my last written passage, where I bid you good bye...

Details | Lyric | |

away with the sun

Its getting late
but you already came 
and while you were here
things never change 
you lay with me
and tell me your words
then you leave 
and I feel hurt.
Its not you that hurts me 
but the sound of the door
closing behind you 
I know for sure 
you'd like to stay 
but you never do
I'm left alone 
missing you. 
These days its more frequent 
you leave so much
that you're gone more hours 
than the day brings sun
and I have begun 
to feel so numb
when the door closes 
another night I run
far away from the thoughts I have 
because its killing me to look
at my empty hands
I remember when we were on the sand 
you told me you loved me
but you weren't my man 
and so I walked, feeling okay
but too many months 
now I want you to stay
Am I selfish?
asking too much?
You only visit me an hour
after dusk
and I must go on
but should I stay?
when you see me sometimes
but its always too late.

Details | Free verse | |

Sails torn

Sails torn

Grasped and rent
in the storm
from the ashes
to be reborn
We burst
A new and see
The trust we trust
Quenches our thirst

Your breeze, heaven sent
In the strong a fire burn
No flashes 
An uninviting storm

We thirst
To truly be
In ourselves
Seeking trust

I have, there, I went
Lowly borne
Hoping to pass
Avoiding the storm.

rlm '11

Details | Lyric | |


The most tragic stories
Are the ones
That are filled with most of the love
People have been searching for.

Details | Couplet | |

Kill Me Dear

The most incredibly ironic scene
To everyone, it is quite obscene
A scene where a lover has to kill
Their soul mate, against their own will
They were trapped in a wicked game
One must die or it would be lame
If they choose not to abide by the rules
Then the world doesn't need more fools
The killing weapon is a gun
So that the injury cant be undone
How is it you're supposed to choose
When your loved one you can't lose?
The two truly loved each other
They can't settle for another
Their code was always and forever
Now, will it ever happen? Never!
She wants them both to stay alive
But she's in denial, both can't survive
She doesn't know what to do
It's just a dream, none of this is true
She closes her eyes wanting to wake
This cruelty she can hardly take
She sits still and cries a river of tears
Struggling to control her own fears
He's already made his choice
But he doesn't want to lose his voice
The pain he's going through is surreal
He wished, it, he could seal
Facing his fears, he walks the line
He convinces himself everything is fine
Walks to her with all his might
His temptation, he must fight
He embraces her, he can't lie
Because one of them has to die
He can't lie and say it'll be okay
Can't charm her with his usual way
He pulls the gun to his head
Logic from his brain has fled
She grabs the gun and yells "no"
The gun has become their mistletoe
Felt like forever, a final kiss
with an eternal bliss
"But honey, you're the one to live
Protecting you is all i have to give"
He puts the gun in her hands
"C'mon do it" is all that he demands
He puts her finger in the trigger
Pulls it, a small bullet with a, damage, bigger
The shot, echoing still in her ear
While he mouthed "kill me dear"

Details | Dramatic monologue | |

The Broken Heart- Her Fatal Mistake

She smiles at two beautiful white doves
Prompting her to pray to above
Wondering will she ever find love
Her heart continues to ache
Pain so deep, she just can not take
The doves fly into the sky
Thinking she must be the reason why
Alone she is getting ready to say her final goodbye
Clouds creeping in… She begins to walk towards the lowering sun
Dreaming of that day she thought she met the perfect one
A young girl once ambitious and fun
Her heart ripped into two
Wishing for a simple fix, yet there is no strong enough glue
Still walking towards the sun
Ignoring what is about to come
A pain far too much to take
She chose to make that fatal mistake 

Details | Sonnet | |

The next few moments

Jiggling keys,he gave his crown a scratch
then took another look at his watch.
"You're gorgeous, now please get out!"
for the 10th time he cried out loud.

Out she emerged, breathtaking, as always,
dropping baubles, tottering in her Jimmy's,
Smile still smeared, they left that hour,
unaware of the timed out counter.

Tyres screeched as he sped,
"take it slow honey"she requested,
when, an unexpected brightness grew larger,
until black, and then, everything grew calmer.

With excruciating pain he awakened,
looking around called, "Lauren!"
the teary faces dropped and nodded,
"We're sorry" , they whispered..

Suddenly lifted by a whiff of heat,
all he could hear was his own heart beat.
limped out, made a futile attempt to find his dear,
and crashed with thoughts of future fear.

Shutting the door behind him,
reminiscing love, life, past with grim,
clouds of  "what if" floating his self ,
whole world reduced into a tiny elf.

Moving on is most important at present,
Realizing a  reason, he may not accept,
 he still breathes, for that very reason,
And, taking care of himself will never be treason.

Details | Rhyme | |

Lydia's DaddY

...eyes puffy                       
      caked up with cry

Daddy ain't comin' home
         she don't know why...
grown folk sadness
         ripping inside her

       All she's known about lovin's 
               in the coffin beside her

Details | I do not know? | |

Helpless Hate

Her pain provokes an anger deep 
from within.. 
A hatred so ugly even the devil 
himself looks in disgust as he shakes 
an icy chill from his thorny spine.

Her struggle pains me..
A deep, searing pain in my chest; I 
close my eyes and picture cold steel 
hands ripping open my chest cavity 
and tattooing words of hate and sin 
on my heart itself. An excruciating 
burn that ignites my insides like 
Satan setting fire to a fresh 
delivered batch of tormented souls..

I hate her pain. I hate her struggle. 
Nay, I loathe them to my core, to 
the pit of my guts, to the last drop 
of blue blood from my fresh 
squeezed body.

How can I help? 
what can I do? 

Besides sit idle and watch the love 
of my life, the woman that gives me 
motivation to jump to the stars and 
reach my dreams, gives me the very 
air I breathe in my lungs; struggle in 
The look on her face as these two 
things I hate torment my angel, rips 
my soul right out of my body and 
dangles it in front of me laughing, 
mocking me as it smashes it to the 
ground and stomps all over it..

"not any longer," I say to myself tugging impatiently at the pink wristband on my arm.
"I will not give up this fight."

Details | Free verse | |

Star Death

Out beyond the window
Deep within the sky
My eyes trace the light
The specks of hope
So few in the cascade of night

How can it be possible
To stare yonder
And be swallowed 
Falling in an abyss
Flailing for a holding

Twisting in my gut
An unwanted knowing
Shredding my being
Siphoning liquid from eyes
Destroying all that was

Binding me to the specks
Only able to observe
Undiscovered in the darkness
When the time comes to be your star
I’ll already have become a black hole

Details | Ballad | |

Queen of The Vultures

One step into her aflamed path
With even an intention so good
Anyone could, yet none should
She knits your lips with her name
So you won't remember 
the one who's heart you hold
Your lovers' bane

Her Eden's Revenge is all she contains
The destruction of your soul is all that remains
The Queen of Vultures and Wargs
She serves Asmodeus and nothingmore
Sitra Achra you will surely find
Misstress of Mayhem
The lights grow dim 
You've found the blood of your love

"Just dream if it was only you and me
Far into the left side far from The Hand of God
Run with me into the deeps of Sitra Achra"

Details | ABC | |

My worse lie

I saw it coming 
Yet I was too far away 
As my voice fell on deaf ears 
I heard the tires squeal 
As metal bent and bones were crushed
I ran towards my true love 
My tears ran down my face 
Like the blood down his
He told me to save him 
But I wasn't enough
Years of training for what?
As I held my love in my arms 
Blue eyes began to dull 
His life leaving is all I saw
Everything will be ok 
I said with a soft lie 
Believing only that it wasn't possible that he would die 
Minutes seemed  to take hours 
Till I heard the sirens till the lights finally found us.
Do you hear that my love 
There coming I said holding him in iron arms 
His breathing slowed as his voice pierced my soul 
I love you, But I have to go 
The last words his body would let him control 
No you don't I said in a voice that wasn't my own 
I can save you... I can do this.... I can't lose you 
Just hold on I promise I'll make this ok 
I love you baby so you must see another day 
A smile crossed his face 
As the sun shined 
His soul finally escaped his body's case
Tears fell from my eyes 
As if it was my last time to cry 
My bittersweet lie that I could save you 
Circled in my head 
And I realized that I wasn't enough 
That I couldn't save him 
That I had to hold my love as he died
And the last words I said to him were my worse  lie

Details | I do not know? | |

Why Should We Live?

Why should we live if we have 
nothing to live for?
Why should we live if we have
nothing to die for?
Why should we live if 
no one cares?
Why should we live if you're
loved by no one?
Why should we live if no
one likes you?
Why should we live if 
no one loves you?

Each day is just a day
Each day is a day closer to death.
What's the point of living?
Some may say none,
Others may say why.
Why should we live?
Tell me and I will think about your answer.

Details | I do not know? | |

Letting Her Go

Fear runs through her entire body,
As she takes the dagger from her boyfriends case.
She quietly walks through the kitchen,
Writing a note telling him everything will be okay.

The open door lets in a cold winter breeze,
Her bare feet sinks deep into the snow.
She kneels on the ground holding the dagger in her hand,
And she thrusts it into her chest nice and slow.

The pain is excruciating but she keeps on going,
She feels the blood run down her fingers,
As she fights blacking out,
The dark begins to linger.

Her mind was made up,
But now she made the mistake,
She left her love behind,
She’s fighting to say awake.
She opened her eyes as wide as she could,
To look up into the face of her love,
He felt the warmth of her blood.

He carried her to the car,
And drove as fast as he possibly could,
Arrived at the hospital,
With thought he misunderstood.

“Why would she take her life,
She knows I love her so,
I never thought this day would come,
The day I had to let her go.”

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Chris and Chelsea

Chris and Chelsea
          For their death anniversary 

Buried together
With roses lined with love
From family who couldn't hold their tears.

Never did he think he could survive
Without Chelsea by his side,
He must have her.

A life was taken for his true love
and her engagement ring
That was a gift on the night of her unexpected death
Was given to a close friend,
"Don't let your love go. Don't let her leave. Give this to her."
Chris spoke softly.

The next day he was gone,
Buried six feet under he lays
With his love.

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Remember Me

Iv been there for you everytime you needed me,
Iv been there for you in case of an emergency.
I held your head while you were weak,
I whipped the tears off your cheeks while you were sick.

I brought you medicine when you had the flu,
I helped you out in any way I knew. 
I made you smile when everyone around you made you sad,
I cheered you up when everything was going bad. 

But now when I need you the most you are not here,
I'm down on my knees crying now and catching every single one of my tears.
I know all your secrets because I wanted to know how to help you,
But you don't even bother asking me how my day went, ain't that true? 

Iv done everything in my power to make you into the person you are today,
But now I'm reaching out to you, but you give me a smirk and walk away.
I guess this is what I get for being the person that I am,
I might of raised my voice on you, but that that just to make you into a man.

God created all men equally, why should I be any different from anyone else,
I treated you like I treated everyone, with discipline, love, care, without a mess.
I guess this is what I get for being raised by the streets,
Everytime someone went off on you I was there to have your back like the streets.

But now I feel alone and don't see anyone by my side,
I thought you would help me, that's why I cried. 
Now that my heart is barely beating, I want to say I love you,
Remember me as your teacher, care taker, soldier, your brother. 

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Our Little Girl

The light I see
In your eyes
only when I speak of her.
Our little one.
She would have had your eyes,
your nose.
she would have had my hair 
and my my mouth.
Our little girl would have been perfect.
But that horrible day in July,
I cried and I hated myself.
That horrific day in July when I lost her.
My world broke down.
Now when I speak of her. 
Your eyes water up, 
as do mine.
But one day we'll see her. 
I promise.
Our little girl, 
is waiting for us.
I promise.
And one day,
she'll finally say daddy.
Our little girl.

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I will not be forgotten

its the end inside my head
  i must say goodbye my dear 

im entering the unknown
im slowly starting to unravel 
and become unsewn
 you must not figure who i am 
for i am no one 

no one to be loved, no one 
forgotten, no one to grieved 
when the end is truly received
i will not be one loved, i will 
not be one forgotten
  for there there there is 
nothing to forget
  but this mere note of 
uncertainty and confusion 

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Time Stop

Time Stop

There was a moment in time when everything stopped,
It was like a dream on an entirety with you.
It  there could be a moment to take back the regret, heartbreak and confusion I doubt I would.
I fear telling you how much I love you.
Thinking it ruin are forever relationship,Not knowing it was mutual. May we be of flesh may we be of soul may we have  that savior peace.
What rules then are our own? 
If we break that promise which bond each with a letter in blood.
As time stop the wind blows,we who bore so close taking the finally blow.
As we gaze into each to each tear streak face we smile and know.
Today we can be together forever in each other arm.
As though time kept going but for us,it stopped.So our moment int time where only the wind blew.
This is the most wonderful dream we have ever shared.

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The Nymph and the Bottle of Bones

I slept in waking, walked no milestones
Until I came upon a shore
A nymph shaking bottled bones
She sung of Aphrodite's lore

For hallowed war, for seductive stroke
I piloted a well gunned ride
They revered me for each enemy broke
Until I took to the clouds to hide

In flames I fell from above
Cut down by a red baroness
I crashed into the field of love
For my want to 'fess, her ill caress

I stumbled through the thistle row
And bedded beneath a yew
I ate the fruit that danger sows
Though I arose so clean and new

At the shore I saw a boatman
Who told me the nymph had died
He beckoned me to cross the ocean
I retreated to find if he had lied

In wind swept sand I found her bottle
With bones and note inside
By which now it made no rattle
But read "This beauty's song saw love denied"

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The Imperfections of Humanity

We are not aware of what we are capable of
nor whether if it's wrong or right.
We sometimes have the will and might
and many of us will stand up and fight.

To show courage and strength
takes determination and motivation.
What am I talking about?

We cheat, we lie, and make mistakes.
We're not perfect in any way.

We weren't made to live forever
but made to live and wilt away.
We suffer through pain and it's hardships
And even sometimes experience love.

Yes, I've had thoughts of suicide
so I can fade away.
Realizing I had issues...
I didn't care.

I've always known who I was inside
and never gave up. 
I'm no philosopher like Socrates
nor do I have a college degree.
But I was raised to be somebody in this world
even if I'm going to fail countless times.

Enough about me.
Lets talk about the human race.

We will get up when knocked down.
We will fight for people we love.
We will live life like it's our last.
We will love ourselves for who we are.

We are only human.
Our imperfections is what makes us perfect.
Therefore, we are perfect in our own little way.

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When I needed you the most - you disappeared.......crawling into the vast belly of this dark, cruel, prosperous world.....leaving me alone to face the darkness and despair, forcing me to find my own light, while you wallowed in your own defeat and misery. But yet I survived, and thrived and surmised it was coming. You will always be a coward who walks the path of convenience and suffers silently for choices you regret. Forever regret, serving yourself a vicious serving of self-loathing daily. One day the darkness will succumb to the light, and the beams will shine upon your old, weak and weary face – but I won’t be there to share the warmth, nor will I celebrate the birth, I will remain distant and far………forever remembering your abandonment…..and forever will I not look your way; this stranger who now surfaced from the darkness, only to find himself sinking back into his dark abyss of loneliness and lost dreams.

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Walking around the graveyard
Untaggling his hands from the pocket in his jacket
its clear in his head that he's screaming for something
that something is missing within his heart

Taking off his hat as he sits it on her grave
Pulling out a piece of paper
The death certificate that her name was signed on
a tear falling from his cheek 
he reaches down to pick up the flower he laid there before

crumples at his touch
sitting down the piece of paper
he asked her
how can i love?
when the one i want is not here?

tears fall from his eyes unto the paper 
he lights a candle
sits it by her tombstone

He lays down beside her
listening to the wind
hoping to hear her voice
something he longed for
something that he was missing

he falls asleep
holding the stem of the rose that crumpled before
The pedals fly away with the wind
and the flame of the candle burns out
the rain starts to fall

He lays with his eyes closed
He goes back in time
The rose pedals fall back unto the stem
The paper flies back into his pocket

He walks back into town
Back into the house he was at before
Back at her funeral
to the hospital they were at
When they found out she had cancer
To the church where they got married
To the time when he asked her to marry him
Finally to the place where they met

There story replays again in his mind
he lays cold on the ground beside her
The wind dies down
and the candle starts burning again

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pain inflicted beauty

Does it ever cause you pain?
To know you broke my heart,
Does it ever cause you pain?
To know you pulled it apart.

I could jump off a building,
And soar towards the ground.
To know you wouldn't miss me,
If my identity was found.

Did it

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Prepare For War

Please let me leave this 
Let me speak to him once 
The one who I'd do anything 
The one who holds my heart

This alchemy of sin
Will never go unpurged
Get ready to burn
Lilith you are my mark
Prepare for War 
Demon whore

Anubis, my heart is mine
My love's revenge I will find
It's Time for war
I understand now
You are my mark 
Lilith reach for your armor
Prepare For war

I will meet my body again
I'll rip out every nail in my 
I don't care if it's God I Offend

You've destroyed my love
You've destroyed me
You've destroyed my heart's 
Lilith you are my mark
Prepare for war
Demon whore

Anubis, my heart is mine
My love's revenge I will find
It's Time for war
I understand now
You are my mark 
Lilith reach for your armor
Prepare For war

Only if I could let him know
This curse, this demon
Will not be our doom 

Anubis, my heart is mine
My love's revenge I will find
It's Time for war
I understand now
You are my mark 
Lilith reach for your armor
Prepare For war

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Once Whole

Whole at one time,
but now scarred, broken.
Dreams are all faded,
reality shining through.
Constant, weary battle,
tears are shed for you.
Might I dream again,
be made beautiful,
renewed and joyful?

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It's raining, raining hard.
It seems Life is like a playing card.
I'm waiting, waiting alone.
There's a feeling that cannot be shown.

Walking alone in this mysterious place.
Why can't you see the smile on my face?
"I'm here." can't you see me?
"I'm just beside you." can't you feel me?

I whispered, but there was no reply.
Am I already free? why can I almost fly?
I touched you, but you can't feel me.
You're just there, standing still, close to me.

You come here everyday,
But why can't you hear the words I say?
how long have I been here?
It's the darkness that I fear.

The flowers you gave are still beautiful.
And the candles light gives me reasons to be hopeful.
I'm still wearing my pretty dress,
The wound in my heart is almost painless.

and one day you came,
after tonight it will never be the same.
For the last time, I looked at you.
For the last time, I said I love you.

And the time's ticking,
you have to accept that the shiny light's waiting.
I stayed here,with you as your lovely Ghost.
But it's time to go, so I can no longer be lost.

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They Will Never know

She was beauty wrapped in the red of a rose
As each petal unfurled
A heart sinking, a bit more of her essence flowed 
Ageless - the time, the years in her world
A sweet that i have since known and her eyes had always showed

My life, my future wife chose
On our darkest night stilled
I cried
The plight of the dying of my rose
Her heart his confusion will never know




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I want to kill her-please try to stop me

I know she doesn't like me at all
I can see it
I can feel it

I know she wants me to fall
To fail in life
To have all the strife

She's been telling wicked things about me
She treats me like something she can't see
She is but a witch
born to give dark colors to the fairytale of my life

She doesn't talk to me
And if she would, it would be in most brutal way
I don't want to look like an enemy
But she's been making me hate her more

I tried my best to make friends with her,
But she closes her door..
I tried to reach and understand
But she wont give me a single chance

Can you please give me an advice on what to do?
I don't want to sin against Heaven, but she's turning me into a devil one.
My anger wont subside, it lasts forever.

And if she remains her stupid attitude
I could get a dagger and stab her up..To kill her is easy
But i won't do that
I may be in the state of hatred but i still have a conscience.

Please reply to this ode for this is a real life situation.
There really is someone i hate so much and her name is Fia

I need your advice. Thanx

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Reservation for One

The words plunge into my chest like a poisoned dagger. 

I frantically tug at the cold knife but to no avail as the venom works its way through my body. My mind desperately attempts to wrap itself around the deadening reality, but the slickness of it is too much to handle.

My mind slips and as a last resort hits the panic alarm. I open my mouth to scream but the poison has worked its way to my throat and burns hotter than the 1000 lakes of fire in hell. I want to grab my neck but my panic stricken mind is unable to reason with my arms to perform even this simple desperate request. 

My knees buckle and I trip and fall, backwards I think. Think...thought...thoughts...none are there. Can't think. Brain dead...or close to it. A cold splash, more chilling than the deadly dagger, wakes my brain momentarily, long enough to realize I'm drowning and add that to the list of pain. Still unable to move I throw an upward glance into her eyes. 
my last chance, the ice thin line between life and death, in hopes she will toss me a rope, a stick, a smile, anything. As she turns her back, I close my eyes and invite the ominous death that is now seemingly warm from the coldness of her actions. 

My mind pieces together a few last thoughts of happiness, of her. The day we met, her smile, her eyes, her laugh, the sound of her voice that my ears welcomed with open doors and arms wide open. The venom and water seem to meet each other simultaneously at my heart as if they had reservations, 

I know its time. 

With my lungs filled and oxygen gone, body frozen, mind shut down, I miss her. I manage one last smile and mouth the words " I love u."

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Lunar Love II

Can this ever stop
The world is blacked by the lunar love of my heart
By the vapor of my mind 
All the tides have gone undone
The mist covers my sight
The beast comes out tonight
-- The Storm Comes --

Her eyes are the color of dyed blue
With her amber hair and crimson lips
She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me
But I've already tosses her  in vain
I am the wolf she is the lamb
I've already condoned my  beloved Lillian
Agnus Lilium Iustum Decorem

The desire was so much
Lilith strapped me to her bed 
Forgetting the shame is just a 
Another winless game
Drive the wolf out of me
Take me away from this 
Take me away from the Lunar Love

The moonbeams light up my pale face
I don't want to be seen
Banished from this world I'll ever be
Drive the wolf out of me
Take me away from this
Take me away from the Lunar Love

I cry but the sun cant hear
Do I exist?
This eclipse took over
The savage is in control 
Now I'm left to face it all
Left in the dark where can we go

Lunar love is what we'll be
Lunar love is what we have

I try to Flee away from the scene
In thirst I was blind
Her blood stained on my hands
I must leave this land
I've killed my beloved Lillian
Agnus Lillium Iustum Decorem

The desire was so much
Lilith strapped me to her bed 
Forgetting the shame is just a 
Another winless game
Drive the wolf out of me
Take me away from this 
Take me away from the Lunar Love

Lunar love is what we'll be
Lunar love is what we have

The moonbeams light up my pale face
I don't want to be seen
Banished from this world I'll ever be
Drive the wolf out of me
Take me away from this
Take me away from the Lunar Love

The ghosts are tangled in my dreams 
They play with what was meant to be forgotten 
But I know there must be a away
To find the closure 
But so lost are we 
So lost I've been

Save yourself from the downfall
How close are we to the edge 
This is what the rage has done
This is what the sin has done

The desire was so much
Lilith strapped me to her bed 
Forgetting the shame is just a 
Another winless game
Drive the wolf out of me
Take me away from this 
Take me away from the Lunar Love

Lunar love is what we'll be
Lunar love is what we have

The moonbeams light up my pale face
I don't want to be seen
Banished from this world I'll ever be
Drive the wolf out of me
Take me away from this
Take me away from the Lunar Love

Lunar love is what we'll be
Lunar love is what we have

Forgetting the shame is just a 
Another winless game

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In Your Love

Every time you kiss my lips 
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Like a never ending abyss
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Every time you whisper I miss you
I am drowning, I'm drowning
In your love,  in your love.

Life doesn't seem dangerous
When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
Don't take it so serious
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
I don't care what they think of us
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
In your love, in your love

~ Leonard Napierskie

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Serenade To The Wolf

When we are rendered alone
And don't know where we should go
We new to overcome
The forces who drag us under

Some will persist to stay
But the darkness only grows ever stronger
It's time to anew

Though it gets harder every day
I'll promise I'll always live for you
There's no need to state your pain
I already see it in your eyes
We can break from their lies
Come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me

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Ninth Fable

 Ninth Fable 
Ninth Fable 
Tragic Love 
Internet Love 
The Love eye have for ewe is just the same as iff we wed. 
The feelings that she gives me are never filled with dread. 
But nothing she can dew would make me ever want to wind up dead but the 
living do the love they do the life time instead. Eye could walk the halls of memory 
and get depressed or eye could become a nun in convicted pleasure and rest in 
convent until death can dew us part death can give me rest but what of love. How 
can a man get so excited at a little green dot a few mouse clicks and then a cold 
white chat box. The ink is never wet upon mye crinkle paper yet there it is its love. 
When she smiles at me eye smile when she frowns eye weep a river of the 
stuffins kept inside it all comes flowing out to make a wrongful death seem 
somehow write the words upon the mended heart depart from worry and from 
woe and take the brand new start and soon it all works for love. Snow White she 
ate the apple and then fell to fast asleep but Charlax came to kiss her and 
awakened her to live. Prince Charlax kisses good. 
Live upon the creek bank fishing for dragonflies in a house of love. Mending heart 
of Charming. Making love in heart. Mye snow white turtle love my pookie 
pochoucntous love my internet thrall. We can have it all just hold on to my 
namme and love. 
Researchers have now proven that love can mend a broken heart. 

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The Devil's Lullaby


Details | Classicism | |


              I've fallen apart inside
          My saddness is hard to hide, 
        I got an overwhelming headache
      from my devestating heartbreak
        I feel sick and lost because I lost someone I love,
       Feeling like I'm living the worst nightmare you could ever think of.
                     It's critical the way I feel
          It's a deep pain that can never be healed
                         I just wanna runaway
           Somewhere very far to see a brighter day
                     Just know accidents causes heartbreaks
          I lost someone so real never fake.
           He's in heaven now because only the best God will take.       

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The sapphire sun of what-were dreams
Setting in the forsaken east
My winters' desperation clung to your silent voice
Let death be a choice
Dusk revealed your truest nature
Before her argentine eyes
'Tis the darkest of tragedies, romances' maladies
Let your forgiveness be la Vie In this frozen air
The wings of my deepest despairs

Friend or foe?
The dagger close to my heart--
If your forgiveness is nigh
Let me know--or is this all a lie

Lilyheart Swain
Please don't give into your pain
You hold my soul on Eden's Edge

Your innocent flesh
Cradled in my broken arms
Forever you will be mine, forever you will stay
The snow caressing us as we tangle in deathly embrace
This darkness fades into amber innocence 
Hatred no longer exists
Forgive me
Come back my only

The winterwind tears carress me
With whispers, (of) Someone I Once knew
Calming the fears inside
But the pain remains
--hallcunary rains 

Dreams fading with the Enya in your eyes
With the darkness of your hands
The silverfears of the pale moon
Shine on you

Lilyheart swain 
Please don't give into your pain
You hold my soul on Eden's Edge

Your innocent flesh
Cradled in my broken arms
Forever you will be mine, forever you will stay
The snow caressing us as we tangle in deathly embrace
This darkness fades into amber innocence 
Hatred no longer exists
Forgive me
Come back my only

Your eyes search for mine
Oh how they shine, blue 
Sacrdice has a price
Heaven is calling us tonight

Cursed In shadowed illusions
Shall we dance?
Would there be a chance
Forgive me now
I will rip out every nail 
Of your coffin
I don't care if it's God it will offend

Lilyheart Swain
Please don't give into your pain
You hold my soul on Eden's Edge

Your innocent flesh
Cradled in my broken arms
Forever you will be mine, forever you will stay
The snow caressing us as we tangle in deathly embrace
This darkness fades into amber innocence 
Hatred no longer exists
Forgive me
Come back my only

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I'm Slipping

Someone please catch me,
For I am slipping.
Death is looking like a solution,
But not a path I want to take.

