As a child, I didn't understand,
The love that fills my mother’s hand.
In a childhood world,
Everything is carefree,
Your eyes are wide open,
Yet you do not see.
In a motherhood world,
Things can get pretty insane,
Every day comes with joy and pain.
Teaching your child new things,
Dreaming of what tomorrow brings.
Leaving days of pig tales and nursery rhymes,
Loosing Seconds and minutes of these precious times.
Now, with children of my own,
Mother, your feelings are not alone.
Only now do I understand,
Feeling helpless to times demand.
Mother, I just didn't realize,
How I looked in your eyes.
33 years gone in a whirl,
Yet I know you still see your little girl.
I love you Mother.
More than you know.
I know it was hard letting me go.
My childhood life was wrapped up in you,
But my adult life holds something new.
Growing up so fast and free,
I felt your eyes always watching me,
I didn't have to worry,
Because I knew you'd be there.
Now my own children feel MY stare.
Never knowing that in my heart,
I feel the sadness awaiting their future depart.
For one day, I will have to say good bye,
Just as you did with my sisters and I.
But with this sadness, there is happiness too,
For they will always need me,
Just as I will always need you.
My childhood is over but my need for you will never end,
You are a Mother, Grandmother, Guide and Friend.
As life is created from her womb
Bountiful preparation is needed
Charisma, duty, and love
Develop the best care offered
Ecstatic for recording memorabilia
For such experiences occur only once
Given the opportunity to successfully grow
Home redefines as “elsewhere besides the abode”
Ill from separation
Joy still remains in the love connection
Kept in touch through messages of endearment
Life becomes more heartwarming
Mothers nurture endless dreams
*Since Mother's day is nearby, this poem is for all of the caring and devoted mothers out there!:)
My moms the best, no one can compare.
She has her faults, but who the hell cares!
She cooks delicious food, and to die for desserts.
She will even know what to do when your tummy hurts.
I know her favorite color is pink, but she also like orange.
Gosh! I Love Her To Death! Do You Wanna Know More?!
Her favorite flower is a daisy.
Her favorite person is her granny.
Her favorite animal? Yup, a frog.
Her favorite horror movie? That would be Saw.
She always needs water in a glass cup.
And you know when your done with that, you'd better clean it up.
Your always there when I need you in my hard parts.
Thank you for all you have done, I appreciate every single part.
Ill always need my mommy no matter what.
Cause ill love you forever, ill love you for always. as long as im living, my mommy you'll be.
you think I got listen to you,
you just my kids father,
there noting between me and you,
it seem the words take you back to court is your favorite words,
get this Sheena Shenia Jackson isn't scare of no court system or even you,
its just a word that is there,
so if you ask me you just things to make women scared im not scare of you like I use to,
I have became stronger and wiser,
I have the Lord behind me,
I believe in him very strong,
so if you want to bring me back to court lets do this now,
you are just a man that God put on this earth,
and I fear no man, no woman and no body,
I am a King child forever,
by : Sheena Shenia Jackson
May 23, 2013
Just a day
“Good Night Mom and Dad” I said before I went to bed. “We love you” they said as they closed the door
Mom comes in and wakes me up “Time to go to school” as my feet hit the floor
I got dressed and ate breakfast and got my book bag and now we are on the go
We sit in the car listening to music “It’s Friday I think I’m a little excited tho
“Alright baby we here” as mom open the door to let me get out
She closed the door and kissed me on the head told me she loved me before she pulled off
Another day of school and it close to Christmas
I can’t wait to see Ashley and Alexus, today is show and tell as I said in a whisper
We had learning center day and Boy! Was it fun!
