I was the girl next door
five five, nice shape
and the perfect hips
that got you licking your lips
you know hot to control yourself
and approach me like a man should, but
If Your Girl Only Knew
We became best of friends
but yet feelings grew
upon us both
now you in this situation
where you have to choose
Is it going to be her or me?
If Your Girl Only Knew
She comes around
and you show her love
she doesn’t know
you’re in love with another woman
As you see me walk by
your eyes follow until I’m out of sight
now your girl put her hand upon your face
and ask you why you look the other way
now you’re lost for words
If Your Girl Only Knew
Only if she knew
your man is in love with me
Only if she knew
you are on the phone with me
for hours when you tell her you are asleep
Only if she knew
late nights you creeps with me
Only if she knew
that you’re trying to be with me
but you don’t know how to tell her
because you love me
Only if she knew
you will break her heart soon
and the sooner you’ll be mines
If Your Girl Only Knew
In their dark and sunless
in their rooms
so all alone,
Help them light
the dimmest lanterns
let them know
a friend is home.
You were young
and you remember
how it was
when all was lost,
they don't know that
will be crossed
They don't have a map
to guide them
there's no compass
for their track
we must hold them
and confide them
till they find
Sometimes, life isn't always how
It looks at first. It's all better now.
I felt so overwhelmed by the world's demands,
But I feel better knowing she understands.
I no longer have to regret the things I've said.
I know now that I can move on instead.
I felt as if I was without that thing I could never find.
Now I'm back in my body and back in my mind.
I found that moment where my world was bright.
I found that the sky's still blue and my world's alright.
Loves are loves, traitors are traitors, but family is always there.
Now I can look nearer for someone to care.
I hope that everyone can be like me and find shelter from the rain.
Love, family, friends, help, anything to help fight against your pain.
Silence and deaf ears.
Sad times and many tears.
Friends and family so relieving.
Eyes and hearts in me believing.
Times of trial hard to recover.
No time or love from another.
Welcoming arms and open hearts.
Help and comfort and a new start.
Take these things and piece me together.
Take away the bad things and I'll feel better.
Haven't you needed this yourself?
Will you add to it or will you help?
Hold me close and never leave.
Keep the puzzle together and you'll be an important piece.
Disappointment was never as lovely as she
Hope caught in my heart fighting delicately
She's always the dream that never fades upon waking
The cause and the comfort for all of my shaking
I like to glance over then turn carelessly
Just to see if it makes her come over to me
Her smile is infectious and wipes away fear
If it fades then I show her that I'm always near
Sometimes we are split by self-built barricades
So I break through our silence of awkward blockades
And no matter how often old times we recall
We'll forever laugh and the false walls will fall
They all think I'm crazy my truth to repress
Do anything for her and never confess
Yet silently love I continue to show her
It's enough just to feel that I'm getting to know her
But despite my devotion and adoration
There still remains space for one complication
The spark in my eyes grows colder and dim
When I am reminded she's happy with him
Surely love wants the best for the person it's for?
Not selfishly trying their joy to ignore
But however hard jealousy my heart will dent
If my darling is happy, then I am content.
God has a plan,
And it is out of my hands.
Once there was a girl with a tough personality. She was considered to be a friendly and talkative. She was extremely tough regardless of love and crashes. She had wishes and dreams but was never sure when it’s gone come true. She was hard working always to satisfy her family and be a great daughter. She was tough about love but at the same time she knew a special and incomparable person will come to her life, who will be very different than others. When and where she will meet him, she never thought about it because she believed that we shouldn’t look for love, the reason was that love comes itself. However let’s see how and where she finds that special person.
One night after working so hard of her project she was bored.
“Oh God I am so bored let’s see if my friends are online I will talk to them but at the same time gone download a song” she got online but unfortunately non of her friends were online so she thought to herself why don’t I make a new friend she requested a random boy who she never knew before. After a week passed and that boy accepted her request but they never got the chance to talk to each other.
“Oh this boy looks so cute but why can’t I talk to him” although she wasn’t trusting any boys but her heart would tell her that this boy seems to be a good boy. So she used to leave an offline massages for him in order to contact each other and be friends. One day they both were online so their conversation started.
Boy… how are u and how did u added me
Girl… I’m fine thanks well I was bored last week so I randomly added u.
They started questioning each other and she asked him have you got a brother or a sister he answered I have 5 sister but no bro. She reply but I have 2 sis and no brother. The time of Salah came and she had to pray and she asked if she can leave the conversation and pray but he was surprised that she prays. After she did her prayers she asked him why were you surprised when I said its time for me to pray? He reply afghans who live in foreigner most of them are not religious.
Weeks passed and one day she was so excited.
Girl… You know what
Girl… I have a new baby sister
They kept contacting each other even though he had exams on that time but he would still take out some time for her. At the same time he would study for exams.
Few month later they became best friends and one day he told her that he like her but she didn’t understand what does he mean by like. She called her best friend and told her he told her that he likes her but she doesn’t know why he said this because he loves her or just a simple like.
Hey dude … he told me he likes me but I don’t know what he means by that.
My Friend… ha ha stupid liking is the first step of love I think he loves u.
She also liked him but she needed time to know him more. He was so innocent and respectful boy she had ever meet. They became so closer and their friendship turned to love after a passing of time. She didn’t know much about his family and background but however she loved him and thought he is a right person for her life partner.