Someone help me,
For I am slipping.
I can't take the stress anymore,
And I just feel like I want to be under the soiled floor.

Can somebody help me?
I can't find myself.
I just want to die.
Many may ask why?

What outcome is good from a life lost?
None I say,
But I want that fading feeling anyways.
I'm messed up in more ways than one.

I'm slipping,
I'm falling,
And I want to never get up.
I'd be thankful once the darkness takes over me.

To be free from all this torment,
To live a life thats as peaceful as death,
Would be a dream come true,
But I know it won't happen soon.

*I won't commit suicide, though....there's too may people I care about....and 4 people that 
mean the world to me: Adalhi, Dillon, Daniel, and Amanda...I love you 4 very much

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Undying Kiss

I wander through the night, alone and scared.
I cannot control my fright, for the sorrow's I've bared.
Where did you go, did He need you more than I?
Did He know, without you I long to die?
The dark forest, closes in around me.
The angels chorus, helps my eyes to see.
Death has come, to you my love.
What have I become, since you were sent above?
The white rose, blossoms with omnipotent dieties.
The scar shows, caused by the animosities.
I'll carry my wounded heart, for you my beautiful star.
Shall paradise start, as you forget your burning scar?
Shut your eyes, and pray for my soul.
Shush your cries, for one day we'll be whole.
I want to hold you, I wish to feel your caress again.
Shall we begin anew, shall we let my heart win?
As I feed your breath, with my undying kiss,
I accept death, for it is you I miss.
I'm broken, now that you're gone away.
To Death I've spoken, I heard what he had to say.
I've left my heart open, so our love could stay.
I'll see you again, I promise one day.
Hello my darling, goodbye my friend.
I smile as angels sing, this story we need not amend.
Take my hand, take my love too.
Together we'll stand, for I love you.
This time around, lets make it perfect.
As we leave the ground, make me worth it.
Will my tears drown me, will it put out the fire?
Then you could finally see, my truest desire.
Don't make me ill, for I don't need the thrill.
I sing sorrowfully, as you close your eyes.
We'll sing calamity, for this world we despise.

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The stiff

(the word (moll) means a mobsters wife or girlfriend)

I heard of a wiseguy named Guido
Who suffered a waning libido
His disgruntled moll
Made a quick call
Now Guido is incognito

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Curse of a Princess

and butterflies,
in this story,
we begin with lies,
we never kept,
I should have held on tighter,
when you wept,
small mistakes,
on both our parts,
added up,
to shred our hearts,
creeping shadows,
behind the flowers,
in what we thought,
were our finest hours,
talking grass,
crystal snow,
in our lie of love,
a hidden foe,
the evil witch,
her claws aimed to kill,
t'was she who pushed you,
down the hill,
a broken crown,
a forgotten well,
to live without you,
was her spell,
an evil curse,
she cast in spite,
although we loved, 
with all our might,
kept apart,
by what was said,
in regret,
our hearts bled,
watch from afar,
speak in vein,
a curse taken course,
inflicted pain,
and so it began,
with love and lies,
our fairytale ends,
and we both die...

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There Is No Age To Love

A meteor falls down from the stars
Catching fire the faster it falls

She sits in her new house
Sitting in the window seat
Reading a book about wild love
And how fast it grows and catches fire
She watches the meteor shower from her window
She hears a noise coming from the hallway
She creeps around the corner
As she follows the sound to the attic
She opens the creaking attic door
A young man sits before the window
In an old red chair
Half falling apart
He is facing her 
With the back of the chair facing the window
The attic door slams shut
She gasps for air
She is very afraid
He speeds and surely stands before her
Face to face
They meet
He asks her
"who are you?"
she replies
"Amelius, you?"
He moves back as he turns and his back faces her
He moves towards her slowly
And disapears
A few days past
She wonders where he is
She sits in the attic and waits for him
He appears behind her
She explains to him that she feels like she knows him
He sits by her on the bed
he explains there past life together
He returned to meet with her again
She died in a bathtub
He was holding her
Trying to wake her up from the pills she took
She died
After her funeral
He committed suicide
She moved on and became reborn again
He didnt because he was stuck in the past
He kisses her cheek
And she stands in awe
She does drugs in her new life
One night she was driving home
She was on acid
And she ran into a tree
She was dead on the scene
He shows up and pulls her out of the car
She thanks him for saving her
He reaches to hold her hand
"your cold"
She looks at him
"what? you mean im.."
He says "yes"
They leave together in peace
Where they should have been in the begining
His ghost soul is 46 years old
But his age of which he died is 19
She was 17 when she died the first time
The second time she died she was 19
her ghost soul is 23 years old
Love has no age

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When I am gone, I am still here

 When i am gone and you can no longer see my face,
Just know in my heart you'll never be replaced

When i am gone, left you without a goodbye or a trace, 
When my absence makes itself known and your life like
footsteps take on a sadder, slower pace remember i am always here, always near

Can you feel me wipe away your tears? Whispering in your ear
Informing you that better days are near and you have nothing to fear for my arms wrap Around you becoming your shield    

My words are growing thin and i have nothing more to say
Just remember even when I'm gone, I am never too far away....  I am still here

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in my own tears

ghost from the past 
time is moving so fast 
trembling in my own tears 
trying to fight all my fears
standing in the rain 
felling like I just got hit my a train 
wishing I could turn off my brain 
I have nothing left to gain 
all I fell is pain 
haunted from our memories 
I fell they have become my enemies 
I see you even when I blink 
it really makes a guy think 
what happen to us
I cant believe I mad such a fuss 
I wish I had your trust 
you are still my high school crush 
seeing you still makes me blush 
your better then a royal flush
people think they have what we do 
but know one ever will 
being with you is a thrill
being with you is real 
I wish we where going uphill
you where the only one who could fulfill
four you I would have captured bunker hill
but right now your just a ghost 
haunting me, taunting me, and flaunting in front of me 
how i wish we could still be 

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Beyond the illusion of skin and polite talk a shadow dwells within me, whispering unto me my deepest ugly thoughts, my secret sins, my foul intentions and slowly devouring the goodness in me.

it draws its filth from my chosen path smearing it with deceit.

The stains of the fear of having to lose an anticipated love

loathing those you remember with hate and those whose care for you is bare,

an anger driven by a hunger to care, to feel, to live.

This pain that I alone understand and cherish is master

luring me with an apparition of a budding flower, a beautiful maiden women

who comes to me in full consciousness drawing me to a secluded place

where I am vulnerable with need for company and she feeds from this - my loneliness.

With her electrifying touch, her infectious smile and the maze of her luminous eyes

I beg her to enslave me. Her voice seducing my mysterious soul into a colourful trance of mellowing.

she lived for us, died for us and in death refused to part

in eternity seeking our unison,

in her existing even though beyond this realm

she erupts the fires of a longing an enfolding passion that quickly rises and towers down and over everything I have ever believed was.

From a dull world so familiar to me of grey, black and white she leads me on to a vast land of dreams that fills me with new emotions.

Colours freshly bloom before my eyes and all this for my heart to take warmth.

Now let me alone with this pain I am forever an addict to.

The stab of it stinging my dull being filling me with a high that thrills and fills my vacant space with a loud haunting scream.

Oh! I bleed this poem from my very soul, as she whispers unto me.

My hope in her goodness that shuns out the darkness that seeks to possess my soul.

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The sapphire-dust sun of what-were dreams
Swallow the scene, setting In the forsaken east
All I see, all I know fades into the reaper's monotone grey 
Death come near me, by my only choice 
My wintry desperation subdued, clings to they silent voice
The dusk reveals my truest nature before her blank argentine eyes
Life; the darkest of all tragedies, Romances' malady
Let me feel your breath in this frozen air
Your pulse shorter than ever
Despair's void grows inside me
Without, you I will live no longer

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

The winterwinds' tears fall on me
With whispers of you, someone I once knew
No matter in a dream or reality
Sweet tranquillity, stay with me
Calming the fears within
But the pain remains

The silvemoon's fears shine on you
Thine eyes search for mine
Oh how they shine, so deathly blue
If sacrifice needs a price
The dagger shows-
Heaven is calling us tonight

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Covered in shadowy illusions 
Shall we dance?
Death will be lie dominion
You are my only queen

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Just let me die
If I cannot see
This night 

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Violetta gave Alfredo a camilia,
reminding him to bring it back when it had finally faded...
to seal their kiss without its aroma;
would he have kept that promise when it had whitered? 
In a lonely room, with light barely filtering,
Violetta lays in that bed sweetly thinking
of Alfredo's hand comforting her and caring for her in the last hours...
but Annina is by her side, not daring to spread
the sad news that Alfredo has gone, hoping to return before she dies.

Violetta's eyes can hardly see...but her hands
are wrapped around Alfredo' cheerful portrait,
knowing that his love for her is profound and endless,
by feeling the warmth of his tender heart;
and getting closer to death, she wishes he won't return
with a faded camilia...even in Heaven that flame will burn!  

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2012 Confession

Have you ever been in a situation when it feels like everyone is against you, and the whole world is pressing down on your shoulders? Well this write is about that. 

There is no place to run or hide,
The pain and the agony builds up like a tide.
I want to scream but nothing would come out,
I try so hard a pull so tough that I dragged a gout. 

It's not easy for me to express my feelings just to anyone,
There is allot of security issues in me that are not so fun.
I understand everything clearly,
I just wish to get out of this world and be care free.

It feels like chains have bounded me to the fiery deaths of hell,
It hurt and burns, but I can't break though this shell.
I have hidden my emotions deep inside,
Just so that no one would see the monster I have to reside. 

It hurts me more than other to see myself turn into something that I am not,
I would commit crimes and other illegal thing and would not get caught.
I would hurt myself emotionally so that no one would see my scares,
It would be better is I would just go back behind bars.

Can no one see that I am also human and need some effection. 
Or am I just a toy that people like to mess around with and Be selfish. 
At breaking point I stand, looking at the bottom of a cliff thinking,
Should I, or should I not?

But hay, if I do, I am sure that everyone would be left at peace and care for YOU.

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So Sad

Her face was slashed with a knife.
She was evicted from her life!
The gashes filled with blood, 
he thought he was such a stud!

The constant bashing on her brain,
made him go even more insane!
What did she do wrong?
Except for singing a song
that he didn’t like at all!
So, she had to take a fall!

When the police came round to call,
he knew nothing at all!
Said when he came home,
she was already in a zone.

So innocent all of a sudden,
but something he has forgotten.
What about the doubt,
maybe someone heard a shout!

What will he do?
Go & kill them too,
or will he start to run,
& in the end,
just kill himself with a gun!

Details | I do not know? | |


You lie awake at night, Thinking,

Wondering, Searching through the webs of Lies,

Death, Cheat, Heartbreak that life has brought you.

There's no one to help you near by.

No one to comfort you.

To tell you everything will be fine.

You're on your own.

You can die trying 


You can die trying Alone.

(thank you for reading and if you may please comment and rate i like to read what people say.. thank you)

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It's Not Your Fault

The thing about life
is that
it can end in an instant

When the rope of the
harsh words
wraps tightly around your 

Neck squeezing tighter
and tighter
you just want to jump

To end it all to end all
the pain
and the hatred and words

It is not only the words
that push
you over the edge

It is too the fists and
the feet 
that slam into you

Over and over
a break with out letting up 

Making you break down and slide down
the wall
and cry and cry and cry

One phone call can 
save a
live, stopping that jump

Stopping the self hate
spreading the love

The love i have for 
you will 
never fade or die and i hope

will make you better
to sleep
and to be able to be 

Happy again to 
be happy
forever and always with me

just remember and know
that it's

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This poem i am writing is about people i know. they have told me all the wrong things they are doing in life. all the things they have done to be in love or even find love.
Josh~i have a second life one in real life one on the computer
Susan~i cry to my poster of james hetfield begging him to find a guy for me
Jassun~i cut myself every night because i feel unloved my family doesnt get me
Chelsea~i take pills and try to overdose because i cant feel my heart beating i just want to know that im alive.
Ron~i constantly call another woman and have phone sex when my wife isnt home
Carrie~i boss people around just so i can feel like im on top above everyone else
Brad~im gay and people dont get the fact that love is love no matter if its with a guy or woman.
Sheryl~my husband passed recently and i already found someone on Eharmony
Me~sometimes i fake who i am so people wont judge me... sometimes i feel like im not good enough so i try to be like everyone so i can feel like im apart of something. but recently i figured out that people love you no matter who you are. there are some people out there who will doubt you and who will hurt you. but thats life even love can hurt the strongest of people.

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Brittney Sweet Brittney

Brittney sweet Brittney
why did you leave that day
why would you ever 
want yourself to go away
I know they said
you weren't in love
but I know what ya'll had 
was a love from above
I guess maybe it was your time 
to be gods angel
but Brittney you left us all
mixed up and strangled
you were only fifteen 
when you took your last breath
I guess they really did 
put you and Sean to the test
you said in a note your love
was like Romeo and Juliet
a love ones heart 
could never forget
Sean said even death 
couldn't do your love apart
This you meant because march 20th
you stopped your hearts
together you lay there in silence
as I weep and ask god for his guidance
Brittney sweet Brittney 
why did you have to go away..

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Demolition Lovers

"This time we will show them all how much we mean"

Walking into the school
Short blonde hair
Stunning blue eyes
Wearing make up on his face
The paint on his face
Is a skilled drawing of a skull
As he passes
Everyone starres
He keeps walking foreward
Not looking at them

She enters through the other end of the hallway
Long blonde hair
Deep brown eyes
Also wearing makeup on her face
A skilled drawing of a smaller skull
All the girls she passes
Starre at her
Wondering what kind of girl would 
Wear makeup like that

The Boy and the girl
Meet in the middle of the hallway
They hold eachothers hands
And continue down the hallway

Seeing them from behind
You read on his backpack
"I gave you my bullets..."
And on her bag you can see
"And i gave you my love"
They walk out of the school together
All the teachers starring
All the students watching there every move
They walk straight out to his car
A black Mustaine 1998
Before they get to the bridge 
He ties there hands together

They drive 10 miles
To a bridge
Theres a hill
A bridge
And a river
Hes going 90 mph
She clinches his hand
He looks at her with a smile on his face
She looks back at him pale as a ghost
The car jumps over the bridge into the river
The lovers dying on empact
Forever tied together by
The rope he tied earlier

Like a bed of roses
Theres alot of reasons
Why we are laying here
As we are falling down into
The pool of blood
I see your eyes
I mean this when I say forever.

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Much yet to be written- PART I

Not a day will go by, that I don't think about her. But when I think of her lies, I just want to hurt her.

When a man has given all, he can't push any further. And it's a very short process, that drives him to murder.

So choose wisely your steps, and your pathways through life. Stay aware of your options, and always think twice.

For when a mans life resorts, to the edge of a knife. It's a tell tale sign, he's grown cold as ice.

Now it's a sick twisted world, we find ourselves in. Driven by hate, and swallowed in sin.

The mentally strong, may call those like me weak. But you tell me now, who's humble and meek. 

For if you've never hurt, the way that I do. Then you're no expert, on how to get through.

So you place your faith, on inanimate things. While I place my hate, on cold reality.

But who's to say who, truly knows anything. And who draws the line, on what's giving everything.

For one hundred percent, is one hundred percent. And my hundred percent, is what I resent.

If I hadn't given all, I'd still be on my feet. But here I am hollow, left in defeat.

So push me as far, as you think I can go. Then open your eyes, and enjoy the show...


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Healing words

His voice breaks, Of Course I'm hurting -
Our Baby died, and I have to sit by
Watching you curled over in pain
And there is nothing I can do
No matter how much you try to say your okay.
Of course I think about it -
What would he have looked like,
Would he have grown up to be athletic,
Would he have your heart and your eyes,
But when I think about it it kills me inside.
He pulls me close and holds me against his chest,
Do not blame yourself, no one could have helped it,
We'll try again someday, when we're more prepared,
I love you, I love you so damn much. 
And the pain eases, just a little, but it eases. 

Details | Rhyme | |

For My Dearest Love Jacob

     The dark black sky it glimmers,
     Brighter than the Sun.
     I look around this broken world
(I) see your the only one.
     When all the strength escapes earths roots,
     And floats out past the sea.
     And when the ground below me breaks 
     I know you'll carry me.
     All my hope is buried deep,
     Not just beneath the skin.
     But deep within my soul it lays
     Inspiring my pen.
     This Love I feel embraces me
     The black sky wraps me tight.
     Because of your bright shining eyes
     I know I'll sleep tonight

Details | Lyric | |

Black Widow

1 through the door
2 through your heart
3 through your head
4 colors in my eyes
Red, red, red

1 clash
2 rings
3 words
4 sirens
Shrieks of red, red, red

1 bed of white
2 saviors
3 men at my side
4 grievers
Tears of red, red, red

1 room of rock
2 rings around my wrist
3 eyes in my head
4 days before forever
Stains of red, red, red

1 room
2 sides
3 on one
4 on the other
Crying out red, red, red

1 decision
2 stabs of pain in my side
3 cries
4 smiles
The judge says red, red, red

1 boy
2 people
3 arguments
4 solutions
Mine was red, red, red

Details | Free verse | |

Lucky charm

Breaks an egg and out comes the sun
Begging for forgiveness
For lighting
Ducks sailing on the spikes
Women watching them trough keyholes,
Light diffracted into Meduses-
My happy face
Circularly deformed-
The brave man behind lens
Is the sunset’s zipper
Of the blue eye spot-
Her face – mechanic eyes
Lied on the floor, naked-
A pomegranate breaks beside her-
Lucky charm, said someone –

(originally written in modern Greek and released in February 2006 from Nocturnal 
Publications – translated here by the author)

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Your Vanity

Misery weighs down your eyes, as you begin to read.
In this dance of lies, you'll forever lead.
If you can't stand, I'll see you on the other side.
Take my hand, for now the son has died.
I'll reach under the skin, and steal away your disease.
I'll fight and win, as Death becomes a tease.
I fell into fantasy, as I feel your touch.
Swallow your vanity, for you cry too much.
The string of white lights, a full moon casting.
The shadowed nights, are never lasting.
Forever wandering, these cold dark seas.
The world squandering, crying the harshest pleas.
The voiceless won't rest, as they continue squalling.
On this endless quest, I continue falling.
Fall children, dance with every death boy and girl.
The monster will fight again, yet we're all so coy.
Lets fall to our knees, and begin to pray.
Do they hear my pleas, down together we'll lay.
Unrelenting omnipotence, nuturing malevolence.
Angels and Demons, bow before the other.
The unknowing sons, begin to kill their brother.
Leave for me, the crumbling headstones.
Ignore and leave me be, for death has shown.
Leave me to sleep, in this desecrated sanctuary.
In these dreams I weep, yet I tarry.
Will you be my love, will we watch the world burn?
What are the thoughts of, for the dead forever yearn.
No I don't want to die, no not tonight.
I can no longer try, I don't want to fall into the light.
As I climb the stairs, I reach toward the stars.
The heart tears, as it feels the scars.
I begin my ivy climbing, for the voiceless call.
It's the matter of timing, for who will begin their fall?

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Point of view

I,my eye,saw a good man doing some thing evil,
out of love...
i saw a "big bad man" give food to his family..
selling drugs...selling drugs
and when he got arrested all his daughter really wanted
was to give a hug...give a hug
"mr.goodguy" bought a gun and started acting like a thug...kinda like a thug
a rookie cop noticed they were both the same "maine",man...
put his mug shot all in the news,and the networks...
got 25 views...
the judge said "who is this young man to you?"
his daughter screamed out "let me go,thats my daddy"
"rookie cop" mumbled,"bastered..almost had me"
they threw the book at him while he took "the time",sadly 


Details | Ballad | |

Stolen Souls

It sweeps through the nights, 
Is it an angel? a devil? or the angel of death, 
I lie there sleeping, 
It comes and my life disappears, 

I disappeared then i found myself flying, 
flying over the ruins the soul stealer left, 
I saw his face, 
I saw his pain, 
I'm sweating terribly, or are these tears on my face? 

I hear a scream then i wake up, 
Its white and clean, 
I hear a machine going: beep, beep, beep 
and his face looking at me, 
holding my hand, 

i suddenly remember the scream, 
my own scream, 
and the bullies dunking me underwater,
he was just glad i was alive, 

he leans closer, 
and we share our first kiss.

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Lost Where They do not Belong <> End Line Poem

Parents and spouses to their photo's they look,  Another
           hero was killed fighting for our freedom.   Lost  
                       so far from his home and family,   Today
       we continue to send our sons and daughters,   But
                                there will come a day when,   They
                                      will live as free as we do.   Will
                         we ever learn from these theatres,    Never
                       again should we out live our children.    Be
  cause' another was lost today, but they will never be,    Forgotten

" I hope i have done this form devised by Dane Ann and HG proud "

Details | I do not know? | |

I Had This Feeling

I had this feeling
that nobody else could feel
and then I ask my girl
if what I was feeling was real.

She broke my heart
and then she tore it all apart.
So if my love wasn't made for you
then why'd you break it in two??

I had this feeling 
that I would die alone
and if it was ought to happen
it would happen at my home.

It would happen very slow
my heart would cry for you
then die for you
no one could ever love you
exactly how i do.

If you can feel my pain
then you should know its getting hard to explain
and my heart doesnt play no games
so im going insane.

I had this feeling.
I had this feeling
in my heart 
telling me to walk away
to a better a day.

I had this feeling 
that love would come my way
but it wouldn't be today.

I gave her my heart and she forced it away
on Valentines Day

I only had this feeling
because she left me with a pain
in my heart.

Im just sorry it had to be that way
over the past 60 days.

Details | Rhyme | |

A Zombie Heart

The heart, between love and dark driven apart.

From the very first to the very last,
to the future and from the past.

From the begining of the end,
to wars waged out of love instead of sin.

My heart wicked and bitter filled with hate,
people said i could never love, but i love me, i throw into the debate.
No remorse, no sorrow for the wicked, for humans i believed it was too late.

I believed all people deserved what they sowed into the world, and they sowed death.
I thought about how beautiful it would be till the world burned into ash, and nothing was left.
In my eyes this world was done and over, it was already F'd.

But that was then, when my heart was filled with sin. And this is now.
I often wonder what happened, to my brutal state. My twisted mind gone, but how?
Once I stood before people, robes of blood and death. Worshipped, to me they bow.

I guess, even I, should remain honest. The Dead King's heart burst into life.
I fell in love, not the kind where it feels like a gut wrenching twisting knife.
But the kind, where to her, I want to be kind. And make her my dark queened wife.
For her, I would make her life easy, she would never know any strife.

The first look at her, when we fought, how she smiled covered in blood and clots.
I knew than, i was in love, my heart racing. My head thumping covered in knots.
How we turned to and away from each other in our onsloughts.
The more we hated and pulled away the closer we grew, like slip knots.

I knew my heart than grew soft and my feelings for you grew tender.
If you woulden't have stopped I would of let you win, and let you end me, even as a dismember.
I would of checked out for my final point, with you as my sender.
My feelings were spinning, like gore and guts in a blender.

I know, that no matter what. My feelings for you, were not a hit and miss.
I know, that with our love. We can experence joy and even gliss.
Our love started, from me a growl and you a hiss.
And with our dieing breath it will end in a kiss.

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Alone With No Sense Of Direction

I am a lost person, but I am not alone.
I make choices in my life and I choose to let go.
I need a change of space, and my lyrical notes,
The beauty and the face should fade, but more I want to grow.
The nobility in life is sad, when madness is a nuisance and insanity a fad.
I have some regrets, some I can't forget,
but If I can't forgive myself, then who will forgive my sins?
I'll give it my all, and pray I win.
I'll keep my heart locked and throw away the key,
never let anyone inside, so I can remain free.
Can I question a higher power, or would I be dead,
The scum of the earth, creating poetry that is read,
by the mindless masses, blaming the heart to death,
I hope this will heal me, burning the past, 
The beauty in the innocence, never really lasts.
I have a feeling tonight will open my eyes, 
and guide me too the light instead of lies.
I'm praying to god that you are how I think you are,
because I need compassion, not just a broken heart.
I don't know why I like you, but you seem to close to part.
Please don't leave me here, surrounded in the dark.

Details | Ballad | |

Josette, Drive the Faerie out of me

She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me

Details | Couplet | |


Terrified of nightmares, all the lies they share,
Show me my one love and how hes more content right there.

See him with another one, see him in his lust,
In these dreams I see him and I watch in pure disgust.

I cannot read my heart, nor my hopless emotion,
I cannot tell if I am still or if I am in motion.

I feel like I am dying, as I see him lay with her,
I'm starting to feel dizzy as things start to go ablurr.

I see him so impressed, as she pleasures him so sweetly,
And as I cry around the corner hear them 'cry' contently.

I know he'd never hurt me, but it's so hard to believe,
When I'm seeing everything occur in front of me.

I know its just a nightmare, it's never as it seems,
but why must I be haunted with these horrifying dreams.

Details | Free verse | |

Lamenting on the Loss of Love

I watch the world slowly turn outside my window
I wander lost and lonely through my life
She spoke in soft voice
Or you will leave us all behind

A bird chirps among the trees
Its song calls out to all who hear
She spoke in soft voice
Will you take this cross to bare

Is a far off dream I’ve had
Bleeds from green grass around me
She said crying
It’s something a man would be able to see

I take my place in the bed next to her
Wraps my hands around her neck
She desperately claws at my face
Is she digging for the reason she has not seen yet

I lie in the bed beside her
I kiss her gently on the cheek
I whisper softly in her ear
Forgive me for the road I chose to take

Details | I do not know? | |

loved one

a smile upon my face
warmth inside my heart
this is what I felt
when we began to start
in a different place
and at another time
a love for ever broken
now no longer mine
you begin to fade away
left presence I can’t see
but I can feel you here
still watching over me
your a whisper I can’t here
and a touch that I can’t feel
I’m talking to you now
I love you and always will

Details | Rhyme | |

Broken Time

Here I write another rhyme, amongst the broken time.
I drown myself to sleep, just to dream of you.
If I continue to weep, will we begin anew?
No time for farewell, as I close my eyes.
Down into darkness I fell, as I whispered goodbyes.
I feel the broken dreams, scratching at my heart.
I continue my broken screams, until I fall apart.
If death could breathe, it would live through me.
I cannot help but to believe, this is the end I see.
The whispers surround, drowning me in regret.
The end is what I've found, 'tis Death I've met.
I've written these last notes, in my final moments.
This misery I forever tote, confines me in silence.
I've left this note to help me get through, my feigning suicide.
I've always loved you, but now the angels have cried.
I promise I'll remain true, yet somehow my hope has died...

