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At parties where embraces and kisses run wild, and alcohol flows like rivers; I see a girl unlike the one I am use to. I rub my eyes is disbelief, I pinch myself, I am not dreaming, it is my dream girl, my friend high up on Cloud 9, smiling and dizzy, my heart turns pale and faint, my head aches, I cannot breath. What is this... a hug and kiss from another's embrace and dirty lips; I cannot believe, I cannot feel myself, I am frozen in time, and cannot move- I am lost; I feel betrayal. I feel sick, don't come near me( I am dead inside-) with eyes flamed red, and dazed points of view, puffed eyes and a blank look, fighting mixed emotions of cool and sorrow; oh my eyes burn to see such disgust, awful feelings I am feeling. Sick! I am feeling Sick! Betrayal, sick I am SICK! don't come near, stay there, and kiss those dirty lips you've enjoyed kissing for so long, my heart is broken, and I feel betrayed. I am done, I am done, done that is what I am... it is fine... I am fine, it... is... done... .2.27.2014.