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Details | Couplet | |

A Failed Marriage

My shallow waters have failed to hide the deeper agony pulsating inside. I could forgive your lies but not forget. Do you have remorse, do you feel regret? Feelings were buried in a shallow grave as we failed to mend the love God gave. You failed to speak and I failed to listen, Fingers are pale where golden bands once glistened. Broken hearts called to each other refusing to bend. Not so long ago, I called you my best friend. Now, I'm left to grieve my failed marriage. The love we shared, your words disparaged. I could forgive your lies but not forget. Where is your remorse or display of regret? I can no longer burden myself with this shame. Standing tall, I have given my sorrow a name. I struggled to save our once happy home, but you chipped it away when you decided to roam. So goodbye I shout to you and to failure! Moving forward, your love is no longer my cure. My life is becoming a new adventure, and memories of your face are becoming a blur. Yes, I could have forgiven your lies, tried to forget, if your heart felt remorse or just a little regret. * a work of fiction For Nailed or Failed Contest (Black Eyed Susan)


Details | Dizain | |

Prolonged Exposure

I’ve covered the mirrors in our house
With colored sheets, while choking on grief
Black, blue, and green, to my bewildered spouse
Who has wondered what has become of me
And why suddenly I’ve begun mourning

He thinks that I’m a reflection of him
So he doesn’t notice the wounds within
The marring of my spirit’s complexion
Permanent, from his reoccurring sins
That have shaped me into his perfection

My face is clear so you would never guess
That person staring back isn’t me
Mirrors can’t show underlying distress
Only the lie he wants others to see
Not the despair slowly growing, steeping

Don’t look bewildered at my draping sheets
If you look, the nude is there, underneath
Reflecting the lie that it has become
Prolonged exposure to fisting complete
Now mourning the death of someone it loved


5/8-5/9/12
For "Your Birthday Suit" Contest


Details | Verse | |

Secretly Obsessed

Obsessed with the thought of you
wondering if it's only me or
if you sometimes remember the sweet things you've said
and if you meant them how I took them
or if I'm just obsessed with what's in your head

Obsessed with your very sentences
Every response I take personal
I know it's selfishness
Have you not noticed my eyes?
They hold secrets that only you can unlock
if you'd just take time to fill the thick juices of my pride
It's just boiling with lust, passion, trust and distrust
and other things I obsess over so much

I find myself writing to free myself from this prison I've created
where only you and I reside
I become confused about what I'm really feeling inside and I 
try to rid the thoughts that are highly debated as false and I
begin to cry and
think of casting love spells so that the universe can deliver this affair
I know it's unfair
but I don't care

I'm obsessed with what hasn't happened between us
I'm obsessed with your heart and that the fact that 
I don't think you've even noticed my selfish innuendos 
and secret undertones that blatantly express my lust
Or maybe you have and you calmly remain in resistance of distrust 
If you could only read my mind by simply touching my fingertips,
I'm sure I'd catch you out the corner of my eye biting your bottom lip
I'm obsessed with the passion and thoughts I think you have
Obsessing over an experience that I may never have....






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Have You Been Hurt By Religion

Have You Been Hurt By “Religion”?

Are you tired of “religious people”
 knocking at your door?
You wish they’d leave...  “You can’t take it anymore!”

Have you been hurt by “church people” sometime in the past?
Somehow they hurt you...  And the pain continues to last…

Have you been “wounded” by something
 somebody has said?
Perhaps you wonder if “they wish you were dead…”

Perhaps there’s someone that you 
may have “befriended…”
They have done something that
 has hurt you and “offended.”

There’s probably many people that you wish would “go away.”
Because of something they’ve 
done to “darken your day.”

I’ve been there many times…  Believe me I know.
How someone’s actions or words can hurt your soul.

Even those who go to church are 
often not very kind.
And they don’t hesitate to 
give you “a piece of their mind.”

Religion is not the answer.  Look to Jesus 
and the life he gives!
He alone has the power to love
 and completely forgive!

It’s only in his shed blood that you can find atonement.
He can change your life now!  This very moment!

He can heal your broken heart and wounded spirit.
An everlasting joy and love...  He freely gives it!

He can do what no “church” or “religion” could ever do
He can restore your life today.  
And make you BRAND NEW!!!

By Jim Pemberton


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How Can We Hurt The Ones We Love

How Can We Hurt The Ones We Love?

How can we hurt the very ones that we love?
How can we easily neglect our God above?

It seems like I often heard about many victims
Many times, it’s from a loved one who’s been with them!

The hate and the anger that boils from deep within.
Often “boils over” toward our family and friends.

It’s the love of Christ that we need to find!
His love can totally cleanse our life and mind!

The hearts of many families are bruised and broken.
By the harshness of many of the words spoken.

If we would allow Jesus to rule and reign.
We’d have little reason to murmur or complain.

If we would yield our lives to the master’s will…
The emptiness and brokenness, he shall fulfill!

If we could allow ourselves to sit at Jesus’ feet…
He can make any family totally complete!

If we could just listen to what Christ has to say.
His words of life would brighten our day!

As a family…  Won’t you give HIM a chance?
And allow his love to change your circumstance!

Won’t you allow his spirit to bind you together?
You can experience his peace today and forever!

He can change your family throughout!
This is his will and what God is all about!

By Jim Pemberton


Details | Free verse | |

Nightmare

Rest is a requirement,
for all,
in order to have this,
sleep is a must,
after a day’s of hard work,
wherein sleep is a must,
for all,
to freshen up the next day,
though the mind goes to sleep,
and the body follows suit,
the subconscious mind awakens,
and in lie,
a number of dreams,
awaiting you,
the dream,
that always reigns in my mind,
is the death of my wife, 
not once,
but more than a couple of times,
why does this dream,
often arise in my mind,
is the answer I seek,
is it because of the love we have towards one another,
or is it the compassion for each other,
or is it in relation of serving one another, 
or is it a kind of warning,
a warning to take care in the future, 
some people may call this as the sixth sense,
while I call this a nightmare,
as nightmares are really scary,
yes, nightmares are quite scary indeed, 
if you do agree with me or not!!

From:-Mr.Manu Nair (dated 19th November, 2012)


Details | Rhyme | |

For Laura

For Laura

She suffered in silence from the years of abuse
If not for the violence she felt of no use
She denied that her soul was addicted to pain
Inside she felt cold so her blue eyes would rain
She had beautiful dreams somewhere in her youth
Of being a queen then she discovered the truth
That love can go wrong if left up to a man
It will not be strong if it’s not part of God’s plan
Hope painted a picture with colors of laughter
Of missus and mister happily ever after
When he used to kiss her it encouraged her faith
The times he would hit her she didn’t feel safe
Through all the trouble she had time to conceive
Despite the struggle she just couldn’t leave
She knew in her heart things would only get worse
She accepted the dark blaming God for the curse
If not for her kids she’d give it all back
Thinking time won’t forgive what’s been done in the past
I wish I knew her before she was broken by man
To give these words to her so she’d understand
That a woman’s heart has one unique chance
She must use all her smarts when choosing a man
Not all of us can wear shiny armor
Some men you can’t trust they’d only harm her
But not to give up time can be a friend
You may have the Lord’s luck the next corner you bend
There is time for love you are still that queen
Ask the Father above and you’ll see what I mean
The beauty with in you will never fade
God has always been with you; He’s never delayed
I must remind you; you are His greatest gift
Don’t look behind and the pain won’t exist


Details | I do not know? | |

Today Is Terrible----

The cracked spine of
the book I dropped
at the call.
A chip in my
windshield left by a
pompous *?#@! in a
red sports car as I
drive to the
service.
Rain expectorating
from an ashen sky as
the dirt is turned.
Today is terrible.
Though this is less
terrible than the
crack in grandma’s
spine from her fall
down the stairs.
The chip in her
amazingly smart mind
after eighteen years
as a teacher.
Tears running,
dripping from my
Mothers ashen face
as she cries “My
mama’s dead.”
Today is terrible.
Though this is less
terrible than the
cracked family
emotions left raw
and empty.
The chip in Grandpas
numb mind at the
gathering… “Where is
Irene she should be
here?”
Faces gone ashen
with dread, do we
leave him numb or
remind him that his
wife is dead?
Today is terrible.
Though this is less
terrible than the
empty silences,
missing the jokes
Grandma used to
crack.
Grandma’s laugh and
her endless smile
which always exposed
that tooth with the
chip in it.
Without her the
world has become
empty, bleak, and
ashen.
Today is terrible.

                   
                   
                   
          Summer
Gratias


Details | Free verse | |

Elevators: 5 Horsemen

Part 1

Onion

the delicacy of friendship

I found you in the flowers
Standing tall we become one
Looking down from gangly towers
Squash, you burn, you pillage, son.

Follow me you say in tongues
Thy shallow mind reveal me tell
Whisper lies clean load the guns
I feel the burn I rot in hell

Friend folly menacing the liar
I loathe this coffin how it leaks
Dear foe you raped me set on fire
The onion peal itself and weeps

Part 2

Traitor

dear monkey boy

Older eyes eat themselves,
glance and kill the other
Unified in the dance,
they steer the musty rudder.

Pained and sweeter deeper wells,
poised buckets drunk with water.
Singled out the one that dried,
handed weights to pull him under.

Wiser times capture the mind,
death justifies dishonor.
Knife slice neat through the devil's back,
who stares blank and milks the udder.

Part 3

Tempest

patron saint

Inside this box
Goodbye tempestuous fall
My puppet of steel coiled thread
Smashed buttons and twisted dread,
Alarm these doors, and
Escape this delusive bunker bed

Stamp the spiders
Thief, vulture of the deflection
The mocking patron of the sinners
Erase this affliction
Relating inward at the reflection

Rise you fool

Part 4

Phoenix

i love you

close the grip
cinched hematic grip
drenched, clawing
seeking the sheave
becoming the counterweight

i absorb, now
extracting the heat
rise like a phoenix
away to be gone to be free
fix me! i have fixed me

i am alive and i love you

Part 5

Aye, Damager

Abolish her state of disrepair
Scattered, spattered drippy thoughts
All around this box of soused leaves
Soak, ferment in the faith of our love

I can't fix this, you know
I loathe this misunderstanding
Of what I am speaking, projecting
To me, Aye Damager, to you

This devil in me
turned and twisted
A wrecked elevator in rejection
Years locked painfully aware

...


Details | Free verse | |

-Bittersweet-

I was naive to believe you'd always love me
Living in my dreams until you stabbed me with reality
Your dagger's still lodged in my heart
Every now and again, for your amusement
your words twist it ever so slowly
Tear's of blood trickle down my breast
Pain is unbearable, leaving me immobile and screwed
Turning my mind bitter and mean
You were nothing but a dream
A fantasy that I thought I could hold onto
For a split second, I let emotions take over
Spinning me in every direction
Should of awoken before my life had no meaning
With no one to love me, and no one that cared
We both know now I'll never be what you need.


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My Defense

I have a secret, I cannot let you know.
I’m sorry I lied; I DON’T want you to go.
Those cruel words, were not how I feel,
just a defense, to forget what was real.

Portraying I’m strong, with a will to thrive,
yet without you I’m lost, I don’t feel alive.
Words hurt worse, than punches thrown.
I’m out of control, in this viscous cyclone.

So many times, you let me off the hook,
for my malicious outbursts and nasty looks.
I’ve used my disease as an excuse to abuse.
Flying amidst this mania, recourse I refuse.

The patience you bear, is reflective enough,
as is your wisdom, still my heart is so rough.
I want to open up and bear my entire soul,
I’m afraid all you’ll see is a shallow, empty hole.

I know it was never you that gave up on us,
it was this woman you married, me in disgust.
If I could repair my mind and fix the wrongs,
I’d say you’re at home, where you belong.

But we both know the truth, I’m a lost cause.
I prey on your weaknesses and all your flaws.
I’ll take full responsibility for all that I am…….
And remember our love, was my biggest sham….


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Losing You

Liquid tears
fallen rain
down my face
emotional droplets
caressing skin
bittersweet hearts
cracked in half
drowning passions
in a sea of blue
floating away
stranded feelings
oceans streaming
soaking sand
dissolving dreams
crushing hope
into pieces
of losing you.


Details | Rhyme | |

HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON

You are a million  miles away
thinking of you I am today.

I want to write to tell you so,
although i'm sure you already know.

My body may be far away,
but my heart is what will always stay.

True love is very hard to find,
but you my dear, are one of a kind.

I've found a love so pure and  true,
loyal and honest , that is you.

I am proud to say we belong together,
no matter the distance, our love will not sever.

and when we're together again you'll see,
so happy, together, forever  we'll be!


Details | Free verse | |

Love, I Hate You

Love, I hate you, 
Not ‘cos you’re ugly.

Love, I hate you, 
Not ‘cos you don’t love me.

Love, I hate you,
‘Cos of your great love to me.

Love, I hate you, ‘cos of it; 
A listener, you don’t want to be.
.
You heeded not what I said, 
Even thou, I beg you, to “back off!”

“Now, Look!
You see… what we’ve done!?”

A soul is in grieve, 
‘Cos of us.

With your love, 
My soul cries, too.

Love, I hate you, 
For intoxicating me, with your potion.

Thou, you know…
I am a married man.



Details | Lyric | |

This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


Details | Alliteration | |

Cheater's Chair

A destructive dance indeed,
betwixt the two we bleed.
A bellowing, bloody abate,
this stale, seductive state.

Simple, senseless steeds,
jealous fires feed.
Perjuring petty plights,
demons do delight.

A crimson, cheaters chair,
awful angers air.
No trust, truth or taste,
wallowed wantons waste.

Envious, eager eyes,
rejoicing a wrathful rise.
Coveting, careless couth, 
yesteryear's eager  youth.


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Thoughts That Grow Louder

With a whispered thought comes a dream
To be above the shame and guilt
Of losing pride in what would seem,
To most, the whole of what we built.

With a quiet thought comes the fear,
And shadows close the doors of reason.
I see racing frames of pictures clear, 
Rendering unbearable deeds of treason.

With that clear thought, I stand corrected-
So much love has come and gone,
But I, alone, must stay connected 
To what I know and where I belong.


Details | Lyric | |

I Don't Love You Anymore

It happened one day
I never saw it coming
Oh maybe I did but I hid behind a numbing

I was wondering why she’d stayed home that day
With her busy schedule she should have been away
She sat down beside me at the table
Smiled and said let’s talk if you’re able

When I heard her words, I broke down and cried
That way she looked at me, my whole world just died
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t love you anymore…

I didn't think I'd ever feel the same again
Then a friend said don't look back, looking forward’s the way to mend
In two years you won't believe how your life will evolve
At the time I couldn’t see what that would involve

Cause when I heard her words, I just broke down and cried
That way she looked at me, my whole world just died
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t love you anymore…

The advice held the truth that I couldn’t see
In the end I think both of us were really set free
It’s been three years now since I heard those words
My life is on track and no longer blurred

Because with time all things change
With positive thoughts you can really exchange
I'm back in a place where I thank God every day
For he's blessed me I know in so many ways

When I heard those words, I broke down and cried
That way she looked at me, my whole world just died
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t love you anymore…

Well… you know, I still love you and more..
But I love my new life that you gave me that day
And I’ll always remember what together we made
What together we made…

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Epitaph

“you’re killing me….”
words that I hung in the air,
a prophecy that resonates through sleepless nights
my heart said goodbye to itself
that chilling evening in early August
how sacred the hidden treasure of a wife and mother
how broken the memories 
how haunting the path not taken


Details | Light Poetry | |

When I grow old

I will grow old
I tremble in the cold
None to care
I have nothing to fear...

But my love is alive
Though I strive
Beautiful roses to pluck
Yet I am stuck..

I grow old with wrinkle
Yet I will kinker
You will always remain in my mind
This is how you will find...


Details | I do not know? | |

The Women



The Women



(for the countless women, names unknown, who bore the brunt of Apartheid, and who fought the racist system at great cost to themselves and their families, and for my mother, Zubeida Moolla)



Pregnant, your husband on the run,
your daughter, a child, a few years old,

they hauled you in, these brutish men,
into the bowels of Apartheid's racist hell.



They wanted information, you gave them nothing,
these savage men, who skin happened to be lighter,

and white was right in South Africa back then,

but, you did not cower, you stood resolute,

you, my mother, faced them down, their power,
their 'racial superiority', their taunts, their threats.



You, my mother, would not, could not break,

You stood firm, you stood tall.

You, like the countless mothers did not break, did not fall.



You told me many things, of the pains, the struggles,

the scraping for scraps, the desolation of separation
from your beloved Tasneem and your beloved Azad,

my elder sister and brother, whom I could not grow
up with, your beloved children separated by time, by place,

by monstrous Apartheid, by brutish men,
whose skin just happened to be lighter.



You told me many things, as I grew older,
of the years in exile, of the winters that grew ever colder.

You were a fighter, for a just cause,
like countless other South African women,

you sacrificed much, you suffered the pangs,
of memories that cut into your bone, your marrow,

you resisted a system, an ideology, brutal and callous and narrow.



Yes, you lived to see freedom arrive, yet you suffered still,
a family torn apart, and struggling to rebuild a life,

all the while, nursing a void, that nothing could ever fill.



I salute you, mother, as I salute the nameless mothers,

the countless sisters, daughters, women of this land,
who fought, sacrificing it all for taking a moral stand.



I salute you, my mother, and though you have passed,
your body interred in your beloved South African soil,

you shall remain, within me, an ever-present reminder,

of the cost of freedom, the struggles, the hunger, the toil.


I salute you!



(for the brave women of South Africa, of all colours,
who fought against racial discrimination and Apartheid)






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I Hate Aunt Floe

NOTE: This poem is a humoruos stab at PMS from a mans point of view

I can see your blood boiling
through  the blades I once called eyes,
they were once beautiful  like jewels
now they hurt my deep insides.
cutting at my guts
and like a noose on my  lungs;
your words seek like bullets 
your mouth like sniper guns.
I’m hit with each inaccuracy…
Being killed by words untrue;
and you even got the nerve
to tell me what you think I do.
But let me get mad
and try to plead my case;
then suddenly the world
is a f--ked up place.
You got tears running down…
What the Hell did I do?
We were just sitting and laughing
I could swear that we were cool.
Oh God…
Oh no…;
I should have seen it… 
It’s Aunt Floe…,
This battle can’t be won or reasoned
I think its best I go.
Cause I hate Aunt Floe 
and she hate me too;
she sit and talk sh-t
about the gum I chew. 
The color of my shirt…,
She say my look is a stair;
She say my best has no worth
And she doesn’t stop there.
I didn’t change
I’ve been the same 
these 28 days,
 but now I’m f_ckin A__hole 
Aunt Floe gave me that name.  
She said get out my face 
This aint your home no more,
But I’m more puzzled by 
What was said before.
I love you 
With her glossy eyes 
I knew it was true, 
But horribly sly
You see these words
make me the fool.
The one that’s cruel
That a__hole dude,
That sparked the fuel
To this f__kin feud.
But I swear to God
I didn’t start this sh_t,
Why would I give up my love 
To live my life like in a pit.
 This is horrible sh_t 
Wasted days spent,
On nothing but the worst
I could be bathed in your sent. 
You could be laughing 
While I’m smiling
But Aunt Floe Won’t let this be,
And the only way to make this right
Is hold my tongue  a week.
And that ain’t gone happen 
I’m a person too,
Not soft
But I got feelins
and don’t know what  to do.
Now its been six days
Unbelievable  rage,
She locked herself 
In the room
I call it her cage.
I smell a sent in the air
It wasn’t there before,
Now lookin down the hall
I see an open door.
Is this a trap 
I’ll guess I’ll see,
If I fall for another
 You know that’s dumb ass me.
Curled in the bed 
I think I know that girl,
But where’s the hells Aunt Floe
The one that f__ked my world.
She packed up and gone
Didn’t even say good bye,
Just came wit gang of bullsh_t
And vanished in the sky.
Is that you my dear
Can you please come here,
Listen close and crystal clear…
I hate Aunt Floe
 Next time she here
Make sure I’m stocked
with weed and beer.
I love you punk.  ?


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A Very Inviting Temptation

A Very Inviting Temptation! I remember of a particular situation. I was offered a very "inviting" temptation. The situation I was in... I didn't belong! And lost any sense of "right and wrong." At first... I felt no guilt or shame. And brought embarrassment to my family's name. I tried to explain this to my wife and kids. I heard; "Dad... please... no more fibs!" The Godly principles were "tossed to the side," As the sin inside caused arrogance and pride. Soon, all in my life that truly mattered... Was gone! My life was empty and shattered! I was sorry for all of the problems I caused! This time... I took a moment to pause. I cried to God to rescue me from my sin. I confessed! Would God help me once again? I read in the Bible of Jesus’ grace and love! This time the help I needed had to come from above! I asked him for a fresh and brand new start. He removed the stain from a broken heart. He restored to me the joy I once had. I'm so blessed! Jesus has made me glad! Jesus is the reason I'm here today! I LOVE HIM more than words can say! By Jim Pemberton


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There's A Web of Temptation And Sin

There’s a Web of Temptation and Sin!

There’s a web of temptation and a lot of sin…
That brings slavery and a strong bondage within!

Throughout this land, there’s an evil surge!
While many lives, seem to be getting “submerged!”

Being submerged, into a life, that many believe in.
They become perverted, but want all to receive them!

The “love and acceptance,”
 that many desire.
Puts them on a tightrope!  A very thin wire!

As the web of temptation and sin begin to grow.
It brings a bondage that damages the soul!

They may want to have “love and acceptance.”
But in their hearts, needs to be a godly repentance!

May the holiness of a righteous God be stirred!
That all will come back, to the truth of his word!

His son Jesus, came to the cross! He bled and died!
That through him, our lives can be totally sanctified!

Only the power of God, can bring a needed restoration!
He gives to one and all… 
 A heavenly invitation!

Whosoever will… Come now!  And accept him!
Won’t you take the time, to really know him?

Don’t allow the web of life to destroy 
and overcome you!
Come to Jesus now!  He really does
 LOVE YOU!

By Jim Pemberton


Details | Alliteration | |

Wasteland of Shame

Bound by blame, broken by blight,
Scarred by a stolen satire,
nuzzling necrophiliacs within the night.

Tangled in torment, tied untamed,
blemished by the blasphemy,
of never speaking your name.

Shackled in sin, shredded sovereignty,
dealing death’s doses,
murdering you and me.

Cuffed with candor, calling our crimes,
to an impetuous enslavement,
tortured through time.

Set me free, to flee this fool’s game,
where we're always left wandering,
in this wasteland of shame.


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The Precious Gift

I remember the day as if it were yesterday,
The snowfall was heavy, we sat and watched it
We hadn’t spoken for god knows how long
Days would go by, me reading and she would knit

But that day we were both in silence, watching, waiting,
This was the only time we weren’t arguing, debating
Then I solemnly rose and went out in the snow
To rescue wood for the fire

And there...in the snow...she lay
What we could not have, longed for and desired
I picked her up, she was shivering and moaning
I placed her in my jacket and carried her
While I listened to her heavenly groaning

My wife who seemed spiritless came alive
When she laid eyes on her
And fussed “place her near the fire,”
I watched my wife gently clean her, delighted from the faint murmur.

It was half an hour when her little eyes open
She was terrified to see us
“Where is mum and dad?”
She calmed as my wife continued her motherly fuss
It was as if she belonged
As if she was ours
We gave her the gifts we bought for the one we could not have
And watched her open then up, we could have watched her for hours.

My wife brought out the huge turkey
We had the best Christmas feast
And finished with double helpings
Of six different ice cream, a special treat.

Then... the knock on the door
I answered it, the police with an old woman and man
“We looking for a little girl, her parents were killed in an accident
And she was in the car when it was hit by a van

Our angel came to the door, 
Then ran out and hugged her grand parents
We kissed her good bye 
And gave her all the presents

It was a year since we saw her,
We both sat in silence watching the snowfall
Then a knock at the door which broke our trance
And there she was with her grandparents, a lady now no longer small...