Details | Ballad | |

The Rumble from Below

They heard the rumble from below
Drinks were spilled; they stopped the show.
The scream was heard, the tension rose
The crowd was still, the music froze.

The lights flickered, a roar was heard
Wild lion appears, then massacred
All the zebras, flailing around
So their stripes were safe and sound

This lion though, was smarter than that
2 weeks he’d been a hungry cat
Such silly follies were no match
To save lives on this grassland patch.

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Walking up the stairs
She lays on the floor
He runs
Holding her cold body in his arms
He lets a tear fall from his eye
Dragging her down the stairs and into the cellar
He lays her on the canvas they painted on the floor
He spreads her arms and legs out
Pointing them the direction of North, South, West and East
He places four candles around the circle
Lighting them with his lighter
He sits and watches as he pours the hot wax on her face
He cuts around her eyes, slowly taking her eyes out
Gluing her eye lids shut covering them with the wax once again
He cuts her up in pieces
Scattering her in art forms
Admiring her beauty
He places her eyes in a glass jar
Wrapping her hands around a picture frame
He places her face on his ... as a mask
Gluing her face unto his
He lays on the canvas that is now covered in blood
He moves around 
His clothes covered in her blood
He watches through her eyes
The world she once saw
He places her face back on the canvas
He shuts off all the lights and walks up the stairs
Looking in the bathroom he saw the drug she has been taking
He cuts it up and sniffs it
He lays on the floor shaking
Crawling down the stairs to the cellar door
Trying to move but he cant move any further
His heart stops beating but hes still alive
The minute he had left
He opened the door
And rolled down the cellar stairs
Landing on the canvas
His face next to hers

"How its hurts now that your gone
Its so wrong"

Details | Free verse | |

Where's The Blame Contest Entry

Forgive me, please hear my call and answer, 
Tell me that you'll forgive me, for all the wrong I've done. 
I've punished myself everyday though it never seems enough, 
Scars across my flesh, haunting memories in my eyes. 
I wish I could hold you, gently, warmly, tightly, 
Pour into you my deepest grief, my sorrows, and never let you go. 
Im left a crumbled being on my knees, wishing you could hear my cries, 
Listen to my appologies and accept that I would be the one to rather die. 
Can't you feel it, my heart is breaking, shattered by what I've done, 
I'm sick and my body aching, knots in my stomach and Im hyperventalating. 
Please come and answer me, find a way to hear my words, so loudly screamed, 
You loved me once more than I deserved, love me enough now to absolve my hurt. 
Please forgive me Darling, I didn't mean to beg, 
There is nothing left of me but a shadow on the edge of the bed.

Details | Free verse | |


You are hell bound,
Your sounds resound,
A faint echo of my own shadowing reflection.

I grasp a mug from behind the door,
And yet its remains shatter among the tiles,
Glittering like eyes upon the floor.

I know your there to feel,
A knowing familiar smell,
And yet to physically touch you,
My tips can’t seem to dwell.

The mirrors to your past have ceased,
I cannot stare at them as well,
It is enough to see your face,
Each time you set your fearsome spell.

They said you'd left me,
Flashing lights the uniform informing,
And yet how little you have left,
Your time is still yet dawning.

So hold me tight,
Remove the remaining light that flickers in my limbs,
For if I am to be haunted,
I’ll be mourned in church by hymns.   

Details | Rhyme | |

Forever & Never

you promised me forever
now i guess its never?
i looked at you and believed in love
now i dont think it was anything but a bluff.
i believed you loved me
now i can truly see
you want her instead of me
i just wanna flee
away from this world of love that i knew
its all turning blue
your the only one i want
but you left me in the dirt
i lve you forever
you love me never.

Details | Ballad | |

His hunger

His hunger:

Would you offer your jaw?
Would you offer your lips?
Would you offer your tongue to feed the hungry wolf in wait?

He howls in agony as he lays in the blood red brier bush.
His limbs contort as he transforms into a Herculean beast.

As he opens his amber eyes, he sees you, His thirst speaking from the deeps of his stomach.

You plead trying to reach the human inside.
“I would offer my heart to the tortured man behind the wolfs eyes.”

It grows silent, his face twists, and his body shakes.
With one slash your blood spills across the brier patch.
Your soul now sleeps with the wild roses as he feeds.

The wolfs hunger subsides but the man inside dies, haunted by the sound of your sweet voice that cried.

“I would offer my heart to the tortured man behind the wolfs eyes.”

Details | Free verse | |

No More

Fake a smile.
 Just for a little while.
 Hide all the pain.
 Hide in the rain.
 Storms surround.
 Can’t see around.
 Dark Fierce clouds.
 Thunder frightening and loud.
 Tornadoes, ruining everything in its path.
 Showing the world its mean wrath.
 Hurt filling my soul.
 Just like cheerios in a bowl.
 All this holding inside.
 Falling, never rise.
 Ready to explode.
 Ima Coke, about to drop a Mento.
 Broken, Shattered to pieces.
 But babe im tired of you treating me like feces.
 Throw me out,?
 Thought I was the one you were supposed to care about.?
 You left me in despair.
 Heart so broken—Can’t be repaired.
 My life,
 Now filled with strife.
 Never be the same.
 Not likin’ this game.
 Build me up Powerful, Strong
 Then tear me down, it’s so wrong.
 To write me a song
 Then tell me it’s too long.
 This pain
 I never wanted to gain.
 This storm,
 It’s got me torn.
 Wish you were still here,
 Maybe join me for a beer.
 I take a look in the mirror.
 And see me jumping off a pier.
 Wishing death would come near.
 Wishing the Reaper would get into gear.
 Death seems better than living in fear.
 …Better than sheading a tear.
 Six feet under
 No more Thunder
 No more Tornadoes
 No more rotten potatoes.
 No more Lightning strikes.
 No more wrongs and rights.
 No more rain pours.
 No more.

For Contest entry: Depression

Details | Dramatic monologue | |

my last words to you

my last words to you in a place where i once dwelled, there lived a boy i loved so well, he took his love away from me, and now is willing to set me free. i even know the reason why, the other girl was prettier than i, i ran for home an cried on my bed , an not a single word was said, my mother came home from work that night , an searched for me left an right, she came upstairs,my door she broke, and there she saw me strung by a rope. an on my jeans there was a note that i had wrote, it read: dig a grave, dig it deep, with marble stone , from head to feet, and on my grave, place a dove , an tell the world i died for love.

Details | Prose Poetry | |

These Salty Waves Pt 1

What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to say? All these lies you bottled up come sweeping, crashing with the tides. My footing's gone, the ocean real, but how am I supposed to feel? And here I am, a drowning mess, a loveless lie, I do protest. And here I am a drowning mess. So all those things you said to me? Where they just lies out of pity? So all those things you said to me? Or am I lost in salty waves? Yes I know my future's grave. Or am I lost in salty waves?And now the panic in my head, when I should be tucked up in your bed, reels and reels right here instead.I'm going down, a sinking ship, funny what name drips off my lips. It is not God, or Angles plenty, or even that I'm just damn ready To let go of the hell and the lies. I'm wishing for your gentle eyes. Or at least the way they always seemed, but perhaps that's just this salty dream. I have no clue what I'm to do! A drowning hopeless mess, for you-- think it's cute, and oh so funny, but here's the bitter truth now honey. I'm going down. There is no help. I can't be saved by God himself. I put my life, my whole world of trust, and you've thrown it away for lust. Well what the hell's a girl to do? I'm just so entranced by you!

Details | Rhyme | |

Circular Life

Running to hide
Hiding to run
My life is a circle
When will this rotation be undone
Everything I do 
Its the same song and dance
A sheep in wolf's clothing
Yes a wolf at first glance
I can't help I am addicted to thrills
No words to describe how it feels
Honing my skills
Turning my heart to steel
Making my case to fight the devil
Stone versus stone
Fallen Angel versus Fallen soul
The thrill to shake the bone
Love made me
Then love destroyed me
Stuck with nothing to lose
And nothing to gain
Vengeance is what I choose
Standing alone 
Forgetting everything I've ever known
I can break this rotation
But it has to be now or never
All because I loved her
And she left me for dead
Destroying my heart
And messed up my head
Circular life
I am back to the night
I am back to fight

Details | ABC | |

My Dream

I had a dream of u today u called me and told me it was all a bad dream u didnt have to go away wen i woke up i felt like screaming and crying im falling apart without u here its like a part of me is dying  all i can see is a big smile on ur face u kno nobody will ever take ur place its so hard for me to stay strong with my best homie gone the thing thats hardest for me to accept n comprehend that im never gona see u again that kills me inside wen u left us i feel like apart of me died i dont kno wat to do but all i kno is wen u left apart of me went with you

Details | Couplet | |

The Monster

The monster became a living, walking nightmare
my dive into insanity, no longer perfect, containing a blank stare

I should resist, the monster will find me, run away with me
Pretend to hear my meager complaints, force me to see what I'm afraid to see

Blame and guilt, volleying right and left, up and down
It's crashing me closer, with every step, I'm falling to the ground

It's all a game, just play along, play the game, play it well
Brimming confidence, dissolved in thoughts, of what? I won’t tell

Demons, devil born souls, run quick, run fast, stand my ground
No sense of fear, n sense of foreboding, not even a slight sound

High speed, pursuit of hell, bent on going, bent on crashing
Giving into the power, life's faster, lights flashing

Crash and torment me again, my eyes close after all
The beginning of the end for me, feeling numb after the fall

Is there a way out? I'm different, distant and moved on
Listen to the water, calling, coaxing into death, I'm gone

Endless, empty cloud; dreamless oblivion; oxygen, exhalation
Am I dead? Still alive? Broken into pieces, I need motivation

Reality closes in, walls me in; until there’s nothing there
Death comes behind me, containing a blank stare.

Details | Free verse | |

I need you

Like the body lying lifeless in the casket,
awaiting only the crows scratching on top,
wishing that it was you,
you would come and revive my soul.
waiting forever and then some,
desperate in patience
thinking of each moment we would embrace,
gaze into our souls,
connect like we knew eachother for centuries,
like it was always meant to be
me and you,
you and I...
But I'm still waiting,
the hope begins to fade and I'm suffocating,
i'm about to lose twice,
to earn what I have caused
to reap what I earn
but i'm willing to,
because that means at last
there's serenity in those thunder clouds
and that cobra's venom weakened
so you're alright,
you'll make it through another decade,
while I wait,
keep on waiting 
for the one I love,
"Thee One",
who I so foolishly betrayed
while shooting from every direction I hit us both in the heart,
opposite sides
so that the hope of mending our hearts is held high,
they now fit together
but it all hits me as I suffocate some more,
nails bleeding the wood
head in heart,
hand on top
I've buried myself alive.
waiting patiently for a hopeless return.

Details | Free verse | |

My Blood Ran Cold

My blood ran cold,
and so did my heart.
Tell me something;
Do you love me?
Will you always love me?
Do I love you?
The answer is no.

My blood ran cold, 
and at that moment,
I knew something happened...
Mysoul left my body.
My heart stopped beating.
And I was forcefully taken from the world.
My body went limp.

Don't let this smile fool you,
don't let my eyes decieve you,
unless that's what you want.
Don't let what I say trick you,
I could've been gone 3 seconds ago, because this second you're reading, 
          the next one you're thinking, and this one you're finally reacting.
Yesterday you scared me,
I was so frightened; I blame myself.

I rushed to you,
I was terrified.
Tears filled my eyes.
You're stronger than that
I can't explain it.
I've already lost someone close to me,
I was afraid I was gonna loose you too...

The night ran dark,
and the air ran cold.
My body went numb,
and my mind went blank.
My needs started to change,
as the rain gradually fell.
Did I even want to go home?

I never want to go back.
And one day?
I never will.
I promise.
One day I'll leave.
And never return.

Details | Rhyme | |

Tears are HOME in HEAVEN

We splash down the contour of Your cheek; We carry the word; YOU Long to  SPEAK 
We entwine together, leap to the Ground, Thanksgivings for the Love I have FOUND:
                                                        Y O U
               Inspired and Dedicated To My FOREVER :  “ BARBARA JEAN “
                                            To be Continued

Details | Rhyme | |

Dear My Sweetheart,

Sweet as your gentle kisses were I cannot recall, 
For now my sweet, keep naught white but my pall, 
Listen not to my ghost who haunts men’s eyes, 
But whisper to me now, whisper your goodbyes.

I have nothing more to give but my holder, 
Do not keep our flame alight, please let it smoulder, 
We can be no longer, just you and only you, 
It is fair and denying that, would be untrue.

Never wonder, never dream of being bound again, 
My mind has gone, for I am bane, 
I wish it were different but my sweet, 
I dare say never once more shall we meet.

I hold to you my candle, it's flame is weak, 
Let it keep alight, let naught drop nor leak, 
Understand my wishes, and put your heart at rest, 
I love deeply, let me end my quest. 

Details | Free verse | |

Glacier Eyed

Bleeding hearted
Glacier eyed 
Fire eating her insides
Lost scream
Locked in lies
No will to fight
Scarred skin
Hopeless breath
No touch of life
Broken chest
Chains breaking
Hands shaking
Glacier eyed 

Details | I do not know? | |

'Til Death Do Us Part

I used to cut. 
I was depressed. 
And then I found someone who loved me and actually cared. 
And all of the pain just seemed to disappear. 
But something happened. 
Words were said. 
Someone tried to take him and now he is dead. 
The razor from my shelf went missing, but to where, I know not. 
The bloodstains on the sheets cannot be removed, but the blood was spilled from 
someone unknown. 
The doorknob to the bathroom will not open. 
I push and shove it harder, but it will not budge. 
I try and look through the dresser drawer for the missing key, but it is no where to 
be seen. 
I run to the kitchen, looking for a knife, or anything else that will allow me entry into 
the room, that I know is withholding the truth. 
I find something and run back upstairs to the bathroom. 
With the pick in the lock I turn the knob and slowly push the door open...
 And there he is... 
The blade that was once before in my hand, now lies on the floor, beside my dead 
love. The blood on the floor around him is still fresh. 
The streaks on his cheeks, from the tears are still visible. 
I run to his side and grab the razor. 
With one fast slice, the gash in my wrist is pouring blood. 
I lie down beside my non-breathing love. 
Our blood mixes, as we lie there together. 
The world doesn't care or even know, the pain that we had to let go.

Details | Free verse | |

The methadone girl

She could hardly drag himself along,hovered between life and death,
so frozen that her hands are insensible to any feeling
and atrophied heart works only for the casual trade.
Plucked at hair with rage as these morning habits die hard,
spiting blood,residues of the night before.
You toiled in vain because you think you've met her several times
and your soul finally realized your ambitions.
But she is the methadone girl.
The cheap shoes worn out,trampled underfoot by the crowd,
wasted by the long illness,languished from indifference.
Dice with her life everyday,the perspective of sadness,
gain nothing or something in her mind,
watching you to keep your reputation free from all slurs
The drainage happened at the age of eighteen
only dent in her pride was forever.
Fool her with promises,exchange arms and legs with money,
skin burns easily so be an animal,defy the pressure-gauge.
Rolling on souls again.
Overawe us into the silence.
The silence of methadone.

Details | Senryu | |

That September Day in 2001

Two thousand seven Hundred and fifty victims Murdered, Rest in Peace My entry into Nathan's 9-11 contest

Details | Free verse | |

Bidding Farewell

With tragedy found New misfortune and grief. Thoughts shadowed by lonely nights. All his laughs gone, carried cries through the blackest of nights. Bidding eternal love, Farewell.

Details | Classicism | |

Noone Will Ever Take Your Place

Everyday I listen to songs that remind me of you,
 I miss you so much I feel lost I dont even know what to do
 This is the hardest thing I ever had to go threw.
I would give anything just to have you back, 
But I know thats not gonna ever happen so I dont know how to act.
Now your miles & miles away,
 If I had one wish it would be for you to stay. 
I just hope your happy and okay.
Since I cant tell you I love you to your face
 I'm writing you this poem to let you know 
our memories noone can erase and in my life
 noone will ever take your place.

Details | Classicism | |

Pain So Deep

I have so much pain I feel inside,
 Eachday it's getting harder 
    and harder to hide I really miss you right by my side, 
  I  havn't been the same since you died
         It's been hard with you not around 
but I know in my heart your in heaven smiling down 
        I miss you with every beat of my heart
 death is the only thing that could ever keep us
 I love you now & forever just like I did from the start
    My heart is so sore each day I miss you more & more
    I'm not sure if I will be okay 
nothing will ever take this pain away
I look forward to seeing you again oneday

Details | Rhyme | |

The Hope That I've Lost, The Hope That You Give Me

Why must I feel so alone,
I know you are right here,
Why is my future so fogged,
Yet I can see you clear.

Why must I feel broken- dead,
When you breathe in me life,
Why even when I feel happy,
I attract the knife.

Why do I feel empty,
When you fill me with such joy,
People say I need a man,
But you are not a boy.

How can someone love so much,
When they just hate themseves,
Why do I feel so alive,
When I here funeral bells.

How can my heart be so broken,
But mended by you,
How can I trust anyone,
I know our love is true.

Details | I do not know? | |

World's not ending any time soon

The sky's going to fall and we'll all live.
No lie, no deaths, and no one will even notice the solar flares.
We're supposed to die on the universe's say?
Please don't take it personal but I really couldn't care less about what scientists say!
If you don't believe in God, then this is the perfect excuse for you on how the world will
For those who can't stand these superstitions, I'm with you all the way!
Now let me explain!

God cares about us
So he'll never let us die
At this point in time

When God says it's time for a change of venue.
Then don't be surprised if you find yourself on Heaven's Avenue.
Pinch yourself if you have to.
Just remember if you die you won't regret having a boo.
Not a scare to call you own but to add to your list and menu.

Details | Free verse | |

The Mourning Phoenix, Josephine

The Aphotic semblance rises against her face
The king of shame reigns over all
Her Hallows are mine
We are the same, Josephine
Explain to me this sacrificial empathy

"I'm living; the slowest way to die"
Hold on, my Josephine, everything you feel, is killing me
"I'm the lacunous lover, I must go to my ashened grave
In death I will lay, every word, every pain
I'm the victim, I can forgive
I can't go on - don't feel their wrath meant for me"

My name was meant for elegies
Not for the Wardens' acrimonies 
I can't look at a man without seeing a killer
I must go-
Not for the love of the death 
For the fear of life"

My Seraphic Josephine
Through the ashes you will claim victory 
Don't you say you must die
Elysia is in your grave
Through the ashes you will claim victory
My Seraphic Josephine
You are The Mourning Phoenix 

Details | Dramatic monologue | |

A Smokers Smoke

The sickness enters your mouth and your lips wrap around the smoky filter,
You light your lighter and spark the sickness than feel the jitter.
You inhale the sickness and exhale your life,
The smoke travels into the air and feel your life's cries. 

As you hold your death in your mouth, the smoke travels all around your face,
Huging every corner of the masterpiece that God has embraced. 
It cooks your skin and burns your lungs, you know that but still do it to be proud,
Be proud that once your done killing your self your troubles will go unfound. 

Now your head is buzzing and swimming in a cloud of smoke,
Making you and teasing you to take another toke. 
You follow its every command and do as your told,
You are a slave now of a demon that commands you all so bold.

Details | I do not know? | |

Hard to Trust

All my soul is filled with uncertainy,
but sidely thats all thats in me,
i try to trust but it's so hard,
my feelings and heart i try not to guard,
but for me i can't help myself,
i've been hurt numerous times
but yet i go on with life
day by day
till i finally just rot away
though i try to trust
it's hard for me,
but for my boyfriend and my soul
I must.

Details | Classicism | |


I miss you Ramon, I wana see u so I look
outside across the street, You were the most
realest big hearted person anyone could ever
meet, With u not around I feel incomplete I miss you
with every heart beat. I still think ur gonna call
so I always look at my phone without you I 
feel so all alone I miss you Ramon I wish u 
could come bak home.Honestly I dont know if
I will ever be okay all I know is it gets harder &
harder each day.No amount of time will heal I
know I'll be missing u still. Some people just dont
understand & i dont think they ever will

Details | ABC | |

It Happen

Can believe it happen never thought it would
All the stuff we been through
Thought we would be together forever
But you was not there even through our loss you were nowhere to be found 
I went through it by myself
I went through depression because of our lost love and child
I am so tired of going up and down around and around
Our relationship was a full speed roller coaster
Always thought we would beat the odds 
Never thought our relationship would lead me to so much pain and tears
You left me thinking if you ever had any real feelings for me
I hope you would come back but you never did
I felt lost without you
Never thought you had it in your heart to be so cruel to us
I finally had to get it in my foolish head that you were gone forever

Details | Ballad | |

Blinded on My Wedding Day

Convince that you are the one for me.

Persuaded that I am the one you need.

Deceived that you desire my love.

Refused to see the truth so I wait.

Believing that your heart is not filled with hate.

I cry for my Heart that I am not confused.

Praying to God that I am not just being used.

Blinded by the, Yes I will marry you!

Consumed by the, Will you marry me?

Walking down the aisle to meet my groom, didn't realize it was the day of my doom! 

Oh! What can I say. Blinded on My wedding Day.

Details | I do not know? | |

Monsieur L'Vampyre WET DREAMS

Monsieur L'Vampyre - WET DREAMS
Why dost thee take the heart of me
and leave alone that part of me
that dreams of you
and makes me do
the things love makes me do for thee;
why takest thee the best of me
and leaveth all the rest of me
to wonder why
to feign; to die;
in want of what will never be;
why maketh you the death of me
and taketh all the breath of me,
to toss and turn
to want and burn;
and wake from dreams, contentedly.
© Ron Wilson aka Vee Bdosa

Details | Free verse | |


A searing pain
Shoots through my arm
As i pull the cold blade
Across the ivory of my flesh
I look at what i've done
And i see the bright red of living ecstasy
Letting it sit to gently cry
Slipping out of the throbbing flesh
I leave this worlds harsh reality
And find myself in my own mind
Where no one tries to see
What they cannot find in me
I felt alive!
Not dead inside
That blade made it happen
That highest of high
I enjoyed the great sight
But then the high died
It seemed my world
Became unfurled
As i realised what i did (again)
Another scar to add to life
Just as regretful as the last
The pleasure i persued
And the pain i let loose
Effected more than just me
It harmed the love of my life 
All because of my strife
That bottled up inside
I swore to him
I won't take my last breath
To lie down and sleep
For 100,000 years
I'll be here at your side
To see your warm smile
No matter how great the pain

Details | Ballad | |

Deirdre III

Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 
Don't you know Deridre's Gone?

I stepped into room 8-16 only to feel tragedy 
The gatekeeper says your addicted to your pain
A lifeless cold barren soul put In the closet with the shades
Will he ever let you out?

How many days will this passion bleed away
We will be the ones to blame
Beware we've became their prey

An exodus from pain
Her life spent breathing in shame
Am I the one to blame 
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 
Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 

"my decadence was just for you 
Though you have never cared what I've been through
Enter a world where empathy is clandestine
A world created by thee, just for me
The destruction in my mind 
Is why you want to throw the stone
Today I go past the gate''

I call your name towards nightfall's reign
But the guards take you so far away
A dark angel so divine
Cursed by the ones of Eden's Heart
I will avenge every tear

An exodus from her pain
Her life spent breathing in shame
Am I the one to blame 
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 
Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 

Details | Elegy | |

Death Dream

When I do sleep, I wake to a freshly brewed cup of pain,
I dream of you, aching to forget, still misery remains.
A final breath of love, fading away from sudden depart,
His exhaled soul left mine spoiled with a rancid heart.

Never ceasing, the punishing wind recites whispers of his name,
This sadistic storm circulates my one regret that remains.
Perhaps a prediction could have prevented our days as few.
And so, a passing penitence persists-I wasn't there to save you.

Now, all I can do is inscribe your name in the bay,
Fusing my tears with the tide as you gently wash away, 
Like a tailored dress, a faithful fit, altering me for eternity, 
Replaced your absence, a gaping void sits in for serenity.

No matter how many tears I shed on your behalf,
Will ever bring back the smile in your sparkling laugh. 
Our bond, was as soon as gone, each day and the next i dread,
Anemic allegiance, devotion deficiency, lack of a love once fed. 

Yearning for a spell of ease from his manifesting place, 
Just one touch from his lips or the warmness from his face.
Parched passion is dispersed with ashes out to the deep blue, 
Like a butterfly dipped in water, my wings are lifeless without you.

Details | Free verse | |

Forever She Dreams

“Forever She Dreams”
By: Christian Shepherd

I want her back in my arms,
to feel her breathe on my neck.
Her every breathe detectable on my chest.
To hold her close from leaving me.

Watch her as she sleeps,
to hold her close in a slumber so deep.
Watch as her expressions tell a dream,
her temporary reality.

Tell her to "sleep tight love,
I’ll see you in the morning."
Wake up to her by my side,
without her my heart unforgivingly bleeds.

I don’t want to be without you, 
the thought brings melancholy.
I want you with me, 
"please don’t leave me,” I plead.

But its too late for pleas,
fate has already made its judgment.
Now she is forever gone,
and I am empty.

I still bleed. 
I wish I could go back to her.
Savor every moment i took for granted.
But for now my heart still bleeds.

Lying at night kills me,
looking over where she slept.
Seeing her figure in the shadows,
knowing only that it is wishful thinking.

Still i reach over, hoping to find its rest.
I pray that rest may be her shoulder.
The shoulder that I used to cry on.
The should that now could stop my pain.

Then anger stirs inside of me,
She was mine, not yours,
its not fair, let her be, bring her back to me!

There’s no way, fate has made its choice,
and now forever she dreams.

So for now…until the blood runs out...I bleed.

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Loveless Days

Blood spilled upon the British skies
Her eyes drained my soul
Asserted love in bad places has forever taken over

I leave the stoned windowed motel without anymore wishes
I pray for nothing now

I couldn't tell if it was morning birth or noon exposed
I jump the scene and the cold moments looking to hang onto sharpened blue clouds

You've burned me woman
You've pressed the flame upon my skin-analyzed my thoughts and sin,preached to all the
broken men,men like me who move with wind

But we're gone aren't we baby?

