It's filled with pain
My mind is stained
Stained with every memory
Sometimes I think today will be my last day
This place causes me so much pain
I wish I didn't have to stay
Some days are worse than others
Dying for food
I'd do anything
To many things go through my head
Will I be able to keep down my next meal?
Will I live for tomorrow?
Is this terrifying place even real?
I feel so alone
Yet I'm surrounded by people
But this place could not be called a home
There's no life in these places
Or in these faces
Everyone looks dead
As so do I
Most of us haven't been fed
My eyes have been marked
With these dead bodies that lay upon the ground
Without a soul I still look at them
Soon I may be found
As one of them
You have my soul, but you have your fate
Whatever your words, I’m willing to take
You have my word; I’ll give you my breath
It’s like a chain that would never be break
You are my love with all my heart,
I’ll fight for you with all my might.
And in the way, you admire your goals,
You hold my hands, but not so close.
As you go to your chosen path,
I’ll accept the fact that we will be apart.
In the dark side, I leave behind
Within my faith, that you’ll arise
Please don’t look back, coz I’m fighting still
I’m hurting so much! Don’t want to have you near
I accept my fate for what it does,
I’m bleeding so much, do you know for whom it was?
You reach your goals, as you want to have,
Would you remind the man that gave what he had?
As you reach the stars, and be the one
Be a sun that shines its own.
After the rain, the rainbow comes,
Like dark in the moon, when the light flash
A glimpse from you at least a short
For then I knew my pain is worth.
You were taken to soon.
Ripped away from us.
You knew it was our final goodbye.
But the truth was hidden.
With a tear in your eye,
There was one last goodnight hug.
I wiped away the tear,
Then smiled and walked away.
By the time of the morning light
It was already too late.
You were gone and to a better place.
Never knew of your acknowledged your pain.
Of your suffering
Sometimes I wonder,
"If I only cared more
Would you still be here?
If I only hurt less,
Would you still be here?"
I'd deny it if I could.
But inside we both know,
I am the reason
You went away.
Those who kill innocents are cruel,
Their bodies will always be hell’s fuel,
Islam teaches about honor and dignity,
Care and love for the whole humanity,
But black sheeps are found everywhere,
Like KKK or Taliban, “Be aware”,
They do things on their own,
Their very own people, they disown.
All rights are reserved. Syed Imon Rizvi
From a book "Outspoken" - 2012
Available at www.amazon.com
The Roses are dripping red
The violets are fading to gray
Tell me something to make me stay
Or just forget about me and walk away
I want to drown my urge to die
I want to kill my pulse inside
I can't breathe, I'm paranoid
Everything in life I avoid
Don't speak to me, I'll look away
Inside my eyes is just decay
I'm already dead, but have yet to die
Why do I keep my body alive
My soul is dead, eyes are lies
So is the smile I hide behind
Pull the plug, I'm a fake
In a nightmare and I cannot wake
Drown me! I'm flooded in pain
Please help me regain
Some peace, some rest
I want to die to live again
Set me free
Slitting my wrists isn't working
The more stares I get
The more I become numb
I just need to be gone
Eliminate my pain,
I'm already out of breath
Suffocating on my hopelessness
Every day I am alive
But I'm craving to die inside
Curved smile because your so naive
You think I'm happy
Yet I'm being crushed
My head is overflowing
With these thoughts that are too much
One word, suicide
Sparks a light inside of my eyes
I don't want to pretend to live
Let me go, flood me in sin
There is where I want to swim
Six feet under the ground
Don't be selfish
And keep me in pain
To tourture my lifeless body again
Let my body float soundly
Rushing water, ocean salt
I promise I won't feel it at all.
End it, hold me under
Then bury me so I can slumber
Goodbye lifeless eyes
As I'm dying I'll be coming alive
Deleted from my mind
As I leave this world behind
Floods my lungs
Leans in for a kiss
Together we sink into insanity
And drown in infinitys abyss.
Tell me UN ,
Will you win this war ?
Will you bring cruelty to gallows ?
Yes I see you daily here
Striving round the clock like trojan
Left and right like pendulum
Ups and downs like leaf-cutters
Building army, building bridges
Pacing faster on trick’s ladder;
Oh fear ; cruelty is gargantuan.
Its instinct is domination ,
That is its mission and goal;
Like phoenix is its soul
And like elixir is its spirit.
Storms it gathers daily
The brutish it breeds like ants
Making hell of every metre
That I wonder United Nations;
From where will you strike,
From side will you approach;
To bring brutality its knee.
The day mother bought a hen
And let it loose for airing a bit
No sooner it met the brutish
Than domination defeathered its head
With their vampire’s aching-pecks.
Oh the day of armageddon;
When green were shredded like okra,
And the gray like potato chips;
Every foot wore sock of red ;
So an aged man sermonised :
Brutish world , young as the day is ,
Lions have made morsel of antelopes.
Who shall tame the lions ?
Who shall save the necks of antelopes ?
Tell me UN, will you win this war ?
Will you bring cruelty to gallows ?
Will you tame the lions and cage the peckers ?
The lions roar everywhere and there now
The noise becoming louder and deafening
Worldly peace growing mucus , tell me,
Now be eloquent; will you win this war
Or we start building temples for terrors ?
I need a fix; euphoric mix
To chase away my thoughts
I fear my Heart is made of Bricks
While my Mind just sits and rots
Have my fits and slit my wrists-
Beat myself with fearsome fists!
Tip the scales, the balance shifts,
Then I wonder, "Does Love exist?"
Sadness roars through my blood
rushing with this unjust
an eye for an eye
regrettably a must
on and on it goes
a winding circular track
hurting to avenge again
til there's no turning back
praying for this justice
soul screams for release
beast howls at your deception
traps that shall not cease
revenge is sweet but for a moment
eventually all involved must pay
sins passed down to sons and daughters
innocent harmed along the way
Does this make you feel good
are you satisfied
shall we continue this horror
until someone accidentally dies
is your revenge worth all that much
you have always had control
your words have a power
may this stain forever taint your soul
words they are so powerful
from your fragile throat
did you issue a peep
thought you were stronger
proof now exists
forevermore ye shall be weak
Wonder as you sit there
thinking poor pitiful me...
if someone would have died
would you think
the end is coming now dear
do you feel the dragons flames
hissing with exacting justice
from playing this silly game
Reap what you have sown
in your self-righteous act
Play innocent sweet coward
Retribution we shall extract
Still wish you well after
for sadness fills my soul
for you see revenge is not sweet
it has an expensive toll