Who Do I Blame?

Love the way you live Explanation for why I hurt with so much pain I cant explain Who do I blame Do I blame a mother that couldn't wake up some days Who only seen her own pain Do I blame a father who walked out as if shamed Do I blame a God with a bigger picture that I yet could not conceive What do I believe Do I blame myself Did I do something wrong in a past life that is the cause for all this wrong Is this the normal life of a poor little biracial girl They say the eyes are the window to a person's soul So what do they read when the windows are covered by rain How can you see the world how its meant to be seen When all you've ever seen was pain How can I explain How can I tell you that everything is fine When I myself believe it to be other wise Dont look to me for inspiration When I have no hope in the human race I see war Not only in the world But from within myself How can I tell you to smile When I myself have ran out How can I tell you not to cry When I cry myself to sleep at night How can I say things will get better When I've seen worse How can I convince you that life is worth living When everyone around me is dying How can I tell you don't hate a rapist When I myself have been raped How can I tell you to forgive a murderer When I've had a love murdered How can I tell you to not judge a drug addict When I myself have contributed to my own peoples happit How can I honestly say to move on with you're life When for years I've held on for dear life How can I stand in front of God And explain why I've lived the way I've lived How can I not judge him When he's set back and watched my suffering Who do I blame Me or Him?