Her eyes drained my soul
Blood spilled upon the British skies
I died on your Monday evening

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Just One Drink

What did she say when you told her you still loved me?

Did she turn away or try to disagree

Did you think about her or how she would be?

No you were only thinking about me.


She stands there now, all alone

Facing her fears of the unknown

Turning her head on what she's once known

Realizing now, she's on her own


With no one around to help her choose

She stands her ground, not ready to lose

Her head held high while hearing the news

To accept her fate, she must refuse


She tries and tires with all her might

To win you back every night

She has no plans to give up the fight

Any hope is out of sight


Her heart is now filled with hatred 

Will all the love that you desecrated

With just that one sentence that you stated

Her entire life is now dated


Did you ever stop and try to think,

Just how far she would sink?

How close she was to the brink?

Or how it could all end with just one drink?


Just one drink to end all the pain

Just one little sip to break the chain

Just one to do the job, to her disdain

Just one and she will die in vain. 


You don't even care to attend her funeral

To you she was just a girl that you could treat cruel

How could you be such a fool?

You don't even know of the fire you've fueled. 


You come to my door and ring the bell

You send thousands of messages to my cell

Repeatedly the words "I LOVE YOU" you yell

But for all I care you can just go right on to hell 


I don't want you anymore you Silly boy

I am no longer your stupid little toy

As for the loneliness you feel now, I hope you enjoy

Because you had your chance and my love you destroyed. 


I am my own person without you

I no longer rely on your every move

I am no longer clueless on what to do

I know now I can move on to someone new.


As for the girl that you threw aside

I hope you think of her every time you cry

You're the whole reason that she died

If you wanted someone to love, she would have been there by your side. 


She would have loved you the way you love me

But you never opened your eyes and seen what there was to see

I'll never love you no matter how hard you plea

So wallow in your self pity, you'll get no remorse from me


I hope you drown in your misery

Thank God that sad little girl is finally free

Thank God I knew it was time to flee 

This is goodbye, so don't bother calling me.

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Me No More

When will this stop, how much longer do I have to take all your bull,
It seems like everything I do is not good enough for you.

I'm tiered of falling asleep at night covered in my own tears,
I'm tiered of being your doormat, your one and only that you take out all your anger. 

When will all this stop? I am running out of words to make it all better. 
Only if you can feel what I feel. You would die already if you walked through what I walked through. 

I'm not giving up cause that's just who I am. I'll fight, unlike you give up and throw it all away.
So I'm fighting now, and there ain't *****you can do to stop me. 

The beast is released, get ready for a nightmare you only dreamt of.
You won't see me the same ever again. 

I'm dead to you, you can't call means tour own anymore. 
If someone will ask me if I no you, I'll deny it with a passion.

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How Do I Let You Go

What will be
Will be!
I know of this, first hand
Your life was taken away
So abruptly!
I will 
Never forget
That day!
Till the day 
My body dies
I am with you, again!

“How was I to prepare myself?”
That kind of 
Life changing, event!
Didn't warn me 
Were permanently leaving!
I hope 
You know 
How much “I love you”
You will never be forgotten!

I don’t know 
Has got into me!
I feel you
Inside me
I see images
Of your face 
So clearly!
Am I crazy 
To believe in this, my love?

“Are you still with me?”
“Is my imagination 
Playing cruel tricks
Running rampant
I talk with you
As if 
You were by my side, right now

In my heart and mind
Your face etched
Like a blue print
That never fades
Your foot prints 
Still remain, beside me
My heart beats
Trying to make sense of everything!

Forgive me, my love
For being so strong in my feeling
For it has been a long time
Since I lost you, my friend
I haven’t
Got over!

My heart 
A mind of its own
To be with you, still!
To see you
To smell you
To touch you
To taste you
Last time!

I want to say “Goodbye” 
Once and for all!
We have
Brought out
The best and worst 
In each other
Rivers run deep
When it comes to you and me!

We have had our fair share of fights and arguments
Stubborn disagreements
All of them
You cease to exist!

I miss your lingering touches
Your hand, stroking my face
Your big, blue eyes
Looking into mine
Your warm lips
Your rough, unshaven face 
The way you
Kiss me
We make love, till dawn

I miss
All those nights
You kept me 
Safe and warm!
I miss
Loving embrace
I miss
“Am I ever going to feel the same, with another?”
I felt
In your arms, my love?

Do I let you go?
Do I set myself, free?
I am ready
To love, again!
‘Our eternal love’
Guiding me
In times, like these!

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Dark Tears Scream

In the Midnight : by the Light of the Harvest Moon
We Gather in a Vernal Pool " in the Spring of Gloom "
Together we Flow and Light up  “ in  the Setting of 
 The  rising SUN , Becomes the Closing  of a Sunset
With no  Tears , There  is no way To Cry Surrender
We  Live  in  a series  of    Forever : ending up in  “ Doom “

  “ YOU ARE  MY EVERYTHING “ Inclined to “ Redeem ” 
     Are YOU the Broken Heart , for  Which I Forever “ Dream “

         With Love to All , Your Liege…HG ( Harry )

                                    To be Continued

Details | Bio | |

The Color Red

At the beginning it was all so great,
but now i am walking away from this state.
I loved ever moment that we spent together,
I thought we would go on like that forever. 

But i am sorry to say that you have torn my heart apart,
I was praying on my hands and knees from the start.
Praying so that this would not happen,
but it happened and it ain't stopping. 

I beet my self in the chest now for letting this go so far,
I wish i could just forget this all to remove this scar.
The scar that you left on my soul is way too deep,
everything poring out of it is nasty and smells so creep. 

I know that people say to "Forgive and Forget",
but i can do only one thing, and its pore it out without a fit.
So i am done with this hell people call life,
i am on the edge of this earth waiting to survive. 

Dedicated to the one that broke my heart. 
No names will be spoken.

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Pain And Suffering

Pain And Suffering Is 
All That I Can Fell Now My 
Mind's A Drama Station My Hearts 
Blown Up Into Infinity Pieces My Soul 
Is Empty My Life Is Gone With The Wind 
As I Cut My Left Arm One Hundred And Twenty 
One Times Their Are No Scars Left Behind As 
My Life Less Body Sails Across The Blood Ocean 
Of Many Souls Of Forgtton Love And Lost Hope For 
Loved Ones To Return To Them All I Have Left Now 
Is Pain And Suffering. 

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About Kameron by Taylor

I stood in the room staring at that hard wooden floor.

Thought of him and then closed the door.
I looked back up and everything was black.
Suddenly I knew the pain was back.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Black and gray rags were scattered everywhere,
And all I could do was stare.

But he loved me .
I knew that much.

I sat on his bed and noticed that the tears started to shed.
Then I saw a very dark closet.
I heard our song and wanted to pause it.
I felt my heart slowing with the rhythm.

But he loved me.
I knew that much.

Light began to shine through the enormous window.
I looked over,
And there...was a shadow.
The giant black drapes turned blue.
I thought to myself:"This can't be true."

Because I knew he loved me.

The roses came back to life.
And the bed turned white.
The rags turned into his clothing.

The music slowed and I didn't know what I was being shown.
But I loved him.
A light came from the closet.

A light that was brighter than any of the stars in the sky.
I saw a figure,and again,I started to cry.
I saw his face,saw his smile,
And knew that this was our special place.
And he said I love you.

Those three words meant the world to me and him .
And I said,
...I love you a whole lot more.

Details | Haiku | |

Promiscuity's Obscurity

self-indulgence, did you wreak
you, did judgement seek

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The Murder In The Study-PTSD

I sit there watching, 
watching as he struggles through the pain. 
Scared to touch him, 
as my hand hovers above his sweat soaked skin. 
Where's the antidote? 
My eyes scream for an answer, 
my lips cry from the sight. 
He's lost in his mind, 
trapped in the memories, 
the fears have taken him from here. 

I say his name tentatively, he doesn't hear me. 
Eyes black, empty souled, 
where's he gone, God where does he go? 
Bombs exploding in his ears, 
guns firing rapidly, 
hands clenching his only hope of survival. 
I bite my lip and brush a lock of hair from his eyes. 
Empty eyes, his strength is crushing my wrist, 
His hand clutching my throat. 
I plead his name, beg for him to wake up 
from this nightmare of a dream. 
Beneath my breast, within my chest 
I feel my heart throbbing. 
How long will it be until it breaks. 

I'm clawing at him, my nails tearing open his shirt. 
I've become an animal, an invisible threat to his blind eyes. 
As my nails rake across his face, 
my back slams into a book case, 
I look up, His empty eyes, a world away 
in a world of war, his hand shaking 
with the cold metallic gleam of his gun. 
He aims, without seeing, and the bullet hits his mark. 
Instinct has my hands on the hole in my chest. 
curiosity draws them away 
and with the sticky red I paint. 
Maybe when he awakes he'll see this, 
this one thing, it might save his sanity. 

I scrawl 'I love you', my tears wont wash it away. 
I lay as I go blind, 
the black fading from his eyes, 
and into mine. 
God, take away his pain. 
Let me steal his dreams, 
as you stole his sanity.

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The King Of Pain

He only thinks that I am fake,
Even when I sit and shake,
Although I’ve done things in the past,
I left it all so we would last.

I don’t know what I am meant to do,
To prove to him I can be true,
He only sees the wrong and hate,
He never sees his one true mate.

All I am I’ll give for him,
I’ll kill myself for both our sins,
Yet he thinks it’s just a ploy,
And in this game he is just a toy.

I could write our names in blood,
Yet he’d only stand and shrug,
Cut out my heart for him alone,
He would not notice till I moan.

I know he loves me deep inside,
And still he thinks he has to hide,
I know when nothings left,
He is only happy when he’s in death.

Details | ABC | |


 Long road to travel
 Dusty summer days
 Sweat builds between warm hands holding
 She picked a yellow flower for her hair
 And danced along the dirty road
 Without care
 Many miles to travel
 Yet we could already be here
 No destination 
 Running free
 No one around no landscape to see
 Roll with me baby she said
 As she danced down a hillside
 Ripping her dress
 Flower petals dropping
 Trailing where she’s been
 Spinning around and down
 Over and over she laughed
 This world is her playground
 We danced until the sun has set
 Making love till the rise again
 Connected together
 Passion Binding
 This world is our Playground
 She asked am I your Juliet
 Answered no
 Stopped in her tracks and she let go
 I have something to give you she smiled
 Leaving into the tall grass
 Running with whipping blades in my eyes
 Searching for her trail
 A clearing where she fell
 Gun in her hand
 Bleeding heart
 With a note that read
 You were my Romeo
 And I closed my eyes
 One bullet left
 Cool metal on sweat
 Don’t cry
 Don’t cry

©2014 Tamilyn Love

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Details | Free verse | |

in my mind

so ways i wish people could see why i write what i do 
see what i see 
or even feel what has been felt 
would you all really judge how i act would you really hurt me like you all have
i know everyone has it rough but does that mean you put me down for handling it the way i do
if anything you push me farther and to my breaking point
you should see the damage you have done 
see the pain you put me thro 
realize that maybe just maybe somethings truly wrong instead of assuming i just want attention
maybe my mind is a bit unstable 
and maybe my heart isn't as strong as it once was but that doesn't make me any different
so why hold all this against me 
why make things worse
why be the reason someone decides to give up
showing you whats going through my heart and whats ripping at my mind is my way of showing you i truly am broken 
you say there's no fixing it but do you really even wanna try
do you really find me worth all the troubles
when you said i love you was it all some big joke 
was it a way of filling some crappy void in your life
if i was to disappear you could care less if i were to die would you even be sad 
knowing that your love was all fake doesn't make it easier to forget it makes it harder to realize my own ignorance
you knew how hurt i was when you first came into my life but you didn't care you found your source of amusement and you didn't care if it killed me 
well in a way i am dead, dead inside 
nothing moves no tears are cried
a beat less heart a shallow soul 
i guess dying really isnt that easy 
but neither is watching someone rip you apart 
its kinda the same in some ways i think dying would be better 
nothing to live for 
no strings holding you to this pathetic thing called life
no words could hurt you
no dreams to be crushed 
but why is it bad always happens to someone so good so pure
why does everything have to go wrong why cant something just go right for once
i know this sounds bad and it may sound like a plea for death but its a way of dealing with fear dealing with mixed emotions
dealing with what i guess wasnt meant to be 
its hard to shake off what people are saying we all know that by now
the love people once held never lasts or it never will be found
emotions are meant to be hidden because no one truly wants to be the burden on someone life
or to feel like they aint worth anything i guess this is a way of crying out for help
a way of saying please save me please just please be the one that makes it ok 
be the one that numbs pain

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Tears are HOME in Heaven -2-

You are the reason that I Exist, Forever in Heaven : as Dawn’s Morning Mist
                                                    “ ALWAYS “
Always on Guard, in Heaven’s Gold Sky, we are ready to Cry for YOU and
                                                   “ Y O U R S “

     LOVE YOU “ Barbeeg ” ALWAYS YOUR Liege…HG ( Harry )

                                              To Be Continued

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An American Story

Blood rained down like teardrops
Down her cheeks and to the floor
Her head was resting on my lap
And she took breath no more

Love as fleeting as the sun
Cares as wasteful as moonlight
I made a promise there
To make things right

I arose to meet my destiny
I awoke like a beast in heat
I reached for the gun on the floor
And said goodbye to my sweet

Angie . . . .
            Angie. . . .
                        Angie . . . .

My own voice echoed in my head
Like thunder pulsing through my ears
I wiped my own tears on my shirt
And went to face my fears

"I'll be back my love."
My voice like sandpaper
The gun felt like a brick
The weight of my promise to her

My boots creaked across wooden boards
My thoughts ran like a river
Never stopping but going nowhere
Treading aimlessly forever

My shirt was red with her
Angie's life had spilled out on me
I wrung the shirt with my empty hand
And set her spirit free

A song was playing soft and barely heard
It drifted in like a spring time breeze
This musical wind strolled through my open door
And set my mind at ease

I followed this breeze to the street
And left it as I found my car
Setting down on the driver's side
I looked back toward my open door

Angie. . . .
            Angie . . . .
                        Angie. . . .

Alone I left her there

I promise to
Who did this to you
Will meet the same fate

Angie. . . .
            Angie . . . .
                        Angie. . . .

Alone I left her there

Details | Sonnet | |

Death, His Friend He Must Embrace

Back bent,
Spine protruding from withered figure,
His face a creeping shadow,
Scattering, revealing pale ghost beneath,
Breathing eerier croaks from dark fathoms within,
Lips parched,
A bumpy mess of scales,
His eyes dug deep within the shrivels of his face,
Reflecting with joy his distant youth,
Quivering lost paper in wind,
As those lips part one final time,
No one listens to his great last words,
Expecting him to quietly slip away with grace,
Death his friend he must embrace. 

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Till Death Do Us Part

I lay awake, at night
Hearing your spirit, calling me
I feel you, deeply
Another time, another space
How, do I bring you back home?

Details | Sonnet | |

Blind Love

The romance between them female and male,
From her dying inside from all the pain.
Their love like a moon shining oh so pale, 
And them thinking they were going insane.

From the late nights of fighting and crying,
To the dates that went wrong in both their ways.
They both found out of each others lying,
And cheating that took place the past few days.

Punching and kicking, being tossed around,
The bruises, the blood, the black-and-blue eyes. 
She shouts and screams when she falls to the ground,
The neighbors don't help when they hear her cries.

But on the wedding day nothing is said,
And the truth came out when they found her dead.

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For Chris and Chelsea

For Chris and Chelsea
           For my friends
        Who died in a horrible end

Say goodbye to whom you love,
Away you chase this dazzling beauty
You so willingly fell in love with.

Her gorgeous eyes
Captured your heart,
Her mesmerizing voice
Stole your breath,
Your love aches for her 
In your arms.

Is what you're willing 
To do for her.

Chase her into meadows and grasp her hand,
Fall on the beautiful roses
With her on your chest,
She's yours


Details | Classicism | |

My Shinning Star

Your my shinning star, You may not
be on earth anymore but I keep you close 
so your not far, I oftem wonder why 
you had to die, I wipe my tears 
and look up at the sky.
   They say people need air to breathe
well I need you, Why did u have to leave?
But your happy and free now I believe.
    People can't breathe without air,
I feel like I can't breathe without 
you it's not  fair.
      You were better than the rest
But i guess it's true God only takes the best.
      I feel like I'm livivg in the
worst nightmare ever, I love you & I 
will forever.

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I Then We

I thought my body was dying;
I thought my life was over and done.
I thought my hopes and dreams were lost;
I thought I had no one, not none.

Then I saw a glimmer of hope;
Then, she found me with her soul.
Then I was raised up back to life;
Then, she made me feel whole.

Then I gave her my love and trust;
Then, she took my flesh and bone.
Then I took her heart and mind;
Then, she gave me... crown and throne.

We had never done anything like that;
We had never known any like buss.
We had never felt sensations like those;
We had never been with anyone like us.

Details | I do not know? | |

What if

I had it all.
The blood beneath the cold, dense, heart
beats as if it were nothing.
But what good would a heart be 
if it did nothing.
The mind just seems to baffle-
confuse both me and you,
no longer are you confused, but am I.
A sweet little butterfly,
gravity has no affect on me
i'm free, oh the freedom what glee,
there's no you and me.
Only after is there a space for 2
when 1 and 1 they become 1 whole
and 2 together,
they separate, without becoming one-
just as though life had died.
It's true what they say about dying,
no one ever learns until-
that moment, situation unfolds,
and instead of the light, it's dark
black, cold.
Instead of the angels, loved ones spirits,
it's the devils scold
and even after all this hyperbole,
I haven't even budged.
I'm old.
You just don't seem to get it,
I once became so young, now old
and all because of you,
you mystery of my soul.

Details | Free verse | |

Dearest Love

Dearest Love,
Do not forget me,
Even in death,
Remember all we shared,
All we did, but do not forget, 
I'll be waiting on the other side,
Til then,
I Love You Forever,
Yours Truely

Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Mind Of A Psycho

you think you know me but you dont i see what others see in your eyes  you 
just dont know it yet as i slice open your neck with my blade and let 
the blood run down your neck in a stream of blood i hear you gasping to 
breath without a care you mean nothing to me now and you mean nothing to
me later you are no longer the one i can trust you are just as the rest of
the ones i have killed before with this stream of blood flowing into a river
as i walk away holding nothing back letting your body lie their on the ground
without a care in the world leaving you lay their for wild animals to feast upon.

Details | Rhyme | |

Masquerade of Lies

Welcome to the Masquerade Ball 
Your mask is a cover for all your lies
I told you that to this dance you were not welcome
No extension of invitations did you receive
I will unmask you and you will stand in the center for all to see
Your words are meaningless 
You will lie down in the pile of lies you have created
Let us dance so I can be close to you
Grab your mask and embed my fingers in order to deface you
I will drive a stake through your heart 
It is cold and has no life in it
I will eat it for I hunger for vengeance
Your cold and lifeless body left in the center of the room 
Ballads and a waltz danced in your name
Twirls around you as you lay in your bed
Beheaded and placed on a plate
Posted on the mantle as a trophy
We will feast on your remains 
A celebration for all to enjoy
 Lies you wish to tell
A consequence you will pay
Welcome to the Masquerade Ball

Details | Chastushka | |

Murder & Love

Sorry cant take back destruction
Sorry can't take back the lies
Sorry cant take the knife out your heart
I murder your feelings and what we started 
Guilt is what I feel when I look in your eyes
After all the lies, rumors,stories you still love me
My crime makes me look at myself different
I don't know can I be the same person 
you were the victim and I'm the killer
Evertime I have sometime good I destroy it 
I murder your trust,love,passion for me
It's killing me more inside
It's making me want to take my own life 
because I destroyed someone's else.

Details | Free verse | |

Crimsworth Dean

Crimsworth Dene

Light relieved land stamped down and raised mounds and hidden folds, revealed the valley’s follies, farms and sunken rivers.

The bright afternoon eye-level sun painted radiance on the dead leaves’ shimmer, rainbowed the waterfall’s joyful spray, and drew eyemotes floating into dancing stars against the sheeted blue.

Outward away past the framed horizon, the sillhouetted church, the tiny Pike, crepuscular shafts healed the broken air and the shining clouds glowed.

The ancient ruin of a farmhouse still holds the ghosts of lovers that once longed across the valley’s gape, forbidden to cross. They rest somewhere near, whilst their dreams still fall towards the river where today, the clough throws its soul-drops over Lumb Falls. Follow the water, and the stream for an instant, becomes brief despariing citizens of the beck hurling themselves, flying and dying to join the river-republic of the hereafter and tumble on ecstatic to the sea.

The central beam, the backbone of the farm, cracked and snapped one day and  still rests piercing the floor, now boggy grass. Where the foxgloves towerin early summer, the moss has taken over the lease and the sheep shelter in what is left of the larder and the parlour. Somewhere under the boulders, the bedroom continues to rot , and where their passion lived, the sun now lures weeds towards itself, rising and falling through the centuries.

Details | Rhyme | |

Murder in the Skies

It was on this day
December the 21st, 1988
Pan Am Flight 103
Would learn of it's fate
Blown out of the sky
For all the world to see
Two hundred and fifty nine people
Rained down on me
My country Scotland
Lockerbie town
The falling of life
In deathly down
This 747
Model 121
Laid-en with fuel
The horror's begun
Argentinian, Belgium
Bolivia too
Canada, France
Sat beside you
Germany, Hungary
India as well
Hey, Herr 
The flights going well
Ireland, Israel
Italy flew
To go to the States
All feeling brand new
Jamaica, Japan
Philippines seated
Family toil
Families depleted
South Africa, Spain
Sweden in flight
Will not be tonight
Switzerland, Trinidad and Tobago
The United Kingdom, United States
All of the above
On this December date
We also remember
Eleven on the ground
Who obliterated to nothing
Not hearing a sound
The town of Lockerbie
Will never be the same
Yet one of the gang goes free
Because the poor guys in pain
Where's the compassion
Of the 270 lost
Their memory now tarnished
To the Scottish Governments cost
We set him free
To his home he goes
Treated like a hero
All compassion has froze
My thoughts and my tears
Are for the truly lost ones
Who will never enjoy
The return to their hometown

In dedication to the 270 who lost their lives on December 21st 1988.


Details | Free verse | |

The Stars Aren't Out Tonight

The stars aren't out tonight 
And I can't see the light in your eyes
The new moon makes the night too dark 
It's getting harder and harder to find my way
The light fades to even deeper shades of gray
Lips grow colder and breathing gets slower
I can't seem to bring you back to life
Please don't leave me. I'm not strong enough
The pieces you held are still too fragile
Falling to the floor, glistening like new born stars
We share the last breath and my eyes shut tight
A single tear rolls down your cheek
The last time I call you mine
The last time you call me baby
The black attire goes with the parents who bury their children
Red rose falling against the mourning skies
This is the end of a love story that never was

Details | Limerick | |

More Than Death

i love you more
than i want to die.
i love you more
than death completely.
you fill the space
between my lungs.
i love you more
than morning songs.
take me in your chevy
when things are getting heavy.
i love you more
than death completely,
so drive fast.
you are my morning 
cups of coffee
and my spliff
when i need a lift.
rock me like a baby,
like i'm you're only baby.
i love you more
than death completely.
take me to bed
and let us get high.
i love you more
than i want to die.

Details | I do not know? | |


When the drugs are gone, I feel like dying
Cos when reality hits, I'm left there crying
Wishing things could go back to how they used to be
Like the way you promised, so sincerley 
But all thats gone to shit
& so has my dreams
& so has my life
Which has been torn at the seams
There's no other man
That holds a candle next to you
& when all I do is compare
I'm reminded of all the things we would do
& all this hits me hard
like a bullet through the chest
like a knife to my throat
A razor to my wrist
But when I take one hit
What a relief so desparatley needed
To clean up the mess you made
Of a heart that wont stop bleeding
Its the escape I need, when I feel so dead
But when I have nothing else, 
I take what I can get 
I miss you, I need you, like the air I breathe
& if I cant have that, Ill take a puff of just about anything
& if I cant smoke it, ill pop it, snort it, inject into a vein
& hey if it kills me, at least I'll be free from this pain
So judge me, hate, me, think whatever you wish
But when you've lost all you got
Then death becomes your only wish

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The broken fairytale

Once upon a time there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
So true was such their love,
There wasn't anyone who disapproved.
It had been love at first sight,
A fairy tale since that day.
The maiden had found the man of her dreams,
No one else needed to have a say.
They had done it all,
Candlelight dinners, shyly holding hands,
Kissing in the rain, dancing around trees,
Leaving intertwined footprints on white sands.
But it wasn't just another love story,
It was uniquely special like every other one.
They had eyes for no other but one another,
The best part of their lives had just begun.
They traveled around the world,
And she kissed her man at the seven wonders each.
People would smile at the storybook couple,
As they counted stars standing on a beach.
With her, he was the man he wished to be,
The one who wouldn't think twice,
About pulling her up to dance in a crowded train,
He'd protect her, keep her happy at any price.
He'd see through her weak smile,
All the way to the tears inside,
He'd whisper sweet things in her ear,
Hold her till all the tears dried.
Though they did have a fair share of problems,
They always came together again,
No matter what happened,
Like raindrops on a window pane.
On a rainy day, she had sat waiting,
Wondering about the surprise he had promised,
But he never came,
For the winds of fate had suddenly changed. 
Five years after that day, she found herself alone,
Sitting on the porch, counting stars on her own,
As she recalled the day he had been taken from her,
'An unfortunate accident' on the next the papers had shown.
She hadn't cried on the phone, she hadn't cried on the way,
She didn't even cry when she had to identify him,
Not a single tear or a heartrending sob.
She just stared ahead with an expression so grim.
It was only when she had received his belongings,
The remnants of his last minutes, did she react.
She screamt and cried, laughed and wailed,
For among others, was a diamond ring beautifully packed.
His surprise, the laughter in his voice,
The excitement, the secrecy of the evening.
He had been right, it had left her breathless,
But he wasn't there to see the sorrow it did bring.
Even now her eyes brimmed with tears,
As she looked at the ring as it sparkled,
And thought of that time when there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
- Miliya Parveen

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Hey Babe

Hey babe, please listen to me now
Life is easy and simple that's all
Dont get quirky or jumpy you might fall
Learn to take a break and walk down the hall.
I know things dont go the way we want
But please dont lose hope and say you cant
I made broken promises and know my words dont count
But come and take my hand, we'll both stand.
Let me tell you something babe, please close your eyes
Lend me your hand once last time and feel this cube of ice
Isn't it cold yet it melts in your tiny, warm hand
That's my heart babe, before i was ever in your hand.
Here are words for you, promise me you'll do
Dont be afraid to try new things over and over dear
I know you're strong inside and out but tends to cross over
Keep your faith in track and dont forget to look back.
Honey i know it's been terrible but I trust you
I might be gone now but my love won't just go
Follow your dreams and make more mistakes
I'll be just right here, with you all the way.