Today was a free day and on Friday there isn’t much to learn
The room was quite when the was a knock at the door, the door opened
A man with a big gun was standing there; my classmates panicked and started to run
I heard a lot of noises and a lot of screams
I felt a sharp pain in my back as I dropped to my knees
In the distant I heard more screams and then everything went silent
Then I closed my eyes it went dark and on the cold floor I was dying
The other side
It’s Thursday night and off to bed we go
I kiss my 5 year old son Jaden and told him I loved him so
Alarm clock goes off and it’s around 6:15 in the morning
I shower got dress and woke up Jaden my little darling
Its Friday, I fixed him breakfast and we headed out for the this last day until the weekend
I enjoyed our little drives to school as we sat in the car singing
I opened the door to let him out once more
Kissed him on the head and told him I loved him ill pick him up around four
I’m at work drinking coffee just talked to my husband on the phone
Got at my desk started to work and the my office phone rung
It’s about 9:30 and it was Jaden’s school
I got the news he was dead and I started to puke
I’m crying uncontrollably don’t know my next move
My son is dead, I can’t believe this news
I hurried to the school in the best of my ability
I saw the school surrounded by medics, reporters, and police
I ran to a officer and demanded to see my son
He said “I’m sorry ma’am” I can’t do this at this time
At 9:32 my one and only son Jaden was pronounced dead
The shooter was 20 and took my son’s life in his own hands
The questions continue to flow through my head as I search for answers
I don’t need answers I need my son and his laughter
I am now sitting on his bed trying to swallow tears
My husband holds me close as reality nears
My little boy is gone among the other 19 kids
Heaven has 20 new angels now I hope he knew how much I love him as much as I did
(To the innocent lives that were lost in the Sandy Hook Elementary shooting)
What does a normal teen do? What does a normal teen think?
I really do not no. yes I am a teen but when I was 15 ½ I thought about how to take care of my mom if she needed to be changed and when to feed her and when to give her medication. I worried about what would happen to my mom. I had to go shopping for toddler cloths for my little sister and brother. I am 17 now and I still go shopping for little children cloths. I worry about getting my homework done and getting my little brother and sister’s homework done. This year I have to take the kids to kinder garden and I will be in 12th grade. I always worry about what’s going to happen to my mom she is still sick but there’s nothing I can do just keep her in my heart and prayers. I worry about what I will do when its time for me to go to college I will still be taking care of my brother and sister. There’s a lot to do I worry all the time about money things being washed and cleaning and homework. My dad does a lot for me and my sisters and brothers I just wish my big sisters would have stepped up and helped my dad take care me and my little sister and brother but they didn’t now i am trying to do all the things my mom did. It is a lot of work mothers have to do. I thought it was easy but now that I have to do it all I can say mothers are what keeps a family in order. Thanks to all the moms out there. If you have moms don’t take her for granted because you never know what will happen to them.
HEAR ME ALL YE THAT SEE
HEAR MY PLEA AND FROM ME, DO NOT FLEE.
CALAMITY HAS STRUCK AND NOW, I AM STUCK.
I FEEL LIKE DYING TO END ALL THIS CRYING
BUT I AM TRYING TO BE FINE BECAUSE I KNOW THAT ONE DAY,WE ALL HAVE TO DIE.
SO I WILL NOT CRY
BUT I WILL LOOK UP HIGH TO THE SKY AND TRY TO ASK WHY.
WHY DEATH OF ALL LIFE ON EARTH, TOOK BREATH FROM MY MOTHER.
NOW I HAVE NO OTHER.
I AM FILLED WITH STRIFE AND EVERY TIME I LOOK AT A KNIFE,
I FEEL LIKE TAKING MY LIFE.
INDEED, LOSING A LOVED ONE IS HARD.
IT MAKES YOU SAD AND FEEL VERY BAD.
NO WONDER OTHER'S GO MAD AND ARE NEVER GLAD.
I FEEL THE PAIN BUT THEN, "GOD GIVES.... GOD TAKES AWAY.....REJOICE ALWAYS"
SO SHOULD I REJOICE NOW THAT SHE IS GONE OR SHOULD I CRY?
I love you mom and dad
I Love what you do for me
I love that you adopted me and took me in
I love Playing with your hair
I love your personality
Mama I love you so much you mean a lot to me
I love that you took me in as a daughter
I love joking around with you
I love your personality
I love you so much daddy you mean alot
when i was at my range to be a baby .
i was under in every one's arm .
but , first i was in my mom's hand .
late night i think . how much pain she had to take to keep me calm when i was a baby .
how much love she use to give me when i was a baby .
and not also when i am at my age now she give me a lot of love
when my growth changed .
she settled me in everyone's heart .
she started to teach me what i didn't know .
the proper way to behave with an elder and a younger too.
her life was nothing besides me .
her work was to be with her tears for me .
she had a daily routine to cook to wash to teach me to behave good
she says that , my child is only my life . nothing else .
but , she had to bear all the problems though even she had her mother .
spending her all time on us .
spending her goods on us.
exactly she says , i am illiterate . but you do out what i haven't done in my life ,
you shine the world ,
what i have not
you go ahead and be your good life .
these of her words touch us ..
and late night i thought , i was the lovingly daughter and will be ahead .
when my life is still there or nothing ..
