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Bloom Not, Wolfsbane

Bloom not, cruel wolfsbane
In this forward spirit of mine
Let the moon dim and wane
For love has diseased my kind 

The girl was luscious in the wake
Rising at break of dawn
If only she knew I was a mistake
Before we made the bond

I grew fond of her everyday
And night gave me loathe and dread
My heart was weak, I couldn’t send her away
But fed in her desires instead

I kissed her in the forest of green
I had forgotten what I am
I gazed into those eyes, so keen!
A smooth and gentle lamb

 
One day I stopped to think a bit
My stomach wrenched and twirled
Through love I had lost my sense and wit
To a pitiful village girl!

Avoiding her best I could
I hid from beauty’s caresses
But again she found me in the wood
And so grew the obsession

But so grew the moon
And the waning was abstaining
Good night, wonders of the noon
With memories remaining

Alone I wandered in the cold
Knowing it was coming
The sky grew dark, the sun was sold
Behind the madness blooming 

Transforming! Changing!
My mind went all a blur
Rage deforming! Madness deranging!
I couldn’t think of her…  

The time was gone!
The night had come!
I thought I was alone
But then I saw her standing there
Pale and stiff as stone

I woke up that dawn sitting there
On the forest floor
And there lay she all bloodied and bare
The lamb that I adore!

The wounds I found were like a gift
I know they were from my girl
I’m glad she fought her will to live
As I blindly devoured her

An honorable lamb with bloodied hooves
She’ll never leave my vision
Sacrificed for ravenous wolves  
And no cry for jurisdiction 

 Bloom not cruel wolfsbane
In this forward spirit of mine
Let the moon dim and wane
For love has diseased my kind 

-an oldie , hehe
For Pd's Contest : )



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This Song is for my Mother

This song is for my mother
Let her hear me cry
I couldn’t bring myself to write it
‘Til this darkened day arrived
A song about old promises 
Made so long ago
Created and cremated
Ashes of the words I spoke

Long separated by the miles
Distanced from her golden smiles
Memory of a mother
Shared my dreams and really cared

Long separated by the miles
Distanced from her golden smiles
Mama…
I know I wasn’t there……

For you

Would have placed 
A magic carpet 
‘neath your weak and shaky legs

Would have raised
A strong west wind
Let you breathe with ease again

Would have bribed 
God’s venal angels
Come and soothe your endless pain

Would have vanquished
All the demons
And bring peace to you again

Be the child
I never knew
In a land
We won’t grow old

Be the light
I always loved
Warmed my dark 
And lonely soul

Be the girl
Playing games
In a world 
The sun won’t set

Be the laughter
Calms my heart
I never will forget
I won’t forget, won’t forget

This song is for my mother
Let her hear me cry
Couldn’t bring myself to write it
‘Til this darkened day arrived
Song about old promises 
Made so long ago
Created….cremated
Ashes of the words I spoke

I broke my promises, oh mama
Now you’ve gone away 
I’m broken
Drowning in the pain each day

I’m  drowning…drowning...drowning…drowning

This song is for my mother
Let her hear me…….



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DANCE AMONG THE FLOWERS

Dance among the flowers
Let's have a party and a tea
Dreaming of the future, and
How I think that things should be
Life should be an adventure
A Prince should take me to the Ball
The wind always fills my sails
When I'm with him, gonna have it all

I dream out loud to make it clear
This little girl has no fear

Growing up is not easy
So much is not what it seems
No time to smell the roses
Or to think of childhood dreams
Life just becomes survival
My Prince was really a pauper too
My ship never left the harbor 
Happy days are all too few

My dreams long gone, nothing near
Grown up girl.. So many tears

Hide behind the surface
So you think that I am strong
Inside I'm falling to pieces
How could everything go wrong
Life can make you bitter
A shell of what you could be
Drowning out in the ocean
So far out that none can see

Prayed for a miracle, a new song
That a true Prince would come along

Met you the next morning
Your humor made me smile
The way you looked at me
I hoped you'd stay for awhile
You came a little closer
Then you gently took my hand
Words can't describe it all
Lost dreams were being fanned

You were my miracle, you were my song
All of those childhood dreams, They were inside all along

Dance among the flowers
Let's have a party and a tea
Dreaming of the future, and
How I think that things should be
Life should be an adventure
A Prince should take me to the Ball
The wind always fills my sails
When I'm with him, gonna have it all

I dream out loud to make it clear
This little girl has no fear

You were my miracle, you were my song
All of those childhood dreams,
They were inside all along


*This is the story of a little girl growing up with amazing dreams, only to be devastated by the harsh realities of life.  Then by chance, in her adult life,  she meets someone that restores her belief in dreams she thought were long gone.
12-16-14


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OK

There's no light in my eyes
faded for so long, i cannot see the hope
that was once there long ago.
as these tears fall, all i can do
is look around, i cannot
hear the sounds of your voice
coming through.

But i'll be OK
please don't try to follow me
it's not safe to go alone
there are things you shouldn't see.
i'll be OK
i know you must hate me
just give it some time
someday you will be fine
just know that i'm all right.

my soul grows cold like this tomb stone
the darkness always falls, pitch black
now i am all alone.
and as i fade, i guess i'll cease to be
nothing left inside i have died
so you could breathe.

But i'll be OK
please don't try to follow me
it's not safe to go alone
there are things you shouldn't see.
i'll be OK
i know you must hate me
just give it some time
someday you will be fine
just know that i'm all right.

in my dying breathe
the air rushing from my chest
i guess there's nothing left, no parting
shots no more time for arguments.
looks in your eyes, i know you'll
leave me now. our time has just
run out. our time is over now!

But i'll be OK
please don't try to follow me
it's not safe to go alone
there are things you shouldn't see.
i'll be OK
i know you must hate me
just give it some time
someday you will be fine
just know that i'm all right.
just know that i'm all right....


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WITHOUT YOU

Without you
I'm a shell of a man
A lonely drifter
Who has no plan
Without you
Just bone and skin
Expressionless face
Replaced my grin
Without you

Without you
Nobody's home
The fire's gone out
Heart turned to stone
Without you
No up and down
What's right or wrong
I'm falling down
Without you

So I'm longing tonight
Wishing you were here
Down on my knees
Shaking.. full of fear
I'm calling out to God
Praying you might hear
Girl, I'd give anything
If you'd only come near

Without you
I'm a castle in the sand
The tide is coming in
I'm too weak to stand
Without you
I've lost my love song
Just meaningless days
All hope is gone
Without you

So I'm longing tonight
Wishing you were here
Down on my knees
Shaking.. full of fear
I'm calling out to God
Praying you might hear
Girl, I'd give anything
If you'd only come near

And just one chance is all I need
Unzipped heart, my soul's plead

Oh, I'm longing tonight
Wishing you were here
Down on my knees
Shaking.. full of fear
I'm calling out to God
Praying you might hear
Girl, I'd give anything
If you'd only come near

12-14-14


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RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS

A random act of kindness
on a cold and dark city street
A meal to calm a raging belly
new shoes to cover cracked feet
Fresh water for a tired thirst soul
a loving word to give hope a spark
I can't comfort all of God's orphans
but tonight I'll make a start

You might think it insignificant
that it's just a candle in the wind
But one random act of kindness
For that one child is such a win
So I see things very differently
To me it's a candle in the dark
And from one flame love spreads
Will tonight you make that start?

Yes, one random act of kindness
Given to the least of these
A pillow for their precious head
A bandaid for their bloodied knees
Perhaps their first "I love you"
A tender look into lonely eyes
We can make such a difference
Let's get together and start to try

You might think it insignificant
that it's just a candle in the wind
But one random act of kindness
For that one child is such a win
So I see things very differently
To me it's a candle in the dark
And from one flame love spreads
Will tonight you make that start?

Contest: Debbie's "Random Acts Of Kindness"
Date: 7-29-14


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Lost Love

If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
You fill my days, my nights, my dreams
You’re all that’s on my mind
Your laugh I’ll never hear again
Your smile I’ll never see
Memories now are all I have
Since loneliness found me
Time was never on your side
Your short life had to end
Now I'm left in pain without
My love and my best friend
The sadness, the emptiness
The pain I have to face
Will never leave my life
For you’re a loss I can’t replace
Even though the rain will fall
And the sun will still shine on
My life will just exist
Because my whole world now is gone
You are an Angel high above now
Watching over me
But someday I know once again
Together we will be
For when my time on earth is done
You’ll come and take my hand
And guide us to eternal love
Together in God's land..


By Raina Hutchins


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Unanswered Poems

Don’t send me more 
Of your tragic poems
My dear 
Covered in blood
Of your monthly flood
Of tears

Don’t send me more 
Of your angry poems
My dear
Carved with the knife
Of your molten spite
And fears

I’m just a peddler 
With a cart
Bringing discount words
To hearts
Broken hearts across the land
Woman left without her man
Broken hearts throughout the world
Anguished boy and crying girl

Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to read, for me to bear
Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to get from here to there

Don’t send me more
Of your bitter poems
My sweet
Forged in the fire
Of your endless ire
And grief

Don’t send me more 
Of your hopeless poems
My sweet
Ripped from the womb
Of the lonely room
You keep

I’m just a peddler 
With a cart
Bringing discount words
To hearts
Broken hearts across the land
Woman left without her man
Broken hearts throughout the world
Anguished boy and crying girl

Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to read, for me to bear
Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to get from here to there

(You see that shadow on the road
Trudging ‘neath its heavy load
A heart weighed down by sands of time
And your poems only make him cry
And he won’t add them to the pile
So he can walk another mile)

(And he won’t add them
To the pile
So he can walk 
Another mile)

Too heavy, dear 
Too heavy, dear
For me to read 
For me to bear

(They make him sad
Make him cry
Beat him down
Deep inside)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear

They make me sad
Make me cry
Feel as though 
I want to die

(And he won’t add them
To the pile
So he can walk 
Another mile)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear

(A heart weighed down 
By sands of time
And your poems 
Only make him cry)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear



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Never Told You

Tired of talking 
‘bout weather
Other trivial things

Tired of talking 
‘bout food
The price of tangerines

You may outlive
This aging man
Before I go
Please understand

Never told you how 
I love you 
When I held you
In the dark

Never told you how
I love you
I was never
Very smart

I never told you how
I love you
When I kissed your 
Baby face

Never told you how
I love you 
And I pray it’s 
Not too late

I would  tell you, 
“That’s what men do…manly men don’t say,  ‘I love you’”
That was my alibi
But what men do should be corrected
What men do can’t be accepted 
If it makes your woman cry

Tired of talking 
‘bout scandals
Rumors of the day

Tired of talking 
‘bout old mistakes
Who deserves the blame?

The Winter of our lives
Is drawing near
Let’s change it to Spring
From year to year

Now I’m telling you 
I love you
Though the words are coming late

I’m telling you
I love you
And it feels so good to say

I’ll love you in the morning         
Love you through the night
I will love you through the tears
And all the tragedies of life

I’ll stay with you forever
Love you every day
Love you,  love you, love you
It feels so good to say

Love you, love you, love you, baby

Feels so good to say…..

Love



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Poem of heartbreak

Here I am, laying on my bed
Silently crying while I read
About the things I left unsaid
And all my tears being shed

Did you know, you broke my heart
When you left, when we were apart
But the things that you told me
Right before you said you'd flea

All I have left is the memory
Of your last words, said in glory
"I think we need a break"
And so now I'm left awake

Here I am, laying on my bed
My depression being fed
By my own record player
Only adding sadness, layer after layer

Your last words, are those on repeat
That's what I wish to delete
The image of you running off
Just thinking you were tough

The thought that's destroying my mind
Nor confirmed or denied
"Did I do something wrong"
My friends told me I was strong

I have managed to smile everyday
Even though I see the world in grey
I miss you badly
Pretending to be happy, sadly

I can't see you clearly in photos
My emptiness grows
If you were here,I could've touched you
But then again, was our love ever true

So is it wrong for me to want a kiss
On the lips that I dearly miss
Not just from anyone
Just the one who left and run


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The sensitive soldier

The sensitive soldier

A boy like him, how could he think?
That a soldier he could be?
He was soft, poetic, sensitive
And yet this lad, did he
Join the army for to fight
To keep his country free
The lad he was adventurous
So he joined up happily.

Then he learned the very hard way
That war is for the strong
There’s no place there for heart and soul
The boy did not belong
All the stuff he saw, it broke him down
And made a mess of him
He had a breakdown, fell apart
His each day felt so grim.

They discharged him, and he became
A kind of nowhere man
He did not fit in anywhere
And now this man called Dan
He lives alone, and writes his stuff
And drinks a lot of beer
Cause what his life is all about
He really is not clear.

30 January 2014 @ 0645hrs.







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The Power Of Pride

As I surmise all that is me strewn and cluttered, 
My conscious lies casually shorn and shuttered, 
For here lie the spoils of stubborn iniquity, 
I shuffle and toil, floundering in frailty. 

Oh what great havoc, what conscious so lewd, 
Creates such traffic which now spoils the fruit, 
Of truly righteous deeds committed by a scurrilous man, 
Of whom I could no better know, no better understand, 

For this terribly lost and forever forlorn soul, 
Is none other than me shivering and sniveling so, 
And as helpless as I suddenly appear to be, 
I now understand the strength pride provides so easily, 

For there is purpose in pride, yet none in shame, 
As ambition carries us blind to who’s at blame, 
And just where is the woe when the devil may care, 
For we are soon found alone, our conscious left bare, 

And as I embark into this desolate place, 
My horrors so dark, my fears crimson in taste, 
Forward I race into the perilous pit, 
With none other to blame for this simple life I quit.


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Silently I Cry For You

I wander through this land 
Of broken promises and dreams
Clouded by the death of you
Wondering what life means

My colourless existence 
In a world of black and grey
Reflects the person I’ve become
And who I am today

Without you in my life 
I seem to have no life at all
No one here to guide me
Or to catch me when I fall

I almost hear you breathing
I almost feel you near
I almost feel your touch
Sometimes it’s almost like you’re here

This jigsaw puzzle of my life
Has pieces I can't find
For half of me went with you
Leaving half of me behind

I feel so cold and lonely
So battered and so bruised
I feel so insecure right now
Tortured and confused

My life is like an open book
Written but unread
Thoughts I never told you
Words I never said

The voice of hidden truth, I know
Will never now be spoken
Though time may heal my scars
I know my hearts forever broken

Silently I cry for you
Silently I pray
For silence is the loudest spoken word
I never say

I can’t escape the darkness 
I’ve come to know so well
While you are free in heaven
I still reside in hell

And here I will remain 
Until the day my life is through
Until the day God takes my hand
And leads me back to you..



By Raina Hutchins


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Memories

Thinking back on you and I
It doesn’t seem that long
It’s hard for me believing how
The years have come and gone
Everything about you still
So fresh inside my mind
Precious memories locked away
But never left behind
I shared with you my daytimes
But my nights I spent alone
It tore my heart to know your nights
Were not spent on your own
I knew the risks involved
Because you wore a wedding ring
But I never knew the pain for me
That wedding band would bring
For years my heart was frozen
From a love that it once knew
But I knew my heart had melted
When I fell in love with you
With you and I together
So many things were shared
But most importantly
I never said how much I cared
I tried to hide this love from you
Afraid to let you see
Not knowing of the child we’d made
Growing inside of me
I knew I’d never be with you
I never could have stayed, because
We took away this tiny life
That you and I had made
There’s nothing else you could have done
On you I lay no blame
But now my life feels empty
Full of sadness, loss and shame
I would give my all to spend
Another night with you
For you to hold me in your arms
And say you love me too
But if this never happens
Then I want to tell you still
I loved you then, I love you now
I know I always will...


By Raina Hutchins


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I Cry

I lay awake all through the night
While others lay asleep
As I think of you and I 
The tears roll down my cheek

I cry because I love you
I cry because I care
But most of all the reason why I cry
Is you're not there

My heart is torn and bleeding
A wound I cannot heal
And in my eyes you see you the hurt
And pain I can’t conceal

I wonder if you think of me
When you are all alone
I wonder if you miss the nights of passion 
We have known

I wonder if the smile you wear
Is just a fake disguise
I wonder if it's me you're seeing
When you close your eyes

You never will be mine again 
But still I won't regret
And pray you will remember
What I never will forget...


By Raina Hutchins


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Boy and Girl

I feel my mind go wondering back
And let the years unfold
To when I first met you
When we were only twelve years old

So innocent and young we were
Just holding hands together
When we shared our first kiss
I thought you’d stay with me forever

But then as we grew up
I left behind my school girl days
It broke my heart to turn our backs
And go our separate ways

And as the years passed by
I tried to put you from my mind
For I had family ties now
Leaving memories far behind

But you and I had something
That forever would be there
A love that grew from innocence
That no one else could share

And though I tried forgetting
In my heart you did remain
For deep inside I knew one day 
Our paths would cross again

We couldn’t hide our feelings
Though we both knew it was wrong
For we were man and woman now
The boy and girl had gone

But deep inside we’d always known
That 'we' could never be
While you were tied to someone else
I had my family

So once again you walk away
But never will you know
The sadness and the pain inside
The tears I'll never show

The heartache that will stay with me
Until the day I die
For you will always be the love I lost
Who said goodbye...


By Raina Hutchins 
(written for my friend)


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Across the Way - The Sequel

Another day and the dishes have piled up yet again
So back I end up in front of the window 
I do not glance up, but concentrate
On the dull, dirtied objects before me
I do not hear the voices from yesterday
I still wallow in the grime of gray
I smile in malcontent
As I lather the dishes with soap
Against my will, I look up 
To see a lone, fat man opening a refrigerator
He is shirtless, bulgy, and he looks pregnant
My first supposition is to laugh
But I only look back down at the dishes
Not wanting to stare at the fat man
Not wanting to think he looks pregnant
For sure not wanting him to be my neighbor
Across the way

Against my will again, I look up
The fat, pregnant man is gone
I see ornaments on the refrigerator
Some pictures, some magnets
Family; not so different from my life
But yet, there is a transparent fancy of mystery
A flashy rage of difference in the silence
Oh, so quiet
The blazing sun sprays its light upon the hour
Not only are my hands wet from the soapy water
The deafening tone of quietude
Revels in me a mixture of loneliness and physical heat
A burning desire for something not seen
A desire for utter disgust of my newly found neighbors
But I find myself not disgusted at all
Until I look up again and see a fully naked man at the window
Across the way


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do you

do you hear me 
while youre talking so loud
do u see me 
in an open croud 
do you hope that you see me 
in youre life of possibilities 
does it happen like it does to me
while youre laughing without me 
i dont think you see what it does to me 
youre in youre own  stability 


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Goodbye

I will take your bitterness and I will rise above From you, I do not feel the love I cannot fight you but, that does not mean I cannot win I simply will not allow you to break me down, again You want me to fall Now I am taking a stand For your words and your weakness Go hand in hand I will no longer live my life for you or anyone else It is time that I start living for myself It is your turn to listen to what I have to say I will no longer let you stand in my way You are a part of my life I must let go You are someone I wish I did not know I must follow the path ahead of me Courage and strength will see me through For, I am finally done with you So take these words as my final cry For this is the day that I say goodbye


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Violet

In London, away in a terrace
Half-hidden with elm trees and grime,
Lived young Violet, in her parents' house,
Left alone for near all of the time,

As her mother had no patience to teach her
And her father was working all day,
Violet read to herself through her childhood
Forgetting her seclusion in play,

Any friends she made as a young woman
Would laugh at her stitches and cloth,
For they knew that Violet was quite useless
And so showed their neat needlework off,

Poor Violet kept trying her best, but
Each time everyone ran her down,
She retreated back into her mind's warmth
Far away from that cold-blooded town,

Then one night, as the raindrops were piercing
Through the rueful, restricting twilight,
Violet threw on her Sunday attire and
Did at once in the darkness delight,

So she ran through the alleys and gardens,
Dancing down the pitch-black London streets,
Her beautiful dress flew about her
As she skipped past the other deceits,

Violet's stories swam round in her memory
As she flew through the night and the stars,
And she bathed thoroughly and with relish
Until Violet was cleansed of her scars,

Now her heart was open and happy,
So she laughed and fluttered her tail,
Carelessly gliding free through the water
And onwards to the ocean did sail.

As the weary sun rose on the next day
Her friends could be seen on the pier,
Dabbing at their dry eyes with their hankies,
Voices straining trying to sound sincere,

"It has hurt us so indescribably,
That because of her poorly-sewn hems,
Violet felt she was inferior to us
And has drowned herself in the Thames."

Violet's parents had not yet noticed
The absence of their only daughter,
And they would understand even less
How she came to be dead underwater,

But Violet was now free to prosper,
To swim and to dance and to glide,
And with angels and mermaids to play with,
She would always in her dreams reside.


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Martyr for the Unorthodox word

If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word


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A FALLING MAN

The wind passed through the trees 
A delicate touch 
A delicate leaf, 
fell on me 

Crisp and tan, 
down it fell... 
You cannot change 
A turning leaf 
A falling leaf 
A falling man 

I held it in my hand 
So light... 
So fragile... 
How this leaf could withstand 
A Summers season 
Now a dying Autumn, 
in this changing land 

The colour turned... 
The leaves fell on me 
A falling man, 
in a changing Autumn land 

A delicate touch 
A delicate leaf 
Could be crushed 
Yet, with a soft blow 
I let an Autumn leaf go 

The leaves falling... 
From an Autumn tree 
Crisp and tan 
A falling man 
A falling leaf 
A falling me 

I will appear 
Lush and green, 
in a summer next year 
A delicate leaf 
you have seen 
you have let it go 
in a changing colourland so 


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Mrs. Brown You've Got A Lovely Jewel There!!

Mrs. Brown you've got a lovely jewel there,
Jewels like her are something rare...
She can't  disguise it,
Ruby's red eyes show "blues" in it,

Fred, you wanna add the refrain?
Don't worry about Herman & pals-
They're all hermit crabs now-a-days.


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let her go

she wants to do
what she wants to do
even if she don't ask
she has dreams that is bigger than this town
i just need to relax
that car don't have enough room for me
even if she ask me to tag along
i just don't want to let her go

(chorus/hook)
for the start of this life
she's ready than she ever been
for the rest of my life 
i just stare at this picture on the wall
wondering if she's alright
I've counted all my blessings
but i just need to let her go

she gots to do
what she gots to do
even if she doesn't call back
in 4 years she's graduated
i'm there to watch her succeed
even though she doesn't see me 
she can hear me from a distance

(repeat chorus)

she says things are getting better
when she knows it's falling apart
i wear this smile on my face to ease my broken heart
only if she knew
what i wanted to say
to put a smile on her face

(repeat chorus)


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Goodnight Moon by Shiveree

 I've told some of you about this  song- it  is fall incarnate, with a hint of danger
check it out, you will wind up seeking the C.D.....It is haunting!  Visually rich, 
musically beautiful...just ast Christy!!


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The Wanderer Part two

I grabbed her hand
Hope and love sweling
Mixing into an enticing brew
Whose flavor
brought forth
all the wild creatures
from the desert araound me.
They applauded m success
and ran back for their's

But I had the luck
of the blessed
I held her hand tight
Told her who I was
She nodded
Her light engulfed me

Suddenly my fright swelled inside
What if she left too?
The dark roadis too hard
for me now.

She grabbed my hand
Told me she loved me
In twelve seconds
she smelt my fear
tasted my love
Tired of my existence
and departed

I was rooted to the spot
Her flesh's warmth
had yet to leave my palm
when she passed into the sunset

Shock numbed my feet
Shock numbed my tongue

It was dark
Darker than it had been
Too dark to breath
Too dark to walk

I fell by the roadside
To the vultures
Even crawling was too hard
I poked out my eyes
So no more beauty could touch my soul
I cut off my feet
So I could not walk
It took all of two seconds
for the vultures to come
My end is here
But death is preferable to pain
I welcome the big grey birds."


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THE THINGS YOU DO

Time to let this go 
The things you do 
The things I know 
The things that hurt me too 

These years 
So many tears 

I cannot go on 
This battle is never won 
For there shouldn't be a war, 
between two..................... 
This irretrievable flaw 

For beauty inside, 
takes time to find 
Sometimes not at all 
I cried 
Trying to reach your mind 
My heart to fall 

This flaw 
The heart you tore 
The things you show 
The things you know 


The things you haven't given 
I have forgiven 
These years 
So many tears 


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Orange

Round and sweet
     it enters your
bloodstream
     you are transformed
Heart pounding - 
         vibrating lights and 
colors
        It seems that our
eyes
     will now see the 
colors
      that it must see
if we are to continue 
       in this way
  Let's not remove the
dawn from our lives
    we'll be happy once
more
    surrounded by moving shadows
Night's dark cloak
has faded
Greet the new day
with the marvelous
colors of orange


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For the love of Princess Rose

For the love of Princess Rose.

Way back in the darkest times
There lived a wondrous Knight
He had blue eyes, and a handsome face
And his mind was very bright
He lived for goodness, his ideals
Were the highest in the land
And everybody loved this knight
They thought him mighty grand.

He shrunk from no one in the land
He’d fought ten dragons too
As he vied for the love of Princess Rose
Oh, he loved her so true
Yet she was loved by another knight
And so they had to fight
That was the way in those dark days
It was considered right

A tournament it was arranged
And the two men faced each other
Both swore that until the end
They would never love another
The fight was on, as Rose, she watched
The man she loved so much
Fight a man she could not bear
Who her heart did not touch.

Now Don, he was the Knight of choice
He fought like a blessed demon
He was not an evil man
Yet he was filled with Venom
And when the fight was over with
Her knight of choice did win
As love did conquer everything
And the princess married him.

13 August 2013 1147hrs.


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London

She called herself London
On that day 
She fell from the sky
Child of apple blossoms
Dancing wildly
Into your mind

The snake that hung from her neck
Bites your hand
Expels you from Eden
Tears into the cool flesh
Of your madness
Posing as reason

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share

Her name was London
Call her London

She called herself London
On that night
She prayed to the moon
Apollo’s lyre
Played darkly
In a portent 
Of your own doom

The hell she hides 
In her soul
Toxic drug you’ll never escape
You crave the milk of her touch
Her strange and dangerous ways

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share  

Her name was London
Call her London

My baby, London
Call her London
My moon-girl, London 
Call her London

I love her, London
Call her London
Forever, London 

I call her London……


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My Cousin Alf

Written by my Cousin Susan Northwood who thinks she cannot write. She wrote this poem for me. pleaser let her know that she can write very well, she is also an excellent artist. By the way, I am back from my holiday, and glad to be back with you all.





My cousin  Alf.

Whilst searching on the net one day
A name jumped out on me
Peter Duggan, as he is known
My cousin, that he be.
A crazy man, a writer too
Speaks his mind, I kid not you
He loves to argue, and debate
Gossip, and trivia, he does so hate.

He wrote me emails, all the time
And many poems in rhythm, and rhyme
His words were calming, made sense to me
Helped my fears,and anxieties.
Life for him had not been kind
Bullied, beaten, and a troubled mind
But here he was, helping me
With all my anger, that He could see

As time did pass, my life got better
Thanks to him, and all his letters
Back and forth, we wrote like mad
Happy laughing, and sometimes sad.
Now here in Oz, I've come to see
My cousin, and his family
Yes he's just how I imagined
Loves all life, and writes with passion.

He argues, talks, and often shouts
Sings, and laughs, but what about?
Yes, he's blunt, and can be rude
He'll shock you too, if you're a prude
But underneath his suit of armour
There stands a man, who's met his karma
All he wants is peace in in life
No more trouble. fights and strife.

There's many souls who cannot cope
With this loud, outspoken bloke
But I know where this man is from
He says it in his words and songs.
So for me he is not Peter
Or Billy, John or Ralph
He simply is my cousin 
Also known as Alf.

Written by Susan Northwood, for Peter Duggan.


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I'm Coming Home

He looks through the curtains as the meal is served

The sweat on his brow and the I.V. drips

Mom wears her apron with a picture of a turkey on it

It was her favorite and the music playing

And I'm coming home to where I'm loved

Father sits watching the game as the plate goes round

He had  money on the wrong side but he swigs a beer

Everyone seems happy and content so he knocks on the door

No one hears  and he stirs,trying to break free of the restraints

And I'm coming home to the warmth when I'm cold and alone

Where a man works and his wife cleans and raises the boys

Where desolation has no place to hide and no regret

And Mom hasn't begun drinking because her son left and will never come back

Where the geese still fly South to the warmth

Dogs bark and people have to stand to switch the channel

And I'm coming home

No cell phone or video games to gaze at and 24 hour news

The nurse brings a syringe and plunges it into my I. V.

The Angel wipes my soaking brow and gives me comfort

I'm alone with the mist and the murmur of the crickets

I'm coming home

The house is quiet and emptiness within

But Mom left a light on with expectation

A sign was set for all to know I'm coming

The quiet is lovely and the light welcomes

Home


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When the Lavender Returns

As cold as ice
Wrapped round your brain
And darkness unfolds
You’re breathing in pain

It’s been freezing here   
In this Land of Shattered Dreams 
It’s been freezing here 
This corrupted winter stings 

It’s been freezing here  		
(Où est la Lavande?)
Your body can’t stay warm  	
(Où est la Lavande?)
 It’s been freezing here  		
(Où est la Lavande?)
This cruel and criminal storm  	
(Où est la Lavande?)

But don’t give up
Don’t despair
Taste the hope 
Floating through the air

When the lavender returns
It’ll warm your frozen bones
Vivid violet clothes
In their candy overtones

When the lavender returns
It’ll race across the land
Rebel flower grows
In the palm of your free hand

If you look out your window
The ground’s parched and bare
If you call for your lover
She’s no longer there
If you ponder your life
Well, it feels like a wreck
And your failures are scars
You can never forget

As leaves turn brown
Sky fades to grey
You’re feeling the drought
The end of the day

It’s been lonely here
In this World of Fallen Souls
It’s been lonely here
With nowhere left to go

But don’t give up
Don’t despair
Taste the hope 
Floating through the air 

When the lavender returns
It’ll warm your frozen bones
Vivid violet clothes
In their candy overtones 

When the lavender returns   	
(Où est la Lavande?)
It’ll race across the land 	         
(Où est la Lavande?)
Rebel flower grows  			
(Où est la Lavande?)
In the palm of your free hand   	
(Où est la Lavande?)

When the lavender returns    	
(Où est la Lavande?)
It’ll warm your frozen bones   	
(Où est la Lavande?)
Vivid violet clothes  			 
(Où est la Lavande?)
In their candy overtones  		 
(Où est la Lavande?)


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STOP THE WAR

Today I am crying
I am crying that my brothers are fighting
The fighting started from historical claim
The claim that never any sides to give in
Today my tears fell to my bosom
I am anxious to what happen

Why never the peace is reign?
Why war shall be the end?
Why the people love to kill?
Why there is no way to end without blood spill?

I am not superman to stop the falling tears
I wanted to embrace my brothers to say please stop!
Please stop the war that spills blood.
I wanted to cry out loud but my sober is louder

Please end the war 
Stop and give ending
There would be no winner fighting between brothers
The only winner in war is “loser” for fighting with brothers
Please...
Please...
Please...
There must be other ways - to the end the bloodshed!
Please 
Please 
Please
Please stop it, stop the war!!!
Stop the war!
Stop the fighting!
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
Stoppppppppppppppppppp the War!!!!!
Where are you UNNNNNNNNN?





Sunday, 3rd March 2013
Sunthecan

A poem for the current skirmish in Lahad Datu and Semporna
Sabah, Malaysia. Let us all pray for PEACE! 



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Living my dream

Living my dream

I had one dream when I was young
To go to another land
In life I wasn’t satisfied
I wanted something grand
Lions, tigers. Kangaroos
And all those wild, wild beasts
Africa, South America
Or Australia at least.

Possessive Mother was my curse
How could I get away?
Every time I mentioned it
She had so much to say
And made me feel so guilty
Really cramped my style
And then one day there came along
Something to make me smile

I’d just turned my nineteenth year
When this great girl came along
She hailed from West Australia
And filled my heart with song
So we got married, had some kids
And here we are in Oz
Been here for half a century
And I came here all because

It was my fate to find this girl
She was my destiny
There’s be a whisper in the skies
That knows how things will be
It takes one’s soul, and leads it on
So growth, it might occur
And I know that west Australia
My heart, it sure does stir.

4 August 2013 @ 1440hrs.


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You're Just A Stranger

Why do you despise me
why can't you let me be,
how come you always pestering me.
How come you can not see
I am beginning to turn my love away from thee
Just as you are turning your hate on me.

I proceed biting my words back 
and just nodding my head
you think i am the one to blame
but you'll end up losing me instead.
I try to talk to you, but you
cut me out and shut your ears
where will this get us
in fifteen or so years.
 
You bring down the pressure
while i try to do as you say
Only until i lose, you win
will you stop yelling and walk away.

Here i sit, expressing my stress on paper
only hoping tomorrow will bring
something better
and that i won't lose my life forever.
Please forgive me 
for this paper may be wet with tears
I know this is a stage in life,
I pray will pass in a few years. 