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Wide eyes
lips hovering right below a scream
hair pulled into a fist
mouth covered
panicked eyes
heart rattling

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The Untamable

                 The Untamable

I am a man speaking what's true. 
The way you walk those walls is the way you walk on my heart. 
You tear through the town breaking innocent hearts and souls. 
No one will try and tame you. 
I have tried and succeeded many a time. 
I canot do it now. You are to much. 
I always said I'd forgive you but you have hurt me to much. 
I fear now for my life. 
I have finally seen the real you. 
The animal inside. 
Your wild, dark, deadly and untamable. 
Anyone who tries is a fool. 
He will surly regret it as I have. 
I can't bear the burden you give me.
This is the end of all ends. 
The world as I know it is dissolving. 
I told you once I loved you more then anything I could ever love. 
That now is a lie. 
I can now not say that without pain. 
Your not tamable so I must say my goodbyes. 
You will never find another. 
Goodbye dear. 

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Gilded Return

Slowly with unstable steps, she approaches.
The room is dank a foreboding intensity permits the air.
She is shaking as the memories wrap their inky hands around her throat.
The terror starts to build as the anguish she'd managed to lock away becomes unleashed.
It is feral, with fangs and razor sharp claws. 
The beast she'd burned turning into the regret of a monster for all of her sins. 
The room once furnished so lavishly now had boards bared through plaster showing holes allowing vermin and insects to do with the place as they wished.
In her eyes, the room was in it's glory as it had always been. 
The candle wax began to drip onto her hand.
Her eyes now resembled that of a newborn doe's as her eyes fell to a heavy book.
Bound with crisp thick paper and worded with the freshest ink and sharpest quill.
The satin was superb in all of it's glossy onyx nature, her home.
One step after another, fragile feet glide over the floor, rustling of pristine skirts.
Her breath became heavy and idly half of her mind wondered if she was suffocating.
All too soon it seemed she was standing before the book, hardly did her eyes stray,
yet memory served her well as the old oak table was exactly the same to her as before.

He haunted her in every aspect within her life.
All she held dear was slowly crumbling until insanity threatened to become a reality.
What was her old lover's memories attempting to provoke within her?
Anger? Surely not she only dwelt with remorse and regret for wasting precious time.
Heedless of her warnings to her own mind she could not run from the chocolate of his eyes.
Nor could she handle being bombarded with guilt at every smile that slipped over her features.
If only he could see her now, he would relish her miserable exsistance.
Death was a mask wedged deeply into her very cells and she accepted it.
This last dream had become her undoing it would appear, for here she was.
For every good memory and ghastly deed she had locked within this book.
A memento of her exsistance for she feared being forgotten when the earth reclaimed her essence.

With loving fingers and velvety skin she caressed the spine of the book.
With a bitter sweet smile she took the slightest corner of the tome and eased it open.
Immediatly musk and a definate spice bombarded her senses in a pleasing array.
The nearly unrecognizable strings of words no doubt made sense for any with mind enough to carry a magnifying glass of sorts.
Sitting with a sigh she spoke quietly.

I am Home.

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Much yet to be written- PART II


Let the gut wrenching screams, pierce through your ears. Then cower in silence, as I expose all your fears.

I'll tear out your heart, psychologically break you. Feed you to evil, and see where it takes you.

And then in the end, when all's said and done. Maybe you'll relate, to my desperation.

You'll see things in ways, that you've never seen. And hate will prevail, when senses are keen.

This world isn't rainbows, flowers and butterflies. It's demons and beasts, cruelty and lies.

So say your goodbyes, let your dreams fade to dust. Cross your heart, swear an oath, to the one you can trust.

You've seen it each day, when you've looked in the mirror. Only now with eyes open, you see it much clearer.

Oh yes sir indeed, trust only yourself. Stay away from those pills, cause they'll never help.

For one thing in life, is definitely certain. A window's not clear, when covered by curtains.

So unveil your anger, take it out on this world. And don't single out, just one stupid girl.

Cause life turned her in, to what she became. So if life is the cause, then life is to blame.

Now we all have to face, our own set of problems. But what sets us apart, is how we all solve them.

So call me sick shallow, abused and confused. The same old cliche's, that are so over used.

I'll grin and I'll nod, say "you're right" and "thank god!". "I'm glad you find pleasure, pointing out all my flaws!"

Then slowly I'll turn, and walk straight away. Reminding myself, tomorrow's a new day.

For life is a book, about the dead and the smitten. And mine has much left, that is yet to be written...

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hurts so bad

im hurting so bad  inside im falling apart its getting hard to hide dont feel right anymore since u died.  What am i suppose to do when i dont want nothing in this world but you and that cant ever come true :(  i cant explain how i feel i just wish i could kick it with u still. i always loved you and i always will

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Love A Reapper

I don’t know what I’m meant to write,
I must have lost my writers sight,
So in shock and so confused,
Is this real or am I used?

I want my heart to beat again,
This in time my wounds will mend,
But how can I trust to be so sure,
I won’t fall down and hit the floor.

I think I know it in my heart,
It’s been the same right from the start,
But doubts creep in from winters passed,
I seem so lost it’s gone so fast.

So I will try and I will see,
What this feeling makes of me.
Just know that if I brake and cry,
I’ll see it through and you will die.

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Crush and Crushed

In the beginining,
There was a girl.
She was on a rollar coaster.
She saw her crush.
He ignored her.
He thought she was annoying.
He thought she was petiful.
Little did he know,
She would die that day.
Here's her story.


Little, little girl,
No cares in the world.
Bruises on her face,
Crazy on her trace.

Little, little girl,
Little, little crush.
Little, little love,
Little, little to much.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Little, big circle coming up,
She was on bottom the cart on top.
Watching the cart fallin',
He didn't know she was calling,
His name.

Heaven reached to her,
But she kept herself on earth,
Until she could see him again.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Tell him, tell him how you feel,
Little did you know it would feel so real.
Now that she was dead he started thinkin',
Was she crazy or was she worth loving?

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Now she's going to heaven,
So many things she hasn't done.
She sees the door and,
Remembers her amore.


Later that night,
After he saw her die,
He commited suicide.
His parents found a note from him.
"I saw her die,
 I love her,
 I am going to be with her.
 I'm sorry"
He didn't go to heaven,
Neither did she,
They are both stuck in limbo,
At least they have each other.

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A Poorly Planned Murder-Suicide

If I ever catch you cheating on me
I'll kill myself and then I'll kill you and he.

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My eyes are closed, close to sleeping. Behind my lids the colours dance, Light and beautiful. I see; Scarves blown in the wind, Washing on the line, Dresses in the water. I see; Her. The colours of her. Blue eyes, virginal white skin, rosebud cheeks, Her indescribable hair. And blood, So much blood.

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Blood of a liar, mark of a thief

You took it all
(I held my breath)
You screamed my name
(as you fell to your death)
The crowed gathered round
but I stood tall
with your body laying so broken
you've never looked so small

The rain started pouring down
(oh how I smiled)
There were sirens in the distance
(only a half a mile)
Down below the screaming sounds
I can't hear a thing
everyone's gaze is upon me
waiting for the once caged bird to sing

You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

The rain washes away the evidence
(the blood, sweat, and tears)
But rain can't wash away everythng
(no, not everything)
not the pain suffered through the years

Your words were so sweet
who was I to judge
I fell for your parlor tricks
over the edge with one small nudge
Such a beautiful disguise you wore
silly little me
I fell into your web of lies
far too young to ever see

You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

You could have been mine
(does it hurt now, hush, be quiet now)
You sold your soul for a good time
(does it hurt now, hush, don't speak now)
Did you think I'd never know?
(does it hurt now, does it hurt now)
Now you must reap the crop you've sewn

You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

You had such a pretty little plan
Carried out by such a careless little man

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Death and beyond

Hours transpired like every other day. Perched on the trees, sparrows chirped, keeping the dreadful silence at bay, and sunlight across the land, whipped. Laid there on the grassy lawn, was a lovely lass dressed in a corset. Smelling the blossoms like a fawn, enchanted was she by nature's best. Up the hill ran a hysterical lad, his face as white as a sheet, shattered her heart to more than just a shard, and made her swoon to her feet. Minutes rolled to hours, and hours to days, and there she sat like a stone. With her eyes so lifeless and cold, her once rosy lips now as dry as a bone. Draining her blood was her soul, turning her visage as of a ghoul. Neither did she eat, nor drink, as she stooped over life's brink. Deep down was an endless bottom, which her rotting psyche couldn't fathom. The day came when her eyes lit up, like a hopeless spark in a dark cavern. She let go and set her eyes on the stars afar, and said "I'll be there wherever you are".

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Locked Away

I am sitting in a room with walls at all my sides,
Starring at the ceiling like I was hypnotized.  
Wanting to talk but the walls are much to thin,
Longing to get out but I think they locked me in.
What had I done to be locked so tight away?
To tell the story right I will start with yesterday.
Leaving work early to surprise my wife,
but when I arrived at home I got the surprise of my life.
Overwhelmed in anger I grabbed for my gun,
Kicking in the door to bust up there fun.
So now you know what I’ve done to be locked in this place,
I took out all my anger when I shot him in the face.
That man probably didn’t think that he would loose his life,
But he probably should have thought of that before he screwed my wife.

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Ready To Die

I'm ready to go, 
ready to die.
Ready for my heart to slow
ready for me to say goodbye.
Hold me tight,
I love you boo.
Goodbye and goodnight,
I hope you love me too.

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I've Got You Now

Upon a lonely Autumn night
I spied my prince by artificial light
Our eyes then met, and all was well
His voice, so sweet, said "Go to Hell!"

I laughed it off, assured he jest
And vowed that I would do my best
To win the hand of that valiant prince
By exposing my heart, my love to evince

For many a day, I followed his ways
Learning the patterns of his days
Careful to hide in alley and bush
Awaiting the moment of the ambush

My love, I knew, would fall to my feet
If ever I worked up the courage to meet
Aided, perhaps, with a hint of persuasion
Enhanced by the use of anaesthatization

Too shy to approach lest the ideal I mar
I followed the life of my love from afar
He seemed not to even know I exist
Oh, but I knew that that I could fix!

Upon a lonely Winter night
I spied my prince walking by streetlight
Our eyes then met, and before he could speak
I silenced him with professionally employed technique

Alas, we would finally be happy as one
Belong to me or belong to no-one
I'll have my way, as I always do
I know that I was made for you

Don't resist my psychotic persuasion
I've an episode for every occasion
An embittered word you devise to delay
Will only make you easier to sway

When in the darkness you feel fear
You can know that I am near
Waiting, watching, alway there
You will be my cross to bear

My dear, there's no reason to be blue
I promise I'm not going to hurt you
All I want is your fickle heart
You and I will never part

Something wicked this way will come
Resist all you want, we both know you'll succumb
Be it by poison, blackmail or lie
You can't escape me, however you try

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A Consequence Of Cheating

he loves me... he loves me not...

the phrase repeated as she plucks the flower from the pot.

its summer now and the day is hot.

she knows he's  cheating but to catch him she needs a plot.

she figures she'll catch him on the yacht.

he's probably drinking a glass of his finest scotch.

she just needs him drunk enough and it should be a notch.

find his phone, check his texts, and leave him on the dock.

so she heads off to meet him on his yacht.

but she finds him dead by a single shot.

she takes a step and on a note she trots.

she reads aloud, "I thought he loved me, but he loves me not. So I ended this relationship with a single shot. If you were fooled by him as well it's okay... we don't need men like him now he'll rot".

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Caged Agony

She was caged in his mystery.
Just a glimpse into his soul;
And she saw the anger flow freely.

A father’s blood tainted
And with it came sorrow;
And with it came unspeakable torment.

There was not a person,
That felt the pain,
Its symptoms were distinctively his. 

Whispers like the wind urged him to be happy;
As though condolences could take away the grief;
Each face was featureless, each apology was a fake.

She found him alone and broken.
Within him she saw helplessness;
It was masqueraded by a need to remain strong.

On his shoulders was the World,
The weight of which was becoming too much,
Knees bent from the pressure.

He looked at her and their bereavement was matched;
Both cold from the tears,
Both were searching for their escaped faith.

A child was taken at her word,
Lost amongst the other realms;
She had felt empty.
Her sobs at night were heard by none,
Ridiculed by her traumatizing decision-
He saw her standing outcast.  

Their inward screams had echoed outward;
Only they could hear each other’s cries.
Drawn together in unity, a relationship formed. 

They were never perfect for each other,
But their voids were filled. 
They were very much alike, and yet so different.

They treated one another with disrespect.
It turned their love into rage;
This was followed by resentment.

Hands unclasped as their families pulled them apart,
Tears rolled from her eyes and his desperate struggle ensued;
He vowed to someday get her back.

He found himself anguished once more, as did she. 
For who would hold her now?
How would he fall asleep?

They would move on as all lost lovers do,
But no other love could be the same.
No lesson as great as the one that they had experienced; together. 

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Very Sad Story

His love for me's unknown
i am feeling so alone
hes the one i dont want to lose
but im suddenly confused
not a single day goes by
that i dont remember how i
messed things up and brought us shame
now hes suffering in pain
and he will never let me forget
the thing i did that i regret
it will never be how it was
i broke his heart all because
i didnt think about the kiss
it just goes to prove that loose lips sink ships
i learned from my mistake
i know i did wrong
now with every breath i take 
i hope my death wont be too long
it will never be ok
it will never be the same
i know that i will pay
and lose again at this love game
it wont be much longer
untill im struggling alone
how is it supposed to make me stronger
when my heart is made of stone
without him i would be lost
but if thats my only cost
i would wish death upon myself
and end my life and go to hell
then wed both be in pain
and only memories will remain
in peace i will never rest
leaving here is for the best
i dont wanna hurt no more
without him theres nothing to live for.

-Spencer Coggsdale   dedicated to Luis Arizpe

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Forever Adrift

Adrift and alone with you
On an endless sea.
Stuck in a boat with you
‘Cause the world lies in ruins. 
Should we be together forever
As was planned?
Or should we go on like nothing
Ever happened between us?
You took my life from me and I took yours; 
A life for a life.
And we’re both here now
So let’s make the most of it.
Why am I tormented so
By you who took me from myself?

Everything went wrong
Because you chose another.
You chose another because I didn’t satisfy you. 
Was she better?
Was she worth it when she left you in ruins?
Now your eyes are downcast and sad,
Full of anger and grief,
But there’s nothing I can do
Or will do.
‘Cause you left me to the nothing.

The endless sea consumes my thoughts
For every day, night, second, and minute.
For an hour my eyes wander to your face 
And I think, What did I ever see in you?
The answer to this is simple.
I saw a dear friend;
One that thought friendship could never be enough
And someone who could love me. 
But I was wrong
And nothing can change that 
‘Cause I won’t be broken ever again.

Broken is how you left me.
Torn, broken, collapsed, 
I wasn’t myself. 
I can never be myself 
With you around me.
You surround me in life;
You surround me in my mind.
I can’t help but dream about you,
I can’t help but think about you,
I can’t help anything about you.

Everything is wrong! 
You were supposed to be mine! 
But you’ll never see what was meant to be;
What should have happened
Because the world is lost on you.
The world is lost, 
I am lost.
I am nothing. 

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Last Kiss

My one single death wish
Is to have just one last kiss
You holding me in your arms
Keeps me away from all harm
It is when you are not there
That I feel all this fear
Building up inside
But it comes as no surprise
And I know it all the same
This is real, not a game
I am always in danger
When by my unwelcomed stranger
He comes and knocks on my door
Prepared to settle a score
Between you and i
All he wants to do is make me cry
But then I run away and turn to you
To escape from all things cruel
All you do is hold me in your arms
And I am away from all harm
But I don’t see you all the time
And soon to be said no more
I am now dying
But still not crying
Because my one single death wish
Is to have just one last kiss

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Details | Ballad | |


She is so sweet to me Her lovely lullabies are my fix An angel on earth she is With her voice she could break the lunar love She is my muse But where did she go My angelic-gothic queen A siren has fell What is left to take her place A wench from the south Such a terrible fate for her band of legends  Tristania has surely died

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Down the Road

The only thing I want to feel right now is pain
Crying as I watch my blood go down the drain 
The razor I have is as sharp as a knife 
And hopefully will take my life 
Losing nearly all of my blood
It surrounds me in a hopeless flood
Why did life have to push me this far?
What I'm doing will cause more than just a scar

The world would be better off without me 
And doing this is the one and only key
It is pain that I'm looking for 
Because I feel nothing else anymore 
When I saw him with her it begun 
I know for a fact he was the one
I still don't know why he had to cheat 
Now I go down the road instead of across the street

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I use to

He would send me flowers 
alway apologizing 
He would feed me when i was sick 
He never cared if it was contagious 
I use to laugh when he got it 
We us to go to the movies 
He would pay my way 
we would share popcorn and drink 
If i got messy he would wipe my face 
I use to act embarrased, but realy loved it 
We would fight 
I wouldnt talk to him for days 
He'd call and come by 
He alway tried to apoligize 
I use to fake as if I didn't care 
He use to wanna follow me everywhere 
He couldn't stand for me be out of reach 
He use to love me... 
He use to be alive... 
I use to care if i lived of died

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Shades of Shadows

She drifts through the visions of someone else’s life,
searching for an essence of purpose.
She wonders where the one she loves has gone.
Why does she feel so lonely, so lost and detached?
She roams in the soft twilight in this city of ornamental sepulchers, 
and pauses to inhale the scent of crumbling roses that have reached their climax.
Moss hangs from the trees like hair turned 
to mold on a humid summer night long ago.
The trees whisper to her of dreams she can’t digest.
They tell her she is part of their world now,
and grasp at her with claws of confinement.
She breaks away and moves into the deepening shadows.
There he is, standing silently with head bowed.
His gaze blurred, his heart rent with desolation. 
She moves closer to look and feels her mind unfold.
Her name etched forever on a shrine of granite.
She reaches towards him for comfort,
but her arms only circle back to clutch at herself.
The wind sighs, the night bird calls to her lover and he,
stands shivering in his coat.

Lelah Walters

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My Dearest

How could this be, how could you leave?
You can't leave me, please we all still believe.
Don't throw us away, don't let go.
It doesn't have to be this way, don't you know?
I can't see, this can't be the end.
You're the hearts key, you're our best friend.
Please just stay, just a little while longer.
The music will play, and keep us stronger.
The hardest part, is leaving you.
You'll always be in my heart, our love will never be through.
Joke after joke, we had our undending love.
My heart broke, as you were sent above.
You listen for us all, I beg you please.
Promise to hear our call, as we fall to our knees.
So many years, we've shared cries and laughter.
So many tears, proving life isn't happily ever after.
We will miss you so, but we'll never forget.
There's nothing you didn't know, with unending wit.
Through these dark times, you still see the light.
My dedicated rhymes, just for you, alright?
I feel you all around, as you let go of my hand.
As I fall to the ground, you take your stand.
Goodbye for now, we will meet again.
For you I bow, for what the love has been.
We look at this, our family photograph.
I feel your loving kiss, as I hear your laugh.
Every memory, flows through my head.
This shouldnt be, such sorrow shouldn't be fed.
All I can do is scream, I feel so helpless.
This must be a dream, for I'm powerless.
Could we save you, if we tried so hard?
Because the life is through, I'm left so scarred.
I stop breathing, for I know you're leaving.
I hope you know, we all love you.
Our tears forever show, how could we ever make it through?
Your faith in above, has shown prevail?
I gave you my love, but the omnipotence continues to fail.
Why can't the fallen, swallow their pride"
Can you hear us callin, can you hear as we cried?
All of our tears, fall like the rain.
Throughout my years, I've never felt such pain.
Someday, I promise somehow,
we'll be together one day, but not right now.
We fight together, until the very end.
We'll fight forever, on the blowing wind.
You're the very best, with love you did smother.
On my heart you rest, my dearest lover.

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This vast ocean is streching beyond my horizons

this ocean is a dark storm filled hell

My sorrowful waters contain hordes of demons

waiting to pull me down and drown me within its vast emptiness

This ocean will hide me even from my loving angel

who is seeking to free me from its violent grasp

I must survive this frozen place to be reunited with my angel

for i must protect her fragile heart from this evil place

My sorrowfull ocean is forever stretching

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What Would Life Be Like

Sometimes I wonder what would my life be like if you were still here?

Would we have gotten married or would be shedding tears?
Would we still even be together?  
God only knows but for you it doesn't matter but for me it's a story untold.

Never thought I'd find another.
Never thought I could move on, but I was wrong.
Time went by and I grew stronger.
I told myself I would not cry about you no longer.
But I was wrong there too even though I'm with him, he could never be you.

There are very few people in this world that had a love like ours.
It was hot like the sun yet refreshing like April showers.
But that's all in the past, but I still wish I knew what  my life would have been like with you.  

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a walk through my teen pregnancy

i found out the shocking news

i was only 14

but i was pregnant 

three months pregnant at that

people asked how didn't you know you were pregnant

i simply said i was showing no signs

are you scared they would ask

of course I'm scared I'm so young

four months pregnant now

i start having heavy bleeding i get scared and call my mom

she answers

i sob into my phone

mommy i think I'm losing my baby

what, when did you find out you were pregnant

i didn't want to tell you but i found out a month ago 

i go to the hospital

how far along are you

four months can you do anything to help me not lose my baby

the doctor looked at me honey your not losing your baby your just having a period while your pregnant

now five months pregnant

the baby's father and i get into a fight and break up

three weeks later im dating a new guy who wants to help me raise my baby

we are together for two weeks and he goes to florida on a trip

comes back and i find out he cheated on me

i forgive him

he broke up with me two weeks later saying he doesn't think that he can handle being a dad at 17

now six months pregnant

i am scared and alone not sure if even i can handle being a mom

its a common concern since im only 15

the baby is growing healthy

i ponder whether or not to give the baby up

now seven months pregnant

me and the baby's father are back together and engaged

we decide we will keep the baby and move in together

for once we think we have things figured out

now eight months pregnant 

i go to my weekly ultrasound

first week is fine

week two rolls around

i go and have my ultrasound

they tell me my baby is dead his umbilical cord strangled him

the admit me to the hospital

induce my labor

i give birth to a 5lb 2 oz 12inch long still born

he is the most beautiful baby i have ever seen

my boyfriend and i ask ourselves why us

we both are so young me being 15 him being 18

we both blame ourselves

fall into a deep dark depression

both decide life wasn't worth living with out Xavier

our attempt were just that attempt

how ever eight months later we are glad it didn't i am now 16 and married

we are so happy and want to try to have kids in the future

we hope and pray we won't have to goo through that every again

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Miss Me

miss me when i'm here
love me when i'm gone
throw me down on the
bed tie me up tell me
that you care make
every mountian turn
my way let angels
cry and devils play
love me with all
your heart revenge 
my death with a
sharp sword. 

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it seems unfair to me sometimes
that life has to end.
i hold you in my sight
paused in motion
refusing to forget the patterns of your face
youth only fades
yet noone wants to fathom
what age portrays
watching you now, at age 22,
your ceaseless movements
both delicate and benign,
you are locked in with a click like a mechanism
implanted within my shaking mind.
anchored in my thoughts
afraid i may lose sight,
dreading what is inevitably to come,
our ancient human rite.
what is it we have really
but phases full of longing,
short lifetimes of solitude,
then subsequent terms of bliss
it seems strange to say that i am not sorry 
for little secret moments such as this.
i will not apologize
for having lived and hoping to live long
nor argue choice or afterlives
or hear you claim im wrong.
it seems we believe in nothing more
than dirt and cold and brine
i believe in the simple glory of your hands 
large and gregarious inside my small ones, 
eternity proven,

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Bloody Fingers

a tilted portrait on my wall

a crooked picture

about to fall

you've see one

you've seen them all

broken glass upon my floor

bloody fingers

bloody sore

a loud bang

banging at my door

Who goes there, I scream out

No answer

So I begin to shout


What is all this crying about

The door swung open I do recall

there from my picture

once upon my wall

is her

coming to call

First, a warm embrace

Wrapped in leather

and then in lace

a beautiful smile

upon her face

But her smile soon did fall

like a crooked picture

once upon my wall

you've seen one

you've seen them all

Let it go, let her fall

Broken glass

a bloody scrawl

as bloody fingers

trail down 

the bedroom hall

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Black As Night

Darkness engulfs the light, as she falls away.
Heart black as night, burning through the day.
Are you so sure, she is the one?
I loved her, yet now the feelings done.
I give to you, the love of roses.
She made it through, despite your victorious poses.
Am I so pathetic, am I so weak?
Yet you make me sick, until I cannot speak.
The golden shine, shown through her eyes.
She was mine, until I heard your cries.
As I try to scream, I realize help won't show.
The horrors you dream, yell for me to go.
I lay down, and pray before your feet.
In her tears I drown, for I am beat.
Fear takes hold, as you awake.
Breath grows cold, as I watch her break.
Is there an end, for I cannot see.
She was my only friend, yet you loved me.
I watch her blood, as it continues to flow.
Destroyed in the flood, who has to know?
Remembering brings to me, the hurtful lies.
We can make the calamity, we fight the cries.
I need you, were the last words I wrote.
What can I do, for your heart I tote.
If I don't hear, from you my love,
do not fear, for I've reached above.
Her words strike, as though the love has lied.
Our tales are alike, for both have died.
You're everything, you're everything to me.
Though angels sing, our love cannot be.
I've heard her lie, and I've heard you cry.
I lose myelf in anguish, for you will die.
She got herr wish, as I say my lasy goodbye.

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He fought and fought,
Died and she began to cry.
Everynight, she would see him in her dreams,
As a ghost, along a beautiful coast...
Saying "It always seems like you're here..."
"But you've disappeared."
In the nightlight,
He shined bright with all his might,
Just to give her one last kiss goodnight,
"Good-bye, my love...",
Flying high into the clouds...
And whispering through the dark skies.

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In this dream...

Scream -- the figment of a dream, but so much more
Confusion rakes my brain, closes each door
Right from the start, he has meandered through my visions
Empty and cold, I find him making my decisions
Adding painful secrets that stain my real life...and there's
Much more to come...with the force of a knife...

In this dream of reality...

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The little droplets that fall from your eyes as you cry. 

Cry over the lover you lost. 

He was your one and only and now he's your nothing. 

