What I Am and Who Am I

My lavish world of happiness With digging of hole to fall down myself To flow into the drainage Far afar to go and go and go Damaged all and ruined But know why? No idea Perhaps missing and losing heart Big breakage and gaping Heart-loss moment and loss of trust My heart was clean so far I was thinking with boldness The time was driven to me to the way of endanger. It was the battle of life The bad days of life Truthfulness of life Years gathered thoughts and knowledge dampening And harshness of valueless spilling fate Concurrent offerings brought better experiences Useless practices and securing hate occurred Growing in the mind mostly Painful moments padlocked. I got diagnosed with growing sorrows God! You are omniscient and almighty I know you have created to me and landed Overlapping with this stressful life bringing monotonous moment I am dying in this survival Plenty of thoughts dying Bizarre of my life dying along with My fun dying, my pleasure dying My activeness and aggressiveness all dying O God! Then say to me who I am? I am your creativity or throwing trash of this Earth?