**


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Controlling Men: Physically, Mentally, and Verbally Abusive Men

All men (the loser boyfriends/husbands) think that it's their right to be physically, mentally, and verbally abusive toward their female companions (girlfriends/wives), well they're wrong. Most guys are always beating their girlfriends/wives up every single day just because they didn't make their men dinner, do chores around the house, or whatever. It seems that these womanizing losers are way better than their women. Actually, they're not; they're idiots. Controlling these women and being physically, mentally, and verbally abusive toward them don't make these Neanderthals men; they're like childish cowards. All guys think that they're the only breadwinners in their families and the women aren't. But guess what--they're not; some of them don't have jobs. And does anyone knows what gets on my nerves? Men always cheating on their girlfriends/wives with other women, getting them pregnant, and not taking care of the children they already have. And those controlling, abusive men, they're always telling their female spouses/lovers what to do, what to eat, where to look, and who to talk to. I mean, who are these womanizing losers to judge other men and to boss these women around? I mean, who does that? Everybody doesn't even know why they'd bother spending the rest of their lives with those abusive idiots. This whole saying by these controlling abusive men have been getting on everybody's nerves and my nerves, as well: "You're-not-to-speak-unless-spoken-to," this "You're-not-to-talk-to-your-family" ordeal, this whole "You're-not-to-have-guy-friends," and this whole "You need me! You're nothing without me! You have no money! You have no friends! Everything's in my name: the house, the cars, clothes, everything I own! You're useless! You're worthless! I own you for life! And you will respect me!" Where I come from, the rest of us nicer guys, we treat our women with the respect they rightfully deserve. The last time I checked, the mothers have raised their sons to treat women and other people with respect, but they now know where they've gone wrong with those womanizing clowns. My suggestion for the women is for them to leave their abusive husbands/boyfriends before it's too late because if they don't, they'll end up in the hospital or the morgue. To be honest, these women, they never should've met, let alone dated or married those abusive men to begin with. And if these abusive men think that they can control those women forever, they've got another coming.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Til The Well Runs Dry

I could never argue that it all failed.
Finding where we fell.
Seeing the bottom of this pit,
Knowing
With what we have left
It's the last drop of water in the well.


Details | Couplet | |

One Excuse Leads To Another

What do you mean you see lies in my eyes?
Stop it now hon...Can't stand it when you cry
You do NOT know me! I swear I would never...
(What can I do? Can't hide this forever)

She asked me to dance, I was just being kind
Got crazy and drunk, lost track of the time
She said she would drive 'cause she didn't drink
Whose car? Don't remember; ours, I think
Kiss her? No way! (At least not on the face)
Where? Well I guess we went back to her place
I swear to god hon, I'm telling the truth!
First time!...Her name? I-uh, think it was Ruth...

Can you ever forgive me? Please have a heart
Can't forget? Okay, I guess that's a start...

(DAMN IT, you're a fool! What the HELL did you do?
Shoulda' denied the whole thing; she doesn't trust you!
What about the others? Can't get any dumber!
Gotta' THINK...Oh god; did I give her my number?)

***Loosely based on the divorce of two very good friends of mine... 
Susan's contest


Details | I do not know? | |

For Men Everywhere One Billion Rising

1 Billion Rising.

For Men Everywhere.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

Stop!

Stop the abuse!

Of grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Listen!

Listen to the voices!

Of grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Think!

Think of how you treat,

grand-daughters,
colleagues,
daughters,
girlfriends,
partners,
mothers,
sisters,
nieces,
wives,

all women.

Act!

Act now to change yourself!

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when you stop,

the violence,
the abuse,
the rape.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

is perpetrated by,

grand-fathers,
colleagues,
boyfriends,
husbands,
nephews,
brothers,
partners,
fathers,
uncles,

men,

all men.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

stops when us men stop,

The violence,
the abuse,
the rape,

today, now.

Stop! Listen! Think! Act!


Details | Rhyme | |

The Ugliness Of Divorce


My parents taught me the Christian ways.
I was taught to obey what the Bible says.

I was proud of my parents!  I really was!
And loved them so much…  Just because!

They meant everything to me!  I was proud!
Until one day...  There appeared “a dark cloud.”

It was like a “darkness” hovered above.
Leaving their marriage empty of needed love!

Though they were together many years.
There were many cracks that soon appeared.

I say a once happy home soon destroyed.
Being with one another….  They no longer enjoyed!

How could this happen! I had wondered…
To see a happy marriage “totally plundered

As sin crept in...  And allowed to prevail.
Very soon this marriage simply failed.

May this be a warning for me and you…
That our commitment remains faithful and true!

If your marriage is heading toward separation…
Please seek God for a healing and restoration!

If your planning to have a divorce..
Jesus’ love can put it on the right course!

He can replace the brokenness and hurt within..
And can put your lives back together AGAIN!

By Jim Pemberton


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Jesus My Life Is One HUGE Embarrassment


For many years... My life has been an embarrassment! Filled with hopelessness and discouragement! Many things I thought I had enjoyed... Have left in me... A large and empty void! Many nights, I would cry myself to sleep. Knowing the hole my life was in, was very, very deep. Then one day, I called out to God! I wasn’t sure if he’d listen! My family, my old church, I was now missin'. My family prayed for me for so many years. I often brought them embarrassment and tears. God... I tried everything else... I want to come back to you! I need you now Jesus! I really do! Please come into my heart, and cleanse me within! Set me free from all addictions and sin! I know that you will never let go of my hand. My whole life, on your word, I shall now stand. Only you can satisfy the emptiness in my soul! I am now complete, satisfied, and made whole! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Verse | |

Through A Prison Glass

You came unexpectedly, and i was surprised,
you smiled and placed your hand on the glass and cried.
I leaned my head against the glass and told you i am sorry,
i whisper through the phone line, ill start a new story.

You knew i was innocent but you still didn't believe me,
the only person i thought that would stay by my side but you couldn't be. 
Mom standing by your side and not wanting to talk,
i got really upset that you came at all cause i didn't want to see you walk. 

I needed you, when i was in need,
i was there for you when ever you didn't want to bleed.
I loved you and i cherished you with all my heart,
but before you left your words hit me like a really sharp dart.

You said i failed you,
you cried to me and i knew it was true.
But i needed you to understand me,
but you went your way and upset me.

The glass is now empty and i cant find you even with the fact that I'm out,
i tell you i love you but all you do is shout. 
I've lost you for good this time, 
so i think i have to do one more crime. 


Details | Free verse | |

Husband, Im listening

I sat there listening to your words, 
as you told me
Told me, you felt my pain and cried 
my tears
Telling me you missed me, each and 
every night
While I cry, my sad sounds
Pouring my heart, releasing my 
roots
Listening and believing your words

Until, shadows start coming out the 
dark
Truth, shines upon my rose bush
Telling me, your not telling the truth
Thunder, keeps hitting my eardrums 
Trying to show me, you

I sat there listening to your words, 
as you told me
Told me, you felt my pain and cried 
my tears
Telling me you missed me, each and 
every night
While I cry, my sad sounds
Pouring my heart, releasing my 
roots
Listening and believing your words

I opened, my soul and listened
I relax my body, and took all the 
signs
Realizing, I'm hurt at the end and 
destroyed 
I'm home, suffering from this pain 
of love
While, your out having a good time
I'm home losing weight
While , your out eating at buffets
I'm home, not committing adultery
While, your out sinning under our 
skies
Creating more and more lies
Not realizing, shadows do come out
They come out the dark

I sat there listening to your words, 
as you told me
Told me, you felt my pain and cried 
my tears
Telling me you missed me, each and 
every night
While I cry, my sad sounds
Pouring my heart, releasing my 
roots
Listening and believing your words

I sent you money and cater, from 
afar
Understood, you are my husband
Under God, I shall obey
Obey , his laws
But , who's laws, do I obey
When all this sin, is in my skin
Ripping me apart
Far apart, from the one, I love

I sat there listening to his words, as 
he told me
Told me, he felt my pain and cried 
my tears
Telling me, he missed me, each and 
every night
While I cry, my sad sounds
Pouring my heart, releasing my 
roots
Listening and believing his words

Now!
What to do, my mind is so confuse
Confuse on walking away or staying
I guess, it's not up to you
Now , that I know the truth
The truth about listening, to your 
words


Details | Rhyme | |

Paper Thin

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
For kicks is why I do it now.
You tell me to love but I never knew how.
Our feet hitting pavement,
We spent the day in sunny California with sun kissed skin.
I’m learning to forget and how to fade scars,
And you let me let myself down so hard.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
And now I just do it for smiles,
We’ll never see flower girls stumbling down aisles.
I’d lose my head just before that chance,
But if you want we can still have a first dance.
Cause I think I say things that I don’t mean,
Once upon a time you meant the world to me.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
But I’m trying to refrain,
To make this not all end up in vain.
Maybe I can learn to love like some people do,
And you can learn to love yourself a little too.
Or it is in all fairness to let this go?
I guess we can try but then we’ll never know. 


Details | Rhyme | |

This Pillow is You

When you're not here
And it's too heard to bear
When I have something to fear
And you're not there 

I hold on tight 
I close my eyes

I wish on a star
I hear your voice
But you're too far

The tears I fight 
The distance I despise

You're in my heart
Time apart is rough
I can't stand to be apart
This pillow isn't enough

Written on June 2012 - July 2012


Details | Free verse | |

Perfectly you

You say you aren't perfect,
but look again and behold yourself; perfectly you.
Your tears be heavy-laden with guilt;
also remember, they glisten with remorse.
The sea water of the eye cleanses wounds old
and leads life to the good vulnerability
that teaches humility and belief.

Singing; your voice awakens the dawn
and dancing you set the moon.
Entrancing, you smile
and for a moment I glimpse forever.
Joy's child is your way
and grace is in your name.

Awake in the watches of the night
He watches your panic weeping;
wanting your day to soar 
and set twilight leaping.
Stars twinkle in sympathy,
and meteors lead sight to the other.
Come away with me my love and wink at suns.


Details | I do not know? | |

You're my EVERYTHING

           This is not my WORLD.

           You're my WORLD.

           You're my EVERYTHING.

           You're the FLOWERS, the GRASS, 

           You're my THOUGHTS,

           You're my EVERYTHING.
            
           This is not my WORLD.
           You're my WORLD.
                     
          So now.....
                be part of my.....
                                    LOVE.



                  *please comment if you don't mind, i'd really like to know your thoughts (fav poem if you like)*
                                                  
                                                            -Angel4eva23


Details | Verse | |

His Gentleness

He gently creeps into her room
to rest tenderly near her side
 while thoughts of melancholy zoom
 in  of his once vibrant bride
she's been there for him
so many, many years
he sniffles~and tries to hide 
the sorrow and the tears
she has been injured and hurt
but has lost the fight
she will not make it through the night
she will be in paradise by tomorrow's day
he reaches to sniff her best skirt
holds it tight~ it smells of her perfume
he drags over to the vanity to spray
her familiar scent around the room
he cradles her head within his arm
then musters an adoring smile as he whispers in her ear, 
"Time travels fast, and I will see you in a while, my dear"
He provides her warmth by stroking her hair
he wants to capture this image of her there
he wants this moment painted on the wall
so that he can always,always recall
how peaceful she seemed while adrift somewhere.

Copyright McCuen 2009


Details | Enclosed Rhyme | |

Military wife

Today  I will just be looking out my window while it rains, because just hearing the sound of the thunder gives me a feeling comfort  and as the lightning strikes it’s as if its telling me that it is feeling  my pain in the same way –
And as these tears keep feeling in my eyes I remember that I’m still going to be alone once again tonight  Which is the hardest part of being a military wife but as long as I have you I promise to be as strong as I can be for us—
Deep inside I hide all my sadness and worries when I am around our friends not wanting them to know these thoughts of you never end, because they just wouldn’t understand why I am weak and on my knees just trying to keep believing in your safety, As I pray each day for you to just come home  and sometimes late at night I wonder if you feel as alone as I do, oh- and do you wish to be with me the way I wish I was with you,  
Do you think of me the way I think of you, do you toss and turn threw out the whole night  wishing that you were holding me tight, oh- and do you dream of me when your all alone at night, I know you understand how I feel, And that my love for you isn’t fake and that its real, And when I am thinking of you I imagine I can feel your every move, Your every breath with each and every step I take, I just believe that no matter what  your safe, and As long as you need me the way I need you I will be strong for you for the rest of my life as your military wife.
Tonight I will just be looking out my window while it rains, because just hearing the sound of the thunder gives me a feeling comfort  and as the lightning strikes it’s as if its telling me that it is feeling  my pain in the same way –
And as these tears keep feeling in my eyes I remember that I’m still going to be alone once again tonight  Which is the hardest part of being a military wife but as long as I have you I promise to be as strong as I can be for us—


Details | Free verse | |

I Have The Evil of You

I have the evil of you
Caught in my hands, entangled
Like the arabesques of Eden's vines
Just like paradise, but why should shame remain
Singeing like immolation of Peter's Inferno
These reddish-purple chains convolute myself
as the grapples shoot out from the clouds
both below, above me
The self-lovelust propelling 
You did this - these plagues
You drag me down - to your cage
Cadaver Vampire - I am your slave



Details | Rhyme | |

Needle in the Hay

I visited my wife again today
In the Sunrise Nursing Home
I just could no longer care for her
Living in our home all alone

She stared at me in wonder
Not knowing who I am
After forty years of togetherness
I am now, to her, a strange man

It’s the same routine every day
I search for the right words to say
But she has lost all of our yesterdays
Like a needle in the hay

Pictures of our family
That sit on her tableside
Mean nothing in that mind of hers
Those memories have long since died

I keep hoping for some recognition
A little piece of history she might recall
But day after day I receive the same blank look
When I come to make my call

It really is an awful shame
We had so much fun on our journey’s way
But she has lost all of our yesterdays
Like a needle in the hay

I’ll see her again tomorrow
And cry when I walk away
She has lost all of our yesterdays
Like a needle in the hay


Details | I do not know? | |

Forever Love

Your gut feeling
Tells you it’s real
Yet he’ll tell you
It’s no big deal 

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

The hints he gives
But will deny
Living this way
You sometimes cry.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

Can you believe?
The truth is told?
Phone calls to her
Seem rather bold.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

”Do not worry”
For this you say
“We are just friends”
You talk each day.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

Your vows you took
They did not say
Having this friend
Would be okay.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

So torn apart
This life you lead
Choose me or her
For which you need.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

You turn your back
Been here before
I hate to see
You shut that door.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

I can’t do this
For you must choose
If it is her
Then me you’ll lose.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.


Details | I do not know? | |

celsius

Fallen snow will remind of me/ it is snowing ... 
Slowly as in the dream/ 
Boy word-beads/ with signs on his spine/ 
He kisses fine/ 
Your eyelids /

And it snows ... It snows /so slow/
It does/ and you're thinking of me/ 
'Coz it's warm/ it's better to stay in warmth/ 
Waiting for summer dim/ 
It is snowing/ slowly like in the dream/ 
Flakes/ go round/ playing the music theme/ 
You've been looking for rescue/ 
You searched in wine/ 
But it's in me/ 
all the rescues are mine/ 
It is snowing/ the snow is fluffy and white/ 
If you see darkness/ I'm deaf and blind/ 
there's the cast of time/ on the arm/ 
But I discern the light/ 
Dreams/ upon your eyelids tips/ 
Prepare you for winter drowse/ 
And it snows/ 

Fallen snow/ will remind of spring /
it will crumble and crackle in vain/ 
It will snow / fluffy /white/ and slow/ 
And you'll become whole/


Details | Rhyme | |

I Knew Someone Who Wanted to End It All

I Knew Someone Who Was Ready to “End It All!” I knew of someone who just wanted “to end it.” Giving up on life, and did not want to “defend it.” It was a heart wrenching and difficult situation. He said what he wanted to, with no explanation! I could see his face and the sad look in his eyes! What he was going to do next, was anyone’s surprise. He turned to drugs and encountered addictions. With this brought much disease and afflictions! He gave up on the wonderful family that was given. And turned to a pretty wild and crazy way of livin’! I told him about a God who loves him very deeply. As he listened, he began to grow restless and weary. I reached for his hand and began to pray for God’s power! It was a miracle! The blood of Jesus changed him that hour! The spirit of God brought healing and hope to his body! He was so excited! He rushed out to tell everybody! The “end” that he wanted, seemed to just fade away! For the son of the living God, changed him this day! The glory of God, and the power of Jesus’ resurrection… Changed him! And got him going in a NEW direction! He’s so thankful for the blood of Christ’ atonement! And is a different person now, because of that moment! This same Jesus loves and can do the same for YOU! Through the problems of life… He will see you through! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

WE

We have lost our sense of corporation.
We have lost our ability to cook together
Under the Sunday’s rain while Heaven is releasing
Its own design of living.

We have lost our sense of laughing after a long, long
Battle of making love during those sessions of naked photos After that difficult orgasm.

We have lost our feeling of self-worth couple
To go out and having a great time on goosing 
And walking under the cold night.

We have lost the letting truth of the
Shocking welcome of cheating and who is she or he
By the knowledge of God’s growth because
By the end of any given day we are going to
Understand from a penny a generation must vanish first.

We have lost our sweet dream, the games, the thrilled
Adventures as far as having a dream suggest nothing
Else than bullshits of being old.

We have lost our faith, our lifelong partnership of desire
For each other, we lost common humor and ground,
The easy complication of being again what we were
Before.  


Details | Rhyme | |

Jab We Met

The day you came into my life 
I was betrayed by my wife 

I was broken, I was crying 
To console me, you were trying 

Your words were very soothing 
And I could feel clouds of despair moving 

My heart started racing 
And my thoughts started pacing 

Your eyes are so amazing 
And your lips are so seducing 

My pulses started beating 
Cos your curves are very tempting 

I forgot everything about my wife 
And asked, will you come into my life?


Details | Lyric | |

Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


Details | Free verse | |

The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


Details | Naat | |

The Way Towards Great Hope

Prayer gift of the Spirit
Makes us men and women of hope
Prayer keeps the world
Open to Eternal God

To pray alone is good
Even more beautiful
Fruitful
To pray together

Many ways to become acquainted to Him
There are experiences, groups
Encounters, Courses
To pray

Take part of parish liturgies
Be abundantly nourished by the word of Eternal God
With active participation
In the Sacraments


The baptized
Confirmed by the Eternal Holy Spirit
The Holy Eucharist, communion
So as to live as authentic friends and witnesses of Father Christ


4202013


Details | Free verse | |

passion and persuation

The Illuminating path's Serenade my Vision, The Blindening Rays of faithful horizon leap into me, Our Memories of togetherness clasp me to the loop of life, still I am lusting to cross-over and meet the Chaismatic-End!! After which,our souls will intertwine and remain in enlightened glory forever! Life had been an autumn full of blossoms, My love lay in my arms in unrequited glory, life was a maze of puzzled quotes, the dooming evil recruited you into its gloomy shadows, and i learn't my first chapter about death. DEATH is a slow poison gushing through time and seeping through seconds, Blistering a thousand souls, abandoning a many infants, sucking away the more needed ones, Thwarting pain and inflicting illicit wounds. BUT losing hope means losing "US" At a jerk,our infancy angel crosses over with warmth, And the hallucinating illuminating paths fade away!! And i realize my quest in this unfarthomable journey, TO LIVE,LOVE AND SUCCEED DEATH!!


Details | I do not know? | |

falling off

Nothing was left as we were lying in bed.
She looked in my eyes "It doesn't hurt anymore."
These; the saddest words she ever said.
No more tears, she doesn't care enough to cry. I begged her to love me. I begged her to lie.
Now i'm on my knees in the street. Rain pouring in slow motion. Drop after drop, from my head to my feet. 
 I see her shadow in the window. She knows the edge i walk. The needle awaits, the 
foundation is burning. She hands me the key, but i smash the lock. 
My sweet sweet poison. My blue river flow. I caress oblivion, while I wait for a vein to show.
Oh... god. Now its done. 10 Years wasted. Happiness truly is a warm gun.
She was my drug. My habitual partner, my junkie love.
Its all dead to me now.
I march in the liquid parade.
I laugh at god and ask him if he needs saved.
I see it now, in the failure i sow.
Beautiful colors and sickness in tow.
This is my horizon.
My crystal lined sky shattering upon the wreckage below.


Details | Bio | |

Time will tell

He speaks with high tones
He loves me
Do I feel the warmth his heart bleeds for me
Now, only from the outside
I am now cold as it seems
My children feel the anguish in my heart
I pray I find the reason not to be alone  
Can I have a chance to get back my inner dignity
Does it still exist 
Dignity
Do you think we are capable of being one
Truly united
To give it all
All they say, will keep true love true
True love is a falling promise 
A burning sensation
Confusion is sometimes mistaken for love 
Break that promise that was made
Hit me between the eyes
To forgive is not to forget.


 


Details | Rhyme | |

STEERING AWAY FROM U

STEERING AWAY FROM U !!!


Time has come for Me to depart
Its hard for Me to stay apart
Knowing that pain would just start
I kept U in dark My sweet heart

Days spent were really great
Cant forget the untimely wait  
U always made sure to be late
Just to see Me waiting at the gate

Ur memories being the only medicines , 
To get rid of the loneliness
And to get away from the stress
I know, those will never expire 
And would continue to lit the fire 

Would miss U
From sunrise to sunset
Dream of U
From sunset to sunrise

I know,
Days would not easily flew
My love for U would never discontinue
But For the moment 
I M steering away from U !!! 


-------YASHU


Details | Verse | |

Surface Tension

And so another winter evening finds us
  With breadsticks on the table by the water,
Preoccupied and staring at the menus
  Considering which meal to choose for slaughter.

With effort I can come to some decision,
  With equal thought you may just get there too,
Yet agony prolonged delays the moment
  When you must talk to me and I to you.

The years have flown so swiftly and eventful,
  The children have grown up and moved away,
Leaving us each other in seclusion,
  Ill at ease with little left to say.

The strain is felt in hanging on together
  When each of us would rather be elsewhere,
Engaged in socialising with some other,
  With whom we could relax and laugh and care.

Small ripples spread across the surface tension,
  Not near enough to cause the surface break,
“I think I’ll have the pasta,” you inform me,
  And I reply: “I think I’ll have the steak.”


Details | Rhyme | |

Wine painted lips

Wine painted lips
Lips the sun had kissed
Left a black mark 
Later became a scar.
It didn’t spoil her beauty
I did what I did this was my duty.
She was my dream
She became my wife, my moonbeam.
We broke many hearts
Not to be apart.
I showed her the way
Just for her to stay.
We drove million miles
Together we smiled.
She is there and I am here
This I didn’t plan
We ended up in tears.


Details | Ballade | |

Elvis

Elvis.

Oh Elvis you were handsome, big and grand
At times folk found you hard to understand.
And life for you so quickly it did move
My friend it seems you had so much to prove.
You gave the world the power of your song
And your bonding with your mother was so strong.

Religion it was strong within your Psyche
To sing those spirituals you really liked.
Your mind at times was battered and so bruised
And times you seemed all mixed up and confused.
An enigma, you so different in your ways
You really brought some colour to our days.

You sang your songs, you made it to the top
In spite of this your troubles did not stop
As that greedy man he pushed you all the way
And kept you down and always had last say
Yes you were such an asset to this man
As you sang and made him rich it worked to plan.

When fame and fortune took you by the hand
It seemed you had the world at your command.
And then you lost the women in your life
Your mother and your daughter and your wife
Oh Lord it left you cold and oh so sad
And though you had so much your life turned bad.