For every relationship to became stronger and trust worthy it needs time. Relationships are like building a house. Some relationship ends fast because it was build quick and the foundation was not strong enough but some relationships last forever the reason is that the foundation which that relationship was build was strong. The foundation of every relationship is trust, promises, honesty, truthfulness, modesty, respect and most important thing is a true love. Be the kind of person you would like to be with. Some people come into our lives, make footprints on our hearts and we are never the same. People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.
She always wanted someone who is respectful and modest towards girls. Someone who is honest but she never saw any boy with those qualities in him, she only saw those qualities in him. Even though she faced so much hardships, impenetrability and tests in life however she knew that when Allah tests you, it is never to destroy you, it’s to teach us something in life that we do not know. When he removes something in your possession it is only to empty your hands, for an even greater gift. She learned so much from those test and tried hard to become better Muslim.
Now they know each other and they love each other a lot. She has a full trust on him more than herself. Even though they sometimes have argument for some Issues but their love is strong enough and they are a smart people to find the solutions. No matter what we face and how we act towards it but it shouldn’t affect a person’s trust and love in relationship because it’s so hard to make one and takes a second to destroy it. This was a good story. It’s sad that it takes a long time for people to understand values and life. We as people are so consumed with our own lifestyles and duties we have made for ourselves.
I miss him more then he could ever know, I often ask Allah why did he have to go? I fell in love and he means so much to me, if he could look into my heart then he could see. I found something so special and it is for real, being without my love is so hard to deal. I'll be here waiting until I can be with you again, because not only are you the love of my life you are also my friend.
I just want to tell you,
I think of you every moment of the day.
And how much I love you,
Words could never even say....
I just want to tell you,
I love you with all my heart.
I wish for us to be together,
Never shall we be apart.
The devil is not your friend,
Nor will he reward your loyal deeds,
He lurks around in silence
looking for someone to deceive,
The devil is not your friend,
Nor will he ever fulfill your desires,
He’s just using you as his puppet
to lure more into eternal fires,
For every sin committed in life,
Required a large sacrifice,
So look up, real soon
my perishing friends,
Ask the God of the universe to heal and mend,
Your heart, soul and mind
For we are not promised tomorrows time,
Make it right with the Maker of the universe,
Humble yourself before it gets worse,
His grace will lift you high
His blood is your alibi,
His blood makes you clean,
My dear world you were already redeemed.
By: Sabina Nicole
A boy moved into our small town, lived just down the way,
His British accent and lovely white smile, just made my day.
He invited me to the Easter dance and bought me a corsage
From beginning to end, the whole scene seemed like a mirage.
I wore a new white and yellow dress my Mom sewed for me,
She placed yellow ribbons in my hair, they matched perfectly.
We walked hand in hand to the dance talking about school,
Meanwhile my stomach was churning trying to stay so cool.
We swayed to Hey Jude, I thought I was in heaven for sure,
Yet scared of what would happen next - was I too immature.
Then the song ended, if there were others there I was unaware,
He moved his hands up my arms and touched my lips with care.
My expectations were high, thought I’d know love right away,
But I felt nothing, my hopes dashed, we broke up the next day.
Written August 11, 2012
For Craig Cornish’s contest
Placed second in contest
Wow!... words cannot express,
Such beauty, such finesse.
The shape and color of those eyes,
No description will suffice.
Just like wine, you're finer when older,
And beauty to the eye of every beholder.
©2013 Honestly JT
My youngest daughter, she’s an autograph hound
She carries her Autograph book all around
She loves to attend all the Concerts in town
Where the stars are performing, she can be found
It’s always her goal, after hearing their sound
To get the signatures of the those so renowned
She’ll stations herself close to where they’ll come down
Through the pushing and shoving, she’ll hold her ground
Once she has them in sight and knows where they’re bound
“Through Struggle to the Stars”, signatures are found
I glanced across the dance floor and saw her standing there
I saw her looking straight at me and I tried not to stare
I was kind of shy back then, for girlfriends, I had none
So when I saw her look at me I thought “is this the one”?
My friend Jim beside me said “Go on, ask her to dance”
And you'd better do it quickly before you lose your chance
My heart was beating rapidly as again I met her gaze
Then I walked in her direction, my mind was in a daze
“Would you care to dance”, (if she said no I would just die)
“Yes, that would be very nice” was her quick reply
I led fair maid onto the floor, put one hand on her waist
And slowly did the box step, while inside my heart raced
I knew right then I was in love, wings were on my feet
I hardly said a word to her til we walked back to her seat
With a smile I thanked her, and with shaking voice asked when
There was another slow one, could we dance again
She looked at me and sweetly said, “well now, that would depend”
“I'll dance if you will promise to introduce me to your friend”
Hear me, hear me, sound me out,
I don’t understand what you’re about.
Euphoric drugs to boost your brain?
Why they're dragging your senses down the drain.
They mask your mind and make you doubt,
at the slightest word, you’re prone shout.
Oh oh ohhhh, how they tear you apart.
A false embrace to numb your heart.
But why won't you see, that they can kill?
As they choke out your spirit and shatter your will.
They can turn a goal into the ultimate reason,
while your soul screams out at this unjust treason.
True ecstasy doesn’t come from a pill.
It’s an innate feeling, with a costless bill.
A weed is something that grows wild and free,
Not a joint that you roll up, upon your knee.
And crystal, a long mineral process, as in rock?
But now I’m hearing, it’s made around the clock.
Man oh man…...will you please wake up?
You’re drinking serenity from a broken cup.
The dealers will treat you as though you were swine,
for money always feeds, their greedy jowl minds.
And they don’t seek just money, but power as well,
as they man the controls of this highway to hell.