As i write my anger fades
but when i think about you it returns
I hope we both learn from this
For I may lack empathy
but you are always so very stern.
It seems everything I do
has gotten on your nerves
And I know you don't hold it inside
For your anger does surly splurge.

Tonight you have taken my phone
and cut me off from my friends I truly need
your words hit me hard,
and to you I can not plead.
Someday I may realize
what you did was probably right
I will try to understand,
I will try with all my might.
But until that day
or until through my eyes you see,
You are still a stranger
You're just a stranger to me.

Nov. 21. 2011


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Please Listen To Her Prayer


While you’re watching over all your children from above

Listening as they send to you a prayer

Please God will you take some time to listen to my child

And find a way to let her know you’re there



Through the years she suffered a very tragic loss

Her happy life was shattered; torn apart

She tries so hard to hide the lonely tears she cries at night 

She tries so hard to hide her broken heart



Through the years she put aside her sadness and her pain

And found the strength to be both mum and dad

She never let them see the hurt, they only saw her smile

Although she’d lost the only love she had



She's struggled through the ups and downs that losing someone brings

She battled on and fears were cast aside

But every day I see the hurt and pain I know she feels

I see the unshed tears that fill her eyes



But now I see her worrying for someone else she loves

Her child...her precious life and soul

I watch the pain and sadness returning to her life

I watch the years of heartache take its toll  



So please God will you take a while and listen to her prayers

Let her worries, and her burdens cease

Take away her pain and sorrow, dry her lonely tears

And help my daughter find a sense of peace



I need for her to know you’re there no matter what life brings

To guide her when I know she's lost her way

I need to know that once again a smile will reach her eyes

That happiness, she will find again someday...






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Rapture's Light

I’ve just had an experience unlike any other.
It was so great, cause now I’m with the Father.
I’ve just had an experience unlike any’ll know.
‘Cept for those who came with me in the flow.
Of Light! That is. The never-endin’ Light of the Lord.
The never-endin’ Light of the Lord!

I’ve been through hell all thro’out my life.
And I’ve had all kinds o’ different strife.
And I’ve been hard-press’d.
And I’ve been depressed.
And just when I thought I got the hang o’ things,
They change, and they rearrange.

I’ve done all sorts o’ things.
Stupid things. Crazy things.
But now times have changed.
And everything has rearranged.
And all that I e’er knew,
Has come back to bite you.

I’ve just had an experience unlike any other.
It was so great, cause now I’m with the Father.
I’ve just had an experience unlike any’ll know.
‘Cept for those who came with me in the flow.
Of Light! That is. The never-endin’ Light of the Lord.
The never-endin’ Light of the Lord!

So listen closely as I tell what’s happened to the world.
The world’s spun it’s last spin and has finally hurled.
The Hea’nly Host has brought us up.
All us Christians, that is, pup.
Anyone listening to this,
is more ‘an likely in any state but bliss.

If this is bein’ heard,
Then e’eryone is real disturbed.
You may’ve just witnessed all of us disappearing,
But there’ll still be another hearing.
Like it’s been for all of life, ‘cept for this one instance that is,
You may come to meet the Lord after you perish.

You’ll have an experience unlike any other.
It’ll be so great, cause you’ll be with the Father.
You’ll have an experience unlike any’ll know.
‘Cept for those who’ll come with you in the flow.
Of Light! That is. The never-endin’ Light of the Lord.
The never-endin’ Light of the Lord!

I shall end this now for I’m ent’rin the Pearly Gates o’ Heav’n.
It’s more beautiful than can be describ’d by any Reveren’.
If somehow this reaches you people on Earth,
Remember this one thing from the hearth.
There’ll always be hope, so stay strong!
Don’t worry, this torture won’t last long.

You’ll have an experience unlike any other.
It’ll be so great, cause you’ll be with the Father.
You’ll have an experience unlike any’ll know.
‘Cept for those who’ll come with you in the flow.
Of Light! That is. The never-endin’ Light of the Lord.
The never-endin’ Light of the Lord!


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The storm

The storm

The sky above was filled right up
With big, black, monstrous clouds
The thunder hit the blackened skies
His voice so very loud
Forked all across the morning skies
Fiery fingers streak on out
Then the thunder rumbles loud and strong
And rain is all about

Oh how that rain came teeming down
Just like it’s on a mission
To wash away the whole damned earth
As with her quiet precision
Mother Nature puts the pressure on
To warn us human souls
Of the damage she could do
With the power in her role

The rain, It pours down onto me
But I don’t feel a thing
I’m covered by my wetland gear
And my heart begins to sing
For me, I love these thunder storms
With all their mighty power
Though some on seeing all this drama
Would hide away and cower.


17 August 2013 @ 1708hrs.


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The Forgotten Ones

Forgotten somewhere in the midst of steel and concrete. 
Bound by shackles and chains even in our sleep. 
Living like wolves preying amongst lost sheep. 
Concrete tears and pains so mindfully deep. 

Forgotten by those on the outside. 
We cant even run no where, we cant even hide. 
No choice left but to sit and fight. 
In here only the strong minded survive. 
Truth be told in here what is wrong is right. 

All most os us got is wasted M&^*&F*^&&ng time. 
We sit back and work out and write heartfelt rhymes. 
Not to be a victim of prey we all trying. 
Many stories are told, songs are written of truth over lying. 

We are gone for the moment but not truly forgotten so the hurt we must not show it.
 We are to old while we young to be crying in front of full grown men for this is a time we must out grow it.
 There aint no way out this hell hole and we all know it. 
Feelings of hopelessness surrounds te heart to the point where we can no longer control it.
 
In here there is only time no fun. 
Darkness fills night no light shone in here from the sun. 
Only by our own selves we may be out done. 
BECAUSE IN HERE IT FEELS LIKE WE ARE TRULY THE FORGOTTEN ONES....


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The Alien

The Alien.
                           
"Here's the village Idiot
Here comes the loony fool"
So many taunts did follow him
Oh kids can be so cruel!
The Alien, his face all cowed
With caution treads his way
As the gossip done, invades him every day.

He's a shade too short on mighty brawn
He's a pilgrim of the soul
He's a Sailor floating through his dreams
And he has no worldly goals
And when those kids kicked footy balls
And swore and carried on
The alien got lost  within his own song.

He's been told that he be nothing
By so many through the years
And now his body broken
Still wading in his fears
The wings have made to open up
So the butterfly may rise
And so the mighty Phoenix 
must head he for the skies.

Dec 22 2003.


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Family First

I cant believe Im going to have my own family, something I never had; 
Its time to step up and be a real dad; 
Now I can remember the things that make me happy and forget the things that make me sad;
 Its time that I start doing good than the bad; 
I want for my child to see me as a role model; 
Its time I break my own chains to that alcoholic bottle; 
I want to be that someone who can be trusted to follow; 
I silently cry at night because the truth is hard to swallow; 
I jus hope I can make that change today not tomorrow; 
I got to change before I end up in an?early hearst; 
My art is my gift and alcohol is my curse, I must break my own alcoholic thirst;
 I must relieve my own selfishness tendencies before they burst; 
I got to stop making alcohol my only because its no longer just about me, because my very own family comes first


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Im Gone

Life as a lonely lost poet bred from dark cracks 
Lost soul living plain and simple among the people black and white 
Drug along with alcoholic among us distracts 
Lost values and principles around one many continue to lack 
Everyday simple facts, its like breathing through plastic sacks 
Slowly suffercating until the brain goes wack 
Once death comes my way I must keep it part of my past 
Aint no way God going to bring my little brother back 
I guess its a curse upon all those of us living like outlaw of an outcast 
How the **** will I ever truly outlast until I heal and break out my cast 
God cant you see Im tired of wearing this permanent mask 
I know my poetry has hidden answers if I look and read closer so I shouldnt have to ask
 Staying lost is a choice in the open road with no gas 
So as a lost poet through hardships now and in the future I will outgrow it 
The devil trying to get my soul and behold it 
but I know only this one man controls it 
Its too priceless for even my own greed to have sold it 
So as a lost poet I will climber higher than high if not then right below it 
Found in a world of lies with few truths as but another lost poet


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The Miracle

Lift the wailing wood
Hammer the tortured nails
Place the ghostly steps
Below the battered rails

Invite those crazy strangers
Dressed in stranger clothes
Join the mighty miracle 
Ready to unfold

Building a stairway 
In the desert
Aimed toward the pure and honest sky
Building a stairway
In the desert
Going to rise for miles
And miles 

Leave this evil town
Where scorpions share your bed
Guilty snakes make a home
Deep inside your head

The bleeding sun
Burns your feet
Hangmen joke
Beggars weep

Buried bodies
Cry for help
Undertakers
Steal your wealth

Building a stairway 
In the desert
Aimed toward the pure and honest sky
Building a stairway
In the desert
Going to rise for miles
And miles 

We’re laughing and      					
We’re dancing				 	
In the desert				
Dancing in the desert			
Of our lives				

Can’t you see?
We’re dancing in the desert
Dancing in the desert 
Of our lives

Feel so free				
Dancing in the desert				
Dancing in the desert 			 		
Of our lives				

Free….so free
In the desert
Dancing in the desert
Of our lives

Lift the wailing wood
Hammer the tortured nails


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Rose Hips Lady

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Taste those sweet confessions
On your baby breath
Lift this wounded flag
Into your burning nest

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Tame the roaring tiger
Never lets you rest
Take my last reward 
From your moonlit breasts

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Daddy’s gone hunting 
He’s gone away
Daddy’s gone hunting
Won’t be back for days

Left you with a lover
Makes a shrine 
Of your skin

Left you with a lover
Takes you down
Roads of sin

Left you all alone 
Alone

And the knots cut deep
Through the musk and flesh
Of hot regret
And the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

You release the Beast
From a well that’s wet
You will confess
That the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

Rose hips lady
Aaaaaah......


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Destruction

Destruction.

The silent sound of a falling tree
The oil that chokes the dying sea.
They push our planet to its ruin.
These foolish powers, what are they doing?
A tree it falls, to a sorry end.
My mystic tree, my dearest friend.
Oh how I loathe the things they do
They’re taking life from me, and you.

As men get rich with worthless things
Through the damage that greed does bring.
They spill their slime each place they go
As in their wake destruction grows.
With seas a dying, choked of life
As grey green slime be causing strife.
Sea creatures cry and scream with fear
As the planet dies but greed won’t hear.

The ozone layer be growing sick
As populations grow so thick.
The green folk try to combat greed
But their advice those powers don’t heed.
This thing weighs heavy in the air.
The tower crumbles but they don’t care.
This Planet dies I love so well
As mankind paves, its way to hell.

18 May 2014 @ 1142hrs


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Fireworks Hill

Let’s go climb
And move back time
To that mysterious hill
Where a boy first met his girl

Long before 
The cynics arrived
Before the laughter died
And God returned the day to night

Where dazzling fireworks
Rained sparkles
On our lives
Two strange birds
Came together
And opened up their eyes

Let’s go climb 
We’ll move back time

Fireworks Hill, Fireworks Hill
Far from my mind
Never forgotten
Fireworks Hill, Fireworks Hill
We became one there
So very often

And there are vivid colors 
Blasting through the sky
Dancing rainbows 
I really want to taste
There is weeping smoke
Painting all the stars
Burning graveyards 
For the human race

Let’s go climb
And move back time
To that mysterious hill
Where a boy first met his girl

We’ll race to the edge
Fulfill our pledge
It was written in blood
The heat of our love

Oh, jump, baby, jump
We’ll fly away together
Jump, baby, jump
Our bodies joined forever

Let’s go climb
And move back time 
To that mysterious hill
Where a boy first met his girl

Fireworks hill, fireworks hill
I see the sparkles in the air
Fireworks hill, fireworks hill
I smell the dazzle of your hair
Fireworks hill, Fireworks hill
We flew to Heaven over there

Let’s go climb
We’ll move back time
(Forever…with you)


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GOD'S GOING TO SET YOU FREE

Something I want to tell you
Something you should know
How much I really love you
Forever together, stay or go

Oh, I hate you are a prisoner 
To this serious physical malady
I know that God will heal you
Either here or in eternity
Want you to know.. God's going to set you free

My trash can is full of paper
So many things I want to say
A million thoughts I'm thinking
Trying to pen a few today

Been my closest confidant  
A part of you lives inside of me
No matter what the future holds
Together forever, we will be
Want you to know.. God's going to set you free

I might not say things well
Not sure what's right to do
I keep coming back to this 
Forever, I'll be loving you

Life is a difficult journey
I know who holds our hand
He'll walk us both to Heaven
Trusting in salvation's plan

So today I imagine tomorrow
In eternity friends we'll be
And here we'll still together
Always going to be you and me
Want you to know.. God's going to set you free

Contest: Elly's "Maybe The Last Letter"
Date: 9-20-14


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Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


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WHY

Why did God create a life
That wasn’t meant to be
Why did He give eyes
If they were never meant to see
Why did He put breath in you
Then take that breath away
Why give you to me
If you were never meant to stay
Why show someone happiness
And how it feels to smile
And fill their hearts with hope
If it can only last a while
Why did God create the sun
When all it does is rain
How am I supposed to laugh
When all I feel is pain
Why let people dream
Knowing their dreams will not come true
Why should I find someone else
When all I want is you
Why say there’s a Heaven
When it doesn’t help to pray
Why is there tomorrow
When I long for yesterday
What’s the point in searching
Knowing you’re not there to find
Why give someone life
If death is following behind
So why God when He took my love
Did He not take me too
For life is not worth living
If it means I don’t have you...


By Raina Hutchins, from the UK


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Pan and Satan

Pan and Satan.

One morning I was walking in my garden
When old Jupiter came up close to me.
And standing by his side stood fair Demeter
Who smiled at me so warm and tenderly.
She said “my son we’ve come to give our blessings
And we’ve a story we would like to tell.
Of how the great God Pan turned into Satan
And child I hope that you will listen well.

For Pan he was the god of natures beauty
And he wore no taint till Satan came along.
He’d play his pipes so gaily in the meadows
Though sometimes there was mischief in his song.

Then Satan said to pan “well I don’t give a damn
I’m going to steal your horns and make you me.
Then I’ll build a master plan and strike some fear in man
So always he will live in misery.
And that’s the way old Pan became young Satan
Yet still the old one dances deep within.
But if the two had never joined together
Then where would dwell the ugliness of sin.

1990


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Please Give Him Back To Me

I just don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be free
I cannot be without you
But all that’s left is me
I lie here in the darkness
I scream, I shout, I cry
But no one seems to hear me
As I pray, I pray to die
There is no daylight in my world
No sun, no moon, no glow
No smiles or laughter; only tears
Just tears, sad tears that flow
I put my hands together 
I pray to God above
To take me from this lonely place 
And to the man I love
But in the deafening silence
I know I face defeat
I know I'm still alone, because
My broken heart still beats
He took you from my loving arms
And walked you through His door
You belong to Him now
You belong to me no more
I know I live on borrowed time
I know it won’t be long
Before I'm in your arms again
The place where I belong
And I will keep on praying
Until he hears my plea
To take me through the gates of Heaven 
And give you back to me...


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The Rebellion of '57

'''tis Power that rules men,not men-- When they but have misused That Power, to abduct their soul-- For It then stands abused.'' So at such time when Anguish With rage, had undone The bonds that with-held the blaze In hearts of everyone, To over-throw the unjust rule, There was an uprise; To win-over our Liberty, There was The Uprise...: A feeble Nation rose to fore, To fight the unjust Company, And India--She rose in uproar-- Indians rose to mutiny. With swords and shields, hearts of gold, A clan of Warriors rose, Against a mighty cannon-force, The Clan of Warriors rose. Here, wars were waged, There battles won, With valour-ridden thought; Then lives were lost in the field 'gainst the forces of distraught. The final picture was of Death-- Of the stabbed, the beaten and bruised, For against gun and mortar-bolt Sword and stick was used.....


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Hero for a very short time

Hero for a very short time.

Long time ago with some compassion
I raised a lot of money
For a country low on luck
And my mood became real sunny
When folk at work did make a fuss
And treat me like a king
Oh, this it made me very happy
It really made my heart sing

It was the day of the Christmas do
I was feeling kind of grand
I drank some beer, and had a ball
For me I did command
So much attention from these guys
And well, I drank too much
And then it all got out of hand
It did by just a touch.

Well I got drunk, right off my head!
And really ruined things
As with my great big cockney mouth
Much trouble I did bring
Then all these guys that praised me up
They done a backward flip
I was hero for a few short hours
Until I lost my grip.

13 March 2014 @ 1400hrs.

For Verenas contest, I was right


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Little Black Horse

little black horse, I've seen you around
little black horse, destined to terrorize the town
little black horse, you've seemed to have caught a mare
little black horse, with your long shiny hair

little black horse, why drag that mare around
death so coupled to you that she's destined to drown
fate cruel to her, to make her love
her soul tarnished and beaten, no longer white, and as pure as a dove

little black horse, do you not care at all?
crest fallen and withering, she still heeds your call
little black horse, she will die at your hand
yet her presence to you, just a mere grain of sand 


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Voice in the Night

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Healing words
Made from
Angel heart

Oh, her chocolate whisper
Warm convincing breeze
Oh, her breathy laughter
In the shadow of my need 

Don’t you hear the voice?
Save  you from despair
Don’t you hear the voice?
Sent by ghosts who care

Don’t you hear the voice?
Rises like a prayer
Come to rescue you
From your earthly snare

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope 
Kissed my tears away

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Now I dance
To a magic serenade

Don’t you hear the voice?
Memories of home
Don’t you hear the voice?
Pretty as a poem

Don’t you hear the voice?
Vivifies your soul
Bathes you in a pool 
Love you’ve never known

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller,
Take me, take me
To your bed

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller
Raise me, raise me
From the dead

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head


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A Selfish Prayer

It's hard when I see so much pain,
Filled with life's many hardships,
All these troubled souls praying,
For miracles through their worships,

Even at home they are lost,
And muddle through their days,
'Release us from our lots',
They cry out from their maze,

Yet I find it even harder still,
When I must stand here and watch,
With neither the way or the will,
To give what little I've got,

So Lord I pray you fill my cup,
Give me the success and station,
Where hope can spring from love,
To answer all this frustration,

Let me afford more than simple words,
Grant me the means to answer prayer,
Lay before me a path true and sure,
To receive great fruit I can share,

My life has taught me so very much,
As my prayers so often are granted,
I know what it means to be touched,
By the charity of the enchanted,

It brings a life of such great hope,
To you and all of those you love,
It helps you to widen your scope,
And great faith when times get tough,

So today Lord I finally pray,
For something I never have before,
I pray for riches so very great,
That I would never need to ask for more,

Vast wealth beyond Solomon or Jabez,
Great wisdom and eternal good health,
The power to shape the will of others,
And all the prayers I leave on the shelf,

And I pray that I remain steadfast,
In service to you through my fellow man,
And you answer this prayer however crass,
Before this poem is written by this hand.


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The man who changed my life

Tribute to a very great man, John Sherman.

The man who changed my life.

When I was young, and raging wild
I knew that I was wrong
I had a will, a stubborn will
And my temper was so strong
I didn’t care about any one
I said ‘the world can kiss my ass’
No compassion did I have
No respect for any lass.

I tried so hard to change myself
It never felt quite right
I’d read me all those holy books
And try to see the light
It was one step forward three steps back
It never changed a thing
And every day more misery
To me my life did bring.

Then I discovered on the net
A man who changed my life
He went by the name of John Sherman
And he helped me through my strife
He told me all you have to do
Is take a look within
See the fellow that is you
Then the changes will begin.

This was five short years ago
Now all the anger’s gone
I’m sweet, I’m wise, I am at peace
And as my life moves on
My heart is filled with Gaiety
Each day is filled with joy
And nothing in this big wide world
This sweetness can destroy.

I know I’ve wrote about this man
So many times before
But I will spread his name around
From now till evermore
He made me what I am today
And I can’t help but love him
He gave me sweetness in my life
Where once it was so grim.

13 April 2014 @ 1055hrs.


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Goodbye

Finished
i’ve been dragging around this life
too long
Done
everything I wanted, I had.  I did.
Don’t want to wait for it to end
too long
too long

Taking things into my own hands again
the right way
the way it Used to be

Saying goodbye to this life
not to people
not to places
just to this life
which was so long ago begun
not in love
but lust
and then bit by bit
it was ripped and shredded
until I could no longer tolerate it

This life.
So done.
so through with it all. 
The decisions I am not capable of making
yet others thought I was just being stubborn.
Unable to think the way others do.
To be capable of processing information in some fashion
that I cannot.
Too bad nobody cares.
I used to bring so much to the table.

Hurts to breathe
to think
to exist anymore
Don’t want to.
and that’s My Choice.
If I can be so “grownup as to make choices yourself”
Than I Will

Let my legacy be
that once, 
and then many times,
I was hurt
damaged beyond repair.
Something was also passed through genes
that messed up my brain.
Took up space,
made my children suffer.
I Know All Of This
and I can no longer live with it.

So I can say goodbye cleanly and without frivolous bull****
or useless people trying to convince me otherwise so they feel better

Goodbye life.
Goodbye to my beautiful sons.
Goodbye to the man that I loved
I hope I see you all on the other side a long time from now
My prayer is for peace and beauty for them
and calm and no more crazy mother to cause troubles
Just free and open space to be
to do whatever you need
and without me in your way

goodbye for now...


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Flow

The river cried-- oh what stones have i carried. All must resolve, all must dissolve, none of my sands may vary.

Have no fear, your waters are clear. Resilience is found in your currents. Let no stones dam your flow. I am the lake. I am your rest , i am the beauty beyond your mistakes.


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Be careful what you wish for

Now here is the story of a restless young man
Who dreamed of fighting in South Vietnam.
He’d learned about war in the comics he’d read
And he knew in his heart that for this he’d been bred.
As soon as it came up, the lads eighteenth year
He went off to enlist for an army career.

He saw some old major and he sat for some tests
Then the  shrink and the doctor saw him with the rest
Of those gallant young fellows that wanted to fight
And give to their country the force of their might.
When all this was over it was late in the day
So feeling elated he for home made his way.

About two weeks later a letter arrived
And reading it’s message his spirits raised high.
For he’d been accepted a soldier he’d be
And the feel of the message did fill him with glee.
He had to front up in a couple of days
And then for Kapooka he’d be on his way.

Ten weeks in Kapooka it taught him a lot
He learned to make war and leave bodies to rot.
He was taugh how all commies just murdered and lied
And that he and his country had God on their side.
And that no sacrifice could be too great to make
And it’s an honour to die for a great country’s sake.

His training all over he joined a Platoon
He’d made Infanteer he’d be fighting soon.
It was off to corp training to learn even more
About all of the goodies that go with a war.
He kept seeing his image all tough, mean and strong
For he was a fighter and this was his song.

It was just eight months later that his posting came through
He was off to the jungles, his dream had come true.
Well his plane soon arrived at that sad Nui Dat
Where he first heard the guns as their missiles they spat.
He was fearful at first but he soon became calm
These guns were on his side they’d do him no harm

A month or two later he’s out on patrol
As tail end Charley He’s playing the role
They were deep in the scrub with peace all around
 Then the air came alive with this terrible sound.
He felt himself falling “Lord is this a dream”
He asked as he heard he his God awful scream.

He lay there not hurting but sensing the worst
As he felt all around where his stomach had burst.
Where once it was firm gaped a warn sticky hole
It seemed that again war had taken it’s toll.
It seemed like a nightmare, a terrible dream
As the medic assured him that it weren’t like it seemed.

He sensed the black silence and quickened with fear
For man stands alone when his end it be clear. 
Then something within him gave way to great peace
As his wisdom did whisper that all things must cease.
Then the great mother came, took him gently away
From that place of man’s anger where a body did lay.

A true story of a friend of mine who died in Vietnam written in 1975....Peter


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Zero

I was born pale and invisible
In a world
Sees everything 
Everything, everything….but me

Invisible to your touch
And doubt you’ll like me very much
Am I alive?
Was I ever me?

I’m a non-existent cipher
A pointless empty zero
Never added up to anything
A non-existent cipher
Pointless empty zero
Tell me….what does it all mean?

And now I think I want you
Ethereal body
Oblivious mask
And now I think I love you
Intelligent lips
Painted in black

But no need to look my way
Or give me the time of day

Can’t be with you 
In this world
Invisible man 
Never gets the girl

Oh, no...

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be felt by me

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be loved by me

Your 
Zero 
Tonight
Your 
Zero 
For life
Your zero
The day I die

Your zero….your zero

Zero


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When lust went wrong

When lust went wrong.

Whilst strolling through the subway
One Friday afternoon
I’m all done up, and dressed to kill
As I hum a little tune.
I saw this Sheila walking by
As cool as she could be
And I told meself, to know this dame
Would, really pleasure me
She looked at me all sexily
And I thought “that’s me, I’m in”
Well I could scarcely believe me luck
Me mind was bent on sin.

I took her to some dank motel
Invested in some booze
I’d make her just a little drunk
All hanging kind of loose
I seduced her with some sleazy words
And told her of me love
And how she’d won my heart, and all
I swore by God above!
I’d paid a little money down
To rent this little room
I was hoping that this pretty lass
Would lift away me gloom.

We smooched and kissed and carried on
Me mind all filled with glee
I laid beside her on that bed
Awaiting ecstasy.
Then all at once the sun was up
It was a brand new day
I’m lying there all by meself
I felt a grim dismay!!
No wonder, cause me bloody watch
And all me clothes were gone
I held my throbbing head in hands
And wondered what went wrong.


This is fiction, I am glad to say


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Shattered

Shattered

Shattered
Before you speak 
To show me all this hatred that you feel
Let me breath into your eyes 
The innocence can heel 
Choking, spitting, choking
I’m choking in your heart
This black blood dripping endlessly
Tares our love apart
Strangle in my lines~ first time
Like a snake spies, a cat, fur, skin, crawl
Sometimes I’d dream for a web made of silk~
Stretching across, inside my mind
Reaching too far, but never to find
A search that’s gone, but still going on
That’s why- That’s why
That’s why- I’m you
Fuqq me. I’m you
Strangle in my lines~ again
Like a bird sings “Give Love”
Counting fortune one-by-one
Sometimes I’d dream for 
Your spell to cast into my sea 
Sinking down, grasping what’s gone	
I see not what I see I am
SHATTERED—I’m YOU
Down so high!!
Down so high!!
Strangle in my lines~ once more
Like a “Head Done In”
Imagine the sound	
My scream
My Scream
\\Not Lust//
Sometimes I’d Pray
for Angels
Angels fuqqing on the wall
Angels fuqqing in the rain
Angels fuqqing in time
SHATTERED—I’m You


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The poet

The Poet.

Once there lived a poet
In an up and coming town
Where there mostly lived the rich
Though the poor they too were found.
And our young poet was poor indeed
Though his poetry was rich,
But no one saw there any value
Nor it's power to bewitch.

He was starving in a land of plenty
In the springtime of his life.
He lived in a hovel, dark and dim
And his health did give him strife.
But he wrote his words of magic power
Though he knew that he was dying.
And no one stopped to think of him
No one, for he was crying.

So as the last breath left his lungs
He lay a man alone.
He yearned to look through the roof above
As he thought of the nights he'd known,
When stars shone in those clear dark skies
Like twinkling, winking gems.
Then the angel touched him on the lips
He was going home again.

Two hundred years on down the track
His monuments be countless.
And everywhere his poems be read
His name it has been blessed.
How cruel be mankind’s ignorance
When wisdom's cast aside.
As fools they yearn for the gold that glitters
And beauty be denied.

Feb 16 2004.


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Deadman Wonderland

Now that you're becoming Undone It's time to have some fun In Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao The setting Red Sun of Kali Shows it's time for your life to Pay We are the Kind to be feared -your friends We look like anyone you see Thuggee--Death's Devotees Face our treachery Bhowanee we must please She needs more--we have found our mark, our mark Won't you be the one to save humanity? Can't you see this is Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Sacrifice! For The Black-Skinned Queen Sacrifice! For Our Mother Kali Sacrifice! It's Not Enough Sacrifice! No Mercy! This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland


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the poverty blues song

I've got damp on my walls and cobwebs in the hall
got a rat in the kitchen
where the cockroach crawl.
I got holes in my shoes
where my toes peep through
I got a bad case of the poverty blues.

I got a crack in my bathtub and bed bugs in my bed
I got things crawlin through my hair
that make me scratch my head

Got piles of bills collected by my door
the one's I should have paid a year or two or more.
I try to get myself sorted
but always seem to lose
I got a bad case of the poverty blues.

Guitar.

I got trouble in my hovel
and the place could do with a good clean
I may not be superman
but  I try the best I can
I just find things so hard to do
Guess I got a bad case of the poverty blues.

Some people call me lazy
but I sure ain't crazy
I;m a man alone in the world what can I do
I got a bad case of the poetry blues.

I'd love to meet a girly
who could cook and clean
with lots of money
so I could live my dreams
one thet would say I do
so I no longer got to sing the poverty blues
say I no longer got to sing the poverty  blues uesssssssssssssss.

Peter Dome copyright. 2012.


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Capricorn, the mountain climber

Capricorn the mountain climber

The goat he is relentless
He'll cimb the higest hill
Just a wee bit at a time
With his gigantic will
He tends to take life seriously
But he can laugh at his own self
This man will try to seek his fortune
And accumulate some wealth.

He be the father of this Earth
He likes to take control
And sometimes he will be considered
As drab, and often dull
He's reliable, you can count on him
When you need to get things done
He'll often work so very hard
He'll forget to have some fun.

He has a lot of patience
And he can put his mind
A hundred percent on anything
And him you'll often find
Working out some problem
Until he gets it right
And for the people in his life
He'll put up quite a fight.

23 September 2013 @ 1422hrs.


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EDUCATION

Education is life.
I want it but I can't.
It is my need.
Alternative learning I did.
I am called immigrant.
Oftentimes stateless.
I am trapped of nation-state.
When it was borderless.
Now in a boundary.
In history only we exist.
I am never free.
Never tied but trapped.
I want to sing.
Want to smile
Like others
Want to walk freely.
But I have no legal document.
I have only paper.
I am sometimes called refugees.
War and war
Never in peace
Because of tricks.
Politics and greed.
I am hopelessly drained.
But I want to put hope in life.
I want to live life like real life.
Not a fake life.
Doing fake smiles
Fake happiness.
I have kept it my heart.
But I don't want to hate.
I love peace.
I love to love.
I hug my self
And I scream.
I am finally free.
I now can read
Write and count.
Thank my God!

Lahad Datu.
Dam Road Area.

I love you reading.
Layag Sug!


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A Better Life...

A Better Life

I don't know why she hides,
I don't know why she shivers,
I don't know why she cries,
I don't know why she quivers,

Daddy's girl is all alone,
And I don't know how to help her,
Daddy's world is all but blown,
And I don't know what to tell her,

What happened to her confidence,
And her self assured way,
Which used to be so prominent,
In all she did or would say,

Who stole my little girl’s heart,
And drove her to such confusion,
She now slowly does her part,
As if all she has is illusion,

She knows I would kill any other man,
For doing such harm to my little girl,
But this is much more than I can stand,
As it has forever blown apart my world,

They took ‘steps’ to the next level,
And now they each look to me in despair,
I warned them each to be careful,
But the forbidden fruit they shared,

Now I look at one without trust,
Yet I still love my son so very much,
I still hold her distant as I must,
But she needs Daddy’s healing touch,

Why do I have to be the bad guy,
When my children need my help,
I pushed one out and I still cry,
While I can't help her help herself,

There is no way to win here,
And my tears won't stop falling,
I have lost them both I fear,
And my fears won't stop calling,

I don’t know what to do anymore,
Or how I can help either of them,
Both children my heart cries out for,
But the truth is neither can win, 

And for this my darling kids,
I am so sorry I can’t decide,
Which to disown or which to kiss,
When I am actually on both your sides,

So I pray that both her and him,
Of whom I am so very proud,
Do not give up and become victims,
Who wear this pain like a shroud,

I pray both of you hear my advice,
Get over this hardship and understand,
This lesson with its terrible price,
Is one where you do as best you can,

To forgive and move on from here,
Without Dad having to choose a side,
And to let go of all that you fear,
If you want to grow to have a better life.


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Black Demon

Black Demon.

The old black Demon's back again
He's pounding on my soul
He's prodding, always prodding me
This be his earthly role
The hordes of Hell move into me
With their whips and masks of steel
Invading me they rip my flesh
And break into my will.

I look into this Demons eyes
Though my body quavers some
As fear be powerful in my mind
I know what must be done
Oh no I will not falter
For now be courage time
That coward that resides in me
He be my cursed crime.

He turns his back, the bounder's gone
I've beat his hide again
If you look your demons in the eye
Their manner grows more tame.
But he'll be back on some tomorrow
He's the strongest force I know
He's my shadow and he's telling me
To move into the flow.

Socrares Dec 31 2003.


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The sunyassin

As far as I know this is a true story about Alexandra the great...Peter



The Sannyasin.

