Virgin In the Flesh,Harlot In the Spirit

Convicted as a teen Never exposed to the elicit jeopardies of Babylon Spirit filled Tongue uttering Never defiled Consecrated Little did I know that my biggest enemy was right inside this body? The very same body I had kept holy and sacrificed unto God –was the very means that could liquidate me I never realized it at first Slowly it crawled in when I least expected Like a thief ready to steal, kill and destroy It was a choice not rape I choose to became what I was I had become extremely perverted and defiled internally because of my interaction I remember the one hug, It was close, fiery and filled with such passion A hug in the day became a stimulant dream in the night I had lost my virginity before I comprehended it Fully clothed I choose to give it away It had become an emotional battlefield I had fallen in love with him as an idea I was married to him in my mind It began to be a routine Dreams turned into action We never physically lay together But my hands became him and explored my body Virgin in the physical, harlot in the Spirit I was enslaved by my sins Tempted and dragged away by my own evil desires that had enticed me My desires interlocked with my womb and conceived an embryo His name was sin I gave birth to him and named him Death Until, I heard the lamentations of David in Psalms 51 Have mercy on me oh Lord, according to your unfailing love; According to your great compassion Blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation And grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me!