Oh yeah, I'm mean to tighten my grip,
to speak out my mind as I watch you trip.
You aren't the cog of a wheel at a county fair,
turning around aimlessly, but going nowhere.
I know you can kick this, and make out just fine,
but how about the others, the ones waiting in line?
Is my facade fading away?
Is it wearing off?
Am I giving myself away?
Is my mask running off?
Has my plastered smile been seen through?
Has my pain shone through the chinks?
I wonder---What did I do wrong?
Is my facade gone?
When my son was young and so very, very wild…
I loved him dearly for he was my child.
But I feared the drugs, alcohol, and friends he did keep.
I knew they would destroy him, as I found my Eyes do weep.
We found a private High school with new peers to seek.
Miraculously, He found his own way back, and to college he did leap.
He chose a college and fraternity far away, as my eyes blurred again.
But the day he was on his own, became the best that’s ever been.
His fraternity became his brothers, and advice they dished out.
Study time became important, with gentlemanly behavior devout.
I’ll thank them each, in the leadership and help they all showed.
I’ll thank my son for growing up, and for becoming who we now know.
Community service brought blood drives, and teaching inner city kids.
They worked on their fraternity house, reclaiming it from the skids.
All parties had designated drivers to take every body home, all right.
They gathered clothes for the homeless to brighten up their life.
They built Homes For Humanity for to work he was never adverse.
Then, to add to the rest, he continued to work to become a nurse.
He put himself through college working in a hospital and ambulance.
He had learned a reverence for life, happiness, and yes, even patience.
My wild, wild son has found purpose in life and peace at long last.
And again my eyes do weep… This time with love so vast...
When a brainy girl is pretty
She turns a gritty mask
To those who don't know shitty
And always have to ask
Night after night, she sits down and contemplates
In her mind she knows her loss, but still she sits and waits
He, her husband, another statistic he has become
Killed in a far away land, another soldiers blood has run
Day after day she's taken back, to moments they had shared
Carving their names on a tree, showing teenagers cared
Through green fields of pastures new, season after season
At fourteen years old they clicked, love was a reason
Whilst she paces their family home, his steps gone forever
Killed in a far away land, another life now severed
In her time their kids will be told, daddy's never coming home
For the angels have asked him to stay, just to let him roam
Memories of their pasts resonate within her mind
For she knows she'll find no other, for he was one of a kind
Outside the window where she stares, under many seasons skies
She sits down and contemplates, why the Rose always cries
It makes me cry, the things you say,
You think its nothing when you walk away,
But when I'm stuck in my room on my own,
Your stinging words, start to clone.
You think you're funny, and your friends joke more,
You have no idea I'm so insecure,
And my confidence drops increasingly low,
But you don't see this, as I stand to go.
Before I escape you have more to say,
But I really can't stand this for another day,
Your sarcastic words sting as they hit me hard,
My eyes fill with tears, your words are like shards.
But you don't see me as much at all,
I am just a random girl to you, nothing more,
So next time you want to make a joke about me,
Stop and think, there's no point at all.
So, Dear Haters, don't hate anymore,
Because the tears on my face aren't there anymore,
The fake smile has been replaced with a genuine one,
Because your opinion doesn't matter to me,
So don't think you've won.
Let’s travel to the edge of the earth
With sunshine in our veins
Let’s see how much this life is worth
As we leave out all our pains
We’ll go for miles, and we won’t stop
The sun will soon attack
Our lives we’ll trade, our hearts we’ll swap
We’re never coming back
A whole new start, a second chance
Floats softly into June
We’ll wade our time in cheap romance
As we howl at a transient moon
An ice cold flood of independence
Forms our own wicked sense of style
Our world needs more transcendence
This world just needs to smile
The ringing in our ears is no longer just a sound
The image of freedom is no longer just a dream
Because this limitless world is just a playground
Or so it may seem
Wherever I go through out my whole life,
I end up struggling with lots of strife.
Thinking that my life is a total waste,
Wanting it to be over in a haste.
I can feel the pain inside my own heart,
Like someone through at my a deadly dart.
The wound is easing deeper and deeper,
Will the pain ever stop getting bigger?
Feeling emo is never a good thing,
Cutting your arm makes a really bad sting.
Blood is dripping from my arms and my heart,
Failing to dodge the largest deadly dart.
Drowning in all the lies and self pity,
I live each day but always feel sh*tty.
I have lots of thoughts about suicide,
But then I think about those who have died.
Those who have died not just from suicide,
But also those who are really nice guys.
...This "poem" was actually suppose to be a couplet (on any thing you want) for my english
class but i made this kind bcuz i was feeling emo that day...and also after i was done i read it
over and it almost sound like a rap song which, i guess, is kinda funny and cool.........
For years I ran to everything,
gods of lesser … much lesser things,
Desires defiled by forces and clones,
Youth holds a veil that keeps the truth from being shown,
All the walks in the dark and the dances of doom,
Altered my vision, my appetite became venomous perfume,
If I could have grasped that all along you were there,
If I would have known it was your love that cared,
I would not be writing this love poem to you,
For you are the one who pulls your children through,
You love in ways no one on this planet can do,
This is why I am thankful for you.
For years I cried tears of failure and pain,
Thought if I changed a mere guy I would somehow be sane,
All the fights and the struggles to gain some control,
Left me broken and tired with nowhere to go,
If I could have seen I was an "Anything" fiend ,
Striving to become spotless and clean,
I would not be writing this love poem to you,
For you are the promise that has proven to be true,
You love in ways no one on this planet can do,
This is why I stay thankful to you,
This is why I stay thankful to you.
