lingering on answers,
questioning doubts after nearly being broken.
wasted time and efforts waiting,
nearly lost myself in brooding.
caught in trying to capture time,
hiding in the lies of the different aspects of life.
toying with the meanings that no one understands!
close to edge of confusion;
lost in a thrance of a chance,
waiting, stuck in web of deception.
forced to go beyond conscience of consciousness,
to go out of the way of my perception.
left to break the rules,
still trying to stay cool.
not wanting to realize when to stop,
the true humility of patience that is never enough.