The memory filled streams falling down your face like a waterfall mixed with salt. 

As you cry and cry you begin to see how happy he'll be without you. 

So you cry some more. 

The little droplets filled with the memories of your first kiss. 

The first time you met. 

Your first kid. 

Countess laugher love and happiness. 

Those memories flow away never returning as you watch your love. 

Not hurt. 

Not crying. 

Not caring. 

Just walk away. 

Will his tears ever fall?

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burised and scared

" No Rayn! Please don't touch me!"
     "Stop Rayn! Stop touching me!"
" Rayn let go of my arm...Please your hurting me"
    " Why are you doing this to me?"
"What because you love me! If you loved me you wouldn't treat me like this"
      "oh my gosh...please...just...quit...hitting me!"
"please just listen to me!"
              "I can't take this any more!"
 "please don't push me!"
                " OWW... I got a peice of glass stuck in my back...please help me."
  " Why don't you just take the gun and kill me.."
           "what because you need me... If you needed me then u would love and take care of 
"Do it just do it you fool"
      "come on pull the trigger... pull it!"
 "ayah, god what have I done?"
 " No god No!"

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Fire and Dreams Don't Mix

5 am at your front door, past out from the night before,
Do you find me disrespectful?
What a shame it wasn't your place, I'm such a disgrace,
How could I be so forgetful?
I do remember 4 am when the fire still had an ember,
It was then I saw your cute face,
But it seems that it was just a dream,
As I ended up in a fiery brace.

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nature's lessons

So beautiful,  so graceful, so lovely.
White flurries float from the dark sky.
Black roads coated by a sea of sparkling white.

As quickly as the snow falls,
Frozen death awaits those naive and unprotected. 
Danger awaits those who take the white roads for granted behind the wheel.

His beauty shines and reels you in.
His sweet words lure you in closer.
You walk to him, mesmerized,  open and exposed.

As quickly as you fell for his charm,
Your heart rips to shreds and you wonder why.
You blame the boy you fell in love with.

There's no point in getting angry at the snow.
Disguised danger will still roam and you can still break.

Learn to protect yourself.
Slow your pace and take your time

Everything can hurt you.
Dont let it.

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I loved you. You were creeped out. I loved you. You were all I thought about. Dreams bring misery, To this little life. I will use trickery. I don't go down without a fight. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. Foreign language brings nightmares, Because I would curse you, And you would figure out later, That I once loved you. Teardrops cover my doorstep. Remember how much you ment, I gave you my heart you kept. And you left me there when I wept. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You left me there, In the pouring rain. Bleeding without care, My feelings were drained. I left... I left... I left... The past behind. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You're not Mr. Man anymore. I took back my control. How does it feel being cold, To lose it???

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Irony's Funeral

Bitter irony
Is biting me
Robbing me
Leaving me
Like an aging
Willow tree
Whose beauty 
Has faded
Never retrieving
The vitality that
It once knew
But, from a distance
You can still catch a 
Glimpse of the remnants
Of it's former sparkle
That will always remain

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Real Love

Thank you God for this wonderful man
I am ready to take him and hold his hand
Til death do we part and I'll never stray
Loving him more each and everyday
My love for him comes straight from the heart
Cupid shot his arrow and hit me with his dart
The love will never fade away from me 
In your arms is where I want to be
Thank you God for this wonderful man
Who holds the key to my happiness in his hand
I trust him with it because You sent him in love
into my life; my loving angel from above
My knight in shinning armour so tall and proud
I'll exclaim to all "I love him" out loud
To be his wife and only queen 
will be the completion of my nightly dream
To have and to hold til death us do part
are real and true feelings straight from my heart
I love you and this is no dream
It's as real as can be just like it seems.

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pacific ocean

i wish i could swim the pacific ocean and back. 

and when i came back to sit in front of a burning burning fire

until it dried me to the bone.

and for my skeleton to be hung above your bed

to act as a catcher of your night terrors

and it would work

because you would know that i was magical.

because i swam the whole pacific ocean and back. 

for you.

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How Long

How long will you love me jacob
How long will you stay,
How long wil your arms embrace me,
Please love me night and day.

How long am I punished mother
How long is this war,
How long must I suffer mother,
Why must you leave scars.

How long must we fake it Dana,
How long must we cry,
How long must we lose the past,
Why do we claim we try.

How long must I rot Aunt Kelly,
How long must I decay,
How long must I hurt alone,
Please take me far away.

How long are we tortured Jacob
How much must we give,
How long must we ignore our pain,
How long will we live.

Details | Free verse | |

I Cannot Sing For Hm

I cannot sing for him, not now,
when my eyes are sore from crying,
when my throat is raw from asking why.

I cannot sing for him,
when my heart is torn in two,
when my smiles are completely fake.

I cannot sing for him,
when I can't think of a song to sing,
when my voice is stuck in my throat.

But I will sing for him, when I know he'd want to hear me,
when my eyes are dry,
when my heart is healed,
when my smile is real,
when my mind is sharp,
when my voice is clear and strong. 

Then, I will sing for him.

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mera vajud tujh se hai mere yaar
jab tu hi nhi , to main bhi nhi
tu hi mera sabkuchh hai mere yaar
kaise rahe tere bina mere yaar
kaise bhul jaye hum, aap ko mere yaar
tu hi meri sase , tu hi meri dhadkan
kaise maan le tujhe mra hua mere yaar
jab tu hi nhi to , main bhi nhi
mera wajud tujh se hai mere yaar

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Love Lost At Sea

So many things that seem to hide,
Are washed away like a sparkling tide,
Lost forever out at sea,
How reflective this is of me.

Storm tossed waves of memories,
Frothy thoughts of what could have been,
Fears of drowning in this rush,
Around my head memories are lush.

I hope to see my savoir soon,
Shining at me like the moon,
So beautiful his light shines bright,
I know in second that this is right.

At last he came to rescue me,
A storm tossed damsel lost at sea,
He takes me to his paradise,
To live together till our demise.

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It's dark

               and it's scary.

I'm still alive and breathing,

                                                 but just barely.


You're sitting by my bed

                                          thinking your dreaming.

You sit there and pray

                                       that I awake from sleeping.


You start to cry

                          about the scary thought.

That I might not wake up

                                            and you think it's your fault.


I want to wake

                         and tell the truth.

But I can't because the darkness is calm

                                                                          and to smooth.


I've got to wake,

                            I've got to tell.

It wasn't your fault

                                and I'm putting you through hell.


I was hurt

                 and wanted to die.

I know you didn't mean it,

                                             I know what you said was a lie.


We had a fight,

                          a huge war.

The war in which

                              I walked out the door.


I want to come back,

                                     imurge from the darkness.

And give you my heart back

                                                 and complete forgiveness.


I finally awake

                         and see you there.

You start to cry

                          and kiss my hair.


I tell you I love you

                                and I don't want to lose you.

You pull me close

                                and tell me you love me too.


I start to cry

                   and cover my head.

With the shirt on your body

                                               while you sit on my bed.


My chest hurts,

                         my chest aches.

Probably from the bullet I used

                                                       or the life I tried to take.


I love you so much

                                 so I have to say.

Mend my heart again

                                     and I will stay...

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You Words

Gracious scars fade away
Thickness of love trailing
Speechless moments rewind
My arms shake of fear
Soon as your soul appeared
Dropping the sharp thing
Tears bomb my cheeks
As you held me
Lifting my face towards your eyes
This can’t be
Unexpected surprise
Heart races fast as time
Remembering the day you died
Hard to believe
You’re standing here in front of me
Holding my heart in your palms
Our love seems to be strong
Causing breaks with blades
Leads nowhere
Holding me tight
Kissing my lips deeply
Softly saying “Stop this foolishness
Babe, you’re better than this
Don’t throw away your passion
Don’t kill your dream
Keep it all
All for me”

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What I Fear

Sweet darkness, swallows the light.
We fight, but we cannot succumb.
Frightening words, lead to sorrow.
Lie in the comfort, of sweet calamity.
I now have nothing left to lose.
Goodbye, until we meet again.
Heaven where is my angel,
where has she gone?
Take my hand, and help me survive here.
Trapped, I cannot be freed.
Your sweet voice, is what I need.
Goodbye my friend,
Goodbye my love.
I cannot stay here.
Leaving you is what I fear,
but the heartache takes me away.

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You Feelin' Me?

I'm not critically aclaimed,
I ain't got no money to my name,
I'm having ot hang my head in shame,
there ain't nothin' good about me,
I'll just have to wait for you to see.

I'm going to let you go,
and if you come back, we'll take it slow.
Look into my eyes,
and dang boy, please don't lie,
ah, come on, don' be shy,
tell me how you feel,
and be real.


I'm gonna beat you in the head with a giant hammer,
gonna cause a clamor,
I'm gonna drag your body to a hotel,
gonna crack you worse then the liberty bell.

You feelin' me?

I'm gonna stab you in the heart with a lit cigarette,
feel no regret,
I'm gonna scream at you,
and if you run I'll pursue.

You feelin' me?

Oh no, I don't think you see,
nobody lies to me,
I don't think you feelin' me,
I guess I wasn't meant to be on your family tree.

You feelin' me?

What do I have to do to knock some sense into you?
I'll give pain where pain is due,
I'll shoot you in the head with a water gun,
then I'll suffocate you with a hamburger bun,
I'll drown the eyewitness,
then practice physical fitness,
I'll chase you down when you run,
then I'll shoot you with a real gun,
I'll shoot you in the head,
bang, you're dead.

You feelin' me yet?

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Heartbreak Envy

Your relationship is through
Don't ever want to see him
Your heart is broken in a million pieces
The light on your world has gone dim

The funny part about your situation
I envy what you're going through
With what I went through with my first love
I'll never have the decisions you do. 

You can start it all over
But this time be no more than friends
You can choose to call him tomorrow
Or make the choice to never see him again. 

I don't have the choice to see him
Not until my days on Earth here are done
His love, his touch, his voice, his kiss
Are all stored in memories of our laughter and our fun. 

I never really got my ending
I'll never know if we'd break up, or if it'd last.
I'll never have that closure you received
I'll never be able to willingly put him in my past. 

So as you cry and mope around, 
My sympathy will still be with you.
However the closure you received with him,
To get that with my first love, there isn't anything I wouldn't do. 

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One Voice

One minute we're fine,
The next, we're done.
One minute you're mine,
The next, you're gone.

First it was just us two,
Just you and me;
Then there was someone new,
And two becomes three.

Mistakes are made,
And time won't go back.
We're forced to face
The reality of our act.

One became two,
Then two became three.
Three became two,
And two became me.

I'm all that's left,
Because I make a choice.
The love I had left,
Because I silenced a voice.

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An Early Morning Summons

On a cloudless morning
I awoke to the incessant pounding on my door.
A firm voice on the other side.
A stranger calling my name.
He repeats his call.
Looking out, I see his stripes,
Boots shining brightly,
crisply pressed uniform.
Dread fills my soul
with trembling fingers
I unlock the door.
He asks for me by name.
I confirm.
With tears in his eyes
He tells me the worst.
Of how sorry he is to inform.
Of how I should be proud.
How our country has lost another
proud soldier in this fight.
I say thank you, tears fill my eyes
and I wonder how
I will tell her wife
that has no rights.

Details | Lyric | |

The Death of Doubt

The Death of all doubt,
Now slain by your words,
Stained with your ink,
Like blood on woodwork,

Downward I spiraled,
Day after day,
Into an abyss,
Losing my way,

Vain efforts and pain.
Pain to heavy to hold,
Crying; an escape,
On nights alone and cold,

Sold on depression,
As my only friend,
Torturing my mind,
Until it all ends.

Then I found you,
My light in the dark,
Killer of melancholy,
A fire from a spark,

Apart yet burning,
Strong enough to fight,
Nothing can extinguish,
Our flame shall remain bright,

How right this all is,
To not question trust,
Simple and perfect,
... I love you so much.

The Death of all doubt,
Now slain by your words,
Stained with your ink,
Like blood on woodwork.

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One starry skied night, I lay in the grass
Reflecting on relationships, people of years past
And then I see her: walking down heaven's steps
The memories rushed back, as if she never left
My eyes tear up, and I tell her "I miss you"
Her smile illuminated the night, and replied "I miss you too"
I asked "Do you hate me for how things ended?"
She answered, "We're all human: maybe thats what God intended"
I explained that I regret all my mistakes
She chuckled as a tear trickled down her face
She told me "I've never been more proud of you
I sometimes wish I could leave heaven for you"
I held her hand and looked into her angelic eyes
I had to ask, "Did you think I was different from other guys?"
She said "With you, there were no other guys
You were, and always will be, my everything
Although I know, you'll probably call some other lucky girl your everything
I came see you to let you know I love you"
I replied "I love you too"
This moment couldn't be true
I said, "Could you stay with me forever?"
She replied, "No, but you could talk to me whenever
Heaven's not too far away
I promise you'll be okay
Not only is God watching, I'm watching you too
Just know your in my heart whatever you do"
The stairway to heaven appeared, she said "I have to go"
I beckoned for her to stay, but I had to let her go
Before she departed, she gave me a kiss
I cried, but I smiled; I needed this
I watched her take step by step
I could feel her leaving; breath by breath
My soul then came to terms with her time limit
She'll always be mine; body and spirit.

In case you're wondering, the "she" i'm referring to is my ex-girlfriend Jonera Auriel
Raymond, who was killed (along with her brother) by a drunk driver on March 20, 2008.

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Memories are things that will never cost, 

they cannot be stolen, broken or lost.

Keep hold of the good and learn from the bad,

try to be hopeful and never be sad.

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Hatred flows through my veins
I try to just hide the pain
You changed my way of life
I feel like I've been stabbed with a knife
I wish you could just go your separate way
You played my heart like it was clay
You don't seem to care
The pain I feel everywhere

You ask for forgiveness
You ask for another chance

You ask if we can be friends
Let this all be clensed
How could this have come to be
Everything between you and me
Its come to an end
Nothing could ever mend

What you did the other day
When all you had to do was say
I'm sorry Jarrod but its over
She doesn't realize, she was my controller :/

P.S. I'm sorry guys I'm going through rough times as these poems have said and I've been having family problems, from today on expect one poem a day and maybe 2 if I miss a day.

Details | Free verse | |


The women stood in front of the table 
Her sad hands
With nothing
she looked at her daughter
smiles and laughter
i wish her the best
nothing less
the sun shines on your golden hair
i love you, dear
Dont get hurt
promise me you wont
take my hand
one last time
forever more
say that you must
just promise me you will dream
when i fade to grey
you are getting older 
you have a life
children of your own
you start to cry
clutch to my hand
ill never leave
im always here

Details | Classicism | |

Our Memories Could Never Be Erased

Everyday I listen to songs that remind me of you,
 I miss you so much I feel lost I dont even know what to do,
 This is the hardest thing I ever had to go threw.
I would give anything just to have you back,
 But I know thats not gonna ever happen so I dont know how to act.
Now your miles & miles away,
 If I had one wish it would be for you to stay. 
I just hope your happy and okay.
Since I cant tell you I love you to your face
 I'm writing you this poem to let you know our memories noone can erase
 and in my life noone will ever take your place.

Details | Free verse | |

Fireplace Memories

I want to see you burn
in the fireplace
where we kept warm.

Entranced by the flames,
and the charred wood,
with a slight hint of blue.

Reminds me of your eyes.

I want to see you there
in place of the wood,
your skin melting
up and down your arms
and your legs
resembling the bark,
rough and black.

I can imagine your distorted face
with your eyes widely opened
into tunnels of spinning waves

your mouth twisted
into a cave
of screeching bats.

Sounds like music.

I want to see
every shred
of your clothes burn
while you squirm
in the light
of my revenge.

Your eyes blue
as the flames,
your skin rough
as the bark.

It makes me smile.

I open my eyes
to see you lying next to me,
half asleep.

I find myself disappointed
as I slowly wake up
and realize you breathing,
alive again.

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The Lady with the look of serenity fell asleep towards noon
dreaming of her love by a very beautiful mimosa tree
that seemed to hold the  transparent, patchy moon
into its branches gleaming with dew as they waved softly. 

Over the dark and eerie forest clouds rose thicker than smoke,
only a sparrowhawk would come down and curiously look
and see her laying there face-up as if she were dead...
he wondered why such a stunning beauty seemed sad.

The spirit of dawn stood over her body as a stately sentinel
thinking she was dreaming, but didn't hear her heartbeat,
and patiently waited for her to wake up and wish her well;
he never realized she was a corpse with the coldest feet.  

The lady with the look of serenity wasn't another sleeping beauty,
she took a vile of poison and waited to die on the prettiest meadow,
refusing to remember that unfaithful lover who made her sad and weary;
why did she choose death...instead of living as free as any sparrow?

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I'll Wait Endlessly

She softly asked, "Do you know what happened?
In his love I basked, he'll forever defend."
He shooke his head, and wiped his eyes.
"Though he's now dead, I still hear his cries."
I stare ahead, thinking them all lies.
Am I dreaming in bed, or do I accept the goodbyes?
Why can't I wake, as they wipe the tears?
I watch her heart break, as she nears.
"I cannot believe this," she said breathlessly.
"Just one last kiss, before you leave me."
Reaching toward her, she's not tangible.
I was so sure, she was my angel.
"Open your eyes my love," she cried to me.
"Please don't rise above, I'll wait endlessly."
Flowers laid down, upon my grave.
In her tears she'll drown, couldn't anyone save?
"How could you leave, I need you around."
How could I believe, she was talking to the ground.
I cannot breathe, cannot make a sound.
"Was your heart on your sleeve, for you're nowhere to be found?"
Wake me up, I don't wish to sleep.
To death I'll bow, so she'll not weep.
"Take my hand, and come back please!"
She cannot stand, as she fell to her knees.
Hearing goodbye, leaves me so weak.
I'm left to cry, for I cannot speak.
"How could you, do this to me?
Our love was true, couldnt you see?
Why couldn't I stay, just a little longer?
Could I even say, the bond will get stronger?
"I never thought this, was the way it would end.
I'll send you a kiss, my best friend."
She the love I'll miss, for my heart needs to mend.

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I’ve been wondering of death
If dying was an act of giving up
And losing faith
In life itself
Of feeling soulless
And cut
Would it be easier to be nothing
I have no regrets but one
And it holds to my back
A tree to the ground

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With blackened palms I rise from the ashes as the last one standing.

The only one left on this forsaken planet who understands what its like to live in the arms of the one I love.


With bleeding hands I pry you away from  the demons of the world.

All the things on this earth than can harm you.


With bloodshot eyes, I look into yours as I collapse into your lap.

I fought so hard to have you and I grow weary from the battle.


With blood drenched ears which have heard the lies of the world, I listen to the sound of your voice.

I hear your words and I smile.


As my heart is torn from my chest, I realize I still stand, fighting the war for you.

Bleeding from head to toe, I wage war against all who will hurt you.


I stare into your eyes as my heart fails to beat just one last time.


With tired feet, I stand. And with blooded arms, I wrap myself around you.

As I walk away, all my wounds are healed.


As the last man standing, you give me your heart.

You wash my hands and you let me rest on you.


When I wake from my slumber, you're still by my side.

Fighting a battle for me.


I wake and I rise, and I pick up my sword.

Fighting for us side by side

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                                      Cindy was very unique
                                    Very easy to get along with
                                    and critique even though she
                                    was not fuzzy

                                      I never knew a girl like her 
                                   even with out fur although 
                                   I never really heard her purr
                                  but used to think I might

                                  She was the kind of girl that
                                every man who does not wear
                                a hat dreams of- too bad
                                she was poltroon but I loved her
                                any way- very nice easy girl she
                                was despite the lack of buzz, sweet
                                little Cindy so sorry she is gone.

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A wall of bricks between us
Almost Impossible to take apart
every time we try,it breaks both our hearts
Even though we are meant to be
The whole world always disagrees

We could never love another
Like we love each other
But no one now can take the blame
The feelings will still be the same
Fight after fight
You can never be my knight

All the hurt you put me through
Yet still our love is always true
Love just may truly be blind
And has been before our time
Just close our eyes and pretend
That this moment will never end
Is there anything else left to mend
We were meant to be more then friends
It is funny how things can change in time
And how you will never be again be mine
So maybe if we were in another life
I wouldn't have to use this knife

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As quick as a blade landing it's fatal blow,
Is this pain consuming my heart. 
This image of a dagger pressed firmly between my breast, 
Leaves my body rendered helpless to the man holding it. 
With one swift movement my heart is splintered in two. 
Shock on my face with red hot tears from my emerald eyes... 
Blood pours from my chest,
Fast then slow,
Slinking down my stomach, 
Then my legs and finally my feet.
A jolt!  
The blade removed, along with the man holding it..
Between my toes I flick the blood back and forth...
Shock setting me in my place,
As though to wait for that pivotal moment when all life and love is lost.. 
I see a figment of myself standing there with wings bright as the sun.. 
With a flash the image is torn and bloody and battered.. 
I have relinquished my last angelic breath. 
Yet the void is not slow to be filled.
No stranger to this lose of purity, it relishes in its consumption and quickly 
Fills my lungs once again...  
Not with love but with a cold not known to any living man or beast.. 
I feel it slinking, 
Creeping through my vain, 
Tainting my very soul. ..

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            VAMPYRE WEDDING                               
I make you mine tonight, to have and hold,         
   to lie forever in this love I feel,                         
I bring an end to ever growing old,                         
   and close your eyes, to all that is not real.               
I give you love, that others never know!        
   The joy of life found only in its end!                     
And dressed in love, we go, as we must go,                  
   into the dark! The night! The only friend!                  
I give you death! Then take you ev'rywhere!                
   To know all things; and answer to no-one!               
To have it all! To do as you would dare!
    within the dark, where life has surely gone!                
        I make you mine! I sink my teeth into          
        your waiting flesh, and drink the love of you!

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Tears Must Flow

Sometimes, I wonder Why Tears Must Flow into Darkness : into "Death"
Or Father's Eyes of LOVE when he gives His "little girl" away to : LOVE
I roll on the contours of Every Emotion that Lives in each passing "Breath" 
We Slide into the Glory of Everlasting Life, we are TEARS from " GOD Above "

                    With All MY LOVE FOREVER...HG ( Harry )

                                           To be Continued

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Marie II-- Troubled Tides

Wake up with a dream on your eyes left with the hearts that bid you Goodbye Shadow Dreamer-- Poisoned Lover Venom seeps through the Way The Way you held on to Me There's a Thorn in your Heart I left it there so the dreams and your pain shall unfold Inside you and all of your Lithium Lovers You're my lover, My Dear The Greatest Enemy I had to Contend pretending with "I Love You" but I know you Hate me till Hell's End Is it in Vain? You Sleep with the hate How can you dodge the fate? You let the Dagger dance on your Tongue You are my beloved Enemy Marie

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Her First Homicide- part two

I tried to stand by my only love, I tried to understand until
The morning I stumbled in to find another woman beneath your covers.
It was the day I couldn’t believe my ignorance because I now saw
That when I threw drugs into you, you were just like my mother.

I told you that and your face paled at the ice in my words.
I turned away as you stood up, proving to me what you’d done.
At that moment I was so torn apart, and angry
Livid that I could have been so stupid to think you weren’t like everyone.

I left you naked and pleading. I refused to answer any of your calls
I tried to pick up the pieces of the girl you left broken.
I tried to pretend you were gone till I heard your voice on the machine
It had been weeks since we had spoken.

I’ll always hear your voice in my nightmares, begging me
Soft at first, then screaming, asking why I won’t take your call.
I listened to four messages, before you said you were ending your life
And I heard you smash the telephone against the wall.

I called you but I kept getting busy signals, so I left my house.
I ran all the way to your building, and slowed as I approached your open door.
I pushed it the rest of the way open to see you lying on your stomach
When I ran to you, I saw the needle on the floor.

When I rolled you over, your blue green eyes were lifeless.
I clung to you, screaming, Asking God is their any end to my pain?
I’ve never known sorrow that could compare with holding you Corey.
If it was okay for people like me to poison everything, hell and earth are the same.

I closed his eyelids with my fingertips, and gently kissed his cheek.
This would be the first man that I murdered with my disease.
I arranged his beautiful hair around him, I hadn’t noticed I was still screaming
Until I looked up to find my self surrounded my police.

They tore me off him, he was swarmed with paramedics.
They questioned my presence, all I could whisper was suicide.
His family was there now, his sisters and mother.
When they asked me why I was there, for them I lied.

I have to live with the guilt, of it being my fault forever.
You’re still some of my best and worst dreams.
I gave you my innocense, my heart, and part of my soul
The biggest part of me died with you when I was thirteen.

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once longing love

This time your eyes don't seem to bare the familiar strength
you been staying away from me you've gone to every length
i did every thing i could to lend a helping hand
now your broken and its hard to under stand
this was no ones plan love makes harsh demands

even though i can see your heart is truly broke
when i tried to hold you i was just a joke
now things are changed nothing like before
i have become something so much more
a ache still nags deep within my core a life left in ashes spread upon the floor

i wonder where you ll go who you ll see
i wonder if the only thing you think about is me
the empty hole of things left unsaid
a wall of noise stands strong in my head
some how this feel like I'm dead but I'm watching in you go instead

how many times could i try to be the one you needed but i know it was the ego i feed ed
a callous soul without any notion of truth hope or devotion
farewell my once longing love

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Afraid to write, For ending

I don’t want to write any poetry,
I really, really, don’t.
I’m afraid with what I might come up with,
I’m afraid of what I won’t.
I’ve lost most care for laughing,
Most hope and love, must change…
But I’m dying and dying deep inside,
And I yearn for that to change —
To end would be a bless,
Bestowed on only me.
And a cure to all the others,
Who say they lov’est me.

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Related Tears

Born in a Dream of Mankind, We flow in a river of Sorrow
We do not Fear Death; we have lived yesterday, today, Tomorrow
The Future, we see  passing by , Stopping  to smell the “Floral” 
Yet; we survived  after drowning, in a Caribbean Sea of : “ Coral “

          With LOVE for ALL : YOUR Liege…HG ( Harry )

                           To Be Continued

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Surprising Love

You see her sit there
lonely as she could ever be
sad and alone there
while crying gental tears 
when she looks at you she wipes thoughs tears smiles and waves

You look at the sand and then the water that 
crashes at your feet
surprisingly you see her walk to you.
while you thought what to say
you fell in love while just the glimps of eye to eye
is all they needed

You too can't believe the fun you guys
spent with each other every day
the love you shared
the faith between you guys
the gracefulness and hope

He told her he needs to go back to the army in a day
but when he leaves 
years past by and the love of his dreams died
from to much worry

"Oh, i wish i was beside your side" he cried 
over and over but couldn't change anything
"Come back" he cried louder.