By: Sabina Nicole
I know not of this feeling, that dwells inside my breast
This bittersweet sensation that will not let me rest.
It started with a smile you threw one day when you passed by
And lingers long beyond that time, and I'm not sure why
I know a lot of girls but never have I felt like this
Never have I fantasized about a single kiss
Of course I know it cannot be, we live two different lives
Yours where wishes always grow, while mine fight to survive
The paths we walk are not the same, destined not to meet
The dreams I carry in my heart will never be complete
I'm sure that I'll get over you, forget what could have been
And wonder what it would be like, to be sixteen again
And so she was the girl from Bair.
With ocean eyes and golden hair.
Of heavy heart and light despise
Of cupid's dart and winter's cries.
There came a day when things did end.
Around the corner of the bend
There came a truck and in dispair
The loudest word was spoken there.
And so she left to who knows where.
Whilst many cried because they cared.
She roams around in circles too,
And whispering winds and skies of blue.
We raise our glass towards the sky
And smile a memory although she died.
No tears tonight, not ever one.
For there she rests inside the sun.
She is okay we know for sure.
In better days to now endure.
And so she was the girl from Bair
With clemency; a heart so fair.
And as we lay in bed and sigh,
I'd like to say to you Goodbye.
Rest In Peace Best Friend
11-21-1996 ~ 06-21-2011
I know you hurt - I know you work,
You've never recognized your worth.
I feel your pain - its every day,
Please let your fears just wash away.
I know your scared - it's never fair,
Please realize I'm always there.
Your hope is gone - this feels so wrong,
Forever I shall sing our song.
I see your cuts- were stuck in ruts,
Please promise me you'll shed no blood.
I love your heart - a brand new start,
We never will be torn apart.
We'll run away - that flawless day,
I promise we will be okay.
Day by day I slip a little more
Feeling my sanity slip through my core
I ask myself questions and wonder if it's time
So I thought I'd pass the time with this little rhyme
I seem to be changing and wonder if it's true
If what I'm changing into is new
I'm undergoing metamorphosis as I sit and I think
I'm so bored I just may catch a wink
Would you think me sick in the head
If I told you I wish I were dead
But that's not something to play with it's just too serious
We'd never think of that 'cause you'd fear for us
I feel the change coming I haven't got much time
So I thought I'd pass the time with this little rhyme
He's taking over I can feel my mind doubling
Is it crazy to say I don't find this troubling
I am moving to the next stage in my life
I'm entering the last stage of my strife
He's taking over it's time to say goodbye
I am metamorphosising into a whole new butterfly
There was a girl that no-one knew her name
Everybody took for a silly little game
Every day she was crying
Every day she was lying
Until one day, she found a place to hide
And then she tried to commit suicide
But she was saved by someone very nice
But then tried to do it twice
But the second time she was afraid to do it again
So she started to get rid of her hate and pain
After a few days, she was strong and happy
That girl was I and my name is Julie
Now she doesn’t forget her powerful beauty Lives every day knowing that she’s lovely
Not worrying about what people say For great things were made from muddiest clay
Holds in her heart her power which is love For she was made from the Creator above
She doesn’t try to be somebody that you’re not She learned to be content and appreciate what you’ve got
She doesn’t forget whom she’s meant to be Never giving up she stays as bold as the sea
Mary, Mary, quite contrary said no too many times.
The boyfriend did cry foul, and left her standing in her prime.
But that’s OK I tell you, he wasn’t the right man to make a team.
And she was looking for true love, that illusive, lovely dream.
The important thing to remember is what this means to you.
Waiting can make sure that true love, is really, really true.
Nothing goes the way it is supposed to, not in the life of a teen
At this age, things happen that just make one want to scream
Relationships begin and so do the intricate feelings of love
Religion and atheism come into play making us wonder what’s above
Though some of us lucky folks know who we are both inside and out
Others roam aimlessly and wander all about
They’re lost and alone and afraid in the dark
Yet the ones with the light are not bold enough to embark
On the greatest journey they ever will take
Just to help those lost souls not drown in the lake
Yet teens make things more complicated than they must needs be
For the mind of a teen lacks sufficient maturity
The smallest of problems can emerge into a war
A war every time there appears a closed door
This is because their mind can't process why they shouldn't be allowed
To make their own decisions without a parental frown
Only when they’re older do they truly know
That their parents just had love to show
Then sometimes, sadly, the grown-up teen
Both the wallflower and the drama queen
Will leave their parents and leave the love
The love sent humbly from home and above
It’s saddening to see the broken bonds
That once existed between those that were so fond
Nothing goes the way its supposed to, not in the life of a teen
Their lives seem so complicated, but later it all will be a dream
My friends, our troubles are hardly at hand
The waves will wash them away like speckles of sand
Lift your heads up high and enjoy your young life
Though now it may feel so full of strife
You were born now for a reason, just let it be so.
Hold on to your moments, and don’t let them go
You can't change your past but you can learn from it
Its not about dwelling there, but more so what you earn from it
Sometimes I wish I hadn’t let others influence my prior choices
But other times I'm thankful for those few truthful voices
Guiding me in the right way, letting me know my wrong
Creating the fight inside me, changing the tune of my song
I wish you could see me now, and how much I've progressed
Now I see past my accomplishments, where my faults lay to rest
Blinded by reflections, who knew the mirror was convex
What I thought was simple and obvious, was much more complex
Today I look back and remember, how could I ever forget
How you were my satisfaction, but now you're my regret.