Alexander said to Dandamis
"Old man you come with me
For I need me a sannyasin
To take across the seas.
Hey you be just a beggar man
I'll make you rich indeed
You'll live a life of luxury
With everything you need.

Dandamis standing naked there
With silence in his essence
He had no fear at all did he
In the mighty leaders presence.
He said "I'll give you nothing friend
And there's nothing that I need
So Alexandra drew his sword
Tried to make the beggar plead.

Dandamis laughed and said these words
With power in his voice
"You can put that sword right through my heart
My friend, that be your choice.
But I left this body long ago
I have no use for it
So pierce this heart my fine young friend
It won't harm me a bit.

Alexander he was beaten
By a fearless beggar man
Though he had won most of the world
Dandamis foiled his plans.
The beggar said "You say you're great
But that's not true at all
For any man that thinks he's great
He be merely a fool


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CONQUERING DIVISIONS

I am not made a full blown beauty..
Nor I live a life of purity; charity & piety..
All I like to do is to live with identity..
Not of being a witty but a life of humility..

I tried to be a more social person..
Cracking out the shell I have put up..
Breaking from my own weakness..
Doing best in my found strengths..

I have craved to reach out to people..
Widening my horizon, increasing my knowledge and awareness..
Learning to acknowledge fellow human beings..
Regardless of who they are and where they from..

They said: "I must not do this as it is dangerous.."
but I stand to what I know: "Inside all human beings is the reflection of God.."
I give due and equal chance..
As my God have freely given me opportunities too..

We people are living in same earth..
Different are we because of status, faith or race..
Let not this be the reason for us to be divided..
Rather we must come in unison conquering divisions..

By: olive_eloi
22/10/2013
1:16am


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The soul of the virgin

The soul of the virgin

Our Virgin is so practical
So critical she be
She’s always hard upon herself
Her words come loose and free
If she thinks that you have let her down
She’ll tell you this is so
She’s very clever with her hands
And she really likes to know.

She does her best in everything
Meticulous is she
She be one of the clever ones
She’s kind and she will be
A boon to anyone who needs her
She’s so dependable
She can’t abide in ugliness
Of any kind at all.

She has a downer on herself
She thinks she is not liked
She analyzes everything
She can look into your psyche
She won’t be fooled by anyone
And she worries about her health
Just to get to know this lady
Is a valid source of wealth.

12 August 2013 2 1300hrs.


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It's Time To Let Go

I'm ready to grieve now... so let there be tears
It’s time to move on to face all my fears
It’s time to let go now... so let there be pain
It’s time to start crying when I hear your name
My days have been frozen since you have been gone
My nights I just live in the words of our song
I cling to the past and all that we knew
Too scared to let go, the memory of you
I know now that time will never erase
Our memories, a love I can never replace
I know to move on doesn’t mean you forget
I know to let go doesn’t mean you regret
I must close the door now and find a new way
To reach for tomorrow and not yesterday
It’s time to remember and smile when I do
All the fun, the laughter and love shared with you
It’s time for goodbye, to let the tears flow 
It’s time to move now...it’s time to let go..


Raina Hutchins


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It Hurts To Say Goodbye

Every time I leave you, 
It hurts more than I can say
When we say goodbye
Every time I fly away

Every time I leave you
The man I so adore 
The pain I feel goes deeper
And I cry a little more

Every day I wonder if
You ever will be free
Every day I wonder
Will you ever be with me

Every night I cry
Because of leaving you behind
Every tear that falls
The fear of doubt invades my mind

The tears I cry keep coming
Till I’m drowning in the flood
Every day my heart bleeds
But you just don’t see the blood

You're the closest thing to heaven
I will ever be
Please don’t make this love we have
Into a memory

While I'm here remember me
In every song you sing
While you’re there remember me
With all the love I bring

And I will pray next time I fly
To you across the sky
I won’t leave there without you
I won’t have to say goodbye..


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My Loss

 My Loss Cannot be described in words, but can be described in my actions, as 
loud as they can be heard.

I've lost her, I've lost my chance, it's cruel and unfortunate circumstance.

She's gone without knowing how I feel, as the pain sets in, I now know it's all too 
real!


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The Seagull

The seagull


In the winter light she limps through
Frozen snow on the frozen ground
In the deepest night the starlight
Guides her back to the colder town

Baby, baby bunting
Mummy’s gone a ****ing
Gone to fetch a wheelie bin
To bin her baby bunting in.

I don’t want my wife to find me talking to you as if I care
Can I take you somewhere warmer?
I know somewhere I’ll take you there

How the clouds hold the snow.
Up above our heads a seagull
Flies across the storm.
Snowflakes slit his skin like razors
Next to me that bastard’s warmer.

Out on the moor where the sheep are buried
By the barn door lay the babe I carried

And the icicles are forming
And the bicycles are frozen
Down the street there goes the chosen
Up his bum there goes the bosun

And the misery and torment 
Are the only things for what you’re meant
Can you pay me back what I lent
I don’t wanna get my head bent. 

The trawler trails the gulls
into the harbours arms again
The seamen spill into the alleys
Waiting for the great adventure.


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I Miss You

I know how lost and lonely
Your  world was for a while
Your eyes so sad and empty
Your face without a smile

Your world so out of focus
Set you walking the wrong street
And always I’d be there
To wipe the tears of each defeat

But never did I give up hope
I always knew we’d win
I knew with me beside you
Once again your soul would sing

For you were still the son I loved
Who’d brought me so much joy
You were still a part of me
You were still my boy

And with your strength and dignity
You washed away the pain
Rebuilding all your hopes and dreams
You learned to smile again

And with that smile upon your face
And new found peace of mind
With fun and laughter in your heart
You left this world behind

I feel an endless ache inside
I feel so incomplete
For losing you it means
I've lost the biggest part of me

Forever I will miss the laughs
Our talks, your smiling face
Forever I will miss the son
I never can replace

It’s hard to let you go
Because we never said goodbye
Now you’re an Angel in God’s Heaven
High above the sky

But sometimes when I'm all alone
And feel all hope is gone
I seem to hear you whisper
"Mum just smile, and carry on"


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Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


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bREAK uP

ONCE IN LOVE ALWAYS IN LOVE,
BREAK UP & YOU KNOW THE PAIN OF LOVE.
FEEL HER IN EVERY BREATH,IN EVERY HEARTBEAT.
YET CANT MUSTER THE STRENGTH TO APPROACH HER.
LIFE TURNS MISERABLE,LIFE GETS WRETCHED.
THINGS REMIND YOU OF THE LOVELY DAYS OF THE PAST.
THE GUTS WRENCH SEEING HER WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
SHE HAS MOVED ON,LEAVING ME BEHIND LIKE BROKEN TOY.
NO  LONGER NEEDED,NO LONGER USEFUL.
I SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE 
IN THE ATTIC OF MY LIFE.


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HOW DOES IT FEEL

Once upon a time there was only your rhyme
No one thought of committing a crime
No one even dreamed of challenging you
You played games and wrote as two

You looked at the world from the top of the heap
Hidden plans oh the secrets you'd keep
But now the wind is being an Arnold to you
Whispers softly in my ear all you've been up to

How does it feel
How does it feel
To be losing your view
Knowing new turks are chasing you
You might be tired but their not through

What you've done.. How do you live with yourself
You killed conscience and set it on the shelf
Like an animal on the wall it's a trophy to you
You thought pride was strength but it's blinding too

So I'm not asking do you see what's taking place
Your favorite mirror won't help in this new race
Run as fast as you can with two broken legs
Your coffee cup's empty now taste those dregs 

How does it feel
How does it feel
To be losing your view
Knowing new turks are chasing you
You might be tired but their not through

For years you tore down barns to build bigger ones
You used cut and paste dollars as primary funds
While the homeless couldn't get a full bowl of soup
The manipulated masses didn't know they'd been duped 

But the wind is picking up and it's got a story to yell
A raging storm is coming.. going to feel as hot as hell
And when the clouds clear the light is going to expose
An army is coming with an unrelenting passion to depose

How does it feel
How does it feel
To be losing your view
Knowing new turks are chasing you
You might be tired but their not through

It's like the Good Book says from the One who cannot lie
The sins you sin in secret.. He's going to write across the sky

How does it feel
How does it feel
To be losing your view
Knowing new turks are chasing you
You might be tired but their not through

*Numbers 32:23 "Be sure your sin will find you out!"


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Another Yesterday Gone

Blankets of mist surround the air
Birds start singing their song
A new dawn arises, a new day begins
Another yesterday gone

Remembering your sweet loving voice
Your body close to mine
Your tender words and kisses
I wish could be frozen in time

Although I feel you with me
In life I'm all alone
Lost and stumbling 
Down the only road I've ever known 

Nights I lay here thinking
In my sleepless solitude
Grasping, clinging to a past
That doesn't let me choose

My shattered heart still bleeding
The pain too much to bear
I know I can't be mended
I'm broken beyond repair

Please don't leave me here
For I'm so lost without your love
I'm ready to go with you now
Through the gates of Heaven above...
 


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Corpse Bride

The braeþ of lyf -- I've Learned to fear
Though, ta'en it was, so long sinsyne
I've wroot my song of skreighs
He tore the lyf out of me
In sooth did she speke this to me - Cassandra was she to me
Wistful - I am no bride to be
Wistful - is this soliloquy of skreighs

I cede to thee, deathly colleen 
Though remains - façades of humanity 
Angel kind - wicce of my welkin dreams
Casted by the lote of she
Ta'en the hollow Herefro way - ne'er!
Caught with twain
W'ie or swain

Angel dearest so fair - love does not share
Seemed a crux, when eath is lone
I rose for thee - cede all of thy love to me
Or was this not meant to be
Eros's deceit 
So wistful - corpse bride I remain to be


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You Had Me From Hello

You live a million miles away
So far across the sea
Still I search the reason why
Fate brought you here to me

I never dreamed I’d feel this way
From just one night with you
And always I’ll be wondering
If you still feel it too

If I could turn the hands of time
Or change the rivers flow
You wouldn’t drift away from me
I wouldn’t let you go

I live a lie of happiness
So no one sees my pain
Because I fear forever more
I won’t see you again

Time will pass and tears will fall
But still I won’t forget
For you’re the one night in my life
I never will regret

Memories and dreams
Are all that’s left to hold on to 
But while I hold the dream 
Someone else is holding you

You were my “Once in a Lifetime”
The moment of truth in my lies
Never will I find again
What I found when I looked in your eyes

My dreams are what keep me going
And I can’t wait to turn out the light
In sleep is when I am with you
And I don’t want to miss you tonight

I'm now just a memory in your past
You'll think of once in a while
But somehow, I know each time you do
My memory will make you smile

I'll always be your Juliet
And you, my Romeo
Always I'll be waiting
Because you had me from hello...


By Raina Hutchins


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The sunny soul of the lion

The sunny soul of the lion.

Our lady of the sun
Never humble, she’s so proud
She loves to organize, and plan
She’s the Queen, this speaks so loud
To be her friend, gain her respect
And never let her down
She’s lovely when she’s happy
But please don’t make her frown.

Creative is her manner
She like to stand right out
When she’s there in any place
She’ll leave you with no doubt
As to who is going to run the show
But she’s very good at it
Anywhere this lady be
She’ll help out quite a bit.

Her sunny personality
Will get her liked by most
But she can be over bearing
And though she’s warm as toast
When she’s got a down on you
You’ll learn a heap on wrath
When that ladies on to you
You’ll do anything but laugh.

11 August 2013 @ 0606hrs.


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Lying In The Darkness

Lying in the darkness
Nothing here to see
The shadow of my lonely self
Just staring back at me

Lying in the silence
Deafening to my ear
The beating of my lonely heart
The only sound I hear

Lying here remembering
The world of you and I 
A love beyond forever
We knew would never die

My tears are never ending
My vision always blurred 
No one listens to my prayers
My words still go unheard 

You showed me what it was to love 
You showed me how to feel
My love for you was endless
My life with you was real

I know I'm needed in this world 
Even though you’re gone
I know I must survive this pain
I know I must be strong

But always I’ll remember that
Again one day I’ll see
The only man I’ll ever love
The only man for me...


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Angel's Wings

The days, the weeks, the months have passed
It’s now almost two years
I thought that time was meant to heal my pain
And dry my tears
Instead my days are twice as long
My nights still hard to bear
My life is just a passing phase
My world without a care
I cannot still the voice inside me
Calling out for you
For all I ever wanted  
For all I ever knew
The winds of change keep blowing
Trying to set me free
But they don't understand
With you is where I need to be
I close my eyes, and there you stand
I watch you for a while
Your handsome face, your winning ways
Your famous carefree smile
You were the breath I breathe
You were the blood that runs my vein
Without you I will die
For you’re the medicine for my pain
So how do I move on 
When I still can't find my way
How do I forget 
And say goodbye to yesterday  
I need to know you’re with me 
In everything I do
Everywhere I go 
I need to know that you’re there too
So stay with me so I can face
Whatever tomorrow brings
Until it’s time for me to fly to you
With Angels wings..


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i am woman

I am a woman 
a player 
a saivior 
a friend 
I am a mom
a warrior to the bitter end 
I am a lover
that bends all my needs
i am a singer 
that needs to breath
i am a lion 
that cant be tamed
i have  many names 
but I 
am a woman


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Life As We Know It

Sometimes we wonder why we are even here on this earth.  With all the heartache, pain, and strife.  We ask ourselves why we have to go through these things.  We often ask what exactly we did to deserve for these things to happen.  There is no easy explanation.  Life, Love and Understanding is complicated. You can wait your whole life for that one chance for things to go your way, for things to fall into place.  Yet, when you think they have it can often just be a facade...a trick if you will.  We are left to pick up the pieces of what we once called our life.  Then you are left asking yourself...WAS IT ALL REALLY WORTH IT????  Our answer may be yes and it may be no.  It's hard to tell where the "chips may fall".  All the tears we shed, that fall down like rain in a storm.  When we love, most of us love with all of our heart, OUR SOUL, OUR WHOLE BEING.


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from a father to be

I grew up without a father,
never dealing with it inside
only getting used to the absence
bt the lack did not subside.
i never learnt to fix whats broken
never learnt to be a man
never learnt to swim or sail
never thought i really can.

My father left me only fear
that i was now incompetent
to be the father he was not
to have a child, im hesitant.
But still hope withers not away
that i could be so blessed one day
to hold a gift given by God
and live to have a family.

My father left me only fear
that i might abandon my own
but children i hold very dear
and wish they not be left alone,
to fend for themselves without the guide
but have a father to be shown.
To those who, appreciate
your fathers heart, its not too late
this day is just a reminder,
 that those who have fathers
life treated kinder.


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truth

you held me close, to smell my fear
i froze in time, when you came near
lips on lips, you taste the bitterness
truth be told, you need forgiveness

i speak my heart, you remember lies
my soul cried out under midnight skies
the pain would leave, as it always would
my scars remained but i hid as best i could

its hard to speak with a mouth sewn shut
i want to heal from the deepest cut
scared to breathe my heartbeats loud
i felt alone in the biggest crowd

my tunnel vision started to cure
the vision of life is a powerful lure
so i said goodbye to the darken night
and crawled my way back to the beacon of light.



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Lady Arcane

[Daughters of Lamia] Today we walk from our graves You can't wish, pray it away The Inflamed Coven's emerged You Will receive what you deserve Retribution of the flaming shade Your Malice will be paid, In Harm's way [Aharhel] Her Convoluted face burning with fear Of the fall of the gate seering their minds with the deft of the legion The Army of the plague Scourges your land Scourges your Children Scourges your hope [Lady Arcane] I, The White Madonna - The Poison Mistress Hold The Rose to Salvation - Hold The Fruit to Arcane Closer, Come, Child you are mine [Daughter's of Lamia] Lady Arcane wants your fear Lady Arcane wants you near Lady Arcan is here Lurking In your tears clinging to your spilled blood the east has always been near The Left hand reaches to the right side in disguise In Malice's Disguise Therionacy break you down to thy knees To Thy Knees!


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The lovely Libran

The lovely Libran

Indecision dogs her trail
She’ll always change her mind
Her sense of wonder is so vast
She’s tender and she’s kind
Creative in the way she lives
Her whole life is an art
She can be lazy sometimes too
But she has a lovely heart.

She loves to dress herself in style
Immaculate is she
She’ll always be the peacemaker
For she can’t bear to be
In any kind of situation
Where ugliness is seen
She hates hassles very much
And hates those who are mean.

One to one relationships
She needs them in her life
She needs to have a partner
Or to be somebodies wife
She likes to be surrounded by
Pure beauty everywhere
She weighs her scales so carefully
And always she is fair.

13 August 2013 @ 2004hrs.


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The joy of the pheasant shoot

The joy of the pheasant shoot.

Getting set for the big event
The good folk do their stuff
They beat the earth with sticks, do they?
With their little dogs so tough 
They flush those pheasants from the scrub
So all can have some fun
Killing them with smiling faces
As they fire beloved guns.

Then as the pheasants in a panic
They bolt into the sky
Our hero’s with their guns in hand
Make sure that hundreds die
As the air is filled with the cracking sounds
As birds fall all around
Just so these fools can get there jollies
These corpses cover ground.

I wonder sometimes if these hero’s
Have any souls at all
That they could get such satisfaction
Doing these acts so cruel
Sometimes it leaves me speechless
At the way folk get their pleasure
Killing beauty just for fun
Is an ugly kind of leisure.

10 September 2013 @ 1340hrs




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As I Sit at my Table

As I sit at my table
Overlooking the sea
I try not to look for its unforgiving blueness
it is too much for my heart.
My heart which is once again, empty.

Loss has followed my heels 
for many years and
it follows me still.
As surely as the waves
flow in and out again with the ebb tide.

No more shall I look at the mountains
their tips frosted with white surely, and
no more the shells that I so carefully
collected with my most secret self
the part that was my own
which I let be exposed for a small time...
Came out into the shooting star sun
with the driftwood 
even the grayness,
the light rain...

I picked them up
held them tight 
took them home with me
each an expression of something radiant
and decorated the deck with their unique beauty
Arranged them in a way which said most eloquently
Here I am ...
here are the parts of me for the world to sea
for a while until sure as the water flows

It was asked of my heart
to toss them back
and so I did.  Into the greenish dryness, I tossed them
Not where they go at all, it was wrong
but into the thick brownish cover of trees
for there were far too many of my shells by then

They were too heavy
they had become just a burden.
The very action itself left a scar on my heart
that could not easily be fixed nor would it ever
but it must be done

Always in the past when asked
to do something
that felt a trespass against my soul,
an action which hurt so very much
and went against 
rather than with my own tide...
meant something was coming which
would surely damage me

A storm 
which would rage and which would tear pieces of me apart
The shells were just fragments of myself anyway
but the innermost fragments of myself
which I had collected when I felt like sharing
at times when I sparkled even on gray days

In the glittering sun
In the light gray rain
but sure as the ebb tide brought them in
they would go out again
maybe not as I would have liked
but broken and damaged.
Surely as I had brought them in from the beach
they could not stay
as my heart, 
dark and riddled with loss
must have its due

as I sit at this table
alone 
and yet unable to look at the water
not to look at the mountains
and not to hear the birds sing


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Your Life

You can try all your might to hold onto something that once was yours, only to realize that it may not have really ever been yours to begin with.  This is one of the most hardest things to face. Your friends tried to tell you, but you just didn't want to listen. You thought that you had found the love of your life, But once again you go through pain and strife.


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Without You

If I was granted just one wish
A wish that might come true
I’d wish with all my heart and soul
For yesterday and you
If only I could turn back time
I’d go back to the start
If only you could hold me 
While I slowly fall apart
Questions left unanswered
So many words unsaid
Letters that I wrote will now 
Forever go unread
Why you went I’ll never know...or 
Why you had to die...or
Why you had to leave me
Why you never said goodbye
Looking to my future
All I see is pain and sorrow
Without you I’m shattered
Without you there’s no tomorrow
Without you I’m so alone
I don’t know where I’m bound
Without you I’m lost…
Without you I can’t be found
However dark the nights
I’m told the sun will rise again…but
How can I see sunshine
When my world’s so full of pain
Please don’t leave me here alone
Please kiss away my fears
Lee, I need you with me
Please come home and dry my tears
Hold me hun, just one more time
The way I used to know
I need to feel you here
I’m just not ready to let go
I miss your face..your smile..your touch
I miss your many charms
Days are long ..my nights are cold
Not being in your arms
But ...what I miss the most is when
I look at you and see
The love I know you're feeling
When you’re looking back at me
I know I must be strong now
For this mountain I must climb
But how do I survive without
The love of my life time
You wasn’t just my husband
But my friend and lover too
And no one in this world 
Will ever take the place of you..


For Lee...the love of my life..
I will miss you forever

Your wife...Bree x












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PATIENCE

Patience has its own limit
that limit is set not to end
but when it is abused
that's the time to end it...


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Always and Forever

I wonder if the day will dawn
That I will wake to find
My life is not revolving round
The world I left behind
The days turned into months
And now the months have grown to years
But still the thought of you
Can turn my laughter into tears
We’d found a love so special
But we lost it all somehow
The chance we had was gone
And all our dreams are over now
So how do I survive each day
How do I go on
When everything I ever had
And ever loved is gone
Although you’re now with someone else
With whom your share your life
She’ll never wear your ring
For I will always be your wife
She may spend her nights with you
And wake with you each day
She may have tomorrow
But I had yesterday
Yesterdays so filled with all
The memories of our youth
The joy, the pain, the tears, the fears
The laughter, lies and truth
Memories of our songs and places
Things we did together
Memories of a love so young
We knew would last forever
Memories of the boy I met
The teenage Romeo
But who you are today
Is all the you she’ll ever know
Sometimes in my darkest thoughts
I wish I’d never learned
What it’s like to find real love
And have that love returned
It’s made it so much harder
To be with somebody new
For no one else can have
That part of me I gave to you
You’re still my world, my heart, my soul
You’re still what life’s about
The one I'm living for
The one I have to live without
I know I can’t hold onto you
But still I can’t let go
Because with you I found
The greatest love I’ll ever know...

By Raina Hutchins


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The Ibis episode

The Ibis Episode

Today I walked into my garden
To give our dog attention
{Now he’s a dog so big and strong
I guess this I should mention}
And then my eyes, rested upon
This bird, a sacred Ibis
Which made me worry quite a bit
Cause my pond was filled with fish.

This big birds strutted round the place
He could not seem to fly
But I knew that if my Boy caught him
The poor bird well might die
So I was in a quandary
As to what I well might do
So I put the dog into the house
So I could think thing s through

I walked up to the mulberry tree
{He was perched upon a limb}
And I really got quite close to him
And softly spoke to him
He didn’t seem to mind at all
But then, he flew away
It seems he wasn’t hurt at all
Which really made my day.











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The Heart's Anxiety

Shall I compare thee to a Fall Afternoon,
Nature's final chance, before eventual doom,
Opportunity for some and failure for a few,
Love is in the air, however, what will you do?

She has an intellect worth noting and long hair always glowing,
However, without effort, there is no knowing,
No clues ever seem to be showing,
Being vague is a curse, and a curse worth knowing.

My mind is in a haze as I think about asking her,
She could make life worth living, or just slam the door,
She could have a heart of ice to make me go "BUR"
But honest, what use is the waiting for?

Here is my chance as the night comes clear,
Time is important and the last leaf is near,
Risk is needed for all that is dear,
It is better to fail, than to miss something so near.


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Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


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Election day

Election Day

Last week was our election
It’s been going on for weeks
From the space where I was standing
It all looked kind of bleak
The chance of labor leaders
Getting the ruling hand
There’d been some inside fighting
They weren’t looking too grand.

But when I thought about it
It didn’t really matter
All these fools, it seems to me
Are only noisy chatter
They promise this, they promise that
And then what do they do?
Nothing, absolutely naught
They say is ever true?

So anyway I was lucky
What by accident, I done
Was muck up on the valet sheet
I failed on every one
Of those boring little boxes
That were staring up at me
But I really did not want to vote
So it was meant to be.

11 September 2013@1720hrs.



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The power of Scorpio

The power 0f Scorpio

Scorpio, she has the power
Her approach is so intense
She’ll delve into her deepest depths
Where her secrets are entrenched
She’ mostly mellow, but look out
She well might blow a fuse
From anger kept held deep within
Self -control she well may lose

She’s the saint, or she’s the sinner
Could be either one of them
But she will want to live her life
Not like the rest of them
Because she’ll like to ponder 
She’ll delve so deep within
Take a look into her dungeon
Get lost within the din.

She’s loyal to her loved ones
And never lets them down
Once she has accepted you
She’ll often take you down
To places most don’t want to go
Introduce you to your soul
Transformation rules her life
It be wrote within her role.

17 August 2013 @ 0633hrs.



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What I Know

I know 

That falling out of love with you

Is what I am supposed to do

It seems it is time

Time to start looking forward 

Leave the past behind

But when you left

You took my heart 

Don’t want to love you anymore 

Don’t want to see my heaven in your eyes

Don’t want to miss you

Don’t want to cry

Don’t want to keep asking why 

You changed my world

When you said goodbye

When will I ever feel 

Ready for love again? 

To be held again 

By anyone but you?

If you ever find 

That I cross your mind

If you ever find 

You want a love that is true

I’ll be here

Loving you still

Waiting for you

And at the end of the day

Lord I pray

You might find love for me

So I tell myself to hold on

Till these feelings are gone



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I AM MAD WITHOUT YOU

I» In search of your presense
M» emories of you come in essence

M» issing you so very much 
A» nd longing for your slightest touch 
D» ancing on the edge of doom 

W» e struggle just to find some room 
I» nside each others little world 
T» ingling swells within my chest 
H» old on to her forget the rest 
O» f all the fears that try and tear 
U» s apart from something rare 
T» o have you in my arms will be 

Y» our best ever gift to me 
O» h sweetness I am waiting for you 
U» nleash upon me your violet blue

By: olive_eloi
10:46pm
12/03/2013


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Why

I watch the sunrise in the sky
I ask God the question why.
Why is there hatred in the world?
Why are there starving boys and girls?
Why is there addiction everywhere?
Why are people not willing to share?
Why is there prejudice and fear?
Why are people more far than near?

I say God please tell me why
He whispers a simple reply.
You must experience bad to know good
You must do right as you know you should
You must love everyone
God the Father and The Son....
You must spread Hope,Faith and Love
If you persevere in all you do
All the Why's, will come to you........


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My Angel

All my tomorrows will come and go
And pass just like a storm
But all this pain I feel inside my heart 
Still lingers on
I would have loved you always
Held you for a million years
Instead my arms are empty
And my world is full of tears
Since you’ve gone I’m just a shadow
Of someone I used to be
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do in this world
To bring you back to me
Sometimes I wake up crying at night
Sometimes I scream out your name
What right did He have to take you from me
God, why did you take him away
I'm on a road to nowhere
And I just can't find my way
I feel so lost without you
Scared to face each waking day
Nights I lay awake just staring
Through my bloodshot eyes
Surrounded by these walls that tell
The stories of our lives
The sound of your sweet loving voice
The feel of you so close
The love I felt inside your heart
Is what I miss the most
I know someday I'll see you again
At the gates of Heaven above
And there I will find you waiting for me
My Angel, my heart, my love.

By Raina Hutchins


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I'll Never Get Over You

If only I had seen it coming 
But I never knew
The day before you left me
I had one more day with you
If only I could turn back time
And bring back yesterday
If only I could tell you
All the things I need to say
If only I could hold you close
And kiss you just once more
If only I could see you smile 
As you walk through that door
Walking down this lonely road
Lost, alone and sad
Holding onto memories and dreams 
That we once had
I need you here to guide me 
For I know I’ll lose my way
Without you I’ll crumble 
Without you I’m not ok
I still don’t understand the reason 
Why you had to leave
I don’t know how to deal with this
I don’t know how to grieve
Looking in the mirror
I still see you in my eyes
And always I will love you
Because true love never dies
Everything I feel inside
Gets stronger everyday
The love that’s in my heart for you
Will never fade away
Everything we shared
And all the memories made together
Will live within my heart and soul
They'll stay with me forever
As long as there is night and day
As long as skies are blue
As long as stars still shine so bright 
I’ll never get over you...



By Raina Hutchins


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Midlife

Midlife Crisis, or so they say
They call it this when grown men play

They buy shiny cars and fly in planes
They chase young women to dull their pangs

They hang in packs and tell their lies
And find no truth in empty eyes

They take great voyages to find the truth
Yet no one gets wet in the fountain of youth

They color hair and wrinkle not
But time comes forth, although not sought

And Time, my friend, is an unbeaten foe
Rolling you over in its under-toe

The battle lost, they bow their heads
Father time sets the hour glass next to their beds

And in the end , they remember this
That time well spent is time of bliss


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AWAKE THEM, LOVE

I have fallen crazy madly deeply in love..
How many times I tried but failed..
How many times I take risks yet I was wronged..
So, I did cry and feel so hurt...

Whispered by my mind: "stop & take care"
this Stubborn heart rejects and says: "find your pair"..
I must stand follow a strong will..
Not round up nor down like a wheel..

Undefinable; unexplainable love..
how you been?
Where have you been?
share to me not be trashed in bin..

a lot needs and wants you..
yet few shows a genuine you..
soothers and enlighteners of blues..
shoving all worries and woes..

nowadays, in world full of gloom
won't you mind to flourish and bloom?
spring out to everyone's aura and mood..
pleading you to cure all wounds..

by: olive_eloi
sept. 05, 2013
12:47pm

dedicated to: 

all persons who despite all pains and hurts still believes in the power of love

------->>>> Inspired today with a meaningful conversation with my sister.... ( really felt how she feels so much love)

misssing my real sisters much.... 

here, i realize that money can't buy happiness... sometimes the best penniless things are just around persons gestures.


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My Forever Shining Star

All the oceans in the world 
Can’t hold the tears I’ve cried
Nothing in this world  
Can take away this pain inside

I can’t believe you’re gone from me 
I can’t believe its true
I never wanted memories
I only wanted you

I miss the little things you said
Those words that meant so much
I miss your eyes, your laugh, your smile
I miss your every touch

I miss you every morning
Every night and every day
I’d give all my tomorrows
For just one more yesterday

When they asked what words I want 
Engraved upon your stone
The only words that I could say
Were ‘darling please come home’

You were my every reason
My hopes and all my dreams
Someone to believe in
When I questioned what life means

Always there to guide me
My forever shining star
I’d give my all to have you here
Or be there where you are

In a world of changes
It’s the soul that never dies
In a world of strangers 
I still see me in your eyes

This pain will never go away 
My shattered heart wont mend
Lonely days and empty nights 
Are now my only friend

But if you’re looking down from up in Heaven 
You will see
That part of you forever more 
Will be a part of me...


By Raina Hutchins



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Silently I Go Insane

Staring out the window pane
Silently I go insane
Remembering what I try to forget
Try so hard but haven’t yet
Thoughts of you invade my mind
I try to leave the past behind
But images engraved in stone
Haunt me when I'm all alone
This searing endless pain I feel
Stabs me with its blade of steel
I cannot laugh, I cannot cry
Feelings and emotions dry
You say forgive; I cannot do
Not since I lost all faith in you
You cannot stop what has begun
You can’t undo what has been done
You used, abused, cheated and lied
You took my dreams; you took my pride
You took my soul; my sanity
You took my trust and dignity
Honest, faithful, loyal and true
Everything I was to you
Believing all your thoughtless lies
Until I saw through your disguise
Now I’m left with pain and sorrow
How do I get through tomorrow
I know I must forget I cared
Forget the love and dreams we shared
Forget the man you used to be
Remember what my eyes did see
Remember all you did so wrong
Remember now I must be strong
Refuse to play this mental game
Or silently, I’ll go insane..


By Raina Hutchins 


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Farewell, Cruel World

It was a pleasure to burn
The memories faded
As I lit the match
My eyes were jaded

How dare they laugh and scorn
At my dreams, my hopes
My only freedom from this life
Without which, I cannot cope

I will soon be free and content
To be what they will not let me
I will be among my pride
As a lion on the Serengeti

So here’s to resurrection
To be reborn as we truly are
I as I tip the poison down my throat
Farewell, cruel world. RAAWR


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My goddess let me down

My goddess let me down.

My Goddess grew there in the yard
She looked so wonderful
She grew a bloody foot a day
Without no qualms at all
I got me quite excited by
The way my lady grew
Oh she was green and beautiful
She looked so lush and true.