And so you killed yourself with your bad ways
Cause joy was never there to fill your days.
I hope you’ve found some peace now where you are
Even though you be no more a star.
Elvis how your name just lingers on
As still the world gets lost within your songs


Details | Rhyme | |

The worst morning after

The worst morning after


One bottle and half of brandy gone
And my, how I did carry on
The morning after, goodness me!
I was a just heap of misery

The wife, she left me in the car
I think she thought I'd gone too far!!
She really had no sympathy
And made me clean up after me

My head was twirling round and round
Oh, what Karma I had found
My neck, my head, my everything
Oh what pain this morn did bring

For two whole days this lasted for
I said I’d never drink no more
That was so many years ago
And drinking booze is still a  'no!!’.

19 July 2013 @ 0450hrs.


Details | I do not know? | |

Loyal Bride

Ignorance must be stitch inside
Because I've believed every word lied
The price of a loyal bride

On the outward I now hide
Pain crumbling my heart inside
The price of a loyal bride

Rumors spread, but I put them to mute
Saving your name while you covered it with soot
Until blindness wore off my then dimmed sight
And I was shockingly aware they were right

You whisper her name in your dreams at night
I wanna tell you I know, but I don't wanna fight
Afraid you'll leave the commitment we made
For someone whom's body you've layed 

Though truth is no longer denied
I'll still hold to you while you backslide
The price of a loyal bride 

And to my vows I will abide
No matter sleepless nights I've cried
The price of a loyal bride


Details | Rhyme | |

Breaking Point

I should have stopped him the first time he hit me,
But I was new to love, and thought love didn’t leave.
Several years later, love became my excuse,
I was little-larry-lies-a-lot, denying abuse.

Life wasn’t the dream of our love letters.
I was a victim of hope, that he’d change for the better.
I couldn’t admit that I’d made a mistake,
So I let him kick me, till I felt my leg break.

After that, I had to admit the truth, 
Stop lying to myself, and find a new roof –
I’d always had the support of my friends,
But it took me crutches to stand up to him.


9/4/11


Details | I do not know? | |

Where did we go wrong

Where did we go wrong

what happen to the love we had 
why must it be this way fussing and fighting 
Where did we go wrong
was our love so perfect that it had to be tainted
Where did we go wrong
did it need flaws to be perfect
Where did we go wrong
i was good to you what happen 
where did we go wrong 
i found love in you and you found love me 
Where did we go wrong
was my love so loud that i could not here you cry 
Where did we go wrong
when you cry your hart becomes weak for that 
person move in. 
Where did we go wrong
people ask me why do you love her 
she made me fill good about my self she lift my sprits 
she made me fill like a man.
Where did we go wrong
maybe my love was so blinding i could not see what was going on
Where did we go wrong
Where did i go wrong
Where did we go wrong
Where did i go wrong
did i not love you enough 
Where did i go wrong
did i not be there for you
Where did i go wrong
did i not care for you 
Where did i go wrong
twenty years gone by
Where did i go wrong
i never cheated 
Where did i go wrong
i always been faithful 
Where did i go wrong

            Where did we go wrong?



                                         By reginald conyers 
    My frist poem

Fin.


Details | Rhyme | |

Her Pillow Case Still Soaked in Tears

I woke up alone today
For the first time in twenty years;
My wife has gone away
Her pillow case still soaked in tears.

We had made it for many years
Through the tribulations and the trails;
How often is a good marriage
Brought to an end by the death of a child?

He died of a rare disease;
That was, of course, no one’s fault,
But how to cope with the loss of your son
Is something we’re not taught.

She couldn’t stay and look at me
Without painful memories;
So packing her things to leave
Seemed the only remedy.

I woke up alone today
For the first time in twenty years;
My wife has gone away
Her pillow case still soaked in tears.


Details | Lyric | |

I Needed You To Stay

(chorus)

Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

 I sit and watch down the hall,
Silence waiting for your call,
If I could just hear you say
That you need me today
Then everything would be ok,
I cant make this go away.
Ive done it again
When will this end
Where is my friend
I needed you to stay.

(chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

You told me I was the one,
Yet its over before it begun
You took my heart
and tore it apart
Where the hell did this come from
All the tears I cried
From all your lies
I cant make this go away
I needed you to stay

 (chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me


Details | Free verse | |

Sense

Do you remember how she smelled
like Christmas?

How she smiled
like rain?

Do you think of her, sometimes
when snow and laundry soap
fill your senses?

Or when the wind catches the leaves
and they laugh in your ear
sing you to sleep?

Maybe it's the reason your eyes cloud over
when you feel silk 
against your fingers

Because for a moment 
you're cradled in her arms
Peter Pan and Hook
tugging at your eyelashes

Some bittersweet reminisce 
of quilted portrait frames
salted tears
and candy-cane red lipstick
tuning your dreams

And with simple twinges of regret
feather-like brushes of remorse
you cave
collapse

 Wish you could remember more
than a smell
or a sound
fainter than teardrops

Wish everything didn't remind you
you couldn't.


Details | Lyric | |

Burned

It’s six pm
Dinner’s in the oven
Table set for two
One of us, here waiting
But that is nothing new
We agreed to have this evening
You got held up there again
Don’t like the way this’ going
Is this coming to an end

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

It’s six fifteen
The dinner’s still burning
Smoke fills the air
I’m ready to run
Cause it seems you don’t care
Supposed to be here at five
It’s now six fifteen
Not a word or a call
Not a text or anything

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart


Details | Lyric | |

away with the sun

Its getting late
but you already came 
and while you were here
things never change 
you lay with me
and tell me your words
then you leave 
and I feel hurt.
Its not you that hurts me 
but the sound of the door
closing behind you 
I know for sure 
you'd like to stay 
but you never do
I'm left alone 
missing you. 
These days its more frequent 
you leave so much
that you're gone more hours 
than the day brings sun
and I have begun 
to feel so numb
when the door closes 
another night I run
far away from the thoughts I have 
because its killing me to look
at my empty hands
I remember when we were on the sand 
you told me you loved me
but you weren't my man 
and so I walked, feeling okay
but too many months 
now I want you to stay
Am I selfish?
asking too much?
You only visit me an hour
after dusk
and I must go on
but should I stay?
when you see me sometimes
but its always too late.


Details | Free verse | |

Woman from Congo

I am woman … 
WOMAN
Of Congo, 
Chewed, 
Spat out,
And bestowed with straw basket
To fetch water. 
You set upon us 
Wild dogs, 
Stretching our legs wide,
Ripping out our genitals and dignity
To nurse your children’s 
Craving.

‘fore you design gods;
Ones who create dolts, 
Small-minded folks, 
And feast on minerals – 
Congo was a lady
And I … I am
WOMAN, 
Strong black woman.

I bought some views 
On black market; 
They are rare commodities,
Sat down with glass of nsamba
on the rocks
And seriously contemplate …

It is hard to buy
Black market stuff;
We are set up
To think
East is inferior to west,
Barring them Europeans
Who broke their necks
To dwell in Canaan.

One thing is for sure,
They alleged a better name
And substitute 
The ones we were given;
Those with implications.
Oh, what things we see
When we start looking
From our own eyes.

I am WOMAN …
Woman alone
And taken against my desire,
Ravished by the corporations;
The gods who create your children
I am WOMAN, 
Woman from Congo.


Details | Rondeau | |

Unraveling

(this actually a rondolet, a shortened form of rondeau)

Unraveling 
Stitches from our wedding quilt
Unraveling
Your so-called “business traveling"
Anniversary streamers of guilt
25 years - the life we built
Unraveling


12/1/11
Received 1st place


Details | I do not know? | |

The plastic vow

Waking up next to you is not what I had in mind
I know your inlove
but I wish we could rewind.
A vow was made
obligation overplayed 
why did I proceed
because in marriage I don't believe.
white satin, decadent cake
100 guests watched by the lake.
I tried my best to put on a smile
with the groom not realizing he was in denial.
This special day is such a waste
because when years go by it'll be replaced.
I didn't want to hurt anyone
I wasn't looking out for me
I hoped i'd eventually fall for you
and build our family tree.
I care for you but I have to walk away
because I know in the end
it would be me who would betray.


Details | Couplet | |

Peter Pan Envy

Peter Pan Envy 

I envy Peter Pan
He never get’s old as a man

He can fly back and forth to never-never land
To his lost boys a merry band

If I had Tinkerbelle’s fairy dust and could fly
I would go up and up into the sky

I would fly up to my wife who’s in heaven
And take her back to nineteen fifty-seven 

The fifties were a great time in life
It was when I met my future wife  


Details | Rhyme | |

An Unforgiven Tune

Scanting, ranting, seething persona provides –
the confinement and hatred inside you hide.
Screaming, steaming, aggressive overtones –
provide a key witness of a relationship unknown.

Shivering, quivering, the innocent will crumble,
to a raving lunatic with a malicious mad stumble.
Convicted, addicted, to the same vindictive game,
this romance conceived within lies and shame.

Silently, violently, cursing the call of creation,
vowing to avenge this marital bond castration.
Pawing, gnawing, at an open bloody wound,
strumming, and humming life's unforgiving tune.


Details | Free verse | |

Ode to H.W. Longfellow

  
		
In his chest, his heart to bare.
All the pain and sorrow there.
   
Fire! Fire!  Everywhere!
Screaming! Crying! In despair.
   
Vailiantly dashing the flames he chased.
The fire melting his loves life, cotton and lace.
            
Scars to hide, upon his face. 
Still Henrys quill went on to trace
.            
"The Cross of Snow", a sweet sweet lay.
Of the wife he lost on that sad day. 
            
His thoughts of Fanny would harken him.
And is now at rest, with his mighty pen.......
 
 
 
 
 
 


Details | Prose Poetry | |

TRUE MR RIGHT OR MR WRONG

No one really knows 
The True Mr. Right or the true Mr. Wrong
They all come singing, the same sad song
Her dad once told her Mr. Right
Will choose the right path to God
Mr. Wrong would lie, cheat
Make your head go round and round
Mr. Right would have dignity and pride
Mr. Wrong, false promises then hide
Ever hear Trini Mr. right or a Trini Mr. Wrong?
Full ah ma-ma-guy, fake smile...man be gone
Remember, be careful choosing Mr. Right
Be fearful of Mr. Wrong
And analyze all, their sad songs...

©Copyright November 1, 2011 by Brian Pierre-Alexander 
© All Rights Reserved


Details | Sonnet | |

The next few moments

Jiggling keys,he gave his crown a scratch
then took another look at his watch.
"You're gorgeous, now please get out!"
for the 10th time he cried out loud.

Out she emerged, breathtaking, as always,
dropping baubles, tottering in her Jimmy's,
Smile still smeared, they left that hour,
unaware of the timed out counter.

Tyres screeched as he sped,
"take it slow honey"she requested,
when, an unexpected brightness grew larger,
until black, and then, everything grew calmer.

With excruciating pain he awakened,
looking around called, "Lauren!"
the teary faces dropped and nodded,
"We're sorry" , they whispered..

Suddenly lifted by a whiff of heat,
all he could hear was his own heart beat.
limped out, made a futile attempt to find his dear,
and crashed with thoughts of future fear.

Shutting the door behind him,
reminiscing love, life, past with grim,
clouds of  "what if" floating his self ,
whole world reduced into a tiny elf.

Moving on is most important at present,
Realizing a  reason, he may not accept,
 he still breathes, for that very reason,
And, taking care of himself will never be treason.


Details | Rhyme | |

My dream wedding day

Looking at the first blush of the morning,
I know its the perfect day for a wedding.
The big fat white wedding, the dream,
To which every little girl clings.
 
I tell myself as I watch the clouds turn white,
That this is the happiest day of a woman's life,
And that nothing should come in between,
The perfect bride and her groom.
 
I remember those young moments when I used to dream,
Of how our wedding would seem.
It was just like I had imagined,
A pretty day like today.
 
Slipping into my white dress and stilettos,
I think of the way you had proposed.
The way I had always wished for,
A dazzling ring in sparkling champagne.
 
I switch to happier thoughts from our past,
Holding hands, watching stars, laying on the grass.
We were high school sweethearts,
The perfect couple was what they called us.
 
We spent our days sneaking in a few kisses,
We used to pretend to be Mister and Mistress.
We were in love,
The crazy, eternal and rare kind.
 
Memories are shoved as mother comes into the room,
Holding a few red roses in full bloom.
Her eyes are teary and her voice is shaky,
As she whispers that she is proud of me.
 
Tears spill but I smile as I slide into the car,
Remembering the times you'd sing to me with your guitar.
The times you'd reach over and,
Tuck a stray lock of hair behind my ear.
 
I laugh silently as I remember on the way to the chapel,
You saying once you were the beast and I, the belle.
You  always bring little candles and gifts,
And laugh as I make my birthday wish.
 
I wonder if you'd be laughing today,
As you cut the wedding cake with the sugar bouquet.
If you'd remember our old ceremonies,
In the event of your new one.
 
I walk through the gates smiling at our old friends,
And take your brother's hand as his arm extends.
He takes me in but lets me go,
As we reach the door to the flowery hall.
 
I peek through the crack to see you there,
At the altar smiling, running a hand through your hair.
I slip in and move to the side,
As the wedding march starts to play.
 
In came the blushing bride, walking gracefully down the aisle,
At her friends and family, she nods and smiles.
As I hold my breath and wipe my eyes,
Our high school love story plays in my head. 
 
I remember the day we promised we'd never part,
Because I would always be the one in your heart.
But your bride and you exchange your vows,
And I find myself repeating them inside.
 
The priest asks you to kiss your bride,
And I quickly slip outside.
Because no matter how alright I say I am,
Letting you go was the hardest thing I had ever done.
 
 
- Miliya Parveen


Details | ABC | |

Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


Details | Rhyme | |

Broken Heart Street

Hopelessly lying, in a dying bed of depression,
miserably crying, while trying your confession.
Blackening walls, and halls of a fading youth,
Gruesomely calls, of gnaws towards the truth.

Fading beauty, so snooty to those content,
wailing a duty, sooty, those content dissent.
Towards a failing, unveiling of bloody torment,
concealing the name of shame, not so innocent.

So cheap, sinking deep, into a sea of emotion,
I weep, at the reap of sowing our lost devotion.
I shudder with stutter, at a marital decapitation,
you utter, like no other, at a romantic prostration.

A defile and vile odor is cast amongst the decay,
I smile in denial, as those lost lover’s betray.
Sinking deeply within, our sins have been fed,
doses of greed, they feed till all beauty is dead.

Take cover in the pain, remain emotionally numb.
Hide within the sin, wherein you succumb.
Tread the waste, and taste the defeat,
of a shattered, tattered passion down
on Broken Heart Street.


Details | Rhyme | |

What I would say

What I would say is,
Keep your chin up,
carry that head high.
Take everything day by day,
Put the important things first,
Never forget a moment that goes by.
Take the good with the bad,
Things will work out in the end,
That's what my dad always said.
Keep the good thoughts first,
Keep the people you love close,
And keep a clear head.
It gets hard at times,
The thoughts of her,
The length of a lonely day.
But I tell that man,
The one in the mirror,
That's what I would say.


Details | Lyric | |

We'll be together

We’ll be together

We’ll be together when the world is gone
For what we have, it just can’t die
There lives no other who can sing our song
The laughing joys, the many tears we cry

To be together is our destiny
It is our dance, it is our song
One grain of sand is still eternity
And whatever is, it can’t be wrong.

So dry your eyes, my child, and  see what is 
For nothing ever, ever can be known
Just live within the moment now, and feel such bliss
And be with me, yet always be alone.

I see such sadness in your eyes, my Dear
Why do you often feel so low?
Well as I watch you child to me it’s very clear
The beauty that is yours you’ll never know.


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

The Death of Laci Rocha-Peterson

It's been almost ten years to December 2002 since Laci Rocha-Peterson and her unborn son were killed by her loser husband, Scott Peterson. This case has haunted the lives of all of the citizens of a California town called Modesto; just outside of San Francisco. It seems that Laci's life was ended permanently too soon, especially when she had planned on giving birth to Scott's first born son, Connor. Both of her parents (her mom and step-dad) were angry, her brother was also angry and dismayed, the people were shocked and disgusted, and so on. Scott Peterson was afraid to be a father, that he never wanted to spend the rest of his so-called "life" with his late wife, and, on top of all that, Mr. Peterson was also afraid that his late wife, Laci, would find about his love affair with another woman named Amber Frey, so he killed her as a cowardly act. Laci Rocha-Peterson and her first born son really didn't deserve to die by the hands of her own husband, their own flesh and blood. She and her son had a whole life ahead of them, especially when her son, Connor, was about to begin the first day of school and stuff. But now that baby Connor and her mother are not on planet Earth and in heaven now, their family members, especially her parents and his grandparents, are still in a depressive mode. What kind of human being would want to dump his or her spouse in a body of water, let alone the San Francisco Bay? Who does that? The media, including the CBS Network, Nancy Grace, and the San Francisco Post were all over the Laci Peterson case, especially when everybody knew that Scott Peterson Selfishly killed his own wife and unborn son. What a coward he is and/or was. Scott may have had all of the ones he loved fooled, but when he walks into the death chamber and is executed by lethal injection, God will decide his punishment. And when He does, Scott Peterson will pay for what he did to his wife and own son, his own flesh and blood. The spirits of Laci Rocha-Peterson and her son will live on in their relatives' lives and through the hearts of the ones who knew her. May she and her son rest in peace.


Details | Free verse | |

Letting Go

In 2008, he show his face 
and I did not recognize it.
All of a sudden, you got so angry, 
causing a fight. 
Now you know that was not right. 
Do you think saying sorry is 
suppose to make it better? 
What did I do wrong?
 
It is hard to stop thinking, 
did I deserve this, he said, “I do”.
I felt this way a long time trying 
to wrap it around my mind.
Then Jesus said it was not me.
Satan was so busy disrupting
the good in him he took it out on me.
 
Letting go the affects of the fight with you 
is not a place for me to be. 
I am leaving you to heal so,
I can be free to get to know me.
So when the next man comes into my life
there will be no baggage of strife.
No feelings of defeat before it begins,
because that is, not how want it to end. 

You know, this will never ever happen to me again. 
Lord, knows I do not want to commit a Sin.
He will give me the strength to deal with
Whoever, comes my way. 
I will wait patiently for that day.
Now, I am letting go of the hurt 
to be free and again be me. 


Details | Lyric | |

Halloween's Song

Its your Halloween rave, having your mascaraed
With all your best friends from back in the day
Liz Lauren and Blake and while they're dressed like skanks
I'm on the front line of battle
Howlin like jackle with A real nasty cackle
puttin a razor blade in the sack of Blake's apples
crack in Lauren's snapple
Staddle Liz like mclovin
But I am more like faghole As I babble at her ass
Axe her fast and mash her up like cattle
Sneak back and tackle your dad and put him in shackles
Shove sour patch kids Down your trap and gaggle
Its abominable, so unbelievable
But its inevitable, the end is kissable
I have rattled these kids psyches 
squirming like a centipede, cutting them like celery 
hear their squeamish screams echo in the streets
as the  creepy bells of the chapel ring


I remain a mystery
You'll need nancy drew, and at least 3 of the hardee boys to find what I'm up to
Theres this gloom that looms down in your basement room
Consuming shrooms, enhaling fumes to escape your doom
Witches zoomin by on their brooms makin sonic booms
Quick call scooby doo, but I killed him too
You heard a loud pound cause I cut the fuse so you
Run away to a motel room, assuming your safe
And As you look the other way,
I got my fangs in your veins and stranglin your neck
Too bad you didn't text your friends to tell them who is next
Hmm let me think for a sec. As Hex your boy  rex 
with an incessant twitch, till he is dead in a ditch
Hang him from bunny man bridge
Yo dude turn the lights on
But there's no flip to switch , I have flipped the script
Its bewitched with no miss to kiss
Exorcist with no priest to dismiss the spirit

So the town clock strikes half past 3
There's one last gas before i must sleep
Or i will crash fast if the light touches me
Put on the mask jack, just like the sixth scream 
I need to grasp havoc, till i hear shrills and shrieks
Please back rabbit, these chills aint for teens
As I stick a cherry bomb in your moms exhaust pipe
Run up on you  with nine a knife, and the head of your wife
Its useless I'm the nuisance that's abusive yet conducive
To your fear that I am near So close I could whisper in your ear
Smell the shampoo in your hair Wipe the floor with your tears
And as you look up in the mirror
I'm there ready to smear your blood all over the chair
as I stab you with my spear I crush a coors beer then
Leave you re crops there dead, red spread on the floor
But I hear a knock on the door
Are you okay honey? "Yes mommy,  just got a cold sore"


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A House Divided

It starts out like a whirlwind
Blinded by infatuation 
Ends up like a tidal wave
Usually with litigation

What once was cute
And added to our attraction
Now only annoys
Keeping track of each infraction

Speed bumps in the road
Children torn apart
Struggle with their comfort
While finding a new start

Angers rise and fall
As connections are now severed
Tried to keep the peace
With all that we endeavored

A house divided stands
Only many stand alone
The true reason for fallout
May still remain unknown

Despite the way it seems
It’s probably for the best
Trying to keep up beat
Rather than become depressed


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Trampled Marriage

Squashed, like an Ant, on the ground.
My heart ached, when you left that day.
Crushed, my future dreams, you were bound.
By past recalls, of what did not, last anyway.
You walked, on my spirit, pretending to know.
What, my desires and my mind would say.
That I, would forever stay, here and never go,
I knew that you were a spirit, longing to be free.
My spirit locked in love, though you did not see.
For you, my old fashion ties, to a master degree,
Walking over, moving out, and taking a piece of me.
Treading on devotions, eager for greener pastures,
Though you found, fallows, dried up on his postures.
Your body returned to me, though your heart mistaken.
Our feelings, emotional desires, lost, never to awaken.


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Poetry About Poetry

Shades of color bounce within
Singing their hues dancing in place
Vivid lines colored outside
Rules broken with empty space
A midnights dream heard and seen
Gleaming from the twinkle of a eye
Wings touched flown and plucked
Gliding like a bird up in the sky
Wishes from pennies thrown into tears
The reservoir over flowing with pigments of pain
Drowning from the shadows 
The flood paints the day
Words speak volumes of silence hidden
Their sounds blind to what they see
Mirrors of nouns and verbs 
Their meaning and secrets lost at sea
Emotions ruled by laws of language
Spelled in boxes of glass
Melted from sands inside
That voices strangle to grasp


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Suicidal Nightmare of the Depressed Husband

(just a poem, don't be worried about my well-being :p)

Beautiful architecture form the walls of home
Wide-open spaces for my loyal dogs to roam
Sapphire blues and ruby reds line the borders of my garden
Freshly polished Corvette in the driveway is truly a vision

My children sleep through the night until morning
Safe, tucked in, dreaming of bright futures to come
Faithful slumbering wife who won’t leave without warning
A man should be happy with all this, but I am numb

Depression trumps my emotions like a savage tyrant
As though happiness and joy have become absent
Not even the wonders of an autumn walk through the forest
Inspires me to try to live until next August

I’m a selfish man when it comes to life and death
It’s my life to live and my life to take
My finger gently lowers onto the trigger as I take a breath
Nausea and dizziness take over as I suddenly awake

My wife asks if I’m ok as the sweat drips down my face
Utterly speechless, she takes my hand in embrace
I explain the nightmare and how it’s not so much an illusion
We agree to seek help to avoid the once inevitable conclusion


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Remember

“I can’t remember you, but you are pretty,” said the old man Tears formed in the eyes of the woman "Who are you?" His voice was the grayest of blues "Are you my new doctor? Or perhaps a nurse?" Silently, the woman took something out from her purse The photo was a wedding shot of a young pair His smile was dimpled and wide, and she had curly hair The woman handed the photo to the old man Setting it on his shaky hand He stared at it long and hard, trying to remember He looked at the date in the back—the 13th of December He looked at the woman in sudden surprise “Marianne!” He cried with joy. “Of course, my wife!” She left the room without another word That was the name of his first wife—and she was merely the third


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The Widower

What is there too say now?
What is there to do this evening?
Nothing for I am without you,
I remember you, when my eyes first looked upon your brow and beautious eyes,
Your luxurious features and a heart of gold and platnium,
I am lost in a garden of cluelessness, and lost and forgotten.