Fathers are the foundation for a child,
Their role is far from mild,
So many children grow up without a dad,
Deep inside it scars them bad,
So many daughters are never raised,
They lacked the encouragement and emotional praise,
Daughters need to be shown how to be treated,
So when they grow up they don’t become defeated,
Son’s need a man to look up to,
Someone to help push them through,
So many sons never learn how,
To stand by a woman and what it means to keep a vow,
Generations repeat when they don’t get to see,
The impact of a father and how positive it should be,
However, there is a Father that won’t go away,
His loves is like the endless sky,
He is the love that will never leave you or tell you a lie,
He will warm you up like the blazing sun,
Protect your life, and he does not need a gun,
He will wipe your tears when you are down,
He will calm your fears when there’s no one to be found,
His mercy is as deep as the ocean,
He will make you smile, while your going through lifes motions,
He will encourage you after you made a mess,
Then turn it around, and give you his best,
He will never leave you nor forsake you,
This kind of father will never break you,
A Father to the fatherless,
A Friend to the lonely,
A Love that’s pure and never phony,
So if you are alone on this Father’s Day,
And you have an earthly dad that caused you disarray,
Look up to the heavens, far past outer space,
And know that there is a Love that no man on this earth can replace.
By: Sabina Nicole
Betraying a friend is wrong
I should have known this all along
For I should have given you my trust
Instead I screamed and cussed
So to my dismay
To this very day
All I can think is I am sorry
Just know my eyes are starry
Because every time I look at you
I see what I almost blew
And it make me sad to think
That all in a blink
You could be just gone
And I would be lonely for so long
That all I try to say
Although it may be cliche
I love you, from your boy Jay <3
The monster became a living, walking nightmare
my dive into insanity, no longer perfect, containing a blank stare
I should resist, the monster will find me, run away with me
Pretend to hear my meager complaints, force me to see what I'm afraid to see
Blame and guilt, volleying right and left, up and down
It's crashing me closer, with every step, I'm falling to the ground
It's all a game, just play along, play the game, play it well
Brimming confidence, dissolved in thoughts, of what? I won’t tell
Demons, devil born souls, run quick, run fast, stand my ground
No sense of fear, n sense of foreboding, not even a slight sound
High speed, pursuit of hell, bent on going, bent on crashing
Giving into the power, life's faster, lights flashing
Crash and torment me again, my eyes close after all
The beginning of the end for me, feeling numb after the fall
Is there a way out? I'm different, distant and moved on
Listen to the water, calling, coaxing into death, I'm gone
Endless, empty cloud; dreamless oblivion; oxygen, exhalation
Am I dead? Still alive? Broken into pieces, I need motivation
Reality closes in, walls me in; until there’s nothing there
Death comes behind me, containing a blank stare.
Young ladies don’t cast your pearls before swine,
For their motives have many warning signs,
Cherish your beauty in everyway,
My darling sisters think twice before your so quick to lay,
Don’t become another statistic,
Remember your body is purely artistic,
Don’t sell your soul to a ravenous fool,
This is not just a promise, it is a lifelong tool,
Young princess, that’s who you really are,
Spare yourselves the unnecessary scars,
For out of the heart comes lies and deceit,
While you’re looking for love,
They are looking for fresh flesh to eat,
My angels, guard your treasure above all,
For at any moment you may slip up and fall,
Charm is deceptive and kisses from an enemy come with a price,
Don’t allow a void inside to become a blinded vice,
My darlings, saver your purity and youth,
Someday the right one will come to you with respect and truth,
Just be patient, and love yourself first,
Look above if you question your worth,
For a rose so beautiful and rare,
Has no idea what heaven has prepared.
By: Sabina Nicole
In a world with so much life and culture,
All you need is just a little something-something
It's better than a whole lot of something,
Because then it might be too much
All you need is a sample
It isn't the only thing to make someone happy
And if they think it is,
All they need is just a little something-something
Tell them they're better off without
Another terrible heartache
That there is nothing more better than being
Free from the name, "So-and-so's girl"
All they need,
Is just a little something-something
The hardest thing
Is watch you walk
away, with her.
The hardest thing
Is watch you kiss
The hardest thing
I've ever done,
Is watch you
Love her, instead of me.
Troubled youth, there is hope for you
Eyes are shut, blinded by ridicule
Troubled youth, your world has changed
Living in times that are very strange
Troubled youth, it’s time to wake
I know you’re sick of all the fakes
Troubled youth, they tell you such lies
Even in music, you get hypnotized
Troubled youth, your wounds are deep
Only God knows all the secrets you keep
Troubled youth, those who were close to you
Forgot to tell you that dreams do come true
Troubled youth, you just yearn for someone who will be there
Listen to your heart, and let you simply share
Troubled youth, you want us to look past the front you play so well
listen to the stories that you desperately need to tell
Troubled youth, I know a friend that sticks closer than a brother
Even if you don’t have a mother,
Troubled youth, this someone will hold your hand,
When everyone else just doesn’t understand
Troubled youth, raise your head high,
Call out far past the clear blue sky
In His name,
There is no shame
By His power,
You can bloom into a flower
Troubled youth, don’t give up
God can surly fill your cup
Troubled youth, life can get real scary,
In those times remember He promises that He will carry.