I’d walk around my little yard
And then I’d stand with her
With love all wrote within my heart
My eyes a kind of blur
As thought of all the fun I’d have
Getting high most every day
Oh it would last for quite a while
I was chuffed in every way

But then One day I did find out
Something that made me cry
My dope plant was a ruddy male
No buds to get me high
Oh, how the shock grabbed hold of me
Well I was down for days
My goddess, she had balls on her
Then I tossed my tears away

So I grabbed me all those leaves
That grew upon this shrub
And shoved them in a great big pot
For cookies I just love
No smoke to clog me blooming lungs
Yet still the same old high`
And me, I’m quite adaptable
I am that type of guy


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Siren's Song

She’s alone under beach lights, she’s screaming at air
wishing someone would notice, could anyone hear,
feel the anguish, the loss, losing battle of one?
She’s at war with the world and she’s comming undone.
‘It’s all wrong,’ left her lips, ‘it’s alright,’ said the tides,
‘sometimes we all need a safe place to hide,
to wait inside shadows, return with new light
cause we change and we change till the patterns are right.’
‘But this pounding resounding inside of my head,
I fear is the only thing tangible left.
I can hear it and feel it consuming my head,
eats me up from the inside, lays nothing to rest.’
But the water just turned and it crashed upon rocks,
became angry, determined, climbed onto the dock,
said, ‘Listen to me, I am old and I am wise,
what reason have I to fill you with lies?
I’m a part of your body, a piece of your world,
have I not kept you living since you were a girl?’
But her feet kept on forward at a steady pace
“I’m sick and I'm tired, I'm leaving this place.
I can wait no longer for the turning of time.
I'm the only one left and I’ve been left behind.”
‘But they’re here! Someone’s coming! It won’t be long yet.”
but her mind was as certain as certain could get
and the rushing of water had drown out the sound
as the pounding inside became heavy and loud
and the water, though angry, then grew very still
whispered ‘There is nothing if nothing is fueling a will.
I cannot instill a desire to live, eventual peace is all I could give.’
So she sank and she sang all the air from her lungs,
she breathed in the waves awaited silence to come.
“As I have in you, you may now flow through me,”
and the tides changed again as they dragged her to sea.


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Toxic Logic

take my soul and crush it... like you do... every day... You've never looked so beautiful as your figure walks away the sad screech of my broken heart as it ceases to play you took me along for the ride of a lifetime, only to throw me away, every single day, and it is a crime, without reason or rhyme, to push me along with your toxic logic,  abandoning me again with an afflicted soul,  and my heart doesn't know that it is your toxic logic that twists me up inside brought on by your reign, and I can't recall my name Once again in my little hell, all by myself, my very essence betrayed, is there any more to tell? Lie after lie has fooled me, but now I'm done But I still love you, so my pain is far from done. You think that I'm inferior to children, that you can't talk to me, though I've been here since day one, why can't you see? that my existence is for you, and no one else,  and the sickest bit of it puts me in a rage... and i try to turn the page...  But I'm trapped in your toxic logic,  abandoning me again with an afflicted soul,  and my heart doesn't know that it is your toxic logic that's killing me inside brought on by your reign, overwhelmed by pain I see the world in black and white, no color left for me, I gaze across the room, and what do I see? I see yet another soul about to be ensnared, by this predator, but I simply don't care. I lost a part of me, and it used to let me love, But it has been snatched from me by this uncaring troll, and here I am, an empty vessel of defeat. I simply don't know, I truly have been beat. But as I retreat... from anger flows heat... Seared by your toxic logic, abandoning me again with an afflicted soul, and my heart doesn't know that it is your toxic logic that branded me inside brought on by your reign... damaged by pain... The last tether to you broke, I'm free at last. an empty part inside remains, holding me fast. I sink to my knees as the vacuum in my soul starts to shrink, loving you brought me to insanity's brink. I slowly raise my head... and gaze ahead... No longer captive to your toxic logic, that abandoned me with an empty soul, and my heart now knows that it was your toxic logic that tortured me inside under your maniacal reign... which gave me nothing but pain…


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A Fly and The Lady

A fly of unusual size
Saved from the web by the lady bug. 
It wasn't difficult to free him,
She just gave a pull and a tug.

A fly of unusual height
He seemed pleased to be the one freed,
But required distraction to ease
His troubled mind of the dirtied.

A fly of unusual strength,
His prime entertainment of choice
Was to test lady's loyalty
And to pirate her singing voice.

A fly of unusual might,
His twitchy face soon sprouted fangs.
Fear flashed through the lady's eyes when
The fly struck such horrible pangs.

A fly of unusual sight,
He showed the lady who he really was.
Wings shed and legs arched toward the sky,
The fly revealed his lying cause.

Because the fly was not a fly,
He was the one who spun the web.
He tricked her into loving him
So he could make her final bed.


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Life In A Vacuum

Life In A Vacuum!

Nobody seems to notice,
Nobody seems to care,
I live in a vacuum,
Where there isn’t any air…

And the heart in my chest,
Grows more and more like lead,
With my soul crushing down,
I’m left here with a frozen frown,

Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no…
It’s happening again,
Someone now says that,
They really like me and,
They’re my new best friend,

But no one seems to notice,
No one seems to care,
When there’s nothing more to give,
No one cares if I live,

Now with life almost gone,
I tried my best to prove this wrong,
The world’s full of people,
Who do not get along…

Oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no, oh no…
We’re all out for ourselves,
We can’t see we’re the same,
Yet we don’t help one another,
but rather blow ourselves to hell,

Oh, No one seems to notice,
No one seems to care,
We all live in a vacuum,
Where there isn’t any air…

By My Gull Wheels On
a.k.a. Michael Wilson


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An Escape From You

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

I ask myself why God would
Stick me in this jail, my own hell
So if I get help I might not feel
My own manic episodes, this is real

Am I bleeding
Am I seeing the truth
Or is it just a way
To deny my love for you

They say 
Just pop a pill
To numb 
All that can’t heal

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

Is it delaying the problem
Is it sticking a bandage
On a broken arm
Am I covering the truth
Is it an escape from you

I have no idea
If it’s the right thing to do
But all I know is
I must forget you

So I’ll take this bitter pill
And I’ll conceal my inner hell 
Cause it’s all I can do
To stop loving  you


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Queen of The Vultures

One step into her aflamed path
With even an intention so good
Anyone could, yet none should
She knits your lips with her name
So you won't remember 
the one who's heart you hold
Your lovers' bane

Her Eden's Revenge is all she contains
The destruction of your soul is all that remains
The Queen of Vultures and Wargs
She serves Asmodeus and nothingmore
Sitra Achra you will surely find
Misstress of Mayhem
The lights grow dim 
You've found the blood of your love

"Just dream if it was only you and me
Far into the left side far from The Hand of God
Run with me into the deeps of Sitra Achra"


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POWER OF FAITH TO ACTIONS

before, i have been chasing the future...
true, there is a must & need to prepare..
yet, who knows what tomorrow can bring..
Wisdom and A heart to decide, our gifts from God..

It lies within us...
Within our own very selves..
How our life will be..
How our future will be..

It's wrong to lay it in all to God...
It's wrong to say: He always there..
It's wrong to depend it all to Him..
why o why????

Cause it us who is living..
It is our duty as humans to go striving..
It is in us to not never give up..
Instead to pursue believing...

Doing progressive productive actions..
not to sit and fool around...
not to be lazy and to be as like parasites..
nor be like also gold - diggers...

It is our cumulative deeds that will lead us..
It is by our most definite specific decisions...
It is by our first step and the risks..

above all of these efforts and foregoing acts..
God will see; God will do His way..
He will touch whatever is in us...
In His God's grace and time, He will make all fit...

BY: olive_eloi
sept. 14, 2013
12:23am


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My love

The sound that stirs my inner soul hath no comparison to the beauty in you I 
behold. My heart though it longs to be bathed in your grace, I yearn much more 
to hear you speak my name. For your words are like gold more precious than life 
that to hear your spoken word would bring peace in this night.


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MEMORIES OF JABIDAH

They are recruited
for Operation
Merdeka,
trained to kill
their brethrens  

Aware that is to
attack Sabah

They refused!

They were killed and
tortured 
on the island named
Corregidor 

That event inscribed
as Jabidah Massacre 
then reported on 18
March 1968
 
Willingly sacrificed
their lives to avoid
use
on attacking Sabah
on the order of the
Philippines

Indeed,
their sacrifice
shall not be a
waste!


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PLUNGE IN BETWEEN

this past days, I can not write..
I feel something isn't right...
They said: "I'm bright"..
I said: "midway, I'm alright"...

I am in a deep thought..
Who could have sought..
I wish a bias thinking, they brought..
Oftentimes, lurks fear and doubt..

kindling, worry and anxiety to life..
terrible at times as it cuts like knife..
still, remaining still despite the strife..
bewitched and bewildered til dust..

Nevermind, all this will soon last..
Richness and beauty gradually rusts..
thus, stay humble and tuck in that bust..
God always sees and just..

by: olive_eloi
sept. 12, 2013
10:30pm


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The cleansing of the temple

The cleansing of the temple.

On reaching they Jerusalem
Our Lord and his disciples
They went into the holy temple
And Jesus saw it all
The nonsense that was going on
Those vendors selling doves
And money lenders everywhere
In this place just made for love.

Our savior saw this going on
I t irked him quite a bit
He turned these dealer’s benches over
He was having none of it
He would not let folk carry things
Through the temple on that day
He taught the people that were there
Said “The scriptures, this they say”

“My house it be a place of worship
For all nations to enter
But you have made it so I see
An awful kind of center
Where robbers hide” thus said our lord.
When the chief priests heard of this
Those teachers of the Law of Moses
Well this they’d not dismiss.

Their eyes were dark and anger rose
Within their foolish minds
Oh, they became afraid of him
Their hearts, they were unkind
They saw that he had reached the people
Who were amazed at him
And so they looked for ways to kill him
Their minds all hard and grim.



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Making It Up To You

I'll spend years making it up to you.
Each passing day I will pray a little longer
and hope a little more.
I can wipe my sadness off my arm and hold it
in a bag by the door --
if you'd agree to just pick it up and drop it off at the cleaners.
Then I know for sure it's over and we're just beginning
to get to the end of whatever the hell happened
and whatever the hell we'd been.
I can press my face up against the glass and 
hit the window with my fists
and be part of you again.
Just to feel anything 'cuz nothing would take away
this empty void I have lurking inside the broken part of me.
I would ask again for help and please beg you to just wait.
Wait for the time I'm ready and strong with 
everything brushing past me and all my leaves gone.
Wait 'til I'm just alone and scared like a child
and breathing shallow like a fish out of water 
causing you to see my pain.
It's written all over my neck and my back,
down to my middle toe on the left foot.
I just wanted you to know that I never said 
no.
I never said I was telling the truth.
I never said I was sorry, and that's something I'd never do.
Each day was a lesson and each lesson was learned.
Sometimes it doesn't hurt as much to let myself feel the burn.
We're not able to spend this time reflecting.
I'll spend years making it up to you. 


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Hidden Deep Within

I'm back to my writing, 
I'm back to my thinking, 
I dont know why I keep fighting, 
I don't know why I keep drinking, 

I always think I'm too spiritually weak, 
when I choose to ****ing smoke, 
but even ever more when I take that next drink, 
killing myself ain't no ****ing joke. 
Soon I will be six feet deep, 
I'm down in the reservation gutter finally broke, 
words said softly but nothing meaningful ever spoke. 

I'm back to my writing, 
I'm back to my thinking, 
I dont know why I keep fighting, 
I don't know why I keep drinking, 

Tell me something different Lord! 
Tell me why I grew up so ****ing poor! 
Tell me why I spent time sitting in prison crying to you on a concrete floor! 
Tell me why I can't have what I want in this life in what I truly do adore! 
Tell me why I am doing this when I can be doing that because this *****I'm doing now is a bore!
 
I'm back to my writing, 
I'm back to my thinking, 
I dont know why I keep fighting, 
I don't know why I keep drinking, 

I know the answers I ask are hidden deep within, 
I just have to look past my sins, 
I guess I can be an outlaw of just another outcast laughing at the world with a silent grin,
 I know I can be no hearted in the land of OZ I'm the mother fuking man of tin, 
I know if I would I would do all this *****all over again. 
I used to be the one at the end of the trail with just another loss but this my time to win.
 I know the answers I ask are all hidden deep within.


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One Last Time

I feel your breath upon my cheek
Your heartbeat next to mine
Cradled in your arms; but know
It’s just for one last time

I look into your eyes: you smile
That smile just breaks my heart
Lying here so close, but know
We’re really worlds apart

As I watch you sleep
A single tear falls from my eye
I know deep down your leaving me
I know this is goodbye

I close my eyes and silently
I pray to God above
That I will wake from sleeping
Still beside this man I love

As I pray he looks at me
And gently wipes my tears
He holds me in his arms
His whispers chase away my fears

He tells me that he loves me
How much to him I mean
But suddenly I realize
It’s really just a dream

For when my eyes are open 
In the cold cruel light of day
I know my prayers weren’t answered
I know he’s gone away

What do I do now
How am I supposed to feel
How do I move on
Do I bleed, or do I heal

Do I face the truth
Or do I live on lets pretend
But sadly deep inside I know 
We've reached our journeys end..



By Raina Hutchins


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La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin

La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin La Msytique est la Specatatrice du Divine Elle Parle au mot que je ne comprends pas "Soilel vous deffinissez est mien Pourtant vous, vous laisser il saigner Comme un nouveau vin Triste - ons ne Saurant Jamais Triste - ons ne Verront Jamias" Parle a moi, si prestine La Mystique La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin La Specatatrice du Divine Ton Voix sefane dans Le Chanson entrain de Mourir


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Therion

Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself


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PERSPECTIVE INNOCENCE

I have met and have known so many..
Did not give a chance to any?
Sure, I can have one of these any..
However, I am so careful and been choosy...

My heart's innocence..
It loves in true essence.
Bright as the lights luminescence..
All that gone by is just reminiscence..

How I pray for one and only?
Not of rich or pure novelty..
Not of highly educated nor of buckling pocket..
As I only want for one humbled..

It's crazy, I still believe..
When all those chances, I give..
It is rejection and pain, I achieve..
Nevertheless, I hope never be deceived..

For all I want is love to receive..
Mindful please, I ask you to perceive..
For times with you I spent, I'll not retrieve..
Trust and genuine love, do faithfully conceive..

by: olive_eloi
5:36pm
12/11/2013


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Forever Love

Staring out the window
I look up to the skies
I always used to say
It was the colour of your eyes
But long are the blue skies
Now replaced by dark and grey
With clouds that rain so heavy
Ever since you went away
How do I get through the days
And nights without you near
I just don’t know where I belong
Or where to go from here
I’ll always be alone
I’ll never meet somebody new
For me there’s no one in this world
To take the place of you
We had our ups and downs
We shared the laughter and the tears
But never lost the closeness
Or the love gained through the years
I can’t describe the loneliness
I feel so incomplete
For losing you it means I've lost
The biggest part of me
How am I supposed to live
This life without my love
Why should I believe
That there is good in God above
For if there was he’d dry my tears
And heal my hurt and pain
And never would have took the love
I’ll never find again
I know there’s nothing I can do
To bring you back to me
But know, that in my memory
And my heart you’ll always be..


.By Raina Hutchins



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Gone

Yesterday has slipped away
And only now I see
Just how sad the answers
To those questions asked can be

A hollow feeling in my heart
A pain inside so real
An empty space inside of me
That only you can fill

Even though you're gone from me
Still I’m holding on
To something that can never be
To something so far gone

People say that I'll forget 
That time will dry my tears
People say this pain inside
Will fade throughout the years

But everything we did
And every word that we did share
And every place we've been
Have left their shadows everywhere

Apart from you and I
Nobody else could ever know
Or ever understand
The part of me that can't let go

You were my love, my heart, my soul
You gave my life to me
And now I feel so lonely 
Saying 'I' instead of 'We

In a world of strangers
Here alone I stand
My promise of tomorrow
Gently slipped right through my hand

I close my eyes and feel you near
In dreams you're by my side
In every prayer I pray for you
In every tear I cry

Not only did I lose my love
I lost my best friend too
I lost my world, my heart, my soul
The day that I lost you

Although the road gets lonelier
And longer everyday
My memories of loving you
Will never fade away...


By Raina Hutchins



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Stranded

Sitting in the dark,
Waiting for a spark.
Alone lost on an island,
No one, no familiar hand.
Sorrow sinking in,
Watching the storm begin.
Alone far away
For far longer than a day.

Sitting on the sand,
Observing sea and land.
Alone near the ocean,
Rain the only potion.
Gazing at the moon,
Hoping night may pass soon.
Alone in a place so far,
Home feeling as distant as a star.


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Tylwyth Teg Cader Idris

Tylwyth Teg Cader Idris Tylwyth Teg Cader Idris Tylwyth Teg Cader Idris Sleeping atop a Mountain Far from Greenwood village enthralling people of Folly Under calamity Thou Doesn’t notice Thou Do not take notice of Tylwyth Teg Cader Idris veiled as Travelers Believe they’re always here So pay Heed and forever be benevolently And Fortuna pursue thee provide them with Strife They will show Thee what adversity fills our world Light-Hearted-Ale Intoxicated trickery singing blissfully Awaiting Audience, Wait and see shown Thy Hospitality With Bread and Cheese O' Morgan ap Rhys Play the Harp so Enchantingly All Will dance Until death bestowed following the Revenging road Abuse the will Of The Unseen Tylwyth Teg Cader Idris Thy gift made thou so blithe With retribution Thou Couldn’t see how enchantment Curses Evil For In the Night All Will Disappear


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Chosen


Who is this man in front of me?

For whom does he search —her or me?

What does he want—an us or a we?

what will he choose?  Controlled or carefree

This struggle for him, runs fast and deep

he stood so long, I fell asleep

with shoulders broad, his eyes are weak

His choice is made and I can see

his lips they part but do not speak

He knocks a total time of three

But with one more stride, he will always be—just the man at my doorstep

a memory.

I open the door, smile cordially

feeling no spark as both our eyes meet

He heads for the couch to take a seat

but instead gets down on bended knee

A small box and flowers at someone’s feet

His choice is made—is it her or me?…

He’s a memory now, I clearly see

IT WAS NEVER MY CHOICE

he chose for me.


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Appointment in samara

Appointment in Samara

There lived in Isfahan a man
A servant young and bold
Of a wealthy Merchant man.
One day this lad was told
To go and purchase food and wine
So with purse all filled with gold
The lad rode to the market place
But death there stopped him cold

He beckoned to that servant there
Like words he had to share.
But that lad did turn his back
And fled right out of there.
He fled he to samara
Where exhausted he lay down
But then at midnight on the hour
Lord death did come around.

Three knocks he heard upon his door
And the dark one came in sight
“I saw you there in Isfahan
You Can’t be here tonight”
The young man shrieked, but death did say
“Now I was there this morning
To say I’d meet you in samara
It was just my little warning”



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Leave Us In Peace

Rearing its ugly head
Struggling to take shape

The nincompoops’ have arrived
Yes, truly derived
The hyena’s abound
The terrain advanced
Abacha again?!
Leave us in peace

Abiola-like ears
When without my shears
Flapping without fears
Burger-like lips
Surely, the bill fits
Saddam hanged!
Terrorists ganged!
Youths hanged!
Petrol fanged!
Leave us in peace

230 victims, weighing a bale
Not enough to tip the scales
Burst! Yet another
Abattoir expects still more
Power maniacs at the fore
Obasanjo still snores
Leave us in peace

What difference was there
When Belleview happened
And Sosoliso followed
Killing a ‘fountain of truth ’
And National Corpers’ minus some
16 year-olds – buried?
1-mutilated?
And yet,
Chachangi became another toy: Unmaintained toy in acrid air
Toying with a 117 lives
Thereby burying that orange box
In Lisa village
Leave us in peace
Williams, Daramola, Ige
Maccido, Gandi, Mohammed
Hmmn…
The country mourned
But leopards remain spotted
Crocodiles without tears
And crabs, unblinking.
Atiku! Obasanjo!
National ‘craft scandals!
Political topsy-turvy!!
Economic instability!!!
Health upheaval!!!!
Physical and moral declination!!!!!
How much longer?
For we want to be
Left in peace…


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Euphorianah'

The sapphire sun of what-were dreams
Setting in the forsaken east
My winters' desperation clung to your silent voice
Let death be a choice
Dusk revealed your truest nature
Before her argentine eyes
'Tis the darkest of tragedies, romances' maladies
Let your forgiveness be la Vie In this frozen air
The wings of my deepest despairs

Friend or foe?
The dagger close to my heart--
If your forgiveness is nigh
Let me know--or is this all a lie

Lilyheart Swain
Please don't give into your pain
You hold my soul on Eden's Edge

Your innocent flesh
Cradled in my broken arms
Forever you will be mine, forever you will stay
The snow caressing us as we tangle in deathly embrace
This darkness fades into amber innocence 
Hatred no longer exists
Forgive me
Come back my only
Euphorianah

The winterwind tears carress me
With whispers, (of) Someone I Once knew
Calming the fears inside
But the pain remains
--hallcunary rains 

Dreams fading with the Enya in your eyes
With the darkness of your hands
The silverfears of the pale moon
Shine on you

Lilyheart swain 
Please don't give into your pain
You hold my soul on Eden's Edge

Your innocent flesh
Cradled in my broken arms
Forever you will be mine, forever you will stay
The snow caressing us as we tangle in deathly embrace
This darkness fades into amber innocence 
Hatred no longer exists
Forgive me
Come back my only
Euphorianah

Your eyes search for mine
Oh how they shine, blue 
Sacrdice has a price
Heaven is calling us tonight

Cursed In shadowed illusions
Shall we dance?
Would there be a chance
Euphorinah 
Forgive me now
I will rip out every nail 
Of your coffin
I don't care if it's God it will offend

Lilyheart Swain
Please don't give into your pain
You hold my soul on Eden's Edge

Your innocent flesh
Cradled in my broken arms
Forever you will be mine, forever you will stay
The snow caressing us as we tangle in deathly embrace
This darkness fades into amber innocence 
Hatred no longer exists
Forgive me
Come back my only
Euphorianah


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Lycanthrope-Lover

Silent pulses of Krileanine’s Pentagram Lure the young men of the hamlet Lönam Oh how she sains them with The Heptagram Curiosity killed the cat And made the Nightbeast Darkly, she commenced the ancient rite Performing in her Sluttish ways She’s preparing for the Full-moon Night Scream! Lycanthrope Lover Her host’s fangs Will pierce every innocent "Submit to my will You carrion ghoul Welcome to my Esoteric Hell" Scream! Lycanthrope Lover Whore of everything unholy You must Fear the Coming Of Muspelheim, Cassandra


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Diedre II

Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode I cunnan sense her embrace that felans gelic Tragedy A Heart to hath, slipped beneoðan waw The dark pulse nou beckons us closer How many daegs will this passion bledan way We will beon the ans left to blame Bewarian we hath be-came their prey They say thou hast ben addicted to thy pain A life-leas cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper to close to the edge A ceallian fram the dark Bringan ut a saving sparke An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode “My decadence wesan just for thee Though thou never hast cared of what I hath been through Enter the world hwaer empathy is clandestine A world created by thee, just for me Hwaet is lecgan in my heart Is why thou wants to through the stan” I call thy name towards nightfall’s reign But they take thou so feorr way A dark engel so devin Cursed by Eden’s Heart I will avenge every tear An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode


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Jock

Jock.

Now Jock he was a friend of mine
In those good old army days
When teenage boys were herded in
And made to change their ways
He told me one fine summer’s day
With a big blue sky above
"I'm glad that I'm a soldier boy
This army life I love".

They shipped him off to good old Nam
Placed a rifle in his hands
And said "now you're a soldier boy
I hope you'll understand
We're fighting those old Vietcong
You've got to see us right
You don't know what it's all about!!!
Nor us, just go and fight"

Poor Jock ain't with us any more
God bless his poor old mum
Our lad he was a forward scout
No use his bloody gun
As the flying metal put him down
Our jock the hero died
As politicians wined and dined
So many tears were cried.


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PLEASE DON'T

Don't offer me bills, 
I have some coins..
Don't offer me a house,
I always want a home

Don't offer me a trip,
I can go by my own
Don't offer me golds,
I have my silvers..

Don't forced me into relationship, 
I can have one if I'd like too

Please, 
Please..
Please..

I am in no hurry..
I'd rather be alone..
Than be force to marry.
Than be spent useless done..

I believe..
I truly believe..
Someday..
Somewhere..

I'll have the guy..
Whom God want's me to stay
With all that there is..
I believe it so..

By: olive_eloi
8:38pm
12/22/2013

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DISSECTING SAUDI

Nineteen months has passed since I did a step..
A step to attain one of my dreams..
Rumored as the land of "Just dime or penny"..
Talked as a land of so much strict Rules..

Rials their stable currency.
Oil their main product..
Towering modern ediffices abounds..
Architecturally design interiors..

Rich truly, as they said..
Islam the strictly followed religion..
Arabic their national language..
Riyadh, Jeddah, Maddina some of it's mainland..

Black and white the common colors of apparels..
Yet, roaming around malls..
Variant vibrant colors visibly in stalls..
Simplicity, that's what I appreciated here..

It was a barren solid land..
Almost all nationalities are here..
Finding a life; Making livelihood..
Maximizing what this country can offer...

Yet it's rules, the prohibitions..
Depresses the other life of man...
It takes away some of the joys of living..
Thus others, breaks the rules...

" incest meetings" are such as searching gold..
precious as undiscovered diamonds..
friends makes the stay here worthwhile..
Adopting and preserving the heart of humanity..

by: olive_eloi
02/10/2013
9:44pm

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A Question of Honor

Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views


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Tsustaroth

There was a time in yesteryear
When I had lived alone,
I had come across a certain fear
Of things that dwell below

My mind kept leaping back inside
The dark holes of the unknown
Till one night I felt cruel eyes
Burning into my own

I hadn’t welcomed it I swear!
—please do not get me wrong
I couldn’t remain, I wouldn’t dare
Stay there for too long

I fled towards my bathroom,
As if that would scare it away!
I’d lose it, I assumed
As long as I didn’t stay

For a full hour I sat there
On the toilet seat
Sitting in the darkness where
I stared at my cold feet

Finally, standing, I opened up the door
I heard the screech of the hinge,
That creak and nothing more…
But still, it made me cringe 

Each night I felt the eyes upon me
Fixedly, more and more 
But one dark, cold night I suddenly saw
A figure at my bedroom door

My eyes couldn’t leave the sight
Of the insidious, insisting guest
My heart thumped drastically in fright
As you probably would have guessed

It stood there upon the blemished floor
Watching me in my bed
Its body leaned against my door
Tilting and jerking its head

I screamed and clutched onto my covers
Stabbing to stay my heart
Trying to reach the telephone for others
But it was just too far! 

I looked out of my window
Watching the rain patter against the sill
I was trying to distract my terrified woe
That haunted me against my will

I must have been losing my mind
But one night I felt braver and sane,
Trying to be courteous and kind,
Though scared I asked, “What is your name?”

The atmosphere grew darker within the room
I thought that I would die of fright 
“My name is Tsustaroth,” it said
“And I am kissing you goodnight” 

In horror I saw it moving towards me
My blankets flew away
Its fiendish look of reptile beast
Was zooming towards my face!

I moved to the corner of the room
And it turned its head towards me
I felt the burning of terror and doom 
Revel inside of me

Then I saw it disappear
Into the dusty floors
But thrashing footsteps I could still hear
Closer and closer…thumping on the floorboards

As soon as it had left the scene
I felt the earth beneath my skin
I felt so alive, so eerily keen
I felt the darkness lurking within

“And every night, yes every while,
I’ll visit you at your door,”
As he spoke I felt myself hysterically smile!
“ And we won’t be lonely anymore…”


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To give you up

To give up the pain and sorrow 
The tears and lonely sad nights 
The arguments and misunderstandings. 

To have you 
That is the best thing ever 
That is the best feeling of possession there is 
The one thing that makes me smile 24/7. 

I don't want to give you up 
I just want the fights to go 
The misunderstandings to get understood 
The tears to slowly disappear 
The frowns to slowly turn to smiles 
Sad nights to be cuddled in. 

I need you next to me, 
But I don't need your pain and hurt. 

Come back to me, 
Maybe not. 
It seems you don't care.


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forever and always I love you

everyday I wake to your face
your soft skin set in a smile
you make my heart pound 
and my pulse race
and I blame you

you make my knees weak 
when you smile that smile
when stare at me like 
I'm a rare Jewel
and I blame you

my fingers tremble as they reach 
your arms pull me in
it's cold outside 
I snuggle close to your warmth
my knees shake harder
I blame you

Next time.....
No music plays
It's quiet and I read
eyes swollen from the fight we had
and from the tears that fell out of my eyes
I blame you

I think
and think

and remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

I remember
what I want to forget is Goodbye
But I don't think I can say it
My heart burns when I dare to 

I want to feel your arms
wrap around me 
and your voice whispering in my ear
your lips on mine
I blame you 

that my heart is broken
that it swells when I think of you
that my legs still shake and quiver when 
I find you on the street

tears spill from my eyes
I pick up the phone, 
my fingers lingering over the buttons
i can't dial 
want to
can't....
I miss you

My heart can't take it....
more tears
my sobs breaking the quiet
sobs broken by the phone

it's you
you say you're sorry
I smile just at your voice
I've missed it
You sound like you've been crying

we were always alike that way
You say another thing
I wait, wanting to hear,
but scared

you say....

you remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

you've missed me
we both laugh sadly
I say that 
I've missed you

we smile, 
we imagine it 

I love you....

but I don't say it out loud...
at least, not yet.

but, I love you
forever and always

forever and always


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Josette, Drive the Faerie out of me

She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me


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Chilling N Rocking Away

Copyright 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
Poetic Lyrics By Thomas Lam Hsi


THERE IS ONLY ONE TRUE GOD...THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY...WHO ALONE CAN
SAVE FROM Satan...who plays 'all' roles...the devil...the 'Lord Jesus'...
the 'Father'...the 'Holy Spirit'...all 'Other Gods'...and 'alien gods'...HE...THE
LORD JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF IS FULLY GOD AND MAN...AND HE ALONE...
IS THE ONLY WAY TO GOD THE FATHER...and to an Actual Heaven!



Steel, blood and blue…the gritty streets are all too true!
A crystal pearl on a crystal shell…an diamond lies ‘an a life of hell!
With dues to pay...‘an golden dreams on lay-away!
A gust of wind...a sonic crack...‘an a cosmic crash!
The winds have rocked my way!
So rock away!


Pennies in my pocket…with another bottle rocket!
Simple lovey-dovey...bangers and the bills!
Swirly-dwirly drinks…and penny copper mills!
Up all night…up all night!


A party of a life...a party of a life!
Silvery stones and...pretty golden lockets!
Up all night...up all night!


Coolest winter’s chill...with only bills...no thrills!
A shattered golden heart…for a royal golden tart!
A heady frothy malt…with ‘an endless open spout!
So rock away…so rock away!
Royal silken flags are raised…as the royal clippers sway!
So rock away…so rock away!


Party’s…bangers…sweets…drummers tapping beats!
So rock away…so rock away!
Linen…satin…sheets…parch'ment-value…sheets!
So rock away…so rock away!


A party of a life...a party of a life!
Silvery stones...and pretty golden lockets!
Up all night...up all night!

Party's...silver...golden wings...secret hidden things!
So rock away...so rock away!
Diamond golden rings...and 'any' other thing?
So rock away...so rock away!


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And In The END

Message Delivered
I Am Done
Here , No One
Even Noticed

Trumpet Sounded
Angels Spoke
Another Day
Passes Away

Tick , Tock
Time Slides
Just When
The Decision Made

Flash Of Light
Fury of the Wind
Thunderous Noise
The END


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Small Town Big People

I look in the mirror and see the years gone
I can look beyond the glass out the window
To the yards of my childhood
I can smell the flowers and feel the grass ‘neath my feet. 
I can hear the music blasting on the radio
Mama callin’ me for supper.  


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

The town is small and so are the events
You’re everyone’s business 
You can get a break and can’t get away
You don’t even have a say
You go to and from and people protest
And those same people will still put you to the test


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

I made it to the big town K.C, 
Got myself a husband and a son and a place to live
Settled in and made a life, got a career
I swear I’ll never return to my best friend
Comfortable where I stand, 
Happy where I am 


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

Well times are hard,
And people are ruthless in this cut throat time
Jobs are scarce and bills run high
You never know what you’ll hear at night
The people are small in this big town
Yeah people are small in this big town


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

I guess the town is small
Just good ol’ boys and girls havin’ fun
Small place, small town, small world
People may talk and people may watch
But the biggest thing in that small town
Are the people after all. 


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

-Heather Birdwell 9/22/2009



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OH MOTHER

Asking or wondering,
teasing or affiliation,
you never said sorry,
for what you did to me,
here i am today,
sitting all alone,
out here in the stone cold world,
asking myself the same question,
did you ever really loe me,
as each day goes on,
memories are becoming the past,
now looking back,
what a blast we all had,
never will it be the same,
because you thought i was insane,
leaving behind all the people you ruthlessly blame,
sitting here all alone,
wondering why the h*** i ever cry,
you dont give a  f*** about me,
so why should i,
yes i maybe your daughter,
very first child for that matter of fact,
you still turned your back,
and to this day have never looked back,
to see what a wonderful child you really do have.... 


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Dead Butterflies

After all this, what is it for?