A letter to my mom if she could read it.
I am sorry for the times I would not listen to you and would talk back.
I loved all the times we spent together. We had so much fun together you were a great mom and you were my best friend. Some days I ask god why he let you get so sick but I realize its not gods fault that you’re sick it’s just life and some times bad things happen. Know one knows why it happened but it happened for a reason. Things happen and know one knows why it does we just have to deal with it. I miss you mom a lot some times I cry at night because I miss you so much. I just wish you could come home. It hurts to see you so sick I wish it could all go away. Hope one day you come home I all ways try to go see you at the hospital at least twice a week. Mom I am really sorry how I wouldn’t listen and I talked back. I wish we could turn back time and you wouldn’t be sick. I cry just by writing this letter to you. I just can’t believe you might not be able to ever come home. You won’t be able to see me go to prom or get married if I ever do. Mom I just want you home but that won’t happen you’re to sick and I hope a miracle happens and you get better and come home. Some days I feel like I cant make it through the day but I just remember your spirit and love will all ways be with me every day and you’re always in my heart. I all ways cry when I think about you. When you were sick I dyed my hair purple, blue, hot pink, red, and aqua. People still make fun of me and say I am weird but it’s ok. There is so much things I want to say but I don’t know how to just know I am sorry for how I treated you. I MISS YOU MOM AND LOVE YOU!!
There's something i have to say...
I know you wont listen...
Iv'e seen you get drunk and feel so high,
Iv'e seen you angry and all so,
Your alcohol is all you can see...
Can't you see...
That your smothering me?
Once i find comfort in the arm's of a friend...
You always come along and then...
Then when you leave,
I'm all alone...
I break down and cry,
Wishing you'd cut it out...
If only you could hear the sobbing i do...
If only you could see the pain i'm going threw.
I can't look at you anymore!!!
My mind and heart have had enough
My body is stressing...
So now it's my turn.
What iv'e grown to be.
Hear the agonizing screams of my painful mind...
See you weren't only hurting yourself.
When you gave in...
You were also hurting me!!!!!!!!!
Hi mommy. I'm glad you're clean
Or at least that's what it seems
Daddy called me
You send him and email
It had a picture
In that picture is what killed him
Fear bled through his every limb
Jazzys picture in the back
His soul went black
How could you do this
I thought it was all bliss
You let it control again
I'm in shame
People in and out
They make me want to shout
My scars are from you
It doesn't matter
I'm just her
Mommy i want daddy
And he should have let you take the blame
Cause i knew it was going to be the same
Mama, why am I so alone,
I cant go outside,
Im scared I might not make it home.
But Im sinking.
Ive been here before and I deserve
a little more .
Why are they lying?
When I think of heaven ,
I think of dying.
Please help me ...
Help me believe in me,
I want to be someone who believes.
Mama , cant you see?
A child is born in time of war
Neglect of love to grow
A child is born to live by strength
And tough for her to show
To show a side is sometimes kept
In behind her heart
Like missing out on things not given
A chance to be a part
A part of her development
To show her gift to dance
Tap away on stage perform
For her there was no chance
Down the chain but not for her
She passed on to her girls
Dressed them up of costumes made
Of sequins, lace and pearls
From child of beauty, adult same
Raised three girls to heights
Taught us self respect and worth
Much the same our rights
The lesson learnt to care for all
Explained just like no other
In her eyes I've seen it said
To me this is my mother
A breath I take to write this poem
Coz in my gloom be near
And rush upon my place she does
To help remove my fear
Above my bed my black cloud fog
mum here close and giving
Help me fade away the pain
To love in her is living
They say that little boys are made of shells and snails and puppy dog tails.
They say that little girls are made of sugar and spice and everything nice.
BUT WHAT ARE MOMS MADE OF?
Moms are made of thunder. As her voice booms to say,"Stay out of the cookie
Moms are stronger than superman. When you want that peanut butter jar open.
But most of all moms are soft and full of tears.
When you hand her flowers and say," I LOVE YOU MOM!!"
Oh, how I’d like to forget, walkin in with you on the bed.
