Under Water, Under Smoke

I feel pressure pushing into me. It is coming from all sides. I struggle to breathe and begin to gasp. It's everything from my past coming to make a second round. The feelings of regret coming around. So deep. So deep I've almost drowned. But the waters started to recede with the help of a little weed. Now there's fire in my lungs where healthy ones once hung. Now blackened and cold and only leaves it's once strong hold.