I climbed a mountain only to face a brick wall

Drowned in my own sweat and tears

Wishing I had cried even more

I smiled when I saw

the flowers atop the trees

Only to venture nearer and see

that they were only snowfall.

Now I am torn

by the wire-like branches

Worn

by the whiplash of wind.

Buried 

under carcasses of butterflies

Watching the stars fall.

After all this, what is it for?


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The eyes of the immortal (part 1)

The fever comes upon the mortal
Through it he seeks his mind to see
What lies behind the hidden portal
Behind the scenes of his reality

He sees forces that furiously unravel
Upon the souls of the flesh and blood
They seek the despair, the power, the emotion
To discovery the new in their immortal now

They sense his eyes looking at them
His consciousness swimming in their unknown
They look back, with a desire for pestilence
Troubled as he is, afraid he now becomes

Rotten his reality, begging for the something
To the few that notice .. his futility on the streets
He craves for his status, his power and his money
The things that depraved him of his soul

Yet nobody looks, nobody hears and no one understands
The earth has closed his gates to his mouldered soul
Trapped between the world of vision and the world of now
His mind starts planning his devious return


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September 11th

Today’s the day
When it all went down.
The pain and sorrow,
And the worlds big frown.
It shouldn’t have happened,
All those innocent people,
Who had to be there,
Now have God as their keeper.
It wasn’t their time to go.
I feel horrible for their families.
I just want to ask you,
 To pray for them please.
The terrorists that did this
Will get what they deserve.
They’ll get Satan’s kiss!
They must be heartless
To even think of this!
There are people to thank
Like the firemen and cops,
And a lot of people gave blood.
Even if it was just drops.
When the towers got hit,
The world thought it was an accident.
No one would’ve guessed
That it was really terrorists.
So don’t forget this day.
Its part of our painful history.
It’ll be in the books.
But why it happened,
Will always be a mystery.


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SHAKY RELIANCE

he said: i'm a woman of steel...
he doesn't know this a fraud seal...
my heart and soul on a "hill"..
wishing nothing but complete heal...

i have long live to love..
knowing, these all wants to have..
i have taken so many risks..
fallen unwavering to various tricks..

i am not a materialistic..
nor am i a someone plAtonic..
i got heart small not gigantic..
yet, it beats huge with ethics..

i fought hard within hot waters..
seeking fortresses, guarding to buffer..
i conquering with God who gives power..
no less, success it yonder...

patience..
patience..
patience..

i don't want to be on defiance
though, i am of silence
appearing tough and of calmness..
tell you what, inside is a shaky reliance.


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REMEMBRANCE of HARRIET HARRIS:

VERSE ONE:  
 
Christened as averred one Harriet Kuritsky on November 13th nineteen thirty five
     the youngest of four with only one brother
     whose exit from this world from a terminal illness she did not survive! 

The following emotions communicating heartfelt grief
practically vanquished as like my existence turned a new leaf!
 
A recurring abysmal grief stricken state
still consumes my entire being of late
these perpetual tears of sadness seem not to a-bate
since the grim reaper brandished scythe
     signature sign of a deadlocked fate!
 
Twas about 11:00 a.m. 2005 that third of May
     that our dearly beloved mother
     fought tooth and nail to keep death at bay 
(recounted by sisters who elected to remain on vigil that day)
nonetheless rigor mortis upper hand
     brought a (supposed) painless and swift death
     to her diseased and emaciated riddled body  gone lifeless and ashen gray!
 
This only heir still misses his mom more than plaintive words can spell
with his agonizingly pained heart and soul  that rents asunder this psyche pell-mell
no amount of weeping can quiet and quell!
 
Cathartic for me to give you a posthumous ode
conveyed in an easy to read poetic code
to accept finality & permanent loss only retrievable from nostalgic memories
     identified as that childhood home and favorite abode! 
 
VERSE TWO: 
 
Her cremated ashes still remain sealed in the same nondescript box
     white, powdery and chalk like material
     devoid of any vestigial semblance to her once living and vibrant self
     that unique persona pulverized and vaporized
     (housed former svelte and tall Arthur Murray ball-room dance teacher 
     a half century plus prior to demise
     which beauty, charm and grace quickly caught the attention of my father
     who courted and eventually proposed to this young flirt and tease of a gal)
     inert organic matter now represents sole residual embodiment 
     reduced to dust and near nothingness
     former corporeal being of blood, bone and flesh 
     weighing no more than a dozen hatch marks on the scale
     absence still bears down heavy like some millstone round the neck
     per  the black hole void created by defeat with Grim Reaper
     toward this woman who helped birth and nurse me into manhood
     momma’s only grown son still feels ripples of grievous sadness
     no matter the years of suppressed anger and rage
     in addition to emotional conflicts between us 
     which invariably wrought unpleasant relationship
     and a legacy of discord writ large across the tapestry of my life!
 


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Buzzy's Legend

Copyright 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
Poetic Lyrics By Thomas Lam Hsi


THERE IS ONLY ONE TRUE GOD...THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY...WHO ALONE CAN
SAVE FROM Satan...who plays 'all' roles...the devil...the 'Lord Jesus'...
the 'Father'...the 'Holy Spirit'...all 'Other Gods'...and 'alien gods'...HE...THE
LORD JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF IS FULLY GOD AND MAN...AND HE ALONE...
IS THE ONLY WAY TO GOD THE FATHER...and to an Actual Heaven!



The Legend of Buzzy...fantasy or fiction...or simply...a mindless dereliction?

The spontaneity of...cloves and garlic...the well-worn charms...or a worthless 
harlot!

The innocence of a laddish boy...or simply...her well used toy?

Riverboats and trees...brackish waters...to booted-knees!


Bows 'n arrows...pickled toes...'fer twice 'yer sparrows?

Sons 'a courage...'n 'notta sweets...'tho warmed...ricey 'pur-rage!

Piper's pie...in 'ol yeller's lie!

'N a lacky...'fer...some...old...pipe 'tabacky?


The Legend of Buzzy...strange or true...the drunken crew...of a...shipwreck fluzzie?

A one-eyed bandit...how...'goddamit...blew 'mah...pink...katoozie!

'Po boy's charms...lucky rimes...hairy arms...'an some dirty rimes?

Mama's spoon...Pop's a loon...'n a blackened...lifa crime!


Bows 'n arrows...pickled toes...'fer twice 'yer sparrows?

Sons 'a courage...'n 'notta sweets...'tho warmed...ricey 'pur-rage!

Piper's pie...in 'ol yeller's lie!

'N a lacky...'fer...some...old...pipe 'tabacky?


Gold dabloons...'n 'ol cartoons?

Sissy's purse...'n a pirate's curse!


The Legend of Buzzy...weird or true...a 'Kuma-Kazee's...'ol peez...or a
...worthless 'Squeeze?

A slivery hand...on...her...candied land!

Toothy tease...'n a...cousin 'ta 'Squeeze?

'Po boy's charms...'n a lifa crime...'selling...dirty 'ol rimes!


Bows 'n arrows...pickled toes...'fer twice 'yer sparrows?

Sons 'a courage...'n 'notta sweets...'tho warmed ricey 'pur-rage!

Piper's pie...in 'ol yeller's lie!

'N a lacky...'fer...some...old pipe 'tabacky?


Gold dab loons...'n 'ol cartoons?

Sissy's purse...'n a pirate's curse!

The Legend of Buzzy McGoon!


The Legend of Buzzy McGoon...worthless 'ol tunes...harlot's swoon
...or yella-belly...'n pure spi-toons!

'N a lifa crime...she 'taint worth a dime...gotcha 'spin-in on...tattered
...rimes!

Gamblin boats...'n long-tailed coats...oh 'mah doozy...it's 'mah katoozie!

'Po boy's charms...she licked 'mah rimes...a pink bee-hind...'for-evr set
...'n a...lifa crime!


Bows 'n arrows...pickled toes...'fer twice 'yer sparrows?

Sons a courage...'n notta sweets...'tho warmed...ricey 'pur-rage!

Piper's pie...in 'ol yeller's lie!

'N a lacky...'fer some old pipe 'tabacky?


Gold dab loons...'n 'ol cartoons?

Sissy's purse...'n a pirate's curse!






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A Lifetime Too Late is Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Copyright 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
POETIC LYRICS BY THOMAS LAM HSI (ANDRESS)
Dedicated to Renata 'Ronnie' Kanani & Danielle McCarthy (I hope!)



If a lifetime is too late...then...MAYBE...THAT-LIFE...WELL?!?!
You know..."Somewhere Over The Rainbow"...Just Might Be A Silly Song!
There was a Movie, "Where Have All The Gods Gone?"
And I wonder...YES...where have all MY GODS GONE?

A Destiny Delivered Late...really is...Late...and maybe...TOO LATE!

There is really...only one thing...THAT REALLY MATTERS...THAT'S LOVE!
JUST LOVE...REALLY...IT'S JUST LOVE!

Every baby...every little boy...every little girl...every teenage boy or girl...
Every working stiff...of every kind...every retiree...EVEN...THE GODS...
NEED LOVE!

From carrot juice in wax cups...to your first bath...in the kitchen sink...
A cookie in your hand...and your laughing parents...at your first steps...
Is a Destiny That Starts Out Right...but SOMEWHERE OVER THAT RAINBOW
ARE BLACK CLOUDS...that await!

Do you remember...that first pulled pony-tail...that first unmanly cry?
SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW...the blue-birds...and...THE HAWKS
DO FLY!

A Destiny Delivered Late...really is...Late...and maybe...TOO LATE!

They say, "That a match made in heaven...is heavenly"...well...
DID YOU CHECK THE DIVORCE RATE?

They say that..."Love is a universal principle"...and I'd like to believe it!
Because when...Her Heart Died...I Cried...and then My Heart Died!

And I would like to say..."Will YOU believe for ME and for US?"

Love is something...and someone...TO HOPE FOR...AND TO DREAM ABOUT!

"Somewhere over the Rainbow"...can be the most beautiful song...
But that depends...!

Do blue-birds fly...and do the stars in heaven shine...but DIE?

Lovers in the rainfall...IN PARIS...is something that I'd love to see...
FOR MYSELF...AND FOR HER (or for him...as it may be)!

(TO BE CONTINUED)


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Rosaline

Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline


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dark dreams

a shadowed room...
my permanent cell,
the hatred by others intense.
blades fly through the air,
tearing through my flesh,
my attempts to scream futile,
my mind going blank,
I look up,
my finally thoughts happy,
"the pain is finally over,
my death is now to come,
the anger of others gone,
the scars from fights painless,
the shadows of my past pointless,
as i pass away tonight."
slowly my heart decreases its pumps
my vision goes to black,
my body suddenly heavy,
then when i think I may finally have peace,
I wake into a world of hate.
the final fight wasn't lost,
for it has only just begun.


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Miss Mayhem

Nymphomania Is all she can grant you along with a well spent night This femme fatale isn't something A man can't handle A sex-fiend straight from the chamber of Satan A desire so strong It won't ever feel wrong A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem Disaster is what she is A taste of her could make you leave All other vices and loves Would you ever think of the price For an eternity you'll be condemne dEven just for one night with miss mayhem This vamp of pain all life she will drain, this is addicting whore Is all you will adore Exciting and erotic Using all fetishes against your soul Your wife will surely lament From this dreadful strife A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem A plague of pleasure The flead rats couldn't even measure Against the scourge of men A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem


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It Started With...

A kiss
So soft, so familiar.
Even after years,
I can't find any better.
One moment
Back, wrapped in your arms
And still, you're perfect.
My good luck charm.
I say,
"It's weird that you still hold me perfect."
Your reply,
"No one else ever fit."
But you left.
And I can, now, honestly say, "No regrets".
You've made your decisions and lived your life,
Just as I have done with mine.
So why is it now that you come back to me?
Right after I've found some kind of happy,
But still not the same happy you give,
But happy enough to live and let live,
To smile on a daily basis,
That's when you come and do this!
You pick everything up and turn it upside down,
Or maybe you flipped it downside to the sky,
And put the right side up.
Either way you put it, I'm stuck between him and you,
And you ask what I want, 
But honestly, I don't want to give either of you up.


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Deirdre III

Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 
Don't you know Deridre's Gone?

I stepped into room 8-16 only to feel tragedy 
The gatekeeper says your addicted to your pain
A lifeless cold barren soul put In the closet with the shades
Will he ever let you out?

How many days will this passion bleed away
We will be the ones to blame
Beware we've became their prey

An exodus from pain
Her life spent breathing in shame
Am I the one to blame 
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 
Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 

"my decadence was just for you 
Though you have never cared what I've been through
Enter a world where empathy is clandestine
A world created by thee, just for me
The destruction in my mind 
Is why you want to throw the stone
Today I go past the gate''

I call your name towards nightfall's reign
But the guards take you so far away
A dark angel so divine
Cursed by the ones of Eden's Heart
I will avenge every tear

An exodus from her pain
Her life spent breathing in shame
Am I the one to blame 
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 
Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong
Don't you know Deirdre's Gone? 



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Sacred Lorelei

The night has befallen me Rescue me, unchain me Sacred Lorelei Bleeding a passion of royalty Forever I'll follow your Argentine cloak with the most deadly pacts beautiful Witch Sacred Lorelei Tell me did the ravens Hear my cry My misery's plea Sacred Lorelei Was this all just upon a dream Lucidity becoming reality of my Sacred Lorelei A fiat of darkly desire from a most beautiful witch unchaining the burden of my misery All for my Sacred Lorelei


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To feel Safe

"It's been a while since
i put pen to paper
been a while since
i had anything to say
but i'm so full of hatred and i'm
losing all my friends i'm thinking
how much my life just sucks
how i fight and claw up
only to be knocked down
blood apon my furrowed brow
is it worth it to get up?
or should i just stay on the ground?
and i don't hear any voices it's just
silent all around.

Waiting to be saved cuz
i sure as hell can't save myself
just wanna feel safe but i can't
see to find anyone else
i'm trying to get saved
but drinking this holy water doesn't
seem to help and how i wanna feel
safe
but i can't seem to find anyone else.

Been along time since i felt good enough
or just plain good to be something a woman
wants
it's like i've got all the pieces of the puzzle
but they won't line up.
and it seems like no matter what
i do all i feel is frustrated 
and stuck.

Waiting to be saved cuz
i sure as hell can't save myself
just wanna feel safe but i can't
see to find anyone else
i'm trying to get saved
but drinking this holy water doesn't
seem to help and how i wanna feel
safe
but i can't seem to find anyone else."


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Litany of Decay

Her black eyes allure you
Into her cloak if traps 
Nothing is right anymore 
Death encircles you but 
Never finds you

They Want my curse of eternal 
life 
But all I want to do is reach 
for the knife
In blood you rose
In blood I fall

 forever I must sing this litany
dying in life-- let my find my 
grave
'twas the myriad year
inducing a lucid fear
 I can hear my coffin's cry
 my body lies
there's nothing left to say
This Litany of decay

Free me, hear me, my death 
where have you gone
I Drown in Vitality
Dying in my immortality 
Just waiting for the stake to 
reach my heart
Caress me with your pain
like the blood in rain

Your shell is breaking
Show them what lies inside
Witch of centuries
Witch of lies
Love was never meant for you

forever I must sing this litany
dying in life-- let my find my 
grave
'twas the myriad year
inducing a lucid fear
 I can hear my coffin's cry
 my body lies
there's nothing left to say
This Litany of decay

forever I must sing this litany
dying in life-- let my find my 
grave
'twas the myriad year
inducing a lucid fear
 I can hear my coffin's cry
 my body lies
there's nothing left to say
This Litany of decay


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He Hides in the Night

It's claw flash within the night.
We could hear her scream in vain,
'Tis the time to stand up and fight.
We all feel her pain...

The church bells ring,
Here we hide in fear,
We're trapped by this thing,
Da wolf may be near...

Run, run and hide!
There's no way to escape,
Before we have tried,
Maybe this is our fate.

The church bells ring,
Here we hide in fear,
We're trapped by this thing,
Da wolf may be near...

The ground is painted red.
The moon has urged him on,
But don't be afraid to rest your head,
For we will survive 'till dawn.

The church bells ring,
Here we hide in fear,
We're trapped by this thing,
Da wolf may be near.

The beast within will roar to life.
Don't be afraid to fight!
Stab thy in heart with thy silver knife.
Stand united till the dawn's purple light.

The church bells ring,
Here we hide in fear,
We're trapped by this thing,
Da wolf may be near...

The night is done,
The beast's heart be still.
We mourn over the souls that will never again see the sun,
And we have finally paid our bill.


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Stand Tall

"Stand tall" is what mom said,
But They all know Im hanging from a thin thread.
"I want to do this", I tell my friends,
But they all think Im doing this to become one of the trends.
I want to stand there and give all Ive got,
But Im afraid what they'll say,the hole lot.

Im shaking and terrified,
I dont want this to go on the downside.
I want to be told Im good and Great,
Cuz I wanna be the schools new update.

I might get a few laughing and telling me Im done,
but I want to make sure I furfill my mission.
I want to show off and thats no lie,
I want someone to make me cry.

Make me cry cuz I was so good,
I want mummy and daddy to know that the room was no deadhood.
I want to make everyone cry,
So everyday People would ask me to sing high.

Im afraid and that is true,
but This is what I have to do.  


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Border Fence

The flush of spring has bought new life to romp in greening feed,
Along the border with the forest where domestic flocks do breed,
Managed through the daylight by the fear of being seen,
The sentinels of death await for night when they are keen.

Though distant lights may glow as beacons for the lost,
Guerrilla’s stream out silently in pack form to accost,
And satisfy their lust for blood without no grace or fear,
Frustrating yet the hand of man. By dawn they disappear.

Far reaching eyes in anger lies where wilderness is dense,
I know my soul is being watched beyond the border fence,
Locked into disappointment where flies gather at my feet,
There’s blood-stained wool on rotting flesh, with no thought to eat.

Immediate is my judgment for no trial is needed here,
I am the executor of the guilty, who dare to wander near,
Survival is the wisdom tho’ for the wily streetwise cur.
The frenzy’s not in pattern! It’s too late for where they were.

The night is cold and lonely with the urge for needed sleep,
But as the shepherd of my flock I must protect my sheep.
A pack will form again when blood is dry and lost its scent,
Until the last sheep drops their guard, no dog shall here repent.

The lead appeared Alsatian bounding surprised in its flight,
For it’s escape back to the bush in my sudden cheating light.
The echo of my three-o-three thundered through the hills,
With-in the change of retrospect, ‘tis I who wants the kills.

Death took a holiday tonight where death was meant to be,
My shot was high or wide or low, ‘twas more shadow I could see.
Silence returned and in my light that scanned the field and scrub,
I knew that I was being watched, beyond a woodland shrub.


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Candlelight Flames pt 3 A Christmas for two

Candlelight Flames pt. 3 ~ A Christmas For Two

The way you are, I fancy you
Twist and turn and turning blue
I hold my breath, I bleed for you
Wrapped in ribbons And Christmas too
So twist and twist My kiss is for you
The way you are, I fancy you

So strip me with your Golden Eyes
Your Golden Hair Your Golden Stare
Strip me Naked in the Rain
Stripped me Naked so Insane
Strip me, take me- Candy Cane

Dancing and Dancing
So beautiful you stand
Dancing this Dance
Our love in the sand
Twisting and Turning 
I’m burning for you
Screaming, I’m screaming 
“This love’s turning true”
Wrapped you in ribbons 
It’s Christmas for two
The way that you are
I fancy for you

So strip me naked 
Let’s dance in the rain
Strip me, take me
Our love so insane
You twissed me and kissed me
It’s Christmas for two
Wrapped me in ribbons 
Our love’s turning true
Dancing this dance because I fancy for you~ 
  It’s Love and Romance and my 
Kiss is for You

   by €hristian Alexander


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Don't Follow Me

Picture features stretched and strained
Hearing unfamiliar names
Knowing if I let them in 
That I’ll be taking all the blame

Oh, your pain it scares me so
Weird connections but I know
That I’ll never want to show
How we face a common foe

Falling faster sweeter still
Sitting on your window sill
Razors hidden in the frame
Some where I know more remain

Oh my sweethearts, oh my friends
Can’t you see the cold in me?
Remember the fun never ends
You have but to turn the key
Don’t follow me or you might fall
Don’t follow, I run into walls!

A knife tucked in your pillow case
A smile plastered on your face
Exactos slipped in every book
Sharp bits hid in every nook!

Orange and purple, blue and green
Colors deeper than they seem
But I know every one can see
Red is under every thing!

Long and loose, my cut-off sleeves
Sweaters under bright green leaves
With all this darkness pouring in
I hope no one asks me to swim.

Oh my sweethearts, oh my friends
Can’t you see the cold in me?
Remember the fun never ends
You have but to turn the key
Don’t follow me or you might fall
Don’t follow, I run into walls!


Friends gather from near and far
Bumming rides and stealing cars
A little love shouldn’t be this hard
But talking won’t rub away my scars

And though I feel it’s hopeless
And though I feel the heat seep in
I try so hard to quit this
But I never seem to win

Girls you know I love you so
But when my hands begin to glow
I just need to fade it out
Pain is what it’s all about

Don’t follow me or you will see
Steak knives hidden in the trees
Razors stashed through-out the halls
Remember I run into walls!

Remember I run into walls!  
Remember I run into walls!
(whisper)Remember I run into walls…
And where ever I’m wont to tread
I’m always hanging by a thread
Cradling my spinning head
From all the things I haven’t said
I know I’ll never have it all
Answering a distant call
Stop following to see me fall
DON’T FOLLOW!  I RUN INTO WALLS!


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The Eve of Truth

I’m lost..
Lost in a world I’ve never been shown.
By a man with feelings yet unknown.
My heart blown up with love.
Falling in this life I’ve only dreamed of.

He is a man..  
A man that has ruined all other men for me.
I know this is the life for me to be.
Filled with fear that his love has passed.
But for now, here I am, in this spell he has cast.


In Strength I’d move on
But I want to be here forever
I just don’t want this to end here
I really need to know where my fate lies.

Now here I am..
I am desperately waiting for my answer.
The ache destroying my willpower.
The need to save all of my strength for a let down.
I just want the pain to stop spinning around.

Is this the end..
The end of this happy chapter in my life?
Was it worth all of the confusion and strife?
To this I say yes and declare complete satisfaction.
In the memory and my life’s new plan of action.


In wisdom I move on.
I know life is one big endeavor.
I think this moment has ended dear.
I have learned more of the art of goodbyes.


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Vibeke

She is so sweet to me Her lovely lullabies are my fix An angel on earth she is With her voice she could break the lunar love She is my muse But where did she go My angelic-gothic queen A siren has fell What is left to take her place A wench from the south Such a terrible fate for her band of legends  Tristania has surely died


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The Vampyre's Kiss

I never need to see the sun.
For all the things I see in you.
The kiss that gave me eternal bliss,
My words so dark surrounded by pain.
Kill me slowly with this knife.
I'll never be the same.

The darkness covers me like the stars.
You I see all around.


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I Awake To Bed It But Once More

When I awake each morning with fear and fight
I see the morning's light
So I know that I am blessed to have made but one more night
You see although I struggle with fear while it is light
My terror haughty me day and night 
This devil is worst without the light 
She claws within the realms of the soul where fear lives and doubt hides
no place for peace or excape just waiting for the light
Although I am but not alone in my plight for fear is she a might fight
She brings but our own truths against us and make them bigger than they are
She wiill make us weaker than we really are so fight
Heed my warning stay strong stronger longer she will take flight
Before morning's light
I too hope this will be mine soon 



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Urban Lovers

Two bodies 
                      bound together
          The room may be 
small
          but their hearts 
are spacious
       and full of joy
and
desire
        Old disagreements 
have faded with the 
        dying sunlight
                         hearts beat
    rapidly
          lovemaking has
        soothed the aching
pain
      both of them have known
Their eyes misty
        Their minds delighted
by the touch of flesh to 
     flesh
  What others think 
matters about as much
         as the dust on the 
window
     Which blocks the view 
temporarily
      Before it is brushed 
away 
      reveling the  urban
scene
        to souls who 
are taking delight
        in touching each other
as they relieve
                the hurt which
mortal life always, always brings


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Leagues of Shadow

I woke up in the darkness of early morning
With a feeling inside me I cannot explain
All I do know for certain is
It is causing me a lot of pain

It is like a dark cloud is flying over me
In a way I do not know
But what I do know for sure is
It is like some kind of shadow is

Taking complete control of me
I really cannot explain why
But I have this very strange and horrible feeling
That all my good feelings and thoughts are about to die

And turn me into some kind of monster
That I have never really wanted to be
This strange and awkward feeling is
About near to take over me

I am not really sure
But one question: does anyone really know?
Of how much longer it takes for a person?
Until he or she is engulfed into leagues of shadow


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Backwoods Delirium

Hang yourself from that family tree, cut it down build a coffin for you and me. I ain’t got time for that threshin’ floor.  Not the first time I’ve felt the inside of a warm body cavity and understood. Stretch the flesh, and visions told. Prophesies rot within bleached skulls. The sun knows no mercy for its decimation.  I ain’t got time for that threshin’ floor. Drag my belly across that killin’ floor, Welcome lil’ girl this slow death we call life.                                                             
Well the fiend’s they cometh from deep within the woods.  Filth, filth… divine visions. We’re ganna Bleed upon clover. Consumed by Clouded thoughts, numb tongued with a haunted stare. Moonstruck, finger tips meet broken flesh. Survival, it is a killer. We got Graves without faces and we’re cursed to wander as the sun burns a hole in the sky... Carve me a smile,we got  Bones in a pile. What we do in them woods is holy.  O’ it feels so good to be washed from sin, that blood of lamb tastes divine. My sweet sweet lord, he’s up above. 
It’s a nightmare made flesh kinda’ Sunday.   Gatta’ love that velvety God flesh in your mouth.  ...And her womb spews forth blasphemy, and her lips uttered deceit.  Black alter. The trail of dead ends at your doorstep, the stream of blood rests at your feet.


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Mind's Lacuna

Open space within an embrace
My trials are almost done
Executioner tales I failed
While the rest I don't recall
 
Poetry became a backbone
Each time my eye struck twelve
A masterpiece I strive for
But humbly feel I've failed
 
A pen stroke feeds into my shadow
As memory's are still returned
From a cracked skull to my knife's old home
My fingers and wrist still motion
Moving slowly in a off form of cursive
 
Trying again and again into ageless times
To compose a mockery of rhymes
Simply stating what my mind tells me I've beheld
A memoir of a death-less writer
 
While I write I forget
To read or hear
What my hands have written
Or my heart has feared
 
Tis a trial of errors
I can hardly come to believe
That while victory instilled fear
My poetry brought motion
Gave a sense to my background
Something to which, I had no notion
 
Short but sweet I try to achieve
But my execution is always due
As I cannot fail to meet
The standards I feel true
 
I pushed so high to exceed
But can't help to decide
Enough's enough, my mind says
Because within the gap of my head
A small serenity raised true
 
As I put pen to paper
My eyesight tracked down
To begin to read as I write
It beckoned a small shout
 
My poetry I can’t read
But only write 
As my head cannot conceive
What mysteries are contained within
The gap that has completed my mind


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Aquarain Dream III- Children of Concordia

Used to be Controlled by a Tyrant of lies Then one day The swift unseen knights Came and stormed all who Deteste the Aquarian Wish Be Free and live long we are the Children of Concordia Nothing shall be in our way Comely as what a Siren signs Bravery of what a Lion brings The Grey Haven lies beyond the mist The Children of Concordia They have no word for trist Will you let me join your world? Will you open up the doors? A people of concord and more than they seem They live in the shadows of an Aquarian Dream A place of Liberty and Harmony Ruled by magic and Lore Deep in the Golden forest of Clarity Filled with enchanting tales Of Immortality and evil’s causalities You can find Eden’s people she said what humans were meant to be Comely as what a Siren signs Bravery of what a Lion brings The Grey Haven lies beyond the mist The Children of Concordia They have no word for TristWill you let me join your world? Will you open up the doors? the safety of your real that could never fall Comely as what a Siren signs Bravery of what a Lion brings The Grey Haven lies beyond the mist The Children of Concordia They have no word for trist Will you let me join your world? Will you open up the doors?


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Solemn Son

Where's my mommy? Where'd daddy go?
Older sister says she's nobody's daughter.
Loveless lament as I realize I never had parents.
In our lives, no arch angels or saving souls were sent.
I hold my sister as in pretense she tells us no harm was ever meant.
But sociopath mother and murderer father must be held responsible.
Forever gone in a loveless void, their sins are irreconcilable!
As the strangers take us away from the past I look towards the shining sun.
And I yearn to forget my mother's blood and my father's smile as he guiltlessly grasped
his gun.
They've destroyed themselves and left behind a distraught daughter and solemn son.


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Unstable

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
not that you cared 
not that you knew 

Like a smile from an angel 
Looking right through me 
What I’d give for your notice 
just a catch of your eye 

Hours turn to days, as minutes tick by 
Still you’re looking, looking right through 
All that I am is meant just for you 
How is it you cannot see me 
I’m right here, right in front of you 

It’s killing me 
But its killing you too 

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
not that you cared 
not that you knew 

Hallowed out, I refuse to die alone 
Even the emptiness is gone 
Left on the edge 
just waiting for a push 

Running out of patience 
Breath comes heavy 
Still there is nothing 
Again you look right though me 
Why can’t you see 

It’s killing me 
But it’s killing you too 

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
Not that you cared 
Not that you knew 

Can’t go on like this no longer 
Just existing in shadow 
Don’t walk through me again 
Don’t, don’t you dare 

Bun halo, burn 
I’m taking you down 
All we could have been 
You just wouldn’t see 
All the love for you, living in me 

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
Not that you cared 
Not that you knew 



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Mister Showtime

You do not know what it is like
Performing on this stage every night
In front of such a small audience
It all just does not feel right

I would run away if I could
But there is absolutely no use
It would be like watching paint dry on a piece of wood
I at least get paid

For being up here
Singing songs, performing on this stage
Reciting famous works of Shakespeare
And other masterpieces of Broadway

It all can get  to very lonely
And very nerve-wracking most days
But there is no use in trying to flee
It is just not in my ways

I am Mister Showtime
And I am very gifted at what I do
So now that I am up here
What act or song shall I play for you?


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And with a sip

Then in an instant that world had 
been hurled,
The lass's life has slowly slipped into 
a fantasy world.
In there, she never bid farewell to 
the life she always wanted,
The life, once her's, was in the 
dreams of which were haunted. 

Amber slowly slides down the wall,
Making her feel useless and small.

Useless, lost and confused,
Why give up that life to be abused?
Her answer was laying across the 
bed,
An arm laying behind his head.

He watched, and waited for her to 
move,
She knew in her mind, that 
everyone would disapprove,
A sad smile came across her face,
Her life moving at too fast of a pace.

She locked the bathroom door 
behind her,
Then she touched her wrist, feeling 
her heart beat,
Closing her eyes, and crying to 
herself,
She fell, pitifully off her feet.

A blade she kept hidden revealed 
itself,
A blade whose promise was to 
relieve oneself
Of the mess she had created,
Removing her with the blade that 
was serrated...


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Untitled

Sometimes when you see the best in everyone.

You start to feel your soul come UNDONE!!


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Lost Love

When I think about the love I lost.

I tried to save it at any cost.

It just wasn't enuff.

So now I'm stuck in this rutt.


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THE BURNING BLUE

The strangest things 
That life can bring 
The fire flowing 
My spirit slowing 

This desolation............. 
This rocky desert........... 
My imagination 

The deepness inside......... 
Can show........... 
The flame glow 

The burning blue.......... 
Inside of me 
I know it too............. 
What I see........... 

The empty me......... 
This desolation.......... 
Rocky desert 
As far as the eye can see 

The burning blue 
Inside the empty me 
What I can see........... 
Flickering too 

Tiny blue light 
Refuses to go out 
Blow with all my might 
Tiny blue light............. 
Shines on through the night 

Flickering blue light 
The end in sight 
This tall blue flame 
Now on the wane 

The burning blue 
The strangest decisions 
Life choice........ 
Blue flame......... 
Blue voice.......... 
Where I came.......... 
Burning blue.......... 
Burning through 

I see me .............. 
At seventeen 
Making the world turn 
This blue fire 
Begins to burn 
Flame keen 

The boy of seventeen 
The burning blue 
Flame keen 
I know what I must do 

The man of four decades 
The burning blue 
Flickering flame fades 
What to do 

These impossible things to do 
Burning blue 
flickering too 
What am I to do ?

The middle phase 
The burning blue 
Forgotten blaze 
I know it too 


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Sealed With a Kiss

The night was still, doors locked. Clock struck midnight, the moonlight blocked. The city painted black, the streets were clear. To a man who walked alone, their demise crept near. Strutting in black, her lips shimmered red. For vengeance was her love, or so the story had said. Her heart was once broken, her dignity stolen. He left her for dead, her body bruised and swollen. No longer a victim, she hunted her prey. She wielded her gun, and with men she had her way. Her way wasn't lust, she had no heart for love, Each man she shot point blank, her demons she was free of. She once was a girl with a heart that shined gold, But what one mad had taken from her, that heart turned to cold. Left for dead in the moonlight, like a black dahlia she laid, Soaked in her blood, a demon she was made. Men were her victims, like a hawk hunted game, She once was an innocent, but no longer the same. Each man she saw, she saw his face, Wanted all to have paid, for what she could not erase. The news plastered her fame, she was facing twenty-five to forever, She would never get caught, for she was far too clever. For all men met her green eyes, they dreamed of pure bliss, Falling too far they were murdered, and sealed with a kiss.