By: Sabina Nicole
Her skin white, drained
Her expression dark, pained
Eyes staring out, completely blank
Hair lifeless, dank
Her fingers curled, still
In her mouth, a cyanide pill
Your actions and your words do not coincide
I'm unsure if it's emotions or disinterest you're trying to hide
Please just be honest, just let me know
If you really care about me, or is it all for show
How do I differentiate between love and lust
When so much of us was based around arguing and distrust
My heart breaks daily with each time I wake
But i learn slowly that these are decisions only God can make
I don't understand you, I can't begin to unravel
All the promises you made, all the places 'we' would travel
I've learned I'm the only one I can trust, only one I can depend on
Life's hard but I'm stronger now that you're gone
Please don't try to stick around, Don't say the words I love you
When it comes to both of us, YOU'RE the one claimed you're through
My sky is black and so is yours,
The cold sea rushes upon our shores.
I love you dear, we'll run away,
We'll run until our heart fades grey.
Their love is lost but ours is here,
We'll save our love throughout the years.
And as we confess our true love,
Our black sky stares from up above.
The sky is jealous of our pair,
She's jealous of the love we share.
But she cant hurt us, don't you see,
We'll run away until we're free.
When you're looking at the full moon
As if it has taken some part of you,
When you are running from such a scare
But waking to see it was only a nightmare,
When you are pondering the color of love,
If it's red as a stain or white as a dove,
When you're sitting and thinking of mystery,
Or just trying to imagine just how much you mean to me,
When you put together the puzzle you call a life,
Even taking it apart when living in strife,
When you stray to thoughts of when we die...
And how honestly and humbly they'll miss you and I...
During all this and more, just want to
Remind you that, through all this, I'll always love you.
Smile as the world hates you.
Watch the knife cut through.
Identical slashes on your cheeks,
Infected and hurting for weeks and weeks.
Making a smile on your face,
Dripping blood all over the place.
Smile through the pain,
You know we will cut you again.
I see myself falling faster still, slowly losing all of my will.
I've come to know I am estranged, as some might call it 'being deranged'.
I see myself in a different way, in the mirror every day.
I watch myself smile but hear me say, that it has been a terrible day.
Some would say inside I'm dead, but its emotions overlapping inside my head.
I feel alone almost every day, even though people around me stay.
I can feel that I am weak, even more when I speak.
A voice barely audible to the people, a voice God couldn't even hear at the steeple.
I stay behind the group, because I fear being caught in the loop.
I hate the people that I know, and have this anger with nowhere to go.
The future that I may come to face, makes me fear what I know as my place.
A pathetic person in a shell, which cannot show the truth too well.
The emotions inside me, Never to show
Like plant, They continue to grow,
Around the corner, The monsters are lurking
Sipping on my soul, They just keep slurping
Filling it with hate, Draining my life
Like two magnets pulling my hand to the knife
Cowering away from the monsters and demons
All these strange creatures just look like heathens
Goblins and goons, The snaps and the booms
Crawling around in the rooms of my mind
Demons are heckling, Sounds are echoing
These calls and strange urges just keep beckoning
The voices and the anger and pain
Are bunched in my mind keeping me from being sane
In my shoes? You couldn't walk a mile,
Because for me? Insanity's the only thing in style.
A thought fell on me,
and calmly my heart sought to see,
to comprehend, in solitude,
its size and width and magnitude.
There's one who seems to me a gem,
whose influence no man can stem,
with eyes expressing great radiance;
a face engulfed with great brilliance;
I see a heart that calms my heart,
a face that tears my soul apart,
I see eyes that set me on fire,
and melt my heart with desire,
for true, unbounded genuine care,
not pain that I can hardly bear;
for such that fills my heart with joy,
what thought! With this I cannot toy.
I was a follower
Just trying to fit in
In this busy, busy empire
Then I met a person,
who believed she had it all
not in the bad way, as you would suppose
She gave me some advice,
Can you guess what it was?
Simple and plain,
Just powerful enough:
She said if you hold your head up high
But not so far
That your nose is in the sky...
If you're proud of what you acquire,
Your confidence shoots higher
If you speak up, voice your opinion,
Let people know that you’re not just another minion...
If you be who you want to,
And forget the people who say it’s not you...
And if you are kind to others,
Especially your mother
YOU are a leader.
You ARE a leader.
You are a LEADER.
If you stand up for the people that you may not even know
Tell that ignorant harasser just to get up and go
If you know where you should be,
There’s a whole lot you can see
If others think you're worth nothing,
Show them they’re wrong by saying
“You're wasting your time by trying to waste mine!”
And just walk away
Make sure to tell them
You’re a leader,
But what are they?
Cupid's arrow is broken in two,
The one that said that I belong to you.
You don't want to be with me anymore,
Thats what you said as you walked out the door.
You don't love me,you told me you never did,
So behind my shaddow I have hid.
I can't take this I just want to cry,
As you ignore me I just want to die.
Stop right there before you die,
I throw away the knife and cry.
Living hurts too much I don't want to live.
I can no longer forget or forgive.
No! This has become out of hand.
The knife is now banned.
Please save me.
Don't be deaf to my plea.
Don't let me do it.
Hold my hand and guide me through it.
Forget me memories, for you are unkind.
You simply won't let him escape my mind.
I still love him, but not enough to let it show;
I remember, it was over a year ago.
Coming up those stairs, his smile was so kissable-
From then on I knew my heart was takeable.
He sat on his favorite chair, dazed and wide-eyed,
Then at the park, he glanced at me, and sighed.
He fixed his gaze and swiped the smile right off my face;
He kissed me just once before a heartless girl was replaced.
Though almost silent, he could excite me, in a way...
He found me and fell in love with me that day.