My heart aches and shivers in the lone days of the mid December evenings,
You are gone and lost without a single trace,
But soon I had lost you for good and could never find you again,
I buried you in the gardens of the dead,
and the tears from my broken heart showered your grave.

Oh now I wish you were here,
To listen to my heart,
For it is out of tune and the orchestra is playing a slow melody,
and the chimes ring me to the dinner table,
To eat alone the lonely supper for the mourning of my woman.

So I eat alone tonight,
The house is quiet and empty,
The butlers and maids have gone home,
Nothing but lone, empty halls,
Once filled with love and music,
keep me company.

The slow music plays in my study,
I sit in my red chair,
I cry and cry again,
I read a book of poetry and think of you,
Not a life worth living without you.


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Sociopathic Love

 Sociopathic Love


Don't worry before He’s done with you; He‘ll ravage you
Not just physically but through his words both twisted and firm
If you could only accept that he decides when the game ends;
You'd realize an escape is just as much of an illusion as the man you think you know

Nothing can save you from this game
The lies will roll off his chameleon tongue as he reflects everything you've shown him
He’ll pour metaphors filled with an elusive pitch; deep inside the intimate spaces that fill your head

He'll patiently watch your every move
As you squirm with denial and try to claw your way past the anger
Just as you desperately try bargaining for release
He’ll watch you drowned in hopelessness, lost without the reflection you saw in him

It's a game you won't even realize you've been playing until he decides it's over
He'll know every piece of you by then
Especially the pieces he easily replaced well you were mesmerized in your own reflection
He’ll move on to his next prey soon and only then will you'll start to awaken
He thinks you'll never find all the pieces he planted; you'll never be whole without him 

As his eyes trace the contours of your acceptance
He’ll know at the precise moment he's broken you
As he watches your will bend pliantly to his
Making you just another possession he never really wanted
Then he’ll finally release you out of boredom
Leaving you lost without the mirror you helped him create
Wondering why the piece’s you're picking up won’t fit back together the way they once did

It’s then you’ll realize that he never knew how to love
He’s found his pleasure in the games he plays
Pleasure that calms the jealousy he holds against the emotions that he's unable to feel
Allowing him to walk away without remorse; leaving his victim in their darkest moment 
He's become bored with the people that surround him and confused by his own existence           To him love is only a game used to occupy time                                                               Whenever he decides the time is right it's simple

Game Over


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A moment in time

Our lives started together,young,
They grew to a point in which we never could have known.
The love we felt for one another we never thought would waiver,
Then it happened,after all that time together.
Our lives that we had were torn apart in one instant,
One thing lead to our demise,
Something beyond our control,beyond our very thoughts.
I remember sitting in that hospital,
Trying to figure out why this could of happened to you,
why this could have happened to us.
All the pain,all the strokes,all the surgeries.
After eight years of the pain and suffering,
after all the times of being with you through it all,
You gave up on me.
You left me hurting without a care,
You left our daughter without remorse.
Why is the only question I can think of,
Why would you do such a thing when all I ever did was love you?
I guess maybe you were lost and bored with us,
You needed someone new.
I guess maybe we were,
Just a moment in time.


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Suspension of Disbelief

My hand on your shoulder;
Your hand on my waist.
We shuffle across the ballroom.
The other dancers swoon by us--
Elegant and graceful
Perfect and in sync.

We struggle to keep some sense of rhythm between us
But I'm two steps ahead of the tune
While you drag your feet.
There is nothing here but we pretend
For the sake of our parents
And for the sake of our children.

But most of all we pretend for our own sake
Because I'm too scared to see the truth.
You'd rather prowl the streets for teenagers
And have me die alone with the cats.
I don't know what I want.
But, when has that ever mattered?


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You are you, I am me

You are you, I am me
I wonder If I am seen
I hear Life passing into the night, 
like a river passes into the sea

I see That certain cats think,
iam a lying fake that only think of me.
I want To Erase and forget 
what you said to me today.
You are you, I am me.

I pretend That im happy,
 when I'm really not okay.
I feel Lost and shipwrecked, 
 love is far away.
I touch You awkwardly.
I worry If i will be good enough today.
I cry Because you dont believe a word I say.
You are you, I am me.

I understand I dont think of you,
my word always come out carelessly
I say How did things become this way?
I dream That i will awaken from this reality.
I try, And you lash out unexpectedly
I hope To find a way out of this insanity
You are you, and I am  me.
 


Details | Ballade | |

Tell Me Its Real

Your tear drop fell into my palm,
I held it as if it were a jewel to my soul so calm.
My thumbs whipped away your troubles and sorrows,
You poured your heart out to me like never before, like it was stories.

I listened very carefully and silent,
Your voice sounded as if it was frightened. 
So understand when I say that you will not need anyone anymore,
Anyone to listen to you, or even smile with you, and I say it from the core. 

Now a little refreshment for your thought,
Tell me that this is what you sought.
Did you see this coming, us being so close and in love like steal to steal,
Now one more thing, please tell me what we have is real, tell me its real.


Details | I do not know? | |

boungiorno

hello! hey! boungiorno! what is the date?/
this world of dimensions created duality/
no letters/ no words/ are enough to express/
someone like you/ in reality/

i filled all your emptines/ MY still quiet bay/
as Jhon opened world in his Yoko/
you searched perfect princes/ looked for "right him"/
now at only one overman looking/

i swear/ i will hold you/ as much as i can/
would become all the axes/ and outer space/
voice is speared by the screaming wind/
falling down/ flakes to your place/

going crazy just seeing your knees/
don't regret anything/ my Benito/
unbelievable/ perfect/ unbearable/
you whisper/ "la comedia e finita"//


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Alone and Afraid

Alone and Afraid?

There was someone I knew,
alone and afraid...
Her husband left her…
She felt betrayed!

I remember seeing her look
of despair…
Was there anyone who
really cared?

This was a very
 difficult situation.
A lot of heartache and frustration!

I remember seeing her 
 at church before.
But no one sees her anymore!

People would pass her by,
Seemingly, not concerned…
Even though things in her life,
had taken “the wrong turn.”

Aren’t we to help the widows
 and single mothers too?
This is what God’s word 
asks of me and you!

As the body of Christ... 
We should serve one another.
Reaching out to the widow
 and single mother.

We must let them know they’re
not forgotten!
Before their lives hit
“rock bottom”

This is a command Christ 
Wants us to do!
He’d do the same for 
ME and for YOU!

By Jim Pemberton


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At the bottom of your glass

I weep tears filled with the memories
All the joy when we first wed
When we'd stay up all night talking
In our matrimonial bed

We'd dream and plan our future
Between our nocturnal fun
Never thinking about sleeping
Until we saw the sun

Those night were full of magic
Hope and trust for the unknown
All the day time spent together
Building family life and home

With a blink of time we were three
and we dreamed of being four
but we never heard the evil
that was knocking at the door

We didn't see it coming
Or hear tap tap at the door
But I knew that it had found us
when I saw you on the floor
with our child curled up with you
when she was just one year old
just wanting her sweet mother
to stop her feeling cold

Was this evil sent to hurt me

Retribution for my past

But it seemed to be more happy
At the bottom of your glass


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Why

Here we go again, you yelling and my head doin spins.
Now both so loud…both tryin to win.
A battle not ment to be, between two who have something so unique;
Now hot biting lips and at times can’t speak.
B_tch is a word I try not to say, I know it burns but what else can I say
You choppin at me like a tree, molding me like clay.
Into who you see in front of you,
Doing stupid things I wouldn’t think to do.
But you know what “f__k this” “I can’t take it no more”
How strong can a man be, when he like nailed to the floor.
And you can take it how you wanna
Cuz that’s where we at right now,
Cuz don’t forget what you throwing
Also hitting like kapow!!!
When all I wanted to do…was just lay down.
So could you please just stop and think of this
You and I in this frantic twist.
All I want is my baby’s kiss.
Brainstorm…and imagine me,
Think of my eyes and what they see.
Something not working that used to be.


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Solitude

The old man wept at his wife leaving for the conveyance home… 
She was brittle now and age had ravished her body and mind…
He had acquired great solitude, which was not welcoming...
It was not welcoming, nor was it kind…
He was now a vacant, hollow king sitting upon a lonely throne…
His queen and loyal subjects had left him all alone…
He was left with nothing but his memories, and just a little time…
This solitude wasn’t welcoming…
It was not welcoming, nor was it kind…


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MY CAR

I bought a new Car of creamy color
after a long time I wished 
but needed a an expert driver

Searched and I got an young one 
with the grace of God
for a month's trial he was employed

I saw every morning with my smiling eyes
took care of it even my wife cries
because that was my sweet dream car

One day, I am and my driver started 
Car was on speed and CD player was on
up wards a hilly top so nice was that spot

Suddenly, heard a sound...drum... Car stopped 
for a few seconds our mind was blocked
struck with a big rock seen snub nosed lovely car 

I hold my head high to the blue Sky
Thanked God for saving us, loss was no matter
we returned to our home, my wife again cried

Entry: Driving me Crazy
Sponsor: Paula Swanson
Written by: bldevnath
Written on: 06/09/2011


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The Old Warrior's Day

When his six bucks are gone,
His belly warm with beer,
Comes his time of day,
The time he always does fear...

It's off to nowhereland,
His dank basement apartment,
No lovely suburban home,
This is what life deemed is his compartment

Nineteen inch T.V.,
Three beers in the "fridge",
A half a bar of cheddar,
Two pizza slices,
An annoying head buzzing midge...

He sits on the edge of his bed,
Which also is his couch,
In this one room nightmare,
His shoulders visibly slouch

Of one thing, he is grateful,
That his wife never saw him such,
He has few blessings to count,
He just doesn't have that much...

But things interest him not,
He lives deep within the past,
And of all the things he's got,
The one most treasured thing,
A picture of his wife and him...
To those old memories he does  still cling...

Yes, this "Old Warrior" still fights his war,
Not against some international crime,
This old warrior's battle,
Is against the tides of time.


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The Addiction Of Pornography


The Addiction Of Pornogtaphy...

.
A Christian brother had a confession.
Pornography in his life was an addiction .
I couldn't believe the words 
I began to hear.
As a message of hopelessness from 
his lips began to appear.

I began to see tears running down his cheek.
“I go to counseling once a week.”
This was a “man of God” as many believed.
True joy and fulfillment were no longer achieved.

As the lust in his heart began to burn.
Jesus-his once true love-he longed to return.
In the coming days and weeks ahead.
So many ungodly thoughts entered his head.

He began to lose his family and all he cherished.
His life before him began to perish
Then one night in deep agony, 
to God, he cried out;
“Is this what life is really all about?”


“Dear Jesus...in repentance I come to you.”
“I have sinned against God and my family too.”
He forsook the things he thought gave him pleasure.
And lived according to God's word
—his true treasure.
Run from every evil temptation
& lust of the flesh.
Or your life will end up in a huge mess!

Pornography in your life will destroy and decay.
From it's appearance—you must run away!
Enjoy Godly relationships as
Christ meant them to be.
Walk anew in God's love—Only HE 
can SET YOU FREE!

By Jim Pemberton


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Drinking all the tears we've shed

What did you run from
When all our dreams came true
Have you just been kidnapped
By the other one in you
 
Has she been there always
corrupt whispers in your head
Feeding on your life and soul
Drinking all the tears we've shed
 
I know that you are in there
Believing all the things she's said
Feeling betrayed by your soul mate
Alone a prisoner in your head
If the dungeon guard starts drinking
Looks away or falls asleep
Don't be ashamed
Scream my name out loud
 
My heart was yours for keeps


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Love has a World of Crime too

Wouldn't it be the perfect crime?
If I stole your heart, and you stole mine?
But instead you stole my heart and I never had yours to begin with,
Somehow it took me until now to realize this,
 
You got to know me and I got to know you,
But you only got to know me and did what you had to do,
You never said anything about you; I did all the talking,
You basically read about me and at the end you started walking,
 
To start sharing everything like we had the least,
But you still didn’t care you just took the last piece,
I love you and you love me to,
But all you can do is make a man blue,
 
I hold your hand and you hold mine,
Our love like a betrayal of two harmonious rhymes,
I kept the love and you kept the hate,
But you couldn’t love you can probably only date.
 
Forever I thought but you’re a soul stealer,
You don’t feel love you’re a hate feeler,
You’re doing all of the most conniving crimes,
You shouldn’t kill love because now you got to do all the time.


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Cover Me

Whilst I wither, as you wear me down,
There’ll come a day I will sport no frown.
I’ll dance for life; the trumpets will sound,
You’ll see in death that I’m still around.

Whilst you whistle, and sing this tune,
I’ll rise again, your hatred did not ruin,
the life in me, that did expire too soon,
blood you spilled, shadows the moon.

Crimson shades devour a precious time,
two hearts in synch within a lovers rhyme.
Casting adornment we continued to climb,
a wretched torn cord of blood and grime.

Whilst you wander, in search of your way,
I’ve battled and struggled, alone I stay.
The darkness it dwells, teasing its prey,
taunting my strength, this darkness I obey.

I kneel before him; he’s gained my trust,
this dark, blackened heart tis’ near a bust.
When this darkness to you seems unjust,
please cover me with love before I turn to dust.


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What If Joseph Kissed Potiphar's Wife

What If Joseph Kissed Potiphar’s Wife?

What would happen if Joseph kissed Potiphar’s wife?
Just think about the impact this would be on his life!

If he’d entered into her temptation and charm…
This would’ve cause much damage and harm!

Many of God’s blessings, I’m sure he would missed ‘em!
If he’s let Potiphar’s wife reach out and kiss him!

Thank God that he didn’t succumb to her beauty.
He held fast and remembered his God given duty!

A life serving God was something that he chose!
Even if it meant her tearing off a part of his clothes!

Godly living was something he decided to choose!
Even if it meant him being falsely accused!

God used him while he spent time in prison!
He trusted God, and knew that he was with him!

I’m sure there were things that he didn’t understand.
But soon, God made him the #2 ruler in the land!

May this be a stern warning to me and to all!
Think about what temptation may cause you to fall!

Scripture says “resist the devil and he will flee from you!”
Run to God!  And allow his presence
 to surround you!

This society often encourages to “indulge” in sexual sin!
This is where so much heartache and misery begins!

Run to the Lord!  Seek his spirit to lead and guide you!
A way to escape temptation, he’ll provide for you!

Like Joseph, run from temptation as fast as you can run!
And lay everything at the feet of God’s precious son!

His love will sustain you! Regardless of what you’re “missing.”
So you too can receive HIS love
 and Godly blessings!

By Jim Pemberton


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elected

home land my claims my status false statements, interests of those of secondary gaines, to voice and ask inquires led to more flaggs of red what is to hide shcemes and lies slander is to cover white colar crimes, above the laws and rules, done best at....


Details | Light Poetry | |

ADDICTED TO YOU by Collice Rodrigues

I wish to breathe my last breath in your arms

You’re the one to kill me with your charms

Everybody coaxed me to avoid you but no

You’re that someone who I just can’t let go

 

This world is cruel it has always made me cry

You take me to heaven and teach me to fly

You taught me how to deal with my pain

Without you barren would my life remain

 

You take me to a different world as I hallucinate

And all the pleasures of life you begin to recreate

I’m losing my senses someone tell me who am I

I know I need you but I don’t know why

 

Your absence makes me restless it’s you I need

I am an addict and you are marijuana my weed

I got addicted to you that I intentionally chose

Now that I’m addicted I don’t mind an overdose

 

-Collice Rodrigues

11/11/2010


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Bloody Ties

I steal, what I feel, make no mistake –
I charm, without alarm, to covet what I take.
I hide what’s inside, to abide what’s at stake.
I lie, and will deny, any wrongdoings I make.

You use and abuse your way through this life.
You cheat and defeat those plagued with strife.
You fail, and impale, those closest to your heart.
You wallow in the shallow, shredding ties apart.

We fret over the net, which safety has vanished.
We wail at the stale courtship now banished.
We hurt as we flirt our disaster, daily we plummet.
We trek through the wreck reaching death’s summit.

They say we’re astray, and our minds are broken.
They wonder, why blunder, a mirage of unspoken.
They chatter about clatter, with prejudice abound.
They sneer and they leer, that together we astound.

I’ll take the bane, and disdain and try to explain.
I’ll take the lies, masked in disguise and abstain.
I’ll take the tears, through the years and constrain.
For I made my bed, built of crimson nails and black lead,
and forever in my heart will you remain.


Details | I do not know? | |

Reflections

Old man, face wrinkled with age, moves slowly down bus, walking stick in shaky hand. Bus jolts, old man mutters. Kindly hand grabs arm. Fat lady, jolly face. Aunt Betty when he was young. Mirror reflections. Old man sits down wearily Woman in front, loaded with shopping, and two young children. One with runny nose, other chocolate covered face. Wife, children long ago. Mirror reflections. Old man gets off bus, walks down road. Lowered head, eyes sad. Places newly cut flowers by gravestones, three. Family killed in blitz. tears run down face. Mirror cracked.


Details | Bio | |

Sinners and losers

A thousand times you'd smile
Saying you were leaving me
That you've found something better
And that you want to be free
But you've been crying wolf forever
My pain you loved to see


After all of my forgiveness
For all you wicked games
You ran without a warning
Far away from all your shame

No note or any reasons
Left for my broken mind
Desperate for an answer
Of which I cannot find


Only peace I find through all this
Is I am free from sin
But still I am the loser
Not knowing what you want to win


Details | Ballad | |

Josette, Drive the Faerie out of me

She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me


Details | Rhyme | |

that single moment

a single moment when you know your life is turning bright,
a single moment when you look at your new born child and know everythings going to be alright
....
a flash back appers going all threw your head, how that one amazing moment the day you got legaly wead, to the love of your life and you know that you are his one and only wife,
to that day yes that day you had created life,
that one single moment a single tear falls down your cheak,
looking at your new born child geting excited like a freak.
....
That one moment you start to pray that you wish he could of been there,
that one amazing moment he had made a child that is so beautiful and rare.
That one spicial moment you know when your child turns seven,
that one sad moment you have to tell your child your fathers is in heaven
...
that moment laying in the hopsital with a new born at your side.
that moment when you start to tear up and cry because you know you really miss the love of your life.---Larissa summitt



Details | I do not know? | |

BREAK THIS SILENCE...

Open your mouth
and break this silence.
When was he given a licence?
This is your body,
You don’t always have to be sorry!
His hand on your jaw
Makes your face purple and sore
Is marriage,  a war?
Is this why you have come so far?
No money, just drinks, and bars!
Tacky  wowmen  and fancy cars.
he will learn
when the tables have turned
To hold you tight 
Instead of fighting, and  arguing
all through the night. 
You have to be brave,
You are not his slave
Feel proud to say
I made my move, i did not stay!



Details | Narrative | |

TOMORROW, A BLURRED VERSION OF MY TODAY

He promised, 
he would not do it again
it was a once off thing
but his anger is so uncontrollable
it makes him so unpredictable…

now I walk around on edge all the time
waiting,
anticipating,
when it will happen again
he said it is only because 
he loves me…

I’m so confused
“do you think love constitutes hitting me?”
“do you think I deserved it?”
Maybe I should have ironed his shirt like he asked
Maybe, just maybe he would not have slapped me…

He did give me a diamond necklace 
to show how sorry he was the first time
but last night he turned on me again
I could not go to work today
I will have to stay in doors for a while…

I can’t look anybody in the face
My eye half shut and inflamed 
They will think I deserved this,
He did say it is my fault

Tomorrow, I’m going try to be a better wife
And not give him a reason to lash out at me
I wonder how many tomorrow’s I’ll see,
through half opened eyes…

*Ps: This is a piece I wrote a while back inspired by the women I worked with who was in 
abusive relationships*


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KING SOLOMON'S HOUSE


As the dusk beacons
And the night commingle with the day   
Confusion rented the air 
It was an un-endless arrival of him we await
He it the one, King Solomon

Solomon’s Eve unlock her feelings
She wept and we waited,
For the King of the house who left
His throne to no destination 

This King had little of Solomon’s wisdom
But shared more of his adultery
With his cup of wine always full to a fault
Drunkard was his middle name
All his fellow drunkard Kings
Had no clue of him  
Yet, the night twinkle away

The In-law with the baby in her arms hissed
Two hours went pass the midnight
Still, it was a house full of darkness
His Eve unbolt more of her to me
As she sobs her way to sleep
“He his dead drunk again”
Shall we all sleep, less we loose our night
King Solomon is alive with no live
But drunk in the arms of a concubine” 
Darkness exit, as the cockcrows.



Alayande Stephen T.
21st of June 2007
10.15am


In Iba, conceptualized for the scene at my friend’s place OSB.



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Strangers

There were strangers at our door
Had we wanted, we could have prevented
Madness from presenting war

But they pushed as I saw, 
You did your best to stop

No illusion now my dear

They are real, 
Harbouring fear.

Rest for a while 

Come close
I promise in Heaven we shall hide and lock the door.


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Beyond repair

All those years,
All those years of loving her,trying to take the best care of her that I could.
Maybe I tried to hard,maybe it was my fault,
Maybe I loved her to much,is there such a thing?
My mind all tied in knots,
My heart feels like it's on fire.
No doctor or pill can ease the feelings that rage inside me.
The trust,the love,the devotion that I had for her shattered in a heartbeat.
Don't know if I should hate her or love her more,
I feel used,hurt,destroyed,
Like an old machine.
I feel like my heart is.....
Beyond repair.


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Forgotten Voices

Petes Story

Pete was 27 when his life changed forever
An honest man he lived life with endeavour
At 18 working as an apprentice and carving a life
At 21 he'd bought his own house got married had a child and wife

Holidays abroad twice a year a good husband and proud dad
He enjoyed a drink but it never got in the way of his love for his wife and his lad
But......the drinking turned to craving then addiction and Pete was caught in its grasp
He'd make all the promises to stop drinking but he would always relapse

Then came the excuses at work missing days turned to weeks then job lost
Then the bills and debts mounting his wife and son left hes paid a high cost
And now he walks the streets drinking cheap cider and meths
It wont be long now pete you'll be another stastistic on the list of down and out 
deaths

Jennys Story

As a young girl she had so many dreams
A pretty 12 year old gazing up at the tv screens
From an upper class family she had everything
Good education well mannered she had ambitions to sing

12 through to 16 her education flourished
Courteous well mannered physically and mentally well nourished
But....at 17 that all came crashing down around her
An accident took her family everyone even her mother and father

Feeling helpless and alone she took to the street
Its here she meets an alcoholic called Pete
He seems a decent guy he shows her the street life ropes
And they form a friendship recalling all there dreams and hopes

Hungry and cold her lifes no longer sunny
A stranger approaches her offering her money
Its her body hes after not asking but telling
Hes finished with her he throws her a tenner shes crying and broken the tears cant 
stop welling

So begins her life as a prostitute and it gets her by
Its not the life she wants but it gets her fed and keeps her dry
Her life spirals downwards her next stop is drugs
Her pimp supplies them to her.her dreams all gone she simply shrugs

But she will be joining her friend Pete soon as the drugs take hold
So here ends Jennys life forgotten her wasted body lifeless cold

Forgotten People

So spare a thought for these forgotten people who didnt choose this life
But were caught by addiction grasped by all its chaos and strife
Because they once had dreams and aspirations to fill
But the ugly shadow of addiction took away there will

Addiction is cruel it takes away choices
So lets not forget the Petes and Jennys of this world and there forgotten voices


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Retort from Inside the Eggshell

I winced disenchantment whenever you fell
Through countless absurdities I held my tongue
While you courted your daydreams from hell.

I mastered the rules willing all to be well
As you blitzed career ladders splintering each rung
I winced disenchantment whenever you fell.

I laid low, so fierce your desire to excel
Your mint julep put-downs like scorpions stung
While you courted your daydreams from hell.

