Unsettled

My eyes grow heavy, Yet I can't sleep, My soul feels weighted, But I can't weep I dream on Without the hope I need I need to talk Yet my tongue's not freed I clutch my pillow, I cling to the thought Of how we met, And why we fought It all seems so silly now, And I wonder why We could let this stand And let love die Pure "saving face" Holds me back, Especially since Your verbal attack Being a person, No easy thing, You've left your nest And the protection of Your mother's wing Should i call? Or hold out? Be the weak one? Or stand and shout? Oh, Lord, please guide me Let me know The way to be... I roll over in bed again, And turn on the light, But light doesn't help. I have no sight... Indecision means inaction I start to groan, To lose your love, A fear greatly grown Turn off the light, Again to bed In many ways, Wishing I was dead.