Forget me memories, for you make me recollect.
I can't seem to lock away a secret.
I continue to convince myself to let go...
I cannot understand why I lie to myself though...
Please know this:
Someday being a wife,
Growing to mature,
A good future,
Willing to admit
You're used to it,
Odds and ends,
Wanting to live,
Love, and give,
Questions and mystery,
These are things that interest me.
The rose grows unbalanced to the right
Because she is deprived of light,
Water is scarce, but when it can run,
The rose soaks it up and leans into the sun,
Her thorns are stunted and endearingly tender,
Though this means they do not have strength to defend her,
Her petals are thin and so easily torn,
Such a delicate flower the bush never had borne,
But far fairer roses selfishly surround her,
And this is how the gardener found her.
So pull out her petals so pretty and pale,
And break off her prickles so fragile and frail,
Then cut off her head and leave her to decay,
Tend the wilier roses and just walk away.
And as her sap weeps as she withers and rots,
The rose is watched smugly by the flowers in their pots,
And as she lies dying in darkness on the floor,
They turn to the sun and lounge in it some more,
And when the rain washes the dead rose away,
The flowers are asleep and have nothing to say.
He has spoken some words, He has broken my heart,
This is my son my oldest whom I've loved from the start.
Where have I gone wrong, what have I done,
To feel such hatred and anger from my first born son.
I've shown him love and never quit when things got tough,
I'm not sure where this is going but I know it will be rough.
I think I've done well, I always taught him right,
Is this just a phase will it get better over night?
I am afraid of what may come, Not sure what to do,
Should I step back a while , and let go for a few?
My mind is overwhelmed with worry and fear,
He'll be an adult in less than a year.
Where do I go to become what he needs?
I thought i worked hard and planted all the seeds,
He is angry , and lost I know he doesn't want to hurt me,
He's my little boy, I just want him to see,
I will never be his enemy, I will always be there,
What he is feeling I may not understand but I do care.
This is boy my heart and my soul,
Is this what happens as they grow older?
Lord give me the strength give me the wisdom to get thru this,
Let me be what he needs there's not a moment I want to miss.
I am broken right now and lost in my sadness at this time,
I hope we can make it, and soon get passed this and climb.
Further and further in life as we go,
we need these things to happen to help us grow.
Now as a Mother and lost ,hurt and confused,
I pray we will make it and soon know what to do.
My best friend is gone, Ended her life
Turned around and she cut herself with a knife
Body lain, Soaked in blood in the bathroom tub
Why did she have to join the suicide club?
Kassidy's gone, I dont know what to do
My other friend Savannah, Im pretty sure she's gone too
Got a knife, got depressed, and cut her vein
Why is this happenin? Girll you were my main!
Left me all alone just to bite the dust,
God d*mn this f*ck*n life's a bust
Cheated on everytime left and right,
Can't one girl be faithful for a night?
Haha my friend has a british accent, so cute
You have a gun? Point it at me.Click, Shoot
In December i really hope this world will end,
Because of everything my heart has too many hole to mend.
I know now that I would go through
It all again to be an inspiration to you!
School is over and we're on top of the world,
Our futures ready to be unfurled,
Who knows where we'll be in twenty years;
Married and with successful careers?
Or deadbeats living on each other's floors,
There's just so many open doors!
But as one thing starts, another ends;
For fourteen years we've been best friends,
One summer more and we'll be dispersed,
But we're going to make some memories first,
These times will end before we know it,
So let's not waste a single minute!
I'm loving the rollercoaster ride,
As every day is spent outside,
And though it's sadly undeniable
That we are spontaneous and unreliable,
It only adds to the teenage thrill,
As all our wishes we rush to fulfill,
Staying out most every night,
Then dancing home at morning light,
Sleeping in most every day,
Sending waking hours into disarray,
Delighted smiles in impulsive filming,
Pure happiness captured as bonds are building,
And yet it's scary and sort of strange,
Not knowing how things are going to change,
But one thing's certain as round our necks
Our cherished friendship pendants rest,
As the dawn of a new era arrives,
We know we'll be friends for all our lives.
I wear a mask to hide my heart
This face in the mirror tares me apart.
I wear a mask to hide what others should not know
Without my mask I’d be forced to bare my soul.
I wear a mask because it is my shield
Without it everyone would know what I feel
I wear a mask to hide myself
I can’t let anyone know that I need help.
I wear a mask to hide my tears
I guess I hope it takes away my fears.
I wear a mask to hide my shame
And all of my self-blame.
I wear a mask to show everyone false inside
This way no one how much I cry.
I wear a mask to hide my heart
Maybe someday I can break this mask apart.
Thorns beneath my naked feet,
are tearing at my heels.
I'm walking off across your lies,
and this is how it feels.
Black tar poured out on the road,
leading to your heart,
My love becomes a heavy load,
to lift when we're apart.
These obstacles you choose
between my soul and yours,
just make me yearn to see
the more my heart endures.
What he is, to me as a child
He held me close when all was wild
He gathered my heart, when it was broken down
I knew he would be there, just always around
The tears that were cried never went to far
For he saw the pain and healed the very scar
The life behind this wonder of love
Can be loved apon from the One above
Take for granted not his kind hearted ways
He tells me this time, Its Just One of Those Days
I truely believe he loves me and my messed up life
But I know in my heart, on day, I will be his wife
Married by body, and bounded by soul
It was each others own heart, that made us whole
A whole in our ways, and a whole in our minds
Our love is so very rare, there are not many kinds
He once was a bad child, and killed all aspects to life
But deep inside all of that hatrid and anger, he was sharp as a knife
He gathered the peices, that were once my broken heart
And began mending them back together, so our loving could once
Manic mood swings now and then.