Then in a coupe of days the man goes back to war
while he fought in battle as strong as possible
he gets shot in the back and in the heart
But the last words he said were

    " Im comin' home honey."

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His end

he drives so fast as he watches the roads go
leaving the town while time seems to slow
his minds not there but the faces still lurk
hurting deep down, going berserk 
he hears their words ringing in his ears
no longer near them yet they are here
his best friend, they've been through it all
through all the highs even in the falls
but he betrayed him and that is what hurt.

She was ex, but only for two days
they ended it and went separated ways
few days later and he see's her again
this is where he finds out she was with his best friend
it made him angry and wanted to fight
but it was too late his body in flight
"I don't want to see you, never again"
he was his best friend but this was the end
so he took off leaving there sorry words behind

He went home but he was too angry to stay
he didn't understand why his life turned out this way
so he made a mistake and stole his sister car
trying to get away, trying to go far
off to his aunts in the middle of the night
with little petrol and little light
he was in the car moving way too fast
his life was ending minutes did they last
an animal darted into the road out of the curve
he saw it too late, the car started to swerve  

Off the road and into the a tree
his life ended, breaking you and me
the car shattered and so did his heart
tearing his arteries and lungs apart
he died in seconds is what they said
while we were asleep all tucked up in bed
The priest he said some wonderful words
but his family and friends, they never heard
to wrapped in grief to even agree
everyone there, even me.
I am his sister and this was his story

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Cold Forgiveness

I want to say I’m sorry,
I’m sick of sitting here crying,
Going over mistakes and wondering what I did,
I’m sorry,
Okay I said it,
Maybe now I can get some peace,
Crying isn’t what it’s cracked up to be,
So please say you forgive me,
Put me at peace,
You don’t know what I’ve been through,
The tears the pain,
The regret,
It tortures me,
Please forgive me,
For whatever I did,
I’m sorry, Okay?
Will you wake up and listen to me?!
God, your so cold,
Why won’t you just please open your eyes,
Love, you there?
Wake up, 

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Inlove With Her And Novacaine

Never knew love the way I know it now
Never will I know even when I ask how
She left and that was all
I'm trying desperately to climb outside this wall
I grip the roses stem and blood drips down my wrist
I drop to the floor, put my hands on my forehead while in a fist
We shared an oath from our lips to Gods ears
I placed myself in front of her knife to the heart to quench her fears
It killed me to love and lose
I'm losing sleep so I smash my clock back to snooze
I can't believe I thought she was the one to save me
It turns out she was the one to enslave me
My trust ran deep like blood coursing through her vein
I need to numb the bitter taste so I use novacaine
The thought of her is making my heart race
My walls are gone and now I have too much space
I think my loss is starting to hit me
I can't breathe at the thought that she will forget me
I fall from my knees with my face sideways on the floor
I grip the rose tighter & tell myself I don't want to love evermore
I'm fighting the truth and reality at this time
I'm in too deep, I'm too weak to climb
I feel a cold running through my veins followed by a last chill
My eyes are awake yet my body lie still
The lights are dimming and my life is flashing in spurts
I guess this is what it means when they say love hurts...

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Last Caress

I fight with closed eyes, for your undying love.
Under my blade demons die, the legacy heroes dream of.
I'll climb the highest point, and slay the fiercest foe.
Our dearest hearts now joint, for all to know.
I'll make all of your dreams, come magically true.
I'll fight 'til the end it seems, all for you.
Bloodied blade in hand, waiting to strike.
Horror across the land, death comes to all alike.
I close my eyes, and think of you my princess.
These battle cries, make me crave for your caress.
Your soft skin, brings back memories.
Enemies paper thin, fall to their knees.
When I get back, we'll dance under the stars.
Waiting for the attack, feeling the haunting scars.
Blood stains, such a murderous filigree.
Bloodied guts and brains, pour and sicken me.
I'll kiss you so, and the night will never end.
I'll never go, my beloved friend.
Life is meaningless, without you.
My love I'll confess, all said is true.
I've slayed so many things, and prevailed against all hell.
To hear my angel as she sings, is a tale worthy to tell.
As I take my charge, I feel your ghostly kiss.
Our love so large, your love I'll forever miss.
There's no guarantee, I'll get out alive.
I remember how you loved me, and how we'll forever thrive.
So I stand right here, and I'll never run.
Through my blood and your tear, I'll fight 'til I'm done.
I'll get through, I'll never fail.
As long as I hear you, sing how our love will prevail.
I take this breath, it's been my last.
I accept this death, as I recall our past.
I'll sing and dance with you my princess, just to feel your last caress.

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Schoolboy Dreams

Matthew had a secret he could never tell

Yes Matthew had a secret, he hid it very well

His heart was dark and his mind was filled with burning clay

All the other children’s parents said with Matthew do not play

His first victim was a pretty girl named Mary Sue

He took her out beyond the barn, promising a very special view

He hit her once, twice, she fell and began to bleed, a very awful sight

Matthew knew that his power, rage and anger would be his might

He buried her after tasting her blood, a flavour unlike any other

The next day coming home from school, he did the same thing to her brother

He buried him deep beside his sister, still in her blouse and skirt

Who’ll be next, Matthew thought, brushing his hands clean of the dirt

His heart was hurt by the one named Jill, who never knew his name

But he was sure once he got her home, she’d be glad she came

His hunger grew and the bodies collected as he played his twisted game

She came over one afternoon, his goal accomplished; now she’d never forget 
his name

Out to the barn the two of them walked in the pale midday sun

Jill, he said, I have something to show you, I hope you find it fun

He pulled open the doors and watched as her face contorted with the shock of 
the horrible scene

I did it all for you, he explained, to most of them I wasn’t even mean

Suddenly, the morning alarm sounded, waking young Matthew from his tortured 

Now today, he whispered, let’s see if Jill thinks I’m still a creep

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the sidewalks turn into rivers
soaking shoes that smack the concrete bottom.
rosy-cheeked and bleary-eyed
you stumble next to me, 
but my steps are meticulous, 
avoiding the writhing worms-
pinkish but corpse-gray on their deathbeds-
a public drowning.
I would stop and carry them to land, 
but you would make an ugly face
and say cruel boy things.
so i sacrifice their lives
for another moment of peace.

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I Don't Know Why

I don't know why
When I sleep
I feel you near me
Holding on

I don't know why
When I cry
I feel your touch
Caressing on

I don’t know why
When I talk
I find your coy smile
Lingering on

I don’t know why
When I am in a crowd
I still feel your gaze
Piercing on

I don’t know why…

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wasn't meant to be

through my heart,
you drag your claws,
you seemed so perfect,
even your flaws,

is it just me?
i can not tell,
is this heaven?
is it hell?

do i alone,
feel this way?
left to cry
day by day

could you feel
my pulse end
you left because
i wouldn't bend

eyes so cold 
heart so still
i give up
do what you will

as if my love
could keep you here,
you go and do
what i fear

could it be me
reading wrong
what i feel
oh so strong

from you
head to toe
telling me
to let you go?

i wrote this with a freind who was down..glitter to all

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Her First Homicide- part one

As I bounded down the stairs, I caught you watching me.
With blue green eyes, it was the first time I saw you.
My mother introduced you as her gay friend from work.
She said you could be converted, I wondered why she’d want to.

You were only a twenty three year old waiter
With mahogany waves of hair draped down your chest.
You became a regular at my house, drinking in my living room.
So the day you showed up hours early was just like the rest.

I sat down beside you as you poured a drink and handed it to me.
This was the beginning us, soon you were coming over every day.
You let me inside you and told me everything, It made me have to ask
How if you had never been with a woman, could you know you’re gay?

I’d caught you speechless, a rare thing for you
You couldn’t come up with any good reasons
Just that it was the first thing you experienced and you liked it
You’d only had sex with men. I had only willingly slept with woman.

One night, on the couch in your apartment
You leaned down to kiss my lips.
Everything after became a blur
Your body brail beneath my fingertips.

We gave ourselves to each other that night
For the first time, sex felt safe to me.
The beginning of you and I together
Another secret we both had to keep.

I wanted to experience everything new with you
And do everything I had done already, with you there.
I felt certain that your presence could make anything better.
The world could have been falling down outside, I didn’t care.

It was my own fault for seeing you stronger than the others.
There are some things I never should have introduced you to.
But I was so eager to run away form the pain in my life.
So before I took my hit, I emptied the syringe into you.

So began another lesson, I wish I had already learned.
Unlike me, you refused to come back from your escape.
And the more I would try to talk you back to the world
The more and more you would take.

to be continued....

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You Are My Curse

I had to let it all go,
The day and night,
Their hours ran too slow.
It was more than just a fight.
I trusted you and knew you,
My love succumbed to the worst,
Faith and loyalty just wouldn’t do.
You became my curse.
I was pulled down to Earth’s plane,
And judgment did set in.
Then new days begin.
I stood parallel as many went insane.
My heart drenched and my soul crunched,
I couldn’t let my heart take this very much.
I died and I died losing each endless breath,
I swallowed the victory and ate your death.
You reaped and I sowed,
But I saw no one grow,
Not even you.
What was I to do?
I let it go very slow,
Now I am all grown,
And I’m on my own.
I died watching you go.
I will always remember begging mercy,
I will always know this pain,
You are my curse you see,
And nothing did you gain.
I can never just be alright,
I can never love you the same again.
I died watching you go out of sight.
You are my curse and forever in my heart you made an end.

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As I Am Dying

I’m lying here on the side of the road
Calling you on the telephone
To let you know	
That I love you
I should have never gone
I should have never left
And I’m doing my best
To breathe this breath
To tell you that I love you
As the rain is slowly beating
Down upon my face
As the blood is slowly seeping
From all of my wounds
You’re the only one I’m thinking of
The only one I want
Mistakes were made
and prices are being paid
as I’m lying here dying
I just needed you to see
that I’ve finally seen
how much you mean to me
And while I’m dying here
lying on the side of the road
I just needed you to know	
I died loving you

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Skip to the Netherworld

We will skip off to the Netherworld,
When our time comes,
We will go hand in hand,
As we skip.

We will die together,
As one will fight,
This life is war,
And though we are losing,
We will still skip to the Netherworld.

I will stand by you,
My love everlasting,
Death cannot keep us apart,
We will fight until we fall,
Until death shows us mercy,
But we will still love like humans.

I will always be with you,
I shall always love you,
We will skip with joy,
Not pain,
We will have the rest of eternity together,
I love you forever,
We shall skip off to the Nether world together,
Hand in hand,
Our hearts filled with love,
Not pain.

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the dark street

The dark street

He is strong but i ain't,
i fear the dim-lit street ahead,
who might be the next victim,
it is so very hard to tell.

I cant loose him by my side,
my life's warrant is his presence,
the fuel which carries me forward,
devoid of which will break me down.

What if he is lost in the street,
my veins struggle at the thought,
life is life when he is there,
or else its a matter of breath.

Together we'll be till the judgement day,
this bond may never get diffused,
demons of the darkness beware,
take the two bodies together with 'a' soul.

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Cannot Get Close To You

I say I hate you,
But you insist you love me,
How can you do such a thing,
Why do you have to become so close to me,
So loved,
I hate you so much,
But my heart says I do,
I love you,
But I cannot say that,
I cannot get close to people,
I will just get hurt,
I always get hurt,
And I never heal,
I hate you,
Why did you do this to me,
You insisted you loved me,
And now you’re gone too.

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Emmett Till 2011

So there was black kid
His name was Vincent
Chubby and innocent
Intelligent, but belligerent
Aged 13, he had his first crush
Abigail, a white girl
Pigtails and eyes colored like clam pearls
Only conflict, her family was racist
Her older brother, Nathan, would make threatening faces
He constantly chased Vincent from around her
However, one day, Vincent did find her
Alone by a lake, gazing over the crystal water
He walked over and decided to talk to her
She found he was a pretty nice boy
Not like any other guy who would treat her like a toy
It was then that they shared each other's first kiss
Vincent and Abigail couldn't even believe this
Their hearts were racing
Hormones were pacing
But up from behind them, became good ol Nathan
However, he had a gang of guys with him
Vincent knew at that moment he was finished
So he started running, as fast as he could
But he tripped over a piece of wood and lost balance
Fell in a pile of dirt, and couldn't regroup
Next thing he knew, he was beaten black and blue
Unnoticeable in the conclusion, and Nathan got the allusion
To bury the body somewhere, but threw it in the lake
Poor Abigail cried her eyes out, she couldn't take it
The pain, the violence she had witnessed
The pure kiss from a black kid's lips
Sound familiar? Somewhat if you know your history
I nicknamed him Emmett Till
Pure misery

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Like King Kong

Some people think that being strong
Is pretending that there is nothing wrong
When you can hear the thrash of a thong
Exposed and stripped of your sarong
While your emotions rage like King Kong
Taken from the place where you belong
On display remembering every tong
Like Samson 'til his hair grew back long
Chained in the temple hall he felt strong
He asked that it should be his swan song
Pushing down pillars to right every wrong
Destroying the theatre like King Kong
In search of just one beauty all along
Wrecking the city until the final gong
With lady in hand perched high on a prong
You find your sunrise among the pong
The city's flying arsenal begins to throng
As you hear the looming scores and song
Yet some still think that being strong
Is making like there is nothing wrong

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Ghost to your love

As I stand an empty shell of a person... 
I see the path I couldve had 
The joys and moments of sad 
The fantasies you believe reality
And I've come to realize....
Pride is a hard pill to swallow. 
I built an image. That You've knocked Down in seconds.
 You made me feel two feet tall when I thought I could touch the sky.
 I stood with a sense of accomplishment, and you showed me that I haven't even touched my goals.
I died a Lil inside. 

My innocence to a world you exposed me to is not what you want. 
I can not be silent as you assume my life.
 As you think you know how I've lived.
But I bite my tongue... And everything I've ever built... The strong independent women that once stood is no 
longer there.

So as I stand empty, hollow, and a totally new person.. 
I just stay silent and hidden in the crowd.
 Ask me who I am & I would know how to answer.
 Who do you want me to be? 
Cause I no longer exist.  

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Come Back To Me

Come Back to Me

As the water started running down her back. 
She tried so hard to wash the pain away that she was feeling inside her body and soul. 
Why would it not go away, or stop. It had been so long. Since he had been gone. 
All she wanted was his love to come back to her,
And for him 
To hold her
To love her
To touch her
To make love to her once more
As she went to her knees still trying to wash the pain away crying for the love in her heart, to go away……Come back to me, “Please”!
Her heart was shattered in thousands of piece.
Come back to me one more time,
As she heard a voice say, I never left you I am in your heart for a reason, I loved you with all my heart.

Tammy Carter
Dec. 1, 2014

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Is It You

You are my Hope You are My truth You are my Love You are the reason For me I can't do this Alone always be there for me and I'll promise to Live

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Dreams of me and Hue

Fade from pillow white


To the drop dead black of night


Where I struggle to see you with all my might


As you slowly come into view


I can see shades of red


Behind your midnight blue


Can you see it too?


This beautiful reflection bouncing off of me


and into you


as our purple begins to break in two


back into thoughts of ruby red and daybreak blue


over kaleidoscope rusty rainbows


and dripping into dreams of me and Hue


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Your kisses call undeniably to an empty heart 

When your lips meet mine in blinded haste

Almost unwarily my wall begins to break

I close my eyes to get a deeper and better taste

Soothing and longing desires fill in the missing parts

Ultimately making the rest of my walls slowly fall apart

How was I to know it was all a fake

Your haunting melody made me do things so carelessly

Then slowly out of nowhere, you began to fade away from me

Leaving me alone to die and to bleed

Holding the pillow against my face 

Harder and harder until I could not breath

Rapid and savagely my life erased

Locking the door and hiding the key,

Your bruised lips part in a sigh of relief

How can someone disappear so quickly without a breath ,without a trace 


Foolishly you try to forget me

Day by day you cry so endlessly

Hopelessly trying, but to no avail

Tossing and turning while you sleep

My face still haunts you in your dreams 

Laughing and screaming as I’m dragging you to hell

Each day you relive each moment of what you done to me

You say your sorry, but you have no idea how sorry you’ll eventually be

I gave you everything I had within me 

Despite your past record of vicious success,

It’s time that old story is finally laid to rest

What you’re getting now is only a taste of what is foretold

From now on you’ll soon be getting what you deserve

This time, our deaths will be Avenged..


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The Drugs

Last week of my summer break
Hanging with my friends like always
Thats when I stumbled acrossed you
And suddenly I felt my heart grew weak

Instantly I fell in love with you, thats no lie
My soul fell for you as soon as I looked into your eyes
For they looked as though the sun was shining 
directly into them

He looked at me with more compassion
Then I had ever felt
Talking all summer just me and him
About everything and about nothing

What changed that autumn??
Was it your new friends
Because I saw what you did to your old ones
What made you into this kind of monster???

Although I never told you how I felt
I would still stay up at night and cry about it
Then the final day came when I found out the truth
How drugs were destroying the man I loved

From autumn to winter and from winter to spring
I couldn't believe how different you looked
Your eyes no longer shined like the sun
Your muscles weaker than ever before

I knew you were dying, I told you to stop
But you told me you didn't care
I wanted to leave you 
But I knew you needed me now more than ever

Summer comes around, schools are getting out
And off you left, leaving me all alone on this earth
Not even old enough to graduate and yet your gone
I never stopped warning you, but I still feel I'm to blame

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Move on

A feeling of feelings that i cannot understand,
my life and my love, where will it land?
I've fallen down and don't know where i am,
there is something missing and i do give a damn.
I love that something, so very much,
now it's gone, with no sound & no touch.
I try to move on & make a new start,
But how is this done? when they've taken my heart.

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Day After You ve Gone

When I awoke this morning the sun
was shinning so bright, I couldn’t believe
it for it should have be dark and gloomy…

Birds’ singing on high, singing in the
spring, this is not right for it should
be quiet and bleak…

I went to sit in that big old chair
cradling my head trying to understand
why you are dead…

Didn’t get the chance to tell you good-bye
or hold you in my arms for the last time…

As I set here I feel like we were cheated,
cheated to chance of that last hug, kiss and
to say, be seeing you someday…

The days will seem so empty without you
by my side and thank God for the memories
for if not I am sure I would die…

Keep hearing you in my head, I think
you are saying live in the warmth, sing
with the birds for they are telling you
how much you are loved…

Just know that when you hear my
whisper in your head that God has allowed
me to so  you are not to despair…

God has his arms around me guiding me
along until the day we are together again
and  I wish you happiness until that short
fleeting time is gone and you are by my side…

By Sandra Lea Hoban

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all that i can say

swiftly pierced,
by cupid's loaded bow,
wrapped up in ribbons,
but the bleeding doesn't slow,
winter's breath,
upon a tear streaked face,
leaving icy marks,
of love as thin as lace,
to love the summer sun,
is to give the snow away,
for springs thorns and buds,
to bloom a warmer day,
and when the icy wind,
tore us apart,
you quickly found another,
to warm your long dead heart...

uh... sorry...

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Only She Cries

What If I told You That I Loved you
would we care
would we die
 Chains surrounding Alice
Only She Cries
World Banished her
Love left her
all Alone
Melancholia presides over
Alice dies again
Will she ever reign
Will she ever see
what’s here to be
Only She Cries
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
Empty Without a savoir
Will She ever be cured from this
will she breakaway
Gaia couldn’t be so cruel
Just to wail away—Let the Banshee Crie
Just wail away the pain
wail away the pain
Enter my heart and you’ll see
that Was the only thing you could ever need
Alice; only she cries
let it show
That love never dies
Through Euphoria
through melancholia
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
You didn’t know
how you could save her
Only if you could her
Alice dies
Only she cries

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Splashes of Hue, Vincent, and me

they're not listening still
explore with me if you will
vibrant colors
that could kill
explode with me
into Vincent Van Goht's
where we shall see
the beautiful side
of Huemanity
paint my picture
grey, red, yellow, and blue
color me
like lovers sometimes do
and draw pictures
like Vincent once drew
surrendering shadows of me
suffocated by shades of you
splashes of Vincent
suddenly come into view
watch grey doves take flight
into this starry starry night
flying high with all of their might

among a cascade of red shooting stars
leaving behind purple scars
diving into the vivid blue rain
they pass through a lover's pain
stroll along a memory's lane
and crash into an artist's stain
where only hopes and dreams
and memories of Hue and Vincent
and me

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Right now my heart is sore,
A kiss not forced but taken,
How do things so simple and sweet,
Turn out so complicated and bitter?
I wish that time would just erase
All the pain your lies have
But it can't and it won't
I cannot forgive you
Not now and not ever.
I feel the blood drain from my
            face the last of it to go.
The knife that have held so long 
Finally falls from my lifeless hands
What you have done will forever haunt you.
A life is gone from this world
All because you can't face the truth.
All because I wouldn't see
the lies behind that smile.

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Lovely, he is so lovely
Gentle, he is so gentle
He calls me beauty
He says I define the word beautiful

I love him
He says he loves me too
We are so happy
They say we are meant to be

Sometimes he hits me
But I guess it is my fault 
He says that I belong to him
Never will I have anyone else

I am trapped 
Nobody knows that he carries a gun
If you are reading this 
Than I must be dead

                                                                                                                        8 June 2013

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cellophane girl







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Destroying Death 10092011

On this mountain the Lord of hosts
Will provide for all peoples
A feast of rich food and choice of wines…
He will destroy death forever

Lord God will wipe away
Tears from all faces Isaih 25:6, 8

One of the greatest sources of Courage for me in all of Scripture
The repeated detailed description of the feast
In case gives me a kind of glorious concrete hope

I love the tenderness of the Lord God
Wiping away the tears from all the faces

Three years ago on this date-10092008
I held this reading in my hand beside my dying sister
She was the one who gave feasts in our family:
Rich juicy food and choice wine
I read aloud for us both
“He will destroy death forever”
God of Love
Help us to trust in this stunning promise of life You offer us with such tenderness

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One Will Never Be

I loved everything about
Everything you said
I loved every you did, 
I loved the fact that you made me felt that way.
The sweet little kissed you gave me
Made me feel special everyday.
That was how I always wanted it to be.
Oh, how much, I wanted to see you everyday.

You were always the one to be around
To cheer me up
Whenever I would be down
YOu had always seemed to find a way
It was just something you would do 
Always having to make my day.

You were the best thing that had happened to me
And there was not a thing anyone could say
About how many ways I loved about you
And about how inseperavle we were in the past days.

I held on to you
For the strength I had always needed
You were the one to make it through
Out of this broken path, on how it was always treated.
Problems had vanished, no more did I had to hide
Because I was with you
Standing right by your side.

Everything you said was true
For that I have thought
And all the things you tried to do
A lesson, learned in time,  a lesson you intentionally taught.

I had hoped people could have seen the real you
Not many would listen
Just a few.
Everything and everyone new
Seemed to be treated just well
All except you.

No one had understood
What the things you have gone through
No one would take a minute or two
To hear how your feelings grew.
In fact, no one understood you, but me
Though I had hoped we would have stayed alive together
As ONE was suppoed to be.
But knowing what now had happened.
Knowing how it is to me
And knowing how it was to you
ONE no longer will happen.
ONE will never be.

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Forsaken Eurydice

A quick game is all it will be
I can tell you can hear my shouts and screams from forest 
Your home it beckons thee
Why won't you come and play with me?
Why cant you cure her?
The venom isn't too deep
If you could awaken her once
Cant you do it again
 Did sorrow blind you?
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee
Why I not could listen to the dread king
All the life to you I could bring
I had to look back with eyes of dismay
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee 
Music no more will there be 
For I have forsaken my Eurydice 
He will never listen 
No is all you will hear
Death is always the killer of love
Death will always win
Go back to your kingdom
My words have been proclaimed
Your music will not be able to charm
Why don't you please
Give him his love
He went this far in vainI
f he cannot see her blank face
Wont why you please
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee
Why I not could listen to the dread king
All the life to you I could bring
I had to look back with eyes of dismay
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee 
Music no more will there be
 For I have forsaken my Eurydice
If it will please
You can see her
Only without your eyes
Throughout the dark realm
Looking back will forsaken your Eurydice
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee
Why I not could listen to the dread king
All the life to you I could bring
I had to look back with eyes of dismay
Eurydice Eurydice how mortal death has forsaken thee 
Music no more will there be
 For I have forsaken my Eurydice

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Oh What A Fool Am I

Oh what a fool am I
when I alway's thought you'd
be right by my side

Oh what a fool am I
to have looked into
those baby blue eyes

Oh what a fool am I
to think that there was or 
could be any other guy

Oh what a fool am I
in believing you could stop
the hurt and pain caused deep down inside

Oh what a fool am I
to stand here and think that one day
I would walk down the isle as your bride

Oh what a fool am I
that I won't one day
tell you one last goodbye

Oh what a fool am I
to stand here and just
look and watch the big blue sky

Oh what a fool am I
for wiping these tears
running down my eyes

Oh what a fool am I
blowing you one last kiss
and letting out a big sigh

Oh what a fool am I
For chosing to be
Oh what a fool am I

Little Diddly LOL

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I cherish the flower
I salvaged 
From the table
That night

The flow of wine
Gentle music
The two of us
Holding hands

How could I 
Have known
You'd be gone
That tragedy 
Would strike

On the phone
You talked 
To me of love
Driving home 
That night

Now I'm to blame
We broke the law
For love
You having 
Lost your life

A lone
Treasured flower
I cling to 
Now I'll never
Be your wife

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Feburary is the nicest time of the year,
because you celebrate love and happy tears,
like birthdays and special annversity, 
you find out who love you alot,
or you have a bad ending,
it also a start of something new, 
then you find out things that are true,
you start to look different as you go,
but Feburary is not over,
just sit back and enjoy the show,
and have a nice Feburary,  
and take it slow.

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Piles of Dirt

I’m no one anymore
Just a spirit around
My body has left this earth
My voice is no where to be found

You are looking at my coffin
At this funeral you’re at
A tear falls down, 
And you start getting sad

The first shovel of dirt
Is thrown on top of it
All of the sudden, a memory hit,
You remember the day we first met,
Our eyes were connecting, as we danced and sweat,

Another pile of dirt cover me through,
Memories of us, start rolling to you,
It was the day which you probably miss,
You spent time with me, and our first kiss,

Third pile of dirt makes a thump sound,
Two more tears start rolling down,
Our sour break-up, controls your mind,
When you left me for a girl who was a  waste of your time,

Your heart hurts more as 
the fourth pile comes down
Don’t call me no more were your
Orders to me and I was no where to be found,

The fifth one comes down 
as a really loud bomb,
The day that you came back to me,
yes we were not done,

The sixth one stabs you 
Down to your feet
The day comes where you 
decided to cheat,

The seventh one covers the corner of the hole,
You scream and kneel down, you can’t take it no more,

The tears that I shed, for you my King,
And the ignorance that you repetitively gave me,

The eighth one is the finishing touch at this time, 
As you remember when you were mines,
The kisses, the hugs, the I love you’s
The sacrifices, the battles that I fought for you!

