With Hope and Fear

By Laura Janaury 3, 2016 I'm still dreaming of the future And how it won't work without her I'm still feeling the past inside me Seeing the girl that I'll never ever be Homeless, drifting through black hues With love drugs that turn my lips blue Picking pieces off of the hard, dead floor Haven't felt warm since the cold pacific shore Sometimes my mind drifts away Sometimes I just don't know what to say I wish I could show you what I see The beauty I find in the depths of disease Wisdom for days, but scars for years Praying for faith to replace the tears Maybe its not to late to find another way When life is not so hard, and I run out of things to say