I wallowed in patience, don’t ask and don’t tell
I begged your repentance where hope’s crosses hung
I winced disenchantment whenever you fell.

A childishly reckless, indulged Southern Belle 
Your frivolous insults so flippantly flung
While you courted your daydreams from hell.

For years poise and wit lulled me lame with their spell
I yearned for the charmed days when love’s fruits first sprung
But your mind’s locked up tight in a bright padded cell
I winced disenchantment whenever you fell
While you courted your daydreams from hell.


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dear deepest lover

                                     Take my hand for it all i have to offer.
                                We will go on this adventure one day together
                                             Dear my sleeping beauty 
                           This is not the end for all this is a temporary good  bye.
                                      Close your eyes for i wish for life.
                                          For this is all you wanted. 
                                            Dear your truest lover 
    I know you can make her happy for she has not been sense you left that dark day.
                   Dear weeping heart dear soul that is stained by which you once held.
                              I will morn and grieve my weeping heart  will never heal.
                                         I loved you tell my dying day.
                  Because you touched my heart in such a special so i always pray.
                            Dear deepest lover dear my sweetish mother.
                                                         RIP  NAN


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One Last Glance--- SONG 1

Don’t let yourself be scared,
	be confident.
Don’t hold your soul back,
	just let it take flight.
Standing alone in an empty room
	admiring art from pictures of me and you.

One glance back at the life you knew before,
One last tear that wasn’t meant to fall,
One last embrace to know you were real,
One last breath to make sure you were okay;
One glance back.

Sheltered in your arms,
	a curtain of love binds me.
Hunger in your kiss,
	to know that you need me.
But I’m standing alone in a crowded
room filled with people admiring pictures
	of me and you.

One glance back at the life you knew before,
One last tear that wasn’t meant to fall,
One last embrace to know you were safe,
One last breath to make sure you 
were awake;
One glance back.

You left me on my own
worried sick about you, holding onto all
that was left of you. The
memory of you walking away,
with my silent prayer
hoping you would be okay. . .

One glance back. . .

		One last tear. . .

	One last embrace. . .

			One last breath. . .

One glance back at the life you had before,
One last tear that was meant to fall,
One last embrace to hold me through the 
night,
One last breath just to see the
mornin’ light.
One last glance.

One last glance. . .
		One last tear. . .

			One last embrace that I hold dear. . .

	One last breath that saves a life. . .



One last glance good-bye. . .

				Good-bye. . . 


								good-bye.


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Our little boys

Look at our three little boys all grown up. You'd be so proud of the men they are today. They think of you often and what'd you say to them today. I wish you could have been here to see them grow into the men they are today. Their no longer the little boys who use to need us to need us to make their bumps and bruices go away. Their now the strong men that have their own family's. You gave me three angels from above but, you were taken from us to soon. I know your always watching after them from above. Even tho their all grown up they'll always be our three little boys.


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Whatever Tomorrow Brings

When Heaven comes knocking at my door,

It will be clear that I've won the war.

I can see it now, you falling to the floor,

Pleading, "No, take me, what are you doing this for?"

I wont let them take you, instead of me,

For dull as a blank page, my life would be.

Your endless love has always been the key,

And from the Heavens, your love, I'll still see.

I'll wait for you each and every day,

And if luck strikes out, and you go the other way,

I shall give up my angel wings and say,

"Without him here, I just can't stay,

Life without him just isn't the same,

I can't be up here, living with the shame,

Of knowing that he has lost his own game,

Oh, he was a good shot, until he lost his aim."

I know you'll hear me, your smile will beam,

You'll hear my voice and think it's a dream.

Oh, but as dream-like as it may seem,

Know that it's true, though it may be hard to deem.

I'll take my chances and dive headfirst into the blue,

I'll even swim the coldest river, try something new.

The things I'll do to be back with you

Will all be worth the journey I'll go through.

From the high skies I will have fell,

God sending down my last death bell.

When I reach the firey gates of Hell,

I'll wish the Heavens a nice, "Fare-well."

Both of our hearts will skip a beat,

When we see each other and our eyes meet.

Our bodies will melt due to too much heat,

We'll die with a strong sense of undefeat.

We'll feel the pain of a thousand cries,

We'll finally say our last "Goodbyes,"

But if true love truly never dies,

Our love will not fall, it will only rise.


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The Spirit of Ruby Anne

This was written for Halloween :P



A silent, roaming apparition
Was the wife of a physician
While away on a mission
He married a magician
Without permission
His volition
Sliced open
His wife's
Heart.

The wife never loved another man
Poor, broken-hearted Ruby Anne
She died one day in Cheyenne
Now, everyday, you can 
See where it began
Ruby Bouman's
Spirit will
Never
Die. 



Dawn D. Kilby 
Copyright ©2008  Dawn D. Kilby


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Setting up House

I met a woman, fell in love
She was a gift from above
Soon she became my spouse
We gathered things and set up house.

Some things were new without a flaw
Some were hand me downs from Ma and Paw
For some we saved nickels in a can
Some were bought on the installment plan.

Children came – a total of four
Two boys – two girls- no need for more
We managed to provide room and board
Did the best we could afford.

We moved around from house to house
On an adventure – me and my spouse
Gathering things to which we would cling
But we rarely got rid of anything.

Tables, chairs, couches, and beds
Cabinets and shelves taller than our heads
Mugs, pictures, and bells we did collect
Mementoes and heirlooms on which to reflect.

A man gathers a lot in over fifty years
And remembers many of them with tears
Many a thing still fills my house
But it’s not a home without my spouse.

She has a room in a retirement home
Care is provided and she cannot roam
I dreamed one day we would be old timers
But I never figured on Alzheimer’s.

Now I have a house full of stuff
Too many things - more than enough
The time has come to downsize
To an apartment in the high rise.

My children came one by one
Went through my stuff until they were done
One takes this and another takes that
And managed to do so without a spat.

Giving things away is a lonely task
My irritability I cannot mask
Gathering things with my spouse
Was more fun than cleaning out house.



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Nobody Home

I don't sit home waiting for love to come call,
though I'm spending all my time alone;
the next time I hear love knock on my heart,
if it's you, there's nobody home.

When I answered the knock to admit you,
I didn't know what was in store;
you cheated and hurt me, then broke my heart,
if you knock, I'm not home anymore.

When you left I reached the conclusion,
that no-one at all in my life;
was better for me in the long run,
than being a cheating mans wife.

So don't come knocking again at my heart,
thinking I'll let you come home;
you better believe when I tell you,
if it's you, there's nobody home.


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Glimpse Of A Angel

        Today I caught a glimpse of a angel and as she smiled
   her eyes did shine.
        Granting me a degree of joy'so warm,and so kind.
      With a brilliance of beauty,even blind men could see.
 Uniquely gracious her comforts me.
      From the crown of her head to the sole of her feet.
That wondrous aroma,that fills the air,is just body heat.
      Then a soft sweet symphony did fill my ears.
 As this angel did speak, my heart was healed and my soul taught a new fear.
       From no other place,than above.
Someone showed mercy and granted me love.
       But when my time is over,she'll go away. 
And my heart will break,until I catch a glimpse of my angel another day.
       Until that day there can be no better a taste.
Other than my lips pressed against her face.


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Thank You

She had abandon my life.
I know, She is my wife..

She made up my life like hell.
Now, I am throwing everything in a well..

I was different and brave.
It's time to bury me in grave..

I want to sleep to never wake up again.
Because, I can't come out from tears of rain..

Thinking of my situation, which makes me shiver.
I will definitely die to failure of liver..

I have dreamed many things with her.
Nothing of mine was better with yer..

I wanted to cleanses you of evil.
In regards, you handed over me to the devil..

I must say hearty thanks to her.
Finally, she made my happiness blur...


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Soul Crusher

You turned me into this, my soul now an abyss, cold, dark, nothing, where love no longer resides there's nothing left to hide. All the times I cried, killed me slowly; my heart just died. "Just a feeling, you'll get over it" Just a fleeting insignificant moment. You've beaten me down, but a stronger me has emerged. No longer is my soul submerged by who or what you want me to be I am me and I WILL be free! of you and your soul crushing ways.


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Just Words

To you they're only words,
uttered out of anger.
To me they're forceful stabs,
with a jagged dagger.

Stating I’ve lost my will,
along with any drive.
Shouting I have no purpose,
nor will I ever thrive.

Begging me to forgive;
for only human you are.
Promising you’ll try to end,
this brutal vocabulary war.

But like any other battle,
one must try to succeed.
Realize I’m not the enemy;
It’s me you cause to bleed.

They’re “Only Words” seems,
to be your favorite line.
Even when I’ve begged you,
to see the abusive signs.

You’ll never change will you?
This is who you are.
My only words left to say;
I can no longer bare the scars.


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Blinded on My Wedding Day

Convince that you are the one for me.

Persuaded that I am the one you need.

Deceived that you desire my love.

Refused to see the truth so I wait.

Believing that your heart is not filled with hate.

I cry for my Heart that I am not confused.

Praying to God that I am not just being used.

Blinded by the, Yes I will marry you!

Consumed by the, Will you marry me?

Walking down the aisle to meet my groom, didn't realize it was the day of my doom! 

Oh! What can I say. Blinded on My wedding Day.


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Forever She Dreams

“Forever She Dreams”
By: Christian Shepherd

I want her back in my arms,
to feel her breathe on my neck.
Her every breathe detectable on my chest.
To hold her close from leaving me.

Watch her as she sleeps,
to hold her close in a slumber so deep.
Watch as her expressions tell a dream,
her temporary reality.

Tell her to "sleep tight love,
I’ll see you in the morning."
Wake up to her by my side,
without her my heart unforgivingly bleeds.

I don’t want to be without you, 
the thought brings melancholy.
I want you with me, 
"please don’t leave me,” I plead.

But its too late for pleas,
fate has already made its judgment.
Now she is forever gone,
and I am empty.

I still bleed. 
I wish I could go back to her.
Savor every moment i took for granted.
But for now my heart still bleeds.

Lying at night kills me,
looking over where she slept.
Seeing her figure in the shadows,
knowing only that it is wishful thinking.

Still i reach over, hoping to find its rest.
I pray that rest may be her shoulder.
The shoulder that I used to cry on.
The should that now could stop my pain.

Then anger stirs inside of me,
"WHY HER! COULD YOU NOT LET HER BE!"
She was mine, not yours,
its not fair, let her be, bring her back to me!

There’s no way, fate has made its choice,
and now forever she dreams.

So for now…until the blood runs out...I bleed.


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heart of falsehood

I know a man who is in mourning
     For cruel Fate has kept him pinned
Forever on the side of losing
     When falling in love is living in sin.

The Bride is soon to wear her ring, 
     Her house already has a host; 
Desire can not bring to a standstill
     Yearning what's forbidden most.

Someone will win, someone will lose; 
     Whose happy end the Bride will choose? 
It matters not, it matters most; 
     Both ends forfeit a heavy cost.


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For The One I Love

I am the one who took your everything
Impossible I have anything to bring

Maybe we could find a common ground
No matter, it could never be found

You are not his center, so why even bother
If only you could see this wonderful husband and father

Years fly past, but still I try
Will you ever see it was never a lie

Bitterness remains without a care
Blind to everything we now share

Strong I stand and accept what I must do
For the one I say "I love you"


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You're Gone

Screaming to be free
Detesting all of me
Wishing you were here
Drowning in my fears
Crying to be whole
Loathing your new goals
Fighting to survive
Longing to feel alive
Struggling with this fate
Trying not to hate
Smothering all this pain
Explosive once again
Combating this new plot
Hoping I’ll get caught
Probing feelings naught
Tasting hateful lots
Pleading for your help
Banish hurtful yelps
Dejecting the unknown
I’m tired of being alone


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THE QUEEN OF MY LIFE

Omofolabode MAKEs ME PROUD
Than anything I ever could achieved,
Seem to be so small since she arrived.
Angel winds an angelical formation.

Breathing seems so hard to do,
Suddenly, the promise of love has gone.
Omofolabode, I now understand
The time we made love together.

Why do I love you like I do?
You should have told me
Like a sunrise, like a rainfall
You make me feel funny

When you come around.
What I find out is joy.
She makes me feel happy
Like velvet to my skin

And I often wonder why?
Someone as flowed as I
Deserve to be as happy as
She makes me
To long for omofolabode
The queen of my life.


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Guilty As Charged Try Jesus

Guilty As Charged? There was a woman caught in an adulterous act. Her accusers came after her with all of the “facts…” She came to Jesus. .. With a heart-felt plea. “Master….” “Have mercy on someone like me!” Jesus looked at her as she wept and cried. So many other things she had already tried. Coming to Jesus… She felt scared and alone… Jesus told her accusers; “You without sin.” “Throw the first stone.” One by one… They dropped the stones and fled. Rather than face the truth… They ran away instead… Jesus told the woman; “Your forgiven.” “Go and sin no more…” She was the meaning of what God’s grace was meant for. If you’re caught in a situation, with “no way out…” This is what the meaning of salvation is all about! Any “accusers” you may have, will quickly run and hide. When to Jesus you come… And have him “on your side…” Allow the master to cleanse your life this very hour… And experience the love of his life-changing power! He’ll take you in with his arms wide open. “You’re forgiven!” Will be the lovely words spoken! Be “caught up” in the savior’s redeeming grace… He’ll give you hope and put a smile on your face! By Jim Pemberton


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Stuck in limbo

I don't want a divorce, 
I don't want our marriage to end.

I would love to be by your side,
and when the whole world is against me have a place to hide.

I desire to see your face every morning when I wake,
it hurts me deep inside that I'm away.

Not by my choice but because you feel It's best,
you don't have the feelings for me that a wife should.

I'm not sure if you think you're doing me a favor by separating like this,
one things for certain that you both are truly missed.

My life is up in the air and when I fall I hope that you'll be there.

I know I'm sometimes rough around the edges but that's who I am,
committed, loyal but sometimes paranoid of how you do things.

Am I to be totally subservient to you if things work out?
Or will we both meet half way instead of scream and shout?

I wonder at this very moment if you feel anything for me, 
I know I love you very much and never wanted to leave.

Stuck in limbo in every aspect of life.
What am I to do, when I still love my beautiful wife?


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A Long Lonely Year

Afghanistan. far away from those I love.

Leaving was tough this time, the kids tears tore at my heart.
Only as I turned to watch them drive away, did I see my wife crying
Never has she cried, always pretending to be strong
Going away for the fourth time must have been too much for her to bear.

Letting myself believe, I will make it through this fourth combat tour.
One year seems like a lifetime, the minutes ticking slowly by.
Never letting tears of sadness get the better of me.
Everyday, I think about my wife and our four kids. Are they ok?
Lost is how I feel.  Something is missing, I can barely breathe.
Yet this is what must be done, I took an oath. I made a promise.

Yearning every second, for my wife's kisses, and my childrens hugs.
Every hour of the day I pull out their picture, to see their smiles. 
Always in my dreams, my family is there for me. Never losing faith.
Reunited we shall be, after a long lonely year.


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Santa Fe

It all came to an end last Sunday in Santa Fe.
The love of my life was violently taken away.
A mugger shot my wife even though she gave him her purse.
She was rushed to the hospital but things got even worse.
The doctors couldn't save her even though they tried.
While she was on the operating table, she died.
She was carrying my baby and that makes it more sad.
I'm no longer a husband and I will not be a dad.
Because of that bastard, two lives have came to an end.
My wife wasn't just my lover, she was also my best friend.
Now that she's gone, my future doesn't look very bright.
When the cops find that man, I hope they shoot him on sight.
She died even though I went to the Chapel to pray.
My life became worthless last Sunday in Santa Fe.

(This is a fictional poem.)


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Remebering

There goes that smile again, 
loose
like a stray hair, 
greying;
caught upon the breeze.
You wheeze out a last laugh remembering times gone,
Back when you shone. 
Now only with mind's eye, 
rose-tinted,
is it hinted that you knew of the summer and spring.

Smile-wrinkles and worry lines still enchant,
Even as they plant: 
bitter-sweet feelings deep in my soul.
Crow's-feet 
clutch
as memories call out their last sweet siren song.

Past these old lips a complaint spills:
discomfort and distance.
Far from me,
lost.
As the frost covers your world, 
those first flakes stick.
You again thick in fog 
moan about those kids and how they sing.

Holding your hand I take night watch, 
weep silently at endless loss.
Later as I toss and turn I imagine that your mind 
remains intwined with mine.
That all, for now,
is fine with you, 
I forget all life now is tinged with the bitterest sting...
But then I remember...


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I GOT THAT FEELING

I got that feeling you are not love me anymore
Your kisses are as hot and cold as before
Where the reflection of San Francisco’s pier
Brings nothing to you such illusion of lightsome
I fear soon it would be over upon the warm I keep.

Courtville’s home might split in half
The cars might follow the shame
And a court battle has just begun.
Oh, God, believe me! I’m going to fight to death
To give domestic life another paramount twist,
Scream if it’s necessary but my little boy isn’t going
With her.

You blame me for all and for what it is no there
Like the time I write and make you within my limits
Nothing I could do to change color and vain
But my little boy, the one you have given to me
From the last autumn isn’t going to live with that ugly bull of yours.


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female alcoholic

Female alcoholic 
  
On my evening walk, in my town, I ambled
past a bar and heard a familiar laughter; 
there she was in full flow surrounded by
men who plied her with drinks thinking she 
was easy. Heavy make- up to hide ravages 
of years and abuse . In the bar´s dim light 
she looked almost young and eye-catching.
None of the men had seen her as I had seen
her in the morning, mascara running, tears
shakes, begging for a drink to stop tremors.
Promises to stop drinking tomorrow when 
things became settled… always tomorrow
When she saw me, got up and waved I ran
like a fugitive on slippery stones, a coward,
yes, but living with an alcoholic…impossible.   


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Prostration

Now there are two of us that don't know what to do,
I thought that we understood each other.
After last night I feel even more confused,
all because of one person called your mother.

Are we both gluttons for punishment?
Why must we go through this again?
I'm tired of living in a state of advent,
it effects us both, this marriage in a life of bane.

I cannot contest the decisions you make,
but don't act out of desperation.
It's no different than taming a poisonous snake,
which in the long run brings no salvation.

Feeling now that my thoughts or opinions don't matter,
even if it is only for a short duration.
With tears running down my face, my mind and heart shattered,
this one burden in our lives I wish for cessation.

Maybe I'm overreacting for those who know me can say,
but all I know is I hate feeling this way.
Cause I love you so very much I trust you in all that you do,
even if we both end up insane, all that I am will always be with you.


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Exile

You try to do the best that you can,
walking on eggshells I could never stand.

Both feeling judged for every action,
love thrown aside by this distraction.

So we're both insecure and afraid to face the music,
time goes by and hits us like a ton of bricks.

I don't think I've changed that much,
your mind in the past is where it's stuck.

Damage beyond repair is all that can be seen,
one of us has to go, exiled, as hard as it may seem.

So one of us puts our foot down. But at what cost?
The intolerance to change so that a marriage is lost.

Arrogance is the sickest way to raise your esteem,
now that all that we could've been is now just a dream.


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LIFE IS MEANT TO LIVE

LIVING IS LAUGHING, SHARING THE FUNNIEST MOMENTS THAT CAPTURED OUR GREATEST 
SMILES.
ENJOYING THE TIME WHEN SOUNDS OF HAPPINESS WERE ALL THAT CLEARED THE AIR.
THE GIGGLES WE'VE HEARD, THE SMILES WE SEE,
THE TOUCH I FEEL WHEN YOU ARE SO NEAR.
LIFE IS THE MEANING WE LOVE SO DEAR.
THE AMBITION & MOTIVATION USED TO KEEP OUR HEADS CLEAR.
OUR REASONS TO STRIVE & TO KEEP LOVE ALIVE.
OUR DECISIONS TO MAKE,
TO FEEL OUR HEARTS BREAK,
TO TAKE THAT GREAT CHANCE BEFORE ITS TO LATE!
TO FINDING TRUE LOVE & NEVER ASTRAY,
TO BEING SO ANGRY & STILL WANNA STAY,
TO HAVING THE PATIENCE OF AN ARMY OF MEN,
BUT STILL BEING ABLE TO CRACK & BEND.
LIFE IS A LESSON FOR EACH ONE TO LEARN,
AND BLESSINGS THERE FOR EACH ONE TO EARN.


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I felt a lump

I felt a lump when I was with my wife one terrible night.
She lost her battle even though she put up a good fight.
I tried to think positively, I thought she would be fine.
But after having tests done, the lump wasn't benign.
After two years of battling breast cancer, she was gone.
I lost the love of my life, how can I possibly go on?
I was by her side until she took her final breath.
I've been living in misery ever since she left.
Every day I cry and mourn as I sit by her grave.
Even with modern technology, she couldn't be saved.
If we had found the lump sooner, she may have had a chance.
It's very hard to eat and sleep, without her, my life cannot advance.
I would give anything if the doctors could've saved her life.
My baby is gone and I lost my best friend as well as my wife.

(Even though this is a fictional poem, breast cancer is a serious threat to women. Women should have themselves checked.)


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The broken fairytale

Once upon a time there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
So true was such their love,
There wasn't anyone who disapproved.
 
It had been love at first sight,
A fairy tale since that day.
The maiden had found the man of her dreams,
No one else needed to have a say.
 
They had done it all,
Candlelight dinners, shyly holding hands,
Kissing in the rain, dancing around trees,
Leaving intertwined footprints on white sands.
 
But it wasn't just another love story,
It was uniquely special like every other one.
They had eyes for no other but one another,
The best part of their lives had just begun.
 
They traveled around the world,
And she kissed her man at the seven wonders each.
People would smile at the storybook couple,
As they counted stars standing on a beach.
 
With her, he was the man he wished to be,
The one who wouldn't think twice,
About pulling her up to dance in a crowded train,
He'd protect her, keep her happy at any price.
 
He'd see through her weak smile,
All the way to the tears inside,
He'd whisper sweet things in her ear,
Hold her till all the tears dried.
 
Though they did have a fair share of problems,
They always came together again,
No matter what happened,
Like raindrops on a window pane.
 
On a rainy day, she had sat waiting,
Wondering about the surprise he had promised,
But he never came,
For the winds of fate had suddenly changed. 
 
Five years after that day, she found herself alone,
Sitting on the porch, counting stars on her own,
As she recalled the day he had been taken from her,
'An unfortunate accident' on the next the papers had shown.
 
She hadn't cried on the phone, she hadn't cried on the way,
She didn't even cry when she had to identify him,
Not a single tear or a heartrending sob.
She just stared ahead with an expression so grim.
 
It was only when she had received his belongings,
The remnants of his last minutes, did she react.
She screamt and cried, laughed and wailed,
For among others, was a diamond ring beautifully packed.
 
His surprise, the laughter in his voice,
The excitement, the secrecy of the evening.
He had been right, it had left her breathless,
But he wasn't there to see the sorrow it did bring.
 
Even now her eyes brimmed with tears,
As she looked at the ring as it sparkled,
And thought of that time when there lived,
A beautiful girl and a man she loved.
 
- Miliya Parveen


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Disloyalty

My suitcase lies on empty bed
With travel on my mind . . .
I pack then fly within my head
As I leave your ghost behind.

Someday it won't be just a dream
Carving out a new life will be real.
I sacrifice, you say I scheme,
Misunderstood is how I feel.

With crumbling vows you cheat on me.
My saddest eyes with tears do fill.
To leave, my avenue must be;
The contrast is I love you still.


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Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


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I have

I have gotten used to
coming home to be alone
I have gotten used to 
not questioning where you go
and I have gotten used to 
a short call to say hello
but I have not gotten used to 
the way my heart feels ohh so low

I have leaned to be okay 
with talking only briefly
our schedules don't match up at all
but someday you will see me
I have learned you never come
when you say you will
and I have learned not to expect 
the actions said by you

I would like to be taken out
just once in a blue moon
I don't ask for much you see
just to be with you
I would like to lay one night 
knowing you won't have to leave 
I would like to wake up to 
you sleeping next to me.