You throw me a Rose and say this out loud,

“A Girl Like You, I’ll Never Find Around!!!”

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Love Dies

He is dead, no longer hear
His heart is always full of fear

He does not know what to do
So he searches the Earth, looking for you

You seem happy when you are found
He listens quietly, he makes no sound

He discovers that you never loved him
His life was pointless, now death is dim

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The End II

then the only people with a shadow of the truth
will be the people called the Isrealites
you know them as the Jews
Our merciful Lord has left them blind
their only purpose to save
the rest of man kind
but like i said they are blind
they will follow the wrong messiah
till the end of that time 
but mean while up in heaven 
shortly after meeting the Lord
they show us many mansions
where we would live from then on
we walked down the streets of gold
through gates made of pearl
and every few moments
we ran into people we knew
from the world
the reunions there filled our hearts so full
because many we hadn't seen in a while
and it was promised on our arrival
that as far as time was concerned
we had a while
(To be continued)

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The striking actress
  Vivien Leigh played the role
    of Scarlett in, "Gone With The Wind".
      The Southern belle fell in love with Rhett,
        who had a set of charming blue eyes that captured
          her heart burning with passion and love: like her red dress!

  In the heart-wrenching scene on a barren hill, 
    over-looking the luxurious mansion, we see furious Scarlett
      vowing herself to never go angry again and not to live in poverty;
        and we hear her loud voice thundering amid cannons' blasts, as she 
          pleads her promise with vengeance staring at the orange-colored sunset!
            And from that war, which brought much destruction to the South, a great nation rose!

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Voids Need to Be Filled

Sitting alone like the rest of my life,
In my eyes I see it, no family, no wife.
Love is on my mind, companionship in my heart
People all around me are happy, my life torn apart.
Depressed, Disrespected, Dis-owned, whatever you call it,
There is a void in my heart, just like an empty wallet.
Meaningless things with no substance at all, might fill it temporarily, but not for the
long run.
Remember this that cash spends quickly.  Then you are stuck with nothing at all.
Love is what I'm looking for and that might scare some away.  But the ones that stay by my
side are the real winners today.  I'm not the best catch ever, I have my faults and
problems, but no one is perfect there is always a puzzle to solve us.
I'm respectable, lovable and would never cheat, but I'm also a nice guy, so that means
women will use their feet.
To step on my heart and leave it to where it cannot be fixed, But in the end an asshole
leaves them even more Vexed.  Men and Women are so much alike, neither knows what the
other is thinking.  All we can do is go with out gut feeling.  But so many times our gut
feeling has been wrong.  We pick up the shattered pieces, continuing to where we belong. 
On our different paths, we might cross at sometime, It is in these moments we share, That
everything seems fine.
Your hand in mine, your head on my shoulder, not thinking about anything our love is a
boulder, Not moved alone It is sturdy as hell, I'm so glad we are to this point im no
longer empty as well.  I need this Void filled and I believe you are the one to do that.
Don't run away at the first true sign of Difficulty. Stand Strong, Be Firm, and Stay with
me as I will do with you.

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Last Hour

In the last hour
You beg for mercy
No compassion can be shown to you
For you have dwindled your time 
Lacking introspection
You failed to acknowledge your transgressions 
With humble repentance
You failed to take your penance for your sinister sins
No one here to cloak them for you
You will have to take this road alone
Not much chance of loosing yourself
For it is wide and short
And full of other troubled souls who waited too late

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' May Moonlight Touch ... '

May Moonlight Touch Your Pillow
As You Lie, Awake In Bed …
May Moonlight Touch Your Pillow
And Glow Around Your Head …

May Moonlight Touch Your Pillow
But, Never Touch Your Face
‘ Lest, You Forget The Yellow
Ribbon, I Put Into Place

May Moonlight Touch Your Pillow
But, Never Light Upon Your Lips
And Drink Nectar and Swallow
And Linger For More Sips

May Moonlight Touch Your Pillow
But Never Brush Against Your Cheek …
My Fingers, Own That Fellow
And On My Palm, You Must Not Cheat

May Moonlight Touch Your Pillow
But Never Alight Upon Your Eyes
For I Would Build A Gallows
And Rise and Hang Her Moonbeams High !

For Alas, My Sweet, The Willows Weep
 Sighing, As  Bedroom Drapes Billow
Guarding Dreams Deep … Watching You Sleep
As Moonlight, Touched Your Pillow …

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True Love

I wonder if he loved me? 
guess I'll never know
never had a chance to tell me so
He smiled at me that day
then God came and took him away
I always prayed for a man like him
Now I'm still lonely and my world is dim
I lay in bed trying to sleep 
saying my prayers for my soul to keep
I dreamed he touched me 
and whispered in my ear
told me the sweet things I wanted to hear
and then I saw a light shining from above
there was my man
my one true love

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You showed me your fangs
Biting me hard
Drawing my blood
No tears have fallen
From your evil eyes
For this one that
You've torn apart
I will never forget
I will give no pardons
Not this time
Open up and swallow
This cough syrup, but
No spoonful of sugar
For you anymore
I am the justice Poet
I will give you
Your sentence
You will pay

Before you I stand
With my whip
Don't get excited
I won't be lying
Before you naked
While you pull my hair
Slap my face and
Choke my throat
You owned every
Inch of my body
To do with it as
You wished, but
You attacked what
Was sacred territory
Now your reign of
Terror must be
Brought to an end

You butchered our baby
Your embryonic heart
Feels no sorrow for
The monster you 
Unleashed on me
You've slashed the
Face of the Cupid
That brought us together
You drowned the stork
That brought us our baby
You thrust your sword
Right into my broken heart
Now in this bloody cesspool
Tormented womb
Your shame, not mine
It's ghost will haunt you
So you will never forget
That you have eaten 
Your own baby
Because your twisted
Mouth hungered for death

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Binding, bloodied chains entrap my soul,
As pain surges through my body
His face is all I can see,
The cold, ice blue eyes that burn into mine
And his grim, somber expression
Conceals the terror, that so openly shows on my own
Bitter sweet sorrow lingers in the air
But his voice joins the others
As they condemn me, and his hands
Bind me in chains
Cutting my very heart and soul
Into a million pieces
He knows the truth, yet he binds and traps me
In my pain
The words of the guilty become as wounds
And the tears that fall,
Become as crimson drops of blood 
Flowing from my body
And falling onto the granite stones 
His resounding words rip out my heart,
And chafe my soul
But as my pain drowns out 
The sound of painful accusations
I surrender to death
And take his ashen hands,
Following him into the unknown

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Looking into your eyes as
 my fingertips trail across your skin.
If I was ever more content,
 I surely don't know when.

Your hair soft and smelling of jasmine,
 blonde curls brush your face.
You roll over and wrap me in your arms, 
 I feel at peace in your embrace.

I open my eyes and I'm all alone.
 Your side of the bed, empty and cold.
Tears threaten to spill over
 when I realize you're not here to hold. 

I want you here with me, 
 Damn you for leaving my life in such haste.
I miss your touch along my skin, 
 your kiss so sweet, I still taste.

Your eyes so dark blue
 they resemble a sapphire jewel.
To think I could keep those treasures
 for myself, what a fool.

I can't take back all those 
 horrible things I did and said.
There have been many days I've
 wished I'd have left you instead.

I keep going over it all in my mind.
 And it just doesn't seem fair.
A life stolen for drugs by 
 an addict who didn't care.

The fact that he is your brother
 was the worst of it all.
I see just how far crack-cocaine
 can make a person fall.

I'll never forget you and
 I'll love you until my very last breath.
And as long as I live
 I'll never be over your death.

Details | Senryu | |

Rocks and Vipers

Two women
Broke their teeth
On gravel.

That one man
Drank venom
In green grass.

Details | I do not know? | |

suicide note

you were the only one that kept me from killing my self , the only reason I even 
stayed here in hell . in the end you’re the reason I sit here in the dark writing this 
poem with the cold gun laying in reach . as soon as I am done saying these last 
few things I need to say . I’ll pick it up, say I love you one last time though you 
wont hear it and pull the trigger . finally saying goodbye to this world . I’ll leave you 
knowing that I loved you with all my heart, body and soul . don’t worry though, you 
released me . I wont feel any more pain . the only pain I’ll feel wont last too long . 
not nearly as long as the pain that I would feel if I was to stay alive . they say the 
greatest pain of all is a broken heart . guess I wont have to find out for too 
long .so this is my goodbye ….

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Cold World

Still Cold World

That moment,
The gun,
The boy,
The man,
The girl,

"I love him"
"This isn't fair"
Angry eyes,
Man's cold face,
Not carrying,
Not knowing the meaning of love,

His daughter,
They boy,
"He is trash"
He wasn't for her
Had to die,
"You deserve better,"
She wanted no better,
She loved him,
She wanted him,
"Dad,please no,"

A shot,
A tear,
"I hate you"
"Please don't leave me"
"He wasn't for you."
"I won"

Two warm hearts,
One jagged bullet,
An unloaded gun,
A cold world.

Details | I do not know? | |


He found himself pacing back n fourth in his empty house as if looking for something he had lost. The only sound heard was that of the freezer re filling the ice cubes and the dripping tap he kept  forgetting to shut off. he slowly made his way to his dark brown leather chair, sat and began to sip on the half glass of flat cola. He sat their wondering to himself why the sound  of silenced sounded so loud, and why being surrounded with people felt so lonely. He wrote this Poem:

Surrounded by all the ones who I love
But still I find myself alone
What does his mean
What does this mean
I was never the kindest soul
But jumped at the opportunity to help

But just as he finished that verse, he felt the urge to do something he could never take back. He reached for the hidden handgun he kept in a secret drawer in the coffee table, and without a warning or a letter to leave behind he shot.

Details | Ballade | |

The Charge Of The Light Braggart

He was a young English soldier in India,
A soldier's funds are rarely ample,
But he went into a mideast Bodega,
He sought a gift for his Indian girl,
Her favorite cologne, Eau de Camille,
sat on a shelf...he had not enough
money to buy it himself
So he pulled out his Dinar Card, 
and saved the day,  at least till about
when he stopped to bray about his clout,
an hour later when he was killed
by runaway horses.
Seems he was not the only one running
at the mouth.

Details | Free verse | |

Cupid's Accidental Homicide

Cupid has shot me with one too many arrows.

My sullen heart has been punctured 
   Now leaching with pain.
All he tried to do was bring me hope and light, 
  to pull me from darkness,
  to battle my anguish and woe.
His efforts were straining,
  and for fleeting moments,
  my life was happy

Cupid shot me once more and I fell in love

He was beautiful in my eyes, 
the lament dissonance of my wretched heart wrapped around him.

But Cupid's arrow induced our suffering.

He loved me as much as he could bear.
"I'll love you forever" I cry as I weep at his feet, begging for his return.

Cupid shot my love once more in hope of romantic devotion,
  instead, we got agony.

With my love's last effort, 
He etched "I hate love" with his blood that dripps from these pages.
Down he fell from my arms, and down he fell into the darkness.

My tears will no longer weep from mine eyes...
I've cried to long and hard to cry any more.
My only comfort is gone,
and my only way to cry is to watch my wrists ooze away the pain,
                                      drip by drip.

One last try and Cupid shoots me once more,
  and my torn heart shatters into pieces.
I'm cast into the reality of my tenebrous death.
And together we became, 
                               Cupid's accidental homicide

Details | Lyric | |

Done to Me

Look at what you’ve done to me
it’s so hard to even breathe
if I could chisel ice off your stare
I’d still be stuck inside this miserable winter
you said it would be over soon
but I’m still trying to make it through
I’ll lay here
I’ll do my best to die
I’ll stay here away from you
so that your piercing eyes
can’t stab right through me
Do you want me to bleed?
Do you need me to disappear?
Well give it time, have no fear
I’ll be gone by the end of this year
I’m headed straight for Death
As where I am is about the same
I’m so screwed up and I blame you
for leaving my mind so lame
You ran away that bleak, dark day
and I could not find any peace
And it’s the least that I can do,
so I’ll stay away, away from you

Details | Verse | |

The Stuff In My Head

I don't belong here 
This life of mine 
Why have I come to this point in time 
Is it because of the demons I fear? 

When did it begin and when will it end 
The feelings I have are very clear 
Why does death seem so very near? 
And will it become my only true friend? 

Time is irrelevant this point in time 
When the days are over will I regress 
I pray and hope for some peaceful rest 
Will the future ever be mine? 

This rhyme scheme is not what I like 
My mind is simple however the depth 
Too bad it got messed up by my crystal meth 
But writing is so much like sex or riding a bike 

It is too bad I made a mess of my life 
What came before does not even help 
Can't even take care of myself 
Love you too much to use a knife 

The answer is clear, why can't I see? 
So I go through life living like I do 
And what do I give but a pile of poo 
My hands on my eyes mean nothing to me 

This poem means nothing to you 
To give and to take and really don't care 
I really wish I NEVER was there 
To say I am sorry is so very true 


Details | Free verse | |

Trailing Ghosts

Your time has come
The banshees are rapidly approaching
Can you hear their screams in your mind?
Does the constant rattling and endless wailing
Wake you up at night in a cold sweat?
Does your bedroom feel a tinge of coldness
That causes you to tremble
Knowing that your time has run out
For you have been abandoned
By everyone you have ever loved
Because of the many betrayals 
You bestowed on them without a bit of guilt
No one remains
To cloak your sins for you
You must pay in full
And I am here to collect
Your wicked soul

Look over your shoulder
Do you see the decomposing souls 
That you have left behind
Of the gentle feminine creatures
That you have used and forgotten?
Do you hear the cries
Of all of the women 
Whose hearts you have butchered
With your web of deception and lies?
Do you feel their loneliness?
Do you feel the emptiness they feel?
For you have stolen a piece of them
That they can never retrieve from you
That has left them an empty shell
With an inner void  
That cannot be healed

The ones that you so carelessly discarded
Are thirsty for your blood
They want to feed off you
So these zombies that remain
Under your spell
In their humble state of muliebrity 
Can awaken from the trance
Your venomous manipulation 
Has sentenced them to
For then they will now be cognizant
Of how little esteem you hold for
The feminine species
Their bandages will start to unravel
Off the mummified remains of your victims
It will be as if they were reborn again
They will become alive again
Feeling a sense of emotive totality
That will free them of their enslavement to you

For years you have strategized
And plotted your many conquests
Leaving a trail of causalities a mile long
But, now your castoffs have become united
They are hunting you
For you are now the prey
Listen closely
Can you hear their footsteps
Growing nearer by the minute?
Though you may do your best 
To absquatulate from your fate
Your attempt will be in vain
For the wrath of an abandoned woman
Gives her ferocious power that 
Is stronger than any army
Is more powerful than any weapon 
Is sharper than the teeth of the fiercest animal
It is immortal
It is eternal
And it will always find you
When you least expect it


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Electric was your touch
230 volts of love flowed through me
My hesitation, wonder, fear,
Dare I draw her to me?
Kiss her?

Will she reject me?
She did not
Before I knew what was happening
Our passion was growing hot

Clothes virtually torn off each other
Speed was essential
Like a starving man in the desert
Finding an ice cream cone

I had to entwine our bodies
Merely flesh and bone

The moon rose
The moon set

The sun rose
And, but yet,
I would not let you go
Nor would I leave your side
This night must last forever
And this time I hope will bide

Pinnicle of Love
Top of the mountain of happiness
Don't go away from me
Truely, can't you see?
My life I'll dedicate to thee...

I awoke mid night
It was but a dream,
A remembrence of the past,
Of a night long ago,
One I wanted to everlast

Funny, how the mind
Can relive such times
Returning that sense of joy
Teasingly too short it lasts
Playing with our hearts
As if but a toy...

I carry those sweet hours
In my soul
They cleanse my time of pain
I 've had my time in the light
And though I know they'll never come again,
They help prepare me for the night
Which lies yet but ahead
For surely as one is born,
There comes a time when
One returns to the land
Of the dead.

Details | Prose | |

To The Wolves

Your eyes were empty darling,
Dead to the world,

Oblivious to the sound of my voice.
You were broken darling,
Your ears blind to the love in my hands.

Barron baby,
Bruises baby
Black, Blue, just evidence that we were alive

Hold me darling,
Hollow arms, cavity in your chest.
All you said, All we did,
Left helpless the second the light left your eyes.

The wolves got you my love,
Licking red tongues,
I couldn't fight them off,

Blank, your face hollow,

Begging to be filled.

I tried baby,
I really did,
I gave us my best,

What was left to show?

Bloody T shirts, Broken furniture,
Your heart more barren,
My spirit left,
Scared, rigid,

They got me too love,
The wolves got me baby,
But you didn't flinch,
you couldn't.

A vacant corpse,

They didn't let you survive.

Details | Rhyme | |

I Hate You

As you watch me, I slowly die.
Now you see, why I always lie.
So much pain, your death's bringer.
I'm driven  insane, why does sorrow linger?
Blood runs hot, misery is what I live.
Pain's what I got, for your abusive.
I hate, everything about you.
I asphyxiate, as I turn blue.
Just leave, do not return.
For I cannot believe, you let me burn.
Clenching my fists, I run from you.
Cutting my wrists, now I'm through.
Just die, leave me alone.
Say goodbye, for your true self has been shown.
I HATE YOU, I love you.
What's new, what should I do?
Fists fly, I cry...
You die, say goodbye.
Don't wake me, I don't wish to see your face.
What I wish to see, is not this hellish place.
Look into my eyes, tell your lies.
Our love dies, yet here comes the cries.
I'm so afraid, to live this life.
Your acts to be repaid, I pick up the knife.
What have I done, why do I laugh?
Why do I run, is it because my heart broke in half?
Will darkness turn to light, do you care?
Now it's your fright, for the love you did not share.
What's happening to me, I'm dying on the inside.
I die slowly, why should I hide?
I HATE YOU, just die.
Now we're through, goodbye.
Put the gun, to my head.
I'm now done, for I am dead.
Go away, or watch my suicide.
Because sorrow will stay, I have died.
Do you hear in my voice, the frustration?
Yet it's my choice, for self-mutilation.
I HATE YOU, do you shrug it away?
I HATE YOU, just die today.
Do you hear me, do you hear the pain?
Now you see, why I'm insane.
Never before, never again.
Walk through the door, and my war won't win.
No more sorrow, No tomorrow.

Details | Free verse | |


Rivers flowing red.
Soon you know you'll be dead.
The razors thrown on the floor.
Curtains closed,
You've barred the door.
Silent screams echo the room.
You try to breathe,
But your throat closes over.
Suffocating you.
Your lips turn blue.
You lay and watch your wrists
Pouring out your heartache.
All your pain and suffering
Soaking into the carpet.
The blades glinting; tarnished
By past betrayals.
Each scar longer.
Each pain harder.
The razor bites deeper
Opening up your wrists.
Cos your heart refuses to thaw.
Closed up after years of torment.
The false promises
Words spoken of sweet seductions
And eternal love,
Rust and die
Just like the blades
Embedded in your flesh.
You're getting weaker,
The pain is lessening.
Your release is coming soon.
Take your last breath.
The last thing you see
Before you close your eyes,
Is the razors on the floor
Soaking in your peace.

Details | I do not know? | |


Its the dead of night,
were lying in the grass
the stars glimmer down
the light of a lit cigarette dangles above
coils of smoke drift above his head
i'm laying apart from him
every word that comes from his mouth drips with agony
"if this is good as its gonna get,
lets just leave now"
the thoughts in my head,
they shake from side to side
"i'm dying" i say,
he looks at me, another drag from his cigarette
"aren't we all" he says
"every second that passes,
is a second closer to dying"
and this is what kills me.

Details | Free verse | |

Scent of a Kiss

Kiss me, O, kiss me 
Before I am gone, 
Gone to a place, where I can’t 
Make a sudden u-turn, neither- 
Where kiss has place to stay

Kiss me, O, kiss me 
Morning, afternoon, day, night 
Or, whenever it pleases you 
I won’t mind, whether it’s a-
French kiss or a kiss of no name

I will cherish it, dearly 
Just don’t promise it tomorrow, 
For I only hold this breath
Awhile, nor in your hand lies- 
The remote control of life

Ah, better by far 
You should kiss me now 
Than that you live in regret 
And die, without-
Knowing what my rugged lips scent

Details | I do not know? | |

Shadow of myself

I don’t know
What I should think,
How I seize to exist,
How I can drive 
Without seeing anything
Not the road, the traffic,
Or anything else.

I act as if I am
Dead but still alive.
My body is there, 
But it is just an empty cover,
Package without content,
Hallow skin
Without any ability
To feel anymore.

Smiling at everyone
When there are no more tears left
To be shed and cried.
Acting happy
Though my own world inside
Is crumbled, shattered,
And doesn’t exist anymore.

Therefore I can only
Maintain, be and exist
Cuz I am not allowed 
to leave behind and quit
this life of mine
that doesn’t have 
any worth, meaning or purpose anymore
to me or another. 
So all I am now
Is a shadow of myself…

Details | Rhyme | |

My Terrible, but Beautiful Love

I am all alone, I can not take this.
No one at all can know what I go through.
So long since I have felt a time of bliss,
Never in my life, have I felt this blue.

I beg my heart to just let me die here.
I wish I could go to my friends and cry.
Will not shed tears, for I will not be near.
I must leave this cold world and say good bye.

Fade fast, as I kill this pain caused from him.
I love it how each pill slows my mind down,
Feel it, I am so dead, it's all for Jim.
My pain is gone, do you think he will frown?

I wake to meet his eyes, I am not dead.
Did not mean to hurt me, we are in love.

Details | Rhyme | |

Now That Your Gone

Now that your gone and floating amidst Heaven's shores
I keep hearing the shutting and slamming of doors

Was it you? or my mind playing goolish gools
Sweat pouring from my forehead lying on the floor in a pool

Thoughts keep pounding in my brain
memories of our love shall not ever fade

Why couldn't you tell me you were married?
instead you lead me to believe in a love tale fairy

For over twenty years I stood by you over and over again
and to think it all started out just being good friends

Lies deception extortations of my beating heart
I played the game for I did not want to part

Someday I hope the good Lord will forgive me
For I'm not one to get down on my knees and beg and plea

But guilt is just ripping me apart
If I've known you were married I would of never given you my heart

RIP Glen        X
You Player 

Details | Rhyme | |


I broke his heart,
he broke mine,
now we're even, but still i cry.

I cracked his icy heart,
he broke mine clean in two,
i said, "i'm sorry"
he said, "screw you"

Now he laughs behind my back,
while i try to ignore the pain,
the pain where my heart should've been,
the pain keeps coming like an oncoming train.

I have nowhere to go,
i'm lost and broken,
broken beyond repair,
thanks to the words he's spoken.

he said, "you're a hopeless cause,
a worthless pile of crap,
your a wannabe emo,
now go jump in a  pit."

i did what he said ,
i went that extra mile,
i jumped off a cliff,
and now i cease to smile.

Details | Quintain (English) | |

Final Kisses

Your hand is that, which I hold
I lean close and kiss your head
I touch your lips, they feel so cold
A glistening tear drop I now shed
For my love is peacefully dead.

Details | Rhyme | |

Her Final Bow

I hear the melody, starting to rise.
It haunts me, to see the look in her eyes.
She starts to cry, I try to reach out.
But I die, when she doesn't hear my shout.
I try to run, yet she falls away.
I am done, now that my love cannot stay.
I watch her dance, I watch her sing.
My last chance, the joy she will bring.
She looks around, looking for me.
I scream but I make no sound, still I watch passionantly.
To her I cannot be found, she cries solemnly.
I run to the stage, and reach for her.
Sorrow turns to rage, this is not real I am sure.
I try again, to grab her hand.
I know then, I cannot stand.
I realize, for she weeps.
For the look in her eyes, I know her lover forever sleeps.
Nothing, but a memory.
Just one more thing, it's her face that I'd wish to see.
She cries, kneeling before my grave.
Those beautiful eyes, a memory I'll always save.
Though we are so near, I feel so far apart.
I'll still wipe away your tears, and you will forever have my heart.
Look forward to that one day, where I hold you tight.
Everything will be okay, for I'll make things right.
Hold high, that pretty face.
Do not cry, for your my delicate white lace.
We will hold hands, and share kisses.
Defying times demands, and wishes.
I love you,
I do not care if it's the right or wrong thing to do.

Details | I do not know? | |

That Was Then and This Is Now

You were a geek at times…and I was along with you…the times you cried I wiped 
your tears…the blood you bled I washed away…the marks that showed I covered 
with my love…the pain you had I felt worst…every laugh from you made me live 
one more day…the smile you showed helped me through the darkness that 
surrounded me…your eyes that were so indescribable helped my bad days…the 
heart you had helped mine heal…the life you lived made me realize how good of 
a life I have…the jokes you told pulled me through the day…the looks you would 
give me would make me want to laugh…the things you said and the way you 
were when I was so said couldn’t get through the day cheered me up more then 
ever…but that was then and this is now…now you are gone…I have no one to be 
a geek with…no tears to wipe…no blood to wash…no marks to hide…no pain to 
feel…no laugh to live on…no smile to light the way…no eyes for my bad days…
no heart to heal mine…no bad life to separate the good…no jokes to pull me 
through…nothing to laugh at…none of your personality to cheer me up…so that 
was then and this is now…

Details | Rhyme | |

The Current

I use to watch you dance,
So graceful, so beautiful,
An angel at a glance.
As the music played,
Softly, slowly, at first.
Why couldn’t you have stayed?
Then a burst,
As you came to life.
Dancing by the waters edge, 
I wanted to make you my wife,
We made a pledge.
Where oh where is our second chance?
Why oh why, cant I watch you dance
Why did you have to go?
We were so young, 
So young you know.
So innocent,
So much in love.
Then the current,
Now you are above.

Details | Free verse | |

She Waits!

They have waited so long for this moment,
Now around the corner she waits!
Anticipation of her date,
She knows him well,
Though they have never met.
Question running through her head,
For he has clawed at her heart for such a long time,
The beast, trying to get in,
To show his love for her.
Nebula, fire works fill the cloudy  night sky,
Excitement enthralls her soul,
Her body trembles.
When will he arrive,
It is such a long drive?
It is starting to  snow.
The driver lost control,
All that is left is his soul,
Now racing to meet her.
Will she know he is there,
Will she know how much he cares? 
Will she feel the spring time in the air?
Music playing, Yanni, “Reflections of Passion”
The passion he has felt for her,
She for him, such a long time.
Around the corner, 
She waits!