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Mere Existance

Questions running rampant
Foremost in my mind
Needing reassurance
Security I just can't find
Lost in the confusion
As chaos reigns supreme
So hopeful yet uncertian
When nothing's as it seems
The comfort of your arms
Again, wrapped 'round me
Right now, could ease these worries
Make theses fears cease to be
I looked into the darkness
But nothing, could I find
Praying every second
Not one, did I let slip by
This quest looms so unending
Seems, forever, I've searched in vain
With all emotions failing 
Conquered by the pain
I used to know the answers
To these questions in my mind
No doubts, nor fears, nor worries
Never one, could I find
But somewhere along loves journey
My faith did surely wane
I know only that I must find it
Or live, forever, with this pain
I need your love to guide me
To shield me from the cost
If only you could help me
In this search for what was lost
i fear the price we both would pay
If, at this task, I fail
Would, surely, be our hearts
Forever lost in hell
An agony beyond endurance
A pain too deep to bear
Left soulless in the wake
Screaming with despair
All alone in misery 
Ever after, our souls are tainted
Stained by all the memories
That, together, we created
As empty arms grow desperate
And our hollow eyes fail to see
the bitter fear and anger
As it creeps up on you and me
Both, smothered by the pain
Discouraged by the distance
Always reaching for one last chance
Our love, fighting, for mere existance.....


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I Knew That I Had Come Home

Copyright 2014 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
POETIC LYRICS BY THOMAS LAM HSI ANDRESS



White America hates me (as well as most of the world)...BUT JANINE HOOPS 
(TURNER) HAS ALWAYS LOVED ME...like it or not...whether you believe it or 
not...I WAS NOT BORN OF THIS WORLD...BUT I WAS 'DELIVERED' BY URSULA 
THE WHITE WITCH...who came in the form of the actress...Ursula Andress! I was 
'delivered' to Priscilla Lai ("Lily of the field") Fong ("Fairest of the land") Lam ("The Lamb of God")...who was wedded to Hwei ("The Devil")Yang ("Yellow")Hsi (FuHsi)...on April 23, 1959 at 1:01 am (Gena Rose Pahucki, as the 'delivering nurse'...the actual Gena Rose Pahucki died in a car accident on April 22, 1959...Gena ("For there will be an actress, Gena Davis")...Rose ("For your first girl-friend will be Rose Smead")...Pahucki ("For you will meet in law school as Pachefsky")...I was a glorious 'white' baby (Caucasoid)...with blue eyes...and hair with actual gold filaments! The Ancient Grimories picture the "Golden-Haired-Child of Destiny of China"...my posted internet photo! The fifty-five yearcurse broke on April 23, 2014...and I reached a height of five feet and eleven inches in the second week of (My final form will be six feet tall and I will weigh two-hundred-and-twenty-five lbs.!) July 2014...and 'beat' the 'Strongest Man in the World' at his 933 lbs. of bodyweight...I was 126 lbs...at Sam's Club (Honolulu, Hawaii)...involving a three-hundred-twenty-three lb. 'marine' battery! BUT...The Original...The Last...and...The Eternal Source of Life...HAS GIVEN ME THE HAND OF THE ROYAL WHITE WITCH RENATA...Princess Renata Andress Zeiss...of the Royal House of Zeiss...under the King and Queen of Germany! I AM STUNNED AND OVERJOYED BY YOUR SUCCESSES JANINE! In an 'alternate' universe? (COINCIDENTALLY, I WILL NEVER BE AN ADULTEROR!)

ALOHA AMERICA!

ALOHA GERMANY!


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Growing Love

Even though you just left today it feels like eternity.

Since you held me in your arms and I felt u close to me.

My heart aches that you had to go, but deep down in my heart i know.

That my love for you will always grow.


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Wish U Were Here

I WISH U WERE HERE TO HOLD MY HAND.

I WISH U WERE HERE BECAUSE U UNDERSTAND.

WHENEVER I'D FALL YOU'D PICK ME UP.

ALL THE WHILE I KNEW I HAD UR LOVE.

NOW THAT UR GONE I LOOK TO THE SKIES ABOVE.

AND KNO THAT SOON WE'LL BE 2GETHER JUST THE WAY THAT IT WAS.


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God Forsaken Waltz

when You told me You loved me
i signed the peace treaty,
then i sadly saw
that my name stood alone;

there were no other takers --
all who watched were fakers;
i knew in an instant
i couldn't go home.

it soon became clear
the things i held dear
were not as important
as they once seemed to be;

but still, God, You spoke --
many thought it a joke --
and, in my false pride,
i inclined to agree.

You directed the current,
i was drenched in the torrent
of what was intended
as soul-cleansing love;

but i thought i was drowning,
i resisted the crowning
from Your loving hands
and the help from above.

i'm not much for praying,
not good at displaying
the way You intend me
to live out my life;

i'm caught in the maelstrom,
the everyman hail storm
of facing each day
and the on-coming strife;

and all i can say
is i'm willing to pay
for blowing You off
and refusing to hear --

hard-headed and stubborn
often feeling forlorn,
immersing my psyche
in indulgent tears.

You wait patiently
for my heart to see
what my eyes have always
known all along;

help me, open my mind
to my ears, please be kind --
let me take in the sweet sound
of Your angels' song




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An Angry Exchange

Close my eyes, think of the times
Sick of hearing all the lines, fake and smile
and all the while, you talk about me behind
my back, fade to black and turn to blue
from everything that you do.
And it feels like i finally am going
to crack.

I don't want an understanding
Just don't want to be misunderstood
Everything just so demanding
Makes me wanna give it up for good.
Don't want to come to an understanding
Sick of being so misunderstood
All of this is so demanding
It's just gonna break me down for good.

Of all the past, it comes and goes
and little did you know im slowly
fading.
All your words begin to hurt, and bad feelings
beging to lurk, everything your doing  is
grating, inside of my head.
Feeling broken, seeing death
asking if there's anything left
just don't know how to go back
im sick and tired of seeing red.

I don't want an understanding
Just don't want to be misunderstood
Everything just so demanding
Makes me wanna give it up for good.
Don't want to come to an understanding
Sick of being so misunderstood
All of this is so demanding
It's just gonna break me down for good.

Break me down, bleeding on the pavement now
Smile as i look into your eyes, stab me in the heart
you know i can take it,
As the clouds darken my skies
know it's so hard for you to fake it
listening to all your lies
take my dignity and break it
As the clouds rip open my skies.


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Eternal Haze

I chug the bottle now that your gone eternal haze is where i belong my world came crashing down all alone with nothing to lose i feel like i should give up i try to stand tall i try to be strong Without you here i don't belong the ground quakes when i walk i fall to my knees n sulk this feeling wont seem to fade y won't the pain just go away im losing everything now my heart beat starts to go slower my last breath is starting to fade the bottle drops to the ground i look up at the sky taking my last breath the stars sparkle and steal my soul im gone now, no one cares im just a distant memory of dispare no one at the funeral im finally alone at last


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Why

Ive tryed to learn 
Ive tryed to fly
all you seem to want
is for me to cry
Tryed to run
tryed to hide
you love my pain
youll love when I die
I said I would follow you to the end of time
but if you dont step up this heart well stay mine.
I wake every moring to only pain
my life is unliveable 
why wont this change
I dont want heaven
nore live in hell
just remove this life
form this cell
stop my time
stop my pain 
noone knows
to them is all the same
But I have to wake every day to other peoples happiness
so fuk your games 
Ill die alone if thats the only way
what can i do. 
when my little sister curses you.
Maybe shes right!


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I Try

I try to be the one you can trust,
But I dont know how.
All I can do is hide.

The knife I hold in my hand,
The blade shines off the light.
The blood pours from this wound.
The wound that went so ever deep.

I fight all of these wars. 
But the battle has yet to be won. 
Won on the inside.

The life i hold in my hands
no one can save me from this fate 
I have placed upon me.


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Skull of Fire

Too late, too late
nothing could ever be
the same.
The mistakes we'd
retrace make me find
that the memory's
still stain.

You take and take
as you often hesitate
repeating ever action that
you make.
Do what you do
but leave me out of it to
im done with everything about
you.

Break through my skull
With words once sharp now so dull
As you leave me down below
I know you hate me so bad
But there some things you should know.

The damage you inflict it's just enough
for me
the wounds are countless, burning buildings, but
im the only victim i see.
As the fire stokes the letters that you wrote
float fast into the flames
and as i watch the embers burn
for once im not concerned
as the fire finally consumes
your name.

Break through your skull
With words once sharp now so dull
As i leave you down below
It's time to let you go
But there are some things you should know.


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BALLAD.

Go saddle me the black black steed
For I am going on a long long journey
Go wipe away the tears that roll
Across brawny cheeks of gypsie lassie.

Fifteen well made men going on their steeds
To get their brides leap over the strand
The brunt hills in search of a namer
Drying fast to justify conscript of land.

Twilled with a broach and a ring wintry
The death stalks the hill with sickled moon
The leaden sheen on the steed’s back
Has turned the night’s face into a roon.

Late late yesterday I saw the moon
Full bodied like a new sickled maned
The death will stalk these streets tonight
And am afraid of downy owl’s nickled bane.

Come on fair ladies hang your hair down
Over the fair head over the abordour
The fifteen men have gone to castle waste
And along came the death to devour.

Go saddle me the black black steed
The merry castle keep has hovelled a cry
Though death stalks every haste and waste
And brawny cheeks of gypsie have gone dry.


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Freddy The Fly Takes a Bride

Freddy the Fly,
Now back from the moon,
Noticed on his calendar,
That it was now June...

The wedding month,
thought our dear Freddy,
But a fly has a short life,
So then, before I'm dead,
I gotta' find a fly-wife!!

So Freddy flew
all abouts the world
Searching for,
the perfect fly-girl

Finally he was rewarded,
When Nicole Fly he did meet,
He got so excited,
He stepped on her fly-feet

But the attraction seemed mutual,
Like a fly to horse manure,
But when they did converse,
They both were very sure,

Freddy proposed his 
fly matrimonial hope,
Nicole said yes, let's
go elope....

But a wise Freddy the fly,
Did look her in the eye,
He knew she'd someday
regret,
Such a simple way to beget,

So he told her of his plan,
For the biggest fly-wedding
in all the land,

The solemn day came real quick,
A Sunday wedding, they did pick
And as it did unfold,
This story I was told,
He'd waited for her hand to hold,
To place on her fly-hand the ring gold,

Dressed in his little fly-tux,
Fly guests tried to hold their yucks,
And Nicole, in her fly gown,
Flew about, then up, then down,

To land on the fly-alter,
Not for a fly minute did she falter,
Said, "Yes, Fly Priest, I do!!...
And if's all the same to you.....
Would you get off my fly wedding cake,
It took so long for the fly-baker to make"

And Freddy's anxious to leave at once,
On a fly honeymoon, for sure,
But, alas, I almost forgot-
No "moon" in the honeymoon- no more!

For Freddy had eatten the romantic moon,
It tasted like sh_t, and it did ruin,
The moonlight for kissing was there no more,
So to fly-sleep they went,
and soon began to fly-snore.....

Now a Freddy Fly's snore is an event to behold,
At least as a fly-story, we've been told
Nicole , she couldn't sleep
As Freddy fly-snored deep,
She flew off and let the fly groom,
Wake up next fly-day to fly-gloom!


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Urban Wild West

Back in high school everything was a mess
kids in different cliques, in all types of dress
and everyday a fight to see who's the best
and gun threats with kids having gats in there vests.
Teachers not caring about the education of generation x
didn't believe in the future or us or what's coming next
just in it long enough so they can cash there checks
as they push the kids along, uneducated or not along with the rest.
Security guards check your i.d. to make sure you were where your
supposed to be
But now isn't it so easy to make a fake pass, doesn't anyone see?
so now kids are laying in pools of blood and agony
they say it's safe but schools still very uneasy.

School today's like the wild west
Everyone's fighting, lots of unrest
And every body's just trying to fit in
But some are lost right from the beginning.
School today's like the wild wild west
Everyone's wearing a bullet proof vest
Scared to go to school because of the threats
Afraid as hell as to what happens next.

There's no smiles as you pass by in the hallway
because one false move can make the wrong person angry
everyone seems to be dealing with there own hate
nobody wants to deal with a lonely fate
so much on everyone's plate
and the angst just unable to escape
so when he or she snaps and is in bad shape
everyone runs for cover before it's to late.
Im not out to scare you far from it
but it's time other take notice of it
before more innocent kids die from this
because a child who cries for help gets none of it
a tiny scream inside, the anger that they hide
they always answer with a pistol by there side
and it's up to us to find another way
so those kids who go to school can live another day.

School today's like the wild west
Everyone's fighting, lots of unrest
And every body's just trying to fit in
But some are lost right from the beginning.
School today's like the wild wild west
Everyone's wearing a bullet proof vest
Scared to go to school because of the threats
Afraid as hell as to what happens next.


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Untiled

u used 2 tell things so sweet. The way u looked at me knockd me off my feet. Nobody ever made me feel that way. When u kisd me nd held me it took my breath away. I dont understand u sumtimes becaus u act so strange. At times it makes me wonder IF UR LUV HAS CHANGED


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Get Little

I hopped on a south bound

with my head in the clouds

thought I'd prove a few wrong

maybe make a few proud

but just like every other time 

there's no rhyme or reason

just a reason for a rhyme

I must be out of my mind for crying out loud

I'm gonna get little Lord I'm gonna get small

Gonna keep on shrinking till I'm not here at all

just me and the molecules with plenty to spare

won't take up too much space won't breathe too much air

I never meant to be "touched in the head"

It's seldom clear to me, what i just said

I know I'm better off living and breathing instead

cause I already know what it's like to be dead

The baggage that I carry with me

I just bring along, 

for my daily dose of self pity

and the occasional song

Honestly I'd love to be

what everybody wants to see

but all these years have made it so clear

that it just ain't me, it ain't never gonna be

the right, the left , the middle and the status quo

Have in no uncertain terms given me the old heave ho

time to go now

 I'm gonna get little Lord

I'm gonna get small

gonna keep on shrinking till I'm not here at all

I won't have to hide what I ain't got 

won't have to worry bout who I am not

I'm gonna get little Lord, I'm gonna get small

Gonna keep on shrinking till I'm not here at all

Just me and the molecules floating in the air

won't take up too much room, won't breathe too much air.

I hopped on a south bound with my head in the clouds

thought I'd prove a few wrong maybe make a few proud 

but just like every other time

there's no rhyme or reason, just a reason for a rhyme

I must be out of my mind for crying out loud.


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Slumber

In the night time, through
the darkness comes the voices
of all the pain and agony.
They disguise themselves
as friends who want to help
but i say no and they just won't
let me be.
In my dreams they always haunt me
show me things i can't control
how do you deal with seeing someone you
love
die in front of you, it's like ripping out your soul.

At night i try and slumber
but they always visit me
they awake me like the thunder
just so they can mock me.
At night i try and slumber
But there voices break the breeze
They awake me, to take me under
so they can bury me.

So they show me all these things
and i lay there wondering if i'll
wake up before it gets worse.
As the dreams get more persistant
And they horror comes in bursts.
I can't wake up, i can't let go
Claw at the walls, try to get home
and as i wake up in the cold sweat
im feeling defensless and alone.

Why can't they let me be?
Am i own worst enemy?
Am i the only one who can feel
these dreams?
Is it all inside my head?
All the feelings of the dread, and sorrow
not knowing if there will be a tomorrow.
Im trying get through today
trying hard to find a way
so when i got to bed at night
a peacefull rest and on a soft pillow
i will lay.

At night i try and slumber
but they always visit me
they awake me like the thunder
just so they can mock me.
At night i try and slumber
But there voices break the breeze
They awake me, to take me under
so they can bury me.


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Wind Thru Trees

The shone through the trees; reminding me of last summer's breze.

When I think about the past it brings me to my knees.

To where I wish I were a strong wind blowing through the trees.


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Endless Maze 2-13-05

                                         I’m sitting here on my bed
                                        With so much on my mind
                                        So little I can understand
                                        through the cluttered words and the shattered dreams.
                                        I feel although I’m in an endless maze.
                                       My head is spinning.
                                       The tears fall down on my confused face
                                        and all I can do.


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THE CURSE

“Sixteen years! Yer’ sixteen years!” My night was quickly marred,  
Where I stood upon the ballast over at the railway yard.
“Yer’ really ‘jist’ a baby an’ yer’ should be with a nurse,
An’ ‘ere I am out findin’ yer’, addicted to the curse.”

Addicted to the curse he said! I’m just having normal fun.
A generation bred to follow, just what my father’s done.
But he weren't having none of that, his voice was rather terse
“Git ‘ome yer’ pack o’ larrikins, an ‘ere…give me the curse.”

So I handed ‘cross me bottles and he shoved ‘em in his van.
“Don’t let me catch ya’ drinkin’ ‘boyo’s’…drinkin’s fer’ a man,
An’ yer’ bunch o’ whipper-snappers are about t’ cop it worse
When I git t’ tell yer’ ol’ mans’ ‘bout, yer’ tanglin’ with the curse.” 

All that did was make me ‘cagey’ and more careful while I drank.
When I saw his headlights coming, over to the riverbank.
There he’d step out and find me, without a reason for adverse, 
Sitting ‘round the campfire, and with nothing there to curse.

So he left us ‘cagey’ lot to party by the riverbank,
Where love and violence mingled with the quantity I drank.
And where the love grew strongest, the violence soon got worse…
Forgiven in the morning with the blaming of the curse.

Ah yes…that curse is handy, when there is a need for blame;
But then I feel I’m needing more to wipe away me shame.
By ten o’clock I’m on me way to open up me purse, 
For I’m waking in the morning with the trembles from the curse.

So ‘round and ‘round the turning wheel is spinning by me hand.
Back to fight and argue when no one can understand
The need! The need! The awful need, with no way to reverse.
So I keep feeling better but much sicker with the curse.

A curse! A curse! There is no curse the devils talk about,
Who keep fighting with the angels that are prepared to shout
And take away the nagging pain, with no thought to reimburse
This lonely ‘sober hater’ who can’t live without the curse.

What have I got? What have I lost? I’m no longer in between.
My possession is the gutter, for the pleasure I have seen.
Though my predicament was flattered, by a lad I called perverse, 
Who must have been just fourteen years, when handing me the curse. 


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Whatever You Wanted

Here we go fighting again
and ever single time you think you should win
after words the things you say have me wondering
about everything.
And are we really together or is this just a fling
not for me but for you, as it seems your studdering
as i ask you where you've been, now it's thundering
the rain hits the ground with a thud and im sitting
here waiting for you to say something.
Finally you open your mouth
how dare you!, you say for me having doubts
i guess the phone numbers i found are out of bounds
and to question you is taboo about you whereabouts.

Whatever you say it's all the same
it comes out one side like it's me to blame
you make these excuses that turn out lame
but the bad things you've done turn love into hate.

How could i? dare to ask you about this
i would rather talk it out then fight with our fists
but that's just it isn't it? you'd rather we hit
because you know that your wrong and this is your way
out of it.
Sorry but im not stooping down to your level
and the love i had for you now it's starting to rebel
the evil you put me through, like running on a treadmill
after something that i always wanted but i noticed
that ive always been standing still
finally im ready to fight ive got the will
to break away from you and your poisonous shill
so like a bad habit im dropping this pill
and before you know it i'll be headed for the hills.

Whatever you say it's all the same
it comes out one side like it's me to blame
you make these excuses that turn out lame
but the bad things you've done turn love into hate.


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Only She Cries

What If I told You That I Loved you
would we care
would we die
 Chains surrounding Alice
Only She Cries
 
World Banished her
Love left her
all Alone
Melancholia presides over
 
Alice dies again
Will she ever reign
 
Will she ever see
what’s here to be
Only She Cries
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
Empty Without a savoir
Will She ever be cured from this
will she breakaway
Gaia couldn’t be so cruel
Just to wail away—Let the Banshee Crie
Just wail away the pain
wail away the pain
 
Enter my heart and you’ll see
that Was the only thing you could ever need
Alice; only she cries
let it show
That love never dies
Through Euphoria
through melancholia
 
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
You didn’t know
how you could save her
Only if you could her
Alice dies
Only she cries


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Talk

"The way i was, things ive said
  didn't mean it, having regrets.
 for all the hurt as it drains
but the harsh feelings retain.
and the tears pour down like the rain,
dripping down the jilted drain.

I never got to say im sorry
Wish we had a chance to talk
I never got to say goodbye
Before you left for the longest walk.
I never got to say im sorry
Wish we had a chance to walk
never got to say my goodbye
and never got the time to talk.

you can hear me, this i know
the day you left, i just didn't know
your last time being home.
so many things i had to say
but time took it all away.
and now the earth is so cold
and so alone.
as i wait for your voice but hear
an empty dial tone.

I never got to say im sorry


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Marie II-- Troubled Tides

Wake up with a dream on your eyes left with the hearts that bid you Goodbye Shadow Dreamer-- Poisoned Lover Venom seeps through the Way The Way you held on to Me There's a Thorn in your Heart I left it there so the dreams and your pain shall unfold Inside you and all of your Lithium Lovers You're my lover, My Dear The Greatest Enemy I had to Contend pretending with "I Love You" but I know you Hate me till Hell's End Is it in Vain? You Sleep with the hate How can you dodge the fate? You let the Dagger dance on your Tongue You are my beloved Enemy Marie


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Agoraphobia

There are places in this world
that i can't go
The safest place i know
is inside of my home.
At times i just feel
so low
And other times i question my
motivations for getting out of bed and coming
up with the answer being unknown.

People that i'll never meet or see
as they pass by on the street
nervously i turn the key
to get back to my room.
And if you asked me this today
i'd tell you i'd never asked to be this way
can't help it if it's to hard for me
to breathe.

There are doctor's and psychiatrist's
who tell me all the time that im fine
and they know just how i feel.
There are doctor's and psychiatrist's
that it's all in my mind
but they don't understand that
it's real.

Most just don't understand how hard
it is to be dealt this hand.
Now im not complaining it could
be worse.
But people mock and laugh because
of this brand.
Makes me punch the wall in anger breaking
it with my fists.

Walk just one day in my shoes
Just how good would you do?
Would you let everything ride?
Or just run way and hide?
All the pain and misery
Lonely nights when you can't sleep
All the thoughts inside your head
Feeling nothing more than dead
Go ahead i challenge you
Take some time and think it through
Then maybe you'll know what it's like
to be me, and not you.
                                                                                                                                             
There are doctor's and psychiatrist's
who tell me all the time that im fine
and they know just how i feel.
There are doctor's and psychiatrist's
that it's all in my mind
but they don't understand that
it's real.
There are doctor's and psychiatrist's
who tell me all the time that im fine
and they know just how i feel.
There are doctor's and psychiatrist's
that it's all in my mind
but they don't understand that
it's real.


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Freddy The Fly Joins Captain Quark's Crew

Yes, the Mighty FlyShip Enter-Eyes,
It's five year mission,
To harrass picnics, kitchen trash pails,
and search for intelligent dung
in the universe.

Freddy, our famed Fly-Friend,
has joined Captain Quark,
and the other Fly-Men
To Fly Fly way above the Fly Sky,
In search of the aforementioned crap.
But Captain Quark used all his wits,
To keep them out of a Klingon trap.

See, Cause Klingons got their names,
From a fly trap incident in their fly games.
They coated a juicy looking planet of
dung,
With see through fly-paper from their sun
And when a Fly Ship did try to land
They found they had to "kling-On"
to the fly-paper strand.
Never to be free
For other Fly-Worlds to see.

This time he Fly-Beamed
Freddy down,
That poor doomed Fly-Clown.
They saw Freddy never-more.
"Stuck-up", he was for sure!!


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LAUGHTER

Laughter
Oh how i greet thee
Today and Everyday
Unannounced
Bringing Sunshine, Joy, Happiness
Relief....Relief....
From, Stress, Strain, ExhaustionMedical Relief Money Can't Buy
GOD Bless


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The Demon Within

The Demon Within

Anger is thy name.
Predictable, yet not.
A true demon lurking within –
Waiting to erupt and consume my soul.

You take over my thoughts.
You conquer my entire being and
Quell my objections.
You are relentless and unforgiving.
You change the course of my day in an instant –
Just by your mere existence.

Anger is thy name.
My pulse is racing.
My head is throbbing.
My entire being is on fire –
Ready to explode into oblivion.

As your intensity builds,
I begin to lose total control.
I begin spiraling downward –
Into the depths of the inferno you created.

Anger is thy name.
Each time you appear,
I fight you with all of my might –
Trying to defeat you and send you to your grave.
If even for a short while –
To be free of your irrepressible rage.

Yet as the fierce eruption begins,
I realize I have once again lost the interminable battle.
My will no longer exists –
I am, yet again, no match for you –
For your unceasing strength and determination to destroy me –
To destroy all that I am and
All that I believe in.

Anger is my name.
I am unforgiving and relentless.
I will destroy everyone and everything that crosses my path.
My wrath has no limits.
I am merciless and
I will find you.


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Dissociation

I see a better world that I can use Its far from you And inside me The reality is too much to handle anymore It's a place we all can love A place where all angels dwell Burnt in my mind everything you've done to me It saves me to go away It's my internal prison It's my only safe-haven I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more It's deep enough where you will never find But open enough to keep expanding I will not be stapled by your dominance anymore This is it i will take a stand A sky with death In it's smile Rolls across the night It seeks to know what is wrong And the thing is you I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more


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Synching up

Did you ever want to let go
and just be a memory?
Or just so jaded from the world that
you wish you couldn't see?
Anger and hatred ruled over me
easily
Until you came along and saved
me.

I was so conflicted about what was right
and wrong
Was so sick and tired of being swept away
in the darkest of storms.
Your hand it shined as the rain bounced off
the skin
and as our lips embraced a new life
for us was about to begin.

All the pain and misery
Take it all away from me
As i lay down to sleep
our eyes synch together as
do our hearts beat.

Before you everything
felt so blue, felt used
like everything i ever wanted
fell right through.
Then you appeared
out of no where
letting me know that it's you who cared
understanding, never demanding
Showing me in the hardest of times
there's really nothing to fear.

All the pain and misery
Take it all away from me
As i lay down to sleep
our eyes synch together as
do our hearts beat.


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Who's Gonna Bake the Christmas Pie

He was six years old at his dying mother's side.
Only when she slept he broke down and cried.
He had to hide his fears of what was to be.
How scared he was, mama didn't need to see.

Mama had been sick going on three years now.
She knew she must help him make it through some how.
With her strength fading she called him to her side.
"If life is a carnival son, I'm at my last ride."

"I have something to tell you, to remember for all times."
"You are all each other will have in the coming hard times."
"Just hold each other close and remember my love for you."
"It will help to ease the pain, it will help to see you through."

The day came when his Mama had to go.
He had so many questions, so much he wanted to know.
"Why did Mama have to die?"  "Who's gonna bake the Christmas pie?"
"Who will comfort me when I cry?"  "Are you gonna die?"

I squatted down in front of him a tear in my eye.
"An unfortunate part of life, son, is each of us will die."
He'd caught me off guard, I didn't know what to say.
I hoped he understood.  I hoped... and I prayed.

I took him in my arms and held him oh so tight.
I told him that I loved him and that everything would be all right.
"Mama's in heaven now she's looking down on you and me." 
"She's with us in our hearts where forever she will be."

"She sees you when you're crying she sees you when you're playing."
"She knows what you're thinking she knows what you're saying."
"She sees into your heart and knows how much you love her."
"So let's have happy thoughts of Mama and the time we had together."

The days have turned to weeks, the weeks to months and years.
Our thoughts of Mama are happy, they hold away the fears.
She still fills our hearts with memories.  Memories of her love.
Memories of Mama sent down from heaven above.


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Babydoll

Trying to escape from it all I detach from reality Knowing my spirit will be Safe Too much torment have I gone through To know that this story is truly mine Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll In my mind there is a haven Only I can enter, but everyone else is there Its there I will find a new tactic To keep on living in your torment On the way home I'll die a few times But just to know I really lived I'll have to find a new way to bleed If I want to escape I'll have to loose myself Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll


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Paradise Still Lost

Paradise Still Lost

Ashen snowflakes descend
tears of sorrow for the fallen
angels weep in sorrow
gifts of divinity forsaken

Squandered seed spilled in rage
machine of man, far from Eden
takes matters into his own hands
fruit of the tree forbidden

Garden of bounty held in trust
the jester, trickster of illusion
sleight deceiver, seller of lies
the rapist of paradise, unforgiven

Lost in the eyes of the blind
man devouring man, sorrows coven
time immemorial, crosses mark
a barren wasteland devoid of forgiveness

Stephen (Stoic)


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Untitled

In the light of day.

In the dark of night.

Here we fall, diamonds in the sky.

Watching the world pass us by.


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Didiane Le Vie

 
I need to feed my hunger is never satisfied I need your attention please notice me My emotions are bare, so I crave yours 'Tis a painful obessesion that leaves me wanting more It goes on over and over Till I find my mark I'm synthetic and cold nothing inside Woe I am, is all I feel I'll try forever till im dead But I cannot be dead-- for only your blood will be shed Take away this horrid price But painful immortality doesn't fail I'm always on the hunt For a new host to feed You emotions are mine The sacred blood of life is all I need to survive I'm always in an enternal war To fill the painful obessesion Your attention and emotion is all I need Im the synthetic vampire I can't feel anymore I was made by a blood-thirsty whore Who wanted war and death All I wanted was to be real Only you are my mark I'll gain all your attention Capture your emotions Just love me even though I cant love A creature of the dark I was made to tear everything apart I'm always on the hunt For a new host to feed You emotions are mine The sacred blood of life is all I need to survive I'm always in an enternal war To fill the painful obessesion Your attention and emotion is all I need Im the synthetic vampire (love me and love me and love me and love me and love me and love me) I'm always on the hunt For a new host to feed You emotions are mine The sacred blood of life is all I need to survive I'm always in an enternal war To fill the painful obessesion Your attention and emotion is all I need Im the synthetic vampire


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Aquarian Dream II- Leaving Kali Yuga

A glimpse in your gilded eyes Tells me all inside your lieing mind How can you Stand without a spine How can you speak without a will Failed to announce the pain Will they realize the illusion Is it all to late? The lies that are so common Have put up a delusion Infront Of the people's mind So deep away from the dark Will we come when father is coming For us, is it all to late? Soft little messenger I dare you to spread the word About our dying world All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainted with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king I see the light of a dawning Age Let a new era begin An Aquarian dream a day where we are all free Inside our minds; our hidden refuge But there's no need to hide perfection Concordia shall be our queen Justice, independence, liberty are our only virtues free to be whoever our heart let's us be Go to the tower, strike the bell Soft little messenger And tell of Victory All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainted with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainetd with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king


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Outside In

Outside looking through
the window she saw
what she never had
family gatherings and parties
occasions good and bad.
As her breath fogged up the
window and the picture began
to fade
she finally knew why all her life things
felt like one giant mistake.

She whispered at night
God help me im so empty inside
And as she closed her eyes she sighed
I hope that you hear me tonight.

At school they always pick
on her, say mean things, make fun
of her clothes and the way she thinks.
The tears drop down her shirt as
she ponders if this can get any worse.
Walking home, she strolls alone
nobody there to care as the
streets grow bare, she sits in the dark
next to the light pole.

She whispers at night
God help me im so empty inside
And as she closed her eyes she sighed
I hope you finally hear me tonight


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Rise Above

Nightmares to day dreams
feel like my brain would freeze
had no ease, no rest and no
peace.
The hurt blazing, inferno sky's
fading as none of the light came in
hiding in the corner cowering as words
broke my skin, razor sharp like a tack
or a pin and im sitting here left
wondering.

If i could rise above your agony
get past this indignity
would i ever get past this angry sea
could i really ever just be me.

Daydreams to nightmares
terror and rage, energy balled up
and trapped in a cage, no way
i could ever relieve the pressure
feeling like the roof caved in.
Ashamed and unaware of being played
this was her favorite game, every lie the same
so im done being the one you play, that's
all i have to say.

If i could rise above your agony
get past this indignity
ever cross that angry sea
finally just get to be me.


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Surprise

All these nights, i mostly wondered
how i ever made it here at all
a broken heart pilfered and plundered
always ready to take a fall
you can break me
but don't mistake me
i can take you for a ride
do deny me, when your lying
i can take you by surprise.

All the days i gazed of hope
sliding down that slippery slope
times i thought i couldn't cope
all because of you
there were times that i did wonder
were am i going to
there were times that i went under
but finally out from under you.