But no, you can't
not right now
maybe in a year
should I wait when my heart breaks?
every day I feel the tears
I am lonely and in love
with someone who loves me
or so I think, 
but where oh where is he?


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Fear

Wide eyes
Panic
lips hovering right below a scream
hair pulled into a fist
mouth covered
panicked eyes
wide
heart rattling
fear


Details | Senryu | |

NEWSFLASH: Charmer in Jail

charmed four wives--same time;
loved each 'til  her cash dried up--
charmer in jail now


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Nightmare

My nightmare is not a just a dream,
it haunts me as I'm awake and I feel like I can scream.

Not because I'm afraid of a monster or death,
but because if I loose you I would loose my breath.

And all that we've ever done and gone through,
I hold in my heart and understand it to be true.

Not a blur or lost in confusion,
I'm afraid of our lives conclusion.

Afraid to never see our child grow up day after day,
afraid to never kiss you and that you will stray.

Fearful that you will forget me and find another,
or that you will be angry through life as a single mother.

I've always wanted to be there for you and not myself,
hoping you will not put your love for me on the shelf.

This is my nightmare that I dream about when I'm awake,
I'm trying to win back your love cause there's so much at stake.


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I Didn't Know HOw Good I Had It Until I Lost Everything I Owned


I didn't know how good I had it, 
until I lost all that I owned.
I lost my famly, all of my cars 
and even my home.

I tried to live a life according
 to a "good principle."
I let pride get in the way and
 felt rather "invincible."

I once had money, wealth and a lot of fame.
It seemed like everyone around
 me all knew my name.

I feel empty now... afraid.... 
and "at my wit's end."
Everyone. it seems, has left me.
 Even my "close friend.

Jesus... You're the one I know 
that I can call upon.
You make things "right" 
when all seems "wrong."

What you can give to me, 
money could never buy.
I humbly kneel before you Lord, 
with a desperate cry.

PLease help me dear Jesus. 
 I know that you can.
I read in your word that you are; 
"I AM that I AM!"

In YOU... Jesus... can I
 find life's meaning.
Your life for mine, is what I'm now receiving.

You're my best friend whom 
I love so much.
I long for your mercy and peace... 
your "special touch."

You alone can bring true joy that 
fortune could never give.
You brought me hope and peace
 and a reason to live!

By Jim Pemberton
2007


 






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A Wounded Wife

You went on with your life
With someone who is not your wife

Now being faithful and true
Is this really you?

I gave my all and all I had
To keep you happy and not sad

Did I fail you yesterday, fail you today
Fail you enough to make you look her way

You were my alpha and omega;my soul mate
She reeled you in and you took the bait

Lived by your every word;believed what you said you'd do
Went along with all the lies; though I knew they weren't true

Painted a picture you wanted everyone to see
Fooled no one; not even me

Shocked and confused
For my love was abused

If I was not all you wanted and not worth the wait
Then why did we set a date?

A date to marry; a date we carried
The vows made in October are now dead and buried.

Forgive me for being bitter and unkind
Forgive me for not leaving our past behind

No contact with me keeps her mind at ease
This is a cycle; your ex and me; doesn' t she know this happens in threes








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Preach

Preach to the full moon soldier
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Mother has child that father denies
Leaves when his baby lets out those first cries
Excuses flying, lies sailing; words without care
Feelings are complicated so share you don't dare
Lips that smile hold some bruises and a cut
Hands that have done the damage slam the door shut
You watch him out the window glass
Retreating figure gone at last

Preach to the full moon soldier
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Things get harder, mothers fired
Baby is toddler and much too tired
Money is in short supply
If only father would just comply 
To help raise his growing kid
Instead he ran and lost his bid
A single tear stains the cheek
Of a mother's soul who's much too weak

Preach to the full moon soldier 
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Mothers dead, everything's blown
Toddler is small child left alone
Father drunk, stumbling back
Custody left to this piece of slack
Days are long and too far gone
Nights are worse, he's never done
Talking his beer scented words speaking
He says to his child be kind, PREACHING

Preach to the full moon soldier 
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Small child has developed
Distinguished individual moving up
Swearing to the sky blue
They will be nothing like you
Father in jail thief from the night
Cell lit dimly with pal moonlight
A smile to the grown child
A tear from the man of the wild

Preach to the full moon soldier
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder


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Tears

She cried because her world had collapsed
He cried because their world had collapsed
She wanted her world back
He couldn’t live in it

She cried because she had lost love
He cried because he had found love
She wanted his love back
He couldn’t give it

She cried because she was alone
He cried because he had been alone
She would never understand
He knew she couldn’t. He left


charlie milne 2008


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I've Failed You Once Again

I Have Failed…


Lord, I have failed you time and time again,
By hanging on to my unrepentant sin.
I once thought, “my life will never get off track,”
Until that one day when I committed such a
terrible act.


“No one’s watching me” was what I thought,
not knowing the pain and suffering into my family
I had brought.
That one night of “pleasure” I hoped would go away,
but this sin stares me in the face every single day!

The lust that crept into my once cheerful heart,
Is now eating at me—tearing me all apart.
I once thought I was too good to commit a sin like this,
so many of God’s blessings I now will miss.

To you Jesus—my whole heart I ask you to cleanse.
for in you my whole life now depends.
Create in me a clean heart, renew a right spirit
within me.
Your forgiveness in my life is what others must see.

The most important thing to God I can now give,
Is a broken and contrite heart each day I shall live!


By Jim Pemberton


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To US

In my heart so deeply deprived Sad and unhappiness for two whole years (Seems like it started at the first house we arrived) My deepest and darkest most horrifying fears They are all coming alive And I most definitely have the strength to go on For all his emotions he's kept to hide Singing this repeating monotonous song Losing him --- I think for his side it's lost But the desire from both of us to fight Two wasted years, lies, hatred, betrayal it cost But working desperately through this since that night The tears welled in my green eyes As he told me he loved me no more I thought this whole time he was my dream prize Across the curves of his body my tears poured I pack my stuff sadly ready to go And he stops me --- for once he fights He says he loves me and that he knows To create this marriage a new trust I don't want it to end with my best friend For my heart, soul, and love belongs to him We share a son --- no regrets --- I'd do it all over again and again I sit here and write --- I love him 'til the very end I still get butterflies when I feel his lips against mine I still feel his deepest warmth from way deep within I never want to lose what we've created --- or him Our marriage and family I'll defend


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She

Shes got bruises on her skin
And sorrow in her mind
Told her fighting back was a sin
Told her you were kind

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too

You took her life and now shes gone
Your signature for her death was signed
How will you feel when you see that dawn
When you have your daughter’s death on your mind

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too

You told your wife you’d hit her
If she said a word
What had happened to what you were
Silence could not have cured

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too

Hit your wife to death
Now shes gone aswell
She took her last breath
While hearing you yell

Lying to her was too fun
She never doubted you
She never even tried to run
She even loved you, too


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Disoriented

Soon I will be gone from this place,
but before that, I will live with no more grace.

Another country, another language, another culture,
but while I'm here, I get picked apart by vultures.

So disoriented with so little time.

No emotion dwells in the heart for the one that I desire,
pain and suffering seems to be all that I acquire.

Can't make a dent with her to change her mind,
nothing is certain with those I leave behind.

Not by choice but because I have to,
something that was inevitable cannot be construed.

I will leave to carry all the blame,
but my  love for you I will always proclaim.

Even though everything I do is never good enough,
I've never quit in our relationship when times got tough.




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Mabel

The crisp cool breeze
helped the sailboat to glide,
like a swan on a lake,
or the glory of a kite.

The shiny exterior
shone pearlescent white,
the gold, christened lettering,
gloriously reflecting the light.

Newly purchased, fridge stocked,
husband proudly at the wheel,
his wife dressed in stripes,
below, fussing about their meals.

This was their retirement,
the life they had planned,
and then without warning,
she felt dizzy; she could not stand.

As she gasped for air
and tried to call out his name,
her husband stood proudly,
planning his wife's life long dream.

As she stumbled and fell,
her head hit the table,
her husband oblivious
he was mapping their course,
deep in thought; for his beautiful wife; Mabel.

Her dream was to voyage
the open blue seas,
like two peas in a pod,
his Mabel, the queen bee.

As she lay motionless,
no sound could be heard,
but the lull of the waves
and sweet song of the birds.

As the husband took a step
down the galley below,
all he saw was his Mabel,
clutching her ring; eyes closed.

He gently and lovingly
picked her up with care,
and he took his wife, Mabel
and collapsed in their chair.

He rocked her and cried
my Mabel, my love,
you are my joy, my life,
as he released her to the sun.

He whispered a note
of her favourite tune,
as he took off his ring
and gently put it with hers.

Mabel, my love,
we will never be apart,
for the vows that we spoke,
are forever in our hearts.


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Together Forever

My baby died two years ago today
Died in a car accident at 4th and Bay
Cried for so long, cried for years
Thought I’d drown in my own tears

I’ve moved on with my life
Strayed away from the knife
But I see her walking in the night
Bathed in a fierce shimmering light

She’s dead, I’m going insane
Just speaking of this makes me inane
But what if she’s returned?
For this day I’ve yearned

I follow her in the darkness and cold
I’ll follow her until I become old
No, I can’t, she died in the wreck
I must keep my mind in check

Baby, why do you do this to me
Why can’t you just let me be
I can’t take the hurt of seeing you there
All of this pain I cannot bear

I speak to her, she doesn’t respond
How I want to join her in the great beyond
Baby, don’t worry, we’ll be together
We’ll walk the night, together forever

I’ve decided to join my baby in her walks
Now we can have those long talks
Pierced a knife in my forearm deep
Maybe now me and my baby can sleep


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LOVE NEVER LASTING

THE ENCOUNTER…

The World Wide Web.
Yahoo Personals.
Yahoo Profile.
Yahoo Posting.
Yahoo Photo Sharing.
Yahoo Instant Message Communications.
Yahoo Email Correspondents.
Homely Phone Calls.

THE FIRST DATE…

Morning Breakfast at McDonalds.
Afternoon Movie at the Cinemas.
Afternoon Lunch at McDonalds.
Dinner at McDonalds.
The Fourth of July Fireworks in the Park.
The Fifth of July, The First Kiss.

THE ENGAGEMENT...

Spontaneous.
Michigan in Summer.
Mother of Pearl Centered Ring.
The Wedding Band NOT Gold.
The Wedding Band NOT White Gold.
The Official Announcement at Thanksgiving.


TWO YEARS MARRIED…

The Bridal Shower.
The Bridal Gifts.
The Wedding, Viva Las Vegas. 
Additional Wedding Gifts.
Families.
Friends.
The Honeymoon, the Casino Strip.

The “First Home,” Sin City.
The First Apartment.
The Second Apartment.
The Car Occupation.
The Newspaper Living.
The Pizza Delivery Vocation.

The Domesticated Cat.
The Strayed Felines.
The Homemade Dinners.
The Chinese Take Outs.
The Necessary Coke Colas.

New Friends.
Old Friends.
Missed Families.
New Occasions.
New Celebrations.
Family Birthdays.
Family Holidays.
Family “Circle” Phone Calls.

THE DIVORCE…

The Winter Home Visit.
The Cold, Personal Phone Call.
The Endless Crying.
The Heated Anger.
The Emotional Disgust.
The Mental Understanding.
The Heartfelt Acceptance.
The Bitter, Brief Letter.
The Divorce Papers.
The Filed Papers.
The Last Forgotten Phone Call.
The Difficult Distances of the In-Laws.
Paying Rent to Mom.



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kiss,hugs, and tears

 U didnt whisper in my ear no u whispered to my heart.Not only did u kiss my lips but my soul right from the start.

The minute that u left a sickness took over my body.I stop beleiving everything real close to illuminati.

But I altered my attitude that altered out my life. I couldnt loose my future since I already lost my wife. 

I got back up on my feet and put my limits in the sky. People asked me if I could reached the I dont know was my reply.

 I found a way to smile and to stop being upset.Nothing improves memmories more than trying to forget.

I was doing better my mind was finely clear then I relapse nowhere u decide to reappear.

U brought life to all my nightmares illustrated all my fears. That loves start with a hug, grows with kisses ends with tears. 

I gave you everything I had I gave you good love and protection.U know that ur in love when a persons flaws look like perfection. 

Cant beleive u actually told me that u loved and didnt mean it. Cant beleive I was naive and dum to actually beleive it. 

I see once again and dont have words because Im scared. A broken heart will always heal but never be repaired.

Cant let go of people that u keep thinking about. Its me againts persuation and most likely Ill loose the bout. 

They say that no ones perfect but that everyone is great. u were already great became perfect what a trait. 

To learn means that u failed to fail means that u learned. Our love was just like hell and hell means that it burns. 

Still with all of that we facing off after the years. Fate is not quite as strange as it appears.

Sometimes we have to die ourselves to live for someone else. But with all the sacrificing u forget how to excell. 

God is a tought who makes the crooked all that straight. He has justification of our love that turn to hate.

Who knows when Ill get over u tomorrow or maybe never. But even though I love you say goodbye and leave forever.
 


Details | Elegy | |

One Fine Day

Today is my wifes birthday,
I should feel joy for her, but I feel betrayed.

Cause I cannot celebrate another year of life for her that has come and gone,
instead I will be by myself, more reason for suffering to spawn.

I cannot hold her and tell her that I love her,
I cannot give her gifts to make her feel important.
Instead I wait for phone calls dealing with bills and raves and rants.

It's supposed to be a joyous occasion, 
but I feel like I'm mourning the dead, my mind and heart feeling under invasion.

Wondering if I will be a tribute to such events,
this is one fine day indeed, but for me is torment.


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Brotherly Betrayal

I took my foot and kicked her out the door.
My wife decided not to be faithful anymore.
It really shocked and upset me when she took a lover.
I was enraged when I learned that it was my brother.
I treated her really good, just like a queen.
What those two did to me was obscene.
I wasn't just betrayed by one loved one, I was betrayed by two.
Packing her bags and kicking her out was something I had to do.
Now she and my brother are expecting a child.
When I think of it, I see red and nearly go wild.
My nephew will be a symbol of how I was betrayed.
I can't stand to live near them, I'm going to move away.
What those two did to me was a horrible sin.
When I leave, I never want to see them again.

(THIS IS A FICTIONAL POEM.)


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The Soldier's Little Girl

The soldier watched his baby girl
as he whispered in her ear,
he pointed at her heart and said
"I will always be right here."
A single tear ran down her cheek and she mumbled,
"Daddy please don't go."
He put her down and told her
"Never forget I will always love you so,"
He kissed his wife and quietly walked out
as his wife held their daughter
in order for her not to shout.

For families who have member fighting over seas,
remember they are fighting for you freedom so try to sleep at ease.
Remember that they love you and keep hopeful from their strength,
they will also think of you and go the extra length.


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Is Your Life Running On EMPTY

Is your life running 
on empty fumes?
Are the adversities and stress
 of life being consumed?

Any zeal and passion for God
 may be in the past…
You wonder; “How long is life
 going to last???”

Perhaps you feel like your
 anchor’s “been lost at sea…”
And ask; “Lord…  
Why is this happening to me?”

Things in life often
 catch us “unaware…”
You may ask; “does anyone
 out there really care?”

There is someone who
 can help you along!
In Jesus’ arms of mercy
 is where you belong!

He walked this earth and 
calmed the sea of Galilee…
He’ll calm the storms
 of life for you and me!

Won’t you give him a chance... 
 To calm your fears?
And allow his love to
 wipe away any tears?

He’ll bring peace to a
 hopeless situation…
All you need to do… 
 Is to give him an invitation…

The choice is yours…  
It’s your decision to make!
Won’t you do it now?  Before it’s too late???

By Jim Pemberton  
01/18/10







Details | I do not know? | |

Living A Lie

I am not sad, but at the same time I am not happy

You've made my life a living hell

Brought nothing but despair and confusion

Now you're gone and I am left with nothing,

Nothing but an empty heart

Which has never experienced true love

I always thought it was normal

Jelousy, obsession and clinginess

Still, I remained by your side

Thinking all guys had these traits

I never had another lover

Even though I was accused many times

You were my first and probably my last

Because of you I don't know what to do

And now, I will never experience

True love, True happiness

Just true anguish, true deception


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My darling

My darling,
I have loved you more than life, dear
Losing you was my biggest fear
My fear has arrived, too soon I'd say
If I could have it, I'd have it another way

My darling,
Please don't leave me here all alone
Without you, love I would not have known
Where will I go when your gone, dear
When you're gone I hope you'll stay near

My darling,
How selfish of me to ask you to stay
Because of me, you suffer pain each day
Leave if you wish, darling, we'll be together again
Enjoy it, dear, do not worry when


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A Widow's Melancholy

A mood as dark as a winters midnight
Haltingly adrift, she is rudderless 
Bound to a coastal route
As she nears the quay, she cries out
But emits no sound
As strong currents
Guide her soul
To deeper depths
And perils 
Where light has no importance
A salient angle away and afar
She collapses in upon herself, like the Black Hole
Black does not describe its murkiness
She is lost to humanity
 
 


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The House That Jack Never Built

Plans as solid at the foundations of the house
They’d live in the caravan, sure it was only temporary
A house so big, that all of their family might fit.
That family never did get bigger, only smaller
A quietus ill-deserved

He started in earnest, cement mixed, bricks placed
But then she got sick and sicker still
No more bricks were ever stacked and no family born
He lives in the caravan alone now
That was the house that Jack never built


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loneliness

Lonesomeness

At the news agent’s a woman in her forties spoke to me, said she had 
lived in Algarve for two years, from Romania, used to be a doctor, but 
here she could only get a job as a cleaning lady. I dislike being spoken 
too by people I don’t know; perhaps I look of avuncular and reliable.
I commiserated with her plight and began walking away, but I can’t out 
walk anyone she followed said she was looking for a friend in this cold, 
cruel world. I occurred to me since she was lonely had become a little
unhinged. Men tend to drink too much when alone, women fantasize 
about true romance, for both it is often a one way road to oblivion. 
I was waiting for my wife she had been to the bank, when she showed 
up the other woman shrunk off, but my wife wanted to know who that 
woman was, like I should know. No one should be so alone they accost 
strangers in the street it is sad and scary for those spoken too. Loneliness 
is a curse and can make people mad.


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I Wake Up

     very early now

in this cold bed I've made,

my new partner - the remote

has such a fitting name,

the old coffee's cold
                   and I've made too much food,

All the songs have closer meaning
                  and cause my brooding mood,

But I'm changing my routine
                 and meeting new people slow
(a brand new start
                 to this lifelong show)

I wake up
     each morning

     to biting burning tears
cause everything reminds me
of things that once were near...

for now she is escaping

from my cracked and broken
                                                    heart,

but I'll never quit looking
                  for the missing part...


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The Vow

They said, with this ring I thee wed
Their vows complete, all words were said
The groom standing tall, in his tux by her side
Her face so beautiful, a radiant bride
Two faces filled with hope, new beginning new life
When the pasture pronounced them, husband and wife

Today a  new family, a mommy a daddy
Was everything, they wanted to be
A creation a family, a new birth new life
She a  mother, a loving devoted wife
He a  proud father, as he kissed her lips
But like everything, even hearts start to slip

The years passed on by, as they always do
He packed his things, left her alone and blue
Her mind took a turn, as she fell apart
Her once happy life, now a broken new start
Her heart filled with pain, only sad memories
As he left her alone, to raise their five kids

One by one, each child got older and left
Her bills kept mounting, leaving her in debt
But still on her finger, was her golden wedding band
Cracked skin rough fingers, there upon her hand
Today her family stands, on this grass  beside her stone
For she took one more vow, as she cried...she died alone


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Before Puberty toward Maturity

I was abused before puberty,
But I did my share of abusing.
And I was bruised before puberty,
But have spent some time bruising.
I was used as an adolescent,
Yet threw some out with the using.
I was infused as a adolescent,
But my words are said "too infusing".
I was confused as a new student;
Now I am labeled as "confusing".
I was a diffused college graduate,
But now I am thought to be diffusing.
I was accused as a married man;
Yet, I, admit I was so accusing.
I was refused as a separate man,
But I have not gone on refusing.


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How to end Love with Shock and Awe

So hot are the clear pale blue skies, 
I wipe my brow looking at my estranged love.
Is the wind blowing 
or is it just her words
that are being propelled at me ?

There is lust in my eyes, 
staring at her
with her full lips 
begging to be kissed,
and remembering how the sweat mingled 
between our bodies 
when we made love.

Her words have been bouncing off me
it is just the lust daze.
She thinks I'm taking a deep breath or two,
but I'm taking in her words,
it makes me strike a curious pose
and I get an odd look.

Listening to the latest scheme,
I inject my standard objections,
making her pause with the evil eye.
Her voice leaps to me, 
like a cat
and her smile seems to caress me
with lovely romantic visions.

Reality imposes its grip on me,
making me wince for a moment,
it is as if I've been sickened.
Looking into her eyes 
I catch a glimpse of hell within
and silently pray to my Savior.

I'm about to give in,
giving her my best smile of course,
when my lips part issuing profanities,
that I have not used in a long time.
My words are shells fired 
from the cannon that I've become,
it shocks her into nothingness,
her footsteps fade away
and I'm in awe at what I've finally done.



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The Daughter

Today I lived my life with ghosts
Both living and dead
Your face, their face
Slipped through my fingers and fell to the floor
Hundreds of pictures of you and them
Hundreds of moments and moments and moments
Too numerous and caught in that web of time
Dangled on a cobweb so thin, so fine
It could break but does not snap
And lasts and lasts
And holds and holds
All there, suspended in that instant
Before falling to the floor,
Or in the box of memories. To be kept.

So where do you reside, in the bin or the box?
Where do you live for future’s worth?
Will you be cut adrift or salvaged in those stepping stones to the past.

And yet, she still picked up those photos of you 
Pained and dulled
Still confused and stabbed by what has happened over time.
She saw your face and paused. Reflected.
She then gently collected up those images of you and me
And saved them in the box
One day for all to see in times to come.
She decided not to put you in the bin.
Unlike me.

She rescued her childhood.
Put down a marker in the sand
And said stop to the sea
To the waves and waves
That break over time and pain
Saved you from the blankless pile of Venice and Florence
And Christmas and beaches and Barbies and laughter
And with a simple dignity 
She gave you back some worth.




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Aborted baby

When she told him that she was pregnant, it made his heart melt.
But then she had an abortion and didn't even ask how he felt.
Yes, it was her body but it was her husband's baby too.
He couldn't forgive her because of what she decided to do.

When she had the abortion, she didn't consider his feelings.
He hasn't fully recovered even after twelve years of healing.
If she didn't want to have children, she shouldn't have gotten married.
She destroyed a part of him when she ended the life that she once carried.

He figured that since she didn't want his baby that she didn't want him either.
That's what made him decide to pack his bags and leave her.
He was so devastated that he has vowed never to get married again.
Before wives have abortions, they should consider that it can really hurt their men.


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SO DEAR TO MY HEART

SO DEAR TO MY HEART


So dear to my heart are my loved ones at home
As I toss and I turn in my bunk all alone.
Everyday I see death, hate, and corruption
Combat is God’s proof of man’s malfunction

For family, comrades, and myself I pray
To my love with this poem I wish to convey.
I knew I loved you though never how much
Till by war, I’m forced beyond your touch.

Where violence thrives, there’s the stench of death
With the taste of fear on every breath.
Who shall prevail, who shall die
As the sadistic kill beneath God’s sky.

Baghdad has become man’s highway to hell
Where the hearts of darkness are alive and well,
I count each day till it’s time to come home 
And be with my love and never alone.

Love You
Your Marine 


By Tom Zart


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Paradox

Seeking therapy for my self created problem,
Antidepressants to help deal with the pain of all that's ever happened,
Now no place to call home.

