I haven't spoken to you since.... the incident.
When you took my great grandma home.
People tell me to trust you again and go back to normal.
To me. back to normal was when I had my ge ge by my side everyday
Despite the distance.
I come to you wanting to be held again.
I've been through many things in the past year.
You took my brother and my aunt home.
Who else is left?
You snatched many people from my life and put new people in
It's sad to say, they couldn't fill the void in my heart.
You gave me my first love
And then took it away.
I guess you had something better in mind.
Then other relationships bloomed then disappeared.
You brought an angel into my life and he is the most beautiful man I met.
My other angels crowd around me building me up
Instead of tearing me down
My relationship with my mother was restored
And so were many others.
You gave me more tests and I handled a few of them well after the 15th chance you've given me to fix them
I think I'm finding my way
Even at a slow pace.
My wall is still up between us at times.
I'm still afraid to trust you.
People at church say, " The only person who you can ever turn to is the Lord."
I'm fixing my mistakes
and finding my ways
and trying to stay in contact with you.
I can't let this slip away because this is what I grew up with.
Loving you, praising you, and enjoying my Sundays as if they were new.
So, don't fret because here I come.
Welcome me back with open arms