You appeared to me as though you were asleep,
But little did I know you were already deceased.
Never seen you the night before, was scared I’d get beat,
to avoid you yelling at me, and trying to keep the peace.
I wish I could forget those memories,
They're burned in my brain and still in my dreams.
If I could have just one wish for me,
I'd wish for just one day that you could be here with me.
Even though according to you I was a disappointment,
I wonder if I was also your regret.
I always let you down, everything was my fault,
I said and meant that I was sorry, and yet it never stopped.
If only... If only... I could rewire my brain,
And forget all the memories that cause me pain.
Because of you I have this fear,
I want to be angry but I end up scared.
Apart of me always wanted to say “F-off,”
Even though I love you and miss you a lot.
When you died I never had the chance to stand up to you to say things I needed to say,
I still have a lot of pent up anger and pain.
And this bottle inside me is about to break.
How dare you leave us when you did!
Did you know that it was going to happen?
Why did you keep so many secrets from dad and me?
Why this way, did it have to be?
I want to be angry.... but I just cant,
You made me stronger, yet gave me half a chance.
No more.... Fore I'll get carried away,
So at peace... I hope you are and will stay.
As morning shine
Your heart is honey
As the orangey
Sun u make
The dark Vanish
In the heart
As the mind
Through your heart
I watch from the side line as you walk for the very first time. Tears strolling down my face,
wishing that I could be there watching you. I long to hold you in my arms and never let you
go. It's hard knowing that someone else is raising you, when I am your birth mother. As I
see your sweet little face with a smile so wide that I want to just pick you up and hold you
close. I hear the word moma come out of your mouth and I ache inside. I know that I gave
you up so that you could have a better life, but it still hurts to wake up and know that you are
gone. I love you baby girls and I know that one day mom will be able to see the both of you.
I watch from the side lines as the two of you grow up to be the princesses that you are. I
long to be the one waking up with you in the middle of the night when you're sick or have
had a bad dream. I know it just can't be though. Mom is only 18 and she needs to get her life
together. So I watch from the side line hoping and praying that one day you will understand.
Understand why I gave the two of you up to have a better life then I could have gave you. I
love you Aaliyah and Kierra.
Dear mamma i promise to make you proud
i promise to take your advice to heed
as you lie in the grave i will never forget you
mama you are the best mom i could ever want
you have been there for me feed me milk
put clothes on my back took time to love me
you are a true mother
you done what a good mom would
i hate the fact that you are gone
never to return
you will always hold a special place in my heart
many a tears have i shed now that momma is dead
it feels like the weight of the world on my chest
dear mama i love and miss you you are the best
How can you keep this up,when all you do is keep messing up.
Promise after promise you make,but they all seem to break.
You want me to believe you but how can I when everything you say is fake.
Take another drink or another pill,just so you can get the fill,forget your kids and how they feel.
Crying every night asking where you are tonight
I don't like what you keep doing,it's
hurting my feelings.
I want the old mom back, the one that didn't have to put on an act.
The one that didn't have to tell a lie every time.
The one that didn't make the twins cry every time you'd say goodbye.
All I'm asking is for the old mom back ,is that asking to much from me?
I just want you to see your not only hurting me.
I love you mom but I'm taking a stand,I'm tired of all the misunderstands.
I just want the old mom back, I hope you understand.
please don't go mom, please don't go
i need you around, this much i know
you gave us birth, but you get up and leave
ealy anything you say anymore i can't beleive
we scared and youleft our side
so you can do what ever, and from us you hide
please mom please mom please don't go away
well i guy we will just wait for you in this box for just a few more days
WHEN I GOT STABBED
The blade went through my flesh like a knife through melting butter.
Thoughts ran through my head as I bled out, like no more will I see my mother
Anger and rage streamed through my veins so I didnt feel the pain.
Im on my way to my car and get into the passenger seat.
My girlfriend Sareina runs to the other side, I hear the thud of her feet.
Getting into my car was quite a task, it was lower and
close to the ground.
Time seems to freeze as my are starts to throb and my head
begins to pound.
I hear the car turn over and roars to life, as I sit there and
mine drains out.
As were driving I look around me and see the crimson splatters
I hear my mom on the phone asking my big brother Rikki
whats the matter.
He hears the trembling in her voice and doesnt know what to say .
He said mom Evin got stabbed but dont worry he'll be okay.