You can break me
but don't mistake me
i can take you for a ride
do deny me, when your lying
i can take you by surprise.
You can break me, try and take me
bring me right down to your size
go on deny me, all while your lying
as i take you by surprise.


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What would you do?

The day still fresh in my mind
weather escapes me but it's your words
i find, not a father or a daddy
guess i was blind
you made me feel hollow leaving me behind.
And your life is so great now isn't it
i heard you really look it but what would
you do

if i walked up to you
face to face man to man
would you even understand at all.
or would you just walk away without
anything to say
what would you do

if you seen me all grown up now
i guess the years you were gone you'd
think i was let down or run out of the will
to fight just because of you
your kidding me right.
Always wanted to extinguish the light
from my eyes
but to your dismay, im still standing
never going away.
Abandon me then i was upset but now im ok but
what i really wanna know is what would you do

If i walked up to you
face to face and man to man
would you even understand
or would you just walk away, nothing
to say, always seemed to be your catchphrase
now what would you do


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China the Red Plague

Earth, water, fire, metal, and sky...
pummeled to submission.
Refuse and decay, side by side,
ground into submission.

Once pristine mountains ranged high;
Mongols in ascension
riding beneath the starry skies,
now, whipped into submission.

Wild rivers now hemmed, tortured, bound;
green trees, now sickened, brown;
all bare, and skeletal, background;
beneath soot filled skies, fouled.

All the grandeur now gone sighs
ground into submission.
for Mao’s legacy cry,
no course but submission.


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Untiled

u used 2 tell things so sweet. The way u looked at me knockd me off my feet. Nobody ever made me feel that way. When u kisd me nd held me it took my breath away. I dont understand u sumtimes becaus u act so strange. At times it makes me wonder IF UR LUV HAS CHANGED


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Why?

Let me tell you a story
when i was barely five
my father went and left us
with just a faint goodbye.
Told me to my face
he didn't care how i felt
It was all about him now
so forget anyone else.
He was leaving us
for another woman and kid
Like we wern't good enough
for the life that we lived.
And time  again
like the flow of the winds
I blamed myself for all this
and how it came to an end.

But why dad? Why leave?
What did we do to?
Break our hearts to the point we can't breathe.
But why dad? Was it something i said?
Why are you gone?
So many unsaid feelings that never will get said.

And as the years went by
he barely knew me growing up
My school, my grades, dislikes,
award shows, never showed up.
At the court hearing you didn't 
even fight for me
Now you wonder why i have these
devistated tendencies?
And how you made snide comments
about my life
Never understood me did you
even if you tried with all your might.
And the knife you used still resides
inside my chest
And every now and then you turn it
a never ending rest.
                                                                                                                                           But 
why dad? Why leave?
What did we do to?
Break our hearts to the point we can't breathe.
But why dad? Was it something i said?
Why are you gone?
So many unsaid feelings that never will get said.

Days when i was on the playground i cursed
the other kids because there dad's were around.
Now i know it wasn't there fault you turned out
the way you did, it's just now that i found.
That really all the tears and time i spent on you
And all the pain and heart ache that you put us through
Would i be the person i am now if you were here?
Or would i be just like you and would not care?
And when you die i dream of it
An empty church and now worshippers reside in it
I bet you'd finally get that blow to your ego dad
Knowing nobody tried hard to be there that bad.
And when they lay you to rest and put the tombstone
down the only thing we'll share
is the last name that's on the cold dark ground.
Just remember it was your choice not to know me
And now that im a father i thank god
That i learned not to be you but to be me.

But why dad? Why leave?
What did we do to?
Break our hearts to the point we can't breathe.
But why dad? Was it something i said?
Why are you gone?
So many unsaid feelings that never will get said.
But why dad? Why go?


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LIKE SPRING

There were these dreams we dreamt and so many stars wished upon.
In the time our lives were happy and life meant everything.
When you, my sweet love, woke beside me each and every dawn!
Ah, when all was right with the world and the grass smelled like spring.

For there was this life we lived we thought would always live on.
Still we knew what death was--and how it could touch everything.
But my own never thought yours could die...until it was gone!
And until nothing was left...but the grass that smelled like spring.

Now the stars are wistless orbs...but I must continue on.
Through the haze of pointless days that has buried everything.
For there is this place I must visit...each and every dawn!
Where you sleep, my sweet love, and the grass always smells like spring.


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THE FALLEN MEN

Bows ready

They pulled

They reached

The wraiths, in their hundreds slain

Of arms aching

Of pain

 

The wraiths

In their angst and pain

Took the ones

That suffered again and again

 

The fallen men

Felt the cold bitter heart

Of their weaknesses

That they could not conquer

Time and time again

 

They were lost

With the wraiths

We gathered up our dead

The grievous cost

In a company  of men

 

We remember

The day well

Battles won

Thoughts dwell

Of men lost

Heads bowed

We honoured them

Under the dying cloud

 


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BALLAD.

Go saddle me the black black steed
For I am going on a long long journey
Go wipe away the tears that roll
Across brawny cheeks of gypsie lassie.

Fifteen well made men going on their steeds
To get their brides leap over the strand
The brunt hills in search of a namer
Drying fast to justify conscript of land.

Twilled with a broach and a ring wintry
The death stalks the hill with sickled moon
The leaden sheen on the steed’s back
Has turned the night’s face into a roon.

Late late yesterday I saw the moon
Full bodied like a new sickled maned
The death will stalk these streets tonight
And am afraid of downy owl’s nickled bane.

Come on fair ladies hang your hair down
Over the fair head over the abordour
The fifteen men have gone to castle waste
And along came the death to devour.

Go saddle me the black black steed
The merry castle keep has hovelled a cry
Though death stalks every haste and waste
And brawny cheeks of gypsie have gone dry.


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The Truth Inside

Outside she's beautiful to everyone
always polite, always the brave one
but inside nobody notices she's screaming
for help.
Outside she's lying, inside the girls
bathroom stall she is hiding
clutching the door closed as she starts
crying.
Outside she's smiling
all of her friends don't have any clues
that her long sleeved shirts cover up
the cuts and the bruises.
Outside she acts fine
like nothing is wrong
but inside she's dying
everything is wrong.

Outside her face shines
Inside she's fading fast
Outside she acts fine
Inside soon she won't last.
She's just denying
everything to everyone
She's just trying not to
mess up anyone's fun.

She deals with it herself
why bother someone else
this is her problem
nobody needs to know.
So outside she shows her friends
a familiar face, not like her inside
a wasteland of an emotional state
The cuts bleed through her sweater's
her depression acts up more and more
Finally she breaks down, her face gets red
but she just can't take it anymore.
she confesses everything that's going on
and everyone reacts with a shock on there face
something that's been happening to a girl
they knew
all this time, all this pain inside her place.

Outside her face shines
Inside she's fading fast
Outside she acts fine
Inside soon she won't last.
She's just denying
everything to everyone
She's just trying not to
mess up anyone's fun.


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Your The Star

I remember everything you did to me
these photographs bring back old memories
i still hear everything you said
it's still stuck up inside of my head
as the tides wash in and out
always know what your all about
your fake smile starts to break
and finally you seal your fate.

Your the star
and im standing in line
maybe this movie starts on time.
Your the star
and only you come to mind
and your the one who's right all 
the time.

Like a slap to a tilted face
in my mouth i still have the taste
has this just been all a waste, of
my time.
In an alley against a wall
waiting for the other shoe to fall
by the phone but there's no call,
at all.

Your the star
and im standing in line
but it's fine.
Your the star
but you don't come to mind
for once it's finally not about you
this time.


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No Way Out

As the sun begins its ascent into the hazy sky,
I lay still in my bed – 
Trying hard to prevent the onslaught of yet another day –
But knowing full well that my attempts will be futile.

The sense of emptiness seems unbearable,
The obstacles insurmountable,
The unanswered questions too numerous to count.

Sadness has enveloped my soul –
With a grip so fierce it seems impossible to escape –
Like a vice being repeatedly tightened –
With the sole purpose of crushing its prey.

I have been submerged in a thick fog –
A fog of despair and doubt – 
A fog so dense there appears to be no way out.

The world continues to rush by –
Yet I remain standing still –
Unable to catch the momentum of life.

I have fallen into a deep, dark pit of misery. 
I scream for help –
Yet no words emerge.

The walls begin to tumble down around me –
As I franticly search for a lifeline –
As I search for a way out of this deepening anguish.

But the grip of desolation is too strong –
It has overwhelmed me.
It has overpowered me –
And left me alone and without hope.

It has left me with no way out.


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Ice Cold Lips

Peeking through the burning bushes
into your eyes once more,
As i lie in state i see a face
that ive seen someplace before.

The things you said spinning through my head
like an old revolving door,
And the face comes back so jarringly,
of a girl who broke my soul and took my heart
and smashed it on the floor.

So save your letters, words don't fix
The things you crushed in this filthy mix
Your inactions describe all of this
Your heart is cold, but so is my lips.

Your eyes burn me like a stockpiled flame
I itch to scratch the scars
But it seems there's just to much pain
Like the impact of two cars.

The anger at your indecisions make me
want to smile, so get off your knees
no more begging please, im sure
you'll be back on them in a while.
Don't be mad at my opinons
though they may be Rated R,
Must be great to be so oblivious
and not really care who you are.

So save your letters, words don't fix
The things you crushed in this filthy mix
Your inactions describe all of this
Your heart is cold, but so is my lips.
So save your letters, words don't fix
The things you crushed in this filthy mix
Your inactions describe all of this
Your heart is cold, but so is my ice
frozen lips.


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Toe to Toe

Back in the day
people thought they knew
me,
That i would give up so
easily but believe
That's not how i am
today,
And if you got a comment i got more
than enough to say.

If you want a war
Step to the door with me
And if your man enough
Go toe to toe with me.
And if you want a war
On the floor you'll be
The only way you'll beat me
Is in your dreams.

Go ahead and push me
to the limit
Fight all you want you'll just 
end up to regret it
It takes a true friend
to stab you in the front
But if you really want this
then i'll give you all i GOT.

If you want a war
Step to the door with me
And if your man enough
Go toe to toe with me.
And if you want a war
On the floor you'll be
The only way you'll beat me
Is in your dreams.

Open your mouth
insert your foot inside
You talk alot of trash for someone
who likes to hide
Can't even look someone right in the face
They all figured out your just a waste of
there time and space
And one day your gonna wake up and see
that everyone around you aren't your friends
but your enemies.

And if you want a war
Step to the door with me
And if your man enough
Go toe to toe with me
And if you want a war
On the floor you'll be
The only way you'll beat me
is in your dreams.
And if you want a war
Step through the doors with me
Are you man enough to face me?
And if you want a war
Maybe now you'll see
We were best friends now in my eyes
your dead to me.


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LOVE IS A BATTLEFIELD

We battle almost everyday, you don't care about nothing I say.

Something interests me and with you I want to share, a cold shoulder and your back is all you bare.

Where is your conscience my mind ponders?, Why even talk to me, why even bother?

You raise your voice as though you speaking to many,  I think I freaking heard you and so did the city.

Second guessing myself, what the hell did I do to you?  I think most times even you don't have a clue.

Why would I stay here, why choose this hellish path?,  Why wait for you to snap again, waiting for you wrath.

I need to clear this haze from my eyes, Know that it's over, come to terms, realize.

I feel like a solider deep within a war, I can't fight no longer, can't do this anymore!

I've fought with these things that from you I receive, I'm starting to feel it, your making me believe.

You see now in the beginning why my outlook on men was so hard, Your not the only one who has played this card.

I wish now I had stuck to my-guns, This would have never happened, never begun.

I'm sick of being nice and trying to be sweet, When all I get is knocked off my feet.

Is it men in general or do I have myself to blame, Theres someone out there that can prove all men aren't the same.


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THE WAVE, THAT I WAS

When a wave
Crashes upon the shore
A wave , lost
A wave , died
 
It's not coming back
That I know
I felt it inside
Breaking
Upon me
Upon the shore
 
I suffered greatly
Upon the sea
The landfall
Was the end of me
 
The wave
That I was
Is gone
A million droplets
A million memories
All I could see
Lost
Died
What has become of me?


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Feverish Encounter

Do you enjoy
Thinking about the day
You meet the one you're looking for
The prodigious chemistry
When your two eyes meet

Everything around you seemingly stops existing
But only for a moment
Except for in your own two minds

In that instance
Lasts an eternity
Or at least you wish that it could
A marvelous emotional notion isn't it
That in this instant
Everything in your life changes
All you want to do after that moment
Is to make sure that you have her for yourself

There is only one problem
She is with a group of friends
And you don't want to intrude
So you continue
To stare at each other
So intensely
All the while still pretending to listen
To the people that you happen to be with

After ten grueling minutes
Neither one of you can stand it
As she signals for you to get up
And finally meet
The hairs on the back of your necks start tingling
With an ecstatic anticipation

You walk outside
Your eyes never separate
Both of your nervousness starts to dwindle
As you feel an immediate comfort 
In each others presence
This all just has to be a dream

A smile comes over both your faces
Both or you are forever grateful
That you've been allowed
This chance encounter
Preserve this moment in your minds
For it may never happen like this again


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Depression 10-9-03

                                            It began as a sadness
                                            A longing for something
                                            A something I couldn’t find
                                           It grows into a darkness
                                           A piercing darkness
                                           That slowly took over my mind


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lovesong

Give me a break.
Stand there smiling, like it’s easy
As I bash my head against the wall
And the world is caving in on me
Through the blood in my eyes it’s hard to see
How much farther can I fall?

God, let me breathe
I can’t bear this cage you’ve built for me
My stubborn heart is bleeding and blind
and you just keep talking without sound
your simple empty words crash down
and echo in my mind.

I promise you my pretty love…
I was only joking.
I didn’t mean your killing me
But I can feel the sky fall
down on my head.

And pretty baby, please forgive me
I just get vicious when I’m strangling
I don’t want to fight tonight
Let’s drop the pretense and play
With real knives instead.

Where do we go after we stop here
Do not pass go, do not collect your sanity.
Criticize and patronize
But God, don’t change your mind.
     			       
          I promise you, my pretty love
I was only joking.
I didn’t mean your killing me
But I can feel the sky fall
down on my head.

And pretty baby, please forgive me
I just get vicious when I’m strangling
I don’t want to fight tonight
Let’s drop the pretense and play
With real knives instead.

But God, don’t change your mind. 
I promise you my pretty love…
I was only joking.
I didn’t mean your killing me
But I can feel the sky falling
on my head.

And pretty baby, please forgive me
I just get vicious when I’m strangling
I don’t want to fight tonight
Let’s drop the pretense and play
With real knives instead.

      First I’m right and then I’m wrong
A thousand times I’ve heard this song.
You say it’s fine
But I can see the nothing in your eyes.

I promise you my pretty love…
I was only joking.
I didn’t mean your killing me
But I can feel the sky falling
on my head.

And pretty baby, please forgive me
I just get vicious when I’m strangling
I don’t want to fight tonight
Let’s drop the pretense and play
With real knives instead.


First I’m wrong and then I’m right
I’d rather die than fight tonight.
And yeah, I know
It’s nothing, nothing, nothing
Once again.







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INFELICITY

I should go				            I’ll go			If I knew what was right
I should just go				 I’d go			    If I could do that too
Just write a letter			         And go			If I could sacrifice my heart
Say goodbye				        Then go			If I could see the outcome
See you later				         Just go			If I was strong enough
Tell you I love you			        Right now go		If I was brave enough
Scream out my misery			I could go		If I was wise enough
Cry out my broken heart		        I will go		                       If I wasn’t afraid
Wail across the sky my love	     I want to go		         If I wasn’t in love
I should just go right now		I won’t go		                     If I wasn’t haunted
I should go before its too late	       I can’t go		                      If I wasn’t
already lost
I should go before I cannot		I need to go		              If I wouldn’t fade away
I should tell you nothing		    I have to go		  If I wouldn’t fall apart
I should whisper nothing of this     I must go		                If I wouldn’t hurt you too
Bite my tongue				        I should go		            If I wouldn’t scream forever
Forget my dreams			      I’d go			              If I could escape in sleep
Smile and laugh my lie			      I’ll go			                If I could hide in dream
Joke with you for a smile		        I’ll just go		              If I could sing again later
I should go before I see you again	    I go			If I could love again later
I should just go				            Go			         If I could remember how
Because I cannot bear it			   Go			            If I was better than I am
The knowledge of another inside you	GO!!		  	          If I was anything at all
I should go				                    I’ll go away		If I was a kinder man
Before I really die			                 I’ll go and fall		If I was a promise
I should go				                    I’ll go today!		       If I were someone alone
I should					               I’ll go Tonight!!		If I were someone whole
Shouldn’t I go				                  I’ll go right now!!!	         If I were a warrior
	
I will leave you now 
And linger no more on the fringes of your life
If I am anything at all like you believe me to be
I will call you and wish you well, 
Wish you all the happiness I want for you
If I am a shadow of the song you see me as
I will just run silent 
And let you go like fate meant for us to be
Before you really knew me too
If I am a warrior, if I am, if I were . . .
I would lay down my soul and walk away 
But, 
I am not a warrior

How can I be . . ?


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What she said

She looked at me with a smile
im pregnant is what she said
What ive wanted all the while
being a father going through my head
But when she told me she miscarried
my fist banged into the floor
And in the corner head in my knees buried
as my hopes had flew out of the door.

Wasn't i good enough to be a dad
or was it just not my right
All the fights they got so bad
Until i finally saw the light
You lied about the babies
Never pregnant at all
Holding my hopes up to my head like a gun
so i would feel like leaving anymore.
How could you do this to me?
I ask myself this today
Do you know how hard it was for me?
Visiting a grave where no baby was contained?

She said, and she lied
All these times
Just to get me to stay.
She said it over and over
And each time it would sting
And the pain never goes away.

She used this line more times
i was to immature
She told me the details of what
they all looked like
Loved to always see me hurt
And take away all my fight.
Breaking my heart so many times
Let my dreams and hopes to die
Are you happy with yourself?
Making up things now to someone else?
As of this moment i am done with you
Apologize if you must there's nothing you can do.
Even though there were no babies i still honor those that died.
Placing little race cars and flowers on the stones of those
who just fought but couldn't survive.

She said, and she lied
All these times
Just to get me to stay.
She said it over and over
And each time it would sting
And the pain never goes away.


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Speaking After a Dream

The walls close in and I find you
A silhouette standing in the blue
The clouds fell apart and I called to the sky
I am left now only to wonder why

Coffee drips into my cup
As my eyes are filling up
‘Cause everything reminds what I did that day
I had to cut him loose, now I have something to say….

So, here I stand
Your wish is my command
It’s been you from the start
And it’s tearing me apart

I just can’t see for the hair in my eyes
And I’ve lost my way but it’s no big surprise
Time I let it so you this is true
You hold my heart strings, the one I love is you.


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MESSAGE LOST

This internal conflict 
I cannot fight 
This is not black and white 
This unreasoned spite 

I cannot get through 
I have tried 
This message lost too, 
lost in the deep wide 

Two forces collide, 
the pieces scattered 
far and wide 
Years to track down what mattered 

This restless angry sea 
throws its might at me 
Waves of emotion 
Seething ocean 

What can I repair? 
This loss of tranquillity 
It is so unfair! 
Am I losing my sensibility? 

Is this damage done? 
Have I lost a son? 
Has the restless angry sea won? 

The lost message, 
floating on angry restless sea 
It must be me 
The things I might have done, 
to make me think 
Before I sink 
Before my son 

I cannot get through 
He wont let me too 
Rising sea, 
beating its waves on me 

This storm must stop 
I am ready to drop 
Seething sea, 
throwing its'self at me 
Waves of emotion 
Restless ocean 

This conflict I cannot fight, 
peace is a right 
This restless angry sea, 
upon storm tossed message 
that is me 


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MESSAGE LOST

This internal conflict 
I cannot fight 
This is not black and white 
This unreasoned spite 

I cannot get through 
I have tried 
This message lost too, 
lost in the deep wide 

Two forces collide, 
the pieces scattered 
far and wide 
Years to track down what mattered 

This restless angry sea 
throws its might at me 
Waves of emotion 
Seething ocean 

What can I repair? 
This loss of tranquillity 
It is so unfair! 
Am I losing my sensibility? 

Is this damage done? 
Have I lost a son? 
Has the restless angry sea won? 

The lost message, 
floating on angry restless sea 
It must be me 
The things I might have done, 
to make me think 
Before I sink 
Before my son 

I cannot get through 
He wont let me too 
Rising sea, 
beating its waves on me 

This storm must stop 
I am ready to drop 
Seething sea, 
throwing its'self at me 
Waves of emotion 
Restless ocean 

This conflict, I cannot fight, 
peace is a right 
This restless angry sea, 
upon storm tossed message 
that is me 


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MESSAGE LOST

This internal conflict 
I cannot fight 
This is not black and white 
This unreasoned spite 

I cannot get through 
I have tried 
This message lost too, 
lost in the deep wide 

Two forces collide, 
the pieces scattered 
far and wide 
Years to track down what mattered 

This restless angry sea 
throws its might at me 
Waves of emotion 
Seething ocean 

What can I repair? 
This loss of tranquillity 
It is so unfair! 
Am I losing my sensibility? 

Is this damage done? 
Have I lost a son? 
Has the restless angry sea won? 

The lost message, 
floating on angry restless sea 
It must be me 
The things I might have done, 
to make me think 
Before I sink 
Before my son 

I cannot get through 
He won't let me too 
Rising sea, 
beating its waves on me 

This storm must stop 
I am ready to drop 
Seething sea, 
throwing its'self at me 
Waves of emotion 
Restless ocean 

This conflict I cannot fight, 
peace is a right 
This restless angry sea, 
upon storm tossed message 
that is me 


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I CANNOT TURN BACK

I cannot turn back
The things I said
I cannot turn back
Time
For, the people I need
Are now dead
 
What would they think?
Of things I say and do
I need them
Before I sink
 
Now...
When I need them most
I cannot speak
For I need them
For their strength
For, I am weak
 
I cannot turn back
Things I said
I cannot turn back time
For the people I need
Are now dead
 
I wish everyday
For a chance
To say
To listen
One more time
To my father
 
I cannot speak to...
The people I need
For, they are dead
One day
I will meet them
on an Autumns' day
and hear what they say
 
I live in two worlds
One, where I speak
The other...
Where, I am weak
Which one I am in now?
I cannot tell!


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vulnerable

share with me the brackets of cold 
it's true i've been looking for u 
i'll show u my reasons i'm scared 
tell me why i'm vulnerable 
it's something already 
u make me see everything clearer 
i know u don't care as soon as you open the door 
u are unprepared for what might happen 
i can be simple but it's hard to tell u i'm sorry 
tell me why i'm vulnerable 
u is not discreet 
i'm hiding from the past 
that i have built with u 
somebody is there already 
and i'm sure 
i'm leaving notes on your bed 
which is the bed i never sleep on 
i stay awake writing this for u 
tell me why i'm vulnerable 


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DECEIT

DECEIT

The scale has tipped to disfavor.
Lights are slowly being adjusted to dim.
The room becomes colder.
DECEIT
Thunder and lightning ensues,
The ground rumbles and quakes.
Lights at the end of the tunnel,
Have been removed.
DECEIT
A wall of water,
Is coming your way.
The billboard spells-castrophe.
No room to run or hide.
Time has finally run out.
DECEIT

by
Norman Geary


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DEATHS' BITTER BLOW

I felt deaths' 
Bitter blow
So little time
So much more to know

If I could just once...
Tell, too...
How much I loved
All of you

I felt deaths' 
Bitter blow
Before I had the chance
To spend more time
With you

I carry a heart
Filled with regret
I had the chance too
To spend more time
With you

I felt deaths'
Bitter blow
So many wasted times
To tell...
How much I loved
All of you
What I came to know

If I could, just once
For now it is dark
To tell...
So little time now
No time to express
For I feel deaths'
Bitter blow

If I could, just once
Tell
Of a heart
Filled with regret
So much more to know
It is too late
For I no longer feel
Only deaths' 
bitter blow


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This Week's Fairy Tale

"Rude-Pun-Zel, Rude-Pun-Zel, Let Down Your Glass Eye!"

Rude-Pun-Zel had always been rude,
Sometimes boarderline crude,
But her own blue eyes she prized,
And she told no lies,
When she declared she was the
fairest of maids,
To sour some people '
like unsweetened lemonaids

One day she was too rude,
To a Sociopath Druid,
And in vengence, he
plucked out one eye...
Well she did not then die,
But, oh, oh, oh my, my, my...
She did long cry...
But at only 50% capacity,
Cause she had only one eye,
You see?

Well her Sorceror dad,
His temper was bad,
And this made him real mad
So he fitted her with, 
her one glass eye...
But he was color-blind
And didn't know what kind,
So he got one very brown,
Figuring if off, she would not mind...

Well Rue-Pun-Zel did
keep it anyway,
And everyday she'd
tie it in,
With a long eye-lash,
Of which she kept
a hefty stash

But now banished to
a tall tower blue,
She wanted for someone to her, save,
One day he came,
A plodding young knave,
Not too bright,
And not too brave,
He'd heard the tale,
Then one night,
after too much ale,
Seeked her out, from
the base of her tower...

Rude-Pun-Zel!!
Rude-Pun-Zel!!
Let down your glass eye,
I'll climb your lashes,
So no more will you cry!!
I'll even take you, 
to the local fish fry!!

Sadly, as poor
Rude-Pun-Zel attempted
this feat,
Her glass eye did slip,
And shatter when it hit

Goes to show you,
Always keep an eye on an eye!!

Goodbye!!


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Master of War

He pauses for effect and pretends to listen and hear,
then proceeds anyway and gives the order to conquer.
Though far is his reach he is really very near,
causing destruction, he brings chaos and fear.

Silhouettes and shadows dance all over the wall
but he heeds not the warning of the impending toll.
From across the ocean he kills, maims and attacks,
he arrests and he tortures, he insults and he mocks.

He drops bombs, launches cruise missiles and planes,
he fires cannons, sends troops on ships and trains.
He barks orders, he wiretaps and he spies,
he fundraises, he schemes and he lies.

He does not hesitate to place fighting men in harm’s way,
yet years ago, when put to the test, he scampered away.
He’s brave and he’s fearless he will do whatever it takes
as long as it’s not his sorry life at stake.

His nation’s best come home in cold, flag-draped coffins,
but not to worry, just statistics, save the cost of morphines.
For the good times roll for the dumb warrior and his base
since November 2000 and it has always been the case.

He turns wives into widows, innocent kids into orphans,
sowing deaths on thousands of daughters and sons.
He cries crocodile tears, even tries hard to appear he’s sorry
in front of cameras for the headlines of the day.

He never fails to attend service with his wife every Sunday,
a black sheep once but claims the Lord showed him the way.
Yet nothing will stop him from character assassination
for his party and, believe you me, in the name of his nation!

We’re spreading democracy, the little boy warrior says,
in press conferences he holds on some occasional days.
While his weary war machine stutters and cranks,
his rich cronies laugh all the way to the bank.

Yes, the Decider smiles, he surveys and he conquers,
he pretends to listen though he does not really hear.
Shame on the whole world, the UN, shame on us all,
for not reining in this evil man and just taking the fall.
 


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your call

i know the voices that you're after
standing in the cold waiting for u to come
share with me the secrets you never told
all the places that i'm going and leaving from
carring on through the past that i'm trying to escape


i'm here waiting by the phone to get a call from you
looking for a breakthrough
so i can talk to u
i've waited all night for your call

losing my mind over what happened the other night
why do i need to stop her from going overboard
turning off the lights there is nothing but fright
as i stand aside from the fireplace lookinh sober
tonight it's over

i'm here waiting by the phone to get a call from you
looking for a breakthrough
so i can talk to u
i've waited all night for your call

i'm trying to be sincere to your feelings to see what is inside
it's time to recognize the decisions we're making this night
no one is insight
do u have a plan to escape from this place

i'm here waiting by the phone to get a call from you
looking for a breakthrough
so i can talk to u
i've waited all night for your call


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DARK STAR

In the depths
Of your space
There lay a dark star
 
The light
Shuttered from within
I only learned
Of its' presence
When I reached in,
and got burned
 
In the depths
Of your space
there lay a dark star
 
The light
Never emitted
I tried
To open the night
Nothing glittered
 
In the depths
of your space
There lay a dark star
 
Only you
Can release
All of the light
That you hide within
The internal peace
Fading the night


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FALSE PROPHET

Oh dear! It’s December --- time again to look into my crystal ball.
A ball of thoughts in front of me, that I don’t need at all,
For I can see the images, portrayed from other years,
Where different circles feel the touch, of agony and tears.

The focus and the build up, always comes across the same.
We’ve indoctrinated to our culture, that Russian roulette game,
Not with one bullet in the gun, but alcohol and cars or shame,
To spoil the festive season, when commemorating the Lords name.

From that party’s endless pouring, where limits have no end,
Who pays the price of conscience, when someone has to send,
The messenger to bring the tears that flow from they close by
Who live Christmas as another day, with the question echoed, why?

I hear on the dates, the ninth, thirteenth, fifteenth or twenty-first,
The closer to our Christmas day, the more it seems the worst,
A shattered family claims a body. Gifts are silently held dear,
And Christmas Day is over, before the twenty-fifth is here.
 
And there’s the shame of letting out, what has been a lustful thought,
Loosened by a carefree attitude, the Christmas orgy bought.
One misdemeanor iced with lust, brings on magnitudes so great,
Where children, yes the children, have their Christmas filled with hate.

Family’s who have lost touch, not through distance from afar,
Believe that Christmas is the time, to heal the feuding scar,
Curt are greetings for the foe, for so long kept apart,
And soon the flame of alcohol awakes a murderous heart.

Through close knit societies, away from your very own,
A fragile crack can open, the time of peace and love is blown,
This may not happen close to you, where the path is smooth and clear,
Christmas comes and goes in perfect time. This is your lucky year.

Come January just look back. Ponder what you’ve heard and read.
Piece together one by one, the living, left and dead.
I know like me you will be touched, with every role that we recall,
It’s the lead up to each Christmas. I am no prophet after all. 




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Fallen Angel

your life’s in a rut
you’re stuck in second gear
quickly losing all you’ve ever held dear

all your ambitions
all your life’s missions
no longer exist in your mind

the things you’ve done were all in vain
nothing you’ve found eases the pain
you want to end it all this very night

you tried to climb to the top
only failing to see
that maybe making it was never your destiny

you’ve no more strength to carry on
your life’s struggles have lasted too long
the ballad of your life is the saddest song

you dive from up high
flying like a fallen angel at last
letting go of your grievous past

the people finally see you from down below
finally see you drowning in sorrow
your time has now come and passed

as your body rains from the skies
everybody finally hears your desperate cries
but it’s too late to help you now

you’re falling down
falling toward your very end
leaving behind no family or friend

you hit the ground
now the world gathers round
staring in wondrous horror

you lie there in death
having breathed your last breath
suffering your life no more


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I TOOK THEM BACK TODAY

I took them back today
Such beautiful children
That , are a mixture of their parents’ way
A day
A night
Then I had to give them back

Such a wounding way
It plays upon my heart
That their mother cannot know
Of such things I felt
In my sorrow

The great divide
That cannot be seen
Such a wounding way
Such beautiful children
That I do not have by my side

I took them back today
That sense of loss
That I cannot be a part
Of a family home
That I left
That I tore apart

Another statistic
It always happened
To another family
Not me

I took them back today
Such sorrow
To see them go
For I had today
And not tomorrow


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Old Woman (true tale)

"once i looked up to see
a woman join eternity,
an old woman,
so sick of oldness,
aloneness
lack of direction,
lack of hope,
lack of love,
lack of faith...
so tired 
of the pain
and the horror
of another day
decided today was
to be her last day
on a late date
May, 1969
she breathed for her
last time
I watched in horror,
when she stood 
on the ledge
a moments hesitation
before she finalized
her life
and she jumped
to her end
and I walked
a bit sadder
to see what
life can bring
what pain, 
what undeserved agony,

what could I do?
it was already
too late,
she was gone,
to be with those
she's so long
waited to see again.


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Bypath

First, I saw the star of David rising out of the East.
No one will believe me , not even my children to say the least.
They know there is a Geni, but don't know how to know Him or fear Him like no 
other.

The star of Bethlehem made clear a way.
Just like John the Baptist did when Christ was on his way.

There is an other light that is here,
Nobody even knows, nobody even cares.

These two lights to me,  remind me of a story I once read.
Sodom and Gomora everyone there is dead.
Fire struck those corrupted cities.
The Geni burned them to the ground.

One star, two star, three star.
I think only two.

You built your alters on calvary and even on his tomb.
Dedicating it for love.

All the earth, you know your love is fornication.
Really sickening and dismay.
You call your alters, Venus, Jupiter and Juno.
Wasn't anything sacred here at all.
Nothing is sacred here anymore.

These two lights represent Babylon, the sinful place,
Just like before.

It has happened, and I think it is going to happen again.
If sin is what you want, I think it is what your going to get.