Don't worry, Day, I'll be there, just tell me where and when.
I love you and your smile, but worry about your tears.
Keep smiling, you know I understand you and all your fears.
You are so much like me, it's like looking in a mirror.
You can be there for anybody, but as for me, I can't hear her.
You can run from your fears and make a scene,
Be overwhelmed, and need therapy by age fourteen.
I'm here, I know how it is, how many times must I say
I love you? You are my partner in crime, I'm here for you Day.
Know that I'm here unti the depressing end
And that I would do anything, anything for the love for the love of my best friend.
Do you regret what you've been through
And if you could take it back, would you?
Would I have ever known you
If I had not been through what I've been through?
(For Matt- Good luck)
Grey clouds about to rain.
No failures, only experience to gain.
Thinking about past years.
Drowning in other's tears.
Living with the thought he's really trying,
Or perhaps he is only lying.
Scars and pains wanting to heal.
Having one heart too easy to steal.
Old habits I told to leave, and pack,
Want to come back to the surface, want to come back.
These are but regular things for me.
Though to you it may seem a misery,
Through a poet's eyes,
She is thought of to have the sweetest kiss,
Not one you would want to miss.
Only the bluest of periwinkle could truly describe her eyes,
And her frown could make a grown man cry.
All she wants is to be in her love's arms
And to fall in love again with his charm.
Still she walks alone.
She had noone to call her own.
Now she must know how to make her life begin.
So, until their paths meet again,
The only hand she has to hold is her own.
And she walks alone.
She'll walk around the house,
Not quite knowing where to go.
Just feeling the soft carpet
Run amidst her toes.
Then she stops at this door..
She puts her ear to it and listens closely
To this beautiful soliloquy.
She hears question after question,
Agreeing with it as much as the last.
"Why am I here now?"
"How have I changed through what has passed?"
She hears something,
Snaps back to reality.
I then begin to realize,
The only one that is speaking is me.
So as my mother calls me away...
We'll come back to this another day...
She cons the con artists.
She lies in his arms.
She steals his heart.
She fights herself when he's not there.
He gets angry.
He gets angry with how he world is.
He cuts away all her unwanted strings.
He disregards it when they say she's too good for him.
He doesn't trust.
He doesn't trust anybody but her.
They overcome hardships for each other.
They escape to uncharted corners of the mind.
They reveal themselves as well as so much more.
They read he book of life and understand together.
They know they love each other...
Or is it all just a thought?
Don't you tell me how you feel,
shut your trap now here's the deal,
you do all the things you should,
and if your'e really,really good,
I won't beat you with a switch,
I won't kick you in the ditch,
I won't scream and
punch your head,
just be glad that you're
Go share that and see what's what,
you think you're so stinking hot,
now go to bed or scrub the floor,
don't let me hear that stuff no more.
Though she's at home.
Though she is aware.
But she's far from breaking.
But she's not where she belongs.
She hides behind her glimmering eyes.
To hear about the world they're killing.
Before she knows her chance is taken.
She's been through emotional murder,
But, still, somebody loves her.
Call me deep ‘cause I drowned
in a sea of sorrow
in a rock by the door find the lock
and the keys tomorrow
call me lucky ‘cause I weathered the storm
that rages in my head
but I still can’t help but wonder
if we’re better off dead
caramels and carousels
and silly smiles we shared
the last time I stayed over
you told me that
We've always been like cousins
dancing on the wind
I thought that you would always be
just another friend
The pretty girls all chase you
and pull your hair and laugh
you always teased and said
I had a neck like a giraffe.
You've grown so tall and handsome
like Adonis in my eyes
I never dared to think of you
as being my life's prize
You say I have an aura
a shining in my soul
I think you have a fever
I fear you've caught a cold.
But I will take advantage
of your sickened state to say
I'll race you to the river
for I just might win today!
Carsick staring up at the sky
close the roof as the sun rolls by
my seatbelt is a gray tongue that licks me into my seat
I’m beat, I’m beat, I’m beat, I’m beat, I’m beat
I'd hike a mountain backwards,
Even if it were awkward.
I'd walk around in a fat suit
Then tell all my friends on poetrysoup.
I'd tell every other girl they smell,
Even if I would never live to tell.
I would sing you a song
And ask your parents to sing along.
I would spike my brownish-blondish hair
And sport a big smile like I didn't care.
I would go to the mall on a shopping spree
And get kicked out for jumping on all the Christmas trees.
I might whisper,"I love you" in your ear,
Then scream it out for all the world to hear.
I would go to a store and jump on the beds
Then fall off just to hit my head.
I'd jump off a bridge just because I was bored
(But not without a bungee cord).
I would perform for an audience until they 'booed'
Then go and scuff all the skater's shoes.
I would tell you this poem in brief
Just for comic relief.
I would face the winter without my gloves
Just for your smile (Just for your love).
I'm lying here, allover I'm shaking
Without you my heart is breaking
We've been loving each other for over a year
And I feel so empty without you here
I don't know if we're broken up or if you're just mad
But still what I did, it seems really bad
I DO know that my next line is true
You-know-who's not on my mind it always been you
I'd be a fool to let another guy cross my mind
With a great one like you always by my side
I'd miss all the things that we used to do
"Our" Love, our kisses, noses and Noggin too.
Although my next line does not really ryhme
But, David Gloeckner will you be mine?