What If

what if i wasnt going to live until tomoorow would you notice that i am gone? what if i died suddenly in a car accident would your grievence period be long? what if i were to have your child would you stay for me or for the baby? what if i showed up at your door with my heart in my hands would you love me or just think i was crazy? what if i just walked away and left this world in the blink of an eye? would someone say a kind word or will you all just lie? what if i try so hard and never make it past the spot that i am in? what if all my good deeds never can out weigh all of my sin? what if i never stop loving you and always be there? how long would it take you to notice that i really do care? what if i move on and fall in love with anther? would you then tell me your feelings or would you hide like a stone cold brother? what if i always loose and never have a chance to overcome? what if i never love again and you were truely the one? what if you never relize that you hurt me so? what if i never get the chance to ever let you know? what if i dont remember the way things used to be? will i ever really know the true meaning of me? what if i keep pushing you away only to want you more? what if the game i play suddenly makes me a whore? waht if i cant undo all that i ahve done? what if i never stop blaming it all on the chosen one?