Sareina swerves through traffic trying not to crash.
I lift my blood soaked shirt and remove it from the gash,
She sees the slice in my wrist, panice and begins to scream.
At the time it didnt seem real, like a fable or some bad dream.
She pushes the pedal to the floor, the engine gets louder and louder.
Already in motion the car lunges forward releasing all its power,
My fingers go numb and my hand beging to follow.
Sitting there in a pool of blood its getting harder to swallow
we make it to the hospital, skidding in front of the door.
I open my attempt to get out, but almost fall to the floor.
Rikki and Sareina help me as I stumble into the lobby.
My blood soaked cloths send velvet liquid dripping down my body.
As I stand there among the rukus and comotion,
My mind seems to fade away no worries or emotions.
I woke up in the back on a table I hear singing,
A womans soft angelic voice this cant be real I must be dreaming
Extreme amounts of pain let me know that this is real
the singing nurse says welcome back with a smile like it was no big deal.
We cant get the bleeding to stop so we had to give you more
I hear sobbing so I turn my head and try to focus on the door,
the crying was coming from my mom who was sitting by my side.
The doctors tell her that theres a problem and were going for a ride,
we dont have surgeons here to help you.
Sounding hopelss and exhausted she sighed, we've done all we can do.
We're sending you to Portland, they'll make you good as new.
Falling in and out of consciousness, we reach our destination.
On the verge of giving up hearing family say stay strong, gives me motivation.
Getting rushed off the ambulance and seeing my loved ones tears
made me feel more strength, but striked some sudden fear.
Like will I make is through the day to see them smile again,
Or is this my time to go will this be my end.
Later I awoke to see everyones relieved and anxious smile,
I asked how long I've been out it seemed like quite a while.
My mom said you've been under for a couple days,
you've had two surgeries but dont worry both of them went okay.
I closed my eyes and smiled to myself I'm thankful the angles heard me pray.
By Evin cruz
I just wanted to take the time
To thank you for all you do,
Through the up's and down's
The hard time's you've helped us through
You have helped me in way's,
You'll never know.
The void in me you have filled
Something's i was missing in my life
Some of the values that you instilled
Your's was the voice of reason
When i would have sworn i was right.
No matter how i fought it
You have helped me to see the light
You're just like the northern stars
A beacon when i feel lost
A strong shoulder we have leaned on
No matter what the cost
You stepped up and made me feel
Like one of your own
I know you didn't have to
And because of that i have grown
You gave more than you had to
And i can't thank you enough
So thank you for just being there
When life feed's so tough.
Ode to the mother who is so kind
who’s beauty and gospel light always shine.
The mother that I love so dear always does the wash
The mother that I love so dears loves the kitchen store called Bosch.
Mother, I don’t know if you remember the time you once told me,
that I would always be your baby as long as you were taller;
Believe me Mom that is not quiet fair you always knew I would be smaller.
I never told you how brave and strong you are to me.
Mother I first noticed your strength when grandma left this earth
I know how much it hurt you,
I know how much you cried.
The sorrow that burdened your heart always burdened mine
But the thing that I remember most was how I felt inside
I’d thought that I had lost her forever,
Mom, I thought life would never be the same.
But then I looked into your eyes and that’s were I lost my pain.
I knew she wasn’t lost because her and you are the same, as long
as you’re my Mommy and forever with me you remain.
I hope one day Mother that I shine the way you do,
with the glory of God inside you and a little bit of grandma too.
Your beauty is more than outward appearance, it’s what’s on the inside I love.
You always put up with me,
you always seem to care,
So Mother I know I’m not perfect
and I can be a grouch,
But I know that you love me, and that’s what really counts.
I don’t know why you chose me, but I know why I chose you
Because God believed that you would lead me back to him and would keep me
close to you.
I could not be more proud of the mother you are to me.
So thank you Mom for being the mother I want to be, I hope one day you will know
how much you will always mean to me.
Daddy, mommy, sorry
For all I've cause you bad,
Forgive me for the things I've done
The times I got you mad.
I have not meant to hurt you on
Dispoint your dreams,
But sometimes when it all looks bad
its better than it seems..I know
I've let you both down
So many times before,
But now it's time to dry your eyes
I'll see your pain no more.
I don't expect you'd let me
Or even say good-bye,
So remember this is all for you
For your happiness I die.