I think and think of what I've done wrong,
But did I really do anything wrong to get me where I am today?
Is being honest a crime so that I would be cast out of house and lives?
All the while suffering and despair cloud my mind,
I can't make a rational decision to save my life.

The one that I love does not love me anymore,
I do not know if I've really changed that much, 
the perception of what I say and do has.
My future is uncertain and it's hard to think about anything else.

I desire to be loved and in my struggle return that love for which I hope one 
person will have for me.
How long till I can feel this?

Hoping any decision I make will not be scrutinized due to opinion.
Wishing that all this pain and suffering of being separated from my wife and child 
will cease.
This paradox unfortunately is reality.
Created not just by myself but also by the one I love.

Event horizon to a singularity sucking all life and thoughts from what I am.
What can I do to end this turmoil?
So much life and beauty in this world.
So much death and destruction in this world.

Craving to be content and happy at the same time seems to be so far fetched at 
this point in my life.
Yet I must do what I can to remain optimistic.
Oh sun, oh moon, oh stars and mother earth I beg you to take me back to the 
origin of all creation.
That I might become a drop of dew or a cloud in the sky or a snowflake. 
Recycled, recirculated but never feeling dead inside. At least being these I never 
cease to exist for all know who I am.

But now it seems, all that I've shared my life with,  want to forget me.
And being forgotten is better than not existing at all.


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Dead end of a marriage

You know both of us never wanted this,
our lives now are anything but bliss.

I can't wake up in the morning feeling joy,
instead I feel like I'm a broken toy,

Never to be repaired and set in a box,
and not knowing how to undo the locks.

Locks that you've set up in your heart,
and yet I wonder if they were there from the start.

Pleaded my case, mind and heart to you my dear wife,
feeling that I have no choices in my life.

If you want everything to end then just say it,
and I will end my devotion although hard to admit.

I still imagine waking up to you by my side,
you know you can't sit back and say I didn't try.

We're both at the dead end of a marriage.

I've tried everything I know to try and win back your trust and love,
seems like the future of our lives is determined by the almighty up above.


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Those Songs

Turn on the radio
and you'll hear them playing

Those songs about leaving
and others about staying

Most of them are about problems
like cheating and drinking

Others are about divorces
so what were they thinking

Some are about getting the kids
and some are about the house

Those songs about love
no longer by your spouse

What about who gets the dog
and what about the car

Those songs are the ones
played on a piano and a guitar.


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PRICELESS

Get my hair done-70$
Get my nails done-25$
Brand new baby phat outfit (your favorite color)- 215$
New pair of shoes-80$
I spent all day cooking and the house is clean. I've made your favorite meal.
The fact that you didn't noticed and my heart is broken-PRICELESS


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In Name Only


She said I do.
She did not want to,
But now it is too late.
A ceremony,
A ring, a signed contract
And witnesses congregate.

She has his name;
He has not her heart.
They sealed it with a kiss.
He's hateful and mean.
She's a beautiful queen
Who suffered long with this.

She found someone
That loves her heart,
And she also loves him.
But they have children,
And both are married.
This comes between them.

She's in shackles;
He's in chains,
They struggle to be free.
Their bond so strong
Can't be explained away
Like a tossing sea.

They've built a house
Where they wait to live
No matter how long it takes.
She has his heart
But not his name;
For this moment he aches.









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Do You Feel Me...

Teetering… 

on that prolific edge of mediocrity 

Groping… 

like some street-ravaged whore in the darkness 

Clinging… 

to that abstract formality of “us” 

Drowning… 

as you lie, complacent, in your nothingness


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The Visit

Today as I visit ~ this place of grass and stone
I trace your name ~ as I stand here alone
In the air I smell the presence ~ of a cold winter rain
Each visit I make ~ causes heartbreaking pain
Dark clouds move in ~ and the sky turns black
I kneel down and cry ~ as the rain pounds my back

I see white roses ~ placed beside a white stone
The pureness of innocence ~ their aroma alone
A streak of lightning ~ flashes across the dark sky
Lighting images on this field ~ as my eyes start to cry
I stare at the marble ~ feeling lost by myself
As an image of you ~ passes by with a smile

A cool breeze blows in ~ as snowflakes start to fall
Goosebumps take their toll ~ as the cool air turns raw
I look to the sky ~ with tears in my eyes
I call out your name ~ in whispering cries
As an emotion of delight ~ sends me what I crave
I return my sight ~ on the stone and the grave

As my visit ends ~ I kneel and kiss the stone
Then I wade through the snow ~ to my car all alone
Looking back I see ~ two footprints below
There side by side ~ There in the snow
As I enter the highway ~ I feel your presence dissapear
Whispering I love you ~ as I shed a tear


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Have Things In LIfe Taken The Wrong Turn


Maybe things in your life have 
taken "the wrong turn," 
Life is passing you by—-
you're not concerned...

Things that were important... 
are important no more, 
Life seems so dull and dry-rather a bore.

Your love for your friends 
and family is gone, 
Almost everything you do...
it's all wrong!!!

Your life seems to be like a ship 
lost out on the sea, 
You cry, "Lord-what is happening to me???"

Jesus loves you so much...
he really does understand, 
Waiting there to pick you up-
with a special loving hand.

He'll replace your loneliness 
witha satisfying love, 
Putting your life back together
 gently, like a gentle dove...

His perfect love will give you 
a peace of mind, 
So call on him now---
NOW is the time! 


By Jim Pemberton


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The Five People You Meet In Heaven

Heaven isn’t full of angels and clouds
There are five people that will meet you
They could’ve been close, or among the crowds
They’ll help you construct your life, like glue


The first person died because of you
And the mistake you had committed
Just because of the ball you threw
The man’s life was prematurely pitted

The second person was your superior
The searing flames remain
He made your leg inferior
To keep you from your bane

The third person you never knew of
But she knew of your father
She saw him yelling out of love
He didn’t care if he bothered

The fourth person was the love of your life
In halls and ballrooms of white she rests
Teenagers took the spirit from this woman, your wife
People from all over the world make up the guests

The fifth person was a little girl
Her life was full and pure
Her life was ended in a flaming swirl
Not saving her forced you from the way you were

The hands you took hold of
We’re not the hands you thought
Another girl would bring you up above
For a good life you did wrought


-Inspired by the book "The Five People You Meet In Heaven"-


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Emotions Untold

How do you explain these emotions untold?
Wanting that one person to have and to hold.
These feelings within that i want to release.
Overcoming my body like an infectious disease.
Spreading through with every beat  of my heart.
I can't stand for us to be this far apart.
These feelings growing stronger as the time passes by.
I have to get my mind off of you before I break down and cry.
It's all building up like pressure inside a can.
If I break down how can i even call myself a man?
Trapped inside this cell like a beast inside a cage.
Only the penitentiary can turn love in to rage.
I'm trying to hold back and keep this heart from growing cold.
Then again how do you explain emotions untold??


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Marie II-- Troubled Tides

Wake up with a dream on your eyes left with the hearts that bid you Goodbye Shadow Dreamer-- Poisoned Lover Venom seeps through the Way The Way you held on to Me There's a Thorn in your Heart I left it there so the dreams and your pain shall unfold Inside you and all of your Lithium Lovers You're my lover, My Dear The Greatest Enemy I had to Contend pretending with "I Love You" but I know you Hate me till Hell's End Is it in Vain? You Sleep with the hate How can you dodge the fate? You let the Dagger dance on your Tongue You are my beloved Enemy Marie


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Compeyson

We were perfect together
Inseparable
Night and day
Two blackened petals of the amaranth
Wizened, rotted, but eternal

A white angel, a waxwork skeleton
Gliding up the road
Towards the wedding knell
And by the altar 
Before the eyes of God
A letter, with your scrawled apology across it.

Rushing to the phone now
Dialling your number with spinster’s fingers
I cry
Don’t leave me

“The number you are calling no longer exists”

Then I remember
You faded long ago
The dress has yellowed
The clocks have stopped
The feast has rotted

I’m talking to myself.


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Courtney

Let me introduce you to my wife
a woman I have known most of my life
21 years and counting
and to her I am constantly returning
for in the 21 yrs I have known her
all others are just a blur
her beautiful face
and her subtle grace
hair of spun gold
and a bust line so bold
for this is a story that needs to be told
We wed in 97
oh wedded bliss I was in heaven
but I was use to hell
and thats how I treated her not very well
in 2000 she left me she did
but in 04 
I was back in the door
twice we are married
and the toll she has tarried
for once again I am a fool
drowing her in misery an emotional pool
but to her I say
from here on out til my last day
for what you are owed I will repay
just kep you another day


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You Say

You say you’re right
I say you’re wrong
You say I’m weak
I say I’m strong

You say I’m difficult
I say I’m fair
You say I’m irritable
I say you’re unaware

You say I’m manic
I say you’re blind
You say I’m angry
I say I’m fine

You say I’m psycho
I say I don’t care
You say I’m needy
I say my share

You say I’m immature
I say you’re the child
You say I’m a witch
I say I’m mild

You say I’m losing it
I say it’s already gone
You said you’d help me
I say you were wrong
ss


Details | I do not know? | |

You should show your wife more respect

(This poem is about my cousin)

When you have sex, it's something you always tell.
You make love to your wife and then tell everyone all of the sexual details.
I think what you're doing is bad.
You're showing no respect for your wife and it makes me mad.
I'm going to tell you something that you'd better believe.
If your wife finds out what you're doing, she might leave.


Details | Elegy | |

Do you really care?

Do you really care that I am hurting?
Emotions that you try to hide by averting.

I wish I could believe that you care,
if I say anything regarding us, you take it as a dare.

Taking your verbal bashings as if they were serene,
something I unintentionally did to you, acting mean.

We used to ask each other with humor "who's a thug"?
acting it out as if we were taking drugs.

I never understood until it was too late,
the clairvoyant damage I was causing, spawning such hate.

Guess you can't love me like a wife should, 
standing alone feeling misunderstood.

I'm sure you feel as I do to some degree,
scared to communicate your feelings, living like a banshee.

Love and understanding is all I ever thought I gave you,
endured yet challenged by a different point of view.





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Tears In The Rain

They lived a happy life
though they were rarely toghether
For her,he was her husband
But to the nation,he was a soldier.

She thought she was prepared for this.
But of course she was wrong,
Her husband was now a martyr
And though brave she was,
She couldn't stop her tears.

Its been so long now
She doesn't want to live anymore.
She wants to end the pain,
Coz she's hiding her sorrows
Like tears in the rain.

Yet she know she must live on.
She needs to keep herself
from going insane,
and hide her sorrows
Like tears in the rain.

B'coz in her arms she hold
a child with so much innocence,
that she won't let her life
just go in vain.
She'll conceal the wounds
Like tears in the rain.

She looks in to those blue little eyes
and feels like living again,
B'coz in his eyes she sees
the rainbow after the rain.


Details | Ballad | |

Where Do We Go From Here?

We don't mesh
Since we've been one flesh
We're never on good terms for long
As a matter of fact
One misheard word or act
Makes us conclude everything's wrong

And we don't click
Like the stones and sticks
That we've gathered from far and near
They've all been used
Now that we're battered and bruised
Where do we go from here...?

Why do we settle down
To settle for less or save face
By not waiting for true happiness?
Why do we put on a show
And act funny with each other,
Yet neither of us is laughing yet?

And why do we get confident
Seeing our strength and beauty,
Finally, from the words of a stranger?
And why do we stay together
While pushing ourselves apart?
Without mutual love we're in danger.

(Excerpts from the song Where Do We Go From Here?)


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LONG-GONE

Two years have gone by
Since you left my life,
Thinking I'd die without you,
But somehow I made it through.
It was a tough and long road
That I had to tackle on my own.
Such a hard and drawn out task,
Trying to erase memories of our past.

A seven year relationship was now gone,
Wondering where it all went wrong.
When at one time it was so good,
Turning back the clock if I could.
You were my whole world, I truly believed,
Never dreaming that you'd ever leave.

I really thought we had it all,
Until you caused me to fall.
Pushing me so hard to the ground,
Landing in the dirt, my face down.
And as I got up, wiped myself clean,
I couldn't believe you were so mean.

Is true love even real,
Or something you pretended to feel?
Is marriage still a solemn vow,
Or something you did just for now?
I guess I was blind and not too smart,
You fooled me while stealing my heart.
All I had to give i willingly gave,
Then gave more becoming your slave.

And now after all is said and done,
I actually feel like I've won.
Knowing now it was all for the best,
Feeling happy, content and all the rest.

(8/1998)


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I Miss You, Too

You want to embrace me,
I can feel your great urge;
You want to kiss me, I know that, too.

You want to feel the warm of my lips;
You want to touch my hair, while I huddle against you;
Your yearning heart, still, beats for me.

To you, I can easily give
All of these, with great compassion and love; 
Right now, any time, for I miss you, too.

But, how can I trust you, again?
You know the reason… 
Why I left you?



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Without a smile


You said you loved me,
without a smile
You said we would always be,
without a smile
now look and see
without a smile
what you have gone and done to me

Without a smile 
You destroyed my heart
without a smile 
you slowly pulled us apart
Without a smile 
You killed my heart.

With a smile on your face
happy you finally left our place
saying I was wrong in every case
Saying I was nothing but a discrace
all with a fuked up smile on your face~


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Decree Absolute, Lies

Like any broken vase, the marriage ceased
The door to trust was open, until why,
Signing its disclosure was released
A smudge before the absolute was dry.

Statistics are an ornament for us,
To paint a pretty picture of divorce  
'Unreasonable behaviour', then shall thus
Excuse her from unfaithfulness of course.

Complaining with a plastic attitude
She keys a draft, some more uncertain things:
Scratch the surface what was misconstrued.
Twisted lies have cut this puppet's strings.


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What Hasnt Been Named

The blood was so red,
Mixed within the water,
I tried not to look,
At what my eyes where ashamed of.
Yet it held my gaze,
Like a lover lost,
In his angels soul.

I held you tightly,
Embracing our pain,
I could feel you shake,
The fear in your tears,
Overpowering what was suppose to be,
As you called out my name,
I pulled the plug,
Wishing for forgiveness.

The tornado came,
As I watched what was once my dream,
Spiral and spin,
Its sound of thunder,
How can this be such a perfect storm,
That has yet to be named.

I ran more water,
Hot became cold,
In library time,
I recalled what was told,
Just hours before I had accepted,
Everything was suppose to be ok,
It wasn’t going to rain,
Not today not ever,
I can still see the stain.

I silently asked why,
You so loudly called out my name,
Over and over again and again,
Both asking questions,
How can we fix this pain,
Of flooding confusion…
The answers never came.

I tried not to get sick,
I tried to be strong,
As I hid your eyes,
My chest wet with your dreams,
Things started to spin,
All I could do was pray,
Please give me back,
What hasn’t been named.


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Thief

Stolen youth, lost in the past
Hiding my face in my pillow,
Don't want him to hear.
Everything is soaking wet,
Laying very still, 
Careful not to wake him.
My heart is full of sorrow,
Could this be all my life has to offer?
My body trembles and
My soul aches.
What could have been?
All time has withered away,
like a petal from a discarded bouquet.
I'm never alone yet I feel lonely.
Who is there to really care for me?
To hold me when I'm sad,
To tell me everything will be all right.
He isn't the one for me,
The one I married so long ago.
He's not as soft as she,
Nor is he as sweet.
Like a thief in the night,
Robbed of my youth and innocence.


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1 Mississippi 2 Missisippi 3

1 Mississippi 2 Missisippi 3

Bubbles are made for blowing 
hold your breath or hold your nose
One more kiss mommy
and I will be at home base

1 Mississippi 2 Mississippi 3

Do as I say, God told Noah 
to build an ark 5 x 3 
in Houston, the Bayou 
bring Luke, John, Mary and Paul

1 Mississippi 2 Mississippi 3 

Close your eyes and remember Sunday
When Mommy was smiling 
and Daddy was hugging
us so tight, that I thought I would break

Sorry for the bath with out cookies
Sorry for the watery grave
1 Mississippi 2 Mississippi 3
the devil made me do it
he told me so…


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you say

you say you love your wife,
tell me why are you here with me,
you say you love her dearly,
tell me why you screwing around with me,
thats not what love is,
double dippin and keep it quiet
you dont love her,cus if you did,
you wouldnt be here with me

you remind me of my ex man
he gave me his effection,
but it wasnt just me,
he told me he love me,
and he wont never reject me

you say....
you say....
you say....
you say....

you say we all human
you say we all make mistakes
sleepin around more than once
thats not a mistake


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The Hardest Question

Why?

Thats the hardest question.

When is easier. It was after.

After the baby, cacooned safely

inside of me. After she died. 

 

Why?

Again its too hard.

Who is easier. It was him.

He who promised to love me,

for better and for worse.

 

Why? 

That question's too difficult

Where is easier. In our room.

Our room with the cot in the 

corner. It was for her.

 

Why? 

Is still don't know.

What is easier. It was a knife.

A knife which slit, cut and stabbed

at my throat and stomach.


Why?

I can't remember! 

How is easier. With a casual

indifference. The anger had 

dissapeared.

 

Why?

Because of me. Because I killed

our baby girl. Not born, never born.

The pills had taken her. 

Like he took me.


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Dying love

Half empty, unable to be complete, accompanied
by ghostly faces of life with out my heart.

My queen away from me lost in this unforgiving world ,
sucked into a black hole of my mental universe 
not to be seen but missed.

Love is lost but forever entombed into my heart protected by traps for the most 
cunning thieve can not 
steal this love.

Hurts so bad it renders me sick stricken with the will to live
weak as is my pulse for my heart begins to
stop.

The tears flow freely doing the talking for my 
motionless lips, limbs that are
so numb dying slowly for the survival
of my being is depleted with the love
of my life gone for my 
embracing.


Details | Lyric | |

Half Marriages

So many marriages filled with sadness and sorrow.
Love is not of importance any longer.
Loneliness seems to be a common feeling.
Marriages are meant to be a whole,
They should be filled with love and joy.
What about the vows we spoke?
We agreed for better or worse,
For richer or poorer,
In sickness and in health,
And we agreed in the presence of God.
It was told, “That the two shall be as one”.
Years have now passed by,
And the vows have no meaning.
Marriages are only half
When the one returns to two.
Why can’t you love me wholly?
Why can’t you commit to me wholly?
You may give a hug or a peck,
You might say  “I Love You” every now and then.
But your bed is not my bed,
Your life is not shared with my life.
The television serves as your companion.
My words are silent to your listening.
You have buried my heart under the doormat.
Why can’t you love me wholly and completely?
I am lost and alone in a half marriage,
Sadness fills my aching heart,
Silent tears fill my eyes,
Half of me is now gone.
I know we are not the same any more,
We have changes in many ways,
But why should our love?
Is not love supposed to grow with time?
I want to be loved as me.
I want this pain to end, to smile again.
Why can’t we be as one again?


Details | Ballade | |

Under His Reign

You left, just up and disappeared
You move away when I tried to get near
You wore the dark glasses all the while
You never once flashed me a smile
I wondered what color were your eyes
Was all you told me a bunch of lies
Then yesterday I read the paper and got the news
You were arrested for the murder of your husband, your eyes were black and blue
Maybe you tried to tell me, but I didn't listen
You never smiled from the teeth you were missing
I read where you said he will never beat me again, no more pain
I am no longer under his reign
I go to visit you as my tears stream down
You tell me for what I did I now reign myself with a thorny crown
I went through one broke arm, he promised he would never hurt me again
The following week a concussion, he promised it would end
He said as he punched me in the nose, that I must be trained
I am his wife and under his reign
Last night there was a revolt, no more, I am not his property to claim
Where he is going, he will not reign


Details | I do not know? | |

Are you LIstening?

Can I tell you the worst thing I've ever
felt?
It's completely alone in a marriage once
full of love, friendship and hope.
Can I tell you the harshest noise I've ever
heard?
It's the sound of silence when I'm
listening for the harmony of
connectedness. Sweet music we once made
together and loved.
Can I tell you the saddest thing I've ever
seen?
It's the home that we built, where our kids
still play. Knowing it's not where I belong.
Can I tell you the most powerful thing I 
will ever say? It is "Enough." And... 
Can I tell you the hardest thing I 
will ever do? I will leave.
Because God knows I've tried and I'm strong.
And I am ready to feel better.


Details | Lyric | |

Bitter

Drag me into your game, baby
Just say yes, not maybe
If you love it as much as me
We can live in it together and be free

Can't feel the cold anymore
Must be nirvana, numb to the core
Baby, don't worry, we'll always be
Together forever, just you and me

Few years passed and the nirvanas gone
Now we feel the aches and the harsh cold dawn
Babe, what have we become
Went from livin' high to livin' dumb

This 'heaven' is hell, girl
Our life has become a whirl
The aches just wanna stay
I just want 'em to go away

Never tasted hell before
Sour and bitter to the core
Shadowed by this snow
Where will we stay
Where will we go


Details | I do not know? | |

She posed for Playboy

(This is a fictional poem)

Last week I became very annoyed.
I was devastated to see my wife in the new issue of Playboy.
My cousin showed me her pictures after he got the magazine in the mail.
It was horrible and it hurts like hell.

I was shocked to see my wife's bare breasts.
Now I'm angry and depressed.
As men all over the country look at her, they drool.
This is definitely not cool.

My brother said that I'm being a stuffed shirt.
But if it was his wife, I know he'd also be hurt.
This incident has caused me to come unglued.
I'm the only man who should see my wife nude.


Details | Quatrain | |

War Bride

She waits for him with baited breath.
May a messenger not bring any news.
She hopes for the best, can’t wait to see.
He’s her life, she has everything to lose.

May a messenger not bring any news
from the front lines, telling of his demise.
She knows in her heart, he shall return.
A telegram would surely tell lies.

She hopes for the best, can’t wait to see
her gentleman walk through her door.
Now, she waits for him to return one day,
the soldier, the man she adores

He’s her life, she has everything to lose.
She’d be done, if he was not to return.
But, down deep inside, she knows he’s alive
For his presence, she’ll wait, and yet yearn.


Details | Didactic | |

Swallowed

He swallowed
When he saw she had bitten the forbidden fruit.
He felt hollowed
When he heard her say that its food would indeed suit.
He soon followed
When he thought of living forever without her.
He swallowed
And gazed on Paradise as the Breeze began to stir.

He swallowed
When he saw her naked, the beasts roaring within.
He then borrowed
Green fig leaves but they were clothed in sheepskins.
He then sorrowed
With their excuses receiving curses for their vice.
He swallowed
As they were driven with flaming swords from Paradise.



Details | Bio | |

The Young Man

Centuries, maybe eons ago
A baby was born into the kingdom's ego
Hands rose to greet the young one with a cheer
As his smile quickened to appear
Welcoming him with warm tenders from all
Greeting him with blessed souls

Now a days the baby's a young man
With daughter and sons holding hands 
Singing so gracefully and cheerfully
With the wind of freedom looking so peacefully
His wife is so beautiful and wise
For she is his light through twisted cries
She's always there beside him
She's his lantern awaiting to vanish the dim

But, a few days ago, the young man got injured
Resulting in a deep wound deep inside
Fright is that he might die
Whilst his kids and wife fight by his side
Yet, his wound bleeds so severely 
With minutes he might pass away
Leaving his kids and wife stranded 
On a lonely night's moonlight

The cure is being mixed 
With hands so blessed
With hope as a main recipe used 
To heal the pain of the wound

I know the young man so well and feel so sad for the loss of his strength
Yet, I shan't mention his name, 
He's from the same country I come from;
From the same white, red, and green
But please do regain your strength...