Sin Ends.










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Fat Girl

Fat girl who can’t wear those clothes,
Shop over there where the big stuff goes.
Don’t try to fit in, ‘cause you really don’t,
We shouldn’t pretend, therefore we wont.
You’re not cute like us, that’s so true,
It’s not like any guy would ever want you.
Don’t dare come around people like me,
I’m not your friend and I never will be.
Just stop eating….what is your fear?
Do you think we care if you disappear?


By Jamie R Eddy


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Bloody Morning

A big explosion
           near the docks
    A terrible tragedy by all accounts
Many gone, many left in tears
     The reporters tell us
  this story today
     We absorb the impact
  and get on with our lives
    But some lives have 
been snuffed out
    Let the crystal snowflakes 
come and cover the scene of
the crime
    Nature's white blanket
         will let us forget
The loves of the lost 
       will feel pain
   but it will fade 
with the new year
   Heartache is the order 
         of the day
But tomorrow morning will come
to ease the pain
     Let's find healing 
          in nature's gifts
      It's the one chance 
   we have
for happiness and freedom


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Spinster's List

this very troubled old maid
so beaten down by life
wanted nothing so but not to fade
without being someone's wife

but until that time came about,
she had no choice but to carry on
and when she needed bad some groceries
to me she depended on, and hence you have this yarn...

just give me Spinster's list
and money to pay for it all
I run down to the supermarket,
I mean, this is what she needed, this is why the call...

I'm no big fan of big food shopping,
it's really too much a bore,
I'd far rather go bar hopping,
than spend hours in the store

but she needed me to help
I could never turn her down
she really was a nice lady,
I couldn't bear to see her frown

so off I go in search,
of the food she so much needed,
and back again an hour or two later
it could of been much longer,
but I had really speeded

someday, I sort'a wonder...
will someone shop for me?
If so, one thing will be different...
I'll, for him, how it felt to be.


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The Ship

startled to sudden wakefulness
by the sudden lurch of the ship,
fear rose in my soul
cold, damp hull next to my berth,
I'd give 10 years of my life
to have my feet on solid earth

dark, quiet inboard
only the low pitched groans of metal
pounded by an angry, restless sea
was it the fear, or the sound, that had woken me?

Eyes open half way, not quite sure where I am-
What I did, and why, or who I really am-
was I drunk? was I mad? or am I just dead?
pounding waves roll into my ears, and echo in my head...

riveted steel plates before my eyes,
drops of sea dew condense inside,
sudden terror, as my mind awakes-
no sound aboard- but the 
rhythmatic pounding of heavy seas

engines dead!  no motor sound-
have we once too often-
dared the fates?
what's going on? what and why?
and where, oh God, are my mates?

I jerked out of bed,
as the deck dances beneath my feet- 
what's happening? is this real? 
will death, I once more, defeat?

to the hall I stagger...
as my world shudders about me...
no lights, no sound, and fading hope...
but the sound of ever maddening waves...
eager to crush this insolent ship,
so insolent as to invade its realm
so foolish to taunt nature
with no one now at its helm

each cabin, in rising panic,
I searched in rising gloom,
to find nothing to comfort me,
each but an empty room...

fear increasing with-
each crushed hope,
each screaming smash of wave
am I alone, am I dreaming?
or against me, the sea is scheming?

fought my way up to the rolling deck,
pain swelling in my now sprained neck-
alone?
the sea grew ever more threatening and awesome,
I felt left alone to face my fate
my outcome no longer doubtful,
I wouldn't have long to wait...

at a topside cabin,
I peeked outside,
saw mighty wind and wave-
an angry earth it was tonight
no way for me to save...

dark night and
no one about-
I cursed, I cried,
I screamed, I did shout...

abandoned? left to die?
or in a murderous dream-
did I make 32 die?
toss their bodies overboard?
feed the sea,
its requested hoard?

panic is panic,
and panic this was-
demon or victim?
which was I,
did I kill?  will I die?

I retreated downdeck,
a broken man,
either way I lose-
the comfort of strong steel-
no more- it would'a been
something that I could use


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Quid Pro Quo

You’re going around town telling all who care to listen
that I’ve got an axe to grind, I’m picking on your brain.
But you know damn well it is nothing like that at all,
you have been nasty and you are acting like a fool.

Remember when you were spreading innuendoes?
so I put you in your place, punched you on the nose.
How did it feel when you were at the receiving end,
it hurt so badly, didn’t it, you back-stabbing fiend?

You’re up to no good, you don’t amount to anything
and you do not realize all the harm that you bring.
You act so surprised why people stay away from you,
how can you be so naïve that you can’t see the clue.

Now you complain that I’m warlike, rough and mean,
yet you go on with your wicked ways just the same.
If you know what’s good for you learn how to behave,
lay off me and just hibernate in your lonely cave.

You sow what you reap and you reap what you sow,
at the end of the day it will always come back to you.
For the karmic wheel keeps on spinning, you know,
you may be up now but you could be down tomorrow.

So listen, buddy, here’s a piece of friendly advice:
try some kindness if you expect people to be nice.
Show some respect and you will get plenty in return,
never play with fire if you do not want to get burned.


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Rocky

Rocky, Rocky
Longed to be a jockey,
But poor Rocky,
Was far too stocky,

More muscles than the horse,
Eliminated him of course,

He tried to slim down,
To win the Derby Crown,
But failed at this,
And was destined to miss,
The goal he sought so bad,

He watched from Kentucky Downs,
With naught but frowns,
And angered that,
Those little clowns,

Had the job he did covet
And they did not love it,
For each of them, it seems,
Wanted to be a muscleman,
That was their fondest dreams.


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BLUE SEA

I crave a blue sea
To swallow me
In its' depths
is where I want to be
 
To see in its' heart
Deep blue blackness
To see above
Iridescent blue
When a sun shone
On a day
That I wished
Wished for me
 
To swim free
In a blue sea
 
To see, in its' heart
The meaning of things
What I feel
On a day
Like today
Iridescent blue
Wished for me
In a blue sea


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The Dark King

"All blades perish that pierce the Dark King" - J.R.R. Tolkien "The Return of the 
King"

    Ringwraith - Morgul lord
    Veiled in shadow
    riding on a dark black steed
    Prisoner of his own desire for power
    He has become a slave of 
    Mordor
    Once proud leaders of 
    mortal men     
    The nine drew them 
    all to the Necromancer
    Now they must do his 
    bidding
    The most powerful of the nine rides forth
    Seeking the one
    which their shadowy master
    is searching for
    Nine walkers set out 
    against the Nine Riders
    The leader of the Dark Riders is a wraith twisted
    by lust for power
    The nine walkers 
    have one who
    has resisted temptaion
    and who will soon be
    dressed in white
   The darkness versus the light
   Thus it is now
   Thus it shall ever be  


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Suzie and Mikey

They are sister and brother,
Yet not quite the norm,
Suzie wants her doll, 
And she'll keep ranting
 long and loud,   
Sometimes flying off the track,
Violence can erupt,
No way tp figure out, how and when,
She's a terror to handle,
This autistic child,
Seems only Rosie can do that,
the woman I love..
Tender words she does use.
Only my Rosie can calm her,
This poor lost troubled child,

Then there's Mikey,
Perhaps more peacful is he,
Just rocking back and forth,
Rocking so endlessly....
Maybe he's happy, in his own world,
At other times he can become more active,
And then the pain shows for all to see.

There are many others, in this clan, so seemingly cursed,
Deep, dark secrets of childhood sexual abuse,
By peripherial relatives dealing with their own phsychotic demons,

And, as almost always the case, Mama doesn't want to hear it,
The abusers Masquaraides too clever,
And all the others, all effected, insane brother,
Oft in jail,
troubled,pill dependent sister...
Another sister expecting to be poisoned daily,
So many people molded in pain, and in a disfunctional confusion.
The one Pillar of Strength is my Rosie...
From the sad day of her mother's death,
She has to ruled this insane mess.
As close to a "Mother Teresa'
That we'll ever see.































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WHAT WAS ONCE MINE

I walked up 
To the highest hill
Something lay in me
On a hill
Above

Birds circled
On a wind
On the highest hill
Where something lay in me

Arms, outstretched
I feel within me
Something
To be released
I gave it up
Let it fly
Let it be

I cannot define
What I gave up
Let it be
What was once mine


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THE HARDEST

THE HARDEST 

I looked for you 
Today 
Unattainable 
What could you see 
If I could only let it be 

I cannot have 
I cannot hold 
Beauty untold 
My heart to fold 


It is so hard 
Not to cry 
What is within ones' own grasp 
A single step 
The hardest 
Not to cry 
If not... 
Why? 

I cannot have 
I cannot hold 
Beauty untold 
My heart to fold 

Such angst 
Fighting through 
I am here 
Tears too 

I cannot have 
I cannot hold 
Beauty untold 
My heart to fold 

When you were with me 
Lying quietly 
All I could think... 

I cannot have 
I cannot hold 
Beauty untold 
My heart to fold 


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DEEP IN TO THE BLUE

Chance meeting
Sparked too
A glance, meeting
I was lost in the blue
 
What could I do?
Immerse myself
Deep in to the blue
 
Perfect sapphires
Sparkled too
Reached down
Took my heart
What could I do?
 
They illuminated my heart,
that no one else could do
I immersed my self
Deep into the blue
 
I never saw her again
Eyes, so blue
Her delightful laugh
I will miss that too


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A STOLEN HEART

Black shadows passed through trees
Passed through stone walls
Crept up galleries and halls
A gem to take
A gem to seize
 
The Shadowfire
For, the gem does possess,
strength and conscience
These are the things the Ice King desires
 
A stolen heart
held in the cold hand of the Ice King
Will make him strong again
To kill and maim
Revenge for all that were slain
 
A heart must be given freely
You cannot steal these things
For then....
They have no love
No meanings
 
The Wraiths gathered up the Shadowfire
In the depths of winter
In the bitterest cold
A gem to restore strength
To make them bold
 
Slipping through the lock and hasp
The Shadowfire carried away
To the Ice king
Whose cold bony hands waited,
for the time that the gem...
Would be in his grasp
 
Screeching and wailing triumphantly
The Shadowfire was placed in the Kings' hand 
Now he had the strength to take
and conquer all in this land
 
A battle to commence
Destroy all
Through a stolen heart
Taken from the Great Hall


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SATELLITE

Orbitting around your life, 
always out of reach, 
but you can see it fly, 
streaking across night sky 

Always at night, 
wrestle with your emotion, 
with all your might 
What is wrong? 
What is right? 

Every night awaking, 
wondering why? 
Imagination seeking. 
That satellite streaking 
across the night sky 

This starry night, 
emotions you must fight, 
can you see the flight? 
of streaking satellite? 

This satellite of a kind 
is your state of mind, 
the things you want to find 

The things you want to be, 
the things that make you free, 
the things you want to see, 
the things that matter to me 

This satellite is hard to see, 
streaking across starry sky, 
but I want it to be me, 
for I want to fly 
in dark night sky 


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PERPETUAL WINTER

I felt such despair today
I cannot change
What I feel
For, the things I held deep
I held at bay
 
The years, come and go
Yet winter
Is set in my heart
Falling snow
 
I want to see a summer
Before I go
Somewhere
Soon
Sunset glow
 
So many wasted seasons
Lost in perpetual winter
What I feel
For, things I held deep
I cannot tell you the reasons
 
I carry these things
In my winter place
Set in my heart
For, things I held deep
You never saw them
Ever..
Upon my face


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I WILL ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOU

You did not deserve
All of this
I never would have wished
Such things
You should have been cherished

Such deep waters
Inside of you
Yet the love...
Will always flow
I will always believe in you 

I cannot explain
Why these things happened
To you
I now, know of your pain
I will always believe in you 

I wish for you
Peace and gentleness
To fill your heart
I will always believe in you


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Feelings 9-3-01

                                                             I gather THEM up
                                                             Taped THEM together
                                                             Sealed THEM in a bag
                                                             Packed THEM in a box
                                                             Dug a hole in my mind
                                                             And I buried THEM
                                                             Then I turned around
                                                             Walked away,
                                                             And forgetting all about
                                                                        YOU.


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At Rivendell

 After a perilous journey
          They came to Rivendell
           A port in
A stormy sea
The home of Elrond
            Was a place of 
Enchantment
Songs and stories of Another age
Were the fare at 
                 This mystical shrne
The darkness of 
The Necromancer
              Had no power here
The golden race
              Made its home
Here
And here was chosen
A company
              Nine Walkers
Sent out 
Against the Nine Riders
Men, dwarves, elves and Halflings
Convened
And the help of a powerful Wizard
Laid their planes to defear
The Shadow
 (From the chapbook - "Deeper into Middle Earth)              

 


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From the Perilous Realm

     We have seen the
wonders of this world
     But greater still
are the wonders of Faerie
     The perilous realm has
it's dangers
     Yet it is a land of surpassing
beauty
         Brave souls that we are 
          We shall once again 
                  attempt to cross
it's borders  
          The way back to home
is an acceptance of sad
 mortality
           So, we'll continue on 
our quest
            And leave the land 
of our birth
       in strongly - built ships
  With a prayer on our 
lips
    we hoist anchor 
to sail to the shores
where the mountains and
     trees
   are made of sunshine
to the land where the
  Grim Reaper has no say
With joy in our hearts
we begin our journey
           "Now"


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The Ship part two

down deck, down deck, on and on-
such an awesome ship it had been-
100,000 tons, or more, I guess-
that it will sink seems such a sin-
this mighty ship afloat-
not much longer, I did know...
and even with her cold steel strength
down she would soon surely go,
to the sea she was nothing...
like a little twig, no task for her to snap....
the sea can always laugh at man-
when he falls into her deadly trap

despair kicked in, and sure
enough- despair was well deserved-
'cause death was facing me that night-
death that I had truely earned-
my soul was going down, way down
forever to be rightfully burned-

yes, it was foolish enough-
to challenge the sea-
and madness to kill the men-
now my poor luck to be the only one-
that's left-
to face a gruesome end

I leaned against a cold
engine room wall
in the deepest bowls of the ship-
I was consigned to what was approaching-
I waited for my end to come-
hoping, asking God, only it be quick...
my concern wrapped around me,
very, very thick...

the water's cascading now, my friend-
it's going down so fast!
eyes turned up in search of God-
I knew my fate was cast...
my Lord, I hope you accept this fool-
however, I'm dying slow-
the sea, it hurts my lungs so bad-
and the pressure is just so-
I'm dying, Lord, I'm dying!
Oh, sh_t, I'm goin' down-
Dear Lord above, around, beneath me-
please accept me as I am- 
a fool, a repented sinner. a victim
and a murderer too-
I'm sure you can take me-
please show me that this is true-

my bones are now at rest-
in this lonely, sunken tomb of steel
whitened, weathered, beaten-
hopefully someday may to be raised-
to my surprise, I find,
below the seas- so many great comrades-
we number in countless billions-
as do those that live upon the earth
and now I understand, too late, perhaps-
just what a human life is worth.


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44

No it's not a gun,
a malt drink minus one
a waist size
or a world war II year
it's not the temperature
in early springs
not a Vick's cough syrup
it's none of these things

it's the number of volumes
of journals/diaries,
call them what you will
that chronical my life
the victories, the joys, the hurts,
the friends, lovers, and the strife
my hopes, dreams, poems and 
much much more still
only one other person in this world
has been privy to it, and now knows
what's been in my head from 1967
right on until now
that one is my sweet Rose
only Rose knows

I wrote these long lasting journals-
a release for me to use,
with a dark secret, or crazy thought
things that have happened to me
things that have come to naught
many silly, stupid entries
much wisdom, brilliance too,
you never know just what you'll get
you can count on that to be true

but someday...when I am
long. long gone...
maybe someone somewhere will see
what my time was like,
what was going on....

see, when my family first moved
into the family house of 50 years
we found a few great treasures
one very special on, which did bring tears

for in this somewhat faded diary
from 1863, a life in all its colors
did open up very wide for me to see

I felt honored, touched, and somewhat sad,
to think this sweet soul was so long gone
she spoke from the heart, and showed me a world
I could never taste,
and now I knew her life
had never been a waste

because she reached out thru
the centuries, to tell me her tale of life
it seemed to me to validate her being
was more than a long forgotten,
faded tombstone, a name,
maybe with a year
and for a moment somehow
she had become,
someone who was right here.


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A POEM FOR OLIVER

I cannot rest, 
you see
For such turmoil
Affects me

Such bitter fighting
Hurt me
I was not part of your war
You, let it be

I suffer now
So needlessly
For, you took your pain
and your anger
Again and again
On me...

I cannot make peace with you
For, your wounding words
Cut me through

Things can never go back
To way they have been
Let us build on new things
For, some actions
Are better left unseen

I wish you had not said
All those hurtful things
I acknowledge your pain
For those words...
Inwards, I bled
It can never be the same

For amongst so much
Anger and pain
I want a mothers' love again

Can we not start
Sometime soon?
Forget the hurtful words
That paralyse the heart

Love can never die
It always remains
In the hearts of you and I


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WOUNDED HEART OF A WOMAN

Knees under your chin,
clasped tight
Sitting on you bed,
slowly rocking
This long night,
your mind in a spin

Sitting on your bed,
awake instead
What am I?
Where do I go?
Ready to fly
Nowhere so

Wounded heart,
wants to run
The things he had done
Right from the start

Hurtful things
That are untrue
Piercing stings
These acts you do

Wounded heart
Wants to run
The things he had done
Right from the start

This numbing pain
This negativity
Has come back to haunt me again
Killing all creativity

Bruises and pain
Walked in to the door again
Hate and spite
Try all he might

His promises to me
Now so hollow
This is not what I imagined to be
My heart so wanted to follow

Wounded heart
Wants to run
The things he had done
Right from the start

Bruises heal
But not what I feel
I am stronger now,
deep inside
I know how

He can bruise my heart
Not my spirit
I can go
Where he cannot follow
This is where I start

Wounded heart,
can run
This new start
You see...................
You are free


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IT COULD BE...

It could be...
So far from here
The distant light
So faint, to me
 
I carried so much of you
In my heart
That I could freefall too
 
It could be...
So many things...
Running free
 
I carried so much too
In so many different ways
In a locket of you
 
I could be a midsummer night
A moon ,bright
An evening star
This is me


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EVEN part one

There’s a score to be settled, there’s revenge to be had,
And it’s best to not f  k with a woman this mad.
But like always, you push me, you push me too far,
So now I’ll discard you like the trash that you are.

Did you think I’d forgive you after all of your lies?
Did you really believe me? Trust my loving disguise? 
Are you really so stupid that you thought that I could,
Or are you so arrogant to think that I would?

A liar, a cheater, a thief and crook,
Too late to give back my soul that you took.
So here I am lover, with a hole in my chest,
And I’ve planned to destroy you, so prepare for my best.

Now that you love me, and it’s me who you need,
I wonder how badly I can make your heart bleed.
My anger stays patient, behind this empty smile,
But I am the judge and you will soon stand my trial.

I’ve not been so faithful, who knew I could be so bad?
And instead of feeling guilty it’s the most fun I’ve ever had.
The cheating wasn’t the thrill, it was the coming home to you,
Knowing what I just did, and then giving it to you too.

I don’t know when I became so dirty, I really have no shame,
But you made up the rules, I’m just playing your game.
At first I had to get even, but soon I had upped you one,
And before I could even stop it, Vendetta was on the run.

Every night I come home to you, I look you in the eyes,
I speak of love and life, and fill your head with lies.
Every night when I make love to you, I want you to know,
But I keep my secrets deep inside, and let your feelings grow.

Karma has been waiting to kick your a s for quite awhile,
Anticipation of your broken heart really makes me smile,
Because very soon my love, the full attack is on,
And everything you think is true will very much be gone.

So you can find another sucker to grow old with and lie,
And I can be the one you think of til you die.
The one that got away, the one who broke your heart,
The one who took your house of cards, and tore that s  t apart.

(contd....)


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SHE CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND

She can never understand
That words have meanings
Shapes
Souls too
 
For, upon a page
I lay bare
All you can see
Is all of me
 
She can never understand
The beauty of a word
How it touches me
In ways
She thinks are absurd
 
For, upon a page
I lay bare
All  you can see
Is all of me
 
She can never understand
The colours that flow
From my pen
She will never know
 
For, upon a page
I lay bare
All you can see
Is all of me
 
She can never understand
The places I go
So far
Beneath moon and star
 
For, upon a page
I lay bare
All you can see
Is all of me
 
She can never understand
Where I have been
Such beauty
Far,
I have travelled
In lands of richest green
 
For, upon a page
I lay bare
All you can see
Is all of me


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GLOWING BRIGHT

I loved you
For, all the travelling
All you have seen
We saw together
In forests of richest green

I couldn't think of anything better
Than being with you tonight
All I wanted
Was here
Glowing bright

With eyes perfect and blue
I got lost...
In the power of you

I went in circles
Lost
Without you
What is a sea,
Without a sky
This is what it means to me

I wanted you to know
How bright
Your star shone
How far you have travelled
Now you have gone


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THE PARTING

The parting 
Such loss 
Such sorrow 
These goodbyes 
These cries 
No tomorrow 

Our needs so different, 
mine changed, 
when you went 

This choking up, 
the words stuck in my throat 
This day..... 
The words 
I cannot say................ 

I wonder why 
This day.......... 
Why I try 
Be it as it may, 
it might go away 

Spirit feels its' crush 
The loss 
The first meeting 
Heart in full flush, 
its gloss 

The words you want to say......... 
but don't......... 
Not to wound deep, 
keep thoughts at bay 
But inwards, 
so hard to keep 

This impatience 
So unworthy from me 
I feel the crack 
I am fighting hard, 
to keep it back 

Years have now passed 
since that first flush 
How long can it last? 
Now that my spirit, 
feels the crush 

Chasm so wide, 
not even I can glide, 
crossover 
to the otherside 

To do something............ 
out of the ordinary 
Release this tension 
Listen to the heart ring, 
this I should mention 

Funny how the littlest things, 
make you snap 
What it brings 

The parting 
The release 
Ones' soul, 
at peace 


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SLIPSTREAM

Deep meaning 
I cannot say 
Deep streaming 
Showing me.. 
My way 

The four winds 
I saw in my dream 
Showing me.. 
My way 
Slipstream 

An outstretched hand 
Passing by 
Slipstream 
Invisible in a blue sky 

Tumbling over and over 
Passing by, 
caught me 
Threw me up high 

Where do you go? 
I cannot say 
Slipstream 
Showing me.. 
My way 

A grain of sand, 
passing by 
An outstretched hand 
Threw me up high 

I cannot always dream 
I cannot say 
Show me... 
My way 
Slipstream 


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The Shadows of the heart

The Shadows of the heart

Sometimes
Nothing stays the same
Where ever you turn
The wind
And its’ song
Can never return

In the shadows
Of the heart
I felt
Its’ bony fingers
Clasping
All of my night

The shadows climbed
I could feel the dread
All I wanted to say
All I have said

I cannot live
In a Shadowland
For my heart
Lives in light
I can give only so much
For I despair of the night


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THESE THINGS

Sometimes I think 
What can I do? 
Before I sink 
What can I change? 
Within my self 
I cannot change what is true 

I cannot hide the weaknesses, 
in my self too 
Nor can I conquer, 
such self loathing 
I live with such things 
What can I do? 

The angriness inside, 
a bitter pill to swallow 
You feel that there is no tomorrow 
Only here and now 
You tried.... 
and how! 

You cannot try, 
to hide it all 
You must get by, 
before you fall 

Such weaknesses, 
I found 
Such strength , 
other things too 

I cannot hide the strengths, 
in my self too 
They will conquer 
My weaknesses... 
This is true 

For, true things 
lie in the heart 
Beating true... 
I, will never fall 
For, these things ... 
Conquer all 


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Lost In Time Part One

I entered the forest
unsure of how i got there
one step within,
I found it useless to try to escape-
to find my way out
I had little memory
only leaves, tree trunks,
the earth perpetually shaded
from the light of God

there were voices
animal noises-
I could not determine
from which direction they came
the buzz of insects
a mildly threatening cacophany

underfoot were leaves, small branches,
other indecypherable forms
of small death
I was alone
I was lost
and I knew not how I'd gotten here

Didn't I once walk the bright streets
of a mighty city?
Hadn't I once traveled on paved roads,
companioned by other travelers?
was there once a destination for me?
how had I become lost in this dark, dank,
forest of fear?
oceans, beaches, tall buildings,
blue skies, friendly smiles-
were these demented dreams?
which is real?
which is sanity?
why can't I distinguish them any more?

(continued on part 2)


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EROSION OF SPIRIT

Mighty eagle 
light of heart 
full of love 
losing a feather a day 
earthly bound 

not allowed to move, 
make a sound 

paralyzing nothingness 
good heart withering 

too weak to break those 
mental and physical chains 

duty and honour 
hold this eagle 

not allowed to move, 
make a sound 

feathers falling,                                                                                                             
autumn coming 
stark winter calling 

soon no feathers to fly 
good heart dry 

what to do?to fly? 
gather and store glorious plumage 
for the time to come 

when mission is done 
to gather feathers so carefully stored 
in my secret place 

to leap out with movement and sound 
to soar sky bound 
with grace 

no physical release so joyous then being free 
and all because.....I began to see 


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EVEN part two

(contd from part one)

You know how much I loved you, how much I used to care,
Then you broke me right in half and left me standing there.
One day you just decided you had no need for a wife,
And without hesitation, you walked out on our life.

You left me with no money, you took all we ever had,
You said you never loved me, You told me you were bad.
You never wanted children, but for ten years you lied,
I wanted to be a mother, and that part of me has died.

You’re a murderer of dreams, a killer of the soul,
And you’ve made getting even, my one and only goal.
So here we are again my friend, with the tables turned,
Standing right inside the fire, and don’t yet know your burned.

Slowly I have stole it all, the money that you make,
I have set you up to fall with every step you take.
And when your down to nothing, with no place left to land,
You will see extended, one finger on my hand.

Oh, by the way, your secrets…yeah, everybody knows,
And as I tell your dirty deeds, my hatred only grows.
You’re not a good person, it’s about time the world can see,
The man that is behind the mask, the one that fu  kd with me.

I wish it didn’t go like this, I wish I still loved you,
I wish I could remember what it felt like to be true. 
Because I’m a different person, a whole lot less I feel,
And ever since you left me, nothing quite feels real.

I guess that’s how I survived, I focused on the score,
I had to get you back, and I had to get you more.
By now you must be worried,  is this poem true?
Is this just a story? or a statement straight to you?

You would not have found this, had it not been for me,
It’s not just a coincidence, these words that you see.
So yes, I have cheated, I have stolen and I have lied,
I really truly hate you, and wish you pain inside.

And now we shall part dear, only this time I’ll be leavin’……

That feeling in your heart…the pain…..that makes us even.






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HEART OF A STORM

Thunder tore apart the air... 
Shards of rock split... 
Lightning flashed across the sky 
The clouds ,all lit 
The wind ,howling by 

The black clouds scudded across, 
driven by the wind before them 
The lightning... 
Like an angry whip 
Cracked and burned 
Through the night 
Like a lover spurned 
Like a lover lost 

The rock split 
The air burned 
The lightning twisted and turned 
An angry light .. 
Flickered here 
Flickered there 
Like a lover spurned 

The lightning struck here 
The lightning struck there 
Shards of rock filled the air 
Monstrous black clouds passed through, 
in an angry heart too 
For, it burned... 
Like a lover spurned 

The black clouds 
Passed through 
Leaving a pale moon, 
whose light fell on me too 

All this in my heart too... 
all churned, 
where the lightning burned, 
through and through 
The angry light, 
Extinguished... 
Replaced by a pale moon, 
that fell on me 

The blood flowed 
Deep rich red, 
in a storm 
The lightning... 
The light that bled 
In a heart bestowed 

Storms abate.... 
The one in my heart 
Still aches.... 
With the storms I make 


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YOUR BROKEN FLOWER

Your unlockable heart 
I must try 
Find your golden key 
I must try you see 
I cannot let it lie 

Your broken flower 
Dreams gone sour 
The things you said before, 
feels so raw 

Ever get the feeling 
you are alone, 
thoughts reeling, 
whispered moan 

Your broken flower, 
each petal a thought 
Scattered trail 
to the ivory tower 
My heart caught 

Your broken flower, 
to mend 
Gather all your petals, 
you have the power, 
you have a friend 

Broken flower, 
all forlorn 
Leave these thorns, 
let us talk until dawn 

I have the golden key, 
to your ivory tower, 
to unlock your flower 

This golden key I dream, 
in delicate golden streams 
My love grows by the hour, 
to unlock broken flower 

For the key, 
bursts forth new petals, 
you see............. 
The colour you give to me 
richer than any precious metal 

This unlockable heart, 
broken flower 
Has a key, 
this key is me 
Each petal, 
more valuable than any precious metal 

The rich scent 
of your flower 
leaves me spent 
golden key 
that is me 
will heal 
the way you feel 


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TO THE SHORE

Pebbles tumble, 
to the shore, 
my thoughts tumble, 
my heart, 
sore 

My thoughts, 
my very core, 
are like driftwood, 
beaching gently on the shore 
Thes new things, 
what's it all for? 

Rush of noisy white surf, 
to the shore 
Thoughts churn, 
how things turn! 

Things I could 
Things I should, 
driftwood, 
to the shore 

White water on high tide, 
my thoughts,feelings, 
this driftwood i ride 

Drifting to the shore, 
it has purpose, 
for the things you see 
are not a curse 
for what can be. 
Live the day 
before it is taken away 

This pebbly beach, 
the values it can teach. 
The driftwood 
to the shore, 
brings it to the fore 

This blue sky burns me deep, 
inwards I weep, 
for I stumble 
to find, 
the words of a kind, 
to make me humble 

For the sea 
in it's tidal war, 
claims my heart sore. 
This driftwood 
and the thoughts held at bay 
washed away, 
as it should 

For I start a new day 
with new driftwood....... 
to the shore 



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TO THE SHORE

Pebbles tumble, 
to the shore, 
my thoughts tumble, 
my heart, 
sore 

My thoughts, 
my very core, 
are like driftwood, 
beaching gently on the shore 
Thes new things, 
what's it all for? 

Rush of noisy white surf, 
to the shore 
Thoughts churn, 
how things turn! 

Things I could 
Things I should, 
driftwood, 
to the shore 

White water on high tide, 
my thoughts,feelings, 
this driftwood i ride 

Drifting to the shore, 
it has purpose, 
for the things you see 
are not a curse 
for what can be. 
Live the day 
before it is taken away 

This pebbly beach, 
the values it can teach. 
The driftwood 
to the shore, 
brings it to the fore 

This blue sky burns me deep, 
inwards I weep, 
for I stumble 
to find, 
the words of a kind, 
to make me humble 

For the sea 
in it's tidal war, 
claims my heart sore. 
This driftwood 
and the thoughts held at bay 
washed away, 
as it should 

For I start a new day 
with new driftwood....... 
to the shore 


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REMEMBER ME

Remember me...
When I have gone
For, I have nothing left
Except a memory
 
Remember me...
When I smiled
Stay a while...
Life is so short
Passing by
 
Tears cannot be shed
Remember me...
Instead
 
You have to let me go
Remember me...
It will help you grow
 
One day...
We will see each other again
Never, will you see the pain
That I kept at bay
 
Remember me...
When I have gone
Gently into the night
Lifting into the light
 
Remember me...
In soft golden light
I travel on the wings,
of an angels' flight
 


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CRUSADE

I rest my hand, 
upon golden sand 

My glittering sword 
In faith, it has been forged 
for the cross of St George 

Jewelled  rapier and soft silk, 
the men I fight, 
is of that ilk 
They do not see the light 

This battle of idealogical will 
I have had my fill 
For, the paths ,so wide, 
a bitter divide 

For one side must fall, 
to end it all 
But the enemy never does rest, 
spreading it's poison, 
far in to the West 

For this crusade 
for St George 
We cannot fade, 
weapons to forge 
For we must rise, 
defend the faith and the wise 
Go to meet, 
sit at our gods feet 

Now this winged sword I fly 
deep in to the night 
Puts the enemy to flight 
They never give up the fight, 
for they try and try 

I sometimes wonder why 
when I rest my hand 
on soft golden sand 
I hear my heart cry 
That I have seen this all before 
in another time 
another war 

Our lessons never learned 
Our enemy never turned 
Our houses burned 
Our entreaties never returned 

For, if we must, 
send our ideological enemies, 
back to sand and dust 
This is not the only way 
but our enemies are eager for the fray 

My chain mail 
has become chain gun 
This battle,far from won 
We must not fail, 
for our time is not yet done 

I sometimes wonder why 
as I rest my hand , 
upon golden sand 
at this idealogical blunder 


For there are no winners, 
only the dead 
at the battle for the sinners 
Only war, 
No peace,no law 
The enemy will never be enticed 
in to the world of Christ 

I sometimes wonder why 
as I lay my hand 
on this golden sand 
Stifle a cry, 
Is this why we cannot rest 
in the battle between East and West