Details | I do not know? | |

Moving On

As much as I try to forget you
The more you cloud my thoughts
You proven our love was all a lie
My soul was ripped out  and left to die
I try to look forward to the future
A smile on my face is nothing but torture
A nightmarish hell replays every night
Proving there is no hope of light
I tell myself I will not let you win
But, thoughts of death is now my sin
They say I better without you around
Then, why can't I pick myself up off the ground

I use to love life and enjoyed it's party
Now, confined by mixed up emotions
Nothing but crying, questions, regret, and hatred
Trying to forgive you, seeing nothing but red
You never explained to me what I did wrong
You said it was nothing, the same old song
Then, how can you be so cruel to me
I'm not to question, just, this is how it will be
The kids and I have to start all over again
Doing it all and still trying to remain sane
Like nothing ever happened, not good or bad
You want to forget the family we had
How do you forget in a short time, like you did
When I have a hard time just trying to keep it hid


Details | I do not know? | |

I'm responsible for my son's death

(This is a fictional poem)

I feel nothing but grief and pain every single day.
My wife told me not to buy our son that motorcycle but I bought it anyway.
While he was driving it, he got hit by a car and now he's dead.
How can I go on when I know that I'll do nothing but suffer during the years 
ahead?
My son was killed when he was only ten.
When he died, I lost my best friend.
I'm in so much pain that I punch the walls and I scream as loud as I can.
My wife hates me so much that she left me for another man.
My son and I always had a special bond.
But life no longer has meaning now that he's gone.


Details | Narrative | |

"Still Confounded"

Understanding that a period of anger and rage need to be had, 
to allow her to vent her emotions and then regain her sense of self and
reality.
But is a prolonged period needed?
Is such a permitted tenure being abused?

Not wanting to give in I remain in a sense of unbudging callousness.
Only such a state will empower me agains the abuse of her warranted
anger.
Why can we no longer be amorists?  
Why have we been conformed to have no dialogue between us?

No normality of such a relationship has existed for some time.
Not since this relationship has been cultivated, have we experienced
the socially acceptable union...or even that had among our peers and
elders.
Partly due to my lack of experiecne and damaged conscious, many of our
problems can be charged to me.

But why, when something better is desired, is there no coupled effort? 

Nothing sought after on her part?  
Perplexed, I seek to dig within myself to alter my ways.
But still she does not appreciate any change.
She continues to have her magnifying glass over my head, only examining
my shortcomings.
Perturbed...Confounded I remain.


Details | Rhyme | |

Separation

Oh Susana! Don't you cry for Me!!!
I appreciate yr heartfelt honesty and truth
I can only write in poetic form 
for it helps keep me in my youth,

I understand how much you cared for me
and I still feel the same,
I made my own decisions as a grown man
and will never ever complain,

about what we were
or what we became,
I will always love you 
no matter what yr last name

and Now, I sit here in N. Truro 
listening to Jason Mraz
after dropping little Loo at school
and taking out the trash,

I just want to reassure you 
that I am not bitter, sour, or mad
I have learned to understand the past
and move on with life even if sad

So Susana, my Susana of the South
please don't cry on my account
just live yr life as it was meant to be
don't allow the past bother you, or let pressures mount,

but always know that I 
will be there for you, my wife
know that I will always care for you deeply
for the rest of our natural life...


Details | Free verse | |

Laundromat Blues

I'm here do'in the wash,
I wonder where are you,
Been hearin' whispered tales,
Of how you've been untrue

Sure don't want to believe that,
Would ruin my life for sure,
If I should be so unlucky,
To find you're but a whore,

I have to wonder how
and why lately,
I get these kind of chores
Especially when I came upon
that hidden book in one of your drawers,
All about the current matrimonial laws,

If I could only launder,    
Away the fear deep in my heart,
And rinse away the aching throb
Tearing me apart,

I guess I'd feel much better,
For then I wouldn't care,
And you would write me a letter,
About how you wouldn't dare,
To break my heart, split up this, our home,
For a life in turmoil, love a'searching,
Forever on the roam.


Details | Senryu | |

Better Than Ten Sons

Hannah was favored,
But Peninnah was fertile-
Both, wives of one man.

Peninnah provoked
Hannah til she cried to God
For an open womb.

Elkanah trembled
With Hannah, the wife he loved
After they worshiped.

God was exalted.
Peninnah's voice was silenced
By Hannah's promise.


Details | Senryu | |

Two Sisters, One man

Two sisters, one man-
Well-tricked for his trickery,
Jacob gained two wives.

Two sisters, one man-
One weak-eyed and unwanted;
One was beautiful.

Two sisters, one man-
In love he wept for Rachel,
For sons loved Leah.

Two sisters, one man-
Mandrakes, sex bartered in hopes
Both would feel equal.



Details | Couplet | |

Time Fighting

I used to think that you were my soul mate. 
I thought that  I had known that since our first date.
I used to feel special and loved, just like a queen.
We never fought , never had a word or thought that was mean.
I took for granted you thought I could do no wrong.
Daydreaming to the radio whenever I hear a romantic song.
Fantasizing that it was you, I just read about in that sultry book.
Knowing that backwards was never a directional option for us to look.
Crying as you slipped onto my finger the most beautiful ring,
Anxiously waiting to see what tomorrow may bring.
Brought us to a life-altering decision and a night full of fun.
Nine months later, it brought us our amazing son.
As time has gone by, it has brought us some difficult times,
Some sweet as chocolate, others, sour like limes.
Bonding us together as a family, sticking together like glue,
Pulling our selves above the nasty, drowning slew.
As the times have gone by, I have started think,
"How long has it been since either has given a wink?"
Realizing that we are no longer the people we used to be,
My eyes are focusing on the real you that I am beginning to see.
Feeling obligated to do as you say, for I don't want be lonely or scared.
Resisting to the ideal of fighting back, as to the temptation of being dared.
You are not the only one that has changed for better or worse, over the years.
For, I have become more aware, gracefully wiping away my unheard tears.
I am not going to pretend anymore, I know that I am not perfect to you
Nor, you are to me. I've tried to change us both till my face has turned blue.
Exhausted from the challenges that we make each other face.
I still want to know that you love me and that I will always have a place.
However, if things can't change and everything is still my fault,
Then, don't even bother, without my combination, you will never open my vault.
Doors will be closing, as new ones open, hopefully not courtrooms, for instance.
If that is what is best for everyone involved, we can still love you, from a distance!
Keep in mind that two very special people think you roped and hung the moon.
Make a whole-hearted decision about the cards on the table, don't fold too soon.
I know we both are fighters, lets hang in there for our family and decide no to quit.
Different perspective, lets fight together not each other, kind of ironic, I admit.


Details | Free verse | |

End Of Love

 End Of Love 


When time has come 

and eye have to say goodbye forever

the time we had will matter not

the context and the content

all that will ever matter is what ewe did to me

the stuff eye have inside

the love thing that helps me beat mye heart

the purple wings inside

oh ewe mye heart

the way ewe tried to kiss it to make it better

The end of love.




Details | Rhyme | |

Silent Killer

She has died a thousand deaths
And yet lives for a hope;
He has hung a thousand lives
And still holds to the rope.


Details | I do not know? | |

All We Could Find

In the sand, in a foreign land,
They found a hand, when the smoke had cleared.
In the sand,
They boxed up the hand, shipped it home to her.
The words on the box, written there in red.
..........All we could find.

Alone tonight, she turned out the light,
She held his photograph, remembering the things she feared.
Alone tonight,
Every dream she had, every memory sad.
When she read those words, written there in red,
..........All we could find.

In the sand, in a foreign land,
His wedding band, was blown from his hand.
Her wedding band,
She placed in the box, wrapped in her tears.
As she traced those words, written there in red,
..........All we could find.

Her tears ran, into her lonely hand,
She lost her man, there in the photograph.
Her tears ran,
Her love was gone, her heart was torn.
As she remembered those words, written there in red,
..........All we could find.


Details | Bio | |

The Woman Of My Dreams

My last wife.....
(Hey, you heard me right,
I'd had a few practice runs....)
She was the woman,
of my dreams....

But sometimes things
are not what one seems,
It didn't take long,
For the torture to start,
Try to please her, as I may,
She always clawed at the soul of my heart

Yes, she proved to be unfaithful,
My life, she so shattered,
Didn't make any difference,
how hard I tried,
To her, it just never mattered

Yes, she was the woman of my dreams,
But sometimes, no matter how hard cares,
The woman of their dreams,...
Turns out those dreams....
turn out to be but nightmares


Details | Lyric | |

Dope Baby

She took it all, all that I had
But don’t think of her as bad
I love her anyway
Good or bad, either way

I ask, "We havin' that baby?"
She whispers, "Maybe."
Passin' out on my floor
My babys tryna get out that door

She shot it up every day at 2
I thought it was a lie but I found it was true
Dragging me into her game was her delight
There wasn’t any real reason to fight

Screamin’ in the middle of the night
Cold sweat, furious eyes, what a sight
Tellin’ her, "It’ll be ok, babe, dontcha worry,
the doc’ will be here in a hurry."

Showin’ up in black
I say, "Get my baby on track."
"Seems like shes withdrawin’, son,
it’ll be a long time ’till this battles won."

My baby lost the battle
No chance of hearin’ that rattle
She took herself, and my baby too
Thinkin’ to myself, "She coulda started new."


Details | Free verse | |

Goodnight Kiss

That meaningless kiss
goodnight,
That means so much,
you might,
Realize it only when
it's gone,
And you have to carry on,

Whilst you rifle through
the archive of your life,
And try to make sense
of you and wife,
With but slightly warm
love through memory,
You may just start
to see,

The days of hand holding
are gone,
Of laughter, and of song,
And that meaningless
kiss goodnight,
Would suddenly feel so right

I lay in bed each night,
Holding my memories,
oh, so tight,
And sob quietly in
my fright,
Hoping some day it
will all be right.





Details | Free verse | |

Don't Say a Word, Just Leave

Here I am, 
Again,
In awkward solitude,
Slaving myself thinking
…and thinking;
But, 
The mind won’t say a thing;
See 
What you’ve done, 
How could you make them cry?
I used to see 
Their smile,
But right now is anger and sadness
They feel;
You’ve caused the pain;
Don’t say a word, just leave!
Go
Go… to the man that’ll give you wealth;
That’s what you wanted;
If not,
You won’t be hurting us, when 
I was in Saudi, 
Working day and night
Just
For us, all. 



Details | Rhyme | |

Broken Vows

Empty hearts
Broken vows
Shattered crystal on the floor
No more love
You wanted out
You never let me give you more
I tried my best
Good, for a time
After your change, you didn’t want me
I supported you
And your wants
In the end, you were set free
There was a time
You wanted back
I remembered what you put me through
I wanted love
Not with a price
What was this man supposed to do?
You got out
You lived your dream
With many others, you shared your bed
After your diet
After your change
You weren’t the girl that I once wed


Details | Verse | |

Living in fear


You’ve left your mark on me today,
One I feel won’t go away.

You have placed a scar so deep inside,
So many nights I’ve laid awake and cried.

I vowed my love you stole my life,
Leaving me confused and full of strife.

The rainbows have left our wedded bliss,
Dark clouds follow your demanding kiss.

No one sees the pain I feel,
Caused by you and fear is real.

What have I done to make you hate,
The one simply known to be your mate.

My love I give freely and without recourse,
But you think you need to use brute force.

The wedding vows you made to me, 
I took serious and cherished don’t you see.

If I’ve done you wrong then please forgive,
This is no way for a person to live.

I have equal rights in this day and age,
And they don’t include your wrath or rage.


Details | Narrative | |

Wounded soul

The news of tomorrow came today yet somehow i got lost along the way .
So i checked again and found my soul bleeding profainly from a gapeing hole.
Knowing  that this would be the end i tried to patch the hole by saveing a friend.
She opened the wound even deeper i never should have tried to keep her.
Resigned to my fate knowing it was much to late i let her go .
The bleeding stoped but the hole is still there i doubt that she even cares.


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

A Poignant Encounter

It was about a year or so
After my first wife, Ann,
had left me for another man,
It was about 10 PM, I was
upstairs in my "living room"
and stangely she showed up,
In a taxi, unannounced,
I assure you,
Well, I went down,
and let her in, not
too pleased, cause you see,
She had put me through 
a year of hurt,
very devastating to me

Well we went upstairs,
I put some music on,
I would have made 
a genius D.J. , my
sense of music so profound

She took her shoes off,
laid on the floor,
right next to me,
Started to tell me
she had made a mistake
with me she wanted to be...

Now there's no way
I'd ever trust this girl,
She broke my heart,
And now she'd unfurl,
This tale of her deep woe,

I listened very skeptical,
Would not say what she
longed to hear,
I had no longer trust,
in her words,
Her promises I did fear,

Well, after two hours
of trying,
To melt my still stung heart,
She realized it was time,
Yes, time for her to depart

She called a cab,
and soon enough, 
he was waiting at the door,
I walked her out into the
hallway, what to do,
I was so unsure,

Something seized my heart,
I knew this time was cast,
The words or deeds, said now,
Would be the ones that last,

Almost without thinking,
In the darkened hallway now,
I drew her close to me,
Don't know why or how,
I held her and tenderly
gave her, a slow passionate kiss,
I didn't know why I did this,
For sure, she could not too,
It was so counter to the evening,
But one thing I will tell you,
She kissed me back with passion,
The emotion I surely did not miss,
For but that one bittersweet moment,
The world had changed somehow,
She once again became
the woman,
I'd loved so well and now,
It may have meant hello,
It may have meant goodbye,
But so pure and unthought emotion,
That moment it did not lie.

She slipped away,
into the night....
That was to be our last kiss,
To this day, I wonder,
What it was , I might forever miss.

this is a true story


Details | Free verse | |

She'll Wait

Within her hands
she carried
a single red rose,
a gift from someone
so long ago.
The petals
have faded in color
but with some care
and craftsmanship
were able to stay
on the stem
and remain for view.
It had lost its scent,
but yet she breathed in,
smiling as often
as she possibly could.
It had been a year
since she received
his letter,
but yet she walks
carrying his rose;
her dream.
She can feel
her soldier
will one day return,
until then
this rose
is her reminder
of their love.


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Burnt In Hurt

Words too harsh to hear
Still burning in my ear
What wound you sought to avenge,
Successful beyond belief,
I only hope you've found your relief
The sting of tears
Will last for years,
My step now starts to falter,
Drunken laughter in the corner,
Evaporates my self-respect
I do not have a dishwasher-safe heart
My life seems to have taken a small
step in the wrong direction
I fear that laughter will haunt my life
From one who was once my wife.





















Details | Bio | |

Something Too Many Of Us Have Suffered

It's like an epidemic,
There's no immunity,
Could happen to you,
Sure happened to me...

You find, out of the blue,
Of your marriage, old or new,
You are the only one married,
Your spouse's devotion seems 
to have varied,
The lump in your throat,
when you found out,
Didn't leave a doubt,
And the throbbing lump
in your heart,
Made your wish from life,
to depart...
It's as if it were but yesterday,
The pain etched in so, that way...
I ran out of tears,
Ran out of hope,
Ran out of beers,
'Fridge full of fears...
How many years,
Have I wasted while
her leers,
Were directed at other men,
From her spider's den??...

And worse than that,
you know,
Her abuse of you did show,
In front of your kids,
Cutting you down before their eyes,
With all her tricks and filthy lies

Emasculated, ground to dust,
Like a nail encased in rust,
No self-respect did she leave
For me to ever achieve

Well I left and that was why,
I left all that I had, to cry
She kept the house,
the cars, the money,
But believe me, my honey...
She kept my children too
And I was forever blue...

The most poignant moment
of my life....
As I packed to leave my wife,
My youngest son, then seven
Crying and begging to heaven
For me not to go...
My heart, already shattered,
now bled,
There was no out for me,
At least that I could see,
I took my few things and left,
But my heart was the real sad theft,
My crying child I still hear implore,
For me, the hurt, to endure,
Don't go off in the night...
My child was filled with fright.

I am so sad to relate this, it is true. TB


Details | Bio | |

It May Be Saturday

Maybe it is Saturday,
But it's Sunday in my heart,
Remembering things we did,
Before circumstances made us part....

I used to get up early,
Cook you a huge breakfast,
Bacon, eggs, home fries,
All a woman could want,
Turned out it wasn't me you did want,
And I shriveled 
Forever to suffer this haunt...

My teeth too crooked?
My hair too thin?
My manhood too small?
And after where you've been?

A one time junkie,
Loose as an old man's tooth,
Time to face,
What is the truth...

You took the house,
The cars, the money...
But worst of all,
What you took, my honey,
Is my time with my sons,
Time forever lost,
A thing that I know,
That can't be replaced,
At any cost,

Odd, for you were the unfaithful one,
I returned to my parents,
What have you done?
In time to see my Mom die within a month,,
I wonder if God wanted me to spend that time
With her, and called me home,
With the following years,
To keep my Dad alive,
I needed him as much,
As a bee a hive

Many years we spent,
Together as pals
Mutual support so great,
I never had to wait,
For a hand with any task,
In fact,
I never had to ask.....

But those days are gone,
As he is too,
And far too often,
I find myself feeling blue,

Things got rough,
I nearly died,
No heat, no gas, no phone,
No electricity in my home
No food, I often cried....

I learned alot from a winter
Without heat,
Sold my rights to my wife's house,
For her pretty neat...
One hundred dollars,
 and a case of Bud,
An eight hundred thousand dollar
Triple home was hers,
And I went back to bed
Cold and saddened,
Wished I was dead.

But that's life,
We carry on...
The Soup buddies now,
Keep me from being gone...

I've told only part of my tale,
Perhaps some day the rest.....
All I can say in closing,
My Soup pals are the best....


Details | Rhyme | |

Scumbag

He used to bring her roses
Now he doesn't even call
He never really said goodbye
She's so baffled by it all

They seemed so well suited
She could feel her dreams come true
But now he won't talk to her
She doesn't know what to do

I hate to be the one to tell her
This simple fact of life
He has a fling from time to time
But always goes back to his wife

He's
A
24K
Scumbag!!!!!!


Details | I do not know? | |

You Are Missed

Echoes from your pillow...keeps me awake
As I imagine hearing you breathing...my heart aches
So I cling to your pillow...on the bed
Then I reach out...but feel only air on the bed spread
I call out in the darkness...with a frown
But all that returns...is a hollow sound

I jumped to my feet...and rushed to the stairway
I felt your presence...in the hallway
In the family room...your perfume lingered by your chair
As I glanced at your impression...with a stair
I shivered...from the coldness in our home
As I looked at your photograph...by the phone

I walked into the kitchen...where we ate
I imagined you standing there...holding a plate
I smelled the aroma...of a roast in the oven
As my mouth watered...for your taste and some lovin'
Then the shadows returned...from the night lite
As I realized...I was alone here tonight

I returned to our bed...and crawled in on your side
I imagined your smiling face...staring into my eyes
So I wraped my arms around your pillow...where I lay
Then I seen headlights...coming up the driveway
As I opened the door I grabbed you...we kissed
Darling when your're at work.....you are missed


Details | Free verse | |

Sad But Not Bad

Sad But Not Bad 
I am always sad now 
when I think of ewe, 
please do not fail 
to understand me, 
it is not bad to feel this way! 
I do not mean that ewe have made me sad, 
losing ewe would kill me, 
worse now than I was; 
when life was pain and eating food and walking in the sun! 
I never hid away from life from fights or pain! 
Now I feel like hiding just to greet the day, 
in hopes of being with ewe on a future day! 
Time is not an enemy of pain! 
It helps me to let time slip bye for days: 
for days I let the time go bye 
I live to go away 
To hide to hide to hide------ 
----to hide ----to abide in hopeful bliss 
 -----just hopeful for one kiss 
to hide from being sad 
but its not bad 
I love Ewe 


Details | Lyric | |

Never Fall in Love Again

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:

i told myself i wont fall in love again
i tried to ignore the way he touch 
my skin
trying to keep my heart locked
and not letting him win
then my heart took a dramatic spin
i eventually let him in
and adored me with love(with love)
but i said

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:

the way he touch me
my heart start to sing
so nice and gentle
its like it was s dream
i forgot how love feels
he showed me how love feels
but once again "i said......

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:

instrumental break

ashes to ashes
dust to dust
i vowed to stay by your side
even when things are rough
you started to change
drinking booze and playing games
i cant take no more 
it's you i blame


you waste my love 
you waste my time
i packed my stuff
and said my last goodbye.......

once again
i will never fall in love again
(i told myself)
once again
i will never fall in love again
repeat2x:


fade out:
bye bye....
goodbyyyyye.....
bye bye....
goodbyyyyye.....


Details | Lyric | |

played with fire

i realize it was really hard for me to see,
how could i've been so blind,
you was slowly killin me,
you played with fire,
end up hurting me,
theres no mercy,
especially coming from me

and if i do forgive
i will never forget
its something you have to live with
boy you will regret
u had your fun while it last,
now youre my past
youre a cheater and a liar,
you made urself look like an as(s)

let me tell you,im no bodies fool
but love made me blind 
i was a fool for you
now it seems, the tables have turned
so horribly you looking
i see you've learned

you loved that one
she didnt love you back
now you knocking on my door
sayin "plz take me back"

ah, you realize
you was a fool
messin up somethin
with one night or two
three,four,
stop knocking at my door,
when in fact,
step on back,
theres no comin back

i thought you was the one
the one i can trust
but i was wrong
you was a bust

you couldve been the one
my lover, my king
building an empire
just you and me

now its too bad,
it ended so sad,
didnt realize what you had,
you so gone, im glad

im better without you
unstressful
im free
you played with fire
end up hurting me
im the one and only
u had a good thing
now you cant have me

fadeout:
n-e-more....


Details | Ballad | |

MOTHER ANNA

What wouldn't I have done
for Mother Anna when daddy left home,
and abandoned his children...
like they were orphans forgotten and alone?

On that winter's evening
snowflakes danced cheerfully,
and the Christmas Tree shone brilliantly
as an angel fell and broke his wing;
silence descended to denote a great loss...
stirred by a commotion
that couldn't be stustained!
A wife lost her companion;
kids, an uncaring father who could never lead
or set an example for them to admire the most...

Underneath the bare oak tree,
by the brightness of the street lamps...
three young girls sobbed and wept sadly;
an airplane fled across the vast sky
illuminated by the splendid stars: 
they waved their trembling hands
to someone they would never see again,
was theirs a memorable cry?

What would have I done in the eyes of God,
if not help you carry half of the load:
denouncing with anger and grief
his selfishness and injustice?
Mother Anna,that pain was immensely mutual,
drawing us together to defy his action
which was thougthless and cruel;
Mother Anna,your wisdom indicated retribution...


Details | Lyric | |

neverending story

this song it like a neverending story
we both played a part
but you pretending
even though you a million miles away
you got me thinkin,
you still love me
not knowing that youre lyin

"neverending story"

you said it was me
but it was you
who was cheatin
changin up, everyday,
like diffrent seasons
you dissappear into the night
sleepin with diffrent creatures
with diffrent features

"this a neverending story"
break it down now!

breakdown part:
neverending story...
yeah yeah yeah
"break it down"
oooh
"this a neverending story"
oooh, oooh..yeah

neverending story
boy, you will never change
all your lies, you feed me
sayin youve been, real to me
let me tell you one thang
reggin, you say that losely
love- so overated
its beginning to lose its meaning

neverending story
(story,story)
neverending story...

"oh yes it is"

this song is like a neverending story
we both played a part
but you pretending
even though you a million miles away
your bestfriend keeps warning me
you pretending you love me
this a neverending story


Details | I do not know? | |

It tore my heart out

(This is a fictional poem)

My life is empty just like the gas tank in this van.
Over the years life has made me a bitter man.
My van won't go anywhere without gas and my life won't go anywhere either.
I caught my girlfriend in bed with another man so I decided to leave her.

Five years ago I was married and things looked pretty dim.
My exwife fell for another man and ran off with him.
My girlfriend and my exwife were both seduced by other men.
It tore my heart out and I'll never fall in love again.

Now I live in this van because I have nowhere else to go.
My girlfriend begged me to forgive her but I said no.
My life is going nowhere but at least there's noone to cheat on me.
I have to